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I know when to come in.

I'll count. I'll count.

One, two.

One, two, three, four.

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Do it to me again and again

You put me in such an awful spin

In a spin in

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Oooh, love to love you, baby

Oooh, love to love you, baby

It's so good...

Ooh, heaven knows

Heaven knows...

Ooh, I feel love

I feel love...

I feel love

I feel love

I have a secret life.

You're looking at me, but what you see is not what I am.

How many roles do I play in my own life?

Who is she?

When I

Believe in miracles that happen

You wanna sing now?

You want me to do the camera?

- Yup. - Okay, you sing.

Is this Brooklyn?

Yes.

Oh, Brooklyn.

How you doing today?

Hey, Auntie Mary.

I'm calling because I may need some help.

I'm trying to figure out

the many pieces of who Mom really was.

You know, she...

was complicated

and struggled with her fame

her... her image.

And even love.

- What do you see? - People.

- Yeah. - Hi, people.

Boo boo, how you doing?

Fine

- Is it working? - Yeah.

Mom, may I see, too?

Not right now. Go out and play.

- Dance. I gotta get you. - What's your name?

Brooklyn.

I'm four.

- What's your name? - Amanda.

- How old are you? - Two.

- And a half. - When's your birthday?

Five.

- And what's your name? - Mimi.

Move your arms, Mimi, as much as you can.

- I can't see. - Well, squinch.

Come on.

Growing up, I was in the studio

with Mom all night long.

We'd go to sleep on the couch

in the engineering room.

It was sort of a rollercoaster ride for everyone.

She was really famous, and everyone wanted her.

There was this element of her always having to be public.

But Mommy was a very private person in a lot of ways.

With Mom

a lot of her life revolved

around privacy and secrecy.

We were never allowed in her room.

The door was always locked.

We would find out things by reading newspaper articles

they had clipped out and hidden in places.

I actually remember the first time that we heard Love to Love You.

Didn't even know it existed.

Brooklyn came in the room and was like

"Have I got a song for you to hear!"

When I wrote Love to Love You Baby

I did not write it to be a song.

I wrote it as a concept for someone else to write a lyric to.

Oh, love to love you baby

I just made up a voice and kinda tried to create a vibe.

Amanda, remember when we were like

"Who is this woman?"

I mean, I don't think she had any idea

that this vibe was gonna completely change her life.

Love to Love You Baby was becoming, like, this world symbol

of freedom, of liberation.

Things would begin to happen.

People would begin to, you know, like, rip their clothes off

and throw them on the stage

and bras, underwear.

They didn't know it was gonna be, like, that racy.

The audience would get completely uncontrollable.

And it... was kinda terrifying.

It wasn't me, and it was something I was playing.

It was a role.

Everyone that knew me would call me up and say

"That... that's not you, is it?"

Then I would say, "Yeah, that's me."

And they would just say, "Nah, come on."

What's hot right now? Disco?

Disco is a phenomenon.

It's... it's the hottest thing

that has hit the music business.

I mean, millions and millions

of records are selling

and Donna is the biggest.

Was it tough to get her that first hit

or did... or did one thing happen

that you... that you knew that put her over the top?

- Give me an example. - Okay, Donna...

Donna was a star in Europe.

She was not doing disco-oriented records.

She had a... an idea

and she recorded Love to Love You Baby

which was a three-minute- and-20-second record.

They brought it to me after it had failed in Europe

and I listened to it and I loved it.

And I put it out here

and nothing happened.

About a month later

I was playing it at a party I had at my house

and someone said

"Play that again."

I put it back on

and the record finished

and someone said, "Play that again."

I said, "The record's too short.

They keep asking for more."

So I went upstairs, and I called Germany

where the record was produced, and I said

"Give me a 20-minute version."

What we did is we came up with a... a promotional idea.

If we can get some radio stations to play just at midnight

and say, "Tune in for 20 minutes of love."

I was at the house listening to it

and realized, "Wait a minute.

That's... that's Donna.

That's my sister.

She said she was gonna be famous

and she did it.

She's on the radio."

Unknown singer Donna Summer

recorded a song I Love To Love You Baby.

It started a new phase in the recording industry

Sex Rock.

I actually believe that

it was pretty much the gay community

that broke that record.

I heard it the first time

while I was listening to underground radio.

Like a college station that played stuff

that you could not play in the daytime.

I don't know. It was probably about twelve-thirty, one o'clock.

And I hear this song come on.

A controversial record has been making radio executives nervous

all over the world.

It was banned recently by the BBC in England

and in spite of that, it's sold over 1 million albums.

Oh, my god, this is...

I'm listening to Love to Love You

and I'm like, and it's going on

and on...

And I'm like, "Oh, my god.

I think this is the record that she said

that wasn't gonna sound like her."

And Grandma said

"I'm never gonna be able to go to church again."

She knew that I was gonna be

shocked, okay?

And to say the least

I was shocked

because in my heart

I always wanted her to be a gospel singer.

When Donna sang in church

it would give you a vibrating

feeling that you know, you...

they give you something that...

well, that, to me, no other singer that I heard in the church, gave me.

It started really with my dad.

He used to get me and... and make me come to the living room

and he says, "Listen. Listen to this record

and sing just like this record."

Elijah Rock shout, shout

Elijah Rock coming up Lord

Elijah Rock shout, shout

Elijah Rock coming up Lord

I listened to Mahalia Jackson and... and said

"You know, she... somehow, she has what I want."

I would just listen and listen for hours.

Elijah

Elijah

Our favorite way to spend our time was putting on shows

on the front porch or the back stoop.

And when the neighbors would hear you singing

they would stop on their way home.

Hallelujah!

Elijah Rock, shout...

Elijah Rock coming up, Lord!

Boston in the 1950s

was not a friendly city to people of color.

We were black.

Anything could happen to you.

Kids from the other part of the project

the white part, as we used to call it

would beat on us and tell us

we were not welcome in their area.

One day

one of the kids chased us back to our part of the projects

and there was a wire strung from one fence to another.

I saw it. I went under it

and I turned and looked

and Donna had hit it with her chin.

She had that little clip on her chin

and it never went away.

Tell everybody

He's been a rock and a shelter for me

I felt like I was barred for life

and there was never gonna be a way

that I would ever be attractive.

Feeling ugly, feeling inadequate.

- I was scarred. - Elijah Rock

I'm coming up

Elijah...

When I was about eight years old

one of the ladies in my church got sick

and she was supposed to sing.

The minister came to me

and he said, "Can you sing today?"

