All language subtitles for Suddenly.Amish.S01E08

[Billie Jo]
Previously on "Suddenly Amish."

[Bishop] People are
leaving the Amish community.

[speaking Pennsylvania Dutch]

I will be inviting
English people into

our community in hopes of
repopulating the church.

[Matt]
I've always been interested
in the Amish community.

[Esmeralda] The Amish way of
doing things kind of just makes

more sense to me.

[Bishop]
You'll need to integrate
into the Amish community.

It will be your jobs to
disciple them,

to prepare them.

[James]
I do not have a good standing
in my community right now.

I am shunned.

By helping me, I'm offering
James a chance at redemption.

[James]
I don't expect these English
to last more than a couple days.

[Allen] It is our responsibility
to teach them what's right

and what's wrong.

[James] I am escorting
you off the property.

He's chasing me with
a [bleep] axe.

If I'm not strict enough,
I might be the one

paying the price.

You're an English guy trying to
drag off our Amish ladies.

I need to go find them.

[knocking]

James is very unhinged.
This community's not for me.

-I'm out of here.
-[Kendra] I'm going home.

I'm leaving.

[Billie Jo] We're like, dropping
like flies here.

[singing]

I'm scared.

I don't think that the Amish
accepts anybody in

the LGBT community.

Imma just keep my little
secrets to myself.

My hearing aids are
controlled by this.

I'm gonna have to take
your phone now.

If he takes my hearing aids
away, that messes with my head.

Welcome to the Amish.

[Billie Jo] The hardest part
for me is the heat.

-I feel like I'm dying.
-[Esmeralda] I studied,
got my master's,

[indistinct] now holding a broom
to sweep floors.

It's such a step down.

-Reckoning Day is tomorrow.
-Tomorrow is a big day.

[Bishop]
At that time, the church will
decide whether they can

continue pursuing membership
in the Amish church.

I am really concerned with
the Amish stance against

the LGBTQ community.

I don't know if I'm ready yet
to tell Allen and James

that I'm bi, but I feel
like I either talk to them

about my sexuality now
or it will never happen.

My thing is this.

[dramatic music building]

[reverent chanting]

[Judah]
Can I hear in the headphones
what that sounded like?

OK.

[Judah singing]
Don't know if I'm wrong,
don't know if I'm right.

Following the signs,
chasing peace of mind.

Running from the time,
running from my mind.

I've been trying to find...

I've been trying to find me.

OK, keep that,
and then let me do it again.

The song -- the song is
gonna be called --

the song is gonna be
called "Trying to Find Me."

Just trying to really find
myself through everything

that's going on in life.

[Judah] I feel drained.

I don't feel like my potential
is being used.

Like, who am I?
What is this world?

Who am I in it?

My sexuality shouldn't
label me.

Why do I have to put up a front
or be somebody different?

My biggest fear is if
the Amish will accept me

for who I really am.

It be crazy.
I know God got my back.

[crickets chirping]

So if I were gay, then I would
not be able to be a part

of the community.
Is that what you're saying?

[tense music builds]

My thing is this...

um...

I'm bisexual.

I mean, honestly,
with me and my journey.

I've been through so much in
my life where I've hid myself

from my mom, from my family,
but I've been safe enough to

be here and be myself
around these people.

I'm not gonna do that.

Him dropping this bomb,
especially right before

reckoning day,
is very brave of him, I think.

So if the Amish community
cannot accept me

because of me being bi,

then this is just not
a community that I'm gonna be

a part of, respectfully.

With Judah coming out
and saying that he's bisexual,

it was shocking.

Right now I'm kind of torn
because in the Old Testament,

God clearly stated one man
and one woman in marriage.

[James] The Bible says it's a
sin for a man to lay with a man.

It's definitely an area
of concern.

[Sarah]
When Judah said that he was
bisexual in the dinner table,

I was worried a little bit

because he's gonna have to go
in front of the Bishop.

[Judah] I don't know.

