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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:05,120 --> 00:00:09,080 A Shisso Production 2 00:00:09,190 --> 00:00:14,420 December 16, 1989 3 00:00:18,500 --> 00:00:19,560 Good morning. 4 00:00:22,300 --> 00:00:23,360 How's it going? 5 00:00:29,110 --> 00:00:33,810 A DEDICATED LIFE 6 00:00:35,220 --> 00:00:37,120 Can the tragedy of Okinawa... 7 00:00:38,490 --> 00:00:45,450 be considered greaterthan those of Kyushu or Tokyo? 8 00:00:47,660 --> 00:00:49,360 Honestly... 9 00:00:51,900 --> 00:00:54,200 one tragedy is enough in itself. 10 00:00:54,630 --> 00:00:57,600 It's true if you go to Okinawa, 11 00:00:58,040 --> 00:01:01,670 you see the US Army base and barbed wire. 12 00:01:02,610 --> 00:01:06,840 A rare sight in Japan. Okinawa is small, too. 13 00:01:07,710 --> 00:01:11,280 But for us novelists, 14 00:01:11,820 --> 00:01:16,850 is the tragedy in Okinawa more tragic than any others? 15 00:01:17,660 --> 00:01:21,350 What you wrote about Okinawa is a collective experience. 16 00:01:22,730 --> 00:01:25,760 Why not write about you and your family? 17 00:01:26,530 --> 00:01:30,590 If you want to write a real tragedy, 18 00:01:31,470 --> 00:01:36,700 you only need to focus on one small helpless tragedy. 19 00:01:38,250 --> 00:01:40,980 It doesn't matter how well you write. 20 00:01:43,450 --> 00:01:45,350 Just focus on one thing. 21 00:01:47,120 --> 00:01:50,350 Why can't you write about one thing? 22 00:01:59,130 --> 00:02:02,360 I always wanted to have my own theatrical troupe. 23 00:02:03,970 --> 00:02:07,370 My grandfather was Dainoshin. 24 00:02:11,710 --> 00:02:15,610 Grandfather Ichikawa Dainoshin. 25 00:04:14,870 --> 00:04:19,270 Sometimes, some of us joined him on the stage. 26 00:04:19,870 --> 00:04:24,900 They had their faces buried between his legs. 27 00:04:25,910 --> 00:04:31,680 They were really into it, too. 28 00:04:32,390 --> 00:04:38,120 Only he could have done it, just like his novels. 29 00:04:38,790 --> 00:04:42,690 He knows what to do on stage. 30 00:04:43,060 --> 00:04:46,730 Exactly what we expect to see from a striptease. 31 00:04:50,400 --> 00:04:52,960 He moves just like a woman does. 32 00:04:53,340 --> 00:04:56,240 He knows how to get people excited. 33 00:04:57,540 --> 00:05:01,040 He does it with a touch of pathos. 34 00:05:01,820 --> 00:05:08,650 He shows us what he can't teach by literally stripping himself bare. 35 00:05:25,540 --> 00:05:27,200 I find it grotesque. 36 00:05:29,140 --> 00:05:32,040 But that's why it's so wonderful. 37 00:05:56,770 --> 00:06:00,830 New Year's Day, 1990 38 00:06:08,650 --> 00:06:15,420 Mr. Haniya, here's to your health and your works to come. 39 00:06:15,860 --> 00:06:17,950 Cheers. 40 00:06:23,600 --> 00:06:25,720 Yutaka Haniya, Novelist 41 00:06:25,930 --> 00:06:28,330 - I want a theatrical troupe. 42 00:06:32,870 --> 00:06:37,430 I don't care what kind. 43 00:06:39,050 --> 00:06:41,910 I'm looking for actors. 44 00:06:43,320 --> 00:06:45,220 I need about ten. 45 00:06:46,590 --> 00:06:48,990 Of course, I'm the lead. 46 00:06:51,320 --> 00:06:55,190 We will start off in retirement homes, and then... 47 00:06:55,630 --> 00:07:00,000 travel to my hometown. 48 00:07:00,430 --> 00:07:02,560 I will be a star. 49 00:07:04,470 --> 00:07:06,500 It's better if we have less of an audience. 50 00:07:06,840 --> 00:07:09,240 I just want to form my theatrical troupe. 51 00:07:10,480 --> 00:07:13,840 The Traveling Player's Hinterland Theater. 52 00:07:15,150 --> 00:07:18,710 We only go to hospitals and nursing homes. 53 00:07:19,890 --> 00:07:23,690 One person I really want is Tokue. 54 00:07:25,120 --> 00:07:29,320 Especially you. That's right. 55 00:07:30,030 --> 00:07:31,930 You will be wonderful. 56 00:07:34,130 --> 00:07:37,330 I mean as a supporting cast. A very good part. 57 00:07:37,870 --> 00:07:39,770 You know I'm the lead. 58 00:07:40,440 --> 00:07:42,840 You can play a stepchild who gets bullied. 59 00:07:44,240 --> 00:07:46,710 I play the mother who bullies you. 60 00:07:47,150 --> 00:07:51,380 I wear a wig and bully you like hell. 61 00:07:53,720 --> 00:07:57,620 You try to resist, but in the end, you die. 62 00:08:02,200 --> 00:08:04,820 He definitely has a feminine side. 63 00:08:05,470 --> 00:08:08,370 He is a man, but... 64 00:08:09,000 --> 00:08:12,100 sometimes I think he is a woman. 65 00:08:12,770 --> 00:08:14,500 I suppose he's joking, 66 00:08:15,310 --> 00:08:22,240 but he tells me he wants to be my stepmother and bully me. 67 00:08:23,220 --> 00:08:26,120 Everything we do will be a tragedy. 68 00:08:27,190 --> 00:08:31,990 Everyone dies in the end. I mean everyone. 69 00:08:32,790 --> 00:08:34,690 Let me introduce... 70 00:08:35,130 --> 00:08:41,360 Mitsuharu Inoue of the Hinterland Theater house. 71 00:08:43,200 --> 00:08:45,300 That's a hit. 72 00:08:46,410 --> 00:08:49,770 All shows will be sold out. 73 00:08:50,810 --> 00:08:53,040 And I will quit literature. 74 00:08:54,510 --> 00:09:00,480 He's the first person who ever understood me. 75 00:09:01,790 --> 00:09:04,190 I think so. I do. 76 00:09:05,360 --> 00:09:08,160 His love... I mean... 77 00:09:09,800 --> 00:09:12,700 I really feel his compassion. 78 00:09:13,870 --> 00:09:16,630 Maybe I'm fooling myself. 79 00:09:17,500 --> 00:09:21,870 I feel really lucky to have met someone like him. 80 00:09:23,180 --> 00:09:26,670 You're wondering if you want to get married or not. 81 00:09:27,210 --> 00:09:31,120 Whatever you choose, you will be disappointed. 82 00:09:31,580 --> 00:09:32,810 What is disappointment? 83 00:09:35,190 --> 00:09:37,090 Don't play dumb. 84 00:09:39,090 --> 00:09:41,990 You're always disappointed. 85 00:09:43,260 --> 00:09:44,820 He knows. 86 00:09:48,640 --> 00:09:50,540 You're no good. 87 00:09:52,940 --> 00:09:54,840 He doesn't work hard enough. 88 00:09:56,710 --> 00:09:57,610 I do. 89 00:10:00,980 --> 00:10:02,210 I work hard. 90 00:10:04,880 --> 00:10:08,290 No, you don't. You write trash. 91 00:10:10,090 --> 00:10:12,490 You're not willing to learn. 92 00:10:13,060 --> 00:10:15,960 You must learn about the human soul. 93 00:10:18,600 --> 00:10:21,360 - I understand what you're saying. - Prove it. 94 00:10:22,340 --> 00:10:24,530 You don't know how hard I'm really struggling. 95 00:10:25,910 --> 00:10:28,470 - You have to prove it. - I will. 96 00:10:28,910 --> 00:10:31,140 - Express it. - I will. 97 00:10:31,840 --> 00:10:34,240 I'll show you what a fool I really am. 98 00:10:39,650 --> 00:10:41,050 All writers are fools. 99 00:10:42,090 --> 00:10:46,290 Mr. Haniya always speaks the truth. 100 00:10:47,960 --> 00:10:50,860 I mean without ego. 101 00:10:52,800 --> 00:10:55,320 That's why he allows you to be here. 102 00:10:55,840 --> 00:10:57,890 You shut up and listen. 103 00:11:00,940 --> 00:11:03,840 You are no good. What's with you? 104 00:11:05,110 --> 00:11:06,510 Talking nonsense. 105 00:11:07,480 --> 00:11:08,880 Just get out of here. 106 00:11:11,920 --> 00:11:14,320 - You are no good. - Just don't say anything. 107 00:11:14,750 --> 00:11:16,650 You're really something. 108 00:11:17,520 --> 00:11:19,350 Just not today. 109 00:11:20,990 --> 00:11:22,550 You want me to say more? 110 00:11:23,600 --> 00:11:26,620 You just get the hell out. I will expel you from the club. 111 00:11:26,730 --> 00:11:28,030 I have no more patience. 112 00:11:28,130 --> 00:11:29,360 I said get out! 113 00:11:31,170 --> 00:11:32,570 No need to leave. 114 00:11:36,580 --> 00:11:38,510 I said out! 115 00:11:39,980 --> 00:11:40,880 Out! 116 00:11:46,420 --> 00:11:48,980 His eyes are so penetrating. 117 00:11:50,260 --> 00:11:56,060 His gaze is pure. He has a look that makes you feel... 118 00:11:57,430 --> 00:12:01,630 he's gone through so much in search of something noble. 119 00:12:02,270 --> 00:12:06,230 That's the kind of face he has. 120 00:12:06,940 --> 00:12:08,910 I really believe in him. 121 00:12:20,120 --> 00:12:24,850 Sometimes it hurts and sometimes I don't feel anything. 122 00:12:25,690 --> 00:12:26,590 And today? 123 00:12:27,130 --> 00:12:28,250 It hurts a little. 124 00:12:39,440 --> 00:12:43,100 Inoue underwent surgery for cancer in August 1989. 125 00:12:44,280 --> 00:12:47,210 We have to look out for the spread of cancer. 126 00:12:51,120 --> 00:12:56,180 It looks the same as before. We'll see if it grows bigger. 127 00:12:56,620 --> 00:12:58,020 If not, we'll just leave it. 128 00:12:58,460 --> 00:13:01,390 Are there symptoms of the spread? 129 00:13:01,990 --> 00:13:03,330 Not really. 130 00:13:04,330 --> 00:13:05,390 I see. 131 00:13:05,830 --> 00:13:08,670 May be jaundice, depending on where it's spreading. 132 00:13:09,600 --> 00:13:15,270 So regular tests are the only way to detect the spread? 133 00:13:16,440 --> 00:13:17,410 I see. 134 00:13:18,510 --> 00:13:21,640 No fever or anything? 135 00:13:22,220 --> 00:13:23,550 No. 136 00:13:24,680 --> 00:13:27,240 Mitsuharu Inoue Autobiography 137 00:13:28,250 --> 00:13:33,090 Born May 15th, 1926 Manchuria, China 138 00:13:33,530 --> 00:13:35,490 I'm sixty-three years old. 139 00:13:36,260 --> 00:13:41,830 My father was a craftsman, an Imari pot maker. 140 00:13:42,800 --> 00:13:44,740 He was very skilled. 141 00:13:45,170 --> 00:13:48,870 He traveled to China. 142 00:13:49,410 --> 00:13:52,840 He got a job at a hotel... 143 00:13:53,280 --> 00:13:59,580 to work on a mural. 144 00:14:00,190 --> 00:14:05,090 He became very friendly with a Japanese girl and she had me. 145 00:14:05,830 --> 00:14:11,090 But my father was a vagabond and didn't stick around. 146 00:14:12,160 --> 00:14:18,690 My mother got sick of him and married someone else. 147 00:14:19,270 --> 00:14:21,830 Father: Yukio Mother: Takako 148 00:14:22,280 --> 00:14:23,900 Yukio was a fine craftsman. 149 00:14:24,340 --> 00:14:27,570 He wandered all over Manchuria, and contact was lost. 150 00:14:28,610 --> 00:14:31,610 At the age of four, Inoue was separated from his mother. 151 00:14:32,520 --> 00:14:38,120 My father disappeared and my mother married another man. 152 00:14:38,560 --> 00:14:40,460 So my sister and I came back to Japan. 153 00:14:44,760 --> 00:14:47,670 In 1933, at age 7, Inoue returned to Japan. 154 00:14:48,100 --> 00:14:50,930 He lived with his grandmother and his sister in Sasebo. 155 00:14:51,570 --> 00:14:53,500 He didn't send any money. 156 00:14:54,140 --> 00:14:58,840 Back then, there were a lot of tiny shops... 157 00:14:59,350 --> 00:15:05,250 all the way along the Sasebo River. 158 00:15:05,750 --> 00:15:10,620 My grandmother set up a tiny booth and sold pots. 159 00:15:11,160 --> 00:15:13,890 I helped her at the shop. 160 00:15:14,290 --> 00:15:19,930 We three survived selling pots at the Riverside Market. 161 00:15:22,540 --> 00:15:27,560 That wasn't enough, so we had to move to Sakito. 162 00:15:28,640 --> 00:15:32,740 There was a coal mine there. 163 00:15:33,180 --> 00:15:37,910 My grandmother and I gotjobs. 164 00:15:38,350 --> 00:15:42,720 In 1938, at age 12, Inoue and his family moved to Sakito. 165 00:16:05,280 --> 00:16:09,180 Chikuho Fuji - Coal Slag Hill 166 00:16:13,820 --> 00:16:14,810 Thank you so much. 167 00:16:15,820 --> 00:16:18,090 I'll ask again later. 168 00:16:18,520 --> 00:16:19,550 Thank you. 169 00:16:26,370 --> 00:16:28,230 Let's say this is an entrance. 170 00:16:28,770 --> 00:16:32,200 We dig this deep today, and tomorrow, this much. 171 00:16:33,040 --> 00:16:34,510 Aweek later, we dig this far. 172 00:16:35,710 --> 00:16:40,240 If it catches fire here, 173 00:16:40,780 --> 00:16:45,270 all the paths get destroyed. 174 00:16:46,090 --> 00:16:52,820 So they usually set up a door every thirty meters. 175 00:16:53,430 --> 00:16:57,920 Just like a submarine. They need to stop the water if it gets hit. 176 00:16:58,030 --> 00:17:01,590 So if it catches fire here, the doors are closed. 177 00:17:03,970 --> 00:17:07,840 Everyone here is dead. These guys could be, too. 178 00:17:08,170 --> 00:17:11,080 But the worst ones are these guys. 179 00:17:11,180 --> 00:17:14,510 They can survive. They can run away. 180 00:17:15,050 --> 00:17:17,170 Sometimes they get locked up here alive. 181 00:17:18,080 --> 00:17:20,640 So they suffer terrible deaths. 182 00:17:21,650 --> 00:17:25,220 They close the doors regardless. 183 00:17:25,320 --> 00:17:27,550 It can't be helped. 184 00:17:28,090 --> 00:17:31,150 They all die. 185 00:17:32,000 --> 00:17:36,830 I've seen fingernails stuck to the door. 186 00:17:37,270 --> 00:17:38,760 They tried to crawl their way out. 187 00:17:39,470 --> 00:17:43,470 It sounds very dramatic, but it's true. 188 00:17:44,340 --> 00:17:49,750 And accidents happen often and miners die. 189 00:17:50,520 --> 00:17:51,810 The job I invented was... 190 00:17:53,550 --> 00:17:55,650 to contact the souls of the dead. 191 00:17:56,590 --> 00:18:01,490 What all the widows really want to hear... 192 00:18:02,330 --> 00:18:09,730 is that their husbands died instantly without pain. 193 00:18:11,500 --> 00:18:13,230 That they didn't suffer at all. 194 00:18:13,670 --> 00:18:18,300 I tell them, "Oh, the gas got to me, 195 00:18:18,410 --> 00:18:21,740 and I died right away." 196 00:18:22,050 --> 00:18:27,110 If I tell them they suffered, they wouldn't believe me. 197 00:18:27,490 --> 00:18:30,580 My grandmothertook care of appointments, like a dentist. 198 00:18:31,660 --> 00:18:36,960 "He's very busy this week. Can you come in on Friday?" 199 00:18:37,760 --> 00:18:41,720 Reservations were required. 