I was petrified. I mean, petrified.

But I got up anyway, and I stood up to sing.

And all of a sudden, this voice came out that I didn't know.

It just came outta me.

And everyone in my family will remember this

because they all were... everybody was in tears.

I was in tears, and my family was in tears.

Everyone in the whole church was in tears.

And it was a... a striking feeling of "God, I'm blessed.

I know I'm gonna be famous," and...

Once upon a time, once upon a time

Once upon a time, once upon a time

Auntie Mary

Mom was a dreamer.

You know, she could shapeshift

in and out of characters.

How did this show up in her performances?

Donna's shows were theatrical.

There was always a story.

There was a heroine.

There was a problem.

And in the end, she overcame.

She thought in theater.

Once upon a time...

in the land of Never Never...

there lived a little girl

who believes

that all things were possible.

I know a lot of people won't think that she was a forerunner

but she really was.

She was thinking about things outside of the box

- that they wanted to keep her in. - Do you want me in here?

- She wasn't having it. - Somebody, please let me out!

- I'll keep running - By her stepping out in those areas

it did allow other people of color

to step out of the box that they had her in.

Hey, you better get me out.

I can't breathe. I need help.

It seems like the whole world's closing in on me

Please, somebody help

I thought that, you know, if you really were a star

you had to be on The Johnny Carson Show

so that was... it was always my biggest dream.

I said, "I know I'm a star

when I've done The Johnny Carson Show."

What do you see down the road? Picture yourself that maybe...

maybe you'd have... would have successful recordings now?

- You like to... - Developing.

You know, I'm... I'm studying to become a director myself

so I have my own little video studio set up at home.

Yeah, that's super. Somebody told me you had made...

- Any actors out there? - Yeah.

No, you know what he's like. You're not interviewing.

- You're the husband. - All right, Mary

well, push over, just a hair.

When you're on the road for

a long time or you might have

a day off between another show

and you're stuck in a hotel

in Podunk, Iowa

you find things to do.

And God help us.

Donna bought herself a camera

a movie camera.

And she was expecting us to make movies.

No, you didn't.

Now, you know what we go through every single night.

She would direct us and, "Do this and do that."

And we all played the game.

Some of it was funny

and some of it, it got us in trouble.

You better get away from my camera.

You wanna leave for California tomorrow, don't you?

And so it was like

"I'm never doing that again.

I'm not doing it."

She's like, "Come on. Come on, Mary. Come on."

And she was fun, and...

and she was funny.

Well, I get vibration.

You're going to go far away one day.

You watch. You see.

You're going to be very, very famous. I'm telling you.

But could you just tell me about what's gonna happen next week?

Next week, you're gonna have to finish up something

you started this week.

But that's... but that's so general.

That's $2.

Like...

- Are you married? - No.

You will be married.

You're going to take a journey.

You wanna know where you gonna go?

No, I wanna know what school I'm gonna get in before this.

What the fuck? You gotta be...

You're gonna go far away, across the sea, in the air.

When she was in high school

she started working with a band

called The Crow.

She would sneak out a lot at night

and go sing in clubs.

Oh, you made me feel so bad

All the band was white.

I was "the crow."

And they really wanted her to be like the black Janis Joplin.

You know what I mean?

So after, I think she heard the way Janis Joplin sang

she felt like, "I can do this."

Come on...

Come on, and take it

Take another little piece Of my heart now, baby

You know, coming out of church

and... and seeing Janis Joplin

this wild-haired woman with no bra on

and... and literally a jug of whiskey in her hand.

I hadn't ever been exposed to something like that.

I mean, that just was not proper.

I remember getting a spanking for wearing red fingernail polish

because to my father, red fingernail polish meant...

That was what whores wore, in his mind.

We wore slips, and more slips, and girdles

and it just don't jiggle.

Can't understand

Why this whole world

Keeps pulling me down

To the ground

There was a lot of pressure in being a black woman.

A lot of pressure.

Being a woman is bad enough.

And being a black woman was like a double whammy.

Summer of '68, I was 19 years old

I was in sort of a limbo state.

I originally went outta Boston to...

to pursue a singing career in New York with my band.

So here I am. I'm in New York, and, you know

I feel a little bit freer than I feel in Boston.

I don't have anybody looking over my shoulder.

Feeling like, you know, there was a future waiting for me somewhere

and I just needed to discover

what key it was that was gonna turn the lock

that was gonna open the door to that future.

There was just music pouring out of every doorway

and you became part of this whole tapestry of movement

that was happening in the country

you know, enjoying the whole environment

of just being kind of a hippie.

I'm trying to figure out what's going on in my life.

I lived above the Cafe Wha? on the top floor

with a couple of people.

The director of Hair came to the house

with the girl that I live with.

I happened to be singing around the house at the time

and he heard me and he said

"Well, I'm having an audition on Thursday

would you come down?"

And that was the turning point.

Within two weeks, I was out of it.

I went to Germany.

Wenn der Mond

Im siebten Hause steht

Und Jupiter auf Mars zugeht

Being 19 years old in Germany and coming of age

having the hippie revolution kind of on my heels

and being a person who is craving change

was a door to an entire reality.

There were really kinda no limits.

Sort of newfound freedom.

Being in Germany gave me license to be myself

and I hadn't had that license before.

For the first time

she was accepted in a way

that we were never accepted

in America.

Blacks were at a premium.

They saw you walking down the street and said

"Oh, we've gotta have that."

I got a lot of press because at that time

there were very few black women in Germany.

You were just constantly on display

no matter where you went, no matter what you did.

It was just an open door.

I was tall and very thin at the time

and there were a lot of photographers there

and I just got a lot of work.

- Helmuth. - Yeah.

I wanna know how you actually got together.

I met Donna during the musical, Hair.

Of course I was attracted.

Donna had the best voice

so everybody was admiring this gift that she had.

We were just in kind of a love for each other.

This is the feeling that I remember a lot.

She was really a funny girl when she was in a good mood.

When Mimi was born

Donna's reaction was a little bit kind of distanced.

I was never that maternal.

I never actually thought I would ever have kids until I had one.

I just... It just was... It was...

There was... there was too much fire in me.

When I was born

Mommy was ready to break out.

Her dream was just bigger.

She knew more was on the horizon

and you could not contain her.

So they separated when I was two.

I pretty much stayed with my grandparents after that.

I went through a manner of manic depression

to be the one to have to say, "I'm leaving."

The guilt of that was so strong.

I'm taking my daughter's father away.

Donna Summer!

