All language subtitles for Cobain Montage Of Heck sub Ingles + Musica [Nirvanaenvivo]

Man:
Whoa, testing, one, two...

Man #2:
Go-go juice, or motion potion.

Beaver. Female.

( distorted male voice )
Welcome to manned space exploration!

Man #3:
...Mercury spacecraft is six feet in diameter

and nine feet tall.

( voices overlapping,
distorting )

( whining )

Man #4:
’Cause I don’t like your face.

( laughing )

( man echoing )
Hey.

Hey, come here.

I want--

I want you
to see something.

( screeching )

Kim Cobain:
Kurt’s brain was just constantly going.

He was always thinking
about something.

I mean, there was always
something going on.

You could just see it.

Party on, Wayne!

It was awe-inspiring,
but it was like,

"Oh, well, I guess
I’m not-- you know, I guess I’m not all that special."

But, you know--
but then, as I grew up,

I’m like,
I’m so glad I don’t--

I never got
that genius brain.

( crowd chanting, clapping )

Maybe he just felt praise
was hard for him to take, maybe?

And he didn’t know
how to handle that.

So he would downplay it
all the time.

But that was his goal,
was to get to-- as perfect as he could,

as good as he could get.

Write as well as he could,
sing as well as he could,

play as well
as he could.

And then when it all
came together...

( cheering )

Krist Novoselic:
It’s so-- I can’t say-- it’s too painful.

This is too painful.

You’re gonna make it, man.

With the support
of his friends and family,

he’s gonna make it.

( sighs )

And you read--
see the art, I mean,

a lot of his messages
are as plain as day.

You just-- I’m not even going
to say what they are,

but you can see it.

And it’s all there, and--
20/20 hindsight,

you’re like, "Oh, my God,
why didn’t I see that?"

or "I should
have said something," but, you know, it’s like...

- ( crowd cheering )
- ( drum thuds )

♪ Some say love ♪

♪ It is a river... ♪

( audio feedback
screeching )

( feedback stops )

( music playing )

♪ When I was an alien ♪

♪ Cultures weren’t
opinions ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
to find a way ♪

♪ When I’m there ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ I had better wait ♪

♪ Never met a wise man ♪

♪ If so, it’s a woman ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
to find a way ♪

♪ When I’m there ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ I had better wait ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
to find a way ♪

♪ When I’m there ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ I had better wait ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
to find a way... ♪

- ( music fades )
- ♪ When I’m there ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a way, way! ♪

Yeah!

Wendy O’Connor:
Well, America was booming after the war,

and everybody
had everything.

Even if you didn’t
have much,

you still had enough.

Aberdeen was a logging town
and a mill town.

And it was booming.

♪ Wake up,
little Susie... ♪

O’Connor:
You saw everybody downtown

paying their bills
or shopping.

It was a lovely, awesome place
to raise children.

My kids loved that town.

♪ Wake up, little Susie,
and weep ♪

♪ The movie’s over,
it’s 4:00 ♪

♪ And we’re
in trouble deep ♪

♪ Wake up,
little Susie ♪

♪ Wake up, little Susie... ♪

O’Connor:
So Don was working at a gas station

over in Hoquiam.

You know, he had the black,
horn-rimmed glasses

and his ears
kind of stuck out a little,

and he had
the crew cut

and that’s not good
on anybody.

I kind of helped him
with everything.

He didn’t really know
what he was doing with style.

♪ Well, I told you,
Mama... ♪

O’Connor:
I guess, like, we were more friends.

I didn’t know
what falling in love was,

so I had never
experienced it.

So I just thought
because I liked him, I loved him.

And so he got me
an engagement ring, and we got engaged.

You know, it was fun.

I mean, it was like,
"Okay, all those problems are behind me now.

I’m going
to have babies."

And I just couldn’t wait
to get pregnant.

I mean,
that was the goal.

And so I went to Dr. Ehrhart.
He said, "You’re so young.

You just need
to get on your feet with being a housewife."

And, you know,

I just didn’t listen
to anybody.

I used to think,
"Why did I marry Don Cobain?"

And it’s like,
"No, everything really did happen for a reason."

Kurt had to be born.

It was-- it was a must.

O’Connor:
He was the first grandchild on both sides.

Everybody was coming over
constantly.

I can’t even describe
what a magnet he was.

People just came to him.

O’Connor:
I was head over heels in love with that child.

He was so kind
and so worried about people.

You know, if they were okay
or if somebody got hurt.

And then,
on top of that,

he started singing
and playing guitar.

And once he could draw,
he drew all the time.

Young Kurt:
Let’s sing now, Mom!

O’Connor:
Okay, say who you are.

Kurt:
Who are you?

( O’Connor laughs )
Who are you, Kurt?

Kurt:
Who are you?

Who are you?
Good-bye!

I’m Kurt Cobain!

- O’Connor: Yay!
- Kurt: Yay!

- Go! Go!
- ( music playing )

O’Connor:
Kurt, he was full of energy, always busy.

I had this
old rocking chair

in the corner
of the front room.

He’d be upside down
with his head hanging off

where your legs would be

and his feet up on the back
of the rocking chair,

going 90 miles an hour
in it, going so fast,

and it would be hitting
the back of the wall.

And he’d be repeating
everything verbatim

off "Sesame Street."

♪ Would you like to hear
my voice ♪

♪ Sprinkled
with emotion? ♪

O’Connor:
And I thought, before I have this next baby,

we’ve gotta try to get this
calmed down.

So I take him
to the pediatrician, Dr. Fulton.

He did a rapid eye
movement test

with a flashlight
in his eyes, and he went,

"Okay, we’ve got
trouble here."

♪ I cannot see... ♪

O’Connor: And he said,
"Okay, I’m gonna give you this tablet."

And I believe it was
something like Ritalin.

So I gave it to him
that night and-- oh, my God.

He just went
off the rails.

♪ If I had
to lose a mile ♪

♪ If I had to touch
feelings ♪

♪ I would lose my soul ♪

♪ The way I do ♪

♪ I don’t have to think ♪

♪ I only have to do it ♪

♪ The results
are always perfect ♪

♪ But that’s old news ♪

♪ Would you like
to hear my voice ♪

♪ Sprinkled
with emotion? ♪

O’Connor:
Kurt, he was hyper,

full of energy,
always busy.

You know,
jumping off of things, knocking things over--

anything that had to do
with being a normal child.

And Don, he didn’t know
how to handle that.

He was one of those
kind of people

that just thought
that children should be seen and not heard

and shouldn’t cause
any trouble.

I mean, he belittled
and ridiculed Kurt

and Kurt would be shamed.

♪ Inside me... ♪

O’Connor:
I mean, it really hurt him to be embarrassed.

- ( song ends )
- ( applause, cheering )

O’Connor:
Then, I don’t know.

I just--
I started to mature.

You know, I started
getting older

and kind of
looking back at-- kind of the song--

it may have even
stirred this in me, "Is this all there is?"

You know,
is this my life?

I haven’t done anything
with my life.

In those days,
people didn’t get divorced.

I mean, I didn’t know
anybody that was divorced.

You just--
you were in the soup.

You didn’t think
about divorce.

Kurt was nine
at the time,

and everybody
was talking about it.

It just embarrassed
him to death

that we had
gotten divorced.

He took light bulbs
out of all the lights

and would lock
the babysitter in, came outside

and just became
really unruly.

And I said,
"This is not going to happen anymore."

And so I took him over
to his dad’s house.

She couldn’t handle him...

so I took him.

I liked it, really,
you know, having him,

him and I together
like that.

And I think there’s one thing
that I said at one time,

that I was never gonna
get married again.

And I think he took that
for a word.

Then I met Jennifer
and we got married,

and, you know, he had
a stepbrother and sister

and then our son Chad.

He wanted to be
in a family, period.

And I felt that
just from the beginning.

The game nights
that we had,

that was really
important to him.

You know,
we didn’t want to do it on a Wednesday night.

You know, he’d say,
"Nope, we have to. That’s what we--"

Just I could feel
that he really liked that time,

but he always
wanted to win.

And if he didn’t win,
he was mad.

He wanted to be
the most loved,

and it just wasn’t
the ideal world

that he thought
a family should be.

So he just decided

he wasn’t going to do
anything anybody said.

He’d just lay on the couch
and watch TV,

go down in his room
and play the guitar.

And then he started
just doing really mean things to the kids,

and then it just got so--

I think it was kind of
my fault in a way,

because I couldn’t
deal with it anymore.

And I told Don

he’s going to have
to get out of the house.

Don:
He went to Wendy’s brother’s for a while,

then with
my mom and dad.

He lived with them
for a while.

You know,
then come back to us

and still have problems.

It was like nobody--
after a couple weeks,

they wanted him out.

I think the sad part
of the whole thing

is that Kurt just really
wanted to be with his mom.

- ( music playing )
- ( seagulls screeching )

♪ Underneath the bridge ♪

♪ Tarp has sprung a leak ♪

♪ And the animals
are trapped ♪

♪ They’ve all become
my pets ♪

♪ And I’m living
off of grass ♪

♪ And the drippings
from my ceiling ♪

♪ It’s okay to eat fish ♪

♪ ’Cause they don’t have
any feelings ♪

♪ Something in the way ♪

♪ Mmm-mmm ♪

♪ Something
in the way, yeah ♪

♪ Mmm-mmm ♪

♪ Something in the way ♪

♪ Mmm-mmm ♪

♪ Something
in the way, yeah ♪

♪ Mmm-mmm. ♪

Jenny:
He just was in so much pain

that he, you know,
took it out on his mom

and took it out
on his dad

and took it out
on his siblings.

But it’s almost like
he didn’t--

he didn’t feel
worthy because

he was rejected, basically.

And I don’t know how anybody
deals with having

your whole family
reject you.

( music playing )

( bats screeching )

( screeching )

( laughs )

- ( distorted laughter )
- ♪ Like most babies smell like butter ♪

♪ His smell smelled
like no other... ♪

( barking )

♪ He was born
scentless and senseless ♪

♪ He was born
a scentless apprentice... ♪

- ( blows landing )
- ( whirring )

( cow moos )

Ah!

( Kurt screaming )

( grunting )

( distorted laughter )

( distorted voice murmurs )

Kurt:
In a community that stresses macho male sexual stories

as a highlight
of all conversation,

I was an underdeveloped,
immature little dude

that never got laid
and was constantly razzed.