200 00:18:42,130 --> 00:18:46,330 If my client's name is Fusako, I say... 201 00:18:46,740 --> 00:18:51,440 "Fusako," I have to act like her husband. 202 00:18:53,850 --> 00:18:57,370 "Oh, Fusako, I tried to escape... 203 00:18:57,920 --> 00:19:02,720 but when I realized, 204 00:19:03,160 --> 00:19:06,220 I was already dead." 205 00:19:06,660 --> 00:19:09,030 You have to tell them they died right away. 206 00:19:09,730 --> 00:19:11,590 That they didn't feel any pain. 207 00:19:12,230 --> 00:19:13,630 You should also say... 208 00:19:14,230 --> 00:19:20,070 "I was not a good husband, but I loved you so much." 209 00:19:20,170 --> 00:19:21,070 That's important. 210 00:19:21,610 --> 00:19:23,130 That's very important. 211 00:19:23,580 --> 00:19:27,210 I was a very popular medium. 212 00:19:27,680 --> 00:19:31,710 I was the only one who required appointments. 213 00:19:32,420 --> 00:19:33,720 One day, 214 00:19:34,720 --> 00:19:36,150 a Korean widow came. 215 00:19:36,860 --> 00:19:39,650 I've written about it in my novel. 216 00:19:40,130 --> 00:19:44,590 So I had to speak in Korean, 217 00:19:45,200 --> 00:19:47,790 but I could only speak a little. 218 00:19:48,270 --> 00:19:52,000 My Korean was so bad, she couldn't understand anything. 219 00:19:52,440 --> 00:19:54,130 She got really upset... 220 00:19:54,470 --> 00:19:58,200 and threw a bill at me and left. 221 00:19:58,810 --> 00:20:00,710 She told me I was no good. 222 00:20:01,310 --> 00:20:04,870 I thought I really blew it. 223 00:20:05,320 --> 00:20:08,550 I thought I shouldn't do this anymore. 224 00:20:08,990 --> 00:20:12,750 I told my grandmother not to take more reservations. 225 00:20:14,830 --> 00:20:18,460 But she said "you're booked till Friday." 226 00:20:19,160 --> 00:20:21,290 That was the last time I did it. 227 00:20:21,870 --> 00:20:24,060 For me it was all fiction. 228 00:20:24,940 --> 00:20:27,170 Medium and all that. 229 00:20:27,970 --> 00:20:32,380 I didn't do it to make people unhappy. 230 00:20:32,480 --> 00:20:34,280 Sure we made some money, 231 00:20:34,380 --> 00:20:39,370 but I did it to make them feel better. 232 00:20:39,920 --> 00:20:41,410 When the Korean widow came, 233 00:20:41,790 --> 00:20:45,620 the fictional world I created was shattered. 234 00:20:46,090 --> 00:20:47,890 You can say fiction is based on realism. 235 00:20:49,560 --> 00:20:53,620 How do you handle the relationship... 236 00:20:54,070 --> 00:20:56,630 between realism and your desire using your imagination? 237 00:20:57,170 --> 00:20:58,640 That is the most difficult task. 238 00:21:01,510 --> 00:21:03,100 What's at the base is realism. 239 00:21:06,450 --> 00:21:11,280 My dentures are not working well, so you may not understand me. 240 00:21:11,950 --> 00:21:16,050 The reason why old hags like us... 241 00:21:16,490 --> 00:21:19,690 feel so alive at the age of 80... 242 00:21:20,390 --> 00:21:26,350 is because of Mr. Inoue. Thank you so much. 243 00:21:29,230 --> 00:21:32,470 Since I don't have any parents, 244 00:21:33,040 --> 00:21:38,240 I told them you guys could act as my parents, 245 00:21:38,810 --> 00:21:40,370 and they said OK. 246 00:21:41,150 --> 00:21:47,710 My mother used to tell me that I had beautiful ears. 247 00:21:48,820 --> 00:21:54,990 Mr. Inoue noticed my ears the first time I met him. 248 00:21:55,990 --> 00:21:58,160 I thought he was very observant. 249 00:21:58,530 --> 00:22:00,430 I've never told anyone... 250 00:22:01,130 --> 00:22:05,570 or written about my ears, 251 00:22:06,240 --> 00:22:08,710 but he noticed them right away. 252 00:22:10,340 --> 00:22:16,010 The fact that he recognized my beauty at my age... 253 00:22:16,450 --> 00:22:22,050 meant so much to me. 254 00:22:24,260 --> 00:22:31,090 I used to think of myself as dull and ordinary. 255 00:22:32,730 --> 00:22:36,170 I used to think I was no good. 256 00:22:37,200 --> 00:22:42,200 But Mr. Inoue recognized and understood my beauty. 257 00:22:44,580 --> 00:22:50,880 And he shared his feelings with everyone. 258 00:22:52,420 --> 00:22:54,720 I felt so alive. 259 00:22:55,250 --> 00:22:56,780 He gave me confidence. 260 00:22:59,290 --> 00:23:01,890 Do you want to add anything? 261 00:23:02,490 --> 00:23:03,320 That's good. 262 00:23:04,400 --> 00:23:05,360 Sure? 263 00:23:08,700 --> 00:23:12,030 That's really wonderful. 264 00:23:15,510 --> 00:23:19,880 Anthem for the Chikuho Writing School by Mitsuharu Inoue 265 00:23:21,650 --> 00:23:28,880 The public hall in the wilderness near Coal Slag Hill 266 00:23:29,320 --> 00:23:36,230 The red sunset over Onga River 267 00:23:36,700 --> 00:23:42,630 Our friend has a noodle shop in Tagawa 268 00:23:43,800 --> 00:23:50,170 Lack of imagination and a pain in the heart 269 00:23:50,710 --> 00:23:56,410 Dig it out with your coal picks 270 00:23:57,520 --> 00:24:03,050 with pens and galley proofs 271 00:24:04,190 --> 00:24:10,250 of the Chikuho Writing School 272 00:24:31,480 --> 00:24:37,350 I thought he was 90% perfect, and I almost fell for him. 273 00:24:38,090 --> 00:24:43,650 I had to restrain myself, and I still do. 274 00:24:45,000 --> 00:24:45,960 Go ahead and read. 275 00:24:46,700 --> 00:24:51,470 The faint perfume he was wearing attracted her to him. 276 00:24:52,070 --> 00:24:56,270 As we all know, Ms. Nishimura is not a bad writer. 277 00:24:57,780 --> 00:25:01,970 But she's making a complete fool out of herself. 278 00:25:02,780 --> 00:25:05,080 She's taking it easy here. 279 00:25:05,920 --> 00:25:09,790 The structure of the story is so compromised. 280 00:25:11,120 --> 00:25:15,250 To write a novel is to resist easy solutions like this. 281 00:25:16,300 --> 00:25:20,100 Anyone can come up with stuff like this. 282 00:25:20,730 --> 00:25:23,860 You have to ask yourself 'is this usable? ' 283 00:25:24,840 --> 00:25:26,100 'Am I compromising? ' 284 00:25:26,770 --> 00:25:32,610 Self-questioning is the first process of writing novels. 285 00:25:33,210 --> 00:25:35,540 Can you imagine what the readers have to go through... 286 00:25:35,980 --> 00:25:38,140 if you write like this? 287 00:25:40,290 --> 00:25:43,190 There are different degrees in liking someone, 288 00:25:44,460 --> 00:25:46,820 but he is the most wonderful person I've ever met. 289 00:25:47,360 --> 00:25:50,490 People say being adventurous is a privilege of youth, 290 00:25:50,930 --> 00:25:53,330 but I really think it belongs to grown adults. 291 00:26:21,360 --> 00:26:25,490 He is the most important person alive in my life. 292 00:26:38,380 --> 00:26:40,970 Aging and death are inevitable fate. 293 00:26:41,610 --> 00:26:44,610 We get scared, Ionely, and anxious. 294 00:26:44,980 --> 00:26:48,750 But let us share the experience and help each other... 295 00:26:49,220 --> 00:26:52,250 here at Iki Iki Retirement Home. 296 00:26:52,690 --> 00:26:54,850 Please welcome Mitsuharu Inoue. 297 00:26:57,400 --> 00:27:02,160 I met Mrs. Takahashi ten years ago... 298 00:27:02,570 --> 00:27:06,160 when I started a literature group in Sasebo. 299 00:27:06,870 --> 00:27:10,600 We also organized a group in Nagasaki and Hokkaido. 300 00:27:12,280 --> 00:27:14,340 She was one of my first students. 301 00:27:15,610 --> 00:27:17,670 My first pupil. 302 00:27:18,080 --> 00:27:21,750 When he does this with anger, 303 00:27:22,250 --> 00:27:28,590 he looks so tough and manly. 304 00:27:29,830 --> 00:27:32,350 He is very attractive. 305 00:27:33,630 --> 00:27:34,690 I like his voice. 306 00:27:35,970 --> 00:27:40,100 I find it sexy, especially on the phone. 307 00:27:42,710 --> 00:27:45,470 He has very smooth white skin, too. 308 00:27:47,010 --> 00:27:49,610 I heard you had a child by him. 309 00:27:50,050 --> 00:27:53,380 No, that's not true. 310 00:27:53,720 --> 00:27:55,740 You didn't want to have his child? 311 00:28:03,630 --> 00:28:05,820 Well, many of us thought we did. 312 00:28:12,600 --> 00:28:17,670 I was struck by his yearning for motherhood. 313 00:28:18,580 --> 00:28:23,410 I should say his desire for motherhood... 314 00:28:24,180 --> 00:28:28,140 when he was very young. 315 00:28:28,950 --> 00:28:35,520 He writes about it in his novels with such melancholy. 316 00:28:36,030 --> 00:28:40,590 It's as if the ground is shaking with his desire. 317 00:28:41,070 --> 00:28:45,260 The way he expresses it is so subtle that it stays with you. 318 00:28:46,370 --> 00:28:52,470 He gives me a little kiss every time I see him. 319 00:28:54,750 --> 00:28:59,240 Other women getjealous, 320 00:28:59,720 --> 00:29:02,850 and he gives them one, too. 321 00:29:04,960 --> 00:29:06,180 He's very kind. 322 00:29:06,630 --> 00:29:08,680 Everyone goes crazy for him. 323 00:29:09,660 --> 00:29:10,530 I mean all women. 324 00:29:11,760 --> 00:29:13,990 He looks at us as women. 325 00:29:14,970 --> 00:29:17,990 It doesn't matter what age. 326 00:29:18,400 --> 00:29:22,130 He brings out the feminine side of us. 327 00:29:22,470 --> 00:29:27,310 When you're down or longing to be loved, 328 00:29:27,750 --> 00:29:30,610 he is an oasis of your heart. 329 00:29:31,380 --> 00:29:33,510 He averages about 3.3. 330 00:29:34,120 --> 00:29:35,950 3 out of 10 women. 331 00:29:37,490 --> 00:29:40,220 That's right. 332 00:29:40,630 --> 00:29:44,030 I think that's pretty good. 333 00:29:46,460 --> 00:29:49,870 He doesn't choose. I'm impressed. 334 00:29:50,470 --> 00:29:54,700 He excludes no one as long as she's female. 335 00:30:32,580 --> 00:30:35,170 I've heard this song many times, but this is by far... 336 00:30:35,610 --> 00:30:37,640 the most depressing I've ever heard. 337 00:30:38,080 --> 00:30:39,980 I mean that as a compliment. 338 00:30:41,350 --> 00:30:48,090 Usually there is a little hope, but her singing has none. 339 00:30:50,130 --> 00:30:52,360 He always tells us... 340 00:30:53,500 --> 00:30:57,960 "if you want to live life, you have to have fun... 341 00:30:58,440 --> 00:31:01,670 and live everyday with vigor." 342 00:31:02,270 --> 00:31:05,180 He is the one who gives me great vigor. 343 00:31:05,940 --> 00:31:10,880 - But you suffered as well? - Certainly. 344 00:31:11,280 --> 00:31:13,010 Can you talk more about that? 345 00:31:14,590 --> 00:31:16,780 That's difficult. 346 00:31:19,690 --> 00:31:22,350 I don't think I can. 347 00:31:24,900 --> 00:31:28,200 That's very private. 348 00:31:28,970 --> 00:31:32,100 I can't talk about that here. 349 00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:37,510 You said you suffered very much. Is that why? 350 00:31:38,040 --> 00:31:40,710 Yes, I think so. 351 00:31:42,480 --> 00:31:47,880 It comes down to how one lived one's life. 352 00:31:49,490 --> 00:31:56,520 I'm sure he suffered as much as I did. 353 00:31:57,230 --> 00:31:59,990 I couldn't forgive him back then. I am a woman, too, you know. 354 00:32:02,800 --> 00:32:06,000 He is the love of my life. 355 00:32:09,370 --> 00:32:12,340 I guess I shouldn't say that. 356 00:32:13,110 --> 00:32:14,940 Well, why not. 357 00:32:17,850 --> 00:32:21,790 - You mean forever? - As long as I live. 358 00:32:35,830 --> 00:32:40,640 Burakumin Liberation Literary Award Jury Meeting 359 00:32:41,070 --> 00:32:45,440 Inoue and Noma have been long standing jurists forthe Award. 360 00:32:52,380 --> 00:32:56,320 Hiroshi Noma, Novelist 361 00:32:58,520 --> 00:33:01,650 Tetsu Hijikata, Novelist 362 00:33:11,770 --> 00:33:13,070 What about Noma's opinion? 363 00:33:14,370 --> 00:33:16,170 No, I agree with you. 364 00:33:18,080 --> 00:33:19,300 The piece is too long. 365 00:33:19,880 --> 00:33:24,440 But it would've been great without the first part. 366 00:33:25,220 --> 00:33:29,050 We should make recommendations for both novels. 367 00:33:29,350 --> 00:33:34,020 On January 2, 1991, Noma died of throat cancer. 368 00:33:48,870 --> 00:33:50,000 Yesterday, 369 00:33:51,580 --> 00:33:52,570 I was very shocked. 370 00:33:53,750 --> 00:33:54,940 No, just kidding. 371 00:33:59,220 --> 00:34:00,280 Psychologically? 372 00:34:00,620 --> 00:34:04,820 I wasn't shocked, but I had to reschedule everything. 373 00:34:06,020 --> 00:34:08,150 All my lectures and stuff. 374 00:34:18,540 --> 00:34:20,800 Mr. Inoue, please come to number 6. 375 00:34:36,990 --> 00:34:38,550 How are you doing? 376 00:34:38,990 --> 00:34:43,790 Not much different, but I don't feel great. 377 00:34:45,260 --> 00:34:46,790 This is today's, 378 00:34:51,700 --> 00:34:53,500 and this is before. 379 00:34:54,940 --> 00:34:56,240 The problem is here. 380 00:34:59,140 --> 00:35:02,550 I see that the cancer is spreading to your liver. 381 00:35:08,350 --> 00:35:12,380 What are my chances of survival? 382 00:35:18,360 --> 00:35:21,590 The cancer might be spreading through the veins. 383 00:35:22,430 --> 00:35:25,730 It really depends if it can be contained here. 384 00:35:26,470 --> 00:35:27,440 I see. 385 00:35:37,350 --> 00:35:38,250 Bring me some water. 386 00:35:40,220 --> 00:35:41,480 I shouldn't drink anymore. 387 00:35:49,730 --> 00:35:52,630 Even if my chance is fifty fifty, 388 00:35:53,360 --> 00:35:58,560 I won't die right away. 389 00:36:02,940 --> 00:36:05,430 I still have some time left. 390 00:36:09,050 --> 00:36:13,310 I think I can do some work. 391 00:36:15,220 --> 00:36:23,650 I won't write about how many shots I got, or what I thought about. 392 00:36:24,030 --> 00:36:26,790 I will never write 'a journal on a death bed' kind of thing. 393 00:36:28,270 --> 00:36:33,760 Like what I thought about today, who visited me, 394 00:36:34,240 --> 00:36:38,570 and how many shots I had, 395 00:36:39,880 --> 00:36:43,640 what I managed to eat. 396 00:36:44,050 --> 00:36:48,580 I don't have anything against that kind of writing. 