They call her

The lady of the night

She's a woman of the world

I had started to record some...

what the Germans call Schlager songs

kind of corny, bubblegummy for the European market.

So I had kind of developed a little bit of a career.

Oooh, something coming over me...

I remember calling her

and... and she was in Munich

and saying, "Are you sexy?"

And she went, "I don't know."

"Could we spotlight you in Playboy?"

And she went, "Oh, absolutely not."

You know, she was living a very kinda quiet life

in... in Munich.

And when we brought her over to New York

we brought her over as a major star.

I came up with "The First Lady of Love" for Donna.

That's what Neil was selling.

You're gonna make love to this wonderful record

Love to Love You Baby.

Neil looked out for every

aspect of my career

that every hair is in place

every smile is right.

"We're gonna give you the best of everything.

You're gonna look like you're already rich."

I mean, if I was getting ready to go on stage

and my nail polish wasn't on my feet, and somebody was late

he was on his knees.

I kid you not.

He taught me how to dream on a whole other level.

I didn't have very many friends.

Most of the people that I was friends with at the time

were in some way involved in the record business.

So Casablanca because that was my whole world.

Neil wanted to make it really special for Donna

so he brought her mom and dad

and her sisters and her brother

to her New York debut.

It was opposite of the culture of our family.

She was really never that sexy, sultry person.

But even though that persona they had given it to her

that persona was the door that took her where she needed to go.

Well, obviously, America was ready for it.

Was Donna Summer ready for the stardom name in lights

bodyguards?

Yeah, I have a very hard time, not being myself.

And there are times when you can't be yourself

and you can't be the way you'd like to be.

And that's goofy, or funny

or whatever you are as a human being

as a person offstage.

So what I'm trying to do more and more now

is to become myself on stage

so that when I'm offstage, it doesn't matter.

And so that the same person you meet in this room

is the same person onstage.

- Fever - Summer

- Summer fever - Fever

It's the time of love

The time of year

Temperatures rising Our bodies near in fever

Summer

Summer fever

Fever

Giorgio, growing up, my mom always spoke

about how important you were to her life.

How did you guys meet?

We were looking for

some American or English singers

for a demo.

Donna came, and we did the vocals

and we were very happy.

So I started working with Giorgio

and this is the beginning of a great relationship.

Giorgio really took me under his wing

even before I had a hit record.

He was like a mentor.

He was a redeeming factor in my life

from some of the abusive men

or men figures that I had had in the past

or people I had chosen to trust who were not worthy of that trust.

Georgio was the antithesis of that.

- You wanna put a fender on? - A fender, yes.

- Make it a little fuller? - Yeah.

I had a... I had a very close relationship with her.

She definitely trusted us.

And in fact, whatever we did, we did well.

I came up with the... with Georgio with the...

I feel love

It fit well.

Which just changed the face of music for a while.

I mean, I figure it was like maybe a year or two

after Love To Love You Baby.

I said, "Wow, great. This is totally new."

When I went in to do it

I had the sense that I was floating.

And that's what we wanted to maintain

that floaty kind of

that elation that you feel when you're in love.

That kind of...

I think it's probably one of the most innovative songs around.

I feel love

This was the very first

drum machine click trick

ever used in music.

We weren't listening to what other people were doing

and trying to emulate.

We were forging ahead.

It sounds grandiose, but I think others were following.

Whatever dance songs came up later on with electronics

is based on... on I Feel Love.

I remember when I Feel Love came on

at Studio 54

you just stopped in your tracks.

"What is this?"

People screamed.

It just went on and on and on

and you didn't want it to stop.

It sounded like no other record.

It changed the way people thought about music.

I feel love...

I feel love

I feel love

I feel love

Where do you feel you stand now?

I hope I stand in a light of legitimacy, I think.

In a place where people will respect what I do

and understand that any... any songs that I make

I do because I choose to

and not because that is my limitation.

How long are you going to maintain this... this image

that's based on Love to Love You Baby?

Well, I think I've deviated from that path already.

I won't even... You know

I hate for it to sound like I'm... I'm running away from anything

because I'm really not.

I think it's more like...

I'm growing and...

It's like looking at a flower in the bud

and you first see the bud, and you say

"Wow, fantastic, the trees are budding."

And then you go back, and the leaves are out.

And then finally, there's a flower.

And I feel that when I came to America

I was in the budding stage.

And maybe I'm springing a leaf about now

and maybe one day, I'll be a blossom.

Hey, Chico!

Get out of the way!

Get outta the way!

Hey, jerk! I listen to my music!

Hey, I listen to my music!

- Disco been very good to me! - Yeah!

- Get outta the way! - Oh, shut up!

If you feel it, feel it right

You got to feel it every night

- Feel that - And if you feel it, feel it right

You got to feel it every night, yeah

Well, if you feel it, feel it so good

You got to feel it like you should

- Feel that - And if you feel it, feel it good

- You got to feel it like you should - Feel that

Take it down, boys. Now...

do you love somebody?

Does everybody here have somebody they love?

No?

Well, love me for right now, okay?

Just give me a little bit of love

and let me see you stand up.

Stand up out your seats. Come on.

Now let's shake those hips. Come on. Oh, yeah.

Do you believe in love?

Do you believe in love?

Do you believe in love?

Do you believe in love?

Do you believe in love?

Do you believe in love?

Do you believe in love?

Come on shake your hand now.

Do you believe in love?

Come on.

Feel it

Oh, yeah

- Feel it. Feel it - Feel it

Thank you for coming tonight. I'm happy to see you.

Thank you for coming.

Thank you, and I love you, too. Thank you for coming.

Thank you so much.

When you have success all over the world

and it's very constant, you have it.

It's all the time. It's everywhere you go.

It's like you never get a break.

I didn't dream about fame that way.

I dreamt about singing.

Whenever I dreamt about fame, it was being on stage.

It wasn't the accolades and all the people screaming "I love you."

So when that part came into it

it... it threw me for a loop

because I really didn't have to deal with that.

We did a demo of Bad Girls, everything was done.

The song was finished.

We listened to it over and over again.

I'm like, "There is something missing to this song."

I think this song needs a hook.

I said, "I got this idea

this imagery of, 'How do you haul a hooker?'"

You're honking your horn.

You're trying to get her attention.

It's like, "Over here."

- Bad girls - Bad girls

- Talking about the sad girls, yes - Sad girls

- Bad girls - Bad girls

Talking about sad girls, yeah

See them out on the street at night

Picking up all kinds of strangers If the price is right

You can score if your pocket's nice

But you want a good time

Everybody's sang in my family.

