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Yes?

Are you driving or biking?

Driving.

I'm at, uh, Østerport now.

-Østerport? -Yeah.

I thought you were in Nyhavn.

Are you wondering when I'll be home?

No, I'm calling for some emotional support.

I'm on my own all the fucking time, and I can't handle these meltdowns

when I'm taking care of two kids at once, you know?

-I get it. It's just that... -I just need some support.

You hear them going crazy in the background.

How are you doing? Great to see you!

My kids are home with my wife.

That's why I'm calling. I just need some help.

-That doesn't feel like the real reason. -No, that's why.

It feels like you need to release some frustration,

and you're taking it out on me,

and I just have to sit here and take it.

No.

No. That's not it.

I'm just asking, when are you going to be home?

Because I need some help.

I'm constantly overwhelmed, and there's just no one else I can call

for some support.

One second, okay?

See you soon.

-See you soon, babe. -Bye-bye.

Bye.

Wow, that is crazy!

This is insane, man!

Fuck, this is sick!

This is amazing.

This is absolutely incredible.

Royal Arena, make some noise!

I've got this feeling inside that wants to hurry. You know?

There's something just around the corner.

And I know that thing is going to be… even bigger and crazier than before.

Hi, my name is Christopher.

There's been this sense of urgency that has motivated me for so many years.

I would not have made it this far without that fire.

What's your biggest dream, musically?

Sell a million albums and play Madison Square Garden.

I mean, the sky's the limit.

450 million streams. In Korea.

I've always just said yes to everything.

Any opportunity I got to share my music.

He can sing, he can compose music,

and tonight, he makes his debut as an actor.

The musician, Christopher, is at the center of a new Danish film,

called A Beautiful Life.

Getting me on stage in front of all those fucking people, then leave me hanging…

I thought, "This is a huge opportunity."

"This is exactly what I want to do."

And I knew that I had to compose the soundtrack for the movie.

♪ It feels like my life is over ♪

♪ Feels like my future's crushed ♪

The film you're starring in is being released worldwide.

-Almost every country. Tomorrow. -How does it feel?

Yeah, I mean, I'm incredibly excited to hear how audiences react to the film.

MUSICIAN'S DEBUT AS ACTOR

NO. 1 WORLDWIDE ON NETFLIX

COPENHAGEN, 2023

I don't know how to summarize it. It's just madness.

It's just fucking madness.

Uh, I think shortly we need to revise a lot of our plans.

We should probably consider a "A Beautiful Life" tour.

-Touring worldwide? -Yeah.

Fuck!

Fuck!

This is the opportunity of a lifetime.

Yeah, man. All doors are open.

This is so surreal.

Just heard it was in the top 10 in the US and like,

I'm celebrating with a milk bottle.

It's getting huge numbers on all platforms.

Instagram, Spotify, Netflix.

It's crazy.

Look at that face.

That's how I felt when I woke up.

What?

What does it really mean, you know?

What does this level of success entail?

It feels life-changing.

♪ …not here to laugh ♪

♪ I just cry ♪

♪ Every time that I think about That moment we agreed on ♪

♪ Goodbye ♪

♪ It's not easy to say To somebody like you ♪

Come on, let's hear another one of mine. Let's go. I'm playing the hits.

♪ 25, stood the test of time ♪

♪ I was still free-falling ♪

♪ Through tornado warnings You told me, "Baby, hold on tight" ♪

♪ You got my best years, honey ♪

-This is great! -They sound good, right?

Five minutes before we leave, you start playing all your new songs.

-Yeah, you wanna hear the whole album? -Sure.

It's just so nice that we'll be spending four straight days together.

Yeah.

Nulle, what part of Bornholm are you the most excited about?

Having a Krølle-Bølle ice cream, right?

I mean, I'm looking forward to that.

-Beautiful voice. -Oh! Great work.

Beautiful.

-We're good to go. -Before you start the car,

remember to put the dirty diapers in the trash

so we can throw them out.

-Right. -They're right outside the door.

-Which trash can do they go in? -Obviously not with the recyclables, baby.

Yeah, of course. Use your head, Christopher.

-Yeah, duh. -Don't recycle it.

I got great news to share with you.

How exciting!

I'm being sarcastic.

-Wait, seriously? -Yeah.

Is it about Portugal?

Yeah. A Korean show made an offer.

And I've got some big promo stuff.

But we already booked the tickets, right?

-Like yesterday. -Yeah.

Oh my God!

So that means no summer vacation.

We could find another time to go.

We'll just stay here, yeah?

We didn't need a vacation.

-Ow. Isabelle, that hurt! -Yeah, I don't like it either, Isabelle.

We'll find another time.

Yeah, I bet.

We'll go in January.

That's sweet, honey.

But that's too far away.

We need to spend some quality time together as a family.

-We only booked the hotel for five days. -Yeah. I know.

-It's not like we're gone for weeks. -No.

But of course you should take it.

Sounds like a great opportunity.

You can't turn it down.

I bought flex tickets, so you can cancel them.

-Well, that's good. -Yeah.

Or reschedule. We could go in September.

-And then we could... -That's Royal Arena.

-And you're gone October and November? -Yeah.

Come here, sweetie.

-Is all our stuff in the car? -No. Two more bags to go.

Okay. We'll grab them on our way out.

Sound good?

Yeah, step right on that rock. You're okay. Feel good?

Chilly, yeah?

-Watch this. -Yeah.

Wow! So impressive. Six.

It's so nice to get a couple of days like this.

And then we can leave a week early.

Ugh, Christopher.

So when are we gonna jump in the Opal Lake, and play mini golf,

and play board games, and make pancakes?

All the things I'm looking forward to?

Everything you've been looking forward to.

Playing solitaire and mini golf.

I love mini golf.

Come on. We've got 20, 30 years to do all that.

To soak up the Bornholm beaches.

Whereas I've been given this opportunity

that's happening right now.

Yeah. But you say yes to everything.

And we're leaving Bornholm early,

and we're… cancelling the trip to Portugal

because your job is the priority right now, right?

I'm just not that into vacations, to be honest.

I mean, it's great for four days, and then I get anxious.

-Thinking about working out or jet-skiing… -But you also have a family.

There are seven ducklings right there, and two swans. So cute.

Seven kids. We gotta hurry up, honey.

We only have two.

-You want seven? -No, but I would like more.

Just three. Maybe four.

Yeah?

If you had to pick an ideal number of kids, what would it be?

Two.

-You can't be serious. -Yeah. Two is enough for me.

-Then you're done having kids. -Yeah.

-You ready for another one? -No.

But in four months…

Wow.

Hi! Gimme a kiss.

Are you serious?

No. I just feel like a child is something you're never going to regret having.

I mean…

It's not about regret. Of course, we wouldn't regret it, not a chance.

But I mean, with everything going on right now, and our hands full already…

I'm so tired.

What if it stayed this busy? Would you still want to have a third kid?

But life will be like this for a while, right?

