All language subtitles for Red_Shoe_Diaries_S01E10_480p_WEBRip_BTW_30NAMA

Dear Red Shoes, I feel your pain.

And I know that sometimes the pain can
be so great that fantasy takes the place

of reality.

Especially when you're alone.

I know because for a long time I thought
I was living my life truthfully.

That I thought I was pushing myself as
hard as I could.

Yet.

I know that lie.

September 8th.

My time in L.A. is almost up.

Either I get this Freedom Williams video
or it's back home for me.

See, I promised my mom when I left, if
things didn't start to move in six

months, I'd come home and get a real
job.

I've gotten close a few times.

But for some reason...

Something inside always stops me from
letting go.

Maybe it's because there's just so many
really good dancers out here.

I mean really good dancers.

Or maybe it's because deep down, I just
don't believe I'm good enough.

I don't know.

And to make things even worse,

The moment I laid eyes on freedom, I
knew I was in trouble.

He's just so focused, so disciplined.

Every time he looks at me, it's like
he's looking right through me.

Here's what's happening.

Everybody know AC?

AC, where are you?

AC is a choreographer.

He's in from New York. Take it from the
top, really strong.

This is Tampa. She's the casting
director.

How long have you been dancing?

All my life. All my life.

I'm the director.

What we're going to be doing is we're
going to be interviewing most of you.

Right. Name, place of birth.

Paul of the Neath.

Allison Kramer.

Emily Johnson, Columbus, Ohio.

Tony Reed.

Faster. Los Angeles, California.

Faster. We're talking energy here. Emily
Johnson, Columbus, Ohio.

How old are you, Allison Kramer?

I'm 22.

20-something.

20-something, huh?

Then cut those interviews against the
footage that we're doing for the video.

We're also going to film the whole
thing.

How long do you give yourself to make
it, Emily?

Six months, a year.

What if it takes you longer?

Well, if it's meant to be, it'll happen.

What if it doesn't?

I wouldn't have any pain.

Then I'll do something else.

I don't even want to think about it.

Okay.

That's a good attitude.

Good luck.

Now,

I'm going to ask you to get up.

Go up against that wall. I'm going to
say a word to you. I want you to say the

first thing that comes into your mind,
okay?

Freedom.

Equality. Moving.

Move for me, honey. It's okay.

Come on. I want to see it in your body.
You're a dancer. Move.

Freedom. How does it make you feel?

Alive. Free.

Good, good. Move.

Good. Freedom. Say it.

Freedom.

Screaming. Freedom!

Dancing. Do not give me attitude. Tell
me the first thing that comes into your

mind. Honey, that is the first thing
that comes to my mind.

Freedom.

I don't know.

Freedom.

One, two.

Three, down four. You're looking at the
floor. Right hand goes on the back.

Bring the butt up. Can we change the
lights? Get some atmosphere.

Put some smoke in.

Put on some dark music.

Something dark.

Whenever you're ready.

Really sick.

You're going to dance, Lee.

I'm going to give you the AC.

You know Freedom.

How you doing?

You did great.

Thanks.

Pat.

Let me know.

Yeah,

and there's a story that goes with it,
too.

Emily's going to be dancing lead.

She's going to be playing Freedom's
girlfriend.

The back story is she was brought up in
the projects.

She was a really talented dancer, but
she's gotten really frustrated lately,

so she's fallen on the bad times, and
she's got a gangster boyfriend now.

But Freedom, who also grew up in the
projects and really, really loved this

girl, and this girl loved him, has just
cut a new song, you know, because he's

left the projects and he's worked really
hard, and he's come back because he

knows how great a dancer this girl is,
and he begs her to dance in the video

with him.

Gangster finds out about it, he goes
ballistic because he's frightened of

losing the girl. He doesn't want to hear
about freedom, so you know bad things

are going to happen.

So what you got? You got your bad guys,
you got your gangster, you got freedom.

Who's the hero?

And you got the girl in between.

I want to bring the gangsters in.

Come on in.

I want to show you exactly what we're
going to do. Let's do this first, okay?

Emily.

Come on in.

Okay, you guys are over here.

You're here. Come here.

Freedom's over here.

Okay, here's what happens.

You ready?

I'm going to be you, okay?

You come back.

The first thing that's going to happen
is you want to keep Emily here.

Let her be on her own for a second, and
then you're going to come in here. And

you're going to come in here, and you're
going to, okay.

I want you.

No, you stay there. Stay there.

Okay. And you're here. Just do that.

Now, she's going to try to go away.
You're going to go like this. I'm going

to be you now. You go.

You go like this. You stop her. Come in
and stop her. But it's a dance.

And then you move back like that, okay?

At the same time that this is happening,
you keep doing this.

You come in. Boom. Put the piece on her.
Put it on her, man.

But you don't want to shoot her, man.
Because what are you going to tell your

mother? What are you going to tell your
mother, huh?

You're not going to say, what am I going
to tell my mother?

Don't make me shoot you. Don't make me
shoot you. Don't make me shoot you like

that.