My father sang. My mother sang.

Every time my father had company or my mother had company

my mother would call me and my sisters into the room

to perform

and they would just go crazy.

So... so we had these sort of little outlets

of performing a bit of an idea or insight

as to what it was like to have people applaud for you.

We did impersonations as much as we could.

Thank you, ladies and gentlemen. We will be back tomorrow night.

See you again. We hope...

Do you live here in California?

I live about, I think, 40,000 ft above.

Usually in one direction or the other.

- I... I haven't been home at all. - You're always in a plane.

Yeah. I haven't been home. Maybe two-and-a-half months this year.

I'm always amazed at the amount of songs she released

the press that she did, the tours

from like 1976 to like 1980.

I don't know how she survived it.

During that time

when she was really first famous

I think she knew

that was a part of the game.

I think she understood that that came with the territory.

And so she... she marched it.

It wasn't that she loved it all.

She just tried to keep her sanity.

How do you think she felt about the title "Queen of Disco?"

I know she would say, "Hey

it's better to be the queen of something," you know.

But in some ways, it was love-hate

because, "Yeah, I love disco.

Disco got me here.

But that's not all of who I am."

I had done all those songs in this made-up voice

so people thought, "Oh, well, she's a fad.

Oh, she can't really sing. This girl doesn't sing.

What's the big deal about her?"

You know, you can look at somebody who's talented

and... and you can know that they're capable of 20 things

but the audience doesn't know that yet.

And I always take it from that point of view

that they just don't know me yet.

That's okay.

Spring was never waiting for us, dear

It ran one step ahead

As we followed in

The dance

Between the parted pages

We were pressed

In love's hot, fevered iron

Like a striped pair of pants

MacArthur's Park is melting In the dark

All the sweet green icing Flowing down

Someone left my cake out in the rain

I don't think that I can take it

'Cause it took too long to bake it

And I'll never have that recipe again

Again

All right.

Best Rhythm and Blues Vocal Performance Female is...

Donna Summer.

And the winner is Donna Summer.

Donna Summer.

- Donna Summer. - Live and More.

I knew it. Donna Summer.

All right.

Now, ladies and gentlemen

we're having a moment of station identification.

We remember so well the days of lipstick and women.

Well, those were the days when women used to not smear it on.

They used to molest the lipstick.

I was always a comedian.

I was always a clown.

So becoming Donna Summer the character

I didn't feel sexy at the time

and so I just assumed it as a role.

This time that I spent away from home

away from the mindset that I grew up in

away from what should be

away from how I should be

is what has made me what I am

and has given me my individuality away from all of the predictable.

And so I'm unpredictable

and that... that stresses the crap outta people.

Do you feel like you're handling your success now?

Sometimes. Shaky. Yeah. Shaky.

I think the part that I really have to deal with the most is my daughter.

Is she with your folks?

She's with my parents in... in Massachusetts.

And what is so hard about it is that

as much as I miss her

and as much as I want to be with her

as soon as she's there

I have to go back to her way.

It's a constant adjustment.

So the first couple of days, it's I have to become a parent again.

And the responsibility of that

and the weight of that is... is immense.

I could tell that she was trying hard.

She would be like, "Okay, Mimi let's go play outside.

I'm gonna make you breakfast."

And I knew that that was something that she didn't do often.

So for me, I always felt like, "Wow, she's really trying."

She's trying to make time. She's trying to carve time out.

When I would be alone with her

we would go to bed or something.

I'd sleep in the bed with her, and she would just be exhausted.

You could just see it in her face.

It wasn't just like, "I'm tired."

It was like a soul weariness, though.

It almost made me sad for her.

I get to go back to my grandparents' house

and have a normal life

but she is getting pulled in every direction.

Donna was trying to navigate

being a mother and be a good mother.

But to know that you have a destiny in this arena

and yet you have this responsibility that is important to you

there's no examples as to how to make that balance correct.

Donna's decision to have Mom and Dad take care of her

was one which she knew she would be loved

she knew she'd be nurtured

and she knew she'd be safe.

I don't think you understand what it's like being the daughter

of someone who is always gone.

My daughter looked up at me one day last week

and she said, "Mommy

when are you just gonna stay home one day

and be with me?"

And I didn't realize that I hadn't spent any time with her

for a long time.

So I sat down and wrote this song after she went to bed

and I told her tonight, when it was bedtime

I would sing her a song.

I bet you ask yourself

Why I'm never there

It's not because I like being away

You see

I've made a spectacle of myself

And it seems That the whole world needs me

I understand when you cry alone

And mama's not there

To wipe your eyes

When I heard the Mimi song, it was like, "Oh, my gosh."

I was like, "She wrote a song for me."

She really feels this way about me.

Someone to make you proud

There was such a great bond that it had created

that song

just to spend the time with her doing what she does

and being with her.

I just remember feeling elated as a kid.

With so much love

Come on, Mimi.

'Cause you're lovely

'Cause you're lovely

And you're beautiful

And you understand

- Say good night to everyone. - Good night.

Money and success does not make you happy.

I know it for a fact

because for me, the most dismal days of my existence

were at the height of my career.

It was like wearing an evening gown that was too tight, you know?

You know, everything was popping out

and I needed more space.

I saw the self I was striving to be.

All of a sudden, it seemed further away than ever.

Feeling guilty, or feeling shame

or feeling all the things that had been part of my life.

I was molested by a minister when I was in my teens.

It's not pain I could have spoken about.

But it's something that I have to always incorporate into my reality.

Uncle Ricky.

Mom never talked about being abused by the pastor with me.

Did she ever talk to you about it?

Yes.

He did a lot of damage to a lot of people.

Did the devil's work better than most.

I believe... I believe that...

it became a defining moment in her life.

It's not easy when you don't have the ability to tell people.

But how do you get out of it?

There were other things that had gone on in my life.

Things in my own sense of morality that I felt that I had crossed

like, that I felt God could never forgive me because I... I failed.

And I... I was decadent.

I was stupid.

You know? I was a fool.

So I just decided that my life had no meaning.

I was in New York.

I was alone in the then-Navarro Hotel

on Central Park South.

I'd been watching TV.

I just broke down and said

"I am not gonna live another day like this."

I had not been able to sleep, and I was lying in bed.

The lines on the TV were going up and up and up.

And after a while, I think I feel...

I was... it was almost like being hypnotized.

And it was... it was crushing to me.

And I thought, "You know what?

I'm never gonna be who I am.

You know? I'm gonna be stuck being this person.

How do I get out of it?"