I mean, just because you want to keep chasing your dreams,

I still want us to...

-Keep chasing my dream. -There's something in your hair.

"Because you have some fantasy about being a musician,

I don't get to add more kids to the family."

-No, put that down. -"This second!"

But having more kids is your dream too.

I have lots of dreams, but having a third kid right now is not one of them.

But what if, from now on, you decided,

"For the next ten years, I'm just gonna focus on being a father"?

"They're here now. I should focus on them while they're close to me."

Those first ten years?

You'll never get them back. They'll be gone.

Damn good question. I don't know the answer.

What if you said no to those shows and did something more low-key?

Then you could come home every day,

and see the kids more, and be home on the weekends.

-What would happen? Would you... -Sure.

I could slow down a bit. But then, other things would stress me out, y'know?

And I'd always think, "What if?"

What if I hadn't pressed pause? What if I'd kept going? Then what?

I mean, the biggest reason that I'm doing all of this is that…

I want to maximize my potential, you know?

What for?

-I don't know. But I feel like... -Is that the meaning of life?

To do as much as you can? To maximize one's potential?

-It's meaningful to me. -Yeah.

Knowing that I've got the potential to go all the way.

And I don't think a lot of people have that.

Let's see how far this goes.

♪ So much for planning ahead ♪

♪ We're goin' to be alright ♪

♪ There won't be a right time ♪

♪ I said, "I am way too young" ♪

♪ I'm just a kid, I can't raise one ♪

♪ It feels like my life is over Feels like my future's crushed ♪

♪ And I'm gonna miss the times when It was just the two of us ♪

I wrote this song, called "A Beautiful Life,"

at a time when Cille and I were talking about having kids.

♪ It sure feels like dying ♪

♪ To my beautiful life ♪

-One, two, three! -No!

I've always known that I wanted to be a dad,

but I was always thinking, "Right now is not the best time."

Hi!

At the time, I was truly just living the beautiful life… for me.

I thought it couldn't get any better than this, you know?

Milano, Milano.

One of the things I feared the most was

losing that feeling of just being in love.

And when the family goes from two…

To three, it's a pretty big change.

Yabba-dabba-doo!

-No, wait! Don't push me in! -♪ Feels like my life is over ♪

♪ Feels like my future's crushed ♪

♪ And I'm gonna miss the times when It was just the two of us ♪

♪ I don't ever want to let go Of everything that I love ♪

♪ It sure feels like dying ♪

-♪ Saying goodbye… ♪ -We're starting here, nice and easy.

-♪ To my beautiful life ♪ -On the golden tower.

Oh my God!

Holy shit! Whoo...

You know, she…

Once said that there would never be a perfect time in our lives,

and she was right.

Aww, so sweet.

I was leaving behind a beautiful life,

but at the same time, I knew that once the baby had arrived…

She would change everything.

It would change our dynamic, and the feeling of balance in our family,

and add new depth to… everything.

I mean, our lives would have a whole new meaning.

Hi, sweetheart. Hi!

There's a human being

completely dependent on you,

and you are responsible for everything that little human needs to learn.

It's such a big responsibility.

And now, I couldn't imagine a life without these kids.

Hi.

To realize that this is the most beautiful life,

that's such a precious gift.

♪ Feels like my life is over Feels like my future's crushed ♪

♪ And I'm gonna miss the times when ♪

♪ It was just the two of us ♪

♪ I don't ever want to let go Of everything that I love ♪

♪ It sure feels like dying… ♪

The point of the song was

I'm looking forward to what's next.

I'm looking forward to a chapter that's more important than the music.

Hi…

Bella is born. Then the movie reaches number one.

Which means a world tour.

It was a paradox. It tore me away from the very thing I'd been striving for.

So I'm even busier.

Which is honestly just totally fucked up.

♪ It sure feels like dying ♪

♪ Saying goodbye ♪

♪ To my beautiful life ♪

Here we go!

THE DAY BEFORE THE WORLD TOUR

No! Not that! Don't do that. Okay, now I'm gonna tickle you.

Nulle, you know that Dad has to go back to work again?

Will you miss Daddy when he's on tour?

-No. -What? You won't miss me?

-No. -Why not?

I miss Dad.

Will you miss me a little?

Yeah? I'll miss you so much.

Why couldn't all of this success happen eight years ago?

It would have been great if it happened three years ago.

Yeah, but it's always been a dream of yours

to get to play your music abroad.

So for me, it's like, "Of course! That'd be great." I mean...

You've always been like…

"It probably won't happen."

Stop it.

It's just not my idea of happiness.

I get that there's… in this industry, there's a certain sense of urgency.

And you feel you need to strike while the iron's hot.

But it's more than...

But that conflicts with a family-focused life.

It becomes the most important thing in life.

And the rest takes a back seat.

No.

No.

-It's just... -You heard that. The most important.

Oh my gosh. She's cute.

Before I had kids, before I met Cille, I had a dream,

and now I have the chance to make that dream real.

The desire to be on stage,

front and center… I've just always had it.

♪ Are you coming to the party tonight? ♪

♪ I hope you're coming… ♪

I was certain that was my future. It was like, this is what I want to do.

I've always had that kind of discipline, to always stay busy, keep grinding.

You can't get complacent, or nothing will happen.

I feel the need to create. So I'm always working.

Ohh-oh!

Can you say, "Let's party"?

Ohh-oh!

I feel like I want it more than the average person.

I will do whatever it takes.

I mean, the main reason that I have written all these songs,

and gone on world tours,

the reason why I've spent so much time playing music is because of this desire,

this drive.

The future is wide open.

I just know that, right now, in this moment, I can't hit the brakes.

I'm gonna floor it.

And then I guess we'll just have to wait and see

how it all ends.

-One more kiss, please? -Hello, sweetie.

Mwah!

When the girls get older and start to understand

that I was leaving to go on tour,

I'll be able to defend it by saying

that I had to go chase a dream, you know.

I'm hoping they find something they're so passionate about that they think,

"No matter what, I have to do this."

Hello, guys. It's Christopher here, and we are in the airport.

I'm excited beyond words.

See you very soon.

Mwah!

♪ And just like eagles ♪

♪ Flying, looking down at all the ♪

♪ People listening to Bowie ♪

♪ Singing "Heroes" on the radio ♪

♪ Over and over and over ♪

♪ When we were young ♪

♪ When we were young ♪

♪ It had already begun ♪

♪ Dreaming of the free world ♪

We're here.

First sold-out show ever in the States.

You see that light on stage right?

I think we should all get a tattoo in LA.

-On our backs. -I think that Fresnel is burned out.

I feel frickin' great right now. Wow, man.

-Yeah, it's not too shabby. -It just now hit me.

I get it now.

Three, two, one…

♪ The sun is shining red, Mom ♪

♪ And the forest grows so… Uh! ♪

World tour, baby!

We are about to take off.

Thirty seconds.

♪ And the forest grows so… Uh! ♪

Hi, sweetie. I'm working, honey.