Oh, poor little kid.

It bothered me,
probably more so because I was horny,

and frequently had
to make up stories like,

"When I went on vacation,
I met this chick

and we fucked
and she loved it."

Et cetera, et cetera.

( rain pattering )

Kurt:
This typical pubescent problem

was in effect
during the height of my problems

with my father
and stepmom,

you know, the typical
wicked stepmom story.

And so I moved
to both grandparents’

and four sets
of aunts and uncles

and so forth and so on
within the year.

And in eighth grade,
my mom had no choice to take me in

because my dad packed my stuff
and drove me to her house

in the morning
and left me there.

She was pissed.

I accumulated
quite a healthy complex,

not to mention
a complexion.

Then one day I discovered
the most ultimate form of expression ever--

marijuana.

Oh, boy, pot.

I could escape
all day long

and not have routine
nervous breakdowns.

( man grunting )

( vocalizing )

Kurt: Trevor was a guy I hated,
but resorted to becoming friends with

because he was the only person
I could get pot from.

He was the kingpin.

Trevor, "Ace,"
John, Dernan--

all white trash,
lowlife scum of the Earth according to the jocks--

had been going
to this girl’s house after school

and they invited me.

We got to the door
and a very fat girl let us in.

It wasn’t obvious to me
for over an hour

that this girl
seemed kind of quiet

until one of the guys
pointed out

that she was in
a special ed class.

I’m sure a lot of kids
would call her a "retard" and some just "slow."

- ( boys laughing )
- And at the time and still to this day,

I would call her
"quiet and illiterate," but not retarded.

( laughing continues )

Kurt:
The object of the guys who’d been going there

for the past month
was to steal booze

from the downstairs
basement den of her house.

While others
distracted her,

one would go down
and take a fifth

and then exit out
the downstairs.

( chatter )

Kurt:
So we did this routine every other day

and got away with it
for, oh, about a month.

- ( O’Connor yelling )
- Kurt: And during that month

happened to be the epitome
of my mental abuse from my mother.

It turned out that pot
didn’t help me

escape my troubles
too well anymore

and I was actually enjoying
doing rebellious things

like stealing booze
and busting store windows.

And nothing
ever mattered.

I decided within
the next month,

I’ll not sit on my roof
and think about jumping,

but I’ll actually
kill myself.

And I wasn’t going
out of this world

without actually knowing
what it was like to get laid.

So one day after school,
I went to the girl’s house alone

and invited myself in.

And she offered me
some Twinkies,

and I sat on her lap
and I said, "Let’s fuck."

And I touched her tits
and she went into her bedroom

and got undressed
in front of me.

And I watched and realized
that it was actually happening.

So I tried to fuck her,
but didn’t know how,

and asked her if she had
ever done this before.

And she said a lot of times,
mainly with her cousin.

I got grossed out very heavily
with how her vagina smelled when her sweat reeked,

so I left.

My conscience grew
to where I couldn’t go to school for a week.

And when I went back,
I got in-house suspension for skipping.

And that day,
the girl’s father came in,

screaming and accusing
someone of taking advantage of his daughter.

And so during lunch,
a rumor started,

and by the next day,
everyone was waiting for me,

to yell and cuss
and spit at me,

calling me
"the retard fucker."

( students laughing )

I couldn’t handle
the ridicule,

so I got high and drunk
and walked down

to the train tracks
and laid down

and put two big pieces
of cement on my chest and legs,

and I waited
for the 11:00 train.

The train came closer
and closer and closer,

and it went
on the next track besides me

instead of over me.

The tension from school
had an effect on me.

And the train scared me enough
to try to rehabilitate myself,

and my--
my lifting weights

and mathematics
seemed to be improving,

so I became
less manically depressed

but still never had
any friends because I--

I hated everyone,
for they were so phony.

( rain pattering )

( distant dog barking )

Kim:
When Kurt was about 15,

he moved back in
with Mom and I,

and it was a struggle.

You know, it was still
him wanting to rebel

and getting stoned
and going out with his friends,

and not wanting
to, you know, do chores,

and, you know,
he was always wanting

to, like, just do
his own thing.

He wanted normalcy--
he wanted the mom, the dad,

and the kids
and everything happy.

But then he didn’t,

’cause he kind of fought
against it.

So he fought against
what he really wanted.

- ( recorder whirring )
- Kurt: Hello?

- Hello?
- Buzz Osborne: You still there?

Kurt:
Yeah. I put you on speakerphone now.

Osborne:
Okay.

Are you recording this
or writing it down?

Kurt:
Yeah, I’m recording and writing.

( both chuckle )

Osborne:
People don’t realize

where we really came from,
you know?

What an isolated hellhole
it really is.

You know, man,
if the witch burnings

would’ve been, like, legal,
we’d all be dead now, you know?

Kurt:
Fuck, yeah.

Did you ever see that movie
"Over the Edge"?

- Osborne: Yeah!
- Kurt: I mean, God.

That movie had
such an effect on me.

Teacher: Okay, you guys,
you’re to take these home to your parents.

It’s to let them know about
a special emergency meeting

- to discuss the
problems about you people. - Kurt: I love that movie.

- Osborne: I always wanted
to do that at Monte. - Kurt: Me, too.

I tried, you know.

I wanted to be a vandal

and I wanted to hold everyone
captive in the school.

- ( kids cheering )
- Everybody that’s ever messed with me in one room.

That’d be just about
everybody in town.

- ( laughs )
- We should go down there and tell them all to go to hell.

- ( all agreeing )
- Girl: Come on!

( music playing )

Man:
I don’t know how many of us are willing to admit

just how deep in trouble

some of the kids
in this city are.

Man #2:
Has anyone ever sat down and talked to these kids?

I talk to them
six hours a day until I’m blue in the face.

I spend more time
with your kids than you people do.

You think those kids
are interested in learning?

You ought to come in
and see what goes on in the classroom!

♪ Won’t you believe it?
Just my luck ♪

♪ Won’t you believe it?
Just my luck ♪

♪ Won’t you believe it?
Just my luck ♪

- ♪ Won’t you believe it?
Just my luck... ♪ - ( screaming )

( all shouting )

♪ No recess... ♪

( gun fires )

♪ No recess... ♪

- ( shouting )
- ♪ No recess... ♪

Kurt:
Most of the teachers, God--

the last couple
of years of school in the mid-eighties,

there was so much
Reagan propaganda going on.

This teacher would
just go off on it.

- Everything--
- Osborne: It ruined-- oh!

( girl, mocking voice )
Practice your piano!

You need practice on it!

Go to hell!

- Osborne: Burn the place
to the fucking ground. - Kurt: Yeah.

- ♪ No recess... ♪
- ( screaming )

♪ No recess... ♪

- ( sirens wailing )
- ♪ No recess... ♪

Osborne:
High school’s such a worthless fucking nothing.

God, what torture,
you know?

Kurt:
No, I quit the last two months of school.

I was so withdrawn
by that time

and I was so antisocial
that I was almost insane.

You know, I felt
so different and so crazy

that people
just left me alone.

- ♪ No recess! ♪
- ( feedback squeals )

Brett Morgen:
Did Kurt find the underground

or did the underground
find him?

Kim:
I think he went in search of it,

and I think
they found each other.

He was searching
for whatever made him feel

like he wasn’t alone

and that he wasn’t
so different.

Interviewer:
When did you first hear punk rock?

Kurt:
You know, I wanted to hear punk rock forever.

Of course, they didn’t
have it in our record shop in Aberdeen.

Then, finally,
Buzz Osborne,

who had been a friend
of mine off and on,

made me a couple
compilation tapes.

And I was completely
blown away.

I would lip-sync
to those tapes and I wore them out,

and I’d play them
every day, you know?

It’s the greatest thing.

It expressed the way I felt
socially and politically,

and it was the anger
that I felt,

the alienation.

And I realized that
this is what

I’ve always wanted to do.

( music playing )

♪ Fill me in
on your new vision ♪

♪ Wake me up
with indecision ♪

♪ Help me trust
your mighty wisdom... ♪

♪ I’m new, I’m new,
I’m who, I’m you ♪

Kurt:
Just the fact that we were

actually playing
music live in a room, it was amazing.

It was, like, the most
incredible thing I’ve ever done.

♪ Easy in an easy chair ♪

♪ Poop as hard as rock ♪

♪ I don’t like you
anyway ♪

♪ Seal it in a box... ♪

Kurt:
If we played together in the house

for a couple of hours
and if two people stopped by,

we considered that a gig,
you know, a show.

That was good enough.

We had an audience
of two people, you know?

Locals who hated our guts
and thought it was terrible music.

( song ends )

I think I was
18 or 19 years old, and Kurt was like 17.

But he liked
punk rock music,

and so that piqued
my interest.

And then I noticed
what a good artist he was.

And so he was working
at the time as a janitor,

but he’d always have to,
like, do some kind of art,

you know, usually
defacing something.

He never had,
like, idle hands.

It just came out of him.
He had to express himself.

- ( bass playing )
- Kurt: "Heavy Metal," take three.

Novoselic:
Well, who taught you how to play guitar anyway?

( bass playing )

( chatter )

- ( guitar playing )
- Kurt: All right.

( chatter )

( guitar playing )

Novoselic:
Brilliant.

Brilliant
improvisational.

Kurt:
Wow, Jerry Garcia would really like this.

- I’m gonna send him a tape.
- Novoselic: Send it to Jerry.

Kurt: I’ll just have
to sprinkle it with patchouli or something.

Dig right into it.

( guitar continues )

- ( bass playing )
- Man: Whoa!

- ( feedback squeals )
- ( drumsticks tap )

Man:
Wait, wait, wait. Ready?

( music playing )

- Cameraman: You alcoholics!
- Novoselic: Film in the dark, dick!

- ( bottles clinking )
- ( chatter )

( music playing )

♪ Hey ♪

♪ Pick me,
pick me, yeah ♪

♪ Let alone your signal ♪

♪ At least,
at least, yeah ♪

♪ Everyone is hollow ♪

♪ You’re last
on last, yeah ♪

♪ Everyone is playing ♪

♪ Pick me,
pick me, yeah ♪

♪ You can eat my marrow ♪

♪ Hey ♪

♪ Dive, dive, dive ♪

♪ Dive in me ♪

♪ Dive, dive, dive ♪

♪ Dive in me ♪

♪ On me ♪

♪ Nothing else ♪

♪ Nothing else. ♪

( song ends )

Jenny:
He really didn’t want to live with his mom or his dad.

