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[Kody] Previously on Sister Wives...

So, we put an offer in on 165 acres

and it was just accepted a few days ago.

- In North Carolina? - [Janelle] Uh-huh.

Oh, my gosh.

You guys are-- you're gonna-- you have land.

You're... you now have land.

Yeah. Gonna be farmers.

You definitely got some special land out here.

Sorry. You are not, like, the head of my family.

[Meri] I feel like Kody and Robyn probably have some plan

of what they want to do and how they want to handle it.

I think that Janelle has some sort of plan,

and none of us are talking to each other

because none of us trust each other.

I think it's time for somebody to be pushing my interest.

I probably will get a lawyer.

This is the end of this family right here, right now.

And every time I start making plans for this place,

I remember we're gonna try and sell it.

It's a special place that was meant to be more special.

And now has a lot of pain,

and I don't even know what to do with it.

[theme music playing]

Today is the day I'm gonna move my stuff to, uh, North Carolina.

Hey, guys. Sorry.

I had to throw a last couple of things in my truck, so...

- [woman] You ready to move? - Yeah.

It required a big moving truck.

You know what? Do we--

I was thinking about this last night because I couldn't sleep.

I'm so stressed out about this move.

Should we put a ratchet strap holding that desk in place?

Or you think it's okay?

- Oh, that desk ain't going nowhere. - [Janelle] Okay.

And I'm scared to drive it.

So, Christine said she and David would come down and help me.

I will still have Garrison, Gabriel and Savanah in Flag.

Can I live without these big mountains that I'm used to?

Because it's gonna be a totally different experience.

You ready to leave Flagstaff?

- Yeah, I love it. - Yeah?

I love it, but I'm... I'm ready.

Also I guess maybe because this is now an option.

- I'm like, "Oh, it's time." - Yeah.

I love Flagstaff.

I love everything about it. It feels like a small town.

The mountains are right there.

There's tons of hiking and camping and fishing and all of it.

But it's time. It's time to do something different.

I'm sad to be leaving, and I'm really excited to be going.

And I'm a little bit intimidated by this project that we're biting off.

Like, really a lot intimidated.

Maddie and Caleb and I have bought over 150 acres in North Carolina,

and I'm just excited

because we're going to build some homes,

we're going to have a flower farm

and just start a whole new chapter of my life there.

- All right, guys, people. - [David] Ready to roll out?

Ready to roll out. Hit the road.

- All right, guys. - Okay. Bye. Love you.

Bye.

So I'm not sleeping so great because it's like, I wake up at 3:00 in the morning

and my head is just spinning because this is a huge step. I have...

I have I spent all my summers with my grandparents in Florida.

Like, I understand the Southeast. I love it.

But I've never lived there.

It's big. It's really big.

I will tell you that when I came in one of the times, the first time, um, here...

It closes super fast.

Yeah?

[Janelle] As we're leaving the storage facility,

the gate there is, um, really timed.

David is pulling the big truck through the gate.

And he stops kind of straddling where the gate is.

Okay. No, he can't stop. He can't stop. He can't stop.

- He can't stop. - Okay.

Go, go, go!

Go ahead, go.

- [beeping] - [bleep]

Like, he really can't stop.

- No. - Like, they close so fast.

We've made the reference several times

about Thelma and Louise.

Janelle... we have.

We haven't killed anybody or anything like that.

We're not robbing, anything like that.

Maybe, yet. Who knows?

I don't know. But it does feel like

we're going on an adventure and going on with our lives.

And, you know, girl power, woman power.

[Kody] I don't know how to explain this.

It was never intended for me to know that Janelle was moving.

One of my children at their admission, slipped up and told me,

and then said, "Please don't repeat that or pretend you never heard it."

I didn't tell Kody. I didn't see any reason to tell him.

Our lives are not overlapping in any way.

I just didn't really feel like it was any of his business what I was doing.

I kind of look at Meri still as a friend,

and I'm sure both of us will mutually get back to that place.