I'm about to sing songs.

♪ And the forest grows so… ♪

♪ Fond of my bicycle It'll take me oh so… ♪

My dick, it's hard…

In fucking ten, nine, eight…

♪ "I'm pregnant," she said ♪

Mwah! Thanks, sweetie. Love you.

-Love you. -Love you too.

-Bye. -Bye.

It's just crazy.

So many countries, so many cities, so many different cultures.

It's incredible to think about.

It's just the beginning.

♪ Honey, I'm so high ♪

♪ Lost my way ♪

♪ Honey, I'm so high ♪

♪ Bound to fail ♪

New York City, baby!

CHINA

♪ Honey, I'm so… ♪

For most of my life, I've just been riding the waves.

And if you've ever tried catching a wave,

you just can't stop… chasing them, you know?

And when you do catch one, you know it'll be over soon.

It won't last forever.

And that's why it's crazy when you're riding it,

because you know that it's gonna end.

That's why it feels incredible, you know?

That's what's so cool about surfing.

The ride only lasts 15 seconds, then you paddle for 15 minutes.

It's totally worth it.

Because it's magical.

And that's what I'm chasing.

The adrenaline rush. The wave.

I… That looks so intense.

It's incredible.

Mm.

Mm.

-Hm. -Mm!

There you go.

On the good days,

I mean, when I'm feeling… energized,

when I wake up and had a good night's sleep,

I'm grateful, y'know, and everything's fine.

And I'm like, "Of course, he's gotta do that."

I mean, yeah, it's tough, but at the same time, we chose this life.

As long as the girls are happy, and they feel safe with me,

and they're feeling good when they're with Dad.

I mean, they're doing great. We're doing great.

It's an endless swirl of positivity.

Other days, if I'm worn out in the morning,

and the kids are cranky or they're crying…

Bad stuff keeps happening all morning,

like I knock over six glasses,

before it's even 10 a.m., you know?

I feel kinda like…

Why isn't he home?

Why did he say yes to this? Why are we choosing this life?

Can't we have a quiet life and spend more time together?

I mean, he could just go out and get a… job around the corner

like everybody else, you know?

It comes at a cost,

when you choose to chase your dream

so intensely, y'know?

It comes at a cost for your family.

He pays a price too, but…

Yeah.

Hi, Bella.

Hi, sweetie. Hi, my love.

She's so stinkin' cute. She's killing me.

Hi, sweetie. Hi.

Hi. Hi, hi, honey.

Hi, hi.

Hi, hi.

Hi, hi.

Blow kisses. Yeah.

Bye!

I feel a bit like Ray Charles. You know?

Come on, let's go.

You come in before it starts.

Bop! Diggy-diggy-dig-dig…

And then you come in there.

Bop!

Oh my God, no way! That was incredible!

I want to keep on playing. It was fantastic, man!

-They're still out there. -Are they?

No, no, no, no.

No, fuck that. Come on, guys. Come on, let's go play acoustic.

Let's do this.

We have to play more.

If we're gonna do this, we're gonna do it completely acoustic.

And we're gonna come down there to you.

Ready, guys?

Yeah!

All right. Shh!

-♪ "Baby, I'm pregnant," she said ♪ -♪ …she said ♪

♪ And I saw my whole life ♪

♪ Flash before my eyes ♪

I mean, they stayed out there shouting for 20 minutes.

"More! We want more!"

I mean, that's so sick, man.

Fucking crazy.

Jesus Christ, man.

Sing it.

♪ Feels like my life is over ♪

♪ Feels like my future's crushed… ♪

What just happened, that moment, that's why I do what I do.

They should go home thinking,

"That was pure, honest, authentic passion."

If that's how they leave,

then maybe they'll wake up feeling motivated or inspired.

That's when music becomes so magical.

Shit, that's crazy.

I just love playing music!

I wanna play music forever, man!

Yeah!

DADDY'S HOME

Mom, come on! You have to open the door for Daddy.

Of course, honey. Hold on.

♪ We're watching the clouds Changing shapes ♪

♪ Wait for the storm and taste the rain ♪

♪ But if we're standing still now It'll be too late ♪

Okay. Let's start with today.

-Today and tomorrow, band rehearsals. -I have a meeting with Jannick.

-Yeah, tomorrow. -That was my mistake. It's today.

Then I've got a fashion show, then I'll get the kids.

-A fashion show. -Yeah, it's Fashion Week.

And then tomorrow… you're rehearsing all day again.

-And I've got shows and presentations. -And you've got a dinner that evening?

Yes. I'm going to dinner in the evening.

-What? -Honey.

-I committed to one dinner. -I'll be gone for six days, Cecilie.

Dinner with Georg Jensen?

I'm gonna be gone…

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday.

You're not going to that dinner right before I leave.

I committed ages ago.

-Come on, I don't give a shit. -It's been on the calendar. Seriously?

Okay, dinner with Georg, then I'm gone for a week.

So let's start from when I'm back.

You got a modeling job in Mallorca?

Yes, it'll be Sunday and Monday.

As if you're hearing this for the first time.

Oh my God.

-It's like I've been talking to a wall. -Let me get this straight.

The night before I leave for a week, you have a dinner.

-When I get back, you leave for two days? -One day.

I understand that it can get complicated

if I just say yes to things that I have to travel for.

It takes so much more planning now.

You know, in the past…

I mean, I traveled all the time.

But I want to be able to say yes to job offers again.

And I've been saying no… ever since the girls were born.

-I haven't accepted any jobs abroad. -But it's at the same...

I've only accepted two jobs.

Tell me which day you're leaving for Asia.

That's why I don't want to look at my calendar. I mean…

But it's important that you check it and know what's coming up for us.

I know about all these commitments.

-None of it is surprising. -No, I'm not surprised either.

I just looked at the whole month, and it got much more real, you know?

Yeah.

Yeah, it's a tricky situation because

she… makes so much room for me.

I can do anything. She never says no.

But when… I'm home, I spend all my time with them, you know?

And she makes a lot of plans for when I'm home.

I can't tell her she can't do that.

I can just let her know that… that I'll be gone for a week or so,

and that it'd be nice if we were together on the last night.

-What's up, guys? -Whoa!

-Bring it in. -Look at this guy!

My man!

-You good? -Yeah.

-What's up? -How you doing?

♪ Sing your heart out and make it count ♪

♪ For my people, for my daughters ♪

♪ I planted a seed and you gave it water ♪

♪ For all the days That you stayed right by my side ♪

♪ And now I know ♪

♪ I'm not alone ♪

♪ You make it grow ♪

♪ But above it all ♪

♪ You give me something to believe in ♪

You could use some coffee as well, huh?

You're so tired.

You know, your sister woke you up.

She loved that.

Ready for school, sweetie? Should we grab your lunch?

My dream is having and raising a family.

I love it.

But at the same time, I realize that

since Christopher travels so much and is

away from home so much of the time,

at home I have to be the rock, you know, the base.

