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♪ (TENSE MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

(ECHOING) No!

You're one of the Monterey Five, right?

The Monterey Five?

You were there the night the guy fell.

Where did you hear that?

It was just the way he said it.

RENATA KLEIN: How exactly was that?

Like we all have scarlet letters on our backs.

(SCHOOL BELL RINGS)

Are you all right?

BONNIE CARLSON: I killed someone.

Remember?

DR. AMANDA REISMAN: Do you see yourself as a monster?

I guess I still feel... responsible.

-MARY LOUISE WRIGHT: Celeste. Celeste. Celeste? -(CELESTE SCREAMS)

MARY LOUISE: I wanna know what happened that night,

but I doubt I would get the truth, would I?

♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪

♪ ("COLD LITTLE HEART" BY MICHAEL KIWANUKA PLAYING) ♪

♪ Did you ever want it? ♪

♪ Did you want it bad? ♪

♪ Oh, my ♪

♪ It tears me apart ♪

♪ We can try to hide it ♪

♪ It's all the same ♪

♪ I've been losing you ♪

♪ One day at a time ♪

♪ And I know ♪

♪ In my heart In this cold heart ♪

♪ I can live or I can die ♪

♪ I believe if I just try ♪

♪ You believe in you and I ♪

♪ In you and I ♪

♪ In you and I ♪

♪ In you and I ♪

♪ ("DOWN BY THE RIVER" BY NEIL YOUNG PLAYS FAINTLY) ♪

(GRUNTS)

♪ Be on my side I'll be on your side, baby ♪

(GASPING)

♪ There is no reason For you to hide ♪

(POLICE RADIO CHATTER)

I must have taken my eyes off the road and-- and--

and then I don't...

You don't remember?

I was... I was driving and--

Ma'am, have you had anything to drink?

No, I haven't.

(CELESTE SIGHS)

I couldn't sleep last night, so I took a pill at 2:00 a.m.

And you don't even remember getting in the car?

CELESTE WRIGHT: No.

But you passed the breathalyzer?

I did.

(SIGHS) Babe, you gotta be careful with Ambien.

Hey!

Hey, Bonnie! What are you doing?

BONNIE CARLSON: Walking.

In the middle of nowhere?

This isn't the middle of nowhere.

MADELINE MACKENZIE: Well, you're on the side

-of the highway. -I was hiking.

-Okay... -BONNIE: What are you doing?

Do you need a ride?

Why would I want a ride if I'm on a hike... Madeline?

-Are you on drugs? -Am I on drugs? What are you--

-Are you on drugs? -MADELINE: I'm sorry--

-I'm just walking. Can I walk? -That just came out-- I'm sorry.

My God. Do you see what I'm saying?

I have to get Abigail out of her house.

That woman's not well.

-GORDON KLEIN: Thank you. Here. -No, it was eight women.

GORDON: Uh-oh. What?

You are a fucking incredible publicist.

-Thank you. Goodbye! -GORDON: What?

Guess who's going to be on the cover next month

of the number one women's magazine

-in the US of fucking A? -I have no idea.

-Oh, I think you know. -(GORDON LAUGHS)

I think you know because you're fucking married to her.

-Oh, baby. My cover girl! -(RENATA LAUGHS)

-MICHAEL NELSON: Gordon Klein. -I've always known you were--

Gordon Klein, Special Agent Michael Nelson with the FBI.

-Whoa. Stand back, dude. -Please put your hands on the hood of the car.

-RENATA: I'm sorry, what-- -What's going on?

-Hands on the hood now, sir. -(CLAMORING)

-GORDON: What the fuck? -NELSON: Do it!

AGENT: Stop interrupting, ma'am.

What are you-- Hold on! Hold on! There's confusion, sir.

AGENT: There's no confusion. Please step away from the car.

That's my husband, Gordon Klein.

NELSON: Count 371, that's securities fraud, Title 15...

-Renata, call Walter, all right? -What the fuck is going on here?

What are you doing? You can't just assault somebody

in the middle of a fucking public place.

NELSON: You have the right to have an attorney present...

-GORDON: Ow! Goddammit! ...during any questioning.

Call Walter now!

-RENATA: You can't. -AGENT: Please step back.

Ma'am, we need you to relax. You need to relax.

They're taking my fucking husband in handcuffs.

AGENT: We understand. We will get you the information.

You had me worried sick.

You know what, it's my fault.