I came to this talk,
like, really ready to join

the community, but now I'm just
like, do I really want to keep

hiding who I am?

[acoustic guitar playing]

♪♪

[Billie Jo] Today is
reckoning day.

This is something that
I've always wanted so badly.

And the more I think about it,
the more I really don't know.

Can't think about just me.

It's also my family,
and it's a lot.

[acoustic guitar continues]

[Allen]
Today is reckoning day.

James and I will be going in
front of the Bishop

and making a case as to

why we think the English that
are still with us would

or would not be a good fit
for our community.

Sarah and I,
we did pray about this.

And I really don't know
what I'm gonna say

about each one.

[Aaron]
I would be lying if I said
I wasn't tossing and turning

the entire night
just thinking about,

OK, do I want --
do I not want?

What's he gonna say?
How would this go?

This day is the day that
everything changes for me.

[Judah] I'm just so sad because
I've created all these bonds

with everybody, and to see this
about to come to an end,

my heart's kind of broken,

and we're all gonna
have to make a decision.

Do we want to be a part of
an Amish community,

or do we want to go back
to how we were before?

[Esmeralda] Even if
the congregation agrees to

let us stay, we still have to
make that decision

for ourselves.

So it's not the decision that
the Amish are gonna

make about me.

It's really the decision
I have to make about them.

[Bishop] In order to
become Amish members,

it would be a two-
to three-year time span.

And in that time, you would be
expected to be a part of

the community projects
that go on.

You would be expected to
understand and experience

the Dutch dialect.

And at the end of this process,
there would be a six months

time of discipleship,

where you would examine
the foundational principles of

what the Amish believe
about the Bible.

And then if you agree to that,
you would be expected to have

an adult baptism and pronounce
you a member of the church.

[James]
The Bishop brought together
a select group of members to

help us make decisions about
these English people.

I worry these English aren't
ready to continue their journey

here in the Amish community.

If we don't accomplish
anything from this mission,

there's less chance of me
falling in the good graces

of the Bishop
and becoming unshunned.

[Esmeralda] It's stressful,
it's overwhelming.

There's rows and rows of people
from all over the community.

And depending on your decision,
this could be the community

that you're joining.

[Billie Jo] I know that
I am being watched.

The uncertainty is a nightmare.

We're gathered here...

for this special service...

for the future of our church.

God has sent six non-Amish
people in our midst

who wish to join our community.

Four remain.

It's a decision for life.

-Everybody's petrified.
-[Judah] This is it.

The moment of truth.

[Bonnie]
I know that she's been obsessed
with the Amish for a long time,

but I didn't really,
until the last few years,

realize that she would
like to be Amish, so...

We are very close.

It's a little scary that
I might not be able to see her,

but I want her to be happy.

If the Amish rejected her,
I would feel terrible for her.

It's a decision for life.

[tense chord plays]

[Bishop]
At the end of this service,
I will ask the congregation to

nod their heads if they agree
to allow these candidates to

continue with us.

You may remain silent
if you dissent.

Allen and James,
you've been house-parents here.

I would like to hear from
you what you've observed

and what
your recommendations are,

and we as a congregation will
then make a decision.

At this time, rise and share
what you have to share.

[Judah] The air feels
so thick right now.

I'm anxious because I just came
out to my Amish family.

I don't know if Allen's gonna
have my back.

I don't know what's
gonna go on.

Um, I'll start with Billie Jo.

Esmeralda...

she had a hard time to
give up the items

that she loved,

but she understands.
She conformed.

Aaron has been very cooperative.

We've seen some
community efforts

helping out on the farm.

So yeah, I've been
very impressed with Aaron.

Judah, he was scared of
animals, but he's been helping

out on the farm,
feeding the animals

and catching fish.
Yeah, that was great.

So, one question
I would have for you is,

do you have any recommendations,

things that you would like to
see them work on?

[clears throat]

Judah has -- is...

Maybe something you wish
they would change?

Judah...

to me, you're like a son.

And I hope we can be a blessing
to each other.