And on that day, I... I just said

"I'm... I'm getting outta here.

I'm leaving. I... I gotta go

and I put my foot out the window."

And as I shifted my weight to slide out the window

my foot got caught into this thin curtain.

And at that precise moment

the door opened

and it was my house cleaning lady...

and she opened the door enough to look right at me and go

"Oh, Ms. Summer, I came to clean up today."

Another ten seconds, I would've been gone.

- The Rolling Stone. - Yeah.

That must have been a big deal, huh?

It was a big deal at the time

because, first of all, black.

- Second of all, woman. - Yeah.

So it was a big get at the time.

And...

Were you guys dating then or not yet?

Yeah. No. We were definitely... Yeah, we were.

We were dating from the moment we met.

I noticed.

Man stayed up All night

And carried on

And now He knows

He wishes

He'd never gone

And he knows...

When I first met Donna

in my egocentric

elitist songwriter mind

I think I kinda viewed her

as a novelty.

But then we sat down at the table

started playing guitars

and we just hit it off

instantaneously.

How much he Loves you, baby

I'm coming after you.

Stick your Baby home

Did we submit the record?

- Yeah, he liked it. - Man stayed out all night

I love it.

I had a girlfriend who was still in New York

who I had been with a few years.

Donna had this boyfriend.

I don't know where he was that week

but he was gone.

The next week

Donna and I just hung out together the whole time

barely sleeping, just talking, writing.

Within that time, we were bonded.

I brought this Bible with me and Donna liked that.

She was like, "I never met a guy who, like, studied the Bible."

My Bible was also my stash for my joints, you know?

Someday you'll come along

The man I love

And he'll be rich and strong

The man I love

And when he comes my way

I'll do my best

To make him stay

We had a lot in common

in terms of our drive to succeed

and to escape where we were from.

I'll understand

So we... we just had this intense beginning.

For a while

He'll take my hand...

I wasn't a serious boyfriend type.

I was serious about my career.

And so was Donna.

You know, that's part of what Donna and I recognized in each other.

You know

I'm the kinda lady that always meets the wrong man

at the wrong place at the wrong time.

I've always had that wrong kinda luck, you know?

My man comes home biting, and screaming, and fussing, and...

and then hit me, and beat my head on the side of the wall

and you know, he doesn't treat me good at all.

But I want him to. I need him.

You see, my man just...

For all the bravado that appeared on the outside

there was a great deal of insecurity underneath that.

Fear of being alone

led her into these relationships

that, in her mind, were kinda like placeholders.

I got it bad

And that ain't good

Nah, it ain't good

Peter Muhldorfer was one of Donna's distractions.

He was a very dark character.

I have no good memories of him.

I always felt very protective of her when he was in her life.

He had the same vibrant imagination as Donna.

He was very creative

in a very dark way.

My boyfriend Peter

who was kind of abusive at the time

and very possessive, extremely controlling.

He would drink and be abusive

and then he would apologize for the abuse.

And you're going, "Well, you know, maybe it's just me.

Maybe I did something to provoke him.

Maybe I shouldn't have said that."

'Cause you really don't wanna be alone

because you're really afraid internally yourself.

And something in you identifies with his fear of being alone.

The more independence I've started to have

the more Peter felt threatened.

Even though there were a lot of new people in my life at that point

there wasn't any one person other than Peter who...

who I really believed loved me.

I knew that as this wave of success grew

he would be more jealous and more aggressive.

I was fearful of the situation that I felt trapped by it.

I was already secretly seeing Bruce by then

because Bruce was like a safe haven.

I had tried my best to get away from Peter.

Peter, I'm curious.

What was your impression of Bruce?

You said you kind of suspected something going on.

When I came back from New York

Bruce and the guys

have been in the house.

I remember they were writing a song.

The lyrics was something laying heavy on my heart.

I felt there is something going on

some separation

and some plan or something like that.

And then, of course, we had a fight.

I got a phone call

in the middle of the night

and said to Neil

"Call our attorney and call the police."

A black eye and a bruised cheek

and broken ribs.

Donna was unconscious.

I had no respect for him.

She was becoming a star.

He could not handle that.

My recollection of Peter is

"This guy's crazy."

Police again coming to our house

me hiding in the bathroom

and hearing everything that was going on

and seeing police sirens and lights going off

and being so happy when Mom decided to be done with that relationship.

I did it as a white man with a black woman

and I did it with somebody who was a star already.

She called the management, and they had picked her up

and from that moment on

I haven't seen her anymore.

I hit her, and I never could forgive myself.

Watching Daddy dance

Watching Daddy dance

Watching Daddy dance

Okay, I wanna try it again. You're not just watching.

The first one was beautiful

but then, the ones after that, got a little bit sloppy.

- Yeah. - So do Watching Dad... You know.

How did you incorporate your family into your act?

Well, it was easy. They sing.

And I had been taking three other girls on tour with me

and I decided, "Why should I take someone else's family

all over the world with me?"

How important is it for an international star

someone like yourself...

how important is it to have someone

- close to you? - Well...

It's very... Well, I think it's important for everyone

to have someone that, especially in my position

there's always the threat of whether someone loves you for you

or whether they love you because of the advantage

of being with... with a person like you.

I didn't think about singing with her.

I just said, "Somebody has

to be out there with her."

She gotta have some family out there.

There's no family out there.

They gonna chew her up and spit her out.

It was really an exciting time.

It was like being on a roller coaster that never took a pit stop.

Sitting here eating My heart out waiting

Waiting for some lover to call

I dialed about A hundred numbers lately

Almost rang the phone off the wall

Looking for some hot stuff Baby, this evening

I need some hot stuff, baby, tonight

Gimme a little some hot stuff Baby, this evening

Gonna need your loving

- I got to have your love tonight - Hot stuff

- I need - Hot stuff

- Looking for - Hot stuff

Gotta have hot stuff, yeah!

Come on, let's boogie.

I just wanted to say that I think that we need to address

my approach to singing.

I approach it as an actress.

I... I'm not trying to be me.

What I am there to do is become the character

and then sing that song

in the context to who that character is.

Thank you.

Last dance

Last chance for love

Yes, it's my last chance

For romance

Tonight

I need you

By me

Beside me

To guide me

And to hold me

To scold me

'Cause when I'm bad, I'm so, so bad

- So let's dance the last dance - Let's dance the last dance

- Let's dance the last dance - Let's dance the last dance

- Let's dance the last dance - Let's dance

Tonight

Last dance

It's my last chance for love

Hi.