I had a bit of an emergency this morning,

and Celeste came to my rescue.

Where's your car?

It broke down.

Are the boys okay?

Uh, yes, they're getting ready for school.

-You went out like that? -CELESTE: Well, I had to.

MADELINE: It was an emergency.

Wh-- What kind of an emergency?

The kind short people have?

You don't like me, do you, Madeline?

I'm sure you mean well.

You know, when I was very young... (CHUCKLES)

my family just moved, and we-- I was going

to a brand-new school, so I was especially scared,

and my father gave me the best advice.

He said, "Mary Louise, you just seek out the bully...

-and make friends with her. -(LAUGHS MOCKINGLY)

Am I the bully in this scenario?

(SIGHS) On your awesome days,

I suspect you are a godsend.

But on your bad days... decidedly less so.

MADELINE: Fucking weirdo.

What?

(SCOFFS) What?

(CHUCKLES)

COREY BROCKFIELD: So, did you think

about our practice date?

-Our practice date? -COREY: It's like a trial run.

You know, we could-- we could shower,

we'd put on clothes, we go to a restaurant,

we eat, we talk, and if it's not a total disaster,

then we could do it for real.

Yeah... um...

I don't want to offend you, but you are...

I do think you're a very genuine person,

but you're a very...

(WHISPERING) You're very strange.

(CHUCKLES)

You know, one of the last socially acceptable bigotries

-is the one against weirdos. -(CHUCKLES)

COREY: For what it's worth, I'm emotionally intuitive.

I get a feeling about people sometimes.

JANE CHAPMAN: Hmm, you have one about me?

To be honest, no.

-But... -(LAUGHS)

You're-- You're really tolerant and you're friendly,

and you're really pretty. You look good in waders.

How could I least not make room

-for the possibility. -(JANE LAUGHS)

Are you and Dad going to get divorced?

What?

Honey... No, of course not.

What makes you say this?

Dad never makes you laugh. And you seem mad at him.

Well, I am not mad at him. Okay?

Who are you mad at?

Nobody.

Hey.

(RADIO PLAYS) ♪ I've got a Great big bundle of love ♪

Huh?

♪ ("GREAT BIG BUNDLE OF LOVE" BY BRENTON WOOD PLAYS) ♪

♪ And I have saved it all For you ♪

♪ Oh, but I'm gonna demand A little favor ♪

♪ Honey Let your loving be true ♪

♪ You have the whole world Wrapped up in your hands ♪

-♪ All in one little man ♪ -SKYE CARLSON: Who was that?

I still miss him. I don't think it's ever gonna stop.

When you talked to me about dating again,

it felt like an affront. Like, preposterous, even.

I only want him.

DR. AMANDA REISMAN: I'd like to try something.

(SIGHS)

Think back to one of the times he was abusing you.

The time in the closet

after his office Christmas party.

I want you to close your eyes to replay that incident.

-Please, don't ask me-- -It's important. Can you try?

(SIGHS)

DR. REISMAN: I want you to close your eyes.

To replay the incident.

(INAUDIBLE)

(WINCES)

(SNIFFLES)

DR. REISMAN: Now, I want you to put

a close friend in your place.

(SIGHS)

Let's make it Madeline.

Put Madeline there instead of you.

-Excuse me, I can't-- -Let's make it Madeline.

(MUFFLED PLEADING)

(MADELINE SOBS)

-(SLAMS TABLE) -(SCREAMING) No!

(POUNDING ON TABLE) No! No!

(PANTING)

DR. REISMAN: Did Madeline deserve that?

Should Madeline stay in that relationship?

(SECURITY SCANNER BUZZES)

OFFICER: Jacket?

Thank you. (SIGHS) Not today.

-All right. -(SECURITY SCANNER BUZZES)

-Are you fucking kidding me? -Step over here please, ma'am.

(WAND BEEPS)

-(WAND BEEPS) -Arms like an airplane.

-(KEYS JINGLE) -(DOOR UNLOCKS)

RENATA: Oh my god.

Gordon...

What the fuck?

What the fuck!

(GROANS)

GORDON: I'll be out on bond, so...

(SCOFFS, SLAPS TABLE)

-Talk to me! -I, uh...

I made a big bet to short some stock with, um...

Saul Hoffman's company.

Phederol, I think I told you about them,

-it's the anti-coagulant. -The anti-coagulant.

So? I thought that was a bust?