And to the people around us.

For my part, I'd be ready to
move forward and give

these gentlemen and ladies
an opportunity

if they desire so.

Good.

When Jude is at that he was
bisexual the dinner table,

I wasn't too sure about
what's going to happen.

But as a person,

I don't think I'm gonna look
at Judah any different way

than I did before.

[Judah]
Honestly, like Allen almost
brought me to tears

because no matter what,
you know, the Amish rules are,

he accepts me.
He loves me.

He cares for me.
He knows my heart.

[Allen]
Scripture states that one man
and one woman in marriage.

But being honest with myself,
I saw more growth in Judah

than probably any of the others

and kind of made my decision
on his growth.

[Billie Jo] It was really brave
of Allen to accept Judah

and look past the rules.

But I have no idea how James is
gonna react to this.

[Bishop]
Thank you, Allen.

James, what would
you have to say?

I sense your opinion.
Your opinion may be different.

Well, I don't know, um...

[Judah]
I don't know what's about to
come out of his mouth.

I mean, since day one,
he chased somebody out

the house with an axe.
-[Billie Jo] He's just
a wild card.

Who knows what James
is gonna do?

A lot of them have ties back
into their worldly lives.

Esmeralda has one foot in,
one foot out.

A girly-girl, sorry.

Aaron has definitely integrated
very well in a lot of ways,

but he still struggles with
the hearing aid thing.

For James to stand up,
give testimony to the community

and give testimony to
the Bishop and say that even

though he knows
and he watched me,

he mentored me.

That really hurt.

[Esmeralda]
I feel like James hasn't
really seen,

just, like, the changes I made.

To him, it's so, like,
superficial that

he doesn't think
that it's growth, so

it kind of feels like,
OK, like,

OK, cool, like,
he's not proud of me,

but I am proud of myself.

[James]
So, we're down to Judah.

Judah has brought probably
questioned the most.

What do you actually want?

From what?

Do you want
the Amish life or not?

I love it here, and I'm having
a great time.

I met some amazing people,

and I'm super grateful for that.

Kind of the main concern with
Judah is, in certain ways,

he wants to be creative,
but the Amish don't...

believe in being creative.

Bishop, if I may...

I just want to be able to
share the Word of God.

That's all I want to do.

[Bishop] Judah, he's
looking for more individuality.

I would like to encourage us

to accept Judah where
he's at today.

I would like to encourage Judah
to continue growing.

I think you would find some...

acceptance
as you continue to grow.

And I would just like to
encourage the congregation

on that point,

just to be more accepting,
more loving, more gracious.

I think James has been
quite strict with them.

Losing Matt, Kendra,
and Emma is an example of this,

but that is for
a later discussion.

Looks like the Bishop and I
need to have a conversation.

I don't think he fully realizes
how much effort

I put into this.

When we talk about
the experience with Matt

and Kendra,
there's principles.

The choices we make
bring consequences,

and James didn't care.

[James] I'm trying to be
unshunned by my church.

The Bishop kind of has
the final say-so, and if he has

a bad impression of me,

I'm not -- I'm not in
a good position.

At this time,

could each of you in turn stand
and say your piece?

Aaron, if you would, would you
come up here and just address

the congregation
and share your piece?

I'm nervous.

It's kind of in the hands of
the Bishop today.

So it's...
it's pretty heavy.

We have to explain why we've
taken this journey on

and what we want from that.

So one thing that I love
about the Amish is

that they're simple people.

They're beautiful in the way
that they live their life

of giving, but I have
a disability with hearing.
-You do.

And in the community,
that's extremely difficult.

My phone is connected

to my hearing aids,
but then that was taken away.

If I stay, that's a humongous
life change.

And I've been thinking
on that a lot.

-Thank you.
-[Judah] Good job.

Esmeralda?

Hello, everyone.

I hate public speaking,
so having to go up there in

front of community,
I feel like it's just

so much
more pressure.