397 00:36:48,950 --> 00:36:55,020 Sometimes, they show the process of dying, 398 00:36:55,430 --> 00:36:57,260 but I won't write it. 399 00:36:58,000 --> 00:37:02,990 I'd rather write a short story or tell a lie. 400 00:37:39,770 --> 00:37:44,670 This is my own opinion, but... 401 00:37:45,210 --> 00:37:50,310 if one fourth of the liver stays functional, 402 00:37:51,620 --> 00:37:54,880 you can survive the operation. 403 00:37:55,520 --> 00:37:57,720 We have to take out half of it. 404 00:37:57,820 --> 00:38:02,990 The remaining cancer might spread. 405 00:38:03,430 --> 00:38:06,420 Am I right? 406 00:38:07,370 --> 00:38:13,830 Right. We have to worry about the residual cancer. 407 00:38:14,270 --> 00:38:18,370 We have to stop it from spreading. 408 00:38:18,780 --> 00:38:26,410 OK. So you may not be able to take it out completely? 409 00:38:26,780 --> 00:38:30,240 Right. I think in your case... 410 00:38:30,990 --> 00:38:37,260 the operation will bring the best possible results. 411 00:38:37,930 --> 00:38:41,460 You don't think it's dangerous to operate? 412 00:38:41,800 --> 00:38:42,660 No, I don't. 413 00:38:43,100 --> 00:38:46,000 I will be able to drink in a few months. 414 00:38:48,370 --> 00:38:54,510 The remaining liver will stay functional. No problem. 415 00:38:56,010 --> 00:39:01,750 Well, I'll have the operation, as you suggest. 416 00:39:03,090 --> 00:39:05,680 Please take care of it. 417 00:39:07,020 --> 00:39:09,550 The 9th is good for the patient. 418 00:39:17,340 --> 00:39:18,530 Let's have a toast. 419 00:39:23,670 --> 00:39:24,700 To my surgery. 420 00:39:32,850 --> 00:39:34,010 How long has it been? 421 00:39:35,990 --> 00:39:39,860 You drank plum wine a little bit yesterday. 422 00:39:40,730 --> 00:39:41,620 A week, maybe? 423 00:39:44,700 --> 00:39:46,960 He said he may not be able to remove it completely. 424 00:39:49,300 --> 00:39:55,570 The remaining cancer will spread, he said. 425 00:39:57,840 --> 00:39:58,970 Growing and spreading... 426 00:39:59,680 --> 00:40:01,580 The doctor said it's possible. 427 00:40:01,980 --> 00:40:04,710 If he can take some of it out, 428 00:40:06,480 --> 00:40:11,550 it means you will live longer. 429 00:40:12,420 --> 00:40:15,620 But how long? I don't know how long. 430 00:40:16,260 --> 00:40:20,590 It's betterto take it out than leave it. 431 00:40:21,470 --> 00:40:25,530 - More than two years? - At least two years. 432 00:40:29,210 --> 00:40:30,110 That's that. 433 00:40:32,080 --> 00:40:33,980 Even a month longer will do me good. 434 00:40:37,750 --> 00:40:39,840 This doesn't really taste good. 435 00:40:47,390 --> 00:40:48,950 Bring me unrefined sake. 436 00:41:15,090 --> 00:41:16,580 I'll put my things here. 437 00:41:16,920 --> 00:41:18,750 Just what you need right now. 438 00:41:33,870 --> 00:41:37,310 From the spring to fall in 1978, 439 00:41:37,740 --> 00:41:45,410 I was madly in love with him. 440 00:41:46,250 --> 00:41:47,440 With my heart and soul. 441 00:41:48,150 --> 00:41:51,820 I wanted to read all his novels, 442 00:41:52,190 --> 00:41:58,650 I ordered the complete collection. 443 00:41:59,030 --> 00:42:03,360 It came in one big box. 444 00:42:04,270 --> 00:42:08,600 All the novelists want to use their privilege. 445 00:42:09,370 --> 00:42:11,200 He asks his publisher to send his books to the fans. 446 00:42:12,940 --> 00:42:14,140 They fall for it. 447 00:42:14,580 --> 00:42:20,750 The publisher sent me the 14 volume collection. 448 00:42:21,420 --> 00:42:24,150 I was so moved. 449 00:42:35,670 --> 00:42:37,000 The traffic was awful. 450 00:42:44,380 --> 00:42:46,210 You look good. 451 00:42:46,880 --> 00:42:48,810 Jakucho Setouchi, Novelist 452 00:42:49,010 --> 00:42:52,640 - My students copied a sutra. - I already have them here. 453 00:42:53,180 --> 00:42:55,310 My students' work. 454 00:42:56,520 --> 00:42:59,420 You can read them. 455 00:42:59,520 --> 00:43:01,960 I'll put them under my bed. 456 00:43:06,260 --> 00:43:07,730 You should line them up. 457 00:43:12,600 --> 00:43:15,270 They're beautifully done. 458 00:43:26,720 --> 00:43:28,980 I put yours in here. 459 00:43:44,040 --> 00:43:46,940 I brought you some Viennese sweets. 460 00:43:52,710 --> 00:43:54,080 No wine? 461 00:43:54,410 --> 00:43:56,400 No, but these are good. 462 00:43:59,150 --> 00:44:00,880 This is for your wife. 463 00:44:01,220 --> 00:44:02,080 I'll take it home. 464 00:44:03,590 --> 00:44:05,080 These are Kyoto sweets. 465 00:44:07,830 --> 00:44:09,730 This room is really hot. 466 00:44:10,190 --> 00:44:14,460 AC is not working too well. 467 00:44:15,600 --> 00:44:16,860 Is it on? 468 00:44:16,970 --> 00:44:19,800 Yes, but it doesn't work. 469 00:44:20,840 --> 00:44:22,970 I get used to it, though. 470 00:44:24,080 --> 00:44:25,980 It's really hot today. 471 00:44:27,080 --> 00:44:32,910 I think he looks better than before. He gained some weight, too. 472 00:44:33,020 --> 00:44:34,210 I didn't get shots today. 473 00:44:35,150 --> 00:44:36,710 You did gain some weight. 474 00:44:40,590 --> 00:44:44,390 I can tell because I haven't seen you in a while. 475 00:44:44,500 --> 00:44:48,860 I knew you were coming today, so I shaved. 476 00:44:50,130 --> 00:44:53,730 I was ready to die when they told me about the cancer spreading. 477 00:44:54,070 --> 00:44:57,910 I asked the doctor if it's serious. 478 00:44:58,010 --> 00:44:59,340 She was there, too. 479 00:44:59,680 --> 00:45:05,710 He didn't say a word for a while. 480 00:45:06,420 --> 00:45:08,480 I knew I was in trouble. 481 00:45:10,050 --> 00:45:13,650 He said I will have a few years after the operation. 482 00:45:13,760 --> 00:45:17,220 A year or two? Who knows? 483 00:45:21,670 --> 00:45:24,070 Are we ready now? 484 00:46:12,420 --> 00:46:14,320 There's nothing to worry about. 485 00:46:14,720 --> 00:46:15,580 Thank you. 486 00:46:49,520 --> 00:46:51,080 You can't come in. 487 00:46:56,430 --> 00:47:01,420 July 23, 1990 Operation 488 00:50:42,120 --> 00:50:44,280 The surgery lasted over eight hours. 489 00:50:44,390 --> 00:50:46,790 850 grams of liver was removed. 490 00:51:23,390 --> 00:51:25,690 I think I gained a few years. 491 00:51:30,970 --> 00:51:33,530 How did you feel afterthe meal? 492 00:51:34,170 --> 00:51:40,510 I guess I felt a little better than before the meal. 493 00:51:41,880 --> 00:51:44,140 Did your stomach feel swollen? 494 00:51:44,620 --> 00:51:46,670 - No. It was fine. - I see. 495 00:51:46,780 --> 00:51:49,510 I gave him a laxative yesterday. 496 00:51:49,620 --> 00:51:51,680 - Yes. It worked very well. - That's good. 497 00:51:52,290 --> 00:51:53,880 Too much gas yesterday. 498 00:51:55,490 --> 00:51:57,390 - It doesn't hurt anymore? - No. 499 00:52:01,330 --> 00:52:04,460 Your breathing is OK after we took out the tube? 500 00:52:15,480 --> 00:52:16,470 Show me your tongue. 501 00:52:23,090 --> 00:52:28,020 - I think you're doing just fine. - Thank you very much. 502 00:52:56,950 --> 00:52:58,180 I know you're busy. 503 00:52:59,620 --> 00:53:01,450 I heard it went well. 504 00:53:02,930 --> 00:53:05,330 - That's very good. - Thank you. 505 00:53:05,630 --> 00:53:09,500 You're my teacher when it comes to cancer. 506 00:53:10,100 --> 00:53:15,940 You have to teach me the do's and don't's. 507 00:53:19,240 --> 00:53:23,440 I'm going to need advice. 508 00:53:25,720 --> 00:53:27,480 You're full of energy. 509 00:53:29,890 --> 00:53:32,450 You were in intensive care only for a day? 510 00:53:38,300 --> 00:53:40,790 What did you do with the other drinks? 511 00:53:43,770 --> 00:53:45,960 - We drank it. - Oh, I see. 512 00:53:48,540 --> 00:53:49,530 You have beer? 513 00:53:49,870 --> 00:53:51,000 Don't worry about me. 514 00:53:51,680 --> 00:53:52,510 Don't mind me. 515 00:53:53,380 --> 00:53:55,210 You're a sick man. 516 00:53:56,980 --> 00:54:02,150 It makes me nervous when my guests don't drink alcohol. 517 00:54:03,520 --> 00:54:07,580 You're a patient. You don't worry about your visitors. 518 00:54:08,330 --> 00:54:12,690 This is not your classroom, and I'm not your student. 519 00:54:13,230 --> 00:54:14,930 You even try to entertain your students. 520 00:54:16,430 --> 00:54:17,760 A lot of energy wasted. 521 00:54:18,170 --> 00:54:21,430 No more of that from now on. 522 00:54:21,540 --> 00:54:22,770 It makes me nervous. 523 00:54:23,140 --> 00:54:25,630 You drink all night for them. 524 00:54:28,150 --> 00:54:33,280 From now on, you really have to take care of yourself. 525 00:54:36,550 --> 00:54:41,290 You have to realize your body is not in the best condition. 526 00:54:46,230 --> 00:54:48,750 I can see that myself when I take a bath. 527 00:54:50,130 --> 00:54:57,200 My scar looks like a Russian flag. 528 00:54:57,810 --> 00:55:01,370 Just like it, really. 529 00:55:01,810 --> 00:55:09,980 A hammer and a sickle. Like that shape. 530 00:55:11,220 --> 00:55:17,790 When a new nurse changed my bandage... 531 00:55:18,560 --> 00:55:22,730 she told me how pretty my scar was. 532 00:55:23,870 --> 00:55:25,430 No more drinking afterthe class. 533 00:55:25,770 --> 00:55:29,500 - More drink? - No. I have to go. 534 00:55:31,010 --> 00:55:31,970 You take care. 535 00:55:33,510 --> 00:55:36,410 Thanks for coming. 536 00:55:36,880 --> 00:55:37,970 You have to be careful. 537 00:55:39,550 --> 00:55:41,710 - I'll see you off. - No need. 538 00:55:42,690 --> 00:55:47,280 You're a patient and I'm a visitor. 539 00:55:48,890 --> 00:55:52,660 You're a sick man. I'mjust visiting you. 540 00:55:53,600 --> 00:55:55,190 - Just to the elevator. - No. 541 00:55:57,430 --> 00:56:00,530 You really don't get it. 542 00:56:01,610 --> 00:56:04,270 Patients don't need to entertain visitors. 543 00:56:05,280 --> 00:56:10,540 I'm worried about your classes. 544 00:56:11,210 --> 00:56:13,680 You go there and entertain students... 545 00:56:14,420 --> 00:56:17,980 by drinking and eating while your body gets worse. 546 00:56:18,320 --> 00:56:19,810 OK. I will stop. 547 00:56:21,860 --> 00:56:24,920 It starts now. You won't do this when you teach. 548 00:56:25,460 --> 00:56:28,800 - Thank you very much. - Take care. 549 00:56:34,500 --> 00:56:41,430 I was really attracted to him. 550 00:56:42,050 --> 00:56:47,570 For a while, I thought he was in love with me, too. 551 00:56:48,050 --> 00:56:52,680 His pick up lines were really great. 552 00:56:54,320 --> 00:57:00,700 He asked me if he could have a picture of me when I was young. 553 00:57:01,200 --> 00:57:06,600 I chose a photo of me in a uniform from my high school days. 554 00:57:07,040 --> 00:57:12,000 I was going to give it to him. 555 00:57:12,480 --> 00:57:17,710 But he forgot he even asked. 556 00:57:18,320 --> 00:57:20,440 Now that I think of it, 557 00:57:21,950 --> 00:57:29,830 he must have told similar things to other women. 558 00:57:30,260 --> 00:57:35,100 He told me not to write about what happened between us. 559 00:57:36,770 --> 00:57:41,360 He also told me he couldn't write any letters to me. 560 00:57:42,070 --> 00:57:48,380 I couldn't help myself from thinking he was selfish. 561 00:57:48,750 --> 00:57:52,040 He said he was free to do whatever he wanted, 562 00:57:52,380 --> 00:57:58,180 but I think he couldn't do anything without his wife. 563 00:57:58,620 --> 00:58:03,720 I mean, he was free because he had an obedient wife. 564 00:58:15,110 --> 00:58:16,770 Thank you very much. 565 00:58:34,190 --> 00:58:35,090 It's so good. 566 00:58:37,460 --> 00:58:38,430 It tastes like beer. 567 00:58:43,630 --> 00:58:45,260 I dreamed of this moment. 568 00:58:46,700 --> 00:58:48,640 I brought it to you in the hospital. You didn't eat it. 569 00:58:49,610 --> 00:58:51,570 I was waiting for this moment. 570 00:58:52,780 --> 00:58:55,400 Because it wasn't fresh. 571 00:59:00,020 --> 00:59:00,880 Tasty. 572 00:59:03,690 --> 00:59:05,120 It's very good. 573 00:59:07,360 --> 00:59:09,150 I put it in a refrigerator before. 574 00:59:10,430 --> 00:59:13,330 That couldn't have tasted this good. 575 00:59:13,930 --> 00:59:14,830 I guess so. 576 00:59:49,230 --> 00:59:52,430 Lecture: Humanity and Literature 577 00:59:55,970 --> 00:59:56,870 Hello. 578 00:59:58,440 --> 01:00:04,110 Each man has his own destiny. Each destiny leads to its own path. 579 01:00:04,210 --> 01:00:09,080 A path that no one else but you yourself can lead. 580 01:00:09,720 --> 01:00:12,690 Your own destiny. 581 01:00:13,320 --> 01:00:18,260 That's where all literature really begins. 582 01:00:18,360 --> 01:00:23,090 From that path, you create your own sense of art, ideology... 583 01:00:23,200 --> 01:00:27,470 expression, and style of writing. 584 01:00:28,910 --> 01:00:33,270 You have your own sense of who you are... 585 01:00:33,380 --> 01:00:35,110 and who you are in reality. 586 01:00:35,210 --> 01:00:37,870 It's like having another self inside you. 587 01:00:38,520 --> 01:00:42,510 Renewing the relationship between you and another self... 588 01:00:43,050 --> 01:00:46,050 is writing and thinking about literature. 589 01:00:46,160 --> 01:00:52,030 But to change the relationship, something's got to change. 590 01:00:52,930 --> 01:00:57,990 First you have to discover yourself and the other self inside. 591 01:00:58,100 --> 01:01:05,370 Then, you need to find another self to change that relationship. 592 01:01:05,710 --> 01:01:09,440 By 'discover', I mean 'create'. Otherwise, nothing changes. 