GORDON: It was. Oh my--

Um, which I knew, but, uh...

no one else did.

-Uh... -RENATA: (SIGHS) Fuck.

So, then the test results completely tanked,

so I started shorting big time.

Do you have to do time for that?

-(SIGHS) Okay. -RENATA: Oh my god. Oh my god.

Listen... (GROANS) That's not the worst of it.

RENATA: What?

I kind of bet the ranch.

Our ranch.

There's gonna be civil lawsuits to follow that.

-No. -Um...

We stand to be broke by the end of the year,

-and it might even be sooner. -Hold on. Hold on.

Hold on. I don't--

GORDON: Listen, listen, listen.

Amabella's gonna be okay. They can't touch her trust.

-It's irrevocable. -But I didn't sign anything.

-I didn't do anything. -No, no, I know.

I know you didn't.

-RENATA: My money is safe. -I know you didn't, all right,

but it's community property. Amabella's trust is-- is--

Fuck! Goddammit!

(QUIETLY) Gordon...

I'm not gonna not be rich.

-I'm not gonna have you-- -Listen, I was thinking that--

This-- This could be like a positive thing.

You know, that-- that-- like, there are chapters of life

I will not not be rich.

♪ All I'm askin' ♪

♪ ("LET LOVE STAND A CHANCE" BY CHARLES BRADLEY PLAYS) ♪

♪ All I'm askin'... ♪

He's really smart.

I don't think there's much faking it to him.

He's very... think "what you see is what you get." (CHUCKLES)

He's weird, though. He's like...

maybe Aspergery or something. Like, there's just something...

I don't know. I've never really met anyone like him.

They fake that sometimes, you know.

-What? Having Asperger's? -Yeah.

-Get away with saying dumb shit. -ELIZABETH HOWARD: Bonnie.

-Mom. -Hey, baby.

♪ Not a single day, baby... ♪

BONNIE: Hey. What are you doing here?

Surprise. (CHUCKLES)

Your husband called me.

-♪ All I'm askin' ♪ -What?

You had no right.

It's not about being right. It's about being scared.

-BONNIE: Scared of what? -Of losing you.

Nathan, if you're scared of losing me,

why don't you try talking to me?

I fucking tried, and you know it. I've tried.

You know that.

You know what, it fucked me up some

when my marriage to Madeline ended.

Divorce creates trauma.

Think something is gonna go on forever and it doesn't.

Then you're on the other side of it, and you just--

you don't really trust the ground underneath your feet.

I've never lost sight of the fact

that marriage is fragile. That it can all go away.

And you...

I don't know where you've gone,

but you're not here.

He's in prison, and he might stay in fucking prison,

and he's lost all our money.

Maybe he gets out, what, for days?

-What? What? -Until they fucking-- Yes!

He's lost fucking everything. My money too! His money.

Okay, okay, come here, come here.

No, no, no, we can't go in there.

We're not going in there.

RENATA: Babe, this is a disaster.

(BREATHING HEAVILY) Oh my god!

Oh my god! This fucker put me back in the hole.

This fucker put me back in the hole.

This is my fucking childhood.

This is everything I've worked to get out of.

And then Quinlan was there,

-and I am telling you... -What?

...I think she's been watching,

and she, like, tipped somebody off.

MADELINE: What do you mean? I thought it was the FBI.

Well, but then who the fuck is tipping them off?

And why is the FBI taking my fucking computer?

-They went to my office. -They took your computer?

-They took my iPad. -What?

I just-- Okay. I need to call an estate lawyer.

Okay, and I need to do a list of assets. You're right.

Do you need a Xanax or...

(SCHOOL BELL RINGS)

When we swallow our feelings, especially the bad ones,

sometimes they can turn into really ugly monsters,

which is not a good thing.

I want you to know that it's perfectly okay

to come and talk to me, okay?

You can talk to me about anything,

whether it was over a put down, something that happened here,

something that happened on the news,

anything you need to talk about, I'm here.

Anyone?

What about a dead father?

He said it quite simply,

without any sense of trauma, so...

whether that's better or worse...

(KIDS CLAMOR)

Are they still getting counseling?

CELESTE: Um, yeah.

MICHAEL PERKINS: I'm really sorry about this.

-Did I do something wrong? -CELESTE: No.

It's good to talk about what we feel.

I just...

I just think it's best if you talk to me,

you know, rather than at school.

But you don't like to talk about it.