He wanted to be on his own.
And at that time...

O’Connor:
So he moves into this dump.

He wasn’t making
a lot of money,

and I think
he was scared,

not being able
to pay his own way.

He didn’t know
what he was going to do.

Novoselic:
And in the hallway outside the apartment,

it was completely
graffitied

with Scooby-Doo,
Rocky and Bullwinkle.

When it was part
of the bathroom...

Kim:
There was just no way he was going to be

the 9:00-to-5:00 work guy
that comes home

with a briefcase
and wife cooks him dinner.

I mean, this just wasn’t
ever going to happen.

But he wanted some type
of connection.

Kurt:
This is love. This is love.

This is shitting, pissing,
fucking all over each other,

licking and spitting up
Gerber baby food,

not worrying
if the plastic tarp is on the floor,

’cause, baby,
this is love.

( guitar plays )

Well, I know some people
will say that--

that I treated
Kurt maternally, took care of him,

but I’d like to think
it was more I was trying to nurture him

rather than
take care of him.

Tried to nurture who he was
and get him to--

let him do his art,
let him do his music

and encourage him
to get better at it

as opposed to trying
to stifle it.

But also not try to be
the mom,

but trying to be
a nurturing girlfriend...

or friend.

We met at a party,
and, you know, I liked him.

I had a crush on him.

And then finally
somebody told him,

"Don’t you get that she
likes you or something?"

’Cause he was just kind of
clueless about it, you know?

( chatter )

- ( thuds, jingles )
- Men: Hey!

Marander:
I liked that he was funny. He made me laugh.

He wasn’t afraid to be,
you know, goofy or silly.

But mostly we just had
a good time hanging out.

I think he might
have been a bit angry

at the way he was
treated at school

and angry with his mom
and with his dad.

I think it was not so much
it was hard for him to accept love,

but the fact that
maybe he was afraid of getting hurt.

He was living
at this tiny little house in Aberdeen.

I just said,
"Why don’t you just move in with me

and be in Olympia?"

So we moved in together.

It was nice to have
someone to share

the evening with
as well as the daytime.

Sitting on
the couch at the same time, each reading a book.

It was just--
you kind of felt grown-up

as opposed
to just being still, you know, a teenager.

I’d like to think
he was happy.

We were very much in love
with each other.

And I decided I’d just try
to support him

because he wanted
to be a musician,

he wanted to, you know,
get his band going.

He was ambitious.

He didn’t want
to just be--

play in a bar band, you know,
and play music that way.

He wanted to be
a success.

- Good luck, good luck.
Good luck. - Shh!

- Woman: Part the Red Seas!
- ( guitar playing )

( band playing )

Man:
What the fuck? Go on, boy!

( music playing )

♪ Bell on door clanks,
come on in ♪

♪ Floyd observes
my hairy chin ♪

♪ Sit down chair,
don’t be afraid ♪

♪ Steamed hot towel
on my face ♪

♪ I’m ashamed ♪

♪ I’m ashamed ♪

♪ I’m ashamed ♪

♪ Barney ties me
to a chair ♪

♪ I can’t see,
I’m really scared ♪

♪ Floyd breathes hard,
I hear a zip ♪

♪ Pee-pee pressed
against my lips ♪

♪ I was shamed ♪

♪ Oh, I was shamed ♪

♪ I was shamed. ♪

( car tires screeching )

( car tires screech )

- ( song ends )
- ( crowd cheering )

Kurt:
Hey, thanks, everybody, for coming.

Man:
Yeah!

( guitar playing )

Marander:
When I met him, he was a handyman

and then, he got a job
as a janitor

cleaning, like, you know,
doctors’ offices

and dentists’ offices
and things like that.

But, yeah, he just ended up
not having another job

after that, so...

Morgen:
So, who would support him?

Me.

Morgen:
And what would he do all day while you were at work?

It was kinda funny,
’cause sometimes

he’d just sit there
and watch TV for four hours.

And you’d think
he wasn’t creating,

but he’d be playing guitar
while he was doing that or think up stuff later,

and then you’d go out for a
few hours, and you’d come back,

and there was
a painting on the wall,

or there was a big
comic strip or whatever.

He wrote a song.
You know, recorded it.

( bong water bubbling )

Man on TV:
...finds them arriving at this scene...

Kurt with British accent:
This is like fucking rad, you know?

Cool.

Where’s the...
( humming )

( yodeling )

♪ Hey, a girl,
she could bring me ♪

♪ I can be more,
she could be free ♪

♪ I don’t even care,
we could be on free ♪

♪ She said,
she said... ♪

( shouts )

( distorted, echoing )
Babies on my cold feet,

at the end of my bed.

- ( tape machine yowling )
- It is easy.

Shh, they’re in the house.

They’re in the house.

- ( snoring over headphones )
- Some highlights follow,

but we warn that viewers
may find parts of the footage disturbing.

Man:
The object of the exercise

is to observe the monster
for as long as possible.

♪ Think I’ll go
for a walk outside now ♪

♪ The summer sun’s
calling my name-- ♪

- ( tape recorder clicks )
- ( distorted voice ) It is sucking dry

all the resin
from the bong water--

- ( audio oscillates )
- ♪ I hear you now ♪

♪ I just can’t stay
inside all day-- ♪ ( audio skipping )

Man on recording:
A person who is success-minded

- has a success
consciousness... - ( bong water bubbling )

- ( audio skipping )
...and success awareness... - ♪ Everybody’s smiling ♪

♪ Into the sunshine... ♪

( deep voice )
Why is that so groovy?

♪ She could have soared
with pleasant dreams ♪

♪ She could evolve
with what I’ve seen ♪

♪ She could have
been a son ♪

♪ She could have
sung a song ♪

♪ She could have ♪

- ♪ Sung a song... ♪
- ( phone rings )

( vocalizing )

( ringing continues )

Hello?

No, she’s not.

She went to work.

All right.

♪ She could have ♪

♪ Sung a song... ♪

Bass part.

( vocalizing )

♪ You can’t change me ♪

♪ Change me ♪

♪ Change me ♪

- ( rain pattering )
- ( bird calling )

( music playing )

( thunder rumbling )

♪ Burn a note in ♪

♪ Under nighted valley ♪

♪ Then imagine ♪

♪ Under dark
of the trees... ♪

( continues indistinctly )

- ( tape recorder clicks )
- ( Brahms’ "Lullaby" playing )

( guitar playing )

♪ She said ♪

♪ Sorry, man ♪

♪ Silence ♪

♪ Trippin’ ♪

♪ Sorry, man ♪

♪ Sorry, man ♪

♪ Sorry, man ♪

♪ Sorry, man ♪

♪ Sigh ♪

♪ Die ♪

♪ Die, man ♪

♪ Silent ♪

♪ Mama ♪

♪ Mama ♪

♪ Mama ♪

♪ Mama ♪

♪ Hey, man ♪

♪ Sorry, man ♪

♪ Sigh ♪

♪ Die ♪

♪ Die, man ♪

♪ Sorry, man. ♪

( distorted male voice )
That’s why there’s no other...

Man on recording:
A person who is success-minded has a success consciousness

and suc...
( audio skipping )

Richard Simmons:
Boy, am I gonna wake you up!

- Man:
...success awareness. - Simmons: Now come on!

You know this is
really the best way to start your day.

Now don’t think about
anything else

but getting
that body in shape, because you deserve it.

Now hold the stomach in.
Come on.

Give me
some good posture.

Hold your head
up high.

Tighten those butts!

Get ready,
because this is for...

( music playing )

♪ She said
she’d take me anywhere ♪

♪ She’d take me anywhere
as long as she stays with me ♪

♪ She said
she’d take me anywhere ♪

♪ She’d take me anywhere
as long as I stay clean ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss
Molly’s lips ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss Molly’s lips ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss
Molly’s lips ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss
Molly’s lips... ♪

- ( audio feedback squeals )
- This song has two notes.

( plays guitar )

That’s it.

- This note... and this note.
- ( guitar twangs )

- ( music continues )
- ( dog barking )

♪ She said
she’d take me anywhere ♪

♪ She’d take me anywhere
as long as she stays with me ♪

♪ She said
she’d take me anywhere ♪

- ( chain saw buzzing )
- ♪ She’d take me anywhere as long as I stay clean ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss
Molly’s lips ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss Molly’s lips ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss
Molly’s lips ♪

- ♪ Kiss, kiss
Molly’s lips... ♪ - ( feedback whines )

♪ Kiss, kiss
Molly’s lips ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss Molly’s lips ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss
Molly’s lips ♪

♪ Kiss, kiss Molly’s lips. ♪

Man:
Look at these losers. Ha ha ha.

Man #2:
A bunch of long-haired fucking sissies, man.

( music playing )

Interviewer:
Hi, my name’s Dana.

I caught Nirvana
in their dressing room

on their recent tour.

At what point are you
on this tour right now?

Novoselic:
We’re at the point of kicking each other’s ass.

Dana: I would imagine
that the constant party atmosphere on the road

would create a great deal
of physical and mental stress.

How do you deal with it?

Kurt: We’ve prepared
for the rock ’n’ roll lifestyle.

We can kick it, man.

Novoselic:
You know what?

We should move in our stuff
before it starts raining.

Yeah.

( thunder crashing )

Kurt:
100% humidity here in Fort Worth, Texas.

Dana:
...um, just excessive or frightening?

- Kurt: Go in the van.
- Novoselic: Hey, whoo!

Kurt:
No, because we actually want to become more successful

so we can have
a comfortable life.

- ( thunder rumbling )
- Man: Neato.

Man:
Okay, man, take it away, buddy. Don’t worry about me.

I know this is
kind of a strange angle, but it’ll work.

Yes.

That’s a big camera, man.
That’s not your--

Interviewer: How would you
describe the music you play and the things you do?

Well, the things we do
is just we play

a very powerful,
high-energy type of rock ’n’ roll.

We move around
onstage a lot

and just scream
with an abandon, I guess.

Interviewer:
What makes you want to be Nirvana?

What makes us
want to be Nirvana?

