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This move is a complete game changer, so long as I can find food from the ocean.

But if I don't catch a fish on those lines, I don't know what's going to

happen.

We've got a 600-pound log that floated in over my gill net.

I have to get this cove figured out.

I need to finish the boat. I'm so pressed for time, wondering if those

salmon are running yet.

I thought maybe after I get down climbing the mountain, then I'll just

hang it up.

Yeah! And right now, that's the last thing on my mind. I feel recharged, and

I feel like I can take on the world.

Who are you when everything's been stripped away?

Scary out here in these woods.

I have not had a serious meal in a week. I can't get a player, and I can't stay

here. It's always in the back of your mind. Well, I can tap out.

Putting up with a filming booth?

Running into a predator. It's not an if, it's a when.

Get the hell out of here. I see you. Get out of here!

I'm living a hand-to-mouth existence. Yes!

$500,000 is a lot of money. It's just going to keep getting harder.

It's not the world that needs to change. It's me that needs to change.

here fooling with the camera right just dicking around with this camera and a

ferret runs past with this gigantic eel in its mouth and

i thought if i scare him bad enough maybe he'll drop the little eel oh my

goodness the nerve to come running past a starving man with an eel in your

mouth you know very impolite very impolite thing to do

And I am hungry.

No doubt about it, I am hungry.

I'm coming to the conclusion that I have to exploit every last resource of food

that I can in my cove.

And bull kelp, it's everywhere.

I'm going to cook this and see if it works as a cooked vegetable because I

need some bulk.

Okay, nothing good is happening in the GI tract here. You know what I'm saying?

Nothing.

Very little movement, let's just say that. Very little movement.

Nothing going in, nothing going out.

And I'm getting worried.

Anyway, I'm going to get to work cutting this stuff up and putting it in my

little pot of water.

I think it's soaked.

Nothing like doing yard work when you're on vacation, huh?

Vacation with no food.

F you, seagull.

You're on the menu next.

I got to be honest, my moods have been like up and down and all around.

I mean, my head's still in the game. It's just, it's depressing to know by

what a slim margin you hold on by.

That's, I think, what's getting me.

Because I want to stay out here for a really long time, but the calories scare

me.

If I can't get protein, I'm not going to be out here for that long.

I got to start catching some fish, man.

If I can't catch any fish, some mice would be good.

There's a little bit of protein there.

Over where I kind of prepare some of my stuff, I see some mouse droppings.

So I know there's a mouse around.

At least one.

So I think I'm going to use my time today and set up some mouse traps.

God, I hate mice.

Whenever you find one, there's at least one more.

So I need to take care of them.

At least it's a mouse outside my shelter. Thank God for that.

Just stay out of my camp. That is so worrying to me.

You know, these are country mice.

These guys are smarter than the average mouse.

I think that determination and will to survive will get you a lot further

sometimes than skill will.

I do have some skill, but I think that determination is kind of what sets

me apart.

This rock keeps on wanting to move, too.

So this is my first successful setting of a Paiute deadfall.

The rock... It's putting pressure, which is trying to make this back end go up.

This back end is being held in place by this cordage and this little toggle

here. This little toggle is trying to go that direction, but it can't go that

direction because of this stick that's being held in the back.

Now, that's my bait stick, and this is just a real rough setting of this. This

is my first time ever.

Man, I'm excited about this.

I hope this works. Ha!

That's how light it was as it didn't stay.

I'm really interested to see if this will work.

I've practiced a lot of these trapping techniques.

It would be good to say that I trapped a mouse while I was out here. Trapped

something, for crying out loud.

The kayak is finished.

It's exciting to me.

I'm going to call her Delicada, the delicate one in Spanish, La Delicada,

because it has thin skin.

This skin can be punctured one barnacle.

I'm going to carry the delicate one to the cove out there.

This boat was a lot of work. Right now I could have 10 sets with fish themselves,

and instead I'm making a huge investment in time and energy, taking a huge gamble

to fish offshore, which in the long run will be, I hope, more productive.

Ready to try it out, which is a moment I expect with some trepidation.

I don't want to take a swim, involuntary swim.

That kind of exposure to possible hypothermia worries me a lot.

In the end, the ocean will decide and tell if she's seaworthy or not.

I got it out on the cove here where I want to try it out.

Getting in and out is going to be quite a challenge.

