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Tonight is so formal,

I suppose it, it is somewhat of a quiet comfort

for all of us, I think,

to be able to be here together,

in the walls of Elizabeth's own creation.

Knowing her as I did through her work, she was,

most proud of what she built here,

her home.

And while she may not be here now,

she is survived by her two greatest loves.

Her work and you, Jill -

her wife.

I must say, I do take some of the credit

for you two ending up together.

And now,

the National Gallery has been in touch with me.

They wish to hold a retrospective

of all Elizabeth's--

How did you know her?

So, we have...

You can speak. It's not a chuch.

I didn't.

I, I didn't know her.

Jill invited me.

- I didn't call him. - Well then who did?

No one here even knew he existed.

I don't know, I didn't call him.

I don't even know who he is.

Did she not tell you about...

- About what? - About him. About him.

Ah, I'm sorry, I think there's been a mistake.

Jill called me a couple of days ago and told me that...

Well that Elizabeth had, um...

..and that I could come if I needed, so...

I don't know what you need, but you shouldn't be here.

Jill? It's Jack.

You called me and told me--

Everything okay here?

Yes, yeah, he's just leaving.

I'm not leaving, I was ah...

-I was invited. -She asked you to leave, mate!

Be respectful. They're her family.

I'm her son.

I want him to stay.

Fine.

I'm sorry about that,

I think it's better if everyone leaves, thank you.

I'm sorry about that.

About her.

Who is she?

Elizabeth's sister.

You don't remember inviting me?

Where are you staying?

I can stay in town, it's not a problem.

No, you should stay here, of course.

Did she know where I was?

All this time?

Why didn't you call me...

..before she passed?

It was sudden.

She was very ill.

There's a room down the hallway, you can stay.

Excuse me.

Your stuff's gone.

I really wanted to be there for it.

For you.

I guess I thought we'd made it far enough...

..no...

..that we were past this but...

I can't just wait around for you to let me back in again.

Look after yourself.

I love you.

Here...

Let me help.

Oh no, thanks...

You sleep in here?

Yes.

While she's still here.

Sorry...

You just look...

You look so much like her.

I don't remember her at all.

Didn't your family tell you anything?

Nothing.

No one ever...

..took me in...

..for long enough, at least.

I'm sorry, I thought she, ah...

..you knew that.

I'm very tired, I think we need to rest.

Right.

Goodnight.

Jill!

You okay?

She is okay.

Who is?

Jill.

What is this?

You are holding me here, Jack.

Who are you?

Your mother.

Stop it!

What is this?

They took you from me.

It's okay.

Last time I saw her...

..she wasn't well...

Yeah, that's a tragedy.

Predictable.

Everything okay after yesterday, with Helen?

Yeah.

I was surprised that she came.

They never spoke.

I'm sorry.

Oh...

Get you something more to drink?

- No thank you, it's fine. - Okay. Okay.

We're staying in town tonight,

if you don't want to be alone.

Oh, ah...

I'm...

I'm okay, thank you.

Okay.

I'm not alone.

It's so sad.

I heard they found her in the lake.

It's awful.

- Last night-- - I'm sorry.

- No, I-- - About this morning, I...

I have no idea how I ended up that way.

No!

She drowned.

We couldn't find her body under the ice.

And then, when we found her, she had rocks in her pocket.

Did she leave a note?

She didn't need to.

I've been having trouble sleeping, too.

I wake up in different places.

I find my things in different places,

as if someone's there.

She's not gone--

Jill! Stop! Please.

She called you.

That's why I didn't know yesterday.

She spoke to me too last night, through you.

She has more to tell you,

tonight.

It doesn't feel like you.

What are we doing?

I need him to be together like this.

How? He doesn't even know you.

He needs to.

You want him to know who you are?

Is that what you want?

I don't want to lose you.

You left me.

We were together.

Why?

I thought it would stop.

- Did it stop? - No.

Nothing changed.

The pain just... followed.

Hmm.

Where are you, when you are not here?

Alone.

Me too.

Tomorrow they come and take your body to cremate it.

What will happen then?

I have his...

- And if he leaves? - He won't.

What if...

I can't...

You can't speak.

Why not?

Ask.

You, took your own life.

Why?

Pain!

- From what? - From me.

Is that why I was taken?

You couldn't take care of me?

-I could. -Then why didn't you?

My sister, Helen.

What does she have to do with it?

She made them take you away from me.

Why?

She said I was unfit.

That I was dangerous.

That I couldn't look after you.

Is that true?

No, that's a lie!

Why would she lie?

To get rid of the problem?

Me...

Why didn't you get me back?

Because I couldn't face you.

These, are mine.

You said I was holding you here.

What happens if I let you go?

I am gone.

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

You saw?

You?

Hmm.

How is this real?

You know, it's strange...

..when...

..she is, um...

..me...

..I have no memory.

Like you've been sleeping the whole night?

Yeah.

It's not us.

When she's here, it's her.

Okay?

You okay?

Come here, let me sit with you.

- Uh-uh. - Please.

When I was with her last night, I remembered something.

It was just a moment, but...

Me and her.

You didn't know about me before I arrived?

No.

Only Helen knew?

Helen's family.

And yours?

Your family, I mean. They were...

None of them were here at the funeral.

My family's not here.

And my family's not in my life anymore.

Will you go back?

No.

Sure.

What about you?

Me?

You came here alone?

It's just me, really.

And no one back home?

-A boyfriend. -Hmm.

-Ben. -Mm.

Runs in the family, huh?

I miss you.