Keep things calm and structured, and…

Of course I enjoy that.

But that also means that more than I'd like,

I have to sacrifice other things that bring me joy and inspiration.

Okay, let's see.

♪ How we doing on the right side? ♪

There's a little bit of a slip…

-A slip? -…when you start to sing.

-Oh, can you hear me? -Okay. So…

We should talk about my dinner plans.

Yeah. I think it's a bit much, and I just…

I know. Listen, that's why I'm calling.

I'm happy to drop it for you. I would drop anything for you.

But it wouldn't just be for my sake.

You know? It's for… us. It's not just about me.

It's for both of us. It's so we can spend the night together, right?

Honey.

I'm with the girls all the time,

and I do love being with them,

but I do it to spend more time with you.

Or all of you, the girls too.

But mostly, it's for you. Of course if I cancel, it's for you.

NOELLE'S TO DO'S BRUSH TEETH - COMB HAIR - PLAY - SING

I have to take responsibility for my choices.

We chose to have kids.

They're my first priority.

And…

That's what I have to keep reminding myself,

that the next couple of years… are about them.

And then…

I can pursue a career again later.

And I can tell myself that.

But it's easier said than done.

At least right now.

Can you say "bye-bye?"

Hi-hi.

-Kiss for Dad? -Hi-hi.

-Aw, thank you, sweetie! -Aw, group hug!

It kind of feels like this is when the other half of my double life begins.

♪ How do you hold on ♪

♪ When there's nothing to hold on to? ♪

♪ And what is a home run ♪

♪ If it's a home without you? ♪

♪ My wheels burning And yours keep turning around ♪

♪ And when I think about it I'm not ready to go ♪

♪ The more I think about it I'm not ready to go ♪

We sold 400 tickets, and I'm about to go up on stage, you know?

It's going to look fucking ridiculous.

So now I'm about to play for an empty room.

Damn it, this sucks!

We've played for… 400 to 500 people in Paris before.

It was incredible!

It's not about the number of tickets at all.

It's that someone booked a venue that's way too big, you know.

It's just all this fucking pressure, and I'm going on stage in four hours.

And I need to sort of just bring…

A good show, and I'm not put in a position

where I can, like, fucking do that.

Hello out there… there… there…

Fuck, I don't wanna go out there.

The problem is that we're having electricity issues.

The electricity is malfunctioning. We're so sorry.

It's a big mess.

-And… -So we're using the PA then?

Yeah, but there are side fits, which are like a PA,

but it sends the sound your way.

Pretty basic.

Wow.

Something else we could do… We need to fit some cables for it.

But you could sit right in the middle… with some monitors.

-I mean… -That sounds cozy.

-Great idea. -Yeah.

-So it'll sound totally different, then. -Yeah, it will.

-You'll set it up? -Without microphones?

-You'll set it up on the floor? -With microphones.

Let's go, full-on rock 'n' roll. It'll be great.

I have no clue if it'll work. We don't know if it'll sound good

or like… complete shit.

The circumstances are so shitty right now

that all I can do is fucking… my goddamn best.

What's up, São Paulo?

I cannot promise you this is gonna be a perfect show,

but I can promise you one thing.

I'm gonna remember this forever, and it's gonna be a very special night.

♪ Honey, I am on my own, yeah ♪

♪ Just kiss me, baby ♪

I love you!

♪ And everything will be… ♪

♪ All ♪

♪ Right ♪

Thank you!

Holy shit, dude!

Who saw that coming?

It was magical!

Oh God, today was just a non-stop roller coaster.

I'm so broken right now. I feel like I just ran a marathon.

♪ Tell me why the world Still spins 'round ♪

♪ Why the birds sing this loud ♪

One more time, Rio, louder!

♪ It's like they don't understand ♪

♪ You're gone ♪

♪ And there's no reason For the stars to shine ♪

♪ So tell them It's a waste of their time ♪

♪ 'Cause you're not here tonight ♪

♪ Oh my ♪

♪ You went on without me ♪

♪ But don't forget about me ♪

♪ And this photograph ♪

♪ Is the only proof we ever were in love ♪

Hi, sweetheart.

Hey, pumpkin.

Mwah!

Where are you, at the library?

Is it fun?

-Can you say "hi"? -Hi.

We'll draw more rainbows.

-One for Mom. -Thank you.

One more. Nice, sweetie.

Thank you.

Cille also sent some pictures of Nulle, where she has a ponytail.

She looks all grown up, but, like…

The pictures on my phone are only a month old.

And she looks so tiny. So much happens while you're away, y'know?

Especially with a six-month-old, but also with a toddler, I mean…

It's just… you know, you miss all the little things.

You're not around for those tiny moments that matter.

It's those tiny moments when you get to know them,

and watch them develop, and… they get attached to you.

I miss so much of that.

The first year of her life, I've been like, "Bye-bye."

And of course, you can't get that back, you know. Can't go back in time.

This isn't the kind of dad I thought I'd be.

"Let's have some kids, and not spend time with them."

I know that

she does need her dad.

Cille says she wakes up at night and asks, "Where's Dad?"

"He's gone, chasing his dream."

What's my priority right now?

Is it more important to be with my family, with my daughters?

Or is it more important to play all these shows?

Like, "This is my shot. I have to take it."

"And if I don't, I'll regret it for the rest of my life."

It may not be the greatest, but it is the most important thing.

Because it's not just about how I'm feeling right now,

and what my feelings are telling me.

It's about all of the legwork I've put into it.

And then I can't stand at the launch pad and say, "I'll just take a detour."

Maybe the most important thing…

Is to simply acknowledge that it's hard to have two kids and a career like this

and suck it up. That's all I can do.

I made all these choices myself. I chose to go on tour.

And I chose to have two kids.

Stop whining.

♪ Tell me if you know ♪

♪ Fool's gold ♪

"Fool's Gold" is kind of like a metaphor… for success.

I think three…

Do you think we have what we need for this one?

Yeah, sure.

♪ Tell me if you know ♪

♪ Fool's gold ♪

♪ If it's too good to be true You're on the wrong road ♪

All the superficial things I've been chasing for many years,

is it truly worth anything,

or is it just… fool's gold?

That's the big question. Is it worth it?

Will I find gold at the end of this rainbow,

or will I find myself at the end of this rainbow, thinking,

"Why the hell did I do that? I've got gold at home."

♪ …know ♪

-We need to… Ah, yeah. That's okay. -Very nice.

I fucking love this song.

It's so fucking powerful.

I think it's done, isn't it?

Sweetheart, not the knife. Let's wash it.

-Hi. -Hi, honey.

Look, it's Dad. Can you tell him who came to visit you in kindergarten today?

-The Easter Bunny. -The Easter Bunny?

Seriously?

Can you tell me about the Easter Bunny, Nulle?

I think Dad should tell us what the plan is.

Emil tells me that you're not coming home on Sunday.

You're coming home Tuesday instead, but you haven't told me anything.