We’re Nirvana because we’re not
Aerosmith or something

or "The Vegetables" or--

( woman laughs )

Interviewer:
What’s the future of Nirvana?

The future of Nirvana?
I don’t know.

Hopefully try to write
some more good songs.

That’s all we care about
is writing good music.

If we get popular or not,
it doesn’t matter.

The music’s more important.

- ( crowd chatter )
- Kurt: ...one song, and it’s the last one.

( drums play )

( band playing )

♪ Would you believe me
if I told you ♪

♪ You’re the queen
of my heart? ♪

♪ Please don’t deceive me
when I hurt you ♪

♪ Just ain’t the way
you seem ♪

♪ Can you feel
my love buzz? ♪

♪ Can you feel
my love buzz? ♪

♪ Can you feel
my love buzz? ♪

♪ Can you feel
my love buzz? ♪

( screaming )

( crowd cheering )

Man:
Whoo!

( crowd cheering )

Novoselic:
I remember the first review Nirvana ever got

was for
"The Love Buzz/Big Cheese" single we did.

And it was in
this hip magazine out of Michigan

these scenesters were doing,
and they gave us a bad review,

and they said
it was like Lynyrd Skynyrd, but without the flares.

Kurt was really hurt
with that, and he was telling me that.

He goes-- and I’d said,
"Don’t worry about it.

They’re just scenesters.
They’re hipsters."

Or, you know,
"Screw them" or whatever.

But, you know,

Kurt hated
being humiliated.

He hated it.

He hated it.

If he ever thought
he was humiliated,

then you’d see
the rage come out.

And so he was also
very careful and stubborn

about how the way the art
and the work was presented,

because he didn’t want
to be humiliated.

I can be humiliated
or, like, humiliate myself or whatever,

but not Kurt, no.

Marander:
He had really violent dreams a lot.

People would be breaking
into his house,

trying to kill him,
and he’d have to stab them.

I mean once in a while,
it might be his family who was trying to kill him,

but that was
just really rare.

Usually it was someone else
coming after him that he didn’t know.

I asked--
I thought he should try to talk to someone,

but without much money,
that really wasn’t going to happen.

Kurt would get
stomachaches a lot

and say his stomach hurt.

You know, he’d be
feeling fine, and then he’d get out of the car

and just be like,
"I gotta throw up."

I know he went
to the doctor

once or twice,
but it didn’t really work.

Kurt:
Most of the time, it’s sitting right in my stomach.

Like where
my stomach pain is.

Every time I’ve had
an endoscope,

they’d find
a red irritation.

I would sing
and cough up blood.

It’s like this is no way
to live a life.

I love to play music,
but something’s not right.

So I decided
to medicate myself.

( moaning )

Interviewer:
How much of that pain would you say

actually fuels what you’re
writing and playing?

Kurt:
See, that’s a scary question,

because I think
it probably helps, you know?

But I would give up everything
to have good health.

But then again,
I’m always afraid

that if I lost
the stomach problem,

I might not be
as creative.

Morgen:
There’s a journal entry where Kurt mentions

doing heroin
for the first time in 1987 when he was living with you.

See, he never
told me that.

He totally
had kept that from me,

because I totally would have
talked him out of it.

In fact, he used to make fun
of some of the people

in Seattle
that were using that

and say it was
really stupid.

Because I’ve been told before
that he was doing it when we were dating,

but I’m like,
"He didn’t do it around me, ever."

I never found
anything, so...

I can’t really say
exactly why we broke up.

I just know
that we were fighting more

and he was staying away
from the house more.

I think he just
pretty much

didn’t love me
as much as he used to

or felt--
he just felt like maybe

he was moving ahead
and I wasn’t.

( playing guitar )

Kurt Cobain’s here.

You know, Kurt Cobain
from Aberdeen?

- What’s going on, baby?
- Not a damn thing.

You called up and said,
"I want to play some songs."

- So I said, "Rockin’
good news." - This is the truth.

"Bloody brilliant."
( chuckles )

Um, I just wrote
most of the lyrics this evening.

In the car
on the way up here?

While I was driving
with one foot.

Uh-huh.

Um, yeah,
that’s what I did,

and I just thought I would
just come here, say hi.

Well, let her rip.

( music playing )

Interviewer:
Okay, is there any major label interest

in you at the present?

- Can you say?
- ( man laughs )

Kurt:
Anybody not affiliated with CBS.

- ( phone ringing )
- Interviewer: Would you consider changing?

Kurt:
We’re considering AMA

because we want to get
as much as we can.

( muttering )

Interviewer: But you’re sort
of this interesting mix of--

as you say, you’re one of
the laziest people you know,

but you’re also ambitious
for a lazy person.

Kurt:
You think so?

( audio squealing )

Interviewer #2:
How does it feel to be surrounded by so many people

that are telling you
that you’ll soon be doing very well?

Kurt:
I think it’s embarrassing to have so many expectations

and a totally superficial label
to put on a band

to state that
they’re the next big thing,

because, you know,
that’s not our goal in the first place.

People are putting
that tag on us

without us
really wanting to do that, you know?

Interviewer #2:
You’re not prepared for that?

Kurt:
Not prepared? Nope.

Because we’re not
going to be.

We’re prepared to destroy
our careers if it happens.

( music playing )

♪ I’m so happy ♪

♪ ’Cause today
I found my friends ♪

♪ They’re in my head ♪

♪ I’m so ugly ♪

♪ That’s okay,
’cause so are you ♪

♪ We broke our mirrors ♪

♪ Sunday morning
is every day ♪

♪ For all I care
and I’m not scared ♪

♪ Light my candles
in a daze ♪

♪ ’Cause I found God ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ I’m so lonely ♪

♪ That’s okay,
I shaved my head ♪

♪ And I’m not sad ♪

♪ And just maybe
I’m to blame ♪

♪ For all I’ve heard,
but I’m not sure ♪

♪ I’m so excited... ♪

I am Kurt.
I play guitar and I sing.

And I am Dave,
and I play drums,

and I sing sometimes,
but not that often.

I’m Krist, and I play bass
and I don’t sing, thank God.

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Yeah... ♪

Interviewer:
All right, Nirvana’s joined us in the studio tonight.

A new music hour.

We got Krist Novoselic,
got Kurt Cobain and Dave Grohl.

Their upcoming release
"Nevermind"

comes out the 24th
of this month.

And you guys will be doing
a an in-store

by the Beehive Music & Video
on University District.

So go out and meet the band.
That’s at 7:00 to 9:00.

♪ I like it,
I’m not gonna crack ♪

♪ I miss you, I’m not
gonna crack ♪

♪ I love you,
I’m not gonna crack ♪

♪ I killed you, I’m not
gonna crack ♪

♪ I like it,
I’m not gonna crack ♪

♪ I’ll miss you, I’m not
gonna crack ♪

♪ I love you,
I’m not gonna crack ♪

♪ I killed you, I’m not
gonna crack. ♪

( crowd cheering )

O’Connor:
End of July or August,

he’s home.

And he comes downstairs
and he’s in his little whitey-tighties,

no shirt, barefoot,

no pants
other than his undies,

and, uh--
very Don Cobain.

That’s another thing
I got sick of looking at.

And he’s standing there
with this tape in his hand.

I go, "What’s that?"

And he goes,
"It’s the master cut to my new album.

Can I put it
on the stereo?"

And I go, "Yeah.
And turn it up! Up, up, up!"

’Cause I listen
to music really loud.

And I look at him
and I go, "Oh, my God."

"Oh, my God."
And I almost started crying.

I mean,
not from happiness, from fear.

It was fear.

And I just went,

"This is going
to change everything."

And I said,
"You better buckle up,

’cause you are
not ready for this."

Interviewer:
For someone like yourself, when you’re sort of--

say your dreams come true,

all the worst aspects of them
come true as well.

It’s like, be careful
what you wish for.

You’re gonna get it.

Kurt: Yeah.

Interviewer:
How are you sort of dealing with the pull-apart?

You know, being pulled apart
by stuff like that?

I don’t know
if I expressed that the right way.

Kurt:
Well, um...

( music playing )

♪ Load up on guns ♪

♪ Bring your friends ♪

♪ It’s fun to lose
into pretend ♪

♪ She’s overboard ♪

♪ And self-assured ♪

♪ Oh, no, I know ♪

♪ A dirty word ♪

♪ Hello, hello ♪

♪ Hello, hello ♪

♪ Hello,
hello ♪

♪ Hello, hello ♪

♪ With the lights out ♪

♪ It’s less dangerous ♪

♪ Here we are now ♪

♪ Entertain us ♪

♪ I feel stupid ♪

♪ And contagious ♪

♪ Here we are now ♪

♪ Entertain us ♪

♪ A mulatto ♪

♪ An albino ♪

♪ A mosquito ♪

♪ My libido ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial. ♪

- Director: Cool, and cut!
- ( scattered applause )

- Man: Cut.
- Director: Let’s wrap!

Hey, man!

If this bird goes down,
this is the safest place to be--

right in the tail
where the bathroom is.

Dave Grohl:
As soon you walked on this plane,

I took one gander at you
and I saw nothing but trouble.

- Hah. Bah!
- Peh!

See if you can
try and do it.

Me and my sidekick,
"Treefrog Johnson" here,

is gonna rip you
a new butthole.

Grohl:
And is this time our time?

Kurt:
What a sensitive man.

Grohl:
’Cause it says it’s almost like 3:00 in the morning.

Kurt: Time flies
when you’re having fun.

( Grohl chuckles )

( music playing )

( car horn honks )

♪ I don’t care, I don’t care,
I don’t care, I don’t care ♪

♪ Care, care
if it’s old ♪

♪ I don’t mind, I don’t mind,
I don’t mind, I don’t mind ♪

♪ Mind,
don’t have a mind ♪

♪ Get away, get away,
get away, get away ♪

♪ Way, way from your home ♪

♪ I’m afraid, I’m afraid,
I’m afraid ♪

♪ I’m afraid, ’fraid ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Even if you have,
even if you need ♪

♪ I don’t mean to stare,
we don’t have to breed ♪

♪ We could plant a house,
we could plant a tree ♪

♪ I don’t mean to stare,
we don’t have to breed... ♪

- ( phone rings )
- Radio D.J.: 99 X...