I was so scared to leave
my comfortable life back home

and come here and pursue this
because I knew

it was gonna be so challenging.

But I feel like
I learned

conforming is not
always a bad thing.

I learned so much about
confidence and that it's OK

to be yourself here and not
need makeup and fancy clothes

to feel good about yourself.

And I'm hoping I continue to
grow and give back to

the community that has
given so much to me.

Thank you.

You may take your seat.

[Esmeralda] It was a lot of
pressure, a lot of emotions,

and again, I'm not good at
public speaking, so I feel like

the eyes of everyone
in the community

just looking at me.

-[Bishop] Billie Jo?
-[sighs] -- yes.

All right.
Hello, everyone.

My mouth is dry.

My hands are clammy.

I want to impress the Bishop.
I want to impress the church.

But at the same time, I'm not
sure that I'm cut out for

the Amish life.

It's completely overwhelming.

[heavy exhale]
All right...

It's completely overwhelming,
the enormity of this.

This is like a job interview
that I want so bad.

So I am just saying what
I think is the right thing

and just speaking from
my heart.

I am grateful for Sarah
and Allen and James

and everything that you have

taught myself
and all the others.

That it's not just about
how you dress or what you can

or cannot do.
It's about your morals.

I've loved so much.

I will never get these
moments back.

It's a lot harder than
I thought that it would be.

-Thank you.
-Thank you.

Judah, would you like
to share?

Good evening
to the congregation, um...

[Judah] The emotion is
literally bottling up.

It's like that feeling when
you have so much to say,

but it's all caught right here,

and you just really
can't get it out.

Has there been enough positive
to the experience that

you would like to continue to
learn from it?

Or are you saying,
"No, I'm done"?

[exhales]
I'm gonna just say this.

I've met some beautiful,
amazing people on this journey

with me, and I've
made community.

I've literally faced
fears here.

I've pet animals,
I've caught fish,

I've been chased
by chickens out here.

I've done a lot out here,
you know what I'm saying?

And it wasn't for no reason.

I would love to stay and learn
more about this community

and learn more about
myself and God,

because I've learned
a lot here.

End of the day, I would like
for y'all to accept me for

who I am because I accept each
and every last one of y'all

in these pews.

We can all be who we are
and still serve Jesus

in each and every way.

-Thank you.
-Thank you, Bishop.

♪ Can you hear me? ♪

♪ Can you hear me now?
Can you hear me now? ♪

At this time,
as a congregation, if we're...

of one mind and heart,
could we give a nod of assent

if we would allow
these four applicants

to continue finding
their way here?

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

[Billie Jo] The decision
obviously makes me nervous.

I think I know what I want to
do, but it's important that

I feel that I'm accepted and
that others will be accepted.

Are we agreed to move
forward graciously,

with mercy, with love,
with compassion?

♪ Ooh ♪

[Judah]
I've given up so much
of my life to be here,

and I don't want it to
be in vain.

This is where
our lives change.

[Bishop]
Are we prepared to allow
these applicants to continue?

[upbeat music playing]

[Aaron] I feel like there was
a big sigh of relief after this.

It's pretty heavy.

The congregation has spoken,

but for the English,

I would like to encourage you to
take it very, very seriously.

In the Amish world,
this decision...

is a lifelong decision.

Take the time you need to
think it through.

Think about it.

Bishop Vernon asking us to
take a moment to step back

and really, you know,
think about the decision

that we're gonna make
is a smart move.

Take a day, breathe,
and see if it's something

that we really decide to do.

Now, we all have a decision
to make, and I just hope

that everyone makes the right
decision for themselves.

[Esmeralda]
I'm super grateful that
the Bishop and the community

gave me the opportunity to
join, so making this decision

is gonna be really hard.

[Billie Jo] Try it.

Wow!

-Cheers.
-Cheers!

-[glasses clinking]
-Mm!

The Bishop is just
sitting in the back,

just watching everybody,
and his energy is real tense.

[Billie Jo] I could just see by,
like, body language there was

something brewing.