I'm hoping you'll be home for a couple days after Nashville,

so you have time to unwind with us.

I don't know what's happening.

Yeah, I'm not sure what's happening next, because…

But, honey, you can't land on Sunday, then get up Monday morning

completely jet-lagged

and then be ready for a bunch of people in Sweden.

I mean, why not take two full days, to give you time

to adjust to the time zone and catch your breath?

Because… I mean, there's no other option.

Honey, I'm so fed up with you not being home, okay?

-I just want you home. -Yeah.

Let me put it this way.

I'm not…

I'm not okay with you being gone longer, you know?

♪ If it's too good to be true You're on the wrong road ♪

♪ I'm too young to regret Falling for fool's gold ♪

♪ Before I forget Can you show me heaven? ♪

♪ For my eyes won't let ♪

♪ Me see how far it goes ♪

♪ Tell me do you know ♪

♪ Fool's gold ♪

I kind of feel like the Cecilie I've always been, before I had kids.

That's how I've lived most of my life.

That version of me has changed.

So many things that are essential pieces of my identity

also stem from my job.

I've written a book called Instagrim.

It's about social media and its effect on mental health.

I hope my work can expand your knowledge a little bit more, and most importantly,

create awareness and encourage more open dialogue

about a very serious issue.

This week's biggest shitstorm hit Cecilie Haugaard.

She wrote a book on social media, and is now accused of being

a hypocrite and part of the problem.

People are asking,

are you the best person to be talking about this issue?

It's clearly put people on the defensive.

There's been so much pushback.

So many people are upset that she's taking this stance.

Hey there. My book Instagrim, which is coming out tomorrow,

has already drawn a lot of attention.

Thanks so much for your interest,

and thanks to those who have shared kind words.

That said, I'm also open to the critique,

and I take it to heart.

Tell me how you're feeling. What's happening with it all?

What's the latest update? What's up next?

Well, I mean, everybody's telling me to let it go,

now that I've shared that post,

and that I should stop thinking about it.

They're saying that I should enjoy peace and quiet for a bit.

Then later I can get out there and contribute to this conversation

in a productive way.

-Yeah. -And not make it about me, personally.

Social media is what it is.

-I can't go on there… -You can't change Instagram.

No, it'll always be like that. I'm not saying I'm perfect.

I'm deeply confused by social media too.

I'm caught up in it the same way everybody else is.

I'm not trying to change social media by myself.

I just thought, "Let's understand it better,"

so that we can control it

"rather than social media controlling us."

You know what we could do, as a society?

We could create more information on how it all works,

which would help us regulate its effect and highlight the issues.

And then we can start an honest debate and educate young people.

That would go a long way to addressing the dangers...

Honey, hang on a sec. This is how you should talk. Look, I...

What you're saying right now,

the way you're laying it out for me?

That's how I wanted you to talk in the video.

-I'm not trying to… I'm just saying... -Honey, hold on.

-I know. Please, just listen. -There's so much more I wanted to say.

-Honey, calm down. I'm not trying… -I was broken.

-…to upset you or get you worked up. -I was a mess.

I could barely collect my thoughts.

-Okay, I'm just saying… -I had nothing left.

I'm not being hard on you. I'm not saying all this to criticize you.

I'm just saying, I know you so well,

and I know that when you dig deep and speak directly from your heart,

you touch people.

The more you express broad opinions, the more people might spin it…

-And the more know-it-alls are… -I didn't have any time to process.

Yeah, but that was the best I could do because...

I mean, I was anxious about it all day. That was me trying.

Anyway…

Let's stop. I don't want to argue about the past.

If you were here, you could help strategize.

Yeah.

-Sorry? -We need help with the gear.

The biggest mistake of all was having that deadline. You still there?

Yeah, I'm listening.

They want me to help them with the gear, but I'm not going to.

Okay. It's time for bed now. Let's give Dad a kiss, okay?

-Then I'll tuck you in. -No.

Yeah. Give me a little kiss. Good night, sweetie.

-We lost you. What did you say? -Nothing. All good. It doesn't matter.

Bye-bye, Nulle. Sleep tight.

Honey, you're breaking up a lot.

I'm sorry. I'm in New York.

The Internet here is terrible.

You're in New York?

That sounds great.

-It's so cool. -Ready for the show?

Yeah. I had a big meeting, but, you know…

We've had a million meetings about this tour,

and a new record and all that.

But I haven't been able to tell you about it.

Nulle? Time for bed. Go upstairs.

Mom, would you give Nulle...

Wow! It's so hard to have a conversation like this.

What's that?

It seems like every time we talk,

we can't just have a normal conversation because someone's yelling, or…

But I don't want to go to bed yet, Mommy.

I want to talk to Daddy.

♪ If you give me time I swear I'll do better ♪

♪ Just throw me a line ♪

♪ Throw me a line We'll sing together ♪

♪ All of this pain ♪

♪ Don't walk away 'Cause I know I can change ♪

♪ My stubborn heart ♪

Sounds like you're singing from your heart.

-Yeah, you'd better believe it! -Oh yeah?

You need to feel sad to play something like that, you know?

You're sad?

About what?

It's about not feeling good enough.

About wanting forgiveness.

When you didn't ask for permission.

About being selfish and having your head up your ass.

-Yeah. -Making really bad decisions.

In really important situations.

♪ I'll give you paint Show you my colors ♪

♪ Whatever it takes ♪

♪ Tell me if you're running From all my mistakes ♪

♪ Don't walk away 'Cause I know I can change ♪

♪ My stubborn heart ♪

It's hard not being on the same page.

That's why it's been so hard for us lately.

Because of that shitstorm, but also just in general.

She's tried to open up and share her feelings,

but I couldn't truly take it in.

It's like I've been away so much that I just couldn't relate

to the pain she was feeling, the trauma that she was going through.

She's at a crossroads. She's in crisis.

And I've been on a world tour, flying high, you know?

And when I come home, I wanna share it all,

but she can't hear it either.

She can't relate, and she hasn't had the energy to listen to it.

Just like I'm not able to listen… to her.

I'm trying, and I think she's trying too, but…

It's just that we've always been… on the same wavelength with each other.

And for the first time, we're talking past each other.

And it's been… so goddamn difficult to communicate.

And like…

I can see it in her face. She looks at me like…

"You're not even here."

And I catch myself looking at her like, "Why aren't you getting this?"

You know?

♪ All of my issues ♪

♪ I know I project them on you ♪

♪ It's hard to swallow the truth ♪

♪ But you give me something to lose ♪

♪ I feel your hand is getting cold ♪

♪ When I try to pull you closer ♪

♪ I just want to let you know ♪

♪ You're the only one That's close enough ♪

♪ So don't give up ♪

♪ If you give me time ♪

♪ I swear I'll do better ♪

♪ Just throw me a line ♪

♪ We'll sing together ♪

♪ 'Cause all of this pain ♪

♪ Don't walk away ♪

♪ 'Cause I know I can change ♪

♪ My stubborn heart ♪

Hello. Hi.