593 01:01:10,680 --> 01:01:12,050 If you can't change it, you destroy it. 594 01:01:13,680 --> 01:01:20,920 After you destroy it, a new relationship will grow. 595 01:01:27,930 --> 01:01:29,130 Thank you very much. 596 01:01:37,210 --> 01:01:40,340 Please let us learn from him... 597 01:01:40,440 --> 01:01:43,140 that cancer is no reason for despair. 598 01:01:43,650 --> 01:01:47,340 If any of you have family members suffering from cancer, 599 01:01:47,680 --> 01:01:54,560 please let them know that as I'm sure his story touched all of you. 600 01:01:54,960 --> 01:01:58,020 If you're having problems with your family, 601 01:01:58,130 --> 01:02:01,190 you destroy the relationship to change it. 602 01:02:01,300 --> 01:02:04,100 Now I want to introduce you to Mr. Inoue's wife, 603 01:02:04,200 --> 01:02:11,540 who had to destroy her relationship so many times to come this far. 604 01:02:11,640 --> 01:02:13,400 Please give her a hand. 605 01:02:22,290 --> 01:02:23,180 See you. 606 01:02:26,290 --> 01:02:32,560 This one is called 'The Story of Michio Kamizaki.' 607 01:02:33,360 --> 01:02:41,270 He's a boy in grade school. 608 01:02:41,970 --> 01:02:51,070 It's about a boy in the 6th grade who rapes a woman in her thirties. 609 01:02:53,920 --> 01:02:58,350 He commits a several crimes, 610 01:02:59,290 --> 01:03:03,160 he is a minor, so he can't get arrested. 611 01:03:03,560 --> 01:03:05,080 It's his story. 612 01:03:06,130 --> 01:03:12,160 People might be bothered about a rape by the 6th graders. 613 01:03:13,870 --> 01:03:17,400 It's an unusual theme for Japanese literature. 614 01:03:18,780 --> 01:03:22,910 If the author has a near death experience, 615 01:03:23,850 --> 01:03:28,840 I can imagine him being gentler to the protagonist. 616 01:03:29,950 --> 01:03:35,790 The author will not be able to condemn him so easily. 617 01:03:36,960 --> 01:03:39,760 I don't think the author can be too harsh. 618 01:03:53,280 --> 01:03:58,840 Sasebo - Atown where Mitsuharu Inoue spent his childhood 619 01:03:59,880 --> 01:04:01,650 I haven't finished correcting the manuscript. 620 01:04:05,420 --> 01:04:06,390 You brought it? 621 01:04:07,860 --> 01:04:10,330 I did. I have to do it. 622 01:04:10,690 --> 01:04:14,750 I have to send it out as soon as possible. 623 01:04:16,330 --> 01:04:19,670 I have to do it now. 624 01:04:42,530 --> 01:04:44,150 Can you fax them for me? 625 01:04:53,200 --> 01:04:56,330 Please make sure all the pages are faxed. 626 01:05:10,820 --> 01:05:15,520 Freedom is the most important concept in our lives. 627 01:05:16,160 --> 01:05:18,420 To be free is not to expect anything from anyone. 628 01:05:18,760 --> 01:05:23,890 In my novel, 'A Bold Life,' 629 01:05:25,000 --> 01:05:29,100 the protagonists are men and women in their sixties. 630 01:05:29,910 --> 01:05:33,970 One of them is an old woman... 631 01:05:35,780 --> 01:05:38,180 who likes to go to a department store... 632 01:05:39,450 --> 01:05:44,390 with a pair of scissors hidden in her bag. 633 01:05:44,690 --> 01:05:46,480 A small one. 634 01:05:47,390 --> 01:05:51,120 If she sees a beautiful dress on display, 635 01:05:51,490 --> 01:05:53,160 she just cuts off the sleeves. 636 01:05:55,060 --> 01:05:58,470 For her, it is a form of releasing stress. 637 01:05:59,240 --> 01:06:02,430 She doesn't steal. She just cuts them. 638 01:06:03,910 --> 01:06:06,570 I suppose that is a crime. 639 01:06:07,180 --> 01:06:09,610 But she's not hurting anyone. 640 01:06:10,310 --> 01:06:13,840 I think we can forgive her for it. That's what I think. 641 01:06:14,680 --> 01:06:16,080 It's OK. 642 01:06:16,550 --> 01:06:22,620 If your husband dies, and you're 65 or 70 years old, 643 01:06:23,230 --> 01:06:24,990 why can't you be in love? 644 01:06:26,130 --> 01:06:29,120 I say go for it. 645 01:06:29,500 --> 01:06:32,900 Even if you're cheating. Just don't get caught. 646 01:06:34,300 --> 01:06:38,570 Women especially have to be careful. 647 01:06:39,540 --> 01:06:43,980 I'm no sexist, but they tell their best friends. 648 01:06:44,310 --> 01:06:48,370 Then, the best friends tell otherfriends. 649 01:06:48,890 --> 01:06:55,290 Then, everyone finds out. 650 01:06:56,190 --> 01:07:01,060 You have to cheat elegantly... 651 01:07:01,500 --> 01:07:03,190 and passionately. 652 01:07:07,800 --> 01:07:11,300 When you grow older, you can do anything. 653 01:07:11,640 --> 01:07:14,340 You have to change the relationship... 654 01:07:14,440 --> 01:07:15,970 between you and the world. 655 01:07:16,750 --> 01:07:18,480 You should do everything. 656 01:07:20,020 --> 01:07:24,750 That's what it means to live life. 657 01:08:19,040 --> 01:08:25,340 This year, we heard his song. May we yet again next year. 658 01:08:30,850 --> 01:08:32,410 I don't know about next year. 659 01:08:34,560 --> 01:08:37,580 I only have two years left. 660 01:08:48,770 --> 01:08:50,640 The whisky tastes very good. 661 01:08:51,710 --> 01:08:55,110 Maybe my cancer is growing. 662 01:08:55,850 --> 01:08:58,510 That's possible, isn't it? 663 01:08:58,880 --> 01:09:01,850 That means it's diminishing. 664 01:09:02,750 --> 01:09:03,980 Nice try. 665 01:09:07,620 --> 01:09:11,180 All you guys from Nagasaki didn't send me any letters. 666 01:09:12,130 --> 01:09:14,460 You thought I was going to die. 667 01:09:16,970 --> 01:09:18,760 No, you'll never die. 668 01:09:18,870 --> 01:09:23,570 I wish they had told me I have three more years. 669 01:09:24,240 --> 01:09:30,870 Not four years, but three. I would have been very happy. 670 01:09:31,450 --> 01:09:36,110 Don't worry. You'll live at least three years. 671 01:09:36,450 --> 01:09:40,650 I don't talk like this elsewhere. 672 01:09:40,760 --> 01:09:46,520 How dare you ignore me at the hospital? 673 01:09:47,600 --> 01:09:49,900 I don't usually say things like that. 674 01:09:50,730 --> 01:09:54,640 I can talk like this in Sasebo. 675 01:09:54,970 --> 01:10:00,240 I wrote 200 pages and sent them by fax. 676 01:10:00,340 --> 01:10:03,040 It should be published soon. 677 01:10:03,480 --> 01:10:05,740 - Which one? - The New Year issue of Gunzo. 678 01:10:06,180 --> 01:10:10,310 You guys were thinking I was going to die soon. 679 01:10:11,890 --> 01:10:14,190 I wanted to prove otherwise. 680 01:10:15,320 --> 01:10:19,160 He always goes back to the hotel alone. 681 01:10:19,260 --> 01:10:24,600 Seeing him like that made me feel Ionely. 682 01:10:25,800 --> 01:10:31,540 I'm sure he felt that too. 683 01:10:32,510 --> 01:10:35,070 We went to a couple of different bars. 684 01:10:35,410 --> 01:10:41,180 He was staying at a hotel near the station. 685 01:10:41,820 --> 01:10:44,980 I was staying somewhere else. 686 01:10:45,660 --> 01:10:50,090 At the end of the night, it was just me and him. 687 01:10:50,460 --> 01:10:58,590 It was a very quiet night and he was alone in the dark. 688 01:10:59,940 --> 01:11:02,670 He said, "why don't you take your bag and come with me?" 689 01:11:04,710 --> 01:11:11,980 I remember the look on his face. 690 01:11:13,550 --> 01:11:15,810 I thought he asked me to spend the night. 691 01:11:16,390 --> 01:11:22,260 I think he wanted to talk all night. 692 01:11:24,890 --> 01:11:28,130 I remember that moment very well. 693 01:11:29,430 --> 01:11:32,060 The whole scene. 694 01:11:32,570 --> 01:11:37,870 It stayed in my mind. 695 01:11:38,910 --> 01:11:39,840 A beautiful moment. 696 01:11:40,510 --> 01:11:42,670 New Year's Day, 1991 697 01:11:42,980 --> 01:11:47,810 Mr. Inoue has completely recovered, like the phoenix from its ashes. 698 01:11:48,920 --> 01:11:56,760 May this year be full ofjoy. Everyone, happy year. 699 01:11:57,290 --> 01:11:58,990 Cheers. 700 01:11:59,860 --> 01:12:02,420 Since I don't have much time left, 701 01:12:04,600 --> 01:12:07,630 I think I'll stop being soft. 702 01:12:08,300 --> 01:12:14,270 I think we have to start from the very beginning. 703 01:12:16,910 --> 01:12:22,540 There's no point gathering an empty headed bunch like you, 704 01:12:22,850 --> 01:12:27,020 to teach and have fun for a few days a week. 705 01:12:36,230 --> 01:12:42,140 Please make a note that our relationship is in danger. 706 01:12:42,840 --> 01:12:48,300 I will cut you off. 707 01:12:48,610 --> 01:12:52,980 So please take this seriously and work hard. 708 01:12:53,450 --> 01:12:56,820 You might think I still teach, after all is said and done, 709 01:12:56,920 --> 01:12:59,890 but don't even think that. 710 01:13:04,630 --> 01:13:10,030 I can be friendly and charming, 711 01:13:10,500 --> 01:13:14,990 but I can cut you off anytime. 712 01:13:15,940 --> 01:13:18,530 I won't even pick up your calls. 713 01:13:22,210 --> 01:13:24,940 I have rights to live my own life. 714 01:13:25,480 --> 01:13:30,480 I mean, my remaining life. 715 01:13:50,240 --> 01:13:51,600 This is my pillow. 716 01:13:53,380 --> 01:13:55,070 Oh, I see. 717 01:14:00,420 --> 01:14:02,710 For my hemorrhoids. 718 01:14:02,820 --> 01:14:05,220 It hurts sometimes. 719 01:14:20,240 --> 01:14:22,670 Many of his students... 720 01:14:23,110 --> 01:14:27,870 were disillusioned and discouraged about life, 721 01:14:28,510 --> 01:14:32,610 I think he really inspired them. 722 01:14:33,180 --> 01:14:39,250 The students are very lucky to have him. 723 01:14:40,590 --> 01:14:42,850 No one else does this. 724 01:14:43,560 --> 01:14:45,990 He is passionate about teaching. 725 01:14:46,330 --> 01:14:49,060 It took up a lot of his time. 726 01:14:49,600 --> 01:14:53,730 Time he could have spent writing novels. 727 01:14:53,840 --> 01:14:58,070 A lot of energy went into teaching, 728 01:15:00,080 --> 01:15:04,770 so maybe one or two writers will come out of it. 729 01:15:05,150 --> 01:15:10,410 Maybe that was his way of entrusting his art. 730 01:15:11,950 --> 01:15:14,390 I don't want to force him to stop teaching. 731 01:15:14,490 --> 01:15:17,150 He is very serious about it. 732 01:15:17,590 --> 01:15:22,500 But I know he lost time and certainly risked his health. 733 01:15:22,600 --> 01:15:26,130 This is the very common way of fortune telling. 734 01:15:27,370 --> 01:15:31,860 Even if you're concerned about marriage, 735 01:15:31,970 --> 01:15:33,870 it might tell you something about yourfinances. 736 01:15:34,380 --> 01:15:37,370 I was born into the proscribed class, the Burakumin. 737 01:15:38,150 --> 01:15:42,680 For thirty long years, 738 01:15:45,220 --> 01:15:46,310 we suffered... 739 01:15:48,660 --> 01:15:52,790 the burden of discrimination. 740 01:15:53,430 --> 01:15:57,490 I was so inspired by him. 741 01:15:57,900 --> 01:16:02,100 He asked us what we thought of the Emperor system. 742 01:16:02,400 --> 01:16:06,530 I didn't even know what the word meant. 743 01:16:06,640 --> 01:16:12,310 I was not even aware of social problems at all. 744 01:16:12,780 --> 01:16:17,310 For me, Mr. Inoue's words were divine revelation. 745 01:16:17,620 --> 01:16:21,080 He opened up a future for me. 746 01:16:21,920 --> 01:16:24,390 This represents the past. 747 01:16:25,090 --> 01:16:27,220 These three cards represent the present. 748 01:16:28,200 --> 01:16:31,500 And this card is very important. 749 01:16:31,970 --> 01:16:35,990 Your history, your life force. 750 01:16:36,510 --> 01:16:38,700 I want to live by his words. 751 01:16:39,240 --> 01:16:45,080 I can find meanings to move on. 752 01:16:46,880 --> 01:16:49,870 I trust him that much. 753 01:16:50,144 --> 01:16:51,364 The Gulf War 754 01:16:51,774 --> 01:17:01,174 A Nun Goes on a Hunger Strike for Peace in the Middle East 755 01:17:02,414 --> 01:17:03,854 Your complexion is better. 756 01:17:04,154 --> 01:17:06,414 Really? I've been getting shots. 757 01:17:09,324 --> 01:17:11,814 - You do look better. - Because I've been debating. 758 01:17:12,124 --> 01:17:18,654 You told me you're all wrinkled, but that's not true. 759 01:17:20,174 --> 01:17:21,794 That's a nice pair of socks you have. 760 01:17:22,774 --> 01:17:23,894 You think so? 761 01:17:26,344 --> 01:17:27,814 They're OK. 762 01:17:30,514 --> 01:17:32,314 You're showing off, right? 763 01:17:32,884 --> 01:17:34,514 Not at all. 764 01:17:36,254 --> 01:17:39,414 It's just the way I held my leg. 765 01:17:40,624 --> 01:17:46,624 He read my fortune with cards in an airplane. 766 01:17:48,564 --> 01:17:49,654 He told me... 767 01:17:50,004 --> 01:17:53,124 He told me that I have to get rid of everything. 768 01:17:53,504 --> 01:18:00,704 So I came home and stopped writing a novel I was working on. 769 01:18:01,014 --> 01:18:06,414 I met him at the right time. 770 01:18:07,014 --> 01:18:12,424 I think my life did change back then. 771 01:18:12,994 --> 01:18:16,944 So I'm really grateful. 772 01:18:18,594 --> 01:18:22,824 His talent as a fortune teller comes... 773 01:18:23,464 --> 01:18:27,524 from his ability to explain with conviction as a writer. 774 01:18:28,134 --> 01:18:31,264 Everyone starts believing him. 775 01:18:33,874 --> 01:18:39,614 Sometimes his fortune telling is a hoax. 776 01:18:39,954 --> 01:18:43,644 He uses it to get girls. 777 01:18:45,154 --> 01:18:47,624 He tells them... 778 01:18:47,724 --> 01:18:53,024 "you will get a new boyfriend and that's me." 779 01:18:54,034 --> 01:18:56,294 I don't do that. 780 01:19:05,644 --> 01:19:07,874 This is where they start an operation. 781 01:19:16,754 --> 01:19:21,454 We move on to 'The Temptation.' 782 01:19:22,254 --> 01:19:23,884 Any comments from the author? 783 01:19:24,564 --> 01:19:26,854 I got sick of reading it again. 784 01:19:31,334 --> 01:19:35,434 The story reads like a popular novel. 785 01:19:36,074 --> 01:19:39,134 It's been re-arranged like literature, but it's not. 786 01:19:39,814 --> 01:19:45,574 A woman falls for a left wing activist with no charm. 