That's not true.

JOSH WRIGHT: You like to pretend everything's okay.

CELESTE: (SIGHS) Well, I shouldn't do that.

I-- I-- We're a family, and...

and a family is meant to be open and honest with each other, so.

I don't think we're that kind of family.

CELESTE: What? Yeah, we are. Of course we are, Max.

Of course we are.

(WAVES CRASH SOFTLY)

JOSH AND MAX: Grandma!

CELESTE: Put it on the counter, please.

MARY LOUISE: Hi! What happen--

CELESTE: Something came up at school.

It's like you said the other night...

They're still grieving.

It's all just so hard, you know?

MARY LOUISE: Hmm.

-(SIGHS) -MARY LOUISE: I do. I do know.

Right after the accident, after we lost Raymond,

I was sure I would not be able to go on.

I was never sure about anything in my whole life,

that I wouldn't go on, but I did. Because of Perry.

And so will you because of the boys.

(JOSH AND MAX CLAMOR IN DISTANCE)

What happened this morning?

I don't know. I just...

I took an Ambien when I couldn't sleep,

and before I knew it, I was driving a car.

-Has that ever happened before? -No.

I've decided to rent an apartment locally,

so that I can, um, be nearby but not... you know...

I wanna be here when you need me, Celeste,

and not when you don't.

I'm so grateful to you for everything you've done,

but a little space might be good.

Madeline told me that you and she had words.

I don't like her.

Well, you have to try.

Well, I have tried, but she's not a likeable person.

(CLEARS THROAT)

She's been a lifeline to me. She really has.

-She's a wonderful person. -Hmm, well, you're mistaken.

Did I ever tell that she once saved Max from drowning?

-Really? -Uh-huh.

Huh. Where were you?

What?

I feel like you always look at me with such...

-(SIGHS) suspicion. -No, I don't mean to.

I do look at you as a-- a-- an enigma.

That's how Perry first described you to me.

(CHUCKLES) Did you know that?

MAX WRIGHT: Hey!

-Stop, you idiot! -Hey!

(BOYS SHOUTING)

Hey!

-That's enough. -(ARGUING CONTINUES)

Stop it. I said-- That is enough!

Stop it!

That is enough.

-Fuck off! -CELESTE: What did you say?

(GRUNTS)

No! You will not be like him!

You-- (PANTING)

Max, I'm sorry. Can I see? Maxie, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Mom.

Oh my god...

Josh, come here. Are you all right?

-Huh? Are you okay? -(BOYS SNIFFLE)

(ELIZABETH INHALES)

ELIZABETH: You smell that? Clears your sinuses right out.

We have all this newfangled stuff to improve ourselves.

Self-help apps all over our phones. (CHUCKLES)

Sometimes, all we need to do is just...

stand still and breathe.

(INHALES) Just breathe in the air that's all around us.

BONNIE: Is that for me, Mama?

You want me to breathe better?

Tell me what's going on, Bonnie.

Nothing, Nathan's just... trippin'.

ELIZABETH: Nathan is a complete dolt.

When it comes to emotional, social intelligence,

oh, Bonnie. (CHUCKLES) He's as dumb as a rock.

But I often wonder...

if that's why you married him.

You are out here surrounded by people who don't even get you.

They don't look like you.

I haven't seen one other black person

since I've been out here.

Is that why you're here?

I mean, 'cause we all know... (CHUCKLES)

how fond you are of your walls.

You are out of control.

ELIZABETH: Something's in the air, Bonnie.

And I don't like it.

NATHAN CARLSON: You know I d-- I decided to run.

ED MACKENZIE: For office?

I swear to fucking god, man. No, I decided to take up running

because Bonnie likes running. She's obsessed with it.

I'm trying to embrace her interests.

So I'm off the hook for lunch, then?

NATHAN: You remember what you said to me last year

about "give me a reason"?

ED: Mm-hmm.

Should we just get this out of our system, man?

Okay, so you've asked me to have lunch with your wife,

and now, you...

challenge me to a fist fight. I mean... (SCOFFS)

do you have a preference if I can't squeeze in both?

Really?

-NATHAN: So, that's a no, huh? -Okay.

-Don't, buddy. Don't. -Okay.

NATHAN: Warning.

CLERK: Case six-two-seven-three. United States vs. Gordon Klein.

JAMES TAYLOR: James Taylor on behalf of the United States, Your Honor.

(DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES)

STEVE GARDNER: Steve Gardner on behalf of Mr. Klein,

Your Honor. Plead not guilty.

Mr. Klein.

You're being charged with security fraud,

mail fraud, and wire fraud,

violating Section 17A of the Securities Act of 1933

and Rule 105 of Regulation M of the Exchange Act.

-Question of bail? -TAYLOR: No priors, judge.

I ask that the defendant post bail in excess...

(CHUCKLING) of one million dollars

in light of the severity of the charge.

One million sounds excessive. (LAUGHING)

One million bond.

Five hundred thousand dollars cash--

RENATA: (SHRIEKING) Stop!

JUDGE: We'll conference on Tuesday

-to set a schedule. -(GAVEL THUDS)

-TAYLOR: Thank you, Your Honor. -GARDNER: Thank you.

NATHAN: You know, I swear someone's gonna do a startup,

and they're gonna make, um, like, the perfect French fry.

It's gonna be, like, nutritional and healthy and no cal.

It's gonna be a gold mine.

Remember when you used to call 'em "pomp freaks"?

-BONNIE: Mm-hmm. -(NATHAN CHUCKLES)

French fries. When she was little, I told--

I told her they were called, "pommes frites,"

and she started calling them "pomp freaks."

NATHAN: I never even noticed you eating a French fry.

BONNIE: I eat French fries.

Yeah, you're right. You just didn't notice, did you?

That's your thing, isn't it?

Wait, what?

Don't get all sensitive with yourself.

NATHAN: No, no, I'm not. I'm not being sensitive.

-I'm just-- What do you mean? -Honey?

NATHAN: No, I notice things.

I mean...

Like, I noticed shit, and then I asked you to come.

-So-- -Well, I'm here...

because you're ill-equipped to connect with your wife.

BONNIE: Mom, you're drinking again.

No.

I mean, it's just one glass. Occasionally.

One glass is fine. One hundred, not so much.

Those days are over.

Your problem is you're oblivious.

-BONNIE: Will you stop? -ELIZABETH: You call me...

and you say that something's wrong with Bonnie.

"Bonnie's not herself."

"Been going on six months to a year or so."

Can you narrow that down

a little bit further for me, Nathan?

I mean, can you pinpoint a specific date?

Instance. Anything?

Because I can.

It was after that event.

You all went to that student gala.

Where the man died, and Bonnie was there.

Your wife watched a man fall down the steps

and bust his goddamn head open

and splatter all over the place and die!

I don't know, from then to now,

she's probably been dealing with post-traumatic stress.

-I'm fine. -(MARTIN CLEARS THROAT)

We're in a restaurant, honey.

What does that mean, "We're in a restaurant"?

What, we should just glaze over it?

Act like everything is okay?

Things are not okay. Your daughter is not okay.

And this mope-a-dope shit,

it clearly is not working for your husband.

And I doubt very much that it's working for your child,

and from what I see, it is not working for you.

(SLAMS SILVERWARE) Mom!

I'm really happy you're here.

MARTIN HOWARD: Can we just have a dinner

like a normal family?

ELIZABETH: We are having dinner like a normal family.

Getting in each other's business,

that's what families do. That's why he called.

(KNIFE SCRAPING)

CELESTE: So you don't have any siblings?

-PERRY WRIGHT: I had a brother. -CELESTE: Oh.

He passed away when I was five.

CELESTE: Oh... sorry about that.

What about you?

I'm an only child.

-I mean, as far as I know. -Oh yeah?

Yeah, I'm not very close to my dad, so... Right?

You never know.

(BOTH CHUCKLE)

So... your mom passed away,

and you don't have any siblings as far as you know,

and you don't talk much to your dad.

CELESTE: Mm.

Now, I don't mean to be presumptuous, but...

if this works out... I would have you all to myself.

MARY LOUISE: Boys are tucked in.

Thank you, Mary Louise.

MARY LOUISE: They must have been exhausted.

Max is asleep already.

They tell me they have a brother.

-Evidently, Perry had a son... -What?

MARY LOUISE: ...with another woman.

And the boy's in their class.

Seems I have another grandchild.

Might you have the decency to tell me...

his name?

MADELINE: No!

CELESTE: Then how could they possibly know?

I don't know. You know what, we did tell that detective.

That fucking bitch,

-she probably let it slip-- -Mom!

I'm sorry. You know what, Celeste,

just find out what the boys know exactly

and then call me right back, okay? Bye.