I hope that Meri and I will just be friends.

[clears throat] I hear about Christine

falling in love and getting married and stuff like this.

And I'm like, well, "Good on... good on Christine."

Janelle was a different story.

I always thought, I just felt like Janelle and I could have worked it out.

[Robyn] Hey.

- Hey. - What you doing?

I'm trying to turn you on.

[laughs]

What, by washing the dishes?

- Yeah, I know what it does to you. - [laughs]

- Is that right? - Sure.

I think one of the quickest ways to a woman's heart is to clean the house.

I'm always looking for her attention.

I'm notorious for coming out of a shower,

putting a towel around my waist and flexing and going.

"Hey, hey, what do you think?" You know?

It's way over the top, and I'm just I'm trying to flirt with her.

Hey. Oh, this is perfect. You're both here.

Do you guys have a minute to chat?

- What's going on with you? - What's going on with you?

- Okay. - [Robyn] Bring it.

Oh, you actually want to talk to us?

- Yeah. - [Robyn] Yes, she does.

So we gotta focus.

Maybe that's the reason she's so excited.

All right, leaning over the counter.

[Aurora] Leaning in. Wow, that's so--

What do you gotta... what do you gotta tell us?

So, um, I wanted to talk to you guys,

sort of like about everything that's been going on with me.

I've been going to the church,

this local church that I've been going to and getting really involved,

and I really I feel like I've found a place that, like,

fosters a really good environment for me to, like, grow closer to God.

And I wanted to talk to you guys about getting baptized.

In... uh... into that church?

Not into the church.

Well, I mean, like, isn't that what it is? Like...

- Hmm. - Or how do you feel about that?

Okay.

I came from a church where

you're getting baptized, you're joining the religion.

I'm wondering, "Aurora, are you committing your life to God

or are you committing your life to a church?"

I want to know.

[Robyn] Oh, wow. Baptism is a big step.

That's a big commitment.

Just has me a little concerned because it's so fast.

- Well, I'm like your question is sort of valid. - Yeah.

It's sort of where I'm... I'm thinking It's like...

- about joining a church. - You wanna-- you're--

You're ready... you're ready to join that church?

Aurora has been baptized in our church.

But she doesn't consider herself a member anymore.

Now this is just a very different

like baptism experience for her all the way around.

I'm not being baptized in that church to be a part of that church.

It's not... it's not about the church.

It's about me finding my, like, steps and finding my relationship with God.

And me kind of going,

"This is what I want to do. This is what I found."

So you see it as just you're making a commitment to God and Christ,

- that your life belongs to God and Christ. - Yeah.

I see it that way, and that's how they present it, as like,

"This is a decision that you make for yourself and your life."

That's the right answer to me.

That's beautiful. I like that a lot.

Yeah, okay. So, you guys...

Well, hold on. I'm still... I'm still suspicious.

What does the baptism mean to you then?

This is my declaration to say that I love God and I put faith in him.

- What do you think? - I prayed for that for you.

Every one of you kids.

Thank you.

I've been saying my whole life to my children, "Find your path to God."

I'm proud of you.

[voice shaking] Thank you.

I'm very proud.

Through my life, I found myself sometimes feeling just...

lifted, wind beneath my wings type of experience with God.

And then other times I'm asking him...

where he is.

But I always feel a sense of something.

When you're going, "Hey, God.

You know, why am I here alone?

Where are you In this mess?"

This was anger over the breakup of the family.

I feel much more, like, humbled to that point

where I am having those moments again.

Those divine moments where I'm aware of that God's...

God's, you know, giving me that wind beneath my wings, so to speak.

[Robyn] So, when are you thinking about...

- Are we... - Less...

I mean, like, is there a time or are you--

- I'm saying a couple weeks? - I can schedule it if I want to.

Um, I want to get baptized soon.

With that, I would like to ask you,

would you... [chuckles]

would you baptize me with my pastor?

So today we're doing a retirement party for Madeline.