Come on now. Do this. Do this.

Right away, you guys take freedom. Boom.

Get him. Go.

Go. Go.

Now what you want to happen, begin to
spinner, spinner, spinner, spinner,

spinner. Back over to that corner.

Onto the floor.

That's it. Now we'll crawl to freedom.
You see him with a gun.

Get down. Get down.

happens that's it okay and freedom at a
certain time man it's attitude man just

get you know this guy's got a fucking
gun on you man but keep him moving keep

him moving keep him moving get an
attitude

I'm sorry.

Just give me a minute. I'll get it.

I feel it. It's just not coming out. I'm
sorry.

It's okay.

It's okay. Just go over a routine with
her. Yeah, you just got to listen to the

music. Get the routine.

Just feel it. It's not a problem, man.

She knows the moves.

Right?

Yeah.

I know.

I had the same problem, too, when I was
starting out. See?

I felt all this emotion inside.

Then one day, I was at this club, right,
in the sky, yo.

Fly. There's a moon.

We got crazy moons.

So I stepped to him. I said, yo, man,
what's your secret? He said, simple.

If you ever got blocked up in his mind,
right, you pick out somebody you knew

and fuck me.

They kind of like fly him up against the
wall like this for you. What's up, man?

What's up? Come with me. Come with me.
Come on. You a daddy's boy? What's up?

You sure? You sure?

Yeah, just like that.

You know what I'm saying? Real simple.

If he said his emotion would start to
send to him, and his juices would start

to flow, sort of like a jump start, like
a boost. You know what I'm saying? You

know what I mean?

Do you know what I'm trying to say? You
can push me.

Come on.

Just push me.

Push me.

Just let it go. Don't be scared.

Come on, baby. I'm all yours. Push me.

Come for me.

Come for me.

Here it is.

All here you go.

Come on. Come on.

You've got to release yourself.

You've got to stop thinking.

Everything's held up tight.

Release it. Let it go.

We're going to break for today.

And AC, make it work. We're back
tomorrow.

Eight o'clock.

This is it.

I'm so nervous.

I can barely breathe.

No more excuses.

Freedom's right.

I've got to rise above my technique and
let my emotions flow.

All I can say is, I just wish I could
see what other people see in me.

I got this damn one to play for you, all
right? Hold on, I'm going to win. I'm

going to win. I'm going to play for you.

Yo, man, let me call you back.

Five minutes.

Joe, trust me. I'm going to call you
back. Five minutes. I'm going to win.

What are you doing here?

I'm out of clean underwear.

Like you.

Hmm.

Guess I just never imagined someone like
you doing his own underwear.

Well, who gets it wrong, sweetheart?

Somebody's got to do it.

I mean, I'm not that famous yet. And
even if I was, I wouldn't be handing out

my underwear for somebody to clean.

Yeah. You're welcome.

Thanks for being so understanding today.

It's no problem. Don't mention it.
You're going to be great.

You just got to... Got to what?

You got to release.

You got to rise to the occasion.

I know.

I mean, I understand it. Nothing like
this has happened before.

It's like...

I feel all the emotion. I feel all the
energy, you know, and then, boom,

something happens, and I just, I mean,
it's gone.

Yeah, that's probably because you've
never been pushed before.

No, I'm pushed, you know. I'm used to
being pushed.

I don't know. Not the way it looked
today. Not under this much pressure. I

don't think so. Ah, you're one pompous,
one of a bitch. Ah, you should try what

I suggested.

Go ahead.

Push.

Push me.

Come on. I'm telling you, you'll be
surprised.

The things you'll find when everything
just comes out. Pow!

Push. Freedom, I'm not going to push
you.

Come on. Push.

Push. That's ridiculous. I'm not going
to push you. All right.

I understand.

We'll be doing this for the next ten
years.

Yeah, it is. You've got to rise above
the inhibition. Come from out of water.

Fuck you.

Oh. Oh.

Seriously look around. There's no one
here but this sound and you and me. Step

one, two, three. What a perfect harmony.

Step one with all those years of
practicing so hide your tears. Step two,

believe in you and do not forget what to
do. Do, do, do. Come on, come on, come

on. You can do it. You can. Check it
out.

Step three is the hard part and it
requires the heart.

You must have it from the start if you
believe in your art. All in all, there

is no clue of exactly what to do. You
must reach for the stars and hold on to

them like glue. This is the part that
will sing most. Running home back to the

coast with their tails between their
legs. All broke up like scrambled eggs.

So come on, push, push, push. You can do
it. Come on, come on. You can do it. Do

it. Come on. See this? Just take it.

Take it. Just take it. There it is.

Come on. Come on.

Release. I know you can do it. I
wouldn't push you if I didn't believe

you can do it. Come on. Come on.

Release. If I didn't want you to, I
wouldn't ask you to.

We wouldn't be here.

Come on. I won't stop until you commit.

You've got to get this part. Come on.
See? There it is. I see it.

Come on. Come on.

Come on.

Push it.

