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In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.

Earth was formless and empty.

Darkness was over the surface of the deep.

And the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

And God said -" Let there be light",

and there was light.

And seeing that the light was good, God separated the light from the darkness.

God called the light “Day,” and the darkness he called “Night”.

It’s been three years since the light given by God has been lost for me.

The light, visions and colours have become memories and stories for me.

Rex...

Hey Rex!

Open the door!

What's with this smell of burning incense sticks?

Did your dad die or what?

What? …..

Why are you looking so grumpy?

Feeling sleepy or what?

Don’t worry…

I will be done with him quickly.

How many times have I told you to keep the toilets clean?

Did you get the car repaired?

The mechanic worked until the evening and left,

he will come back tomorrow.

I just came back from there,

I'm feeling really tired Sir.

I could'nt get proper sleep last night because of mosquitoes.

The mechanic will come again tomorrow morning

so I'll have to wake up early.

I can ask Murugan to arrange another room for…

Are you feeling sleepy?

You do one thing. Bring and keep that cycle here,

then go and sleep in the vehicle.

There will be mosquitoes, dont forget to close the car windows!

Shut the door and come fast.

Okay let go of my hand first.

...the first time, it was asking milk for her child to a poor shepherd boy who was resting near a pond,

the second time it was to a handicapped street vendor boy,

the third and final time, Mother Mary appeared with her child

to save the Portuguese sailors caught in a sea storm in the Bay of Bengal.

And eachtime; when the drowsiness of the shepherd boy was taken away,

when the leg of the handicapped boy was cured,

and when the lives of the Portuguese sailors were saved,

it was done with the blessing of Our Lady of Good Health, our Mother Mary.

So,If we pray to her from our hearts,

my sickness and all our sorrows will be cured.

Ave Maria,

please take care of my child.

Ave Maria.

What was the story that we read about?

About God creating earth and heaven.

Who created day and night?

God!

Who created the sea and the sky?

God!

what about the sun and stars?

God!

and what about us?

God!

Teacher, was it not our mom and dad?

Who asked that?

Is it Alex?

Yes teacher!

Maria,

read again what God has created on sixth day.

Alex will write it a hundred times as an imposition before he leaves today.

And God said, “Let us make man in our image, in our likeness,

let them have dominion over the fish in the sea and over the birds of the sky

and over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.

So God created mankind in his own image,

in the image of God he created them,

Male and Female he created them."

Jesus is "the Truth",

He is without sin. He died for our sins,

we must always remember that.

What you have done is not right; coming here alone, without telling your parents.

With this unstable state of mind,

whatever decision you'll make now won’t be reasonable.

God has given us the freedom to make our own decisions

but first we have to remember what Jesus has said about it.

You are thinking about breaking the sixth commandment dear.

Only God has a right over human life.

if we think about what mother Mary had to go through when she was pregnant,

we will realize how trivial our problems are.

So take the Bible...

Father I know all this.

all my life I have been a believer…

But now, even though I know it’s a sin,

my mind won't let me...

Please help me Father,

can’t bare this.

God's blessing is still upon you my dear.That’s why you deplore your thoughts and came to confess.

Don’t worry dear,

Mother Mary will heal your pain.

Starting today, read psalms and Mathew’s Gospel daily.

Devote your mind to praying and attending the service for sometime,

don’t let it be idle.

We all sin in our life

but the compassionate Almighty can forgive anything.

Go back home

confess everything to your parents,

Honour your father and mother,

so that you may live long in the land the Lord has given you,

Hear what your parents have to say.

Thanks to Jesus, for he is good.

For his mercy endures forever.

Amen.

"I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance."

Hey girl!

Hey Girl, give me some money.

It’s been three days since I've eaten something

Hey girl!

Did you eat?

Hmm...yes,

Ma...you eat now.

What's your intention?

Love or lust?

Love or… the other thing?

Malayali right?

I don’t get it, why are you are staring at me?

Are you leaving?

If you wear a dress like this, I won't be the only one to feel kazhappu?

What is kazhappu?

Leave it.

I understood what you meant.

Since I was a child,

in the bus, at the park in the train, at college,

I've seen men staring at me everywhere.

I'm used to it.

Since then, I can judge from their stare

what their intentions are.

But I couldn’t judge it from your eyes.

That’s why I asked you.

Am I not beautiful enough?

Then why did you only feel...

what’s that word...kazhappu.. towards me,

but not love?