He laughs like you.

Only not as loud.

This can't last.

He's going to leave.

He has a life, Liz, and a partner.

But I can't lose you twice.

-What if he leaves!? -He'll stay.

For how long?

-Until you're ready. -Ready for what?

To come to her.

No I, I can't.

What happened? Who did this to you?

No one. I fell.

What has she told you?

Why are you here?

I'm here for my sister.

Yeah well, it's a bit late.

I'm here for the sister that I want to remember.

I want to be there when you scatter the ashes.

So will you tell that to Jill.

I'm staying at the lodge.

Fuck!

I'm sorry.

I'm not staying for you.

The next time we do this...

..you tell me everything.

Everything?

That happens...

..when you...

..when she's me.

She didn't see me last night.

You know why?

You can ask her.

Tonight?

Now.

All we have to do is fall asleep, no?

How long?

Not long.

Last night...

What happened?

Jill needed her wife.

Just like you need your mother.

I don't want that.

I don't want that stuff to happen with me.

I saw her again today.

Helen.

Hmm.

What's wrong?

Mum?

What's wrong?

Helen is here.

She came to the funeral. What's wrong with that?

Jack! He will leave.

You will lose me.

What does Helen have to do--

Come to me.

Jack, um...

You can come in.

Is everything all right?

Ah, oh, the kids. Curtis's kids.

Yeah, they're out.

Jack, why are you here?

This is why...

You shouldn't be here--

Was it you?

Me?

Who had them take me from her?

Yes.

A call had been made...

..from your daycare.

There was concern about you...

..your behaviour,

and...

..and your body.

There was bruising found.

So I went to check on, on you and her,

and when I pulled up, I could already hear you...

..crying, um...

Never in my life heard a child cry like that.

So I made the call.

I let them take you.

She, she needed help.

But you, you, you, you needed...

You deserved better than us.

Our family, we...

I can tell you, these things, they don't just stop.

And I wouldn't change it.

What I did.

You were young enough that there was a chance

that you'd, you'd remember nothing.

And I took it.

Whatever you thought that you, you would find here.

It doesn't exist.

Did she fight...

..to keep me?

No.

Why wouldn't it be true?

I remember...

You, your Mum?

Yeah.

What did you find out, Jack?

Jack please, just talk to me.

I'm trying.

Why are you calling?

- To tell you. - Tell me, tell me what?

- You left again-- - I know. I know.

And I'm sorry.

I just, ah...

I needed to do this alone.

If I ask you a question, you have to answer it, right?

Yes.

Do you have to tell the truth?

Yes.

- Did you ever want me? - Yes.

Then why didn't you fight to keep me?

Helen.

She made the call, I know that.

But they don't take kids on a call alone.

So...

What did they see when they came?

I was sick.

I've heard that from you, from Jill, from Helen.

I just want to know what they saw.

I want to know what you did to me.

Just say it.

Just tell me the truth.

What did you do to me?

I did my best.

Just like you did to Jill.

I loved Jill.

-Then why did you leave? -I haven't.

Is this what you do to people you love, huh?

I'm leaving!

I can't...

Yes. Why?

He's letting me go.

Come to me.

No, don't make me.

I can't, Liz.

I love you.

I'm sorry.

Please...

Please...

What?

What now?

Jill?

Jill!

Jill!

Stop!

Stop! You'll lose her!

If you kill her, you're still trapped here.

I haven't let you go.

I can't.

No!

No!

He's your son!

Who are you?

Jack!

She left us to die.

We need to stay awake. We can't fall asleep.

Yeah, yeah...

We can't let her back in.

Jill?!

I have her ashes.

Leave them at the door, please.

Well I, I, I wanted to be there when you scatter them.

Today's not good.

Well I, I'll, I will come back tomorrow then.

I want to be alone.

Does that mean he's gone? Jack.

Did, did he go?

Yeah, he's gone.

Oh...

Thanks.

Jack, I'm here.

It's going to sting.

But it helps.

I let her.

If I let her hurt me, she wouldn't hurt herself.

I was trying to save her.

It wasn't always this way.

Now I see what...

..she's capable of.

Is that why she didn't raise you?

She hurt you?

I'm sorry.

I really am.

Now we know.

Do we?

Because the her that I remember from when I was younger, she...

She held me and she wanted me.

But there is love in her too, Jack.

That's who I was trying to save.

That's who we've been holding onto.

Hey it's Ben.

Leave me a message and I'll get back to you.

I'm sorry.

If... you wake up and she's...

Just run.

She'll just switch.

We either wake up as us...

..or she's in control.

She's gone?

Is she?

Yeah.

I have no idea where I'm going?

Home, maybe.

You?

Can I, take you to the airport, or...

No.

There's no flights today.

Oh...

Well if...

..if you do, tell me.

What happened?

I hit it. Packing.

Is that okay?

I think I just need to rest.

I didn't mean to rush you.

Jack?

Say something.

Say something.

You can't switch.

You can't switch!

I've let go of you.

I've let go of you!

Why won't you leave us?

Leave!

Leave! Leave us!

No! Leave!

Sorry.

Sorry.

Sorry.

I'm sorry.

Sorry.

You have, you have to let her go!

You have to let her go!

I'm sorry.

Mum!

Mum!

Elizabeth!

What have you done? What have you done?

Come...

Oh, I'm here. I'm here, Jack.

I'm here.

Jack, I'm here.

Jack, I'm here.

I'm here.

It's... it's me.

It's me...

Come on... It's alright.

It's me, it's me...

It's me...

Come on...