That's it.

That's it. That's it.

Come on now.

You know you can do it.

That's what you got to do.

You got to commit.

This will be hard.

All that anger and tension you got is
bottled up.

It's bottled up.

Come on.

That's it.

You got to reach.

You got to dig deep.

You can be whatever you want to be.

But you got to believe.

You know how beautiful you look today?

Good man.

The next day.

D-Day.

The day of the shoot.

Couldn't sleep.

Can't eat.

Still too nervous.

What's happening?

H.E. Yeah, what's up? Talk to me.

You ready?

You girls ready?

Let's do it.

Everybody up here, let's see what it
looks like.

With a new track.

This ain't fiction, it's fact.

I made the rules that'll make you wanna
groove. That'll make you wanna prove my

moves and all that.

Dance to your feel like I feel now.

Grab your girl and then move. That's
how.

Now is the time. Now is the year. And
this is the world premiere.

It's time for a relief.

A piece of this, this dial is what I'm
giving to save the leaf. I'm a beast

from the east and there's more to speak.

Just dance to my expertise.

I did it before and I'm going to do it
once more. Or I'll die on the dance

floor. So when you wave your hands, you
better come for the kill. Because when I

dance, I'm ill. No rules allowed.

The whole part. Just dance till you wet
your pants and that's hard. Like Bobby

Brown. I'm on my own and I'm back to the
phone.

Break it down for me, brother.

One more is three. Here we go. You want
to flow? Join with me.

Wave your hands in the air from side to
side and chill.

Yeah, that's ill.

My rock vernacular.

Spectacular.

Manufacturer. Smooth as Dracula.

I'm on a mission. Full of ambition.

Competition. Conditions. On me a damn
station.

So I'm G-Shake. You're off, you little
chump. Move a little bit or I'm gonna

bump. There's no shame to claim the fame
that I've attained.

To everybody scream that name.

I thought you had this worked out.

She'll get it. Just give us one more
chance, man. Chill.

It's no problem.

Just give us ten minutes, man.

I don't have ten minutes. Let's do the
European version.

The unrated version. Let's do it now.

Hold on, hold on. She can do it, man.
She can do it. All right, listen up.

We're doing the European version.

Emily, clothes off. You're going to need
body makeup. What? What?

Hey, you sign the nudity rider. All you
girls sign the nudity rider.

I'm not taking off my clothes.

All right. Just give us ten more
minutes, man. I'm telling you. We don't

have ten more minutes. We've got so much
time. We've got so much money. I don't

want you to do anything you're not
comfortable with. Listen, then if that's

your attitude... No, no, wait a minute.
I got another girl here.

Great. Come on.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Let me
take your hair.

I'm out.

That's it, man.

Jesus Christ, man. Get a grip on it.
Where's the stuff you spoke to? I don't

care. I really don't care.

Unrated version now.

Put the music on. Put the music on.
European version. Let's go.

Let me

know.

You don't give a shit?

Bullshit! You full of shit! I'm telling
you!

Leave me alone, okay? I had my chance. I
blew it. No, you didn't blow anything.

But you know what you're doing? You're
blowing it right now. All of a sudden,

it's not comfortable, so you're just
going to bail out on me?

Wall to wall, the price is high. You
might meet that type of guy or type of

girl who rock your world and trade your
diamonds for their pearls. You can stand

and end the day picking up their sexy
ways.

You might have to paraphrase what you
call the better days.

All in all, there is no clue.

The sex is good. Take two.

Sometimes I don't know what to do. I
might explode all over you, all over

you. All over you, all over you. What
was that last night?

You knew I was down and you took
advantage of me. If that was me taking

advantage of you last night, then I need
to check myself into a loony bin for an

overhaul. You're right. Could you do it?
Send the bill to me.

Okay.

I understand now. This is okay.

Thank you. European person, please.

No problem. That's the way you want to
do it. You want a good European version?

Let's do it. We can do it right now. All
right. It's not a problem. It's not a

problem. What do you want?

What? I'm going to hit you. I'm going to
hit you.

What? What do you want? I'll hit you.

Hit you.

I'll hit you. That's exactly it. Now
just take that passion, honey, and just

start to dance. Does this make you
happy? Take all that emotion you're

feeling and just start to dance. That's
it. Just reach down.

You got it.

You got it. Now what I want to do. as I
want to pick up the video exactly where

we left off.

Everybody just get it in the position.
That's it, honey. Just reach down. You

got it.

Just reach down. I want to pick it up on
three.

Andrew, I remember that.

You little sneak. You finally got what
you wanted, huh?

You bet your ass.

I did.

I got what I wanted.

Now what do I do?

Not with my career, but the way I feel
about freedom.

Rule number one.

The last thing my mother said before I
left home was, never, never fall in love

with a rock star.

And if you do...

Then go immediately to rule number two.

If you gotta love him, take it one day
at a time.

Somehow what I learned from him was to
push past what I thought my limits were.

And most importantly, to trust myself.

I'd love to learn to trust myself, too.