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Huh?

Regrets as an idol?

None.

What should I do after graduation? Though I'm a bit worried about that.

But I found a company that would hire me as a full-time employee.

I think I'm quite lucky.

Second career.

I believe I've been successful.

Yes.

As a writer, my experiences from my idol days have become my strength.

After all, I've met many interesting but relatively unknown comedians and artists back then.

Focusing on these people,

I believe this is a job that only I can do well.

Understood.

I'll leave it to you.

- I used to be an idol, you know. - Really?

You even performed at the Red and White Song Festival, right?

Yes, it was quite hectic back then.

The dressing room was like a battlefield.

Sometimes I even wore the wrong shoes.

- Ah... haha, well, there were so many people. - Yes.

- Indeed. - Lots of people...

My work is very fulfilling.

My personal time too.

Every day is packed.

To the point that it's hard to adjust my schedule.

The atmosphere here is quite nice.

I don't feel much though.

I'll have this.

It's fine, I'm not at an age to be anxious.

I'm not anxious yet.

I'm not anxious at all.

So I am very happy.

Very happy. Very joyful.

Very fulfilling.

Are you okay?

I'm fine.

It's alright.

I'm happy.

Joyful.

Fulfilled.

It's just that my legs suddenly couldn't move in front of the station. Maybe I'm just too tired.

Ms. Aoki...

Ah, I came here because my friend was worried and recommended I come for a check-up.

Just to be safe...

But there's probably nothing wrong... um... Maybe I've been drinking too much recently.

What do you think caused your legs to stop moving?

I just said, too much alcohol.

Besides that, I have no other clues. This has never happened to me before...

So, Doctor, whatever it is, just prescribe me some medication.

The kind that will naturally get me back to normal after taking it.

I have to get back to work.

Ah, what could be the cause?

Please take a deep breath.

Calmly.

Slowly.

Oh, right. If I had to say, I did encounter a scumbag before.

But I got over that hurdle, so that's probably not the reason.

What could it be? I really don't know.

I don't know.

- Ms. Aoki. - Yes?

Let's start by changing the way you speak, so fast.

I don't have time to take things slowly.

I understand, but you don't need to worry about work.

But...

- There's a deadline... - You can ask someone else to handle it.

Ask someone else...

Work is about mutual help. Just rest well and don't think about anything.

It's okay.

- Thank you. - Take care.

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[ Next, I have an important business meeting to attend. ]

A 50,000 yen apartment without a bath, that's my reality.

Three months later,

I couldn't get out of bed in the morning anymore and eventually quit my job.

Huh, when did I get this?

It's fine.

Cheese is originally moldy anyway.

So hard.

Luxury apartments, trendy offices, and sparkling golden champagne...

They all shattered like bubbles and disappeared.

No.

Those things never belonged to me.

Not a single thing was mine.

Then, with only 100,000 yen left, there's no future I can grab.

Period.

Oh no.

My autobiography is made up of the glamour of "Chapter 1: Idol Edition"

and the fall to "Chapter 2: Extreme Welfare Edition".

Will this pain just be something everyone laughs at?

I don't want that.

"Former idol Aoki Akiko,

"a super turnaround from life at rock bottom!

"From a 6-tatami one-room apartment

"to a 4LDK Azabu condo, purchased in one lump sum with cash!

"The secret of a beloved girl who got a handsome husband who is a doctor."

No hint of reality.

Alright.

Alright, alright, alright...

No way.

No, no, no...

Why, why, why...

Get up there, no, no...

Why?

Is it broken?

This must be a dream.

It must be.

No job.

No man.

With only 100,000 yen left, there's no doubt this is my reality.

Have I hit a dead end in life?

Are you still alive?

Barely hanging on.

You haven't updated your social media.

I haven't gone out. There's nothing to post.

I heard you quit your job.

No, I'm not completely unemployed.

I'm still working as a writer.

I have assignments. I'm doing fine...

Alright, alright. Let me tell you why I called.

I have a friend looking for a roommate!

A roommate??

Yes. He lives in a house.

He's been renting out an extra room.

It was occupied by someone from my company until recently.

But that person decided to move out.

Uh, a roommate?

30,000 yen.

- What?

What's this person like?

- A 56-year-old office worker. - An old man!?

Well, not exactly an old man...

No, without a doubt, he's an old man

And

he's an old man who wants to share a house with a woman in her twenties!

He didn't say he wants to live with a woman, though.

The boss said you should contact him soon.

- Is it about negotiating the rent? - Huh!?

Hikari?

Oh, sorry, sorry. Got it. Thanks.

It's better than living alone, right?

You can save on utilities.

And it's good to have someone to talk to, Akiko.

I'm not that lonely.

It's not about loneliness.

But if you're always alone,

you'll lose sight of yourself.

Lose sight of myself?

I don't want that.

His name is Sasapon.

Sasapon?

Yes, Sasapon.

I've been to his place before.

He's very trustworthy.

A gentle gentleman.

It's definitely better than living alone in your current place.

Just give it a try.

Contact him once.

The next time I live with someone should be when I get married.

But weighing my pride and my dwindling savings,

I concluded that sacrifices must be made for the greater good.