Yes, it's my last chance

For romance tonight

- Oh, oh, I need you by me - I need you by me

- Beside me to guide me - Beside me

- To hold me, to scold me - To hold me, to scold me

Because when I'm bad, I'm so, so bad

- So let's dance the last dance - Let's dance the last dance

- Let's dance the last dance - Let's dance the last dance

- Let's dance the last dance - Let's dance

Tonight

This album

Donna Summer, Once Upon a Time

has gotten probably the best reviews of any new album

in the last ten years.

You... you can't believe them when you read them.

They're fantastic. It's what you call a concept album.

It's a story.

And Donna Summer rightly deserves them.

She's a phenomenon in the record industry.

Well, he searched and searched For nights and days

'Til he found the one he loved

And he wrapped her in his arms again

And then he thanked the stars above

That he found Who he'd been looking for

And he stared her in the eyes

- He said "I love you" - I love you... Yes, I do

He said

- "I love you" - I love you. I love you. I do

We have this expression of music called "the voice within the voice"

and it's the way you hear the note.

But did that cry that's in there that touches the pain in you?

And even sometimes, if it's a happy song

there's that cry in there that maybe touches something in you

that's hidden in that groaning place

that place that we get to.

- She said "I love you" - I love you... Yes, I do

- Yes, I really do - I love you... Yes, I do

- They said "I love you - I love you...

- Yes, I do" - I love you. I love you. Yes, I do

It... it's so funny how people write

you know, and... and a lot of writers write better under pressure.

I mean, under severe pressure.

Like it's-gotta-be-finished-yesterday kinda pressure.

I prefer to work in... in the way of concepts

have an idea and work it out to the end.

And after, you know, coming from being the disco queen

to, you know, like, "Where am I now?"

You know? "What is my voice best suited for?"

You... you just have to try a lot of things

until you find the right thing.

You have to keep going.

And I'm not... I'm not a person who has to sound like me.

I don't care if people know it's me in... some way.

I mean, I don't care if they go, "Oh, that's Donna Summer"

I kinda almost don't want them to.

I want them to be surprised.

"That's Donna Summer? Wow, man, she sounds totally different."

I think that is using your voice as an instrument.

Do you wake up in the middle of the night

- for example - Yes.

- and say, "Aha. I've got an idea?" - Yes.

Yes. Everywhere in the house, papers.

"Let's go! Don't throw that away!

Oh, my god. What happened to the...

Oh, what happened to the... the Brillo box?

What happened..." You know.

- All right, let's do it. - Ready?

- How does it start? - Electricity.

Electricity

We were just jamming.

Roll tape

set up the mics, headphones.

I don't wanna be the one To spoil the party

You know, we would just flow.

We would pick up one from the other.

We would add harmonies when we find a little groove.

Electricity

Love that powers me

I don't ever want This magic night to end

I don't know if I could stop Once we get started

It was never competitive, you know?

It was completely respectful of each other's gift.

I was always in awe of Mommy's mind.

You know, because of her persona

as, you know, sex goddess and First Lady of Love

her artistry as a songwriter got overlooked.

Dim all the lights

Dim all the lights

Dim all the lights, sweet darling

'Cause tonight, it's all the way

Hey, baby, turn up the old Victrola

Gonna dance the night away

Dim All the Lights is a song that she wrote by herself

and a root issue for Donna was when Dim All the Lights was out

and is flying up the charts

and it's in the top ten

but Neil wants to release Enough is Enough.

And Mommy says, "No, please. Don't release Enough is Enough yet.

Let's give Dim All the Lights a chance to go to number one."

She's just recorded a record

with Barbra Streisand

and it will come out October 15th.

It's called Enough is Enough.

- That's news, huh? - That's news.

- Come on. Barbra... - You did it. You got it in.

I mean, I... that was the whole reason...

Is that the whole reason you were here, huh?

No. No, you... you know, just...

I thought you'd like that.

If you've had enough Don't put up with his stuff

Don't you do it

If you've had your fill

Did she talk about that situation with Casablanca?

For a long time, she didn't

actually believe it.

Here are these people who you...

You know, you working with them.

You love them.

You believe they have your best interests at heart

and they do

because your best interest is their best interest.

But... but money changes people.

Neil disregarded that request

and Enough is Enough came out

and Dim All the Lights peaked at number two.

And I think that was the initial feeling of, "This is not right.

Maybe this is running its course."

Two kids hanging In an alleyway

Talking about the money

That they just found

Mommy's out weary

Trying to make a way

But Daddy

Just long's you Tell the amount

And it's high time

That we make a change

And it's high time

That we start rearranging

Long...

Hello?

Hello, who is this?

That's bullshit.

He's profiting by me.

I can be unhappy only so long.

The record business

is really like being raped and abused

over and over again

because the element of your sensitivity

is beaten up on and stepped on.

I wasn't justly compensated for what I had done.

I had sold millions of records

and not been paid for them at that point.

We were involved from '79 in a lawsuit with Casablanca Records

because they were taking advantage.

How significant was it

for particularly a black woman of that time to sue a label?

Certainly a high-profile situation

because it was right at the top of her career.

We went through a major lawsuit, and we settled

and she went on to be

the first artist signed to Geffen Records.

Come into the light a little bit, Donnie.

Well, this really isn't one of my better days.

- Yeah. - You could have filmed...

Can you get into right into the light?

Get your face right in the light.

I wanna see you. Get in the light.

- There we go. - You could have filmed...

Is my... is my face breaking out over here?

I don't know. I'm not looking that close.

- No go back, go back. - What's the matter?

- Look at 'em. Say, "Hi." Hi. - Hi.

Do Hard for the Money.

Sing it loud.

Hard for the money

- Good. - She works hard for the money

So hard for it, honey

I work hard for my money

So you better treat me right

All right

I work hard... for my money

Hard... for it, honey

Hard for my money

So you better treat me right

All right?

She works hard for the money

So hard for it, honey

She works hard for the money

So you better treat her right

She Works Hard for the Money

it comes along at the right time

for women.

It was kind of like a woman's empowerment song.

She was speaking to the worker.

She works hard for the money So you better treat her right

It was the night of the Grammys and we were in Los Angeles.

I was on my way into the ladies room with my manager.

As I walked in, there was this little lady sitting in the corner.

This sweet woman here was sound asleep.

Yeah, and I looked at her, and I thought to myself

"Wow, she works hard for the money."

And I thought it again to myself, "She works hard for the money."

And I thought, "She works hard for the money.

She works hard for the money."

And I thought, "Wow, that's it. That's a song, Susan.