What we know is we didn't get
kicked out, so cheers to that.

So, if you're sincere, I told
you that you could continue to

sort through these things.

But I did not come here
to create drama.

And I'll just be very,
very frank.

I am very, very upset with

what happened with
Kendra and Matt.

I'm very upset.

I'll be honest with you, James.

You need this experience
as much as they do

because you literally have
walked away from the faith...

in Jesus Christ.

[Bishop]
James was rebellious,

and he was
a disappointment to me...

because in the Amish world,
you're willing to say,

"OK, I made a mistake here.

I think I should have done
that differently."

And that has not happened.

I don't know
what James was doing.

That's not the Amish
background I came from.

I will not be a part of...

pounding on anybody
and hurting people.

I don't think the Bishop
should have gotten upset at me.

I mean, I was just trying to
keep law and order

in this group.

I mean, the fact is that Kendra
and Matt went to a hotel,

and they shouldn't have.

But at the end of the day,
he is in charge of

making final decisions,

and there's nothing
I can really do.

So, if you were to ask whether
I would recommend James be

unshunned in his community...

the answer is no.

Hey!

Welcome to my classroom.

This is my special-ed class,
and I have students that come

in every single day and we have
goals, we have objectives.

I guess I can relate to them
because, you know, I do have

a disability with my hearing.

As you can see,
they're in there.

So having my phone where I can
adjust the volume is crucial,

because how am
I gonna educate them

if I can't hear them?

And get feedback
or give feedback?

Or just really be

an advocate for these kids
who might just need somebody to

slow down with them?
And, uh...

I will miss that.

[pensive music plays]

[Esmeralda] The Bishop told us
to take a little more time to

make our final decisions.

I want to grow with
the community.

It's also, like, I need to look
at my own life and, you know,

the decision that
I truly want to make.

Yeah, they took my eyelashes
off, my nails off.

Like, the first night
I was here,

they obviously took away
our phones.

They took away all my makeup,

all my, like,
not modest clothes.

But, yeah, it's all gone.
It's all locked away.

But, yeah, like, at church
today, hearing everyone else

kind of, like, made me
also feel pressured

to wanting to
join the community.

But the Bishop also kind of
gave us, like, the grace to

really take our own time
and make our own decisions.

So, like, in the back of
my head, I'm still like,

"Do I really want this for
the rest of my life?"

[Judah]
It feels so bittersweet.

Like, it feels just
like yesterday,

we walked in English,
and some of us will be leaving

out Amish, you know?
-Brother James,

[continues in
Pennsylvania Dutch]

[speaking Pennsylvania Dutch]

Sure.

Any time that Allen and James
speak in Dutch,

something's about to go down.

Now is the time where
the English are going to make

a decision whether
they want to stay or leave.

-[Billie Jo] Oh.
-[Esmeralda] Oh, my gosh.

I haven't seen that in
so long.

[Billie Jo]
Oh, my goodness.
The contraband chest.

The pants already no.
Shoes have to go.

[Billie Jo] I literally forgot
about those.

I want to hear one of you say,
"Thou shalt not tempt us."

[Billie Jo]
Thou shalt not tempt us.

Oh, God.

This chest holds a lot of
things that we love

and we've had and we used.

I'm a little nervous what
people are gonna do with this

temptation because everything
has been away from us.

-So the time has arrived.
-Go ahead.

[Judah] It's like they're
baiting us to see if,

do you really want
to be Amish?

[Billie Jo]
I'm a little on edge.

Everyone here has become like
my family, so I really don't

want to say goodbye to anyone.

[fire crackling]

[James]
Who is staying Amish?
Who is going back English?

Come on up.

Everybody's just looking
around like,

"Who's gonna stand up?"

[tense music builds]

[Esmeralda]
Walking up to that chest,
once you see like a part of

the old you, it's like you just
get all those memories of,

oh, like, I can just go back
home and, you know,

act like I'm, you know,
back to the convenient life,

back to English life.