Speaking of which, compared to this, I...

I'm tired of overthinking things.

- Hello? - This is Aoki.

An old man I don't need to worry about.

Not a lover or a family member.

Living with such a person,

I wonder what changes might happen.

It's really hard to imagine.

Hello.

Nice to meet you.

Thank you for this opportunity.

Please make yourself at home. Looking forward to living with you.

Excuse me.

As Hikari mentioned before,

please pay the rent by the 25th.

For meals, let's each take care of ourselves.

Have a seat.

It's fine if you come home late at night.

Feel free to use the fridge and washing machine.

The Wi-Fi password...

- Like I mentioned in the email... - Uh...

- Ah, did I forget to write it? - No, it's not that.

The fridge...

- Well... - Yes?

It's surprisingly easy to have conflicts over food.

Ah, what should we do?

Maybe we should set some rules...

Once I find someone to marry, I'll move out immediately.

It might be a bit inappropriate to say this right after moving in, but...

Ah, if we divide the fridge into upper and lower sections...

...it's just!

I'm very grateful to Mr. Sasapon.

Just call me Sasapon.

Adding "Mr." feels awkward.

Sa... Sasapon...

To be honest,

I quit my company job.

But not being tied to one place can actually be quite liberating.

I think this is a kind of opportunity.

I can't stay stagnant here.

I'll leave soon.

In both work and love,

Returning to my original... well, not original, but my true self is the priority now.

I won't let it end like this.

Though,

I don't have a boyfriend or an income,

I do have work.

Even if writing an article only earns me 1,000 yen, it's a falling market...

If things continue like this, what can I say...

Yes, if I continue like this,

I'll keep wondering what I'll become.

Let me get you some hot tea.

Ah...

What was the rest of what you wanted to say?

That's all.

Then,

I'll cut some yokan.

Please, have some.

But,

everyone has their own...

talents, right?

Well...

Anyway,

enjoy it slowly.

Do as you please.

Yokan Yokan...

Do as you please...

The Ex-idol, Stuck in Life, Decided to Live with a Complete Stranger

[ Sasapon ] [ Aoki Akiko ]

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Former idol Aoki Akiko, A super turnaround from life at rock bottom! From a 6-tatami one-room apartment to a 4LDK Azabu condo, purchased in one lump sum with cash! The secret of a beloved girl who got a handsome husband who is a doctor.

The sign of a comeback is nowhere to be found.

When your room is a mess, your mind will be too.

Ah...

Decluttering, failed.

[ YOU Editorial Dept. - Suda ]

A call from the "1,000 yen per piece" editor.

Hello, Mr. Suda. Thank you for your hard work.

Ms. Aoki, we have another assignment for you.

Oh, I'm glad to hear that.

The recent article on marriage was excellent.

So we'd like you to write another article on love, from your perspective.

Love?

The raw, real love story of a former idol.

You can write it as if it's a book.

Alright.

Ah, I'll send you an email regarding the deadline and specific details.

Thank you for your continued support, Ms. Aoki. I'm counting on you again this time.

- By the way... - Yes?

What's the story with that old man?

He's a good person.

Sasapon isn't like those shady guys in Roppongi. He's a kind and pure-hearted man.

You mean those guys with pointy leather shoes?

He's very stable and reliable.

Very stable.

So stable that there's really nothing to say about him.

I don't want to write this.

I don't want to write, I don't want to write.

It's worth 200,000 yen.

No, no, no, no...

Ah, thank goodness...

Ah, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Ah!

Oh, sorry.

I heard a commotion...

You're back.

- Yeah, I'm back. - Welcome back.

- Can I watch some TV? - Sure.

Just in time.

Ah, it's starting.

Then, feeling scared, he turned himself in.

This is my first time watching "Special Investigation Police."

Really?

Is it that surprising?

Wow, that's kind of enviable in a way.

If that's the case, you must start from the first season, first episode.

You really like it, huh?

Yes,

it's very interesting.

Oh, interesting...

Do you want some?

No, thanks. I'm going to take a bath.

Okay, enjoy.

What do you mean, enjoy...

Farewell...

Don't loop it.

Just play the ending already and let it be over.

By the way, I didn't know Sasapon played the piano.

Piano, sports cars...

These are the true facets of the mysterious old man, Sasapon.

Why don't you talk to him and find out more?

No matter how much I get to know him,

an old man is still an old man.

Regardless of the black-and-white, right-and-wrong, an old man is an old man.

There are all sorts of old men.

If you keep judging subjectively, your brain will just keep aging.

Thank you for your valuable advice, boss.

Why do you always say that?

But,

I feel like if I'm not careful, I'll get completely absorbed.

Absorbed?

I'm not joking.

Maybe you wouldn't understand, Hikari.

In that house,

time stands still.

If I stay there, I can't return to the real world.

- Yes, I understand you're trying hard, Akiko. - Thank you.

However, now you need a life where you and others say to each other, "Welcome back" and "I'm home."

Well...

But if you stay home all the time, you'll just be stuck in a rut.

What?

Part-time jobs. My company can help you find one.

Part-time jobs?

If you don't save up more money, you'll just end up complaining more.

Didn't you want to buy a new pair of shoes?