787 01:19:45,984 --> 01:19:52,254 The woman falls for him because she has no charm either. 788 01:19:53,024 --> 01:19:59,424 You can make a comic book out of this. 789 01:20:00,264 --> 01:20:04,494 The story is very simplistic... 790 01:20:04,904 --> 01:20:07,924 and you just decorated it with big words. 791 01:20:08,604 --> 01:20:15,234 I've criticized you before, but you continued writing. 792 01:20:16,244 --> 01:20:19,974 I don't know his personal history, 793 01:20:20,284 --> 01:20:26,684 but he is completely stuck with the remnant of... 794 01:20:27,324 --> 01:20:29,384 his left wing philosophy. 795 01:20:29,794 --> 01:20:32,224 This is a step backward. 796 01:20:32,994 --> 01:20:37,334 It's written well and it's entertaining. 797 01:20:38,304 --> 01:20:39,824 But that's it. 798 01:20:41,034 --> 01:20:43,024 You should start from the beginning. 799 01:20:51,344 --> 01:20:53,574 After the surgery, 800 01:20:54,254 --> 01:21:01,314 my male and female hormones got unbalanced. 801 01:21:03,794 --> 01:21:05,354 I can feel it right here. 802 01:21:08,464 --> 01:21:11,124 It's true. Look. 803 01:21:13,374 --> 01:21:14,994 It's true. He has a lump. 804 01:21:17,944 --> 01:21:19,344 I have a lump here. 805 01:21:20,474 --> 01:21:27,474 He has a piercing look that sees through you. 806 01:21:30,784 --> 01:21:33,814 A look that makes your heart beat faster. 807 01:21:37,194 --> 01:21:40,094 I got really desperate and... 808 01:21:40,494 --> 01:21:45,404 told my doctor that I have a lump here. 809 01:21:46,034 --> 01:21:50,874 When he flirted with someone in my presence, 810 01:21:50,974 --> 01:21:53,844 I got so jealous. 811 01:21:55,414 --> 01:22:01,744 He did that on purpose and, 812 01:22:02,054 --> 01:22:09,514 I got so irritated with him. 813 01:22:09,964 --> 01:22:12,324 Sometimes I got so irritated, 814 01:22:13,294 --> 01:22:15,824 I couldn't sleep at night. 815 01:22:17,734 --> 01:22:25,364 I felt so foolish. But I just couldn't help it. 816 01:22:28,544 --> 01:22:35,414 I rarely get so stirred up like that. 817 01:22:35,514 --> 01:22:41,454 In a way, it motivated me to write. 818 01:22:44,024 --> 01:22:49,894 It gave me an incredible energy. 819 01:22:52,104 --> 01:22:54,034 I really like him. 820 01:22:55,204 --> 01:22:57,604 I don't know why. 821 01:23:06,214 --> 01:23:08,374 This here... 822 01:23:13,354 --> 01:23:15,344 is the second tunnel. 823 01:23:16,224 --> 01:23:18,124 Here's the main one. 824 01:23:20,734 --> 01:23:22,254 I worked there. 825 01:23:22,634 --> 01:23:26,724 Sakito A Source of Inoue's Literary Works 826 01:23:45,284 --> 01:23:47,774 There were a lot of coal mines around here. 827 01:23:48,194 --> 01:23:50,594 The entire ground has caved in. 828 01:23:55,164 --> 01:23:56,254 Near the second tunnel, 829 01:23:58,564 --> 01:24:02,864 there was a Korean brothel. 830 01:24:03,744 --> 01:24:11,674 There were two houses, large two story houses. 831 01:24:14,884 --> 01:24:18,084 All the girls sit by the window. 832 01:24:19,754 --> 01:24:24,024 Men line up in front of the house. 833 01:24:24,124 --> 01:24:31,624 If he sees someone he likes, they go upstairs. 834 01:24:32,104 --> 01:24:36,764 They all wore pretty skirts and had ribbons here. 835 01:24:37,144 --> 01:24:42,974 Sometimes they danced. 836 01:24:43,314 --> 01:24:46,944 On a payday at coal mines... 837 01:24:47,414 --> 01:24:49,544 Payday is called 'ukesen.' 838 01:24:50,054 --> 01:24:56,954 The first and the fifteenth were payday at the mines. 839 01:24:59,694 --> 01:25:04,654 All the girls dress up, put on make-up, and... 840 01:25:05,134 --> 01:25:07,624 walk around with bells. 841 01:25:08,374 --> 01:25:12,304 On the 14th and the 29th, they danced around. 842 01:25:13,044 --> 01:25:20,504 Tomorrow is a payday, so come and play with us. 843 01:25:22,484 --> 01:25:25,754 Very dramatic, wasn't it? 844 01:25:26,224 --> 01:25:27,984 It really was. 845 01:25:45,844 --> 01:25:47,504 There's nothing here now. 846 01:25:48,044 --> 01:25:53,774 You can't tell the railroad used to run here. 847 01:26:06,694 --> 01:26:08,424 On this tiny island, 848 01:26:08,794 --> 01:26:12,134 6,000 workers and their families used to live. 849 01:27:25,104 --> 01:27:27,804 I'd like to ask about your first love. 850 01:27:28,544 --> 01:27:30,414 I didn't go to high school. 851 01:27:31,444 --> 01:27:38,544 Those who did had to go to Sasebo or Nagasaki. 852 01:27:39,454 --> 01:27:42,784 So I ended up in the island trade school. 853 01:27:43,624 --> 01:27:50,534 She was a year above me. 854 01:27:51,504 --> 01:27:54,474 Inoue's First Love Tsuruyo Sai 855 01:27:54,934 --> 01:27:56,924 I liked her very much. 856 01:27:58,374 --> 01:28:01,704 After she graduated, 857 01:28:02,674 --> 01:28:09,084 she had to go to work in Nagoya. 858 01:28:09,384 --> 01:28:15,414 When she left for Nagoya, 859 01:28:17,594 --> 01:28:19,824 I quit school and left for Osaka. 860 01:28:19,924 --> 01:28:22,224 We left the island at the same time. 861 01:28:22,994 --> 01:28:29,024 On the 15th and 30th of 'ukesen' day, 862 01:28:31,574 --> 01:28:36,474 we made a promise to look up at the sky... 863 01:28:38,014 --> 01:28:41,974 and think of each other. Then we parted. 864 01:28:42,284 --> 01:28:49,384 I went to Osaka to go to school, but... 865 01:28:49,494 --> 01:28:53,124 I found out I had to take an exam. 866 01:28:53,424 --> 01:28:58,894 Since it made no difference where I studied, 867 01:28:59,334 --> 01:29:06,244 I went back to Sakito and worked there while I studied. 868 01:29:07,514 --> 01:29:15,244 On the day before 'ukesen,' 869 01:29:16,214 --> 01:29:25,524 the Korean prostitutes marched around the town... 870 01:29:26,964 --> 01:29:33,964 tempting us to go to the brothel the next day. 871 01:30:30,464 --> 01:30:34,394 There she was at the end of the line. 872 01:30:35,264 --> 01:30:36,664 She was supposed to be in Nagoya. 873 01:30:38,034 --> 01:30:39,894 I was so stunned. 874 01:30:41,204 --> 01:30:48,874 The next day, I gave my pay to my grandmother, 875 01:30:49,674 --> 01:30:52,704 but kept some money. 876 01:30:53,184 --> 01:30:54,274 I went to see her. 877 01:30:54,654 --> 01:30:59,144 I didn't go to the brothel to have fun. I was only fifteen. 878 01:30:59,784 --> 01:31:02,844 A woman around thirty came out, 879 01:31:04,824 --> 01:31:07,094 and told me she was not there. 880 01:31:07,464 --> 01:31:10,484 Then she asked me how much money I had. 881 01:31:11,134 --> 01:31:13,964 She stuck her hand into my pocket, 882 01:31:14,334 --> 01:31:16,304 and took the money. 883 01:31:16,404 --> 01:31:18,894 Then she prepared a futon. 884 01:31:19,544 --> 01:31:22,874 I slept with her. It all happened very fast. 885 01:31:23,444 --> 01:31:24,974 And then... 886 01:31:26,784 --> 01:31:31,244 I got really depressed, 887 01:31:33,084 --> 01:31:42,224 like a girl whose virginity was unwillingly taken away. 888 01:31:42,664 --> 01:31:48,964 I wasn't even sure if I actually slept with a woman. 889 01:31:49,074 --> 01:31:54,634 I was confused and still am. Anyway, I left the brothel. 890 01:31:54,744 --> 01:32:01,114 All the prostitutes were on the second floor, 891 01:32:01,214 --> 01:32:05,344 laughing at me. 892 01:32:09,424 --> 01:32:11,984 She was one of them. 893 01:32:12,964 --> 01:32:15,024 She was laughing at me. 894 01:32:15,434 --> 01:32:20,524 If she had come out and slept with me, 895 01:32:20,634 --> 01:32:22,534 it would have made more sense. 896 01:32:22,874 --> 01:32:24,734 But that was what happened. 897 01:32:40,694 --> 01:32:42,484 That was my first love. 898 01:32:52,104 --> 01:32:54,534 Rokufuen Retirement Home 899 01:32:58,944 --> 01:33:00,874 Inoue's Grandmother's Relative 900 01:33:01,044 --> 01:33:04,744 Who lived with Mr. Inoue back then? 901 01:33:07,554 --> 01:33:11,144 His father, his grandmother, and his sister. 902 01:33:11,524 --> 01:33:12,744 - So, four of them? - Yes. 903 01:33:14,154 --> 01:33:16,124 They lived on this island. 904 01:33:16,924 --> 01:33:20,824 - The father worked at the mines? - That's right. 905 01:33:20,934 --> 01:33:23,954 Inoue's father, who went missing, according to his autobiography, 906 01:33:24,064 --> 01:33:26,094 actually lived with them in Sakito. 907 01:33:26,534 --> 01:33:29,904 "My father wandered around in China as if he was obsessed. 908 01:33:30,004 --> 01:33:33,994 Then, he suddenly disappeared." - Mitsuharu Inoue Autobiography 909 01:33:34,674 --> 01:33:36,574 Sakito High School Register 910 01:33:37,514 --> 01:33:39,534 Name: Mitsuharu Inoue 911 01:33:45,724 --> 01:33:48,884 Name: Yukio Relation to the student: Father 912 01:33:49,394 --> 01:33:53,054 Nishisonogi, Nagasaki 913 01:34:01,334 --> 01:34:03,304 Yourfather was in Sakito? 914 01:34:03,674 --> 01:34:05,834 Inoue's Sister Tazuko Okashita 915 01:34:05,904 --> 01:34:13,474 Yes. He was working in the office at the mines. 916 01:34:13,714 --> 01:34:22,124 He did that and painted warning signs. 917 01:34:22,694 --> 01:34:25,824 Father Yukio Inoue 918 01:34:28,334 --> 01:34:30,994 So I was about to go to junior high. 919 01:34:31,964 --> 01:34:34,304 Sakito is an island. 920 01:34:34,404 --> 01:34:38,064 The mailman comes on a boat once a day. 921 01:34:38,974 --> 01:34:42,704 We had to send in application forms. 922 01:34:43,514 --> 01:34:47,034 My teacher asked me... 923 01:34:47,484 --> 01:34:52,814 if I wanted to go to school. 924 01:34:53,754 --> 01:35:00,184 I wanted to go to school in Nagasaki or Sasebo. 925 01:35:00,294 --> 01:35:07,934 But a check didn't arrive by the application deadline. 926 01:35:08,404 --> 01:35:12,104 I have forgiven him mostly. 927 01:35:12,504 --> 01:35:16,964 I think he did what he could. 928 01:35:17,314 --> 01:35:21,114 But that was one of the things I can't forgive. 929 01:35:21,754 --> 01:35:25,654 He knew I was at an age to go tojunior high. 930 01:35:26,184 --> 01:35:29,214 He could not have forgotten that. 931 01:35:29,324 --> 01:35:31,624 So I didn't make it tojunior high. 932 01:35:31,924 --> 01:35:34,364 Inoue's Classmate from Sasebo Grade School 933 01:35:34,564 --> 01:35:37,994 I saw him at the exam of Sasebo Junior High. 934 01:35:38,434 --> 01:35:39,834 According to his autobiography, 935 01:35:39,904 --> 01:35:43,804 he claims he didn't even send an application. 936 01:35:43,904 --> 01:35:47,234 Well, I did see him there. 937 01:35:48,014 --> 01:35:50,274 Inoue's Classmate from Sakito Grade School 938 01:35:50,344 --> 01:35:53,044 I heard he failed the exam. 939 01:35:53,144 --> 01:35:55,244 He failed. 940 01:35:55,814 --> 01:35:58,914 My grandmother went with him. 941 01:35:59,224 --> 01:36:03,184 She was worried that he might commit suicide. 942 01:36:03,794 --> 01:36:06,664 She couldn't take her eyes off him. 943 01:36:06,764 --> 01:36:11,424 It was about an hour and a half boat ride back to Sakito. 944 01:36:11,734 --> 01:36:14,164 She said she was really scared. 945 01:36:14,534 --> 01:36:20,064 Then he went to the island trade school in Sakito. 946 01:36:20,404 --> 01:36:27,874 He studied very hard there. 947 01:36:29,014 --> 01:36:31,214 And passed the exam. 948 01:36:31,984 --> 01:36:39,414 He used to cough blood and had nose bleeds often. 949 01:36:40,464 --> 01:36:41,954 He was not in good shape. 950 01:36:47,904 --> 01:36:52,604 Inoue passed the exam at the age of sixteen 951 01:36:53,704 --> 01:36:56,004 I came up with a job to contact the spirits. 952 01:36:56,774 --> 01:36:59,834 Inoue's Classmate from Sakito Grade School 953 01:36:59,944 --> 01:37:03,184 - I heard it was a big success. - No, not at all. 954 01:37:03,654 --> 01:37:12,284 At the mines, we were being watched by the company. 955 01:37:12,894 --> 01:37:16,094 Sakito was an island. 956 01:37:16,194 --> 01:37:21,694 We couldn't even run away. 957 01:37:22,004 --> 01:37:31,174 No one could pull off schemes like that under the circumstances. 958 01:37:32,984 --> 01:37:37,814 I read that he lost his virginity at the Korean brothel. 959 01:37:37,924 --> 01:37:38,814 Did you know about this? 960 01:37:39,224 --> 01:37:43,184 Yes. But I was very surprised. 961 01:37:43,294 --> 01:37:46,524 He said the prostitutes marched around the town. 962 01:37:46,824 --> 01:37:50,394 I didn't know about that. 963 01:37:52,204 --> 01:37:53,464 Hello. 964 01:37:54,204 --> 01:37:57,174 You know Inoue's story... 965 01:37:57,274 --> 01:38:03,474 about Korean prostitutes marching around the town. 966 01:38:03,574 --> 01:38:06,634 I've never heard that in real life. 967 01:38:06,744 --> 01:38:08,614 Right? 968 01:38:08,714 --> 01:38:10,484 Never seen it either. 969 01:38:10,954 --> 01:38:18,154 Why would they march around the town before the payday? 970 01:38:18,464 --> 01:38:23,054 How about his first love who appears in his autobiography? 971 01:38:23,164 --> 01:38:26,724 Her name is Tsuruyo Sai. 972 01:38:27,134 --> 01:38:28,534 Yes, I read it. 973 01:38:29,604 --> 01:38:31,734 Do you know who she is? 974 01:38:32,374 --> 01:38:37,644 I heard there was a Korean girl... 975 01:38:38,284 --> 01:38:43,544 who was the top of the class. Two years senior. 976 01:38:44,224 --> 01:38:47,584 There were a lot of Koreans working at the mines, 977 01:38:47,694 --> 01:38:54,114 but I never heard of anyone who sold their daughter to the brothel. 978 01:38:54,634 --> 01:38:58,324 That's probably a part of Inoue's fictional world. 979 01:39:28,664 --> 01:39:32,724 There is no such thing as a perfect chronology. 980 01:39:33,164 --> 01:39:34,934 Let's say we... 981 01:39:38,274 --> 01:39:39,634 erase here... 982 01:39:45,344 --> 01:39:46,374 and here. 983 01:39:51,654 --> 01:39:57,654 This is summer and fall at age 21. 