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[ominous music]

- Holy crap. Bear track.

Shack.

This bear is poking around camp.

[bear groans] Holy *bleep*.

[bear spray hisses]

- Fish trap's stuck.

[groans] Damn it.

All right. I'm cutting it.

There she goes. Just piss-poor performance.

- Well. I'll take beach fish.

This represents multiple days' worth of calories.

Thank you, lake, for the fish.

I really didn't want to leave this early.

- Let's carry her.

- Feel like 37 days is no time at all.

I had so much more I wanted to build.

I had so many more animals that I wanted to hunt.

narrator: In "Alone's" most terrifying location yet,

ten participants

face the deadliest predator in North America...

- There he is, right there.

- Grizzly bears. - Hey, bear!

- We got a lot of grizzly here.

I'm gonna have to live with them.

- Go on! Get!

- Every second we're on the land, we're being hunted.

- Holy *bleep*. Mountain lion.

- He's circling around my shelter.

narrator: Bone-chilling cold...

- Winter's coming.

- You combine the wind with the rain and the cold,

this place could make the Arctic look easy.

- Oh, *bleep*.

narrator: And complete isolation.

- You cannot hide from yourself,

mentally and emotionally.

- [shouts]

- There's no place to go.

- I am suffering from loneliness.

narrator: Who will survive?

- Yes! Yes!

- This could be the end.

- I don't want to tap, but I don't want to die either.

- You have to suffer before you can succeed.

- [wretches]

narrator: The last one standing wins.

- At what point do I push the button?

[wind whistling]

- It's stinking cold, man.

Not fun.

No fun at all.

The winds are heavy,

so it's just blowing in every gap, everywhere.

Holy cow.

Never experienced anything this cold.

It's really hard to fall asleep.

Really hard to get warm.

I gotta spend the day chinking all the cracks

from the inside with moss,

just to make it extra wind-proof.

This place is hypothermia's paradise.

We're gonna get our chink on. Start at the bottom.

I can't even imagine how it gets

in, like, December or January.

Anyone else tapping out right now?

I hope so.

Take that, windy wall.

Control of your mind is a big deal out here.

I got to give thanks to my brother

for helping me train my mind

and control the negative thoughts when they come.

I wish you were mushrooms I could eat.

My brother wants me to do these visualization things.

Say it, believe it, do it.

[grunts]

It's cold. It's hard out here.

But that's no reason for me to give up.

Gotta visualize the win, Biko.

It's the only outcome you see.

It's time to get a fire going.

Pretty excited about my freshly-chinked cabin.

- Today is my oldest brother, Shane's, birthday.

Happy birthday, Shane.

He always been a huge supporter of mine.

And he would love to be out here hunting.

I don't know how he'd do with the starving part.

Bet he's eating some good meals today.

It's a beautiful, gorgeous, sunny, cold day.

But I'm hungry.

I've had three or four snows now

and I keep saying

the snow's gonna bring the animals down to me.

But I'm not seeing animal signs.

And so right now I'm gonna go fishing.

What is that?

What the hell?

I have not eaten red meat this entire time.

This is an absolute freaking blessing.

Typically, I would not eat an animal

with not knowing how it died.

But, like, this thing's hardly rigid.

It has not been dead long.

That's not good.

There is dinner, folks.

Breasts, legs are in there, neck, heart, liver.

Everything looked good.

I don't see any worms in the meat, just in the guts.

But I'm gonna boil the hell out of it.

Hopefully, it's not a disease.

I'm not doing well.

I need protein,

and I'm just trying to get to when we can use gill nets.

And that's my next big move.

I think it's fairly safe.

I don't think it was diseased. I think it was wormy.

Fish have worms. Mushrooms have worms.

This might be the only reason I get to day 45.

Willing to risk it.

Mmm.

It is...

delicious. Oh, my God.

Your flesh will now become my flesh.

- Hoo-wee.