I even recommended the same place to Keiko, so you can feel assured.

[Packaging, sorting, and management of products] BaitoCom - Immediate start OK, short-term, one-off...

The part-time job Hikari recommended pays 1,200 yen per hour.

Compared to writing, it's certainly a high income.

But it strays from the path I envisioned for my life.

Still, if I can set aside this sense of guilt...

Akiko, you're working fast.

I'm listening to the sound of the cardboard boxes.

I see.

But if you exert so much effort, you'll get tired easily.

Work is tiring, isn't it?

Akiko, you haven't changed at all.

Keiko is my high school classmate. She was the most beautiful girl in our grade...

No... she was the most beautiful girl in our school.

And then she was scouted into the entertainment industry, but remained relatively unknown.

Watching her now, those beautiful, fair hands desperately assembling cardboard boxes.

It's kind of nice.

For some reason, I almost felt like crying.

- Um... - Ouch!

Ah, seriously.

- What's wrong? - Are you okay?

- Look at this. - Wow.

You cut your hand?

This is the third time this week.

We even gave you a new knife.

I'll probably get scolded for being too careless again.

I'm sorry...

- This won't do. - Huh?

Let's get you a knife specifically for breaking down cardboard boxes.

- There's such a knife? - Yes.

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Safe and Cute Cardboard Cutter.

Is this it?

Yes, that's the one.

I'll talk to them for you.

But the budget is tight.

Improving work efficiency should be a good justification.

You could make an efficiency report in Excel and submit it.

Excel?

Wow, impressive.

Thanks.

Akiko, you're really kind.

Just average.

Also, you're seriously dedicated.

Hasn't anyone told you that before?

No.

This is the first time I've been told that.

You're seriously dedicated.

Huh?

No, I meant it as a compliment.

It doesn't sound like one at all.

By the way, weren't you here to apologize?

I'm really sorry for saying your voice was loud and annoying.

Did you need to say that again?

This was at my regular shisha bar,

the worst guy dissed me as I was smoking a pipe.

Mocking someone's voice, which can't be changed with effort, is really awful.

Yes, you're right. I'm sorry.

But now you're saying I'm "seriously dedicated."

I really mean it as a compliment this time.

- In this context? - Yes.

If you weren't seriously dedicated, you wouldn't actually get angry.

If you just let it go and complained behind closed doors, you woldn't get hurt.

I thought this guy was really weird.

I'm truly sorry.

But for some reason, watching a grown man sincerely apologize...

It looks kind of ridiculous.

Um...

This is my apology.

Huh?

- What is this? - A vase.

I don't need it.

It's nice how you say things so straightforwardly.

My grandmother always said to be wary of men who can praise you while looking you in the eye.

I read your blog, Ms. Aoki. It's interesting.

Oh, is that so?

I'm going on a photography trip soon.

Oh, oh, oh.

Can you help me with my work?

Huh?

- Work? - Hmm.

From now on, I will deeply fall into the swamp called Takamiya Kosuke.

Welcome back.

I'm back.

Although I need to save money, sometimes this isn't so bad...

Who am I even trying to convince here?

But today...

I don't want to eat alone.

Please, have some.

Is it really okay?

Yes.

I worked part-time today.

Good job.

In a warehouse, breaking down cardboard boxes. It's simple work, but...

Since my efficiency was low...

I was asked to consider workflow and inventory management.

It was more than I expected.

But

they thanked me...

That's it.

Um...

Yes?

You always carry your laptop. That's nice.

- That's the point? - Yes.

That laptop looks heavy.

Yes, it's my real work tool.

Well, it's like a self-proclaimed writer, who works part-time in a warehouse, what is she saying?

Talking about my self-pity must be boring.

Sorry.

I find it interesting.

Huh?

What you say, Ms. Aoki.

I find it interesting.

- Really? - Yes.

My friends of my age...

they mostly talk about their kids, instead of themselves.

It makes me want to say, "Tell me about yourself".

- "About yourself"? - Yes.

For example...

Ambitions for their career.

Talking to people with dreams is much more enjoyable.

Do you want some?

I'll start then.

Sasapon's simple words...

I know you didn't say that just to comfort me.

But even so...

Even someone like me seems like someone with dreams.

This is delicious.

That's good to hear.

However...

precisely because of this relaxed feeling...

the question of how to live from now on becomes more prominent.

[ A former idol shares how to become a person who is loved. ]

What kind of ridiculous title is this?

I'd like to know the method, too.

Work, work, work, come on!

Please!

Another 1,000 yen article...

Oh, hello?

I'm sorry, I'll definitely send the draft by tomorrow.

Oh, I'm not calling to rush you.

After all, Ms. Aoki always meets deadlines.

Oh, no...

Someone wants me to introduce you to them.

Introduce me?

Have you heard of BRANCHE from Shouei Publishing?

It's here!

Hello? Ms. Aoki?

- Isn't it a super major company? - Ah...

The editor-in-chief...

This means I can return to the real world.

Haha, it's a long way off.

Please get approval from my agency first.

A dreamlike moment...

Don't take photos!

Ms. Aoki, you're in the way of my shot.

What's that?

What do you mean?

You're a real piece of work.