If I start having feelings for someone like you,

what can happen?

So if you start having lust for someone like me,

what can happen?

What's your name?

Rex...

What?

Rex

I am Maria Gomez.

Rex, just imagine.

If whatever feeling you developed towards me,

I felt it back,

Rex, which one would you wish for?

What crap is this?

I am serious.

Think about it and tell me

whether you'd wish for love or lust.

Yes, Sir.

Yeah, keep the keys there.

Okay Sir.

ok.

Are you looking for that lady?

She's gone.

Stop chasing women. Go get some sleep man.

Hey Rex,

you should give the car a service once in a while.

it’s all decrepit.

Hey kiddo,

just try to start the car now.

Since I lost my eyesight,

I constantly lose myself in thoughts.

All the things that I have seen, known and experienced in life

keep fllashing back as images in my mind.

Like my father and mother's faces when I left home with Samuel,

forever breaking my father’s vow to make me a nun.

Like the drunk face of Samuel beating me and my daughter after coming back from fishing.

Like Samuels's helpless face just before he died in the hospital bed.

Like the piteous face of the doctor who did'nt know how to tell me I was sick

and like the faces of the people who came into my life unexpectedly,

even the ones I never met, but have changed my life forever.

I can't block the flow of thoughts and images in my mind.

It feels like my brain is engaged in an aimless chase.

Ma, was it the same girl that bought you the food?

You never buy me anything.

Where did she go?

This meal is not so good.

There's only one curry.

Tell me, where did she go?

The rice is not even hot.

It would have been better if it was.

Why do you keep asking about that girl?

What are you looking at?

There's one girl like that who came here for a food parcel

at around 7 for the last two days.

By the way, why are you looking for her?

Man, it's the rush hour now.

If you're not buying anything, just leave.

Here’s your parcel madam.

There, eat it Ma.

There she goes.

Maria!

What?

Huh... I've thought about it.

About what?

Huh...about that.

About what?

See... I'm a little busy here.

This morning, I saw you near a blue car.

Is it yours?

Yes, I drive it.

Give me your phone number.

Eight zero

eight

triple nine

three four

Three four?

Two two

What were you talking about with that girl?

Last night, I was with a client who is staying at the same hotel as her.

I think she saw me then.

She got my number from the hotel boy, called me

and asked me to meet her here.

She sounds weird.

She asked me to stop doing this job

and offered me money to quit.

And what did you tell her?

I told her that if she gave me enough money to solve all my family problems,

I would quit.

Hello?

I was at the rehearsal and my phone was switched off.

The camp is in the outskirts of Chennai.

It’s good.

The rehearsals won't be finished for at least three more days.

I am already stressed out with all the training here,

I will call you later.

Hello?

Hello,

hello Rex?

Hello, who is it?

I am Maria.

Maria Gomez. We met at the bus station.

Maria who?

I took your number today.

Don't you remember me?

Isn't it Rex? The driver?

Yes,

what is it?

Are you free tomorrow morning at 6?

I have to go somewhere.

Huh...yes, Iam.

Then be ready.

Where should I meet you?

That place where you were having tea this morning, near the car.

Okay.

Kiddo, pass me that 10x11 spanner…

What happened to the car?

It’s being repaired,

Didn’t you notice it yesterday?

Then why did you say yesterday that you could take me?

You only asked if I was free today,

you didn’t mention the car.

Anyway, where do you want to go?

if it’s somewhere nearby, we can use the company's truck.

Rex, are you a believer?

I don’t go to the church and all

but some habits lingered from my childhood.

Besides, those who spend most of their life behind the wheel

often have some kind of faith.

Because as careful as you are, most of the time

accidents are only avoided with a bit of luck.

Just now, look.

Eventhough the oncoming driver and I don't see eachother,

he knows at which point I will overtake this truck and cut in left

and I know at which point he will get too close to the truck for me to overtake it.

We are driving based on this pure trust.

If one of us loses it, everything will go wrong.

Hey!

I'm in a yellow truck next to the Saravana Hotel.

Ah okay,

I will wait here.

Who are you meeting here?

A friend.

Hello Ma'am

Hi

Oh, you came with him.

Then I didn't have to come.

He knows very well where I live.

Hey Rex! Bring her to my house.

Sometimes I pick her up for my boss. That's why...

I didn't ask anything.

Give him some water dear.