She is tippy, that's for sure.

She's tippy like hell.

It's very unstable.

It's tippy like hell.

It's very unstable.

Oh, she is tippy.

She is tippy. Boy, I nearly got in.

Well, it's amazing to be out on the water, I have to say, but this boat

makes me pretty nervous.

But she goes.

Well,

that was the maiden voyage, so to speak.

Not a tragedy, but a setback.

She actually goes pretty well. She wants to go places.

It's me. I'm not sure if I want to go places with her quite yet.

She is very unstable.

I should have built her wider.

Either I get used to her or I can help myself out with an outrigger.

I hope I can figure something out and go and try to find salmon because

my days here are counted unless I found some decent amount of grub.

Me and that mouse are going round and round.

My Paiute deadpaw is sprung.

The periwinkle that I tied onto the bait stick is gone.

The rock fell a certain way to where I think the mouse got away, or the thing

sprung, and then the mouse just came and took the bait.

It's like me against him now, and now it's personal.

Damn it.

Little bastard.

I'm going to keep working at it.

If I have this rock about like this, all

right, I'm semi-happy with that.

And there we have it.

So I hope I crushed this little sucker's head tonight.

Well, that's about it.

Good night.

I'm going to sleep good tonight.

What the?

Oh, my God.

I'm so freaking pumped right now. I'm shaking.

I finally, finally, finally caught the effing mouse in my Paiute deadfall.

I've been screwing with this and screwing with this and screwing with it.

Just about ready to go in bed, put everything in bed in there. And I heard,

I'm like, what the hell? You know, because I set it really light this time.

I came out, freaking mouse is under the rock.

I'm like, oh, hell yeah.

Pushed him hard in the rock.

Boom. He freaking takes off.

Oh, I was just bummed.

Just piss-ass bummed.

So then I had my headlamp out, and I looked, and I see him looking at me in a

hole. So I grabbed my freaking spear, and I jabbed him in the hole, and then I

stabbed him, and then he took off running, and I stomped on him. So I

finally, and then I took my knife and cut his little freaking throat.

And he's right there.

He went into this hole, and I took my freaking spear and just

jabbed it in there, and he took off running, and I just barely got him again

with this, and I just barely got his tail. Oh, my God, I caught a freaking

mouse. I am so stoked.

My first freaking primitive trap kill, man.

Oh, I finally got the little bastard.

Right on, man.

I wanted to show y'all something.

Okay.

This gigantic cedar log was not here this morning.

And this area right here is where I was planning on putting up my gill net.

The new gill net mount. I used to have it mounted over on this side. It used to

be over here.

And I'm thinking now I'm going to put it there.

If I had put it there, look what would have taken out my net.

There's just no way for me to set that gill net anywhere in here.

These gigantic cedar torpedoes won't take it out.

The only thing that's worked for me so far to get food out of the cove, other

than foraging for shellfish, is a hook and a line.

Getting a nice raw cord here.

Starting to look like a crab line.

Now I can throw the bait out there and drag them in, you know.

Or throw it down and pull them up.

As a kid, we would fish for crabs in New Jersey.

I would take a big, heavy line, tie a dead fish to it, and lower it down in

the water, and crabs who are attracted to that will bite on and latch onto

that, and I can just pull them back out.

Got him.

See that?

There you go.

Dungeness crabs.

I love them. They're greedy little creatures that hang out on the top of

the kelps waiting to drop a limpet. And then when you drop a limpet on them,

they grab it.

And if you don't get them again, you don't get them the first time, they'll

grab it again and again and again until you hook them in the body or they just

get so obstinate, you pull them free of the kelp and they just hang on until you

lift them up here on the rocks.

See a crab down here. I'm going to try and get him.

I have a second Dungeness crab.

Number three.

He lost a claw in the fight.

But the mammals won.

I have caught four of these guys.

Oh, my goodness.

I'm flabbergasted.

Number five.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah. Look at this. Look at this.

That's one, two, three, four, and five.

You ever have one of those days where everything's going

right? Yes, that's an under six, folks.

Woo!

Oh!

Oh, this place has an awesome echo.

That's the Dungeness crab cry of victory. Yes, this is number six.

There could not have been a better day out here.

As hungry as I am and as dejected as I have been, the only thing that can make

this better, seriously.

Oh, my goodness, for a Baptist to say this would be beer and friends.