Ah, this expression is great!

Huh!?

- So ugly. - No way.

Move a bit this way.

I want you to shoot me from this angle.

No way.

I'll shoot from over here.

You never listen to me.

- If I only capture the usual Ms. Aoki, it'll be boring. - What are you saying?

Why did you ask me to help with your work?

Ms. Aoki.

You're always so straightforward.

I'm sorry about that.

So I thought...

Maybe you could help me find a new side of myself.

Yeah, this is really good.

- You liar. - It's cute.

Perhaps it's all a dream.

Um...

Yes?

It seems like you really prefer things to be said clearly. So, I'll just say it.

Please go ahead. I welcome strict feedback.

I...

Maybe I've simply fallen for Kosuke.

However...

I indeed had such a period of time.

Are you working?

Yes, the editor-in-chief of BRANCHE wants to meet me.

Wow, that's impressive.

You're really amazing, Akiko.

Am I?

Speaking of which,

weren't you a gravure idol in that magazine?

We're meeting on Friday.

Oh, I see.

That's amazing.

Don't you have something to tell me?

It's nothing. I'll tell you after you're done with work.

I'm really curious.

Did something happen?

- It's not exactly that something "happened." - Hmm.

I'm getting married.

What?

Sorry, am I interrupting your work?

That's great.

Thank you.

So,

what about your job?

I'll help out at his shop.

Uh...

So, you're not going to be an actress anymore?

Yeah.

I didn't join the entertainment industry because I particularly wanted to.

I see.

I see

Yes.

My best friend started her career earlier than anyone else.

We both lived in the same world.

She's a friend more special than anyone.

Then she fell madly in love with a very ordinary man

and gave up her dreams.

How could she do that?

None of my business.

Keiko is different from me.

Ah.

Good morning.

Did you see it? No... um...

- Feel free to use the markers. - No, um...

- I might be home late today. - Okay.

I'm meeting with the editor-in-chief of BRANCHE.

- They requested to see me. - Oh.

- So... - Please use whatever you need.

- Can you lock the door? - Sure.

I'm leaving.

Why no reaction?

Never mind, no need to make him understand.

But...

from today,

my world will return to normal.

[ Second career success strategy ]

- Would you like me to change the teapot? - Yes, please.

Ah...

Ms. Aoki, after discussing it in the editorial department, we found that there's nothing we can ask you to do at the moment.

We hope to work together next time. BRANCHE Editorial Department, Editor-in-Chief, Yumi Kiyama.

Sorry to keep you waiting.

Ordering this was a great idea.

Geraniums that make me optimistic.

I can't break down.

This kind of thing happens often. It's common.

Daniel McCann is urgently visiting Japan!! The editor-in-chief will interview him personally!

If it's a big star, there's no helping it. Yeah, yeah.

Maybe you'll be cursed a little.

Do you need me to call a taxi for you?

I don't want to walk.

But...

- No need, the weather is nice today. - Got it.

After all...

I spent 1800 yen on floral tea and drank two cups on my own.

Hey! Hey! Hey hey hey! Put your hands up! Balance: 100,000 yen!

Balance: 100,000 yen!

Maybe I've simply fallen for Kosuke.

You can... kiss me here if you want.

What are you talking about?

A man who looks away at this moment is not a good man.

I have a girlfriend.

See?

We're getting married.

You should have said that first.

Sorry.

Let's go. It's getting cold.

I'm not hurt.

There's no need to be hurt.

We weren't dating, we didn't kiss, nothing happened.

We probably won't see each other again, right?

Ah, this...

Feels nice.

- You scared me. - Sorry.

There are watermelons even this season...

Yeah, do you want some?

Eh?

Sure, it's so sweet.

Ordered online?

Yeah.

It's dripping.

Eating watermelon with a man...

I guess that's a sensual moment.

Why are you so serious about picking out the seeds?

I want to savor it properly.

So, you like watermelon?

Kind of.

Actually, I don't like it much.

It's great that I brought it over to eat.

Not great at all.

What kind of nerve do you have to bring a watermelon

to the woman you dumped with just one sentence, 'I have a fiancée'?

Never mind, this is probably some sort of ritual.

To confirm that there are no romantic feelings between us,

and that this is a simple friendship between a man and a woman.

No problem.

If you need that sense of reassurance, I'll fully support you.

In my mind, you're nothing to me anymore.

Absolutely no problem, I'll...

Here.

- Huh? - The first bite of the watermelon is the best.

So sweet.

Yeah, this watermelon is really good.

He's such a jerk.

I couldn't meet the editor-in-chief.

Got stood up out of the blue.

And they told me through an email that they still don't have any work for me.

But if it's a Hollywood star, there's nothing to be done.

It's great not having to write for such a weird media outlet.

Huh?

It's better not to meet people you don't need to.

No...

This sounds a bit...

Hmm?

I'm not that optimistic about it.

That's because Sasapon already...

Already?

Ah...

Oh, sorry for not using formal language.

After all,

I'm already an old man.

No...

that's not true.

Huh?

What do you mean? Isn't it?

No.

Even though I do think that way.

Oh, so you ended up saying it anyway.

Yeah, after all, I think I'm in a situation where I can't make excuses anymore. Yes.