Holy cow, it's cold.

Ugh.

That's a lot of fur for a zipper.

I never meant for this to have a zipper on the inside,

but that was what I had

when I had to finish this fairly quickly.

That's all right. We get there.

That is potentially the warmest thing

I have ever put on in my life.

All right. Let's go pick some rosehips.

[lively music]

Finally wearing my parka. Whoo!

I've always wanted to make a parka.

And being on this show gave me the reason to do it.

[laughs]

I haven't actually seen this on myself yet.

Okay, so this is kind of

where a lot of the rosehips sort of start.

Oh.

My intake has been

a half a pound of roots and berries per day.

We got to move to the next patch.

That's 1,500 calories.

But that is not enough.

My body is running out of reserves.

I have had two fish that I found on the beach.

That is the extent

of my animal protein intake out here.

Gonna head back to camp.

Without those high-calorie items

like fish, game,

this is just a slow descent into starvation.

And the wind is dying down.

I think it has a lot of potential.

When I was gutting the big fish

that I found on the beach, a whole bunch of small fish

came up and were eating the bits.

Little whitefish and stuff in there.

So I thought, you know what, I'm gonna make a fish basket

for very small fish.

If I could get a few of those in a trap,

that will be pretty exciting.

A bunch of small fish equals a big fish.

Cool. That's something accomplished.

It's warmed up, and the wind seems to be calm.

All right, here we go.

I have to get it out far enough

to be able to catch fish.

So I'm gonna put it on a line system.

Basically have a clothesline system.

I have two anchors.

One is on the beach,

which is attached to the other anchor in the water,

out by the rocks, near Cook Camp.

This should be a system where you just pull it in,

check the trap, and put it back out.

Great. Lovely. I'm ready to rock and roll.

It's ready to go out.

I'm running out of days

where I'm gonna have the energy to do projects

unless I can get some more calories coming in.

Out she goes.

Why don't you work?

Come on.

Bloody basket's snagged on something.

What in the world?

*bleep*.

That shouldn't happen.

Slow down, Theresa. You're all right.

Just gotta get out to that rock.

You can do this.

I gotta get some clothes off and go for a little wade.

Go figure it out.

Wading in the lake with snow on the ground.

Brr.

Oh. If it can tangle, it bloody will.

We're gonna fix that little problem.

There we go. All right.

Now I need to tie the line back together.

I love it here, but in the last few days,

have started missing my parents.

You know, life is rolling on without me there,

and it's an odd thought.

I think this is the one that pulls the basket in.

Awesome. And that totally works.

I know for a fact they are sat in Wyoming

worrying about me every day.

All right, here we go again.

You know, your daughter's out in the wilderness,

all by herself, survival living.

Setting the fish trap, take two.

[chuckles]

Ah.

I want them to know I'm okay.

And I hope my parents are proud of me.

All right. Works.

It's a fish trap in the water.

Yay.

Let's just hope it attracts

a whole bunch of little, yummy fish.

Whoo.

- Well, that's looking about like a gill net to me.

I'm gonna tie some of these off.

But that's awesome.

Let's just take it down.

Pretty stoked, guys.

Finished the gill net

well before we're allowed to use them.

There it is.

Ready for the netting of gills at some point.

Not really sure what else to do.

I'm gonna have to think of some more projects

to stay busy out here.

Just trying to take it easy till I can put a gill net in.

That's gonna be my best option

for getting fish out of that lake.

Feels like time's going slower and slower out here.

Felt like it went by pretty fast in the beginning,

but that might have been

'cause I was so busy doing stuff.

Pretty cool spoon there, Biko.

Final product.

The best spoon I've ever made.

Projects help you stay busy. Help keep your mind off home.

Might make a halfway decent shelter spear.

As the weather gets colder, as the food gets scarcer,

it's getting harder to pass the days by.

My ankle is hurting.

Definitely can't start going on hunting missions,

which really sucks.