984 01:39:58,324 --> 01:40:00,314 And this is the time line. 985 01:40:00,934 --> 01:40:04,734 Erase here, too. 986 01:40:08,974 --> 01:40:17,674 To describe everything from here to here is what we consider truth. 987 01:40:18,514 --> 01:40:20,504 But we write what we choose to write. 988 01:40:21,114 --> 01:40:30,024 Writing about this part, or here, or here, they're all true. 989 01:40:30,924 --> 01:40:32,294 Let's call this A. 990 01:40:32,394 --> 01:40:35,484 Then A+B+C... 991 01:40:37,964 --> 01:40:42,764 is also the truth. But this is "fiction." 992 01:40:44,034 --> 01:40:51,104 Because we made a choice to write about it. 993 01:40:51,214 --> 01:40:57,614 This is the truth here. And here, too. 994 01:40:57,724 --> 01:41:01,484 Let's call R+X. 995 01:41:02,524 --> 01:41:07,724 So all the things you don't want to write about... 996 01:41:08,164 --> 01:41:13,124 is R+X. 997 01:41:13,504 --> 01:41:17,334 Then there is A+B+C. 998 01:41:17,904 --> 01:41:22,434 These two formulas combined is what we call life. 999 01:41:23,814 --> 01:41:30,474 But we never use both of these formulas. 1000 01:41:31,954 --> 01:41:36,324 Human beings have things they don't want to share with others. 1001 01:41:36,854 --> 01:41:38,054 This is the truth, 1002 01:41:38,394 --> 01:41:43,954 but what we choose to tell from the truth is fiction. 1003 01:41:44,564 --> 01:41:49,664 We can only choose a fraction of the truth. 1004 01:41:50,004 --> 01:41:53,494 That's why there's no such thing as a perfect chronology. 1005 01:41:55,874 --> 01:42:02,444 The cancer has spread into both of my lungs. 1006 01:42:02,914 --> 01:42:07,254 I went through various tests just now and... 1007 01:42:09,024 --> 01:42:11,454 we're waiting for the results. 1008 01:42:12,664 --> 01:42:17,034 I might need to be hospitalized, 1009 01:42:17,334 --> 01:42:19,764 and go through surgery. 1010 01:42:20,634 --> 01:42:24,364 After that, chemotherapy. 1011 01:42:25,504 --> 01:42:32,004 I intend to do my best to stay alive. 1012 01:42:57,804 --> 01:43:02,034 Please finish your meal two hours prior to the test. 1013 01:43:07,184 --> 01:43:12,114 Why not do it right away before it spreads? 1014 01:43:12,624 --> 01:43:14,684 It won't spread that fast. 1015 01:43:18,924 --> 01:43:20,864 There's no doubt. 1016 01:43:21,994 --> 01:43:28,904 There's some here under the lung. 1017 01:43:29,374 --> 01:43:33,034 It spread to the left side, too. 1018 01:43:34,104 --> 01:43:38,304 The biggest one is here on the left. 1019 01:43:40,544 --> 01:43:42,344 There are a lot of them. 1020 01:43:43,854 --> 01:43:47,654 I have to be honest and tell you that... 1021 01:43:48,254 --> 01:43:52,384 no surgery can prevent it from spreading. 1022 01:43:53,164 --> 01:43:55,394 I can't guarantee that... 1023 01:43:55,764 --> 01:44:02,104 a surgery can help you live longer at this point. 1024 01:44:02,404 --> 01:44:04,924 It is case by case. 1025 01:44:05,374 --> 01:44:08,934 I thought I had to have an operation. 1026 01:44:09,314 --> 01:44:14,804 So if you can tell me what you think is the best, 1027 01:44:15,484 --> 01:44:17,784 that would help me make my decision. 1028 01:44:18,224 --> 01:44:19,944 Inoue decides against surgery 1029 01:44:20,054 --> 01:44:22,384 He continues a traditional anti-cancer drug treatment. 1030 01:44:23,024 --> 01:44:26,824 He wouldn't drop dead just like that. 1031 01:44:30,494 --> 01:44:34,864 Our family is a little different from others. 1032 01:44:39,704 --> 01:44:43,204 I guess it's probably my fault. 1033 01:44:47,914 --> 01:44:52,284 People tell my wife "good luck after your husband is gone." 1034 01:44:54,424 --> 01:44:56,054 "Are you going to re-marry?" 1035 01:44:57,964 --> 01:45:00,154 They asked me that. 1036 01:45:01,894 --> 01:45:03,794 People talk. 1037 01:45:11,274 --> 01:45:13,004 Ikeko Ikeda 1038 01:45:13,504 --> 01:45:17,344 Beauty of Home published in the April 1954 issue 1039 01:45:24,154 --> 01:45:27,124 Inoue said he is a quarter Korean. 1040 01:45:27,524 --> 01:45:32,484 He told me he is half or quarter Korean. 1041 01:45:33,294 --> 01:45:38,394 That means his grandfather or grandmother was Korean. 1042 01:45:38,764 --> 01:45:43,934 I believe he's a quarter Korean... 1043 01:45:44,304 --> 01:45:45,774 if that's what he said. 1044 01:45:45,974 --> 01:45:51,604 We always gossiped about it. 1045 01:45:52,184 --> 01:45:56,844 He always kept it mysterious. 1046 01:45:59,884 --> 01:46:02,324 Okochiyama, Saga 1047 01:46:03,824 --> 01:46:06,764 Origin of Imari-style Ceramics 1048 01:46:11,034 --> 01:46:16,134 My grandfather was the Kabuki great, Dainoshin. 1049 01:46:16,974 --> 01:46:19,834 You think Dainoshin Ichikawa existed? 1050 01:46:20,644 --> 01:46:23,134 I have no idea. 1051 01:46:23,574 --> 01:46:30,344 I'm pretty sure Inoue has no relation to the Ichikawa Family. 1052 01:46:31,524 --> 01:46:35,184 Never heard of it. 1053 01:46:35,754 --> 01:46:40,354 Grandfather Dainoshin Ichikawa doesn't exist. 1054 01:46:43,664 --> 01:46:44,594 Excuse me. 1055 01:46:49,834 --> 01:46:52,894 I was told that his grandmother... 1056 01:46:53,104 --> 01:46:57,374 used to work as "damikou." 1057 01:46:57,474 --> 01:46:58,704 I heard that too. 1058 01:46:59,544 --> 01:47:02,984 "Damikou" Imari Ceramic colorist 1059 01:47:04,454 --> 01:47:09,324 I heard a lot of rumors. 1060 01:47:10,154 --> 01:47:13,594 I heard that she fell in love, 1061 01:47:14,364 --> 01:47:17,524 and had an illegitimate child. 1062 01:47:18,034 --> 01:47:22,934 That was the rumor. 1063 01:47:23,034 --> 01:47:24,564 - The child was Yukio? - Right. 1064 01:47:25,044 --> 01:47:28,104 The grandmother worked as a colorist in Imari, 1065 01:47:28,214 --> 01:47:31,974 fell in love with someone, and had Yukio. 1066 01:47:32,884 --> 01:47:40,784 He told me his real name is Yukio Kanegae. 1067 01:47:43,024 --> 01:47:46,424 He told me he was adopted by the Inoue family. 1068 01:47:48,294 --> 01:47:55,634 He is a descendant of Ri Sampei. That's what he said. 1069 01:48:00,844 --> 01:48:04,904 Sampei was a Korean craftsman who came to Japan... 1070 01:48:05,014 --> 01:48:09,604 and made a name for himself for Arita Ceramics. 1071 01:48:10,214 --> 01:48:13,274 Later he changed his name to Kanegae. 1072 01:48:14,184 --> 01:48:21,754 Have you heard that Yukio was a descendant of Ri Sampei? 1073 01:48:21,864 --> 01:48:28,064 Yes, I have. That's how I remember it. 1074 01:48:28,874 --> 01:48:33,204 I believe Yukio was a relative. 1075 01:48:35,074 --> 01:48:43,214 Yukio was the best craftsman in the Hizen area. 1076 01:48:44,614 --> 01:48:51,024 No one could draw as well as he did. 1077 01:49:14,954 --> 01:49:19,944 I remember him spending all his spare time... 1078 01:49:20,054 --> 01:49:24,454 working on erotic drawings. 1079 01:49:24,864 --> 01:49:30,494 I still remember one of his wonderful drawings... 1080 01:49:30,994 --> 01:49:36,634 of a lady having sex with a dog. 1081 01:49:37,034 --> 01:49:44,634 I particularly remember the joyful look of the dog. 1082 01:50:30,124 --> 01:50:32,024 She loves sake. 1083 01:50:33,524 --> 01:50:35,424 The front one is my grandmother's. 1084 01:50:36,234 --> 01:50:39,324 The one wrapped with wire. 1085 01:50:39,434 --> 01:50:42,364 - The biggest one on the left? - That's right. 1086 01:50:42,874 --> 01:50:44,934 It says Takashima, not Nakashima. 1087 01:50:45,044 --> 01:50:46,304 Saku Takashima. 1088 01:50:47,044 --> 01:50:51,134 - It says eighty nine? - Right. 1089 01:50:51,474 --> 01:50:56,914 - Her name is not Saka, but Saku. - I thought her name was Saka. 1090 01:50:57,914 --> 01:50:59,354 Here's Saka. 1091 01:51:00,084 --> 01:51:02,684 The relatives of Saka 1092 01:51:04,454 --> 01:51:07,484 Grandmother Saka 1093 01:51:12,064 --> 01:51:13,554 What's her husband's name? 1094 01:51:14,264 --> 01:51:18,174 - I don't know. - Me neither. 1095 01:51:20,974 --> 01:51:23,004 Never seen him. 1096 01:51:24,244 --> 01:51:26,774 She changed her name to Inoue. 1097 01:51:27,084 --> 01:51:28,444 I didn't know about it. 1098 01:51:30,814 --> 01:51:34,084 We started calling her Granma Inoue. 1099 01:51:35,854 --> 01:51:39,794 How come you don't remember her husband's name? 1100 01:51:40,924 --> 01:51:43,594 They separated right away. 1101 01:51:44,864 --> 01:51:46,694 We don't remember him. 1102 01:51:50,834 --> 01:51:54,134 My father's name was Yukio Inoue. 1103 01:51:54,774 --> 01:51:57,874 I'm looking for his father's register. 1104 01:51:59,714 --> 01:52:01,614 - Your grandfather? - Yes. 1105 01:52:01,914 --> 01:52:05,914 I would like to take a look. 1106 01:52:06,324 --> 01:52:10,254 Please fill this out. Do you know his address? 1107 01:52:10,954 --> 01:52:14,324 No. They all passed away so long ago. 1108 01:52:14,424 --> 01:52:17,194 - Yourfather's place of birth? - I don't know. 1109 01:52:17,664 --> 01:52:19,894 - Any information about that? - Not at all. 1110 01:52:21,334 --> 01:52:24,634 - How about his name? - I don't have any information. 1111 01:52:30,874 --> 01:52:33,404 We don't have a lot of family members. 1112 01:52:37,354 --> 01:52:39,414 Your grandmother's name? 1113 01:52:39,524 --> 01:52:42,954 I think Saku or Saka. 1114 01:52:43,954 --> 01:52:45,654 Yes, Saku. 1115 01:52:52,534 --> 01:52:55,024 I see a sister named Saku. 1116 01:52:55,134 --> 01:52:59,094 The old register may not be reliable. 1117 01:53:01,544 --> 01:53:06,644 First Daughter: Saku Third Son: Yukio 1118 01:53:07,544 --> 01:53:09,714 It says here brother and sister. 1119 01:53:10,384 --> 01:53:13,614 They were registered as brother and sister. 1120 01:53:14,384 --> 01:53:16,984 - Brother and sister? - That's right. 1121 01:53:21,524 --> 01:53:25,964 - Your father and Saka? - Brother and sister. 1122 01:53:26,404 --> 01:53:30,094 Grandmother Saka and father Yukio were registered as siblings. 1123 01:53:51,254 --> 01:53:55,494 I think Saka was abandoned by her lover. 1124 01:53:56,334 --> 01:53:58,954 That's why she was determined... 1125 01:54:00,264 --> 01:54:04,504 to raise Inoue to be a strong manly man. 1126 01:54:05,244 --> 01:54:09,234 - She was vengeful? - Yes. 1127 01:54:10,544 --> 01:54:15,884 She poured cold water on his penis when they took a bath. 1128 01:54:16,514 --> 01:54:20,754 And she prayed and prayed. 1129 01:54:21,484 --> 01:54:24,724 Inoue had no idea why she was doing that. 1130 01:54:35,034 --> 01:54:37,934 - Does it hurt at all? - No. 1131 01:54:39,144 --> 01:54:40,194 I just feel a little chilly. 1132 01:54:43,574 --> 01:54:47,074 - You can go home now. - Thank you. 1133 01:54:47,684 --> 01:54:50,914 - Take care. - Thanks. 1134 01:54:57,094 --> 01:55:01,524 It's warm, so I don't need the long underwear. 1135 01:55:30,294 --> 01:55:32,024 I hope you'll take this. 1136 01:55:32,394 --> 01:55:39,854 We're sincerely hoping for your recovery. 1137 01:55:41,834 --> 01:55:45,104 I won't refuse. Thank you. 1138 01:55:47,574 --> 01:55:50,474 To live or not to live. 1139 01:55:52,314 --> 01:55:57,344 If I thought I wouldn't live, I would lose all the energy. 1140 01:55:59,224 --> 01:56:04,154 Either way, I won't go away quietly. I'm serious. 1141 01:56:04,824 --> 01:56:08,054 Can you imagine what it's like? 1142 01:56:08,864 --> 01:56:11,124 - It's not easy. - Don't worry. 1143 01:56:12,734 --> 01:56:14,634 It's very difficult. 1144 01:56:18,004 --> 01:56:19,334 What can you do? 1145 01:56:24,674 --> 01:56:26,164 I'm thinking... 1146 01:56:28,754 --> 01:56:34,344 no matter what you say, it won't help me anyway. 1147 01:56:34,724 --> 01:56:36,414 I can't help thinking that. 1148 01:56:53,744 --> 01:56:55,434 You have a lot of energy. 1149 01:56:56,114 --> 01:56:57,074 No, I don't. 1150 01:57:00,884 --> 01:57:04,244 Can't you joke around anymore? 1151 01:57:07,224 --> 01:57:09,714 My doctor's name is also Inoue. 1152 01:57:16,164 --> 01:57:18,654 He asked me if I hurt anywhere, so I said no. 1153 01:57:18,764 --> 01:57:20,134 He asked me if I was sure. 1154 01:57:21,064 --> 01:57:22,554 So I said my feelings hurt. 1155 01:57:25,774 --> 01:57:27,504 Then he smirked. 1156 01:57:29,574 --> 01:57:31,734 I just don't want to die. 1157 01:57:32,184 --> 01:57:37,374 There is no revelation or sense of enlightenment. 1158 01:57:37,954 --> 01:57:41,544 I just want to live longer. That's all. 1159 01:58:10,254 --> 01:58:14,814 During this period, Inoue produced many pieces, as if he was obsessed. 1160 01:58:18,764 --> 01:58:20,724 Japan lost the war. 1161 01:58:21,324 --> 01:58:24,494 I wanted to go to Tokyo University. 1162 01:58:24,594 --> 01:58:29,904 But I had two choices. Either start my life all over again... 1163 01:58:30,004 --> 01:58:35,034 or become a revolutionary. I chose the latter. 1164 01:58:35,344 --> 01:58:40,334 I was the first one to launch a Communist party in Japan. 1165 01:58:40,744 --> 01:58:42,874 I was nineteen years old. 1166 01:58:44,214 --> 01:58:50,624 I was a Secretary General of the new Communist party. 1167 01:58:51,094 --> 01:58:54,424 Then, a real Communist member came and... 1168 01:58:54,794 --> 01:58:57,664 asked where we got permission to form the party. 1169 01:58:58,494 --> 01:59:03,834 I said "do you need permission to start a party?" He laughed at me. 1170 01:59:04,374 --> 01:59:12,244 I was under the impression that he was more interested in writing. 1171 01:59:12,644 --> 01:59:19,884 New Japanese Literature was the largest left wing publication. 1172 01:59:20,284 --> 01:59:24,314 It was the April 1949 issue. 1173 01:59:24,424 --> 01:59:28,414 His four pages long poem 'Song of Dolphin' got published. 