I think just put it over there on the edge.

Madeline has been my cook here at the B&B since I opened.

Um, we're gonna put these in one of those bowls.

We have a lot of very good reviews

because of her cooking.

Hello.

Hello.

Come in.

I'm so glad to see you.

I'm so glad to see you!

- Come in. - Hi.

[Meri] Okay, look.

- You what? - I said I might cry just a little bit today.

- Come here. - I know.

[laughs] You don't even care.

This is what Jenn got for you.

And then you have to introduce us to all your family.

Okay.

[Meri] So, my mom passes away. We still have Madeline.

Well, then Madeline retires. Exit Madeline.

And I'm like, now what?

I feel like...

I'm really embarrassed of the food that we have here today.

Well, there's nothing we could do is gonna be as good as Madeline.

- So... - Whatever.

- We already know better. - You shut up.

[laughing]

Come get some food, and get drinks.

[Meri] There's plenty of food.

She is a legendary cook.

She is amazing. She will definitely be missed.

I really, truly just want you to know how much I appreciate you and love you.

And I know Mom did, too.

I'm trying not to cry.

- I'm not gonna make you. - Okay.

- Okay. - Thank you.

[Meri] With Madeline leaving,

I'm like, oh, the universe giving me a sign or something?

Shut down the B&B? Like, I don't know.

The butterflies are going, but I'm really... they're excited butterflies.

It's this scary thing, but it's good. It's unknown.

But I'm finally gonna start living a life I've wanted for a long time.

We have a very long drive ahead of us.

I'm sure that we'll be switching around.

But for now, Christine and I are in my truck.

Truely and David are in the other truck, the moving truck.

Checks at 303. That's coming up soon now.

Probably like half an hour.

[Janelle] Every time I go across country,

I like to hit something a little bit different,

something new that I've never seen.

I mean, who wants to go across country and stop

at the same gas stations or whatever?

Because we wanted to break up the trip,

we've been sort of looking around and doing some research

on where we could stop.

And I saw this place Plotz Plot on social media.

The whole idea behind Plotz Plot

is that you're gonna leave a symbol of your old life

and truly, physically walk away from it.

Leave it behind.

You punch in the code, you open it,

and you could look inside at these things

that other people left to show their transition.

And then whatever you have, you tag it.

And you leave it there as well, and that's it.

And you lock it up and you leave.

[Janelle] This is definitely off the beaten path.

I do not know what's out here,

but we're gonna try to find it. I hope we can find it.

I just have a dream catcher.

But I guess it's changing of dreams.

- From one dream to another. - Okay.

- That's awesome. - Like I used to have dreams for something,

but my dreams just shifted and became different.

- That's good. - I do have a lot of dreams and nightmares, mind you.

All kinds of ones where we're living together

in the same house again, and I'm like, "Where's David?"

- [laughs] - "Where's David in all of this?

And why am I married to Kody again?

I don't know how this is happening."

So of course I've had, like,

upsetting dreams since I left Kody.

But sometimes I still dream that I'm with him.

It's hard. It's not anything--

I don't want to relive the past.

People are like, "Would you do it all over again?"

I'm like, "I'm not going to answer that question,

because I just move on."

I'm just moving on.

He doesn't even-- Like, I don't... yeah.

Like, I don't think about him or dream about him,

or anything. It's so weird.

- Nothing? - No.

Like, not even nightmares or anything like that?

Oh, my gosh, I wake up in a panic sometimes.

Really?

You ended it really well, though, I think.

Well, I think, really, we were...

It was over a long time ago.

Like, it slowly died. It was a slow-die.

[Christine] There was a time where he was, like,

all-- I saw that he was all excited

to go on a birthday date with you.

Look, I-- [chuckles] I kind of just--

I just didn't want-- I mean, like I was--

Like, I had no prospects for my dinner, my birthday.

Like, he called and he's like, "Do you want to go out?"

I'm like, "Yeah, I guess."

Because it's like I don't-- yeah.