I think that would work pretty good.

I just feel like just one misstep, man,

could send me out of here.

Just gotta try to figure out getting food from the water.

No one to talk to but a camera lens.

It can be kind of tough, man.

I decided to cut up my belt

and go ahead and make a sheath for my knife.

Well, how about that, then huh?

Fancy new sheath with a proper belt loop.

Boom.

Anyways.

Each day I'm here is one day closer to my goal.

I am becoming the troll, for sure, out here.

Can you see the claws?

[dramatically] I am becoming the troll.

Just gotta conquer my mind.

It's crazy that I'm not going crazy

from being alone this long.

[laughs]

Maybe just a little crazy.

There it is. "Troll Cave."

It does feel like I've moved here now.

Important business to attend to.

Definitely not gonna give up easy.

I'm willing to deal with a lot of discomfort, starvation.

This is my one chance to provide

like I never have before.

Now all who come around

will know that this is the Troll Cave.

- Gill net break time.

Back, arm, shoulder... [groans]

Gonna raise the net up a little

so my head's not looking down.

I'm an old man.

Time to do the next row of mesh.

I'd like to finish my net today.

Gonna be tying all day, guys.

Found that bird.

That was a nice morale boost.

Get some meat. Didn't have any stomachaches.

Didn't have anything. Feel fine.

Good.

Oh, yeah.

I'm doing a five-inch gill net.

See if I can get some big fish,

'cause big fish pay off big time.

Okay.

First float is on.

I like it.

The boat and the gill net are the combo, man.

That's my winning team, I hope.

I can set my gill net all over the cove.

I can set it deep. I can set it shallow.

In the wintertime, those fish move into deep water,

I can get to them.

God, if that could give me a steady food source,

I'm gonna go the distance.

Yes.

That is ready to put in the water.

One happy dude.

Now that...

Is done, finally.

Took me forever.

Too slow, but I like the end product.

Happy with it.

I'm more optimistic.

Between the gill net and the boat, as a team,

feel like that is my road to victory.

Without either of those, doesn't look good.

All right, you guys, it's 2:30 a.m.

Gill netting day.

It's a windy one.

It's been blowing hard as hell all night,

and I just have this bad gut feeling

that the boat needs attention,

so I'm walking down the hill, and I'll take you with me.

I'm afraid the boat's smashed up.

I need to know it's okay.

Do I want to be doing this?

Hell no. There might be bears around.

Hey, bear!

*bleep*.

This was a dumb idea.

Hey, bear!

- Hey, bear!

Hey, bear!

Coming through!

Hey, bear! Gonna be quick!

Ooh.

*bleep*.

We're gonna call that good for now.

That feels so much better.

I am so glad I came down.

Windy.

Geez.

Windy night. Not what I wanted to do.

But...

So gonna head back up.

- Good morrow to you.

Fine morn, it is, as it is gill net day,

the day I get to put in maybe the biggest game changer

for me out here,

as far as food goes.

I'm gonna go get my gill net tree down.

That's our specimen right there.

Long, narrow.

Should get my gill net out to a good distance.

It's getting tough out here, folks.

The lack of calories catches up with you, man.

It's been weeks since I consumed any protein.

I'm definitely getting beat up.

Gotta go real careful. This is a bouncy log.

Slow and careful, leg. Slow and careful.

I don't know how much weight I've lost,

but I know it's considerable.

Just gonna keep on doing the best

I can, despite being cold,

despite missing home, despite missing eating.

I really hope the gill net changes things for me.

That's my last hope.

Wish my pops was here.

My dad sure would appreciate this place.

He would say it's healing.

My dad was a marine.

He was always wanting to teach us skills.

And now for you.

He was really brave his whole career.

Did some scary stuff. Had some scary close calls.

Okay.

Looks like a pretty decent gill net, if you ask me.

Let's get it out there.