I'm gonna sit down and write it."

So I went in the other room, and I sat right there

and I started writing it.

She didn't even know anything about it.

Not until much later.

- Right? - Right. That's true.

I say it's wonderful, believe me.

I think it's like a fairy tale to me.

I can't believe it. I really can't.

- You seem very proud. - I am. I'm very proud.

She was the first female black artist

to ever have a video on MTV.

She works hard for the money

So hard for it, honey

She works hard for the money

So you better treat her right

When people come up to you

what song do they most identify you with?

Is it still Love to Love You Baby

in... in spite of everything you've done?

- Hard for the Money. - Hard for the Money?

The women. The women

That's right.

- The men... - And the men...

The men, yeah.

Love to Love You Baby, probably.

They go, "Oh, I just remember when you sang that song...

Ooh... What was it?"

You know, they start... their bodies start moving like this.

They go...

I've got to fan myself now.

My life just sort of started to quiet down.

One of the things that happened was that I... I married Bruce.

It was also this time when I started becoming the most spiritual.

I had to make a decision about being a mother

and how much a mother I was going to be.

There's just nothing in my life

that's worth more to me than my jewels.

My children are my jewels

and my husband and... my family.

I loved to perform, you know, and that's extremely important

but it doesn't bring me what they bring me.

The ranch was the dream childhood.

It was 56 acres of dirt roads

horses, and pigs, and cows.

It was full of imagination, and fun, and adventure.

It was kind of the best possible place to grow up.

Together

Together

Together

Together

I just remember, by the time I was born

that family was kind of the most important thing.

The fame was kind of like an offshoot.

Tonight

Walking in a winter wonderland

Gone away...

She was always performing.

She lived in an imaginary musical at all times.

We sing a love song as we go along

Walking in A winter wonderland

Walking in A winter wonderland

Winter wonder Winter wonderland

Winter wonder Wonder, wonderland

I like Bruce.

I like... liked him a lot.

When they got together

they wrote amazing music

and I felt like there was, like

this love connection that was deep.

But they were just... That was just a bumpy damn ride.

They were like oil and vinegar.

But they came together and made salad dressing.

My recollection of our relationship early on

was that it was volatile.

We were young.

We were both confident, and cocky, aggressive

a little stupid, passionate.

Coming from two different cultures

not understanding each other's cultures.

We were fire.

In public, screaming at each other

"You can't fucking talk to me like..."

I just remember that

they had a fight, and, like, throwing pots.

And at that point, Mom had already called the cops.

And we all went to my grandmother's house.

I remember wanting to, like...

run and protect her.

And I've done that before.

I was dealing with a lot of my own abuse.

We'd be at the house and stuff would happen there.

And it was someone related to our housekeeper at the ranch.

I would often be out in the fields

'cause I didn't wanna be any place that I could be trapped.

It was traumatic for me to leave my grandparents and go there

'cause I knew what might be in store.

It wasn't until I was 11 and a half, 12

when I finally sort of moved in full time.

And I'll have to be honest

the only reason I stayed was because of you guys.

I said, "I can't leave Brooklyn and Amanda."

I didn't know that, Mim.

I had a lot of pent-up anger and resentment.

I always had to be so careful because she's Donna Summer.

And what if I say something and then it gets out?

When I finally told Ma

I was 19, I think.

Mom, she hyperventilated.

Had to leave the room.

You know, in order for you to really communicate with somebody

and talk to them heart-to-heart

you have to really be vulnerable

and I think Mommy had a hard time being vulnerable.

It was a difficult thing for Mommy to deal with with Mimi

because of her own situation.

The sexual abuse

and her own, maybe, sense of failing.

I mean, I felt it. How could I...

How... how did I, as a dad, allow this to happen?

But I don't think you've ever said that to Mimi.

- Probably not. - Yeah.

- Yeah. Probably not. - Yeah.

These are all signed.

I always felt like when she was painting

she was, like, really in her space.

Whatever she was feeling that day would come out on the canvas

and really helped her to release a lot of whatever anxiety and tension

and whatever else that she was feeling.

I was inspired by my children.

There was color around me.

I started finding my way back to other creative aspects

of my own personality.

Someone found the letter You wrote me on the radio

And they told the world Just how you felt

It must have fallen out of a hole In your old, brown overcoat

They never said your name But I knew just who they meant

You know, when I go on stage, I don't go home with anything.

I go home empty-handed.

But when I paint

I have a tangible product

that's the direct result of my solo effort.

The agents aren't talking.

The record company isn't saying, "Hey, these songs suck."

So creatively, I am completely free to be myself.

When you first appeared in this country

many critics said "One song, she'll be gone soon."

And you have outlasted many of those critics.

How much satisfaction do you take

in having turned their predictions wrong?

Well, it's great to, you know

to succeed when others are not on your side.

It's even greater to know that God's on your side

and nobody can be against you when He is.

You know, I think that's what...

I've always been very strong in faith.

And, I mean, the possibilities of...

of a black girl from Boston going to Germany

becoming successful in the American pop field

is like a... a million to one shot.

The sun is shining

Oh, for me each day

'Cause I found the answer

And I learned

To

Pray

Let them like our performance, Lord.

Let them like our performance, Lord.

- Thank you, Jesus. - Thank you, Jesus. Thank you.

Oh, God, in Jesus' name, praise You.

Amen!

How did you become a Christian?

How did... how did it happen?

How did it happen?

- It happened one day. - It kinda happened...

It happens, yeah.

You know what? I think people get to a place in their lives where

well, especially when you are successful

and you've... and you've reached your goals

and you realize that... that there's nothing there.

It's empty.

It's the same old room. It could be anywhere in the world.

It could be with anyone in the world. It could be the same meal.

It can be the same million cults.

It could be a million diamond rings.

It doesn't mean anything.

You know, you get to a point where you realize that

"What happens after this?"

The born again.

As extreme as I might have been thinking

at the time that it was

it benefited Donna.

That little church girl was foundational to who she was.

All these things that she had been carrying

from being abused by a pastor when you were a young girl.

This struggle of... of God, and man, and sex.

Religion and spirituality brought her a great amount of peace.

In the last few years

my life has changed, drastically.

It has changed in a way that I would like to share with you.

See, about three years ago, I gave my life to Jesus Christ.

And, no...

I'm not ashamed to tell it.

Every day

I give you a reason to cry

'Cause I see the hurt in your eyes

But stronger yet

I see the love that shines

Brooklyn, you know Mommy.

Whenever she got into anything

it was a hundred and ten percent.