That's it, man.

Look at that.

This is the most fun I've had in a long time.

Never have I been more happy or excited about a meal and a survival situation

than an entire two-quarter pie full of Dungeness crab.

I tell you, folks, there's painful days out there in life. There really is. But

there's good ones, too, you know, and you can't lose sight of that.

Have you ever had a perfect day or a perfect moment?

You remember them the rest of your life. A perfect moment is a moment you just

remember the rest of your life.

I've had a few of them in my lifetime, just moments that are just perfect,

where everything is just, the timing, everything is just perfect.

And this is one of them, I'm telling you.

To be this hungry and to sit down to a meal like this.

The anticipation that I get to eat these things right now.

Suffice to say, this is a feast of a lifetime.

You see, the thing is about catching the crabs, that felt like a beginning.

That felt like the start of something.

And that's the kind of thing you need out here to keep yourself interested, to

keep yourself enthusiastic.

That's the stuff that makes me happy to be here and gives me hope for tomorrow.

It's one thing to talk about finding a food source, plants,

animals, whatever it is.

It's quite another thing to find a sustainable food source,

something that doesn't really run out or takes a really long time to run

out.

And something like these snails, that's huge.

There's enough of these things where I'm not going to go hungry.

You know, as long as I can get out here when the tide's low, you know, you can

get an essence living definitely.

This thing's almost full.

I don't know if I'll be able to eat all this or not.

I think that's the hallmark of a good survival situation.

Sustainable food.

And fortunately, I have these snails.

You get deep-fried calamari.

It tastes almost like that.

All right.

I'm going to wash my hands.

Other than that, pretty much normal day of a whole lot of nothing.

Just kind of chilling here, waiting for the tide to go out.

I got to check these lines I put in the surf.

What to do now for two hours?

Oh, let's read a book.

Oh, wait.

Let's watch some TV.

Oh, wait.

Watch a movie.

Oh, that's right.

I was out checking all my lines.

My surf line caught me this today.

Now, it's mostly head.

There's not a lot of meat there, but there's a heck of a lot more meat here

than a limpid or a periwinkle.

As I was out there, I saw something attached to the bull kelp.

Those are huge freaking crabs, man.

They're ginormous.

Oh, my gosh, these things are huge.

Look at that claw.

Oh, my God.

Crabs and fish, baby.

Crabs and fish.

I walked by the Paiute deadfall that I made today, and it's down.

So now I got to reset it.

My work tonight never seems to end.

Oh, look at that.

Squished mouse, my favorite.

Just freaking...

Squished like a damn pancake, baby.

Yeah.

Fish and mouse and crabs tomorrow.

Woo.

Hell yeah.

You didn't even get the bait, you little bastard.

Ha.

Nice.

Shall we reset you? Yes, we should.

Ha ha.

Woo. Wow.

Hell yeah, man.

I just went to go clean the mouse, man. I just cleaned him and gutted him. I got

my fish right here. And now my Paiute deadfall is down again.

Same one. Down.

Bazinga!

This thing is like the freaking mouse freaking flayer, man.

This thing is... Holy shnikes.

Yeah, baby.

Ew. And the beet's still there.

Yeah.

Better start thinking about mouse recipes.

I had built a good boat, and it hits a good boat, but for what I want to do out

here, I want to be really stable, sitting in the water like a duck. Sit

there and fish.

I want to build an outrigger.

An outrigger is basically a stick, and at the end of the stick, some floats or

something that is very buoyant.

The problem with that is that I only have one thing.

Treasure. My fresh water can.

Need another really buoyant thing for the other side.

And I was praying for some help.

And I prayed hard.

So I went beachcombing today, and I just found this.

You can see it well.

I mean, I'm beyond words.

With gratitude, this one really got me.

This one just...

Blowing off my socks right now.

And there's a big length of rope that comes with it.

Pretty special moment for

me right now.

Because if the boat floats well, I could be out here for a long time.

It's about 11 o'clock.

I've done pretty much everything I've set out to do today.

I ate.

Got water.

I worked out a little bit.

That's really all I had to do.

And it's only 11 o'clock.

So now what?

I don't know.

There's a huge difference between someone that would go out into the

middle of the woods and just live for the rest of their life and...

the type of survival training that I'm used to.