I hope that when he watches this,

he can see that this was my chance to be brave...

And to put one foot in front of the other,

and to deal with the mental demons

of being alone in the wilderness,

not having much to eat.

All right. Gill net is deployed.

I hope I make him proud by my sheer will

and determination, despite starvation.

Just praying the gill net works for me, man.

I'm counting on that, man.

Are you kidding me?

Look at that.

Those are bears...

Swimming towards my camp.

*bleep*.

That's concerning.

There's bears, like, 30 feet away from me right now.

Hey, get out of here! Get out of here!

They're leaving.

Thank goodness.

I don't like having bear encounters.

It's stressful

to have to watch out for them all the time.

It's a constant worry that Mr. Grizzle Bear

is gonna come around the corner.

I'm looking forward to later in the season,

when they're hibernating.

I'm kind of doing it the grizzly bear way right now.

I just packed on a bunch of freaking

meat--

packed on a bunch of extra meat on my body,

and now I'm gonna just wait it out until it's all gone.

I've never starved for this long

or been on such a low-calorie diet for this long.

I'm feeling it now.

The hunger is starting to get to me.

- Oh, I am dark and filthy.

Wow, that is so crazy,

when you don't look at yourself every day, or even every week.

Geez.

Eyes.

Wow.

No one out here to tell you,

"Man, you got some dirt on your face."

Opening day, gill net season.

Really glad I came down last night.

I realized I need to get the boat fixed.

It's not quite as stable as I'd like.

So I want to be as safe as possible.

That boat is not going back in the water

until it has new ribs and the outriggers are solid.

I put a lot of time and energy and thought into this boat,

and man, I'm hoping it starts paying off.

I love living in Alaska

in the middle of the wilderness.

But being so remote, you miss out on the services society

and the service industry.

Like, you can go down and buy bread.

You can go buy gasoline. I can't do any of that stuff.

Good to go. Let's do the other one.

And then ribs.

You need something, you don't have a store.

You get unhealthy and sick and whatever,

you don't have a doctor.

So you have to deal with a lot of things on your own.

Okay. This ought to be a little firmer.

Who knows what the future holds?

But the way I see it now it's, the gill net works well,

I can stay, and if it doesn't, I might not be able to.

Feels solid now.

Now let's get this net going, huh?

Let's get out there and go set it.

We're gonna fish five feet off the bottom.

Is that too aggressive?

Trees, stumps, logs, floating stuff,

I just feel like that's where the fish are.

I need some wins. I need some successes.

I need some celebrations.

I'll do the best I can.

I'm not going anywhere.

I will adapt and overcome.

Woo-hoo.

Now we're going fishing.

- Nice big ball of moss.

I gotta a few cracks in the shelter

I need to patch up.

But thinking 'bout making an archery target,

and I think this would make a good arrow stop.

Look at that. Poi-fect.

Use my landing net for something.

Can't catch any damn fish to go in it.

Before we get the gill net all squared away,

time for archery practice.

Yeah, I think that's gonna work good.

I have a target range at the house

that me and the boys shoot.

I shoot it almost every day,

but they'll shoot a couple times a week,

usually.

Clear some of that underbrush out of the way.

Very nice.

That was fun.

Now we'll had back out to the beach.

Gonna set up my rig for setting out the gill net.

I'm not seeing the fish anymore.

But I know they're out there.

I don't have any experience with gill nets.

But this could be a game-changer.

Gonna make a tripod-type thing here.

The gill net pulley system,

it needs to be stout enough to withstand those winds.

I like being a wildlife biologist.

I mean, I did it for over ten years.

But I always had the thought I just needed to be

working for myself.

I was an entrepreneur at heart.

And eventually found a way to do that,

doing something I love, which is absolutely amazing.

I've got a buddy that was just musically--

I mean, he was gifted.

And I said, "Man, this is your calling.

You gotta make this your life."

And he's, "Ah, nah."