It's so easy to just pick up
those stuff and go.

OK, let me get my stuff.

Gotta -- gotta go back home for
a little, figure things out.

So I would like my stuff.

I've made the decision and this
Amish life is not meant for me.

[Judah]
We came in together.

I wanted us to stay together,
but everybody got their own

path and their own journey.

[Esmeralda]
It is bittersweet.

I'm gonna miss the people here
and the house despite the flies

and no AC and no lights.

I feel like if you're wanting
to live a very simple,

minimalistic life,
then the Amish life

could definitely be for you.

But if you're not ready to give
up the everyday conveniences

of life, then I do not
recommend.

Aaron, it's your turn.

[heavy exhale]

[sniffs]

[Aaron] If I leave today,
I'm leaving my family.

I do need these.

I cannot believe this.

-And I do need this.
-I understand.

[Aaron] I think that as much as
I wanted to be here,

I have been really wrestling
with a lot of stuff all day

and realizing I can't
keep my hearing aids,

and that's huge.
That's a deal breaker.

[Billie Jo]
I think that the phone
and the hearing aids,

you know, that's something that
he feels he needs to have in

order to live comfortably.

So he has to do what's best for
him on his journey.

[James]
You got all your stuff?

[Allen]
It's a disappointment to me
that Aaron made the decision

not to stay, simply because
the fact of his hearing aids.

I wish there was a way that
we could have made it

easier on him.

He had a chance to become
a good fit for our community.

Walking away from something
that you have put so much

energy into, life and breath,
isn't easy.

I love and want community,

and that's one big reason
I took this journey.

But it doesn't have
to be Amish.

OK, BJ.

I mean, I'm just gonna take
a look, you know?

I -- it's been so long, Allen,
I almost forget what's in there.

[James]
Yield not to temptation.
What do I see?

[laughing]

[Billie Jo]
Phones are in there,

and things that
we used every day.

This is like Pandora's box.

BJ's hesitating,
and I can't even believe

that she's considering
leaving right now.

She's literally wanted to be
Amish her whole life.

-So, what do you think?
-I am...

I am staying out of it.
-Hey!

-I am focused on this.
-Whoa!

-Aw! I love you.
-I love you too.

I have longed to be a part of
the community, and this journey

has showed me that it's
absolutely the place for me.

I love the people,
the culture, the lifestyle.

The verdict is in.
I do want to be Amish.

All right, Judah, your turn.

What is your decision?

Are you staying or
are you leaving?

Come on up.

When Judah walks up,
I'm just bracing myself.

Oh my gosh, Judah,
don't do it.

I'm scared to death that he's
going to do what they did.

[dramatic music plays]

I really don't know
what he's gonna do.

I'm gonna stay.

-[reverent chanting plays]
-OK.

-That's a great decision.
-Thank you, sir.

-Thank you.
-Thank you.

[Judah] Being here, I didn't
expect to gain any friendships,

and the fact that I'm here as
the last two with you really

does mean a lot to me.

-I'm proud of you.
-Thank you, Sarah.

-I'm so proud
of you, I love you.
-Thank you.

I appreciate you for making
this a safe space for me to be

open and be myself.
I appreciate you.

I love you.

And I'm excited to see,
like, where this crazy journey

takes us.
-[chuckles] Same.

With Judah and BJ planning to
continue the journey in

the Amish, I wish them well.

In the end, I guess
Esmeralda and Aaron,

it was just too much for them.

This life is not for them.

[Aaron]
I'm sad to leave.

Am I gonna regret leaving?

I don't know.

[Esmeralda] I'm gonna miss
the slow-paced life here.

I don't think I really had
any regrets,

I think I did everything to
the best that I could.

And I loved everyone to
the best of my ability.

[Esmeralda] Oh.

-Oh, my gosh.
-Esme!

[indistinct]

I love you guys.

[sniffling]

-All right --
we'll see you guys.
-[Aaron] We'll see you.

-Love you all.
-[Allen] Safe travels.