( overlapping callers )
That Nirvana stuff that y’all played us last night,

if I wanted to request
one of those songs right now, could you play it?

- Do y’all have any
bootleg CDs of Nirvana? - Can you play Nirvana?

- Can you play
that song by Nirvana? - Can you play some Nirvana?

Right here,
a world premiere video from Nirvana.

"Smells Like Teen Spirit."

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Even if you have,
even if you need ♪

♪ I don’t mean to stare,
we don’t have to breed... ♪

- They told you the line to say?
- What do we say? This is--

We’re Nirvana, and this
is "The Week in Rock."

♪ We could have all three,
she said... ♪

Novoselic:
Hey, all you people staying up late on a Sunday night,

slack off,
you don’t need your job!

Don’t say, "Yes, sir,"
"Yes, ma’am."

Say, "Cram it!"

Don’t show up tomorrow,
call in sick.

And this is Nirvana,
and you’re watching...

"120 Minutes."

...on...

M-T-T-V.

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ Even if you have,
even if you need ♪

♪ I don’t mean to stare,
we don’t have to breed ♪

♪ We can plant a house,
we can plant a tree ♪

♪ I don’t even care,
we can have all three ♪

♪ She said, she said ♪

♪ She said, she said,
she said... ♪

The hottest new rock band
in the country right now may well be Nirvana.

Reporter:
The hottest band around at the moment.

Riki Rachtman:
The band that it seems like everybody’s talking about.

People, like,
really seem to be getting into Nirvana right now.

Do you see when you go out
and play shows, the crowds are getting different?

- ( chuckles )
- Rachtman: I mean, isn’t it pretty overwhelming?

Kurt:
Everybody wants to be hip.

- ( chuckles )
- And so that’s what it is--

Everyone wants
to be accepted.

♪ ...said! ♪

( crowd cheering )

Interviewer:
Yeah? Okay. Gold.

I just heard
that you sold

600,000 albums
in the United States.

Does that make it, like,
platinum or something like that?

It makes it gold.

It makes it a free gift
to my mother for Christmas.

- Exactly.
- I don’t have to pay for a gift now.

What’s Mom getting
for Christmas?

Oh, I guess
she’s getting a gold record.

Interviewer:
Does that mean you guys are, like, rich now?

Hell, no.

We’re so far
from having any money.

I mean we get
per diem, I guess.

- Interviewer: Do you care
what critics think? - Oh, we--

- you know, I think--
- I’ve never sort of heard as many glowing criticisms.

- Oh, glowing.
- Doesn’t that make you feel good?

Well...

I mean, it’s better
than being slammed, that’s for sure.

But, you know,
if I was reading

the same thing
about another band, I wouldn’t believe it.

No way.

I’m not gonna believe
some journalist

that’s just spewing
about some band

that he thinks, whatever,
changed his life or...

- Yeah.
- You know, can’t believe everything you read.

I mean, all you have
to do is--

the music is
a personal experience.

You put the music on
and whatever you get out of it--

you know,
if it’s good or bad.

If it’s bad,
you don’t like it, you just walk away from it.

You know?
And if it’s good, it works for you...

- You know, this lighter--
- What the hell? Instead of...

( music playing )

( car horn honks )

( man shouts )

Interviewer:
There are probably a lot of kids

who would hear a song
and actually feel, like, kinship--

whether you’re having
trouble with parents

or school or, you know,
the usual dysfunctional stuff that happens.

But when you’re up there,
do you have any sense of who you’re playing to?

Kurt:
I’m playing to kids in general.

I mean, it doesn’t matter
where they come from.

We have
the same problems,

and we all basically have
the same thoughts, you know?

( guitar plays )

( crew chattering )

- ( music playing )
- ♪ One baby to another says ♪

♪ I’m lucky
to have met you ♪

♪ I don’t care
what you think ♪

♪ Unless it is about me ♪

♪ It is now my duty
to completely drain you ♪

♪ I travel
through a tube ♪

♪ And end up
in your infection ♪

♪ ...meat for you ♪

♪ Pass it back and forth ♪

♪ In a private kiss ♪

♪ From my mouth to yours ♪

♪ I like you... ♪

Interviewer #2:
You guys don’t like explaining anything to do with your music,

but what’s the problem
with going on camera and just--

There’s nothing to be said.
It’s all in the music, man!

It’s all in the music.
It’s all in the meat.

Interviewer #2:
You don’t think that people that are fans of you

would like to hear
what you had in mind, maybe?

- Or what you were--
- I’d rather hear what they have in mind, you know?

And how they interpret it.

( music playing )

Interviewer #3:
In "Teen Spirit" you seem to complain

about the apathy
of our generation.

And do you share this lack
of engagement yourself?

What, being apathetic?

- Yeah.
- Sure.

Why?

Why?

Because we sleep too much.

Woman:
No, I mean, just say the-- do the first part only.

Kurt:
Just read it.

Hello.
Stay tuned for more...

( blows raspberry )
Nirvana on "ABC in Concert"!

- Woman: You wanna
do it again? - Man: One more?

Woman:
Yeah, do one more...

( music playing )

♪ With eyes so dilated,
I’ve become your pupil ♪

♪ You tell me
everything about... ♪

Interviewer:
Probably the biggest band in the world right now,

please welcome Nirvana!

Nirvana are real.

There’s nothing
pretentious about them or anything like that.

Man:
They’re world famous, you know?

Maybe I’ll watch this
in the bar.

Kurt Cobain,
he’s so beautiful.

♪ Sloppy lips to lips ♪

♪ You’re my vitamins ♪

♪ I like you... ♪

( cheering, applause )

Interviews are worthless.

- Let’s go.
- ( laughing )

What do you think
about interviews?

- It’s a pretty good magazine.
- What do I think?

Did you hear my reaction
when he asked me if I wanted to do one?

- Interviewer: Yeah.
- I said, -- no.

( feedback whines )

Man:
Hey, I’m a hardcore Nirvana fan myself.

Radio host:
Yeah? Is this a disease that you’ve had long?

- Any cure for it?
- Man: He’s talking from his experiences.

Radio host:
He’s talking from his experience.

Well, he’s got lousy
experience, sir.

Man:
Well, it’s not his goal to make millions of dollars

when he made the stuff.
He’s writing about his life.

Radio host:
Well, his life needs to see a therapist or a minister,

and it doesn’t need to be
on millions of CDs

for kids to listen to
and identify with

and have more of their despair
and their hopelessness emphasized

by the tragedy
of this man’s life.

( music playing )

( birds chirping )

I guess each individual’s
going to deal with it

the way they’re going
to deal with it.

I get-- you know,
it was kind of traumatic

to be famous
all of a sudden,

especially coming
from this complete obscurity

and just being
the number one band in the world.

So I did things like
withdraw or drink.

You know, I’m lucky.

I had beer and wine,
you know?

Kurt had heroin.

( sighs )

Morgen:
Given how volatile and complicated

things were for Kurt
around that time,

why do you think he chose
that moment to, um,

start his relationship
with Courtney?

( exhales )

I went-- I had
this relationship

with this person,
this woman.

And I just kind of wanted
to build this home for myself,

because my home growing up
had fallen apart.

So I wanted
to build a home.

And I think that Kurt
wanted to do that, too.

He wanted to build a home,

because his home
and his family fell apart.

So when Courtney
came into his life,

they had--
she was interesting,

she was artistic,
intellectual,

and, you know,
she did drugs, too,

but that was all
part of the package

of building a home.

( blowing )

Check, check, check,
check, check, check, check.

Let’s watch
their sound check, shall we?

- Man: Sure.
- ( music playing )

Maybe that will bug them
and they’ll play really bad.

Man #2:
I don’t have the answer.

Man:
So you’re having a relationship

with the guitar player?

No?

I don’t know
what it was.

Honestly.

It’s over?

I think, yeah.

What happened?

I don’t care.

( music stops )

Dude, we’re making
a movie.

Grohl:
Wow, did you curl your hair?

- You don’t like it?
- Grohl: It’s nicer when it’s straight

because it doesn’t make
your face look so round.

- Courtney Love:
Oh, my God! - Man: Uh...

Hello.

How is it onstage?
Is it-- is it clear onstage?

( music playing )

♪ Now, if she ever
comes down now ♪

♪ If she ever comes
down now ♪

♪ If she ever
comes now ♪

♪ Now, if she ever
comes down now ♪

♪ If she ever comes
down now ♪

♪ If she ever
comes now ♪

♪ Oh, she looks so good ♪

♪ Oh, she’s made
out of wood ♪

♪ She seems so... ♪

( music playing
in distance )

Love:
He was super cute,

but he carried himself
like someone who didn’t know that.

And that was part
of the charm.

He didn’t know that he was
a better-looking guy than Brad Pitt.

We got on like a house
on fuckin’ fire.

One caveat-- I had
already done heroin,

beat the thing,

had a rule,
I loved it still,

but I didn’t have
a fantasy that he had.

He had a fantasy.
His fantasy was:

I’m going to get
to $3 million,

and then I’m going
to be a junkie.

That was his--
those are his words.

( music playing )

♪ Come as you are ♪

♪ As you were ♪

♪ As I want you to be... ♪

- ( crowd chattering )
- ♪ As a friend ♪

♪ As a friend ♪

- ♪ As a known enemy... ♪
- ( crowd cheering )

♪ Take your time,
hurry up ♪

♪ The choice is yours,
don’t be late... ♪

Woman:
There he is. He’s against the wall.

Oh, my God!

He’s totally trapped
back there.

♪ Memoria... ♪

Interviewer:
Is it fun to be famous?

Kurt:
People who are really famous

end up total reclusives,

and then they
don’t do anything.

That sucks.

- ( crowd cheering )
- ♪ And I swear that I don’t have a gun ♪

♪ No, I don’t have a gun ♪

♪ No, I don’t
have a gun ♪

( crowd chanting )
Go! Go! Go! Go...

♪ --ria ♪

♪ Memoria ♪

♪ Memoria ♪

♪ Memoria ♪

♪ And I swear
that I don’t have a gun ♪

♪ No, I don’t have a gun ♪

♪ No, I don’t
have a gun ♪

♪ No, I don’t have a gun. ♪

- ( song ends )
- ( crowd cheers )

( crowd chanting )
Nirvana!

( feedback squeals )

Man:
The money, the attention, the hype, the hysteria--

Man #2:
Kurt Cobain, an overnight spokesman

for many disaffected
young people...