Ms. Aoki,

you're really interesting.

I'm not interesting at all.

I'm a pathetic woman who couldn't seize the opportunity for a turnaround and hit rock bottom.

You sound like someone from the baseball club.

A baseball club that doesn't aim for Koshien.

It's meaningless.

Is that so?

Yes, sweat and tears are necessary.

But

Things that were fought for with all one's might and effort,

may not necessarily be treasures after all.

But...

looking back,

I indeed have a pile of things that I didn't really need.

Hmm, but

perhaps it's because I'm an older guy that I would feel that way.

A sports car, for example?

How did you know?

I accidentally saw a photo.

A red sports car.

You don't like it? I'm sorry.

No, it's not that.

It's just...

It's embarrassing.

Why? It's super cool.

Even had a cardigan draped over your shoulders.

Sorry, I got carried away.

What you did was really not okay.

Okay.

But

Sasapon also feels embarrassed about things?

Lots of embarrassing things.

What?

These things don't kill you.

It won't end so easily.

No...

It's something that can't be ended, humanity.

Can't be ended...

I'm full.

But,

But the red of the sports car

and the red of the watermelon

are both equally beautiful, right?

After hearing Sasapon's words,

I can't hear for a moment the voice in my heart that drives me.

Thanks, Sasapon.

That's why I said taking a taxi would be better.

Then I'd have to pay for the taxi.

Walking 12 minutes from the station is a lie.

It definitely takes 20 minutes.

I should have worn sneakers. It hurts.

Ah, it's here.

Sorry to keep you waiting.

Thank you.

I never thought Keiko would want to get married.

- Really? - Yes.

- Though I heard she was seeing someone. - Ah, um...

Didn't you say you weren't against marriage initially?

She looks so happy.

Like a princess in a fairy tale.

So, what made you decide to get married?

- Uh... - Did you propose to her?

Ah, no no no, it's embarrassing.

- Don't talk about that. - I really want to hear.

I want to hear it too.

Ah, alcohol.

It'd be better to have more drinks.

Can I get a beer then?

Of course.

- It's in the fridge. - Okay.

The fridge is packed.

- He seems like a good person. - Right?

Yeah,

he's a nice guy.

There really are some convenient phrases in this world.

- I proposed to him. - What!?

No need to be so surprised.

It's not that uncommon anymore, right?

True, but...

So,

what made you decide to propose?

What made me decide...

Why do you think you'll be happy?

It's an interview? Huh.

I'm just curious.

- Rather than thinking we'll be happy - Hmm.

I thought that if we're together, we can endure unhappiness too.

- Oh! - Oh!

Well said! Hey!

I feel like the friends I thought were sharing the same view as me

left me behind.

- Thanks. - We should get new glasses, right?

- Yeah. - I'm really sorry for making you do everything.

No worries. Keiko, want to drink too?

Ah, should I or shouldn't I...

“Even if it's unhappiness, we can endure it.”

Such a person wouldn't appear for someone like me,

who is jealous of my best friend's marriage and curses my work partner.

Alright.

Though it's a bit sudden...

Kosuke is getting married.

Congratulations!

Thank you.

I'm so shocked.

Why didn't you tell me sooner?

What's this?

Is this from everyone?

Yes, because Koosuke has always taken care of us, we all pitched in.

- Wait a minute! - You should go back.

Don't follow me.

I'm really worried about you. I can't go back.

I've fallen for someone else.

It's true.

Fine, let's get a room.

What?

Kiss me.

It's our last meeting anyway.

I can't do it.

Oh, I see.

- Wait. - Let me go!

If you won't kiss or have sex, why did you follow me?

Don't joke around.

I really don't get it.

Because you're important to me...

I can't do it.

Huh?

Let's go back to the bar.

“Important”... you're really the worst, a real psycho!

You're such a jerk!

The time I spent with Kosuke ends here.

But,

I have to keep living.

You had the face of a Hannya. (Note: "Hannya's face" is a Noh mask that expresses a woman's jealousy and resentment.)

Huh?

When you were looking at Keiko.

Is marriage really something to be so envious of?

There's that Hannya face again.

I haven't had enough to drink.

Huh?

Didn't you already drink everything at Keiko's place?

Excuse me, can we change the destination?

Oh, sure...

Hey!

You should invite people to drink with you.

- No, no, no... - President Hikari!

Come on.

You can't stop. Working and dating.

If you don't keep running desperately, you'll be chased down by your own self-loathing.

So cute.

- What? - What's your name?

- I'm Toba. - Toba?

- Cheers! - Cheers!

How did I get home?

[ In a few hours, you'll wake up and regret pestering that younger guy. ]

[ But it's okay. You'll be fine. Don't regret it. ]

This is...

Good morning.

I'm really sorry about yesterday.

It seems I caused you some trouble.

You were really terrible.

I'm so sorry.

I really think you're not right in the head.

You thought we were at a nightclub.

Wait,

Toba wasn't...

I'm talking about you! You were the one acting like a nightclub client!

- Chihuahua. - Chihuahua?

Kiss...

W-wait! You drank too much!

You totally revealed your frustrated, desperate side.

I'm embarrassed just watching you.