Hi!

-Hello! -Hello!

Korea is extraordinary.

Korea is where my music's really taken off.

-See you tomorrow, Chris. -I'll see you tomorrow.

Bye-bye!

It's so crazy.

It's like we're on another planet.

I'm finally starting to grasp what's happening.

Jesus, these shows are gonna be so wild.

Totally insane!

Holy shit! Oh my God!

Look how big it is!

No, no, no, no, no.

Whoo-hoo-hoo.

Oh, no way!

I got the chills just now.

Ahh!

This is so crazy, bro!

Wow!

Is that just a huge screen?

And over there too.

-Wow! -It's gigantic.

-Look at this. -This is so crazy.

-Absolutely nuts. -It's so huge.

It's the biggest show, the biggest headline concert

that I've ever…

Played.

It'll be even bigger at the Royal Arena, but…

And there's so many steps to take before this moment,

so much people don't know about.

Hours upon hours of work.

Barely, you know, keeping it together.

Annyeonghaseyo, W Korea. It's Christopher here.

Promotions, commercials.

Hi, my name's Christopher, my new single, yada-yada.

You can listen to it on your favorite platform.

Hey! Annyeonghaseyo. It's Christopher here.

Christopher. Let me in!

All of that has to happen before I can walk out and say,

"Korea, make some noise."

Hello. Hi.

There's a huge potential out here,

but you really have to be ready for anything.

You have to be prepared. You're always performing.

Showtime, baby.

All right!

I'm like a court jester.

Hey, everyone, welcome to the show. Please give it up for our guest,

Christopher!

♪ Wait, wait, wait, wait ♪

I'm like a court jester.

Want me to dance for you? I can do that.

-Whoo! -Come on!

A court jester, that's all I am. "Oh, cluck like a chicken?"

"How loud do you want it?"

-"Jeg elsker" … -Jeg elsker…

-"Elsker." Yeah. -Elsker.

My only focus is on the huge concerts that we're playing.

It just makes sense to me

that everything else around me

feels meaningless.

♪ My, my baby's bad, you know… ♪

It's like, "Ah, okay. That's why."

That's why I sat in some street food kitchen and played "Bad."

First, you did a commercial with Young Ji.

Now you wanna make a song with her.

♪ Trouble keep finding me Trouble keep finding me ♪

Just punch that last one.

♪ Trouble keep finding me ♪

♪ Trouble keep finding me Trouble keep finding me ♪

Come on!

That was hard! That was fire!

♪ I'm not looking for trouble ♪

♪ I'm pretendin' it's not temptin' ♪

♪ But, oh, it's a struggle ♪

♪ Trouble keep findin' me ♪

♪ Tryin' my best not to mess around ♪

♪ 'Cause she's gonna bring me down ♪

♪ And I'm not looking for trouble ♪

♪ But trouble keep finding me ♪

I've never met anyone that speaks so loud.

She's like… "Oh! Nice to meet you!"

There's no such thing as "just a tad" here.

"Just a tad of makeup."

"Paint it on!"

Give me some clown shoes to match.

Give me some balloons, and I'll put on a show.

I've got a six-pack. "Look at my six-pack. I mean…"

♪ Trouble keep finding me ♪

♪ Trouble keep finding me ♪

You okay?

Hey, babe. Look, right here. Dad's calling.

Hi, Nulle.

What's up, sweetie? Aw, what's wrong?

We've been trying to go home for over an hour now.

Wow. I miss you, sweetie.

Can you see what I'm eating?

-A burger. -Yeah, a burger.

It's late where you are, yeah?

Yeah, it's midnight here.

It's been so crazy.

Today, four times she's decided to scream and cry right in my face,

like she's mad at me.

But I know it's just because

she's tired and got a few bruises.

I just… Whew. …had to take some deep breaths.

-But I look forward to showing... -It's been tough.

…to showing you what I did today.

I feel like someone shouted in my face for 14 hours.

You feel that way too?

Yeah.

Seriously?

It's tough in a different way. It's just that I'm on all the time,

and feel like I'm always performing.

And there are constantly new people I have to do meet and greets with.

All these interactions feel scripted.

I'm in a penthouse apartment in Seoul drinking champagne

and eating burgers and spaghetti at midnight.

-Because... -You're drinking champagne too?

I mean, why not?

Cheers.

Cheers, honey.

I'll drink a glass of milk or something.

It sucks that we're not all in Portugal right now.

Yeah.

So I'm glad to hear that it's worth it, what you guys are accomplishing.

-Yeah. -It means a lot.

Let's see.

♪ I feel like I'm standing on sand ♪

♪ It's hard not to be around ♪

♪ Full speed ahead now ♪

What the hell happens after that?

It's just a snapshot of how I'm feeling.

A glimpse into how it feels to be me right now.

It's the feeling that you're racing through life at 10,000 miles per hour,

but you know that you're on a collision course, you know?

At some point, you're gonna crash.

But I'm rotating around Cille, right?

You're bringing me… You're bringing me back into orbit.

♪ Now you're bringing me back into orbit ♪

♪ Blame it on my damn self ♪

So if I'd come back home after touring,

without my family as a foundation…

I think my life would have been filled with alcohol, and drugs, and women,

and… confusion, and arrogance, and an inferiority complex,

and without an anchor, I'd be flying through space.

♪ But I don't care about The mess they made ♪

♪ I'm just… I'm just trying To make you proud ♪

Yeah. I like "the mess I made."

-But right now I can't... I'm sorry about... -Oh, "I'm sorry about the mess I made."

You can just see the same story repeating itself over and over, right?

Millionaires who are unhappy. Movie stars who are miserable.

Super successful and massively talented musicians

who just get so lost in it all.

That's why it matters to have that one person you can lean on.

And say, "You truly see me. You're my person, and I'm here for you."

"You get what I'm going through, because you've been here from the start."

"You've been a part of the whole journey,

and all the ups and downs."

So much has happened.

It feels like five years packed into one.

I mean, it got so crazy so quickly.

First the movie release, then the new album…

And the world tour, all while renovating a house.

Then Cecilie's whole shitstorm, and the two kids, it's all just so…

Yeah. It's been a lot.

It's been non-stop, so it's not really a…

Surprise that we've both been feeling all this pressure,

and that it's felt like we've been living two separate lives.

We're not together enough. We're living apart.

We need to spend time together.

Cecilie could come out here for a couple of days.

Just to see what's going on in Korea. She's never been.

So, she'll be coming tomorrow.

It's crazy playing for 12,000.

Anywhere.

She has to see it.

She can't miss it.

It's such a huge accomplishment,

and with everything that both of us have had to sacrifice to get here…

She's sacrificed just as much as I have to make this happen.

So she ought to be able to be here too.

♪ Who's gonna save my soul If your love runs cold? ♪

♪ Who's gonna bring me back Back into orbit? ♪

♪ I got a need for speed And I lose my feet ♪

♪ And then you're bringing me Back into orbit ♪

There you are!