Man #3:
...is spokesman for a generation.

Man #4: For his generation,
he’s the closest to having a John Lennon.

- ( voices overlapping )
- ( guitar whining )

( retching )

Kurt:
It’s not my fault.

I never wanted the fame.

( guitar continues )

( feedback screeching )

( Kurt screaming )

( cheering )

( guitar continues )

( distorted voice )
You suck!

( indistinct chatter )

( man shouting )

( feedback squeals )

( music playing )

Seattle’s own Nirvana
finds itself

at the very top
of "Billboard’s" pop albums chart

with its album
"Nevermind,"

while guitarist
Kurt Cobain

just got engaged
to Courtney Love,

front woman
of an L.A. band called Hole.

According to "Rolling Stone,"
Cobain fell ill with a stomach problem

during their tour
of four continents

and had to cancel
a number of dates in England.

There’s been speculation
of summer tour plans,

but so far, only the next
Reading Festival in August.

Nirvana is now retreating
from doing interviews.

Whether it’s a reaction
to "too much, too soon,"

the band would rather
their music speak for itself

than be knighted as spokesmen
for a generation.

Morgen:
Right after you guys got married,

they were the biggest band
in the world,

and Kurt decided
to take six months off.

So, officially, in the story
that’s out in the world,

he took six months off
of their touring schedule?

He could have toured
the world at that point and made a shitload of money.

Oh, I see.

To me, it seemed like
he wanted to stay

in an apartment with you
and do heroin.

Yeah, he wanted
to stay in an apartment and do heroin and paint.

And play his guitar.
That’s what he wanted to do.

Kurt: Hi.

( babbling )

Hi.

Love:
This is our house. This is where we live.

I know it looks
disgusting now,

but sometimes it’s nice,
I mean after when I clean it,

’cause no one else
fucking does.

- ( banging )
- Okay, this is the toilet.

This is, um--

- this is me.
- Kurt: Hey.

- Hello.
- Do we have a turkey baster?

( Love laughs )

What?

Right. Why do you think
that everyone thinks

you’re the good one
and I’m the bad one?

Because I know how
to "use my illusion."

( Love laughs )

Where are you going?

I’m going
into my other room.

- I paid for this.
- ( Love laughs )

Put on the "dancing
merry chimp"!

( toy whirring )

Love:
So is this the living room that that guy described

in "Rolling Stone" magazine?

With nothing
but a Twin Reverb amp

- and teddy bears
to keep him company. - Love: And the Cosmic Psychos.

The "Cosmo Psychos."

- Love: There’s Eric.
- Kurt: The champ.

( Love laughing )
Hi, honey.

- Hi.
- Love: I love you a lot. You are so cute.

- Here, Eric,
you fill in for a while. - Eric Erlandson: Here.

This is the Kurt Cobain
action figure.

- ( smooching )
- Erlandson: Secret coded message in his guitar.

Kurt, I think he looks
remarkably a lot like you.

- Look at that.
- That’s a bachata.

And he’s playing a--
what looks to be

a sort of Mosrite-y
vintage...

- Come into
the breakfast nook. - ( both laughing )

( music playing )

( moaning )

Are you filming us?

Kurt:
Mm-hmm.

♪ She gives me
everything ♪

♪ And tenderly ♪

♪ The kiss
my lover brings ♪

♪ She brings to me ♪

♪ And I love her ♪

♪ Bright are the stars
that shine ♪

♪ Dark is the sky ♪

♪ I know this love
of mine ♪

♪ Will never die ♪

♪ And I love her... ♪

- ( waves crashing,
seagulls screeching ) - ♪ A love like ours ♪

♪ Will never die ♪

♪ As long as I hold you
near me... ♪

Morgen:
Did you guys want to have a baby?

Oh, God, yes.

Yes, we wanted
to have a baby,

and I conceived Frances
in December.

So, I was pregnant
when I got married, yes.

We were all we had,

so making a family
as fast as possible

was, you know,
important.

You know, so, I mean,
if I had had more time,

I’m telling you I’d have had
more kids with him.

- ( TV playing )
- Love: Why do you feel so bad?

- Why?
- Love: Uh-huh.

Because I want to.

It’s my fault.

All my fault.

Love:
You’re beautiful. I think you’re really cute.

Thank you very much.

- So do a lot
of "Sassy" readers. - ( both laughing )

Love:
I married Bobby Sherman.

- Kurt: Do you think
they do this to me? - Love: What?

Do you think they do this to me
when they read "Sassy"?

( Love laughs )

Girls don’t masturbate
over their teen idols.

They don’t?

No, they make up
much more intricate schematic plans.

Girls are a lot more
complex than boys.

You don’t know what girls
do to each other.

- Kurt: Yes, I do.
- Love: No, you don’t.

- They’re vicious.
- I mean, you can know about crafty girls all you want,

but I wouldn’t
let you go on tour

with crafty girls
because fuckin’--

it doesn’t
fuckin’ matter, man.

They-- they--

They diss me.

They diss me
all the time.

I’d be fat.

I can’t-- I know
it’s not even like I can’t trust you,

it’s just you can’t
trust men in general,

even if they’re new men
and they’re you.

And even if they’re like you,
you still can’t trust them.

I understand what
you’re trying to say, but I don’t agree.

- Just because you--
- I’m a new man. I’m a man for the ’90s.

I’m Ward Cleaver.

And then, you being you,
you’d be all sensitive

and you’d go...

"How are we gonna
tell Courtney?"

( laughs )

Meanwhile,
I’ve ruined my career, I’ve ruined my life,

become the most
hated woman in America, because I’m 200 pounds.

- But you’re already the most
hated woman in America. - What?

You and Roseanne Barr
are tied for being the most hated woman in America.

Okay, I married Bobby Sherman,
I’m the most hated--

ruined my body, not play
the Reading Festival this year

when I could have
kicked your ass.

- Just--
- You could-- you should still play the Reading--

Oh, yes,
I should just play the Reading Festival.

- Dive into the crowd...
- Right. That’s right.

Shoot off a gun,
light yourself on fire.

- Let everyone see this.
- And give birth.

And this is
only half of it.

- The rest is yet to come.
- Look. Moustache.

- Hmm, I like that.
- Erlandson: Wait, wait.

- ( Love laughing )
- Free moustache rides!

It’s a "womb broom."
( laughs )

- Keep it, please?
- ( imitates Love ) Okay! Ha!

- Just keep it
for the night. - No way!

Please, Kurt, you need...

- This is the--
- ♪ Outshined, outshined ♪

♪ Outshined! ♪

This is the look
of Aberdeen.

Come on,
look at the camera.

I was in Vietnam.

You weren’t in Vietnam.

I was in Vietnam.

Look at my large breasts.

Love:
"Dearest ’Sassy’

and whoever else
is responsible

for the Kurt Cobain,
Courtney ’Pig’ story,

Your story in April’s ’Sassy’
about Kurt Cobain

and that Courtney hag
truly made me want to vomit.

First of all,
what could have been

a beautiful
interview experience with Kurt Cobain,

the god of love
in human form,

was totally ruined
by nasty old dirty Miss Love

running
her big, fat mouth.

Who cares about
her stupid Victorian house or her sucky band

or how she was
so obnoxious and pushy

that she scared poor Kurt
into going out with her?

Secondly, you guys
are supposed to be

so understanding
and all that,

so what possessed you
to be so insensitive

to those of us who would
lick the ground that Kurt Cobain walked on?

You could have just mentioned
the vile Courtney,

but, oh, no, you went so far
as to show her kissing Kurt.

Blech!

I will never forgive you.
Never, never, never!

Sincerely disillusioned
with life,

Stacy the Kurt slave."

And there’s
a little happy face on the bottom.

Happy face--
"This is not currently me, thanks to you."

Why don’t--
why don’t you interview us?

Kurt and Courtney?

- This is slow. It’s too slow.
- "Sassy 2."

( Erlandson, nasally voice )
How does it feel to be fast?

Life in the fast lane.

( mumbling )

At the height
of their drug abuse...

Damn, if I wasn’t
so needle-sick,

I’d be on tour
with Guns N’ Roses right now.

( bleats )

Me and Axl would be
whooping it up,

snake-dancing
across the universe.

Snake-dancing across
the stage together

singing Nazareth songs.

But I’m too goddamn
needle-sick, man.

- Are you fucked up, baby?
- ( mock wheezing )

( mock coughing )

Hack, hack.

Love:
♪ You love me, you love me ♪

♪ Pretty please ♪

♪ I wanna be
your girlfriend ♪

- ♪ I wanna be your girlfriend ♪
- ( guitar twangs )

- ♪ Let me just be your
girlfriend... ♪ - ( grunting )

♪ Let me just be
your girlfriend ♪

♪ Well, then put it
in my anus ♪

- ♪ And it kinda
was heinous... ♪ - ( grunting )

♪ But put it in my anus
and it kinda was heinous ♪

♪ But put it in my anus
and it kinda was heinous ♪

♪ But put it in my anus
and it kinda was smelly ♪

♪ And I wanna be
your girlfriend ♪

♪ I wanna be
your girlfriend ♪

♪ I wanna ride
your Bratmobile, baby ♪

♪ I wanna know
how you really feel, yeah ♪

♪ I wanna ride
in your Bratmobile ♪

♪ I wanna shoot up
in your Bratmobile ♪

- ♪ ’Cause put it in my butt ♪
- ♪ I feel insane ♪

♪ And I’ll feel sexy, but... ♪
♪ Put it in my baby...♪

Love:
I did do heroin when I was pregnant,

and then I stopped.

And I knew
she would be fine.

Come on!

So, he was never concerned
that our child would have--

I assured him that I was
built like an oxen

and could carry
this pregnancy to term and not have any problems.

But, you know,
I was a young woman.

The pregnancy
isn’t the problem.

It’s the being around
a junkie while I’m pregnant

when I’m a junkie, too,

and I know the minute
that baby’s out,

I’m going to go shoot up
in celebratory fashion.

You know what I mean?
Like, that was our lifestyle.

( music playing )

Kurt:
Pain will dissolve the sea monkeys at present.

Sea monkeys
will hatch and reproduce.

We say, "Adieu,"
little girl.

They found
the little girl’s skin

under his yellow,
cigarette-stained fingernails.