She's 17 already.

I had her with my ex-husband.

After he died, my uncle took care of us.

He was already married

and I sort of became his second wife.

He's a waiter at a hotel.

After all, how coud he support two families with that?

he already had two daughters.

Now everything depends on my earnings.

I'm not enthusiastic about it

but I have to feed my children.

I thought about stopping this once I marry my elder daughter.

This is God's grace, He sent you to me.

Hey! What are you doing?

Get up.

I'm leaving.

This is all Mother Mary's will.

if you need any further help for the wedding,

just call me.

Okay then.

Have lunch here before you leave.

No thanks,

I have to go.

Ma, the shades.

Paapa, give the shades back.

Let go of it. Give it to me.

Give. Don't cry.

Paapa don't cry.

I will drive back.

There won't be enough of luck or blessing to save us

if we are not cautious.

Hey! Slow down!

What's happening?

It's not like driving a car. You won't be able to control it.

Look!

Hump!

Break!

What happened to you?

Are you okay?

I am pregnant

and I'm trying to abort it.

Why do you want to abort it?

It was dance that brought a believer like me and an atheist like Anwar together.

I was not at all the person you see now.

In four years, he changed everything about me.

I couldn't tell my family about Anwar, their beliefs are close to fundamentalism,

so we planned to get married and settle in Germany, where we were admitted for an internship.

Even Anwar couldn’t change my faith for our God Almighty

but this one time I hated Him

last month in Prague when Anwar died in an accident during a show.

For the first 48 days we can abort just by taking a pill.

Only four days left now...

If i drink from the bottle with the pill in it,

I will be aborted within 24 hours.

it hasn’t happened yet.

I don’t know what Mother Mary would want.

This pregnancy was not an accident,

it's something me and Anwar wished for.

It was part of our plan,

our dream!

I don’t want to get into another relationship or marriage anymore.

It's not that I'm running away from the truth

but Anwar was my strength, my courage.

I don’t have any strength left to face anything,

to confront my parents,

society,

or even God.

Rex, what do you think?

What can I say?

I don’t know what's right or wrong here

but I think you should abort it.

I'm saying this because...

why would you want to give birth to a child with an unsure state of mind?

I am going to the mass.

Rex, do you want to come?

No.

Okay then I'll see you tomorrow.

Where are you taking me to?

If she needs something just call me.

Don’t worry.

Ma, do you have enough clothes to change?

" If we pray to her from our hearts, my sickness and all our sorrows will be cured."

What’s your name dear?

Mary

Uncle, are you a Malayali?

Yes

Where's your mother?

From now on they will take care of you,

you don’t have to worry about anything

When are we going back to Velankanni?

Don’t you understand what I'm saying?

From now on you will stay here,

you won't have to roam around anymore,

you'll meet many other people like you here.

I don't have any cigarettes left,

Can you get some for me?

Forget about that.

A new life will begin for you here

in Mother Mary's abode.

Ma,

shall we go?

Yes

Alright, come with me.

It appears thats it's my fate to be here.

Why did she dress me up like a bride, in silk saree?

Ma, you don't worry,

you will make many new friends here.

Take this, sweetheart.

Are you Malayali?

Yes

What’s your name, son?

Mary

Not "son", she's a girl.

Come on, let's go.

Okay, I'm leaving, dear.

Uncle,

do you have a cell phone with you?

If I tell you my mom’s number, can you call her for me?

No,

I will come later.

The same goes for most orphanages.

There are many kids and too few caretakers.

At any moment the kids can get into a fight

and the first thing they do then is to pull each other's hair.

That’s why they have their hair trimmed short, boys and girls alike.

Rex, how do you know all this?

You had asked me earlier if I ever feel sinful and guilty.

At times, I've started hating...

Hello?

Mathew I told you

I'll be back in two days.

I'll explain everything.

Shall we go?

Now my brother Mathew knows that I'm not at the rehearsal camp

so, whether I abort or not, I may have to reveal everything to him.

Oh no, I forgot about the festival procession.

if we take the other road, we can reach till the bus station.

Do you want to join the procession?

Hey! Move the vehicle from the road!

Can you get me a beer?

And then?

Your room is nearby right?

We'll go there.

It's okay if you don't want to...

It's not that but it's not a place like you think?

Rex, I trust you. That's why I asked.

Mathew says he will come here.

Three days and three bottles left now...