Most of that training revolves around a military mindset. So it revolves around

a 72-hour period of getting yourself out of dodge, trying not to get killed,

surviving enough to get out.

It's not a long-term type deal.

In the military, you're always forced to go, go, go.

I'm more comfortable with that.

So now it just becomes a matter of waiting.

It's just waiting.

Waiting, waiting, waiting.

And this is when your brain really starts to play tricks on you.

You start to think, well, why the hell am I doing this?

I'm not accomplishing anything.

I'm not producing anything.

Just sitting here.

Everybody can't go into the woods for an indefinite amount of time and, you know,

come out on the other side.

But luckily, I've been given that opportunity.

And I'm going to take every little bit of it that I can, every ounce of the

healing that this is allowing for me.

But I feel

like I've already proved myself.

You know, I've already proved that I know what I'm doing.

My mind is practically screaming.

Just give up and you can go eat and drink coffee and have all these things

that you want.

But you know, like, as soon as you eat, you're going to be like,

I gave up that opportunity for this meal.

Hopefully, I will be able to resist my brain playing tricks on me and

convincing me to quit.

I do not like pooping in the woods.

And yes, I said it. For a survival instructor guy, I don't like pooping in

the woods.

But my strategy for eating lots of bull kelp has paid off.

How can I put this nicely?

The trains are running again.

Okay, one left the station this morning.

Totally normal.

Which was surprising.

Yeah, I was happy about that.

Not sure what time it is. I took a little bit of a nap, but I got to get up

and do something, at least walk around.

So I'm just bored to tears.

Days like today really make you wonder why the hell you're doing this.

This is not even survival.

Right now it's just being lazy.

I thought that there were two things that I needed as a person. And being out

here, I've realized that that is in fact true.

Happiness and adventure.

You know, the adventure is gone out here.

With the adventure being gone, then...

the happiness starts to dwindle.

There's a lot that I want to see.

You know, there's a lot that I want to experience.

There's a lot of people I want to meet.

There's a lot of laughing and crying and hugging and all sorts of other different

emotions still to be had.

And I think...

When you tie yourself down, it makes it harder to do those things.

My personal mission on this island has been accomplished.

I'm ready to get home, get back to regular life, and get on to the next

adventure.

Here they come.

Here they come.

Looks a little fuzzy, but after 35 days, it's a very welcome sight.

Does everybody look like a cat just died?

I think I need to make some changes in my life as far as what I consider

important.

And I think this is helping me see that, you know.

I said something that I've been thinking about probably the first couple days

here.

You know, I said surviving is just living.

But living to its fullest is something way better.

It's enjoying yourself. It's waking up in the morning and just full of,

yes, I'm alive.

You don't have unlimited time on this earth. You only have one life.

Just getting by day to day, it's not enough for me.

So I'd say enjoy yourself now.

And if something's keeping you from enjoying yourself, a job, significant

other, whatever it is, get rid of it.

I think the biggest change is going to be the amount of stuff that I have.

I want to get to where I can fit everything in the back seat of my truck.

And then every chance I get, I'm just going to travel from one adventure to

the next.

Okay, I'm back at the cove.

I'm sewing on the outrigger to the stationary board that I put on the stern

part of the boat yesterday.

For floats, it's got a can that I found. It was my freshwater can.

And that magnificent buoy that I found, that was quite literally the answer

to my prayers.

And it's important for the outrigger to stabilize my boat because I intend to do

longer trips.

Over there, that valley is obviously going to carry a good-sized river.

If there is going to be a salmon run anywhere nearby with inside, that's

going to be it.

So basically, I need this kayak to take me to places.

And I need to be...

Very sure that it's stable.

I want to be sitting out here in the coves just fishing, and I'd like to just

have my fishing gear in my hand and not have to have the kayak paddle.

If a fish comes up, handle it in stable watercraft.

I'm having a hard time adjusting this one camera. Oh, there you go.

Hope she stays like that.

I'm paddling.

Let's see.

Okay, folks.

This is it.

This is it.

This is it. It's working fine. I'm going to go check my fish

net.

Now we're talking.

After a while, there's just not very many redeeming qualities about this

place. How many more days, man?

How many more days of this?

Oh. Oh, man.

Steel got into my net, ate everything.

That's all that's left.

Ah, she leaks.

There's water in here.

Oh, I just went in up to my waist. If I get hypothermia, it's over.