You know, maybe only one percent of the people

that have a talent like that that actually make it.

That ought to work. Wire that up.

But that's the one percent that tries.

If you stick with it and do it because you love it,

you will be that one percent.

'Cause everyone else will give up.

So I'll put a ring up here.

Run that cord through the ring.

And then I can pull it up.

Oh, *bleep*.

So there's a merganser foraging right here

along the beach.

He's coming this way.

I'll be really surprised if he gets close enough for a shot.

But he might. He's getting close.

Come on.

I'd love some duck.

You *bleep*.

Ah.

Damn it!

Son of a B, son of a B.

I hit just--ah!--

just underneath him.

Man, I can't believe he got that close.

That's ridiculous. He was ten yards.

Just hit right underneath him. Damn it.

I should have killed that bird.

That deer is not going to last forever.

I got to get some food stockpiled up

to be able to stay here.

At least the gill net looks nice.

Maybe the fish will like it.

So the way that this gill net system works

is I have this ring.

All right, I don't even know where to begin.

I have an anchor rock.

I have a line coming up to a float.

And just under the float, I have a ring attached.

The ring is going to act as a pulley.

So I have a tripod on the beach,

and I have a paracord that runs in a continuous loop

through the ring back to the tripod.

I don't know how this is gonna work

with those rocks down there.

So now all I have to do is attach my gill net to this,

and I can laundry line it out and laundry line it back.

It is deployed.

Fingers crossed.

Actually went out smoother than I thought it was gonna go into.

Hopefully, this will carry me through the end.

- Not the worst day ever, but not the nicest.

So I'm walking over to Cook Camp,

because my fish trap is still in the water,

and we've got a crazy north wind today,

really high waves, and I'm just gonna go over

and see if there's any chance of me being able

to get it out of the water.

However, the fish trap isn't producing.

Maybe today it's gonna be different.

What the hell?

My fish basket is on the beach.

What the *bleep*?

Holy cow.

The waves tore the wire off the anchor rock.

*bleep*.

And also smashed one of the hoops.

So, so, so annoying.

Let's take the fish trap home.

It's done.

I've expended all the energy

I'm going to on fishing this lake.

I know my time here is getting slim.

However,

$500,000 is actually a pretty big factor for me.

I have no plan whatsoever for that point in my life

where I can't work anymore.

Oh.

You haven't noticed here,

but I don't like being beaten by things.

So it's looking like I will last here on plant food

as long as I last.

All adventures have a beginning,

a middle, and an end, right?

Be nice if mine ended with $500,000.

- The loud winds woke me up...

about an hour--hour, hour and a half ago.

I haven't been able to go back to sleep.

Not making me happy.

Hope my gill net isn't being destroyed down there.

I'm praying for a fish to be in there.

So here we go.

I'm gonna check out the gill net, first things first.

Gotta get something to eat.

No fish.

Oh, man.

I was really hoping there was at least a small fish in there.

It's really disappointing, man,

and it just takes away a little bit more of my hope.

The lack of food, the failures after failures after failures

is starting to add up.

I can't take a whole lot more of this, mentally.

Wish I could have a pep talk from my dad.

But there's no one out here to pat you on the back,

say it'll be all right.

Had so many good times with him growing up.

Can't imagine I'd be the same person

if he wasn't there.

Appreciate everything.

Never told you, but I do.

And thanks for accepting...

The weird, metalhead,

heathen nerd that I turned out.

Always meant a lot.

And I hope to show you what a good father I can be.

I don't know why I'm so emotional right now.

But I'm ready for it to stop.

Love you, Dad.

Be safe. Be well. Stay warm.

See you when I'm out of here.

Goodnight.

- This is Clay Hayes,

reporting to you from Pine Grove.

There are very few beachgoers today,

and for good reason.

Hurricane Chilko is about to make landfall.

They eye of the storm is still a few miles off,

but as you can see, it is pushing massive surf,

and the winds are extremely strong.