ED: What now?

Celeste... just stuff with the twins, and...

Did they find out Ziggy's their brother?

Who told you that?

I heard you talking on the phone once.

Did you tell Max and Josh?

Only that they have a brother in the second grade.

-Chloe, good God! -I didn't say who.

-Did you tell Ziggy this? -Mm-hmm.

Wait, Perry Wright is Ziggy's father?

-You know what, go to your room. -CHLOE MACKENZIE: I'm sorry.

Give me your phone.

I'll deal with you later.

MADELINE: I'm so sorry. She's grounded.

- I got-- I gotta go. -MADELINE: Okay, I--

(WHISPERING) Oh, fuck.

Hey. Talk for a sec?

-ZIGGY CHAPMAN: What'd I do? -You didn't do anything. Um...

Did Chloe Mackenzie say anything to you about...

about who your father is?

She said it was Max and Josh's dad.

Is it?

Mm-hmm.

How long have you known for?

Since August?

Ziggy, you've known since August

and you haven't said anything to me? (SNIFFLES)

ZIGGY: Figured you'd just lie.

JANE: I didn't know.

All of those years of you asking me where he was

or who he was, I--

I didn't know who he was.

(SNIFFLES)

I didn't know until Trivia Night.

-And-- -But why didn't you tell me?

Because I didn't know how.

I just thought that I would wait.

-Till when? -Till you got older, I guess.

Did Chloe tell you anything else?

She said something about Mr. Wright giving you salt.

That's how it happened. He salted you.

(JANE SNIFFLES)

No...

Then what did she mean?

JANE: Can I sit down next to you?

I think what Chloe overheard was the word "assault."

ZIGGY: What does that mean?

-(DOOR SLAMS) -(WAVES CRASH)

MADELINE: Look, I wanted to tell you.

Yeah, but you didn't.

Well, I was trying to protect Jane and Celeste's privacy.

-But I'm your husband. Okay? -Okay, but can you understand

and maybe contemplate for a minute

the fundamental violation of a woman's privacy

when you're talking about rape?

ED: How about the fundamental violation

of our family, of our marriage. I mean, I'm your husband.

I am supposed to help you with this stuff.

I mean, of course she's gonna hear you

whispering on the fucking phone, Madeline.

I mean, look what our daughter did.

What are we, people who keep secrets from each other?

Is that our thing now? Come on.

-Jesus. -(DOOR SLAMS)

CHLOE: Mom.

I'm really sorry again.

(SIGHS) I know you are, honey. I know.

You can't tell your friends private things

that you've overheard us say on the phone.

Okay? No more eavesdropping, young lady.

Is Daddy mad at me?

Daddy's mad, but that's the thing about families.

Is that you can be mad

and you can fight, but you get over it,

and you always come back together.

That's wh-- That's what families do.

-So we're gonna be okay. -Okay.

Can I have my phone back?

(SIGHS)

MARY LOUISE: So this thing

was supposed to have happened when?

Like nine years ago?

When you two were trying so hard to have a baby? Please.

When did you find out about this alleged affair?

It wasn't an affair. It was a rape. Rape.

-When did you find out? -The night he died.

Then how can you-- This woman,

she could have had multiple partners, you know.

She could have been drugged. She-- You don't know her.

She could have been... What if she got it wrong?

Aren't you desperate...

-She didn't. -...for her to be wrong?

Aren't you desperate to know that he wasn't unfaithful?

To believe that he--

he wasn't capable of doing the things that she said.

He wasn't. I'll-- I'll never believe that.

Your son wasn't an innocent man. He beat me up.

-I don't believe you. -Many times.

Why wouldn't you go to the police?

-I probably should have. -But... you didn't.

-No, because it wasn't simple. -I don't believe you.

I don't understand why you're so willing to believe her.

I don't know why you--

you are willing to assassinate his character, his memory,

-who he was. I-- -It's so hard.

I'm telling you what it was.

I'm not saying I was blameless.

I'm just telling you we were violent with each other,

and sometimes... (VOICE CRACKS)

sometimes, it would lead to sex.

I don't-- I--

-CELESTE: We loved each other. -Hmm.

-We-- We were-- -But he beat you up.

CELESTE: We had a sickness.

And you didn't go to the police?

I just-- (SCOFFS)

I'll go to the police.

What?

To get some answers. You left some things out, didn't you?