Frustrated?

Just find someone and hook up.

If you need a place, I can suggest one.

I'm not that desperate.

You even called Toba “Kousuke” halfway through.

Are you listening to me?

- Ah, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die. - Huh!?

Just kill me.

Don't say "I want to die" as casually as saying you want to go to Hawaii.

I'm not going to Hawaii.

It's just an example.

I don't have the money to go.

You're changing the subject again.

Anyway,

sober up first.

Then apologize to Toba.

- I want to die. - Seriously...

After all,

I...

am not married,

I'm not an idol anymore,

I don't even have the right to call myself a writer.

Hikari is a boss.

Huh?

Oh, sorry.

What do you mean?

Sorry.

I don't know myself.

Really,

everything is just so confusing.

Alright.

No need, no need.

Did you put a blanket on me?

When I got up in the morning to go to the bathroom,

I saw you sprawled on the floor.

- Thank you. - It's fine.

You didn't catch a cold, thank goodness.

Sasapon.

Have you ever had thoughts of wanting to die?

Did you mess up big time yesterday?

- Yes. - Tsk tsk tsk.

Alright.

Thinking back,

maybe yesterday,

I wanted to be seen as a strong woman who could drink a lot.

You're stubborn about the strangest things.

Does it benefit you in any way?

I don't know.

But maybe,

I just wanted to look cool.

Even if it meant drinking beyond my limits.

Could you mix this for me thus?

- Sure. - Here you go.

But,

while you're young,

it's good to try everything,

fail a bunch of times,

and then learn your limits. Isn't that nice?

Sasapon.

Hmm?

I'm not young anymore.

You're very young.

Next week is my birthday.

I'll be 29.

Oh, congratulations.

It's not worth congratulating.

It's worth congratulating.

Like this

Thinking of yourself as old when you're not isn't good.

Alright.

And besides,

the past is something you can never get back.

- The past is something you can never get back? - Yeah.

So,

that's why it's called "the past."

Do you want a drink?

- Sure. - Yeah.

Sasapon,

do you ever feel lonely?

I feel like I've been possessed by a loneliness monster,

and that's why I keep doing strange things.

After all, monsters

often come from misunderstandings,

like mistaking a swaying willow for a ghost.

Monsters are real.

I once dreamed of spending my birthday with a boyfriend,

but I gave up on that idea when I was 22.

But,

when I think about living the rest of my life alone,

the monster suddenly appears.

But when you die,

you die alone anyway.

By the way,

my ideal death is

slipping in the snow at a villa in Karuizawa,

hitting my head,

dying alone,

and being discovered when the snow melts.

No,

that's too lonely.

Really?

Yeah, but

when it comes time to die,

you won't have the energy to feel lonely or regretful.

Hmm...

I see.

Here.

Regret is a privilege of the living.

For some reason, I imagined the scene of Sasapon's death.

You looked very peaceful.

Hmm,

that's good.

So,

for my last birthday in my 20s,

I signed up for a shift and spent it working.

Rather than stubbornly clinging to someone,

it's more straightforward to be alone.

But maybe that's just...

me trying to look cool again.

- Keiko didn't work the same shift as you, right? - Yeah.

She said once she starts a shoot, she never knows when she'll have time to work.

She's thinking of quitting acting.

Why?

Because she's getting married.

Oh, I see.

Akemi, are you in showbiz too?

Huh?

There are many people like that here.

The shifts are flexible.

No, I could never handle the entertainment industry. I'd be too nervous.

- I see. - I'm planning to open a shop with a friend.

We've even done some preparations.

A lot of people DM me asking for advice.

Wow.

Although my parents say opening a shop isn't easy,

I've always liked doing this.

It sounds...

wonderful.

Oh, right. Next time, teach me how to use Excel.

Sure.

- I'll take these away. - Yeah.

Hey, good job.

Good job.

- Good job. - Good job.

I'll buy a cake and head home.

Happy birthday!

Happy!

What's wrong?

- I want sushi. - Huh!?

- Sushi... I want sushi. - Then let's get some.

I'm so full.

For my last birthday in my 20s,

my friends celebrated with me.

That alone made me very happy.

Very happy.

- What now? - Does Keiko mind?

She definitely doesn't. Akiko, where do you want to go?

Where I want to go?

But what about next year's birthday?

And ten years later, or even further?

Will I grow old and alone?

Will I save enough for retirement?

Where I want to go...

- I don't have anywhere... - Akiko?

I want to die.

Why are you saying that again?

You want to go to Hawaii.

Seriously...

I'm never going to have sex again for the rest of my life.

Huh!?

And when I get old, I'll have to take care of myself.

- Ah, I want to be happy! - What?

- I want to be happy! - Hey, hey, hey.

I want to be happy, too!

Keiko is already happy.

Happiness has no limits.

I want endless happiness.

Then I want to be happy too!

Boss!

- If even the president says that, what about us? - Seriously.

I'll probably have to take care of myself when I'm old.

I need to save money.

But some things money can't buy.

- I know. - Okay.

- Ah, I want to be happy! - I want to!

Too quiet, one more time.

Ready, go!

I want to be happy!

What is this...

- Come in. - Excuse me.