[Billie Jo] Thank you.

[James speaks indistinctly]

[Billie Jo] Bye.

-[Aaron] Bye, guys.
-Love you guys.

-Love you, Es! No!
-[Billie Jo] Love you so much.

Seeing Esmeralda and Aaron
in their English clothes

is kind of crazy.

Saying goodbye,
it's bittersweet.

But right now, I'm happy.

I am here for the long run,
for the Amish life.

I'm so grateful for this
entire experience.

Sorry.

[Bishop]
Everybody deserves
a place where they can find joy.

And if that's not here,
we're gonna bless you.

If you can take something
from this experience,

I bless you for it.

If it leads you to something
different other than being

Amish, I bless you for it.

Has it changed the way
they look at technology?

Has it broken the cycle of just
being glued to your phone?

That would be my hope for
these six applicants.

♪ A fresh perspective
of my life ♪

[Esmeralda]
I'm glad that I did this,
because it just showed me

how much I take for
granted back home.

So I'm definitely putting
that into my life

and being more grateful.

I'm excited to finally,
you know,

be more, like,
immersed in my life.

♪ Another moment
locked in time ♪

[Kendra]
Even though it was a very
challenging experience for me,

it's completely shifting how
I'm living my life now.

All this, I don't need it.
I just don't --

[Kendra]
I stopped accepting dance
opportunities if the outfit was

a little too revealing,

and I started dancing for
my church.

[Kendra] Update on Matt and I,
unfortunately, it just wasn't

meant to be.
So he's not my cowboy.

I'm hoping and praying for
another cowboy.

[Matt] Life is simple now.
Screen time is down.

TV time is down.

The boys don't play as much
video games anymore.

My kids want to be Amish now,
and I told them

Dad gave it a shot.

And they said, "We can't bring
our phones, Dad,

so don't bring your phone.
I don't want to get in trouble."

[Aaron]
Walking away from something
that you have put so much

energy into isn't easy,

but what I'm really glad is
that I considered trying

the Amish life,
because the lessons learned,

the revelations
and realizations,

it was everything that I needed.

[Allen] Our mission was to help
them find a better life,

and I do feel like
we did succeed.

And I hope they have good
memories of our time together

and think positive of
the Amish lifestyle.

♪ For life ♪

♪ The time is now ♪

♪ This is our moment ♪

♪ We chose our path ♪

♪ Get up and do it ♪

♪ There's no where
I'd rather be, yeah ♪

♪ Right here,
right now ♪

[James] The Bishop didn't feel
like I'm ready to be unshunned,

but I'm glad for everything
I've learned during this

mission, what the English have
taught me about acceptance.

Some of the English left,
some stayed, but hopefully more

come in the future,

and I'm willing to be here
to help them.

[Judah] I'm currently in
Atlanta, seeing family, friends,

and letting them know
that I decided to move forward

and continue my journey with
the Amish community.

Even though everybody moved on,

I still feel like we're
all a family.

Like, Allen and Sarah
are the parents.

BJ is like an older sister.
Aaron is a brother.

Esme is a sister.

James is like that annoying
uncle at the cookout that

you really don't want to talk
to, but you love him anyway.

[Billie Jo] Judah and I both are
pursuing our discipleship.

We've talked about getting
a house together.

And meanwhile, I'm trying to
learn Pennsylvania Dutch.

[speaking Pennsylvania Dutch]

I think that means
"I don't know."

We'll see.
I'm learning.

♪ There's no where
I'd rather be, yeah ♪

[Emma] I think a lot of people
covet the Amish lifestyle just

because it seems so peaceful
and everybody wants peace

in their life.

Everybody is looking
for something,

and most of those people
that are looking for something,

they're looking for a place
where they can feel safe...

and where they can just...

have that peacefulness.

♪ Ooh-oh-oh ♪

♪ Ooh-oh-oh ♪

♪ Ooh-oh-oh ♪

♪ Ooh-oh-oh ♪

♪ Right here,
right now ♪