The fact that he fathered another child.

You left that out.

That you planned to move, that you rented an apartment.

You left that out.

That you were planning to leave him

the very night he died.

You left that out.

And that you...

you... learned of his infidelity just ten seconds before he...

went falling down a flight of stairs to his death.

Oh, you left that out, too.

(WAVES CRASH)

(SEAGULLS CAW)

How's Ziggy?

He's uh... (CHUCKLES) I don't know.

And you?

Um, I gotta tell you something. I... (SIGHS)

I told Ziggy about the circumstances.

-The violence of it? -Mm-hmm.

-CELESTE: What? -Just a little bit,

but he knows that he cannot share it

with Max and Josh. That it's just for him.

-But we had an agreement. -I know. I know.

We were gonna wait.

I know, but I can't lie to him anymore.

-I can't-- -No, I--

-His entire life... -Jane.

...has just been built on a foundation of lies.

I can't just-- I can't continue.

And I know that you have to protect your boys,

but I have to protect mine.

I have to be honest with him.

Ugh, God, this is so fucked up.

Have you told your boys about Ziggy?

N-- Not yet, no. I just...

(SIGHS) I will, I mean...

MADELINE: Bonnie.

-Hey. -Hey.

-Could you talk for a second? -Sure.

Um, this is in no way...

meant to blame you or Nathan at all,

for that matter, but with that said, I--

I just feel strongly that Abigail come stay with me.

Yeah, she needs more than I can give her.

What's going on? Are you okay?

No, I'm not okay. I told you I wasn't okay.

I'm having a hard time with the whole thing.

Sometimes, I wake up at night in a sweat

with this... feeling.

It's gonna get us. It's gonna get us all.

What-- Who are you talking about?

The lie.

I gotta go.

♪ ("WHAT BECOMES OF THE BROKENHEARTED" BY JIMMY RUFFIN PLAYS) ♪

♪ As I walk this land Of broken dreams ♪

♪ I have visions Of many things ♪

♪ (MUSIC ENDS) ♪

GORDON: You used to like that song.

RENATA: I used to like to sit on your face, too.

You think that'll happen again?

Give me one fucking reason.

I wanted a Gulfstream.

Ow! What the fuck?

RENATA: Fucking pitiful.

We're creatures of want. Jesus.

You know, we are. Me, you... God, especially you.

-(BRAKES SCREECH) -What?

-(CAR HONKS) -GORDON: What the fuck

-are you doing? -What the fuck?

What are you doing?

-Are you fucking kidding me? -(CARS HONK)

Did I ever explain to you that I wanted more?

-Is that what I said to you? -Maybe I wanted more!

-RENATA: Just get the fuck out. -(CARS HONKING)

-GORDON: Oh, please. -RENATA: Please.

Just stop being dramatic and drive, will you?

Oh my god, you're gonna blame me? You're gonna blame me?

GORDON: Did I say I was blaming you?

Are you fucking gonna blame me while you lost my fucking money?

-I didn't say-- I'm just say-- -Get the fuck out of my car!

-Nothing happens in a vacuum. -This is my fucking car.

-Come on-- Oh my fucking-- -Out of the fucking car!

-RENATA: Oh my god! -(CARS CONTINUE HONKING)

-(CARS HONKING) -RENATA: Oh my--

(SCREAMING) Will somebody give a woman a moment?

-Goddammit! -(TIRES SCREECH)

(CAR BEEPS)

♪ ("GOOD THING GONE" BY ELLE KING PLAYS) ♪

ABIGAIL MACKENZIE: I'm not resisting the idea

of coming back here.

Well, that's a relief.

As long as the main goal isn't trying to convince me

to go to college.

The endgame is to move you into a stable environment

where your executive

decision-making skills are nurtured.

That's a good one.

MADELINE: Can I just say one thing though?

I think you're being rash, honey.

Life is a series of building blocks

that you stand on and you grow on, and I feel like

you are kicking the most fundamental building block,

which is education, right out from under you.

You used to claim that family

was your most fundamental building block.

MADELINE: Well, of course. It's very important.

What, you just, like, kicked that one to the side?

What do you mean?

You were fucking the theater director last year, so...

That's so inappropriate, Abigail and this is not about me.

Well, you're being really hypocritical,

and I'm just using the ref--

This is about you and your future.

Ed...

MADELINE: Hey.

What's going on?

We were just talking about college.

Is that it?