♪ And if you say
your prayers ♪

♪ You will make
God happy ♪

♪ And if you do
what’s told ♪

♪ You will
make me happy ♪

♪ I’ll keep you
in a jar ♪

♪ And you
will seem happy ♪

♪ I’ll give you
breathing holes ♪

♪ You will think
you’re happy... ♪

( feedback squealing )

( music playing )

( distorted voice
mumbling )

♪ I am ♪

♪ Am surly ♪

♪ Dea-- death... ♪

( crowd cheering )

Interviewer:
Does that get to you?

To read things
like you’re dying

of smack addiction
and shit like--

Kurt:
Yeah, it makes you feel like the kid in school

who gets picked on
all the time.

Or it makes you feel like
the school slut.

Party on, Wayne.

Kurt:
I feel like people want me to die,

because
it would be the classic rock ’n’ roll story.

♪ Dea-- death ♪

♪ Dea-- death... ♪

( crowd cheering )

Kurt:
I would like to professionally and publicly announce

that this
is our last show.

There’s been
some pretty extreme things written about us,

especially my wife,

’cause she thinks
everybody hates her now.

So, um...

I wanted to give her
a message and say,

Courtney, we love you.

- ( crowd cheers )
- Okay, ready?

On the count of three.

One, two, three.

Crowd:
Courtney, we love you!

Thanks.

- ( cheering )
- ( music playing )

♪ Oh ♪

♪ When I was an alien ♪

♪ Cultures
weren’t opinions ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ When I’m there ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ I had better wait ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ When I’m there ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ I had better wait ♪

♪ Just because
you’re paranoid ♪

♪ Don’t mean they’re
not after you ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ When I’m there ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ When I’m there ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ I had better wait ♪

♪ Gotta find a way,
a better way ♪

♪ I had better wait. ♪

- ( song ends )
- ( crowd cheering )

( feedback whines )

( cheering continues )

( music playing )

Kurt: Hi.

Hi.

How you doing?

You’re getting suspicious
with this electronic device in your face, huh?

Staring right at it.

What-- what do you see
in there?

Nothing.

Would you show
your butt for the cam-- oh, a little wet, okay.

- A little pee.
- Kurt: That is most definitely amphibian.

( Love laughs )

Kurt:
Don’t look at me. Don’t--

Love:
Frances, this is your real problem.

Everywhere Daddy looks,
you won’t look.

- Hi, hi.
- Look at that.

( Love laughs )

- ( Kurt snarling )
- ( Frances laughs )

( laughing )

- Bah!
- ( squealing )

( Kurt laughs )

Love:
This is the happiest day I’ve ever seen.

- Don’t you think?
- She knows.

She’s-- now she’s got
lots of things in store for her.

You wanna be a star
for a while and I’ll film?

- Wanna be the star?
- ( Frances coos )

Fly.
Want to fly?

- Fly? Fly?
- ( coos )

Ah? Nose?

( sniffing )

Taste good?

( blowing raspberries )

Ha!

Wanna barf
in my mouth again?

- Three times the charm!
- ( squeals )

Kurt:
Ah! Are you getting all this?

- Love: Yes!
- Oh, aren’t we lucky?

Love:
Oh, I know.

Interviewer:
Are you worried about the kind of mistakes

that might have been made
in your growing up

that sort of impacts
how you deal with her situation?

Kurt: No.

My father and I are
completely different people.

I know that
I’m capable of showing

a lot more affection
than my dad was.

I mean, even if Court and I
were to get a divorce,

I would never allow us
to be in a situation

where there are bad vibes
between us in front of her.

If there’s anything
that we’re determined to do,

it’s to give Frances
as much love as we can.

I mean, if anything,
it’s going to stop me

from pursuing
this rock ’n’ roll thing.

It’s going to be her
because I don’t want her

to be screwed up
because of it.

I don’t know
what’s going to happen in the next few years.

It’s--
it’s kind of scary.

( Love shouts )

I dropped it.

Kurt:
Mommy’s loud.

Love:
I’m loud. Oh, who’s a big crybaby?

Oh, look at this, she’s--
she’s kind of upset.

Love:
Okay, let’s get her naked.

That’s what I want.
I want you naked.

( Kurt and Love,
high-pitched voices ) "Nirvana!

- Kurt: Who the fuck do
you think you are? - Love: Ew!

Kurt:
Seeing your interviews makes me think

you guys are the most
immature pieces of trash ever made.

If you assholes
could ever write anything

that could come close
to anything Guns N’ Roses has written,

maybe you could talk,

but until you sell
a few billion more albums,

take your head
out of your asses and smell the air.

- It smells like
Guns N’ Roses! - Love: Guns N’ Roses!

- Shy Sue, nine years old."
- Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.

( normal voice )
Okay, enough with the cute voices.

Leave me alone.
I have to read this now.

- Especially you.
- ( Frances coos )

Don’t look at me.
Don’t look at me.

- Hey!
- ( fussing )

( Kurt, distorted voice )
In an isolation tank,

on 50 hits of Demerol,

as New Age music poisons

the scarce, humid air.

( distorted )
♪ Well, congratulations ♪

♪ You have won ♪

♪ It’s a year’s
subscription ♪

♪ Of bad puns ♪

♪ And a makeshift story ♪

♪ Of concern... ♪

( music playing )

Kurt:
Bog you down.

Man on radio:
Tonight from Hollywood, we bring you

a most unusual broadcast,
starring a famous radio couple

who have never before
appeared in a story of this kind.

- ( footsteps )
- ( baby coos )

( overlapping
distorted voices )

( woman screaming )

( in distorted voice )
This is Kurt Cobain.

I have a lot of things
to say to you.

A lot of fucking things
to say to you,

you parasitic
little fucking cunt.

You’re not writing
about my band.

You’re writing about
how jealous you are of my wife.

You have absolutely
no fucking idea

what you’re doing.

You will find out.

I don’t care if this
is a recorded threat.

I’m at the end of my rope.

Never been
more fucking serious in my life.

( answering machine beeps )

Man on recording:
Everything we do-- develop personal courage,

confidence and belief
in our own abilities--

make your determination
so strong

that it will eliminate
any situation or circumstance

which stands in the way
of your goal.

- ( baby crying )
- Kurt: Check, check, check, check, check.

( playing guitar )

( song playing )

( baby crying )

( music blaring )

( chattering )

Love:
Uh-huh, this looks just like the Metallica video.

This is part of your
rock-u-mentary.

- I think the problem--
- Grohl: Come on, now.

Man:
It really expresses the way you guys--

You can’t just do
what you do onstage.

- You can’t.
You’re making an album. - ( laughing )

( chattering )

( music stops )

- ( Frances squeals )
- Kurt: Frances.

Frances, Frances,
Frances!

Ha!

- ( Love laughs )
- Kurt: Okay, okay.

I have to--
now they’re calling me. I have to work now.

- Take the baby.
- Love: Well, rock on.

Daddy’s gotta go rock!

( music playing )

♪ Teenage angst
has paid off well ♪

♪ Now I’m bored and old ♪

♪ Self-appointed
judges judge ♪

♪ More than
they have sold ♪

♪ If she floats,
then she is not ♪

♪ A witch like
we had thought ♪

♪ A down payment
on another ♪

♪ One at Salem’s lot... ♪

Interviewer: You said before,
let’s make a record to use most of your writing.

I was in the beginning,
about a year and a half ago.

I was completely fed up
with the whole thing.

I didn’t want to be
a rock star at all.

It was just-- it was
freaking me out, you know.

But I’ve had two years
to recuperate. ( laughs )

♪ That legendary divorce
is such a bore ♪

♪ As my bones grew,
they did hurt ♪

♪ They hurt really bad ♪

♪ I tried hard
to have a father ♪

♪ But instead
I have a dad ♪

♪ I just want
you to know that I ♪

♪ I don’t hate you
anymore ♪

♪ There is nothing
I could say ♪

♪ I haven’t
thought before ♪

♪ Serve the servants ♪

♪ Oh, no,
serve the servants ♪

♪ Oh, no, serve
the servants ♪

♪ Oh, no ♪

♪ That legendary divorce
is such a bore. ♪

( cheering )

( song ends )

Kurt Loder:
Nirvana’s third album "In Utero,"

a record with a decidedly
hard-edged sound,

courtesy of maverick
producer Steve Albini,

will make its debut
at number one on Monday’s new "Billboard" pop chart.

- Nirvana will be
starting a U.S. tour... - ( crowd cheering )

( feedback squealing )

All:
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪

♪ Happy birthday,
dear Frances ♪

- ♪ Whoo ♪
- ♪ Happy birthday to you. ♪

( all cheering )

Love:
You’re one! You’re one!

One year old!

- Fred?
- Woman: The whole night.

Okay with this.

Man:
But we’ve got something to do.

Oh, a parade.
Nice.

- ( people chattering )
- Kurt, you can’t leave! Come back!

Novoselic:
Big Bird parade.

- Woman: Would you
like some cake? - What are you doing?

I’m not opening this
till you come back.

( people laughing )

( birds screeching )

Love: Kurt?

- What do you want?
- Kurt, it’s Frances’ first haircut.

All right?

I’m gonna take the chair out,
put her on her throne.

Kurt:
Yeah, do that.

- ( toy squeaking )
- Love: Should I do it right here?

Kurt, sit her
on her throne.

Where’s the scissors?
You got them?

- Brit: Yeah,
somebody’s gotta hold-- - I can do it.

Love:
No, I’m doing the haircut.

- Mmm...
- So-- yes, I am.

- You’re not very skilled
at using scissors. - Yes, I am.

- ( toy squeaks )
- I’m doing the haircut.

I don’t have to be
conscious-- oh!

Jesus Christ.

- Love: Okay. Oh.
- You are such a good baby.

- Brit: Shall I go down
and get a bowl? - Love: Hey, Brit?

Love:
Will you try and find the classical station on there?

Brit:
Hey, Kurt-- okay.

Love:
This is her Cartier comb.

- ( Kurt imitates laser )
- Frances: Mahna.

- Mahna.
- Love: That’s right.

♪ Mahna mahna,
do do do do do ♪

♪ Mahna mahna,
do do do do ♪

♪ Mahna mahna,
do do do do do... ♪

You haven’t been
eating a lot.

You don’t feel like
a bloated child.