We'll keep you posted as this storm progresses.

Back to you, Kai.

I need a kitesurfing kit.

My net's probably in Alaska somewhere.

This weather sucks.

Go down here and just look at the gill net.

If it's even still there.

It's really tough to survive out here.

But one of the reasons that I say is

I want to set a good example for both my sons,

but Koi in particular, the oldest one.

Oh, this thing is all kind of tangled up.

He gets discouraged easily.

When something doesn't come easy,

when he has a setback, you know,

he lets that stop him.

No fish. I didn't expect there to be,

especially with all this crappy weather.

I want to be able to show him that, you know,

if you just keeping chipping away,

little bit by little bit, those little bits add up.

But he gets overwhelmed, I think, by the big picture.

And you just gotta realize the big picture

is made of little bitty pixels.

You just gotta chip away at them.

This gill net is just-- I don't know about it.

I don't know.

Not a whole lot of faith there.

[ominous music]

- But I slept pretty dang good again.

I don't know what's changed.

I think my sleep's just--my exhaustion

just caught up with me, or...

I'm gonna get dressed and go lightning fast.

Go down and check the net.

I hope that gill net caught a fish.

I need it.

I'm gonna keep trying. Ain't gonna give up.

But man, I can't seem to connect.

This will just a huge event for them.

Huge event for me. Once in a lifetime.

I did not plan on visiting my family this holiday season.

I was just gonna go back to the hobbit hole

and living alone on the island for the winter.

But now no matter what,

I want to go see them, man.

I want to go, like, just be with them.

My mom and dad are probably more excited

about this opportunity than anyone on the planet,

like, literally.

They are so supportive of me,

and they think I'm gonna do incredible.

I wish one of you could come out

and see this place, man.

Check out my camp. Check out my boat.

I'd cook you a meal, but...

Holy *bleep*.

Oh, yes.

Oh, my God, yes.

Yes!

Yes! Yes!

Yes!

Yes!

Yes!

Oh, my God.

Looks so good.

Key word tonight: savor.

I invested in that boat. I invested in that gill net.

And today, it paid off.

Ah! Yes!

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.

Two.

Filled that pot with one.

My body needs those fish.

My soul needs those fish. My...morale.

My body's depleted.

Tired. Exhausted.

I've lost so much weight.

You know, I get dizzy spells.

So these fish aren't gonna get me--you know,

they're not gonna take me to the end,

but God, what a start.

I'm gonna get to cooking

and just getting warm,

and... [sighs]

Celebrate!

[tense music]

- [in British accent] On the hunt

for the illusive matsutake.

Must be ever-aware,

because they can spring from nowhere

and everywhere at the same time.

Oh, yes!

Nice.

Perfect.

I'll gather these up and head back towards the shack.

No worms.

There's quite a few of them on this ridge.

You can see them poking up every now and then,

underneath the pine.

See a little patch of white sticking out.

Shall henceforth be dubbed Matsutake Ridge.

That was a pretty good haul.

Now I guess I'll walk down and check the gill net.

Even though I know what's in there.

The waves here are just insane.

And I don't think it's gonna let up anytime soon.

But there's always a chance.

Oh, look. No fish.

I need a stick to hold this net up.

I don't know about this net.

Well, you son of a bitch. *bleep*.

Not what I wanted you to do.

Even if it caught a fish or two, still,

I don't even know if it'd be worth the hassle.

Just gonna redo this pulley system a little bit.

*bleep*.

Oh, *bleep*.

The gill net retrieval system

is a complete and total failure.

[ambient music]

*bleep*.

[tense music]

- Oh, God no. *bleep*.

So yeah. I...

I spilled the mushroom soup.

I had to pick every piece of mushroom

out of the sand and the ash in the fireplace,

rinse it all off, get new water,

start the boil again, get the mushrooms back in.

Ugh.