I was gonna be home alone.

My kids were busy.

It's like, you know, "Okay, I'll go out."

- He had a different thing in mind completely. - I know.

[laughs]

Oh, my gosh.

Sorry. I mean, I've been married to him a long time.

- He owed me that. You know how this is. - There you go.

This is one of those conversations

you have with your girlfriend

that are not meant to be overheard by a lot of people.

Bravo for her.

[Kody] So if you wanted to go out for your birthday

and I wanted to go to the nicest restaurant

in all of Arizona...

It would be like Mariposa or something.

It would be Mariposa, wouldn't it?

- Did you really? - Yeah.

Get a reservation at Mariposa?

- Yeah, I did. - Honey, thank you!

Wow.

And, like, we just had fun.

We just kind of kicked around. We went to dinner.

We didn't talk about anything serious.

And Christine likes to tease me

that he was expecting more.

And I don't know. It was--

I didn't think so, but...

Nothing was on my mind,

but we're in the friend zone.

This was just me trying to have a nice time

without any expectations.

People always ask, "What was the final straw?"

[Janelle] When we found the location for Plotz Plot,

it was down a dirt road,

and we didn't want to take a big moving truck.

So we parked it by the side of the road

and Truely and David hopped into the truck.

[David] Janelle, you got this. Remember...

- Remember the-- Moab. - The Moab.

- Like, that sound trip. Stopping-- - That's right.

"Don't stop on the side." I'm like--

And I was so scared the first time I was going over.

I'm like, "Oh, my God, I'm gonna sink into the sand!"

[David] What is this place called?

[Christine] This is the Plotz Plot.

It looks like just this utility shed in the middle of nowhere.

[Christine] I have stuff to leave behind.

I'm gonna tell you guys what it is.

So one is a dreamcatcher. I bought this in Flagstaff.

So it's two-part. One is to leave Flagstaff behind

because I still have trauma over Flagstaff.

I admit it.

And then it's about like these dreams,

because we really had great dreams about polygamy.

But it's time for new dreams.

And so, I like my new dreams now better.

- Okay. - So mine is the jewelry,

the necklace that he designed for me,

the tree.

I brought the necklace that Kody designed for me

when Robyn had her business.

Kody designed necklaces for all his wives,

and mine was this tree.

Oh, my-- that black

- is so extremely awesome. - It's centered off of a heart.

I am so in love with it.

I love the tree design, but this one symbolizes Kody

because it's something that Kody made for me.

It's nice to make the gesture

of just leaving that life behind.

And hit-- Oh.

- [Janelle] Oh, wow! - Oh!

[Janelle] Do you think they come and they empty it out

once in a while?

[David] There's two heads in there.

Whoa, look at that old camera.

Wait. The Cheetos bag is the best.

[Janelle] Plotz Plot was built to honor David Plotz.

He was a CEO of a company, and he was moving on.

It was a big time of transition.

So it's kind of become now this pilgrimage site.

If you have a big life transition,

you're going to leave something behind

and step into the new life.

So it was interesting to kind of read

what everybody had left behind.

Their note and everything like that.

It was very cool. It was very worth the stop.

This is amazing.

[Christine] All right, I'm leaving mine behind.

There we go.

So, I'm leaving behind

the necklace that Kody designed for me.

I'm gonna make my own tree. I'm gonna build my own--

I'm gonna make my own tree.

Oh, right here.

[Janelle] This trip is somewhat symbolic, right?

Because I'm leaving the place I've always lived.

I'm going to somewhere so completely foreign.

I'm stepping into a new life.

I'm leaving behind my friends.

I'm leaving it all behind.

I really did sort of mourn the loss of the necklace

when I walked away

because I loved it.

But it was time to kind of leave it.

It's interesting as I've been going through my stuff,

it's like, "Oh, I don't need that anymore.

I don't need that anymore."

It's weird how...

when you physically get rid of something,

how it makes you feel lighter.

Like, I have felt that, like,

so much in the past year.