And then, she would wanna share it with everybody.

Not everybody wanted to hear a sermon.

Not everybody wanted to be preached to.

People wanted to dance at a party.

Yeah!

All right!

"Where's that girl? Where's that girl, huh?

I paid $12 for this ticket

and I want her to work for it," right?

Don't you realize that I had two children in two years?

I work so hard.

Donna had very loose parameters

of a script of how her show was gonna go.

There were certain pattern that she knew worked

that she would use night after night

but she was also spontaneous in the moment.

- Woman - Woman

Treat that man real good

She could make a comment about something in the news

the color of the shirt of the guy in the front row.

But now she says this thing

"God didn't make Adam and Steve.

He made Adam and Eve."

- God, he made the woman - Yes, indeed

God, he made the man

And this was a comment that was devastating

to many in the gay community.

The "Adam and Steve" thing

I find it insulting.

It was like I couldn't believe that she would have said that.

For me, the relationship that I had with your mom

was really through her music.

The songs that we all came out to.

And as a gay man

it rubbed me the wrong way.

And I thought, "I don't need to support this anymore."

A lot of gay people already feel

like the church hates them.

And so what happened was there was another mindset of

"Oh, she became one of those... those people who hate us."

Their perception of what they thought she meant.

It was like, "You shouldn't exist."

At some point, I think we made a wrong decision

and that decision was not to respond.

We kinda figured, "Oh, it'll go away."

But it didn't go away, and...

and we had to pay that price.

And... and it was... it was a big price to pay.

What's happened with this comment?

Well, at some point, it went from this comment

into Mommy supposedly saying

that AIDS was God's punishment on gays

and that just was never the case.

Educate, don't speculate

- AIDS - Be safe. Fight now

AIDS, educate, don't speculate

- AIDS - Be safe. Fight now

I remember a situation

that she was doing

an art event in Chicago.

We're here. We're queer.

The ACT UP people

their intent was to go in and destroy all the art exhibit.

And ACT UP was adamant about saying

"Well, listen. This is a person that we loved

and adored, and supported

and she turned her back on us."

I remember people were canceling shows.

It was definitely a strain on her.

It was a time when I think she really had to learn to rely on faith.

That hurt her the most

because she felt like

"They're gonna think I really said

those things.

They're gonna think I feel that way about them, and I don't."

The magazine stated that I said homosexuals were sinners

and AIDS was a divine ruling.

That is completely false.

I did not say it. I do not believe that.

I would never say the things attributed to me in that article.

These were people that she loved.

And for her to be viewed as somebody who would cause them more pain

It's something I... I don't think she ever got over.

Do you feel that Mom came to terms with her life?

The struggles, the fear, the insecurity?

I don't know if she came to terms fully.

I mean, I think she was getting better.

When you're holding a mirror up to yourself

and you're getting to see all these avenues

of like an extension of yourself.

Your children kind of growing and flourishing

- that brings something out of you - Hey, guys, how you doing?

and it makes you have to address certain things.

So I think she was getting there.

I think she was working through certain things.

Yeah, baby...

I can see the shape of the world

Planet Earth below

To be honest with you

the fact that she got lung cancer was very interesting to me.

For someone who fully used their voice in so many ways

to not fully use their voice in other ways

she carried so much for so long

that her body couldn't do it anymore.

Thousands of miles away From who knows where

Who knows where...

There was a certain amount, of not denial, but non-acceptance.

Donna never talked about her dying

or what would happen if she died.

Or that she was gonna die.

We never had that conversation.

We never spoke those words.

The fact that we didn't discuss it

did not make the obvious nature of what was happening invisible.

She didn't want to give death power

by even speaking about it or mentioning it.

Daddy, what... what day is today?

Today is December 25th, 2011

heading into a much sunnier year of 2012.

- Yup, amen. - Amen.

- Hallelujah. - Amen, hallelujah.

- Mommy! Merry Christmas. - Merry Christmas.

Is there a remedy

For the passions of the soul

Brother, if there is one

I don't really know.

May... may I say

I... I wanna get mushy

because I... I realized something.

I've been in therapy, you know.

For all the six months... No, seriously.

- I can relate. - I really like making jokes

about things, and not confronting the issue.

And so tonight, I would not like to make a joke of anything.

I would like to confront the issue

and say that I... I do dearly love everybody here.

And regardless to the changes that we have gone through in this life

I know...

Hallelujah, don't let me start preaching...

that...

we're all together for a reason.

- Amen. - Amen.

- Amen. - And I do hope that...

that I was able to bring something to your life

and get something from your life

- that is irreplaceable. - Amen.

Oh, Lord!

Mommy, I love you.

I'm gonna see you soon.

And I'm gonna perform for you.

Watching raindrops

Slowly falling

Painting pictures

On the window pane

Feelings my heart cannot...

There were times in the middle of the night

when she would say stuff.

She would say, "I don't like to be alone, Mimi."

When she woke up one night, she was really having a hard night.

I said, "Ma, what's the matter?"

And she's like, "I just..." And she's like, "I can't sleep.

I'm just so... I can't settle down."

I started to rub her back.

She was pretty tiny at that point.

I put my arm across her chest, and she fell asleep.

So I scooped her up onto my lap

and I just kept rubbing her back.

That moment for me was like...

She was a baby.

It was like she just was

fully vulnerable, like

"Just hold me."

I think the most profound thing is her allowing us to love her.

Yes.

Because in that moment, she couldn't give us anything.

No, she had to only receive.

She could only receive.

It wasn't until she was on her deathbed

that she finally understood that I really loved her.

She looks at me

and she says, "You are my heart."

All right, well...

If there is music there

I'll have to go

Never been anything in my life

That I wanted more

This is my greatest fear

That I'm losing you my dear

It's more than I want to give

But if there is music there

If there is music there

I have to know

Never met anyone

Who could take music

Out of my soul

There's something deep inside

That I no longer want to hide

My love you would never share

If there is music there

I'm so sorry honey.

- I'm losing you - See, I... I always... I loved you.

I did love you

- I'm losing you - but I just have to go.

Sunset People, take two.

For sunset

Riot house

Now what camera? Should I just face forward?

Yes, face forward. Rewind her.

It's too much light. You're bleaching away my color.

Fix it in the mix.

You've never had your hair done by a sailor before, huh?

Yes.

- Excuse me. - One, two, three, four.

Who are these places?

What are these faces?

Yes, I'm giving up all your love for me.

Don't let it throw you.

Come on. Let me show.

What are these places? Whose are these faces?

Translator: IYUNO