♪ A small body of matter Just casually entering your atmosphere ♪

Welcome to Korea.

♪ Meteor man on a collision course ♪

♪ Ain't got no business around here ♪

♪ And I know I seem so far away ♪

♪ Just know that I'm always near ♪

♪ Just take a look at the sky above ♪

♪ And a streak of light will appear ♪

♪ Oh-oh! ♪

♪ I was born to be a spaceman ♪

♪ Oh-oh! ♪

♪ And my mama already know ♪

♪ Oh-oh! ♪

♪ Now you're giving me vertigo ♪

♪ But, oh-oh! ♪

♪ Going full speed so ♪

♪ Who's gonna save my soul If your love runs cold? ♪

♪ Who's gonna bring me back Back into orbit? ♪

♪ I got a need for speed And I lose my feet ♪

♪ And then you're bringing me Back into orbit ♪

♪ Who's gonna save my soul If your love runs cold? ♪

♪ Who's gonna bring me back Back into orbit? ♪

♪ And when you look at me You really look at me ♪

♪ That's why you're everything I ever wanted ♪

Hey!

Mmm!

That was so wild.

-You were incredible. -Crazy.

The way you were singing at the end, just amazing.

We absolutely killed that shit. Fucking…

Yeah!

Yes!

Did you draw that?

Can you say hi?

Hi.

It's so rough right now.

I'm missing the girls so much today.

It's funny, when she was heading home, I was like, "Hey, I want to go with you."

I'm so spent. It's been such a long week.

And it's all hitting me. I'm wiped.

I'm gonna wake up and want to go right back to sleep.

Hey, man, it'll be great tonight. Five hundred people in here will be great!

Do we have the set list?

Wow!

Cool.

I'm feeling so shitty right now.

-Really? -Yeah. I'm a mess.

When I woke up this morning with a sore throat,

I thought, "Here we go again."

I'll be fine. I'll power through.

I mean, when you talk about feeling sick, I'm like...

-I know. -Your health is the most important thing.

You're the most essential piece of this whole machine.

If you break, no one else here matters.

I don't blame anybody but myself, though.

I keep giving into pressure and just saying yes to things

that I know are not going to be great,

but… those things are still important, and I want to do them all.

But we're going home,

then we'll have two days before going at it again,

and then we'll be working from… September 3rd to November 15th.

There's just no time to rest.

-You need some downtime. -It's crazy, but what else can we do?

-What about canceling some shows? -Yeah.

It's overwhelming to think that far ahead.

-But we kinda have to. -Yeah, that's important.

Eh, it would suck to cancel.

Yeah, that…

Would be pretty rough.

We can take a song out to save your voice a bit.

I think the best one would be "I Hope This Song."

Okay. Let's do it. Remove that one.

It's the coolest job in the goddamn world!

Being on stage is the absolute best.

When you have energy.

How you feeling out there?

But then, I mean, wow, it can just

suck so much when you're exhausted.

It's just so hard, and then you drive past some apartments,

and you see all these small homes people live in, and think…

"Shit, so many people would give their right arm

to be tired on a tour bus."

Nice job. I don't know how you pulled that out of your ass.

-It hurt so much, man. -Really?

-Yeah. It sucked so bad. -We really couldn't tell.

Really great job.

Yeah. Really.

-You didn't sound tired. -Sounded like you were feeling great.

I know it wasn't that bad. It's just annoying that I'm in this situation again.

It's my own fault. It's frustrating.

I'll be like this until we're done in Beijing,

or I decide to cancel a show.

And that would suck! But I hate feeling like this.

I'm afraid that if I go to Beijing, and push through a show like that again,

it'll come at a cost.

I'm gonna pay for it after in a big way.

I can't do that.

I can't cancel. I won't.

I feel like I'm in this alone.

No one else understands what this is like. No one feels it like I do.

What up, my boy?

We can't play the show. That's it.

-It's done. -What'd they say?

He said my throat was super inflamed,

and then he did a COVID test,

and it was positive.

Shit, man.

But they gave me some killer meds.

I think we need to shut it down.

I mean, your throat is wrecked,

and you've got COVID.

And our biggest show ever is in less than a month.

ROYAL ARENA CONCERT 3 WEEKS

You're gonna need somebody to be taking care of you the next two weeks.

Or it'll break you.

I know you're right, but I'm the one that has to make that decision.

It's my call to cancel.

Meanwhile, I'm hearing nonstop how important it is.

People are dangling carrots, waving money around,

talking millions of views. That's really hard to turn down.

But right now, someone needs to be…

Protecting you.

That's crazy! You've got COVID.

-Yeah. -Holy shit.

I can't remember the last time I felt so shitty on stage.

-Oh, honey… -Yeah, it's just so much pressure.

There's nothing worse.

Now I'm looking at…

You know, Lollapalooza and Djursland Bank Arena,

Royal Arena, those are super important gigs

all within the next three weeks.

And I just feel like I have to completely shut down the rest of it.

The thought of going home now is making me feel better already.

I actually don't think I can…

Face being away for three weeks again.

I'll barely be home before I start prepping to leave again.

That'll be so hard, you know?

-Look, honey. Look who's home. -Hi, Nulle!

-Dad! -Give me a hug!

Hi, honey!

-Hey, sweetie. -Give Dad a kiss?

One, two, three!

Go!

Since our second child was born at the beginning of this year…

Oh. Mwah!

…I've been gone more than I've been home.

And I've been missing out on a lot of precious moments.

She can walk. Come. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah!

Bella. Bella!

Bella!

Now it's my turn, Dad.

Bella can walk!

-You can walk, sweetie! -It's my turn. It's my turn!

She's never done that before.

Wow!

While you were on tour, it's been…

A rough couple of months back home for your wife.

She's been dealing with a strong public response to her book.

So, how have you and your family been handling that process?

Well, you know, just being away on tour as long as I have is always hard.

Knowing that she's at home handling two kids by herself.

I can only say that I think she started a very important conversation.

I think it's great she has people talking about it. It's important.

She has my full support. I'm so proud.

Yeah, it's cool.

All right. One more question.

I know how important it was to Cecilie to get this message out,

and start this conversation,

to get people talking about the issues with social media.

I think it's great she has people talking about it. It's important.

She has my full support. I'm so proud.

Yeah, it's cool.

ROYAL ARENA CONCERT 7 DAYS

I feel like we need to talk about the tour.

Yeah.

These fucking days are flying by.

-Fuck. -They really are.

Can't anything be moved around?

No, that feels almost…

Impossible.

And we've got three shows to play right after the Royal.

The biggest show ever.

And I have to go straight home and go to bed.

And then straight to Europe, to play 16 concerts in 20 days.

-Exactly. -It's not gonna work.

It's gonna break me.

What if I do the first three shows,

and then I'm like, 13 more to go, but I spent all my energy on the first three?

It seems like you always end up overbooked like this.

-Yeah. -You can't keep doing that.

You know it'd be better to play fewer shows.