I don't know what Mother Mary would want.

Should I drink all the bottles today

Or should I confess everything to Mathew once he arrives and then make a decision?

It’s not about Mother Mary or Mathew.

Deep inside, you don’t want it,

you feel confused and guilty because Anwar died.

You already decided to abort right?

Then why make such a big deal out of it?

why don’t you get it over with today?

Like I said,

with this unsure state of mind, why would you want to have a child?

What are you saying?

Rex, do you have any idea

of how difficult it is to be a single mother in our society,

of how people will judge you?

That’s why I'm...

Then why don’t you stop being so dramatic and get it done now?

By aborting I'll be sinning to Anwar, to Mother Mary and also to myself.

What is it with these sin and guilt feelings?

There's nothing wrong with it.

I'm not blaming you Maria,

in your situation anyone would have done the same.

So, why don't you cast away these concerns?

And why, as a reparation, do you try to help three people like Mother Mary did?

Do you plan to help someone else tomorrow?

Who is that fortunate third one?

Is it some burglar or criminal?

No

Then?

How?

The first time I saw you, staring at me,

even though I asked about your motives,

I clearly knew from the look in your eyes that you had only one intention.

But I can't find that look anymore

and it's because I trust you now

that I'm sitting here with you.

Rex, please promise me one thing;

that never again you'll stare at a woman the way you were staring at me at the bus station.

I know you are a person with good heart.

Why are you looking at me like this Rex?

Rex...

Rex!

Why are you looking at me like this?

Why do you look afraid?

You said you trusted me.

You bitch!

Hey Rex!

Rex what are you doing?

Is this how you trust me?

Rex, understand, I'm a woman...

I can explain.

Enough with your fucking sermon!

Even though many faces and experiences come back into my mind,

there is one image that I can hardly remember...

My own face.

Now I realize that how rarely I used to look at myself when I still had my eyesight.

Were you sleeping?

The owner called me,

he told me he'll come here tomorrow.

You've only paid the advance,

you still have a pending payment for the rest of the week.

if you don’t clear it, you'll be in trouble.

Hmm

Do you understand me?

Otherwise, if you want my help,

you can ask me openly...

I can help you.

No

Good evening boss!

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Open the door, you asshole!

Motherfucker, open it!

You'd better open it fast or I'll shove this door up your ass!

Open it!

Why did it take you so long to open...asshole!

Man, where did you find her?

I never got a girl like her...

Tell me, where did you find her?

Okay, you just go out and come back later.

No, sir.

Move, man.

Don’t you...Sir!

You better move now...

Stay away you son of a bitch!

Leave...

Just leave!

Hello

Oh, that lady, she checked out at 4 o'clock this morning.

Father.Francis used to say

"Whenever you lose something in life, you gain something else"...

I only took it as a philosophical sermon to condole me, so never believed in it

but now, I sense that it's true.

Now if I hear a sound once,

it will never fade away from my mind. Some smells too.

Teacher...

Teacher!

Yes Alex

I have finished writing the imposition, can I go?

Did you write it fully?

Yes, I wrote it a hundred times.

This has been my issue for sometime;

I will start thinking about something,

then my thoughts will get diverted and my mind will go on seeking for something else...

No, I didn’t see her.

She didn’t come back here after that day.

You never saw her after that night?

No, I didn’t.

Hey, you bloody pervert!

How dare you threaten the boss?

We'll hit the crap out of you!

Hello

I should be the one to feel sorry,

you don’t have to apologize Rex,

it was my own mistake.

Rex, you were right,

deep down, may be I really wanted to abort.

And all this drama was to protect myself from the guilt.

I know that’s why I came here,

and not because I feared to break the commandments.

And this quest for reparation was due to that.

And also if I had got aborted eventually,

it was just a stupid attempt to convince myself that it was God’s will.

Yesterday, I've been to the 24 hour- prayer vigil.

I thought about it a lot and made this decison.

I no longer have doubts,

I know this what I want.

Alright Rex,

Mathew will be waiting for me at the station.

I will never forget you.

Madam, give me some money.

I haven’t eaten for the last three days.

You will get God’s blessing if you donate something.

There granny, eat it.

No, no, no!

I don’t want to go back there.

it’s not for me.

When I had light in my life,

I endured constant anxiety in mind,

feared and suspected everything in life.

I don’t feel like that anymore,

now my mind appears to be filled with a new-found courage.