Can't believe that happened.

It's all right.

Some mushroom soup is better than no mushroom soup.

But, you know, that is what it is.

After this, it's just roots and Kinnikinnick.

So many highs and lows.

I have to be able to find little ways

to just keep my spirits up.

You know, at home, a lot of that kind of thing

is food-related.

Like, "Oh, gosh, I'm gonna go out

"and I'm gonna have, I don't know, Chinese,

as a treat for working really hard today."

Out here, you don't really have food,

so it's interesting to find ways to reward yourself

that don't revolve around food.

Well, in the UK, today is Guy Fawkes Day,

5th of November.

So what I think we should do now

is go celebrate Guy Fawkes Day.

In a world away, in a little place called Ottery St. Mary,

right now there are people running through the streets,

carrying barrels

that are coated on the inside in tar,

and they're running through the streets with them

in flames.

And normally, that is where I would be right now.

So this is my tar barrel.

It's actually a big old piece of fur

that's just got a whole bunch of pine pitch all over it.

All right, Ottery,

this is a shout out to you and your tar barrels.

[laughing]

[cheering]

So even though

I'm not at the running of the tar barrels,

even though I'm hungry all the time,

and I am weak as a kitten,

I still wouldn't trade this for anything.

It's a gorgeous, clear night here.

You can see the stars so, so brightly.

Where I am right now at this moment, is magic.

Makes me feel almost normal for a minute.

It's given me what I need

to make it all the way through.

This is amazing.

You could reach out and touch the stars.

[exhales]

My heart will hurt to leave this place.

[dramatic music]

- Wow.

That's definitely skinnier.

Much skinner.

Brutal.

Well, there you have it, folks.

I'm *bleep* losing weight.

Lots of it.

But I've got more.

As you can see, I can still grab some meat,

so got more to lose.

As long as I can grab some meat,

I got more to lose.

I don't want to give up.

This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.

Gonna get on that onion foraging mission.

I can't quit now.

It would feel like me giving up

on my family's future.

Here we are at last, in the onion patch.

The gill net is not working for me.

My only fallback is foraging.

I'm living off plants. I'm on the vegetarian diet.

Shall we get to digging or what?

I did not expect to be doing a vegetarian diet,

that is for sure.

I was raised vegan until six or seven years old, I think.

The fact that my dad was a vegan

that hunted blew people's minds, man.

All it takes for me to stay is all I've got.

So I'm gonna give it all I've got.

No part of this is easy.

It's really hard to choose to starve.

But I'm not gonna let my mind defeat me out here.

And I keep keeping on, as long as I can.

All right.

What do you say we go plant my garden now?

You are gonna witness the first ever "Alone" garden.

Plant my onions.

Hoping that this way, instead of them

drying out in my shelter,

like has been happening,

they'll stay nice and fresh

for when I'm ready for them, for the next meal.

My dad, he kept getting up every day, risking his life,

so that he could provide for his family.

And I hope that, like him,

I can keep putting one foot in front of the other

all the way to the end, for my family,

my growing family.

There you have it.

I know it doesn't look like much, but it is my garden.

Well, Dad, here I am.

Might be a little lighter than when you last saw me.

Haven't been eating a whole lot.

But I've been eating enough to get by.

I built my cabin.

I've eaten a lot of plants.

I've run into grizzly bears.

And I'm still here.

Love you, Pops.

Thanks for supporting me,

helping me get to this point.

When I get out of here, I hope we can meet up for a beer.

And I'll tell you all about it.

- What the hell? Boat sunk.

Oh, I gotta be careful. *bleep*.

- Gill net is frozen solid. *bleep* tired, man.

Tired of failing. Tired of being here.

- That right there is lion poop.

I'll bet that's that same cat

I saw when I first got here.

[call device makes kazoo-like sound]

That ought to call a cat.

- Then we saw this off. Ow.

Bloody *bleep*.