Ever since Aurora and Breanna

started attending this one church,

they've really enjoyed it.

[Kody] When she said that, I was stunned.

I was stunned.

I was like, "Really?

Okay, so I can help baptize you?"

I mean, they're not looking.

They're not checking for my authority,

or they're asking me, you know,

"Who ordained you?" or anything like that.

I mean, these are the things going through my head

because that was really the religion I grew up in.

Is he okay with that?

Yes.

Thank you.

Including Kody, and her asking him,

I feel like is a way for us to kind of be included

and a part of it

and, uh, not feel so much like an outsider.

Well, you better give your mom a hug, too.

Thank you, guys.

So... [chuckles]

[Aurora] I was so nervous.

You were nervous?

[all laughing]

It feels to me like the right thing for her.

She's following her life path...

and her beliefs.

And I support that.

I need to find a man.

I've dated.

I have gone on multiple dates with some people.

Don't keep texting me when I've said,

"I don't see this happening."

[Janelle] We're driving along.

We're all here on the road together.

David and Truely are coming along in the moving van.

Christina and I are here in the truck.

And we're just driving.

[Christine] I thought a lot about our trips.

[laughing] Do you remember?

We would get to a hotel--

And I think you were always

in a different phase than I was in.

I was so much more needy than you.

I didn't realize I was super-needy.

But I remember now, looking back,

and it was like I was needy.

I had some needs that weren't being met.

And I was needy.

And so I remember we'd get to hotels always,

and he never would say where he was going to stay.

- We never knew. - Oh, yeah, no. Yeah.

So it would be like, "Well, what are you gonna do?"

I used to dread he would stay with me

because he was such a disruption.

- I just want to have my own space. - There you go.

You know, Kody was always pretty good about

being very-- really fair with his time.

He would just sort of, you know,

stay with one family, and then he'd move on.

When we would travel, it was like all bets were out.

Why is that? Is that just a state of...

I have no idea.

He's very flighty.

I really...

wasn't really paying attention to Kody's schedule.

I don't know. I just...

[exhales] I was okay if he wasn't there,

and I was okay if he was there.

It was great either way. I don't know.

It seemed like it was a thing a lot for...

a couple of my sister wives.

I'm a planner. Like, I want to know what to expect.

And I just very often wouldn't get that kind of respect,

you know, to even just know,

and he would just like show up.

I was flying by the seat of my pants,

most of the time, just creative.

I've seen other people who are much more

well-organized with flexibility,

and then I've seen people who are just completely rigid,

you know, where there is no flexibility.

I've known polygamists

who wouldn't even stay with his wife on her birthday

because it was out of the sync of the schedule

to celebrate your birthday

on the night that I stay with you.

For me, I believe, in retrospect,

that my style of living plural marriage

was a little bit too flexible.

[Jenn] It's the end of an era.

- That quickly. - [Meri] I know.

It's a really sad end of an era.

I know.

[Meri] So... [sighs]

[laughs] Now what?

[sighs deeply]

I know that sigh.

- You're like-- - [sighs dramatically]

"I don't want to keep doing the B and B."

- I already know it. - I don't.

I don't. The B and B...

- was never my dream. - Mmm.

It just made sense.

- It just made sense. - Yeah.

Having the house was my dream.

So you got that dream.

- What's your next dream? - [sighs] I don't know.

I need to find a man.

A dreamy man.

"A dreamy man."

[chuckles] Oh-ho.

You know, I'm definitely open to finding a man.

Like, I have no intention of living my life single.

Um, I...

I've dated a little bit.

I've gone out on dates.

And I am enjoying meeting people

and talking to people.

But I have not found my person yet.

I just need to figure out what to do with the house.

You've got plenty of rooms, though.

You could have a man for every room.

What's a-- what's a polygamy family called

if it's lots of husbands and just one wife?

- Is it still polygamy? - I think it's still polygamy.

- Backwards polygamy? - I don't want that, though.

I'm not very interested.