Love:
Yeah, you got to force her to eat lately.

Erlandson:
She’s been sick.

Love:
Well, you really have to force her to eat.

She’s not--
she’s not motivated to--

we don’t have any luck
with it at all.

( Love mutters )

- Love: This is,
like, a big deal. - I’m so tired.

- Brit: I am sorry.
- I can’t keep my eyes open.

Love: Stop it.
Kurt, you don’t want our daughter

to see you behaving
like you’re...

- ( crying )
- on drugs.

I’m not on drugs,
I’m tired.

Do you have more teeth?
You have more teeth?

- Love: Please?
- Brit: Your teeth were so as a kid.

( grunting )

See? See?
Wife beating.

- ( Frances coos )
- Here we go.

- ( crying )
- No, no. Oh, I’ll hold her.

"Ow, my pretty
golden locks.

- It was going to be as long
as Brenda’s from ’90210.’" - You look so gorgeous.

You won’t be able
to believe it. Ooh, pancake.

You won’t be able
to believe it.

Both:
♪ Amazing grace ♪

- ♪ How sweet the sound... ♪
- ( crying, shrieking )

♪ That saved a wretch ♪

♪ Like me ♪

♪ I once was lost ♪

♪ But now am found ♪

♪ Was blind ♪

♪ But now I see... ♪

It just-- every week
it got worse.

And sometimes
he would come home,

I think to hide,
and it was really bad.

He started getting sores
and he was losing weight

and nodding out
and...

I was pretty sure
he knew I knew.

But I decided one time
to just confront him.

And so I went up
to his bedroom.

He was sitting on
the side of the bed,

and he was crying,

because I had just arrived
and he knew it was breaking my heart.

And I talked to him
about it

and everything
that I had learned about heroin.

And I asked him
if he was at the stage

of where he was addicted
to also the needle prick.

And he burst into tears.

And he was just ashamed.

( music playing )

Interviewer:
One of the songs that, actually,

I really liked
on "In Utero"

but which
you took off was

"I Hate Myself
and I Wanna Die."

How literal was that song
in terms of the title?

Kurt:
As literal as a joke could be.

I mean, nothing more
than a joke.

Interviewer:
And what kind of-- who were you playing the joke on?

’Cause I have to admit,
my first reaction was,

you know, either this is
really intensely satirical

or there’s
some really dark shit happening here.

( Kurt laughs )

( crew members chattering )

Kurt:
I’m really thankful for a lot of things--

my family, my child.

And every month,

I come to more optimistic
conclusions.

Interviewer:
Do you find that you’re getting happier in general?

Kurt:
Yeah. I hope I don’t become so blissful

- that I lose--
- Interviewer: Become boring.

Kurt:
Yeah, I become boring or I lose my edge

or whatever it is,
you know.

And who knows?

I don’t have
any new songs right now,

so I’m starting from scratch
for the first time.

- Interviewer: Tabula rasa,
that’ll be interesting. - Kurt: Yeah.

Interviewer:
Is there a little fear of the unknown?

Kurt:
Yeah, definitely.

- ( crew chatters )
- Kurt: Check, check, check.

Check, check, check.

- ( instruments playing )
- Man: Turn both guitars down.

Kurt:
Turn both guitars down now. They’re too loud.

Scott, you know
that goofy-ass stuff

that they have
at music stores called "Finger-ease"?

Man:
That’s a lot better. Thanks.

Kurt:
It’s like an anal gel.

If I could just put some
on this string...

Scott:
"Finger-ease"?

It’s called
"Finger-ease"

that your-- yeah,
it’s like a roll-on.

I just need it
on one string.

God, I’m being
picky today.

Baby.

Will you guys, like--
will you and Janet

and everybody that I know
sit in the front

so I can look at you?

’Cause I hate strangers.

Man:
One, two, three.

( cheering )

Thank you.

Kurt:
Any requests?

- Man: "Teen Spirit"!
- Man #2: "Sliver"!

- ( woman shouts )
- Man #3: "Drain You"!

- Man #4: "Been A Son"!
- Man #5: "Serve the Servants"!

Novoselic:
Remember the little black bird on "Davey and Goliath"?

- The little what?
- Black bird on "Davey and Goliath,"

sing, "Kumbaya"?

Kurt:
No, I don’t remember the little bird.

Remember that
really evil episode

where he was really mad
at this kid,

and he had
all these visions of how he’s going to--

( high-pitched voice )
First I’m going to take him up to a hill

and tie him to a tree
and tar and feather him!

It was evil.
That wasn’t Christian at all.

( audience laughs, claps )

( music plays )

( applause, cheering )

♪ What else should I be? ♪

♪ All apologies ♪

♪ What else should I say? ♪

♪ Everyone is gay ♪

♪ What else should I write? ♪

♪ I don’t have the right ♪

♪ What else should I be? ♪

♪ All apologies ♪

♪ In the sun ♪

♪ In the sun
I feel as one ♪

♪ In the sun ♪

♪ In the sun ♪

♪ Married ♪

♪ Buried ♪

♪ Married ♪

♪ Buried ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah ♪

♪ All in all
is all we are ♪

♪ All in all is all
we are ♪

♪ All in all
is all we are ♪

♪ All in all is all
we are ♪

♪ All in all
is all we are ♪

♪ All in all is all
we are ♪

- ♪ All in all
is all we are... ♪ - ( babbling )

- ♪ All in all
is all we are... ♪ - I’m a ham ham.

♪ All in all is all
we are. ♪

- O’Connor:
What do you want? - I don’t know.

Do you want to go play
someplace?

- Yeah.
- What do you want to do?

I’m going to play
tape recorders.

( Frances laughing )

- ( screaming )
- ( Frances laughing )

- Frances?
- Love: Christmas Day, 1993, Frances Bean Cobain.

( babbling )

Mmm, I’m thirsty.

Ah!

Kurt:
Yabba-dabba-doob!

Love:
Ooh, this is nice.

Johnny Rotten, Larry Cohen,
Led Zeppelin, and the Beatles, that’s you.

( Frances coos )

Kurt:
Did you say Bob Dylan?

You don’t tell stories
the way he does, but, I mean--

You mean like this?

( imitates
Bob Dylan mumbling )

Seen it, done it.

I feel kind of happy
right now.

Yeah, I do, too.

Morgen:
We’re all sensitive to ridicule and shame,

but it seemed to me,
having gone through his materials,

that he was
hypersensitive--

felt criticism,
felt praise,

felt things
a little more intensely.

Probably.

You know,
he was so sensitive

that the one time
that I thought about cheating on him,

he fuckin’ must have been
psychic or something.

I thought about it.

I didn’t do it,
but I thought about it.

You never cheated
on Kurt?

No, but I almost did
one time, and he knew it,

and I don’t know
how he knew it.

I have no idea
how he knew it.

I mean, I didn’t--
because the plan didn’t ever go anywhere.

So, it was just--
nothing happened,

but I was tired
and I--

I’m not-- I wasn’t
as monogamous as he is...

I’m a big flirt,
so I flirt with chairs.

But I never,
never cheated on him,

but I certainly
thought about it one time in London.

And I could have
done it.

And the response
to it was...

he took 67 Rohypnols
and ended up in a coma

because I thought about
cheating on him.

I mean, fuck.
You’re kidding.

I didn’t even make
the phone call to do it.

Morgen:
So why do you think he chose that night

to try to take
his life?

Was it because
he felt rejected?

I think he would see it more
as, like, severe betrayal than rejection.

You know what I mean?

( music playing )

( chatter )

♪ My girl, my girl ♪

♪ Don’t lie to me ♪

♪ Tell me where did you sleep
last night? ♪

♪ In the pines,
in the pines ♪

♪ Where the sun
don’t ever shine ♪

♪ I would shiver
the whole night through ♪

♪ My girl, my girl,
where will you go? ♪

♪ I’m going where
the cold wind blows ♪

♪ In the pines,
in the pines ♪

♪ Where the sun
don’t ever shine ♪

♪ I would shiver
the whole night through ♪

♪ Her husband was
a hardworking man ♪

♪ Just about a mile
from here ♪

♪ His head was found
in a driving wheel ♪

♪ But his body
never was found ♪

♪ My girl, my girl ♪

♪ Don’t lie to me ♪

♪ Tell me where did you sleep
last night? ♪

♪ In the pines,
in the pines ♪

♪ Where the sun
don’t ever shine ♪

♪ I would shiver
the whole night through ♪

♪ My girl, my girl ♪

♪ Where will you go? ♪

♪ I’m going where
the cold wind blows ♪

♪ In the pines,
the pines ♪

♪ The sun, shine ♪

♪ I’d shiver ♪

♪ The whole ♪

♪ Night through. ♪

( music continues )

( cheering, applause )

Thank you.

( music playing )

♪ Ain’t it a shame
to go fishing on a Sunday? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame
to go fishing on a Sunday? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame
to go fishing on a Sunday ♪

♪ When you got Monday,
Tuesday, Wednesday ♪

♪ Or Thursday,
Friday, Saturday? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame to have
a drink on a Sunday? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame to have
a drink on a Sunday? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame to have
a drink on a Sunday ♪

♪ When you got Monday,
Tuesday, Wednesday ♪

♪ Or Thursday,
Friday, Saturday? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Ain’t it a shame? ♪

♪ Shame, shame, shame? ♪

( music playing )

♪ Load up on guns,
bring your friends ♪

♪ It’s fun to lose
into pretend ♪

♪ She’s overboard
and self-assured ♪

♪ Oh, no,
a dirty word ♪

♪ Hello, hello,
hello, hello ♪

♪ Hello, hello, hello,
hello ♪

♪ Hello, hello,
hello, hello ♪

♪ Hello, hello,
hello ♪

♪ With the lights out,
it’s less dangerous ♪

♪ Here we are now,
entertain us ♪

♪ Acting stupid
and contagious ♪

♪ Here we are now,
entertain us ♪

♪ A mulatto,
an albino ♪

♪ A mosquito,
my libido ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ Hey ♪

♪ Yay ♪

♪ With the lights out,
it’s less dangerous ♪

♪ Here we are now,
entertain us ♪

♪ Acting stupid
and contagious ♪

♪ Here we are now,
entertain us ♪

♪ A mulatto,
an albino ♪

♪ A mosquito,
my libido ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial ♪

♪ A denial. ♪