- Sorry for the wait. - Thank you.

Thank you.

- Please, enjoy. - Thank you.

- Thank you. - Sasapon, sorry for barging in like this.

It's fine. After all, it's her birthday.

Take your time and enjoy.

He seems like a nice person. I'm relieved. Cheers.

- Cheers. - Cheers.

But that sounds like something you'd say about an unremarkable guy.

Not at all.

He really does seem gentle.

- Yeah, very gentle. - Oh, oh, oh.

Like an old, well-used towel.

Is that a compliment?

- It's a compliment. - Really?

He has a calming presence.

Yeah, yeah.

I'm going to bed.

- Sorry, but tomorrow is a workday. - It's fine.

- The bathroom is this way. - Okay.

By the way, we're not bothering you, right?

No,

as long as you're not too loud.

No, I mean, how is it living with Akiko?

It feels like I'm hosting a distant relative's precious daughter?

It's enjoyable.

That's good to hear.

Well, goodnight.

Goodnight.

What's it like?

- So cute. - So cute.

So cute! It looks delicious.

Wow, this is great.

- From next year on... - Yeah?

it might be hard to celebrate together like this.

It's lonely to think about.

We'll always be lifelong friends.

No matter what changes,

Akiko and I will always be best friends.

Congratulations,

Keiko.

Congratulations on your marriage.

Thank you.

Hey, wait for me before you eat the cake!

I'm digging in...

- Hey! - No way!

- This is a disaster! - Disaster, disaster!

Light the candles!

Let's light the candles first! Hey!

Forget it, no candles.

Why not? Why not? Let's light the candles.

No, no, no.

- Akiko, I'm eating with a fork. - Go ahead.

You really want to light the candles.

It's so good.

What... Ah!

[ Happy birthday ]

Sasapon.

I wonder if he bought it himself,

or asked the store clerk for help.

I don't know what happiness is.

Is it finding a lifelong partner?

Or increasing my income?

But,

the feeling I have now...

"Marie Antoinette in a six-tatami Room"

"Apartment in Suginami Ward, Tokyo,

"rent 50,000 yen,

"no bath.

"Extremely hot in the summer

"and freezing cold in the winter.

"But,

"this is my castle."

Who would read

such an embarrassing article?

I can't let it go.

[ A belated update: Recently, a new life was born between my spouse and me. ]

Am I bothering you?

Not at all.

I'm planning to cook soba noodles for lunch.

Oh.

Actually, never mind.

I... I've gained a little weight...

I need to use a roller to lift it.

By the way, I have a business trip this weekend.

Oh.

Have a safe trip.

Are you okay?

I'm not a kid anymore, and I've been living alone all this time.

My head hurts.

My eyes are swollen.

Feels like my stomach is hurting too.

[ Hikari: Are you still alive? ]

[ I'm dead. ]

- Take care - Okay.

If anything happens, please contact me.

It's fine. Probably nothing will happen.

Then I'm heading out.

I want to become stronger.

Strong enough to live alone.

Strong enough not to trouble others.

Why do you look so pale?

No, I'm fine.

I'm back.

I'm fine...

It hurts.

I'm fine...

It hurts.

[ Hikari ]

In the end, I still have to rely on others.

[ Keiko ]

Ah...

But no one will come to save me...

Absolutely not...

Sasapon, you big liar.

Even at the moment of death,

you didn't want to die alone. Some people think that way.

There's something I've always wanted to ask.

Why did you invite me to travel together even though you had a girlfriend?

Are you crazy!?

Why did I foolishly follow along?

But I hope we two idiots from back then...

End up together in some parallel world on Earth.

I said my expression was ugly.

That was a lie.

It was actually the best expression in photos taken by others.

I know it well.

That's because I was with Kosuke.

5th dimension, 6th dimension, 7th dimension, whatever...

I don't understand those things.

As an option that appeared in a future I didn't choose for myself,

Please, please.

I even made such foolish prayers.

Because I wanted you.

What do you think is special about me?

What do you think is special about me?

- It hurts. - Hang in there.

I know, I know, but it really hurts.

How do you feel?

- I feel awful. - I see.

Do you live with family or a partner?

No, no one.

Just bear with it a little longer.

Is it here?

Ah, it hurts!

Idiot, idiot, idiot!

Sasapon?

It seems you'll be discharged in four or five days.

The ambulance...

It was my first time calling an ambulance.

Sorry.

After all, you fainted at the time.

No, I mean about the business trip...

Your voice...

It was different from usual.

I hadn't boarded the bullet train yet. That's good.

I'm very sorry.

Huh?

You're neither family nor a lover.

I'm very sorry.

What does that have to do with anything?

It's okay.

It's okay.

I was diagnosed with appendicitis.

It was a problem with the appendix.

I had surgery that very day.

The doctor and my mom were shocked, saying I endured it for too long.

- Here. - Thank you.

A part of my body was just cut off so simply.

It made me

feel quite amazed.

I'm going to Karuizawa on my day off next month.

Oh, you have a villa there?

Yeah, if I don't air it out, the house will get musty.

I see.

Is Karuizawa a good place?

It depends on the person.

This is

the guest room key.

I have my own room.

Okay.