1174 01:59:28,524 --> 01:59:31,964 He was so excited. 1175 01:59:32,464 --> 01:59:37,134 We were in a small room with a view of the bay. 1176 01:59:37,234 --> 01:59:42,734 We could see the ships. 1177 01:59:42,844 --> 01:59:44,314 A very picturesque view. 1178 01:59:44,414 --> 01:59:51,404 I read it aloud to him many times. 1179 01:59:51,714 --> 02:00:00,184 He listened to me and I remember he was very nervous. 1180 02:00:00,724 --> 02:00:05,324 I was touched and he was in tears. 1181 02:00:05,634 --> 02:00:13,564 That was the first and last time... 1182 02:00:13,674 --> 02:00:16,834 I thought of him as very pure. 1183 02:00:16,944 --> 02:00:24,514 I thought that he might focus more on writing. 1184 02:00:24,954 --> 02:00:28,714 I told him to decide whether he works for the Party or... 1185 02:00:28,824 --> 02:00:33,054 studies to become a novelist. I told him it's cowardice not to choose. 1186 02:00:33,164 --> 02:00:34,454 We got into a fight. 1187 02:00:34,964 --> 02:00:39,364 I hit him, too. It was a perfect chance to get back at him. 1188 02:00:41,364 --> 02:00:45,964 I joined the party for revolution. 1189 02:00:46,544 --> 02:00:49,164 He was in charge of Kyushu district, 1190 02:00:49,274 --> 02:00:51,834 but it didn't mean that he worked everyday. 1191 02:00:51,944 --> 02:00:55,434 It is so indicated in his biography, but... 1192 02:00:55,784 --> 02:01:03,584 He was sort of an errand boy for the Communist Party. 1193 02:01:03,894 --> 02:01:10,554 All he did was show up at the committee a few times a month. 1194 02:01:11,334 --> 02:01:16,734 I was in charge of payroll for the Party members. 1195 02:01:17,234 --> 02:01:21,104 To my knowledge, 1196 02:01:21,204 --> 02:01:25,074 I don't think he was ever seriously involved. 1197 02:01:25,174 --> 02:01:29,344 How can we expect a revolution if everyone has to get paid? 1198 02:01:29,754 --> 02:01:33,484 I made my point at the meeting. 1199 02:01:34,024 --> 02:01:38,044 Everyone talked back at me like bureaucrats. 1200 02:01:38,454 --> 02:01:42,224 They told me I'm the only one complaining. 1201 02:01:42,334 --> 02:01:44,094 No payroll, no revolution. 1202 02:01:44,964 --> 02:01:49,564 No travel expense, then no more trip. 1203 02:01:50,134 --> 02:01:55,094 So I wrote 'The Chapter Unwritten.' 1204 02:01:55,714 --> 02:02:01,144 I wrote that the Communist Party wasn't capable of revolution. 1205 02:02:01,644 --> 02:02:06,054 Inoue's literary career began by criticizing the Communist Party. 1206 02:02:06,584 --> 02:02:09,784 When he wrote 'The Chapter Unwritten,' 1207 02:02:10,494 --> 02:02:18,954 I'm sure he knew that he would face expulsion and he wanted it. 1208 02:02:19,704 --> 02:02:23,434 No one had written anything like it. 1209 02:02:23,874 --> 02:02:32,104 He also knew that his criticism of the Party would launch his career... 1210 02:02:32,944 --> 02:02:34,144 I was expelled. 1211 02:02:35,114 --> 02:02:42,814 I was the first to form the Party, but also the first to be expelled. 1212 02:02:43,224 --> 02:02:51,154 I think he was full of lies and contradictions sometimes. 1213 02:02:51,764 --> 02:02:56,204 Yet we stuck together and worked hard. 1214 02:02:56,304 --> 02:03:00,574 In that sense, I couldn't have lived without him... 1215 02:03:00,944 --> 02:03:05,074 during that period of my life. 1216 02:03:05,644 --> 02:03:11,644 It's a very precious time in my life. 1217 02:03:12,324 --> 02:03:14,554 Please leave it alone. 1218 02:03:55,664 --> 02:03:58,564 I got the CT scan results. 1219 02:03:58,934 --> 02:03:59,794 No hope? 1220 02:04:03,474 --> 02:04:05,764 - What's this? - The lungs. 1221 02:04:06,704 --> 02:04:09,364 A cross section. 1222 02:04:11,674 --> 02:04:14,304 This white spot is the problem. 1223 02:04:15,244 --> 02:04:18,844 But there's no sign of pleurisy. 1224 02:04:20,984 --> 02:04:23,474 Just in the lungs. 1225 02:04:26,194 --> 02:04:28,854 What's going to happen to that spot? 1226 02:04:29,234 --> 02:04:32,594 Well, the smaller, the better. 1227 02:04:32,964 --> 02:04:34,434 - It can get bigger or smaller? - Yes. 1228 02:04:37,504 --> 02:04:39,834 You think it could be smaller? 1229 02:04:40,374 --> 02:04:44,934 Yes. The treatment takes a while to see the results. 1230 02:04:46,244 --> 02:04:49,774 We need two months to see the result. 1231 02:04:51,084 --> 02:04:58,494 I checked a blood protein count and it's no worse than before. 1232 02:05:01,924 --> 02:05:04,864 - Need to build up strength. - That's right. 1233 02:05:05,294 --> 02:05:09,394 The lesions have gotten bigger. 1234 02:05:09,874 --> 02:05:15,504 I must say I'm a little concerned. 1235 02:05:16,274 --> 02:05:22,734 Compared to the last scan, it has gotten slightly bigger. 1236 02:05:23,454 --> 02:05:26,714 This is the cross section of his lungs. 1237 02:05:27,454 --> 02:05:35,954 You can see a cavity here... 1238 02:05:36,064 --> 02:05:42,224 and others where the arrows are. 1239 02:05:42,774 --> 02:05:45,394 Six all together. 1240 02:05:46,344 --> 02:05:50,204 A very expensive medicine from China. 1241 02:05:53,944 --> 02:06:01,544 It's called 851. It was developed in January 1985. 1242 02:06:28,844 --> 02:06:29,944 Long time no see. 1243 02:06:37,194 --> 02:06:43,394 Inoue's stage play 'Tomorrow' 1244 02:08:10,884 --> 02:08:11,874 Excuse me. 1245 02:08:12,554 --> 02:08:16,784 Tazuko discovered that her cousin is still alive and decides to visit. 1246 02:08:17,694 --> 02:08:19,424 I'm Tazuko. 1247 02:08:21,794 --> 02:08:24,734 Inoue's mother's brother Jitsuro Nakahashi 1248 02:08:27,034 --> 02:08:30,804 - She had a tough life. - Yes, I think so. 1249 02:08:47,324 --> 02:08:52,344 Can you tell us how Takako and Yukio met? 1250 02:08:52,864 --> 02:08:55,824 They were both working in Kurume. 1251 02:08:56,664 --> 02:08:59,424 I think he liked her first... 1252 02:09:00,604 --> 02:09:04,124 and wanted to marry her. 1253 02:09:04,874 --> 02:09:07,364 I think they loved each other in the beginning. 1254 02:09:08,744 --> 02:09:12,704 Inoue's essay says he was born over there. 1255 02:09:13,114 --> 02:09:14,234 In Manchuria. 1256 02:09:14,344 --> 02:09:16,544 I was born in Manchuria. 1257 02:09:16,984 --> 02:09:21,814 According to his autobiography, he was born in Manchuria. 1258 02:09:21,924 --> 02:09:22,854 That's a lie. 1259 02:09:23,324 --> 02:09:28,124 That's a part of his fiction. His imaginary world. 1260 02:09:28,764 --> 02:09:36,364 Birth Place - Fukuoka, Kurume, 1259 Nishimachi, 1261 02:09:39,644 --> 02:09:41,164 Father: Yukio, Mother: Taka, First Son: Mitsuharu 1262 02:09:42,044 --> 02:09:45,914 She was very quiet and didn't say much. 1263 02:09:46,944 --> 02:09:54,354 As a mother, I couldn't forgive her for abandoning her children. 1264 02:09:54,684 --> 02:09:58,814 I don't know why she couldn't be more patient. 1265 02:09:59,494 --> 02:10:02,794 I still feel that way. 1266 02:10:04,494 --> 02:10:07,554 - For abandoning the children? - Yes. 1267 02:10:22,914 --> 02:10:25,404 When ourfather wasn't around, 1268 02:10:25,514 --> 02:10:29,884 my brother and I studied our mother in the drawing. 1269 02:10:32,494 --> 02:10:34,684 Ourfather drew it. 1270 02:11:08,524 --> 02:11:09,864 Inoue used to tell me, 1271 02:11:10,194 --> 02:11:14,294 "How nice that you have your mother and your parents together." 1272 02:11:17,134 --> 02:11:23,134 He was a tough kid, but not when it came to that. 1273 02:11:23,844 --> 02:11:29,544 His grandfather said he would take him to his mother... 1274 02:11:30,154 --> 02:11:33,514 when he grew up. 1275 02:11:33,624 --> 02:11:35,344 He was looking forward to that trip. 1276 02:11:36,224 --> 02:11:39,314 It was his mother after all. 1277 02:11:41,464 --> 02:11:44,894 So I dressed him forthe trip. 1278 02:12:01,184 --> 02:12:04,414 She wasn't exactly happy to see him. 1279 02:12:05,814 --> 02:12:09,344 She remarried and had three children. 1280 02:12:09,654 --> 02:12:13,924 So Mitsuharu told his sister not to go see her. 1281 02:12:14,264 --> 02:12:18,094 He was turned away at the door. 1282 02:12:18,934 --> 02:12:22,954 He told his sister, "Don't bother to go see her. There's no point." 1283 02:12:23,274 --> 02:12:31,074 My brother told me it's better to imagine our mother... 1284 02:12:31,374 --> 02:12:33,434 than go see her in person. 1285 02:12:34,714 --> 02:12:36,744 When I went to Fukuoka on a school trip, 1286 02:12:36,854 --> 02:12:38,814 I tried to find my mother, but failed. 1287 02:12:38,914 --> 02:12:40,514 I lied to my grandmother and told her I saw her. 1288 02:12:40,624 --> 02:12:42,684 Then she started crying. 1289 02:12:43,194 --> 02:12:47,684 Mitsuharu Inoue commented in the March 1970 issue of Bungei. 1290 02:12:48,394 --> 02:12:56,064 I thought I might get killed during the war. 1291 02:12:56,774 --> 02:13:00,904 I wanted to meet the woman who brought me into this world. 1292 02:13:01,374 --> 02:13:04,244 I think I get on his nerves sometimes. 1293 02:13:04,344 --> 02:13:09,904 Because I also abandoned my child around the same age. 1294 02:13:10,014 --> 02:13:12,384 He was four years old, too. 1295 02:13:13,024 --> 02:13:17,184 So he thinks of me that way when he sees me. 1296 02:13:17,994 --> 02:13:21,584 When I saw my daughter again, he got really upset. 1297 02:13:22,664 --> 02:13:25,254 He told me I should have abandoned her completely. 1298 02:13:28,164 --> 02:13:33,004 I'm too sentimental and I don't qualify as a novelist. 1299 02:13:33,374 --> 02:13:34,844 He was really mad. 1300 02:13:37,714 --> 02:13:38,704 He was in tears. 1301 02:13:40,114 --> 02:13:42,944 I wasn't mad at you. 1302 02:13:44,014 --> 02:13:47,884 Like I said before, 1303 02:13:48,254 --> 02:13:52,154 I rarely tell people that... 1304 02:13:52,794 --> 02:13:57,494 I was abandoned at four. 1305 02:13:57,994 --> 02:14:02,954 When my mother saw me, 1306 02:14:03,274 --> 02:14:10,694 she got on her knees and apologized to me. 1307 02:14:14,244 --> 02:14:16,514 That was enough for me, 1308 02:14:16,884 --> 02:14:22,944 so I told her at the time that I didn't care about it anymore. 1309 02:14:23,354 --> 02:14:26,014 - You're lying. - No, it's true. 1310 02:14:28,494 --> 02:14:31,724 We didn't talk about it too much. 1311 02:14:32,194 --> 02:14:33,824 You think he's lying? 1312 02:14:34,504 --> 02:14:36,494 Even if he said he didn't care, 1313 02:14:36,604 --> 02:14:43,034 I don't believe he was able to suppress his emotions like that. 1314 02:14:44,374 --> 02:14:46,434 I really did say it. 1315 02:14:46,984 --> 02:14:50,214 She didn't have to apologize. 1316 02:14:50,984 --> 02:14:55,544 I never saw her again after the war. 1317 02:14:55,884 --> 02:14:59,294 Mother Takako died at age 75. 1318 02:15:10,674 --> 02:15:15,504 Mitsuharu's books were by her death bed. 1319 02:15:19,444 --> 02:15:25,814 I thought he saw her when she got sick. 1320 02:15:27,054 --> 02:15:27,814 Did he? 1321 02:15:28,324 --> 02:15:32,884 As far as I can remember, he did go and see her. 1322 02:15:33,694 --> 02:15:35,954 I think he went to her funeral, too. 1323 02:15:38,564 --> 02:15:45,834 That's what I thought, but I'm not positive. 1324 02:15:48,274 --> 02:15:52,044 - You're looking well. - I'm not well at all. 1325 02:15:52,144 --> 02:15:53,874 You gained weight. 1326 02:15:54,944 --> 02:15:57,784 - She got some souvenirs. - Pickles? 1327 02:15:57,884 --> 02:15:59,014 You gained weight? 1328 02:15:59,114 --> 02:16:02,354 - I guess I did. - Yes, I think so. 1329 02:16:03,394 --> 02:16:07,344 I think I look more sick with a robe. 1330 02:16:07,464 --> 02:16:09,014 You look sick as you are. 1331 02:16:09,494 --> 02:16:13,364 I'm expecting a doctor soon. 1332 02:16:14,934 --> 02:16:18,334 I think a robe is better. 1333 02:16:18,674 --> 02:16:21,004 - Should I bring it? - Yes, please. 1334 02:16:25,414 --> 02:16:30,744 The film is rolling, too. You shouldn't dress like an old hag. 1335 02:16:30,854 --> 02:16:32,814 Just bring whatever. 1336 02:16:38,624 --> 02:16:41,154 So the medicine is working. 1337 02:16:43,364 --> 02:16:44,424 That's nice. 1338 02:16:44,534 --> 02:16:46,264 It's not nice. 1339 02:16:46,764 --> 02:16:50,164 This is a Nicole. He says it's too heavy. 1340 02:16:51,504 --> 02:16:53,564 Where did I get this? Did you give it to me? 1341 02:16:54,244 --> 02:16:56,334 - I bought it with those slippers. - Right. 1342 02:16:57,344 --> 02:16:59,934 - That looks wonderful. - You bought this? 1343 02:17:00,714 --> 02:17:03,374 I got it when you were in the hospital. 1344 02:17:04,754 --> 02:17:05,644 Looks good. 1345 02:17:07,484 --> 02:17:09,924 Don't make the knot too tight. 1346 02:17:11,154 --> 02:17:12,424 You're not used to wearing a robe. 1347 02:17:12,754 --> 02:17:14,094 I never wear it. 1348 02:17:14,764 --> 02:17:19,564 You look good. You look very bourgeois. 1349 02:17:20,034 --> 02:17:21,004 You're being silly. 1350 02:17:22,204 --> 02:17:25,394 I haven't seen him in a while. 1351 02:17:26,034 --> 02:17:27,974 But I think he's doing really well. 1352 02:17:32,674 --> 02:17:33,904 May I see your tongue? 1353 02:17:36,114 --> 02:17:37,544 - Does it hurt? - No. 1354 02:17:38,454 --> 02:17:43,324 But I've been constipated for a few days now. 1355 02:17:45,924 --> 02:17:49,524 My feet get swollen sometimes. Not right now. 1356 02:17:54,534 --> 02:17:55,554 I understand. 1357 02:17:55,664 --> 02:17:58,864 Your pulse is better than I expected. 1358 02:17:58,974 --> 02:17:59,874 Is that right? 1359 02:18:00,774 --> 02:18:06,304 I want to live 24 or 25 hours longer. 