-And avoid all of this stress. -Yeah.

I'm bad at slowing down. Bad at saying no.

Bad at calling and saying, "We can't. We're canceling everything."

I know we've been preparing for months, and lots of tickets have been sold,

but you'll have to call them up and tell them that I'm not coming.

That's what's best for me.

Not for everyone else, but it's what I need.

It's just so hard. I'm disappointing a ton of people.

Hey, everybody.

Hey, there.

-Hey, boss. -Hi, friend. Good to see you.

I just need a break that's longer than two weeks.

Look at this. I've been messing with this all day.

-These? -Here, let me get that.

I know, I've reset it a few times already.

-Maybe get a new one? -Yeah.

Hey, guys, I just need you to listen up for a second, because…

I have something I need to...

Just a second.

Whenever you're ready.

I've decided to push the Europe tour,

the one that starts two days after Royal Arena.

We'll push it.

We'll do it at the top of next year.

It's a decision that… was so tough to make, but…

You know, I just need it. I need this break.

I think that it's the first time I've ever really checked in with myself,

and every bone in my body is telling me that I need this break.

It sucks, but I need it.

-All of us depend on your health. -Right.

And, of course, you have our full support.

I hope I speak for all of us. You should be happy.

And laugh and have a blast

and enjoy yourself when you're up there performing.

-Yeah. -Otherwise, what's the point?

Totally.

Yeah.

All good, man. We got your back.

Hi, hon.

I just wanted to tell you

that it… went well.

We'll get to be together for six months straight. It's crazy.

Welcome to the new Christopher.

That's right.

Yeah.

Okay. Bye-bye.

Bye.

I know why I said yes to all these opportunities a year ago.

Hi. Hey, brother.

It's all good.

And I know that the guy who said yes to everything

would understand why this guy has to say no to things now.

I can't just keep soldiering on.

It feels kind of full circle.

It kind of feels like it's the perfect…

Ending of a chapter.

And it's like this whole journey is about to get tied up in a big fat bow.

Holy shit, here we go. Let's go.

You can really hear the excitement out there building with me.

We're getting pumped up together.

Thanks so much.

-Hey! -Hi, my love.

Are you nervous?

Yeah. The butterflies kicked in.

On the way over, I was like, "He's gonna be losing his shit."

The crowd's wild, right?

Come on! Whoo!

With everything that's been happening,

I lost track of what's most important in my life.

The choices I was making could have cost me everything.

I almost lost my family.

I pushed it to the limit.

I'm ready for a totally new approach.

["Leap of Faith"

♪ I've been wondering Am I the only one ♪

♪ To see it coming? ♪

♪ We've been doing it wrong ♪

♪ For so long ♪

♪ Ain't it funny ♪

♪ How we keep complaining But do nothing ♪

♪ When we know that won't make it ♪

♪ Go away? ♪

♪ We're watching… ♪

♪ …the clouds changing shapes ♪

♪ Wait for the storm and taste the rain ♪

♪ But if we're standing still now It'll be too late ♪

♪ If you're praying for a change You better not wait ♪

♪ Keep turning the pages There's choices you make ♪

♪ Only once in your life ♪

♪ Once in your life ♪

♪ Are we taking… ♪

♪ …more than we can give? ♪

♪ Celebrating like there's no risk… ♪

♪ We're watching the clouds Changing shapes ♪

♪ Wait for the storm and taste the rain ♪

♪ But if we're standing still now It'll be too late ♪

♪ If you're praying for a change You better not wait ♪

♪ Keep turning the pages There's choices you make ♪

♪ Only once in your life ♪

♪ Once in your life ♪

♪ If you're praying for a change You better not wait ♪

♪ Keep turning the pages There's choices you make ♪

♪ Only once in your life ♪

♪ Once in your life ♪

-I'm ready to take some time off. -Six months.

It's crazy.

It's so crazy.

♪ …on the street at night Like you never left ♪

♪ But you did And I made it so far ♪

♪ Just know you left a permanent scar ♪

Bye, hon.

-You'll get the girls. -Yep.

Have a great time.

-Thanks. I'll send your regards. -Yeah. Do that.

-I love you! -You too!

This is something I need to get better at doing, you know?

Just relaxing.

Oh my God, it's like, a moment ago

16,000 people were screaming my music at me,

but now I'm sitting here,

thinking, "Why is it so quiet?"

"Hello, anyone?"

No one wants to clap for me?

So who am I, then?

If I'm not grinding it out, if I'm just still,

who am I then? Who will I become?

Do you want some dinner?

Or do you want to go to bed after your ice cream?

This is great. Sometimes it feels so good to have someone else do your makeup.

I'm the tickle monster!

Can you say, "Dad?"

That's it.

I feel like I should probably bend my knees.

Absolutely, keep playing with that.

Yeah. Maybe turn your head a bit. Nice.

That's it! It's a wrap!

Can you say "Mom?"

-Dad! -Dad?

Nice job, sweetie!

Good girl!

Can you say "Mom?"

Sweetie, I've been showering you with love nonstop for 18 months.

Please say "mom."

Bella.

-Come here. Can you say "Dad"? -Dad.

-Can you say "Mom"? -Dad.

Yeah, that's my girl!

So good! Let's have ice cream.

No! I just brushed her teeth.

This has been so nice.

You haven't seemed like you've been distracted by work.

You've been so present with us.

You know?

I mean, I think when I'm actually here, physically, then I am definitely present.

Maybe that's just me.

Yeah, but the last year and a half has been tough.

I mean…

Yeah, I mean, I just need to find balance.

I need a strong foundation at home.

But I also need to stay creative and build that work.

But family is most important,

so that should get most of your energy, don't you think?

That feels like the most rational way to look at it.

Yeah, sure, that makes sense. I just...

-Nothing's more important than that. -Sure, but performing makes me happy.

I mean, in order to be truly great at something,

I have to be… a little obsessive.

I have to go all in and give it my full attention.

But you can never go all in.

From now on, you'll always need to prioritize your family.

You will never not be a dad.

I know that.

And the next ten years are the most important for them.

That's when they'll need you most.

After that, they start developing their own interests.

Mm.

You don't like my tone?

Not really, no. But I hear you, loud and clear.

-I agree with all of that. -Good.

But you… don't have to be condescending.

Sure, but I mean, it sounds like you're trying to dodge your responsibilities,

saying one thing needs all your focus.

But what about the rest?

I'm not condescending. I'm being honest and loving.

Yeah, but you know me better than literally anyone else,

so you could be a little more… a little more understanding.

Hi, sweetie! Hi, my love!

Hey, look at that sunset!

Aww, you're so cute.

♪ 'Cause you ain't living If you're holding back ♪

♪ A kiss is better when you give it back ♪

♪ It's just the way it is ♪

♪ The way it goes ♪

♪ And if that lonely road Leads back home ♪

♪ You better keep on keeping cold ♪

♪ When you found fool's gold ♪

♪ Fool's gold ♪