I've dated. I have met people.

I have gone on multiple dates with some people.

There's been some friend zones.

There have been some

"I'm gonna block your phone numbers" for sure.

Uh... [laughs]

Like, don't keep texting me when I said,

"I don't see this happening."

I think it needs to...

morph more into an event space.

I'm not set on I have to stay here.

I don't know who I'm going to find.

I don't know if I'm going to find somebody

who has a business in...

Minnesota.

[laughs] You know what I mean?

Like, I don't-- I don't know.

I want people to experience the home.

Yeah.

Make memories at Lizzie's Heritage Inn.

I think that's part of why I'm like

I don't know that I want to move into the house

and have it be my house

because I don't know that it's going to be my house.

It just depends on the man that I find, I guess,

and what we decide to do together.

I am really just embracing

this "whatever happens is going to happen."

I'm open to options.

It's exciting to see what might come my way.

So, we'll see.

[Kody] Well, our church would say

we've got a spiritual marriage,

Janelle and I.

Robyn's believing in that

still says they need to have these marriages dissolved.

Skip it all, go have sex with somebody,

then that marriage is over.

You can move on.

That's the dumbest thing I've ever heard.

[Janelle] You know, I remember when we first went public

and we introduced this term "sister wives,"

somehow it felt like something that we shouldn't...

be sharing far and wide.

And now, I love it

'cause so many people reach out to me

and say, "Oh, my sister wife."

And I love it 'cause that's really

what the term was intended to be,

woman who are working together

for the good of a family, right?

You know, that's the whole idea.

[Christine] People refer to each other as sister wives

when they're just really good friends,

and Janelle and I really were,

and so we just decided to be.

We realized that, you know what,

we're just going to stay sister wives forever.

But I wouldn't really consider Robyn or Meri my sister wives.

No, it's just not the same bond there.

- It's not the same bond. - It's not there.

It's not the same relationship with them.

Like, I wish-- I wish them well.

But Christine and I definitely had our share of struggles.

We were not always friends.

We were not always friendly.

But now, you take out the whole Kody factor

and all we have is this-- this, um...

left is the kids and this shared experience.

And I have that history with Robyn and Meri.

They were there, too.

There just was never the same connection...

with them.

I-- Just personalities.

Robyn and Meri found each other.

They had more in common, maybe,

the way they saw the world. I don't know.

I wish Meri well.

- I really do hope... - Yeah.

Like, I really-- I want all the good things for her

because I feel like she's been through the wringer.

I hope she can get in a loving relationship.

I know that she, like--

- You know, it might be a game changer for her... - ...I heard she wants that.

...if she really saw someone who actually could treat her,

- like, I don't know... - Nice.

I don't know. Like, it's so weird.

I don't-- Bless her heart. She's very loyal.

She hung out.

She stuck it out because that was her belief, or whatever.

Well, it was the whole religion thing, too.

- I mean, same as you. - Yeah. Yeah.

- Like, I-- - I don't know how-- I still...

- I still don't know-- - Yeah!

- I still don't know-- - Spiritual divorce.

See, like, I think she got one.

- No, like, I-- - Apparently,

until you have sex with the next guy,

- you're not divorced anyway. - Oh, I just think that's bull [bleep].

- [laughs] - I'm sorry.

I mean, I think that's dogmatic.

Like I don't-- I'm, like, whatever.

I've never heard that in my life.

I mean, that's a dogma I used to hear...

- Yeah. - ...and I used to be like,

"Okay, whatever."

Robyn said, in the church we used to belong to,

they teach that you're not divorced

until you basically have sex with the next guy.

Skip it all, go have sex with somebody,

then that marriage is over.

You can move on.

You know?

That's the dumbest thing I've ever heard.

It kind of bothers me that Christine's so flippant about

"Well, you should just go sleep with somebody,"

because my brain doesn't work that way.

I mean, the boundaries were set in place because these are families.