1360 02:18:06,414 --> 02:18:09,344 I don't want this disease to get to me. 1361 02:18:09,714 --> 02:18:13,444 Judging from your pulse, you're fighting a good fight. 1362 02:18:13,984 --> 02:18:18,894 But your stomach is not doing that well. 1363 02:18:19,754 --> 02:18:20,854 But your pulse is good. 1364 02:18:21,424 --> 02:18:25,954 Much betterthan you told me. 1365 02:18:26,064 --> 02:18:27,494 - I see. - Really. 1366 02:18:28,204 --> 02:18:30,934 What do you want to do? 1367 02:18:31,534 --> 02:18:33,194 I can mail this later if you want. 1368 02:18:34,374 --> 02:18:36,174 Your hands and feet might get hot. 1369 02:18:36,274 --> 02:18:37,644 I see. 1370 02:18:38,174 --> 02:18:40,614 This will help intestines. 1371 02:18:40,714 --> 02:18:42,304 - This one from Brazil? - Right. 1372 02:18:42,814 --> 02:18:45,214 - This is a brand new. - How much? 1373 02:18:45,684 --> 02:18:46,814 It's a souvenir. 1374 02:18:47,284 --> 02:18:48,984 What did your doctor say? 1375 02:18:49,084 --> 02:18:52,714 He doesn't want to tell me anything. 1376 02:18:52,824 --> 02:18:53,954 That's true. 1377 02:18:54,064 --> 02:19:01,834 He doesn't even ask me if I changed my medicine. 1378 02:19:02,504 --> 02:19:08,464 So I have to figure out myself what to take. 1379 02:19:09,774 --> 02:19:14,944 If the cancer has spread from your liver to your lungs, 1380 02:19:15,514 --> 02:19:22,944 it's really a case of terminal cancer. 1381 02:19:23,554 --> 02:19:26,284 But I think you got out of that stage. 1382 02:19:26,394 --> 02:19:32,194 Dr. Nishi told me that this medicine works miracles. 1383 02:19:32,294 --> 02:19:33,894 He said he can call it a miracle? 1384 02:19:35,064 --> 02:19:38,264 I think he's alright. 1385 02:19:40,074 --> 02:19:42,064 Here is my card. 1386 02:19:44,244 --> 02:19:49,014 Return to the roots of healing: Passionate Dr. Red Beard 1387 02:19:55,584 --> 02:20:00,614 I must say I'm relieved. 1388 02:20:01,094 --> 02:20:08,694 Your pulse is good. This is a good sign. 1389 02:20:09,334 --> 02:20:11,734 You can call it a miracle. 1390 02:20:12,574 --> 02:20:15,664 The pulse usually doesn't get better... 1391 02:20:16,374 --> 02:20:19,674 if your lungs and liver are not functioning. 1392 02:20:20,384 --> 02:20:23,004 If your doctor doesn't want to say anything, 1393 02:20:23,654 --> 02:20:26,584 no need to ask his opinions. Just think about getting better. 1394 02:20:28,354 --> 02:20:31,054 Thank you. 1395 02:20:35,964 --> 02:20:40,834 He's not convincing at all. 1396 02:20:41,864 --> 02:20:43,964 It's just all words. 1397 02:20:44,674 --> 02:20:49,374 Doctor Red Beard lacks credibility. 1398 02:20:49,974 --> 02:20:51,914 There is a difference between... 1399 02:20:52,344 --> 02:20:57,144 expressing yourself and expressing what you're supposed to express. 1400 02:20:58,854 --> 02:21:02,654 Unless you're able to fill the gap, your words are not convincing. 1401 02:21:02,984 --> 02:21:07,654 How can I be sure of my progress? 1402 02:21:09,324 --> 02:21:13,954 No difference from my doctor who doesn't tell me anything. 1403 02:21:15,134 --> 02:21:18,334 There is no such thing as a miracle. 1404 02:21:19,874 --> 02:21:25,864 The problem is the dark spot here on his heart. 1405 02:21:26,414 --> 02:21:30,714 As you can see, it's getting bigger. 1406 02:21:31,754 --> 02:21:39,714 It looks swollen and probably is cancerous. 1407 02:21:40,024 --> 02:21:43,294 If water collects around the heart like this, 1408 02:21:44,434 --> 02:21:45,924 it's very important. 1409 02:21:47,734 --> 02:21:48,724 Important? 1410 02:21:52,534 --> 02:21:55,374 It can be life threatening. 1411 02:21:56,404 --> 02:22:02,544 There's a cancer here and the possibility of hemorrhage. 1412 02:22:03,384 --> 02:22:09,984 Acute hemorrhage can put undue stress on the heart, 1413 02:22:11,994 --> 02:22:16,364 so his condition could change drastically. 1414 02:22:17,094 --> 02:22:22,224 It can be more dangerous than spread inside the lungs. 1415 02:22:23,404 --> 02:22:31,704 The cancer has grown twice as big in the lungs, 1416 02:22:32,214 --> 02:22:39,674 and I'm sorry to say that the cancer is spreading fast. 1417 02:22:41,484 --> 02:22:46,084 One year might be difficult. 1418 02:22:46,194 --> 02:22:49,424 - Six months? - It's hard to say. 1419 02:22:49,794 --> 02:22:54,024 - You think three to four months? - Perhaps. 1420 02:22:54,704 --> 02:22:56,664 You dream often? 1421 02:22:57,604 --> 02:23:00,124 I can't tell if it's a dream or not. 1422 02:23:03,344 --> 02:23:09,744 The other day, I dreamt the novel of the century. 1423 02:23:10,044 --> 02:23:15,484 It was so great that I thought being sick was all worth it. 1424 02:23:15,924 --> 02:23:18,614 I thought I could just write it down. 1425 02:23:21,424 --> 02:23:26,264 I wasn't even sure if it was a dream anymore. 1426 02:23:27,004 --> 02:23:30,454 When I woke up in the morning, I was still excited about it, 1427 02:23:30,574 --> 02:23:35,304 but I was thinking it was no good at all by noon. 1428 02:23:39,774 --> 02:23:42,614 Then I came up with another idea, 1429 02:23:42,984 --> 02:23:45,414 and I think this one is pretty good. 1430 02:23:48,054 --> 02:23:52,014 I don't want to talk about it too much since I might lose interest. 1431 02:23:52,724 --> 02:23:56,824 It would be my last novel, if I were dying. 1432 02:23:57,234 --> 02:24:00,754 But then again, I may not die. 1433 02:24:01,364 --> 02:24:02,564 Possible. 1434 02:24:04,604 --> 02:24:06,764 Well, who knows? 1435 02:24:07,644 --> 02:24:09,634 It's a fifty fifty chance. 1436 02:24:11,174 --> 02:24:14,144 I keep thinking I want to live longer and longer. 1437 02:24:15,884 --> 02:24:22,044 I need more time. 1438 02:24:23,484 --> 02:24:26,014 Since people around me are very encouraging, 1439 02:24:26,454 --> 02:24:31,984 I feel like I have to hold on. 1440 02:24:33,234 --> 02:24:34,294 Excuse me. 1441 02:24:36,534 --> 02:24:38,094 I brought a lot of guests. 1442 02:24:39,104 --> 02:24:40,624 You're right on time today. 1443 02:24:51,684 --> 02:24:52,914 Please sit down. 1444 02:25:00,524 --> 02:25:04,364 Use those cushion. 1445 02:25:04,894 --> 02:25:08,164 I got frustrated, so I shaved my head. 1446 02:25:08,534 --> 02:25:13,904 But my hair grew back, and I wanted to shave again. 1447 02:25:14,474 --> 02:25:18,574 I kept my little beard here. 1448 02:25:20,014 --> 02:25:21,074 People told me I looked good. 1449 02:25:21,884 --> 02:25:24,474 I looked at myself in the mirror, and I didn't look good at all. 1450 02:25:25,484 --> 02:25:28,384 I looked like an old gangster, 1451 02:25:29,454 --> 02:25:30,884 so I shaved my beard. 1452 02:25:30,994 --> 02:25:32,184 I'll do it myself. 1453 02:25:33,124 --> 02:25:35,614 You don't trust me. 1454 02:25:36,864 --> 02:25:38,624 It's not that. 1455 02:25:41,834 --> 02:25:46,494 But you mess up sometimes. 1456 02:25:57,014 --> 02:26:02,784 The other day, we both tried to open this with a wrench. 1457 02:26:02,884 --> 02:26:07,014 It's good we didn't force it. 1458 02:26:17,734 --> 02:26:21,904 You have to push the air out first. 1459 02:26:33,724 --> 02:26:35,114 - No air, right? - No. 1460 02:26:54,144 --> 02:26:55,034 I'll do it. 1461 02:26:57,144 --> 02:26:58,904 Here you go. 1462 02:27:15,124 --> 02:27:16,094 That's it. 1463 02:27:18,394 --> 02:27:24,264 Sometimes blood clogs up in the tube, 1464 02:27:24,804 --> 02:27:30,644 so you put anti-coagulant in it. 1465 02:27:31,644 --> 02:27:34,234 After all these years, 1466 02:27:34,614 --> 02:27:41,914 I finally realized that Inoue conceals certain truth. 1467 02:27:42,354 --> 02:27:46,624 In orderto protect that truth, 1468 02:27:48,464 --> 02:27:52,984 he must tell lies. 1469 02:27:53,664 --> 02:27:55,364 That's how I feel. 1470 02:27:56,834 --> 02:27:58,394 He once told me that... 1471 02:27:58,804 --> 02:28:03,464 he couldn't have lived without lying. 1472 02:28:04,344 --> 02:28:09,474 His grandmother used to call him Mitchan the liar. 1473 02:28:10,314 --> 02:28:16,154 Mitchan the liar grew up and became a novelist. 1474 02:28:17,054 --> 02:28:22,684 He chose a profession in which he can lie any way he wants. 1475 02:28:23,264 --> 02:28:28,294 I think he made the best choice for himself. 1476 02:28:29,004 --> 02:28:31,024 You can write any kind of fiction. 1477 02:28:32,034 --> 02:28:34,134 That's what novelists do. 1478 02:28:34,704 --> 02:28:38,434 Being a novelist allowed him to make the most of himself. 1479 02:28:38,774 --> 02:28:41,004 It made him the happiest man. 1480 02:28:41,114 --> 02:28:46,784 Once you write it, then your fiction comes to an existence. 1481 02:28:48,884 --> 02:28:50,784 No one will know. 1482 02:28:51,954 --> 02:28:55,894 So enjoy the lies. Why not? 1483 02:28:56,524 --> 02:28:57,824 That's what I call genius. 1484 02:28:59,294 --> 02:29:04,094 An absolute genius. Inoue is as genius as novelists can be. 1485 02:29:04,574 --> 02:29:07,934 New Year's Day, 1992 1486 02:29:32,064 --> 02:29:34,794 Thanks for coming. You look really great. 1487 02:29:35,434 --> 02:29:38,564 You got younger since your husband passed away. 1488 02:29:45,714 --> 02:29:49,474 I'mjoking, but it must have been very difficult for you. 1489 02:29:49,884 --> 02:29:51,314 It can't be helped. 1490 02:29:53,454 --> 02:29:59,784 He was a good person and lived a long life. 1491 02:30:00,794 --> 02:30:03,884 But I want you to live a long life. 1492 02:30:04,594 --> 02:30:05,994 So cheers. 1493 02:30:12,934 --> 02:30:15,664 It's good. Haven't had a beer in a while. 1494 02:30:19,474 --> 02:30:21,964 It's a very mysterious disease. 1495 02:30:25,614 --> 02:30:31,754 It grows for a while and it stops. 1496 02:30:33,424 --> 02:30:36,454 I know I'm not getting any better. 1497 02:30:37,864 --> 02:30:46,364 But I do know that since I take all kinds of medicine, 1498 02:30:47,674 --> 02:30:49,574 something must be working. 1499 02:30:49,874 --> 02:30:57,974 I think my cancer cells are overwhelmed by them. 1500 02:30:58,284 --> 02:31:01,654 Your sweater has a nice color. Just like your wife's sweater. 1501 02:31:18,674 --> 02:31:21,104 Common medical knowledge is that... 1502 02:31:21,444 --> 02:31:26,464 you have a 10% chance of survival. 1503 02:31:27,614 --> 02:31:31,444 That sounds pretty good to me. 1504 02:31:32,714 --> 02:31:36,054 I was very good with exams. 1505 02:31:36,924 --> 02:31:41,724 So I can be the one out of ten. 1506 02:31:42,864 --> 02:31:45,334 I may come out of this all right. 1507 02:31:46,934 --> 02:31:51,804 I can be the one of ten. 1508 02:31:53,274 --> 02:31:54,294 Goodbye. 1509 02:31:55,604 --> 02:31:56,504 See you. 1510 02:31:57,814 --> 02:31:59,604 - It's too cold. - Yes, I'm going. 1511 02:32:01,114 --> 02:32:02,044 Good luck. 1512 02:32:05,054 --> 02:32:08,044 I can't go unless you leave. 1513 02:32:14,764 --> 02:32:15,624 Bye. 1514 02:32:28,604 --> 02:32:30,934 I think I'll go upstairs and lie down. 1515 02:32:32,274 --> 02:32:36,114 Thank you. You can have some of these. 1516 02:32:36,714 --> 02:32:37,974 We have beers too. 1517 02:32:40,614 --> 02:32:42,454 Yes, we have cold ones. 1518 02:32:43,324 --> 02:32:44,554 I'll lie down. 1519 02:32:45,754 --> 02:32:47,284 The hot water bottle still warm? 1520 02:33:01,844 --> 02:33:03,464 May 30, 1992, 2:58 AM, Inoue died at age 66. 1521 02:33:04,444 --> 02:33:05,844 Inoue Mitsuharu. 1522 02:33:06,644 --> 02:33:09,614 We've been friends for a long time. 1523 02:33:10,284 --> 02:33:14,874 I met you in spring of 1965. 1524 02:33:15,924 --> 02:33:19,654 I was 42 and you were 38. 1525 02:33:20,254 --> 02:33:28,064 We were different in age, but both had the same birthday of May 15th. 1526 02:33:28,834 --> 02:33:35,504 I keep thinking about the fateful day we met. 1527 02:33:36,544 --> 02:33:41,204 The doctor told me that it was a miracle that you were still alive. 1528 02:33:42,314 --> 02:33:44,174 That's because you wanted to live. 1529 02:33:44,614 --> 02:33:47,484 You wanted to live longer and continue writing. 1530 02:33:47,984 --> 02:33:49,454 I wish I could replace you... 1531 02:33:50,184 --> 02:33:56,324 since I always felt I could die at any moment without hesitation. 1532 02:33:57,094 --> 02:34:01,894 When I was in my 40s, I was convinced foolishly that... 1533 02:34:02,434 --> 02:34:06,804 a friendship between men and women could not exist without sex. 1534 02:34:07,544 --> 02:34:09,504 But you and I... 1535 02:34:09,974 --> 02:34:16,774 shared a long and precious friendship that proved otherwise. 1536 02:34:17,714 --> 02:34:22,744 Sometimes I think it was my destiny to become a nun, 1537 02:34:23,154 --> 02:34:25,624 so that I can pray for you. 1538 02:34:26,854 --> 02:34:32,054 But I don't really want you to listen to my prayers. 1539 02:34:32,364 --> 02:34:37,064 I want you to become a strong evil spirit, 1540 02:34:37,834 --> 02:34:40,934 and lurk in our world... 1541 02:34:42,004 --> 02:34:44,874 to accuse the human race of discrimination, 1542 02:34:45,714 --> 02:34:48,404 denounce the irrationality of the world... 1543 02:34:48,514 --> 02:34:52,574 and indict the decline of literature. 1544 02:34:53,854 --> 02:34:57,724 Complete the last chapter you have yet to finish in this world... 1545 02:34:57,824 --> 02:35:02,624 and let us hear it loud and clear from now on end. 1546 02:35:03,164 --> 02:35:07,624 May your spirit remain with us always. 1547 02:35:12,634 --> 02:35:15,194 Director / Cinematographer Kazuo Hara 1548 02:35:16,304 --> 02:35:18,864 Producer Sachiko Kobayashi 1549 02:35:19,974 --> 02:35:22,534 Editor Jun Nabeshima 1550 02:35:23,644 --> 02:35:26,274 Music Takashi Sekiguchi 109872

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