Then,

relax and take a good rest.

Relax and rest...

Today,

I harvested turnips, carrots,

radishes,

and Komatsuna.

You've got dirt on your face.

Huh?

Oh.

- So you're still growing vegetables here? - Yeah.

If you wash them clean like this,

they'll shine.

- The vegetables? - Yes.

Here.

- You can eat it with the skin on. - Really?

It's so sweet.

Coming here,

eating the vegetables I grew myself,

makes me feel like almost everything is insignificant.

Sasapon

doesn't know why I feel this way.

Alright.

- Also, try some radishes. - Okay.

But,

after all, Sasapon's words

make my heart feel soft.

- Sasapon. - Hmm?

Did you ever feel like you wanted to die?

Yeah, I do.

When was that?

When I got divorced.

Huh?

Hmm.

You were married?

But even if we promise to be together for a lifetime,

it's often hard to achieve.

However,

things like those broken holes,

can't be mended through work,

a red sports car,

or delicious sushi.

There is no way to fix those things.

In the end,

we can only deceive ourselves while patching things up.

Living like this,

we become able to let go of various things.

After all, I'm getting older.

I envy you.

Huh?

Really?

To me,

you are very dazzling.

Huh?

You're living with all your might, aren't you?

It even makes people worry.

Why is it

that whenever I try to move forward, I get hurt?

I really can't go on anymore.

Yes.

Living is indeed a troublesome thing.

Yeah.

But...

there's something I want to show Sasapon.

An apartment in Suginami, Tokyo with a rent of fifty thousand yen and no bath.

It's unbearably hot in the summer,

and freezing cold in the winter.

But, it's my castle.

The next time I live with someone will be when I get married.

Balancing my pride and my nearly depleted savings,

I began my peculiar cohabitation with Sasapon.

An old man I don't need to be overly considerate of,

an Old man who is neither a lover nor family.

Yet, by living with such a completely unfamiliar person,

little by little,

my stopped clock

started to tick again.

This,

well, this... instead of a story of living together with an old man,

it's more like a story of a girl being rejuvenated through another person.

Indeed,

that's what it is.

Yeah.

- Thank you, Sasapon. - Huh?

Thank you!

Ah, sorry, I spoke informally.

It's okay, speak as you like.

A month later,

back in Tokyo,

I'm still working hard as ever.

Here.

Ah.

Hey.

Sorry, I'm still at work.

It's gone viral.

Huh?

Old man, it's gone viral.

Japanese trends -------------------

1. Creators and Trends #Former Idol 204,233 tweets

2. Trends #An unfamiliar old man 170,323 tweets

3. Culture & Trends #Essay 89,121 tweets

4. Japanese Cuisine and Trends

No way.

Nana @nanana777 ・Right now I want to mass produce Sasapon #unfamiliar old man #former idol

blackcast ST @blackcast_st ・Right now "I chose to live with an unfamiliar old man" is such a powerful phrase that I read it immediately, but the content is also interesting. #unfamiliar old man #essay #powerful phrase

Yua @birdbarred ・1 hour ago Living with a complete stranger is like a fairy tale life lol #unfamiliar old man #just the two of us

Oebi-tan @oebi__ ・1 hour ago #living with a complete stranger old man!? This essay is crazy. I can't imagine it, sharing a room in the first place.

"I want to mass-produce Sasapon"

"Like a fairy tale life"

Unexpected things happen in life.

Wow, that's amazing.

Amazing.

- Sasapon! - Hmm?

- You've become a famous old man online. - Huh?

Yeah, really.

Yeah.

Huh?

"Special Investigation Police" is going to have a special episode.

"Crazy in the head"

"He's definitely an evil wolf disguised as a nice Old man!"

There are such slanderous comments too.

But,

my story can actually influence others.

Right now, I'm just very happy about it.

I saw it too.

Huh?

Ms. Aoki,

you've slowed down your speech a lot.

Please.

Hello.

- Please give me your business card. - Okay.

Here you go.

Thank you.

Ms. Aoki,

- I'm from BRANCHE, the one who contacted you before... - Oh oh oh.

The editor who ditched me because of a Hollywood star.

Please definitely accept our interview next time.

Thank you.

Nice to meet you.

But the real challenge starts now.

After all, "former idol" is a significant selling point.

Maybe so.

But this is who I am.

I can only accept that and keep pushing forward.

- Ah, let's chat when you have time. - Sure.

Mr. Arai, thank you for last time...

What will happen to me next?

I still don't know at all.

[ Tōyū Bank balance ]

I still can't afford to take taxis freely.

But,

I'll buy a new pair of shoes.

I'm definitely ready to be self-reliant.

Maybe I'm not special at all.

This really works well.

But I'm somehow managing to live well.

Everything's loaded on the truck.

- We're heading off now. - Ah, thank you.

Yeah, take care.

- Sasapon. - Hmm?

I...

- I was happy to live with you. - Don't say things like that.

After all, this is the last time.

It's not the last time!

Huh?

After all, we're still alive.

I see.

That's true.

Then,

- Take care. - Yeah.

Take care.

Goodbye.

You're getting better at playing.

Translated by Everlasting Sync, proofing, additions and formatting by Dougal666