What's this about fucking a theater director?

MADELINE: No, I...

-You misheard that. -ED: Huh.

-Where are you going? -ED: Uh, to get my ears checked.

Goddammit!

(WHISPERING) You said he wasn't home!

-But we already know him. -No, but now you'll...

be meeting him as-- I mean, as brothers. That's--

We're already friends. What difference does it make?

I don't know.

This is what I do know: He's part of your family now.

And, I mean, family is always everything, but...

sometimes it is.

-Is Daddy a bad person? -No. No, no, no.

Your daddy was a wonderful person.

A beautiful person.

He could be weak...

like we all can. He could make mistakes, but your...

your daddy was a beautiful... wonderful man.

(LOCK CLICKS)

(QUIETLY) Okay, um...

Thank you for coming back.

I, um... (SNIFFLES)

At best as I... fathom,

and I cannot fathom what I've done, I...

This was about me, and I...

I'm so sorry. I-- This was not about you.

-Maybe about us as a couple. -Mm-hmm.

And I think we should get therapy.

Okay...

MADELINE: But I need you to know

that this has nothing to do with you.

-This happened so long ago... -(CLEARS THROAT)

...and it has nothing to do with how much I love you

because I love you so much, and...

and I just need to know what you're thinking.

That you would... keep the secret that you kept

about Perry and Ziggy. (SNIFFLES)

That you would be unfaithful. Um...

That you would tell Abigail about it.

I know. That is-- That happened in a moment of weakness.

ED: When?

Last year.

So she's known a year?

My daughter,

and yes, I do think of her as a daughter,

has known this for a year?

Yes, I'm sorry, I fucked up. I, um...

But I'm gonna do anything I can to fix it.

-ED: Does Chloe know? -No!

No, of course not.

-How can you be so sure? -No, Ed, I promise you,

she doesn't know. I'm so sorry, she...

Look, this just isn't about you. It's about me. This is about us.

When you say "us," what...

I mean, what-- what d-- what does that even mean?

'Cause it can't mean honesty.

Right? It can't mean truth or-- or trust.

I mean, it can't mean you and me confiding in each other,

so what-- what's "us"?

You asked me what I'm thinking. I'll tell you.

I think we're done.

(FOOTSTEPS RETREAT)

(SOBS)

I do appreciate you coming, Mama. I do.

Meaning... enough.

BONNIE: I do not want any of that in my family's life.

We're not having that conversation again.

I have been having visions lately, Bonnie...

-I know you've had some too. -Mom.

-They are strong, baby. -Don't. Don't.

-Somebody's drowning. -Stop.

I see lots of water, and somebody's drowning.

I see you drowning right now in a way.

(WIND CHIMES CHIMING)

Who's gonna protect you, baby?

BONNIE: I do not need you to protect me.

Not from evil spirits or your visions--

From what, then?

Tell me.

What have you done this time? Hmm?

I do want you to go.

-I love you, too, honey. -(DOOR OPENS)

(DOOR CLOSES)

BONNIE: Okay, you invited her, you get rid of her.

NATHAN: Get rid of her?

Like-- Like, maybe with rat poison?

Or a weekend with Maddie?

BONNIE: Seriously, though, can you tell her to go?

Can you tell me what's going on?

(WHISPERING) Be patient, baby.

Patient.

♪ ("REDFORD" BY SUFJAN STEVENS PLAYS) ♪

(WAVES CRASH)

♪ When no one else Can understand me ♪

♪ ("THE WONDER OF YOU" BY CONOR O'BRIEN PLAYS) ♪

♪ When everything I do Is wrong ♪

♪ You give me hope And consolation ♪

♪ You give me strength To carry on ♪

♪ And you're always there To lend a hand ♪

♪ In everything I do ♪

♪ That's the wonder ♪

♪ The wonder of you ♪

♪ And when you smile The world is brighter ♪

♪ You touch my hand And I'm a king ♪

♪ Your kiss to me Is worth a fortune ♪

♪ Your love for me Is everything ♪

♪ I guess I'll never know ♪

♪ The reason why ♪

♪ You love me as you do ♪

♪ That's the wonder ♪

♪ The wonder of you ♪

♪ Wonder of you ♪

♪ I guess I'll never know ♪

♪ The reason why ♪

♪ You love me as you do ♪

♪ That's the wonder ♪

♪ The wonder of you ♪

♪ Wonder of you ♪