Um, otherwise, if it's just some guy

goes and gets a girlfriend and starts sleeping around,

it's just a bunch of baby mamas.

But we are a family.

We are raising children together

as a family structure,

not just a whole bunch of women

who are sleeping with some guy.

Until I have sex with somebody,

that means I'm still attached to Kody?

I don't think it means that.

I think it really is more for...

if you're going to go outside of your marriage

and have sexual relations,

then now you-- or that marriage is nullified.

- So... - But...

...spiritual-- So as far as that goes,

- spiritually-- - Yeah, I don't know.

- ...anything like that-- - Like, I, um...

Have you, like, talked to God and figured that out?

What does he think about all of it?

I'm not asking, because I just don't care.

I know Meri has just recently gotten a release,

like what we call a "release," which is a divorce.

And it's made me think, huh,

I kind of like the idea of getting a spiritual release,

but I don't even know who to call.

I didn't feel like I needed

a spiritual divorce from Meri.

But I didn't feel like I needed

a spiritual divorce from Christine.

I don't know if there's some kind of karmic connection

that Janelle and I are obligated to still.

Robyn's believing in that

still says they need to have these marriages dissolved

or whatever.

In the end, God will be able to sort it out.

Like, what is going on with the property now, I guess?

Well, it's all still sitting there.

- Um-- - Like, at Coyote Pass.

Mmm-hmm.

I've got to make something happen.

Like, I want my money out of it because I have

this other project I want to work on now.

It's costing me a lot of money,

like, more than I had wanted to... to spend,

but I've got to get a lawyer involved.

For two decades,

it was a combined pot of money,

and we just took care of whoever needed to be taken care of.

It really took me a long time to get out of that mindset.

And I really thought that...

by putting my resources towards Robyn's house

that eventually the time would come around

that it would be our turn,

my turn, Christine's turn, Meri's turn, whatever.

But that never really happened.

Janelle, when she sold her home in Vegas,

the proceeds from the sale of that

went into Robyn's home.

It went into Robyn's home.

Why?

I don't know what they're getting out of it.

They don't know how much they're going to get out of the property still.

Dealing anything finances with him is just terrible.

Yeah. Ugh. Don't sign me up for that.

You know, I really did catch on too late

that, all of a sudden, there was a change in thought

that resources weren't for the benefit of the whole family.

It seems to be a very big hot button

for Kody and Robyn.

And they're always trying to revise history

about how things were paid or what was paid.

This is a-- this is a tough conversation for me

because I'm just like, "Wait a minute.

We worked together for so long,

and I helped so much with...

these... these earlier years."

Like, for me, it's like, okay, this feels balanced.

I tried to help Janelle buy a house.

And she got mad at me.

She wanted that RV lifestyle, I guess.

Now that everybody's broken up,

they want to say, "I didn't get something,"

or, "I gave something, but you didn't."

We were just making sure everybody was taken care of.

So Kody always likes to say,

"Well, I offered to help you buy a house."

Well, he wanted me to buy Christine's house,

which I didn't really like.

Look, I would love to have that cash now.

It would go a really long way

on my new project in North Carolina.

I love the view of the mountains there.

Coyote Pass.

- It is beautiful. - And I wasn't willing to give it up

until I have this new dream.

This is-- like, this is it.

Like, this is where I'm gonna live.

Like, I'm...

and I can make those final decisions

about what I want to do.

I'm moving to North Carolina,

we're going to get this land,

and I will be building a house.

I've got it all mapped out,

and there's no other plan.

This is the first time in my life I've just stepped off

and hoped that that other-- the other step was there.

So this has to work.

I'm sitting here in this bar in Louisiana,

having a shot, and I'm like,

"Wow, my life is about to really change."

- [exclaims] - Ooh.

I'm a little nervous because I have never done a shot.

- [laughing] - Holy Wow! Now I feel my legs.

- What? - [laughs] Yes.

[Janelle] After a really long day driving,

we all wanted to go out to eat.

Truely wanted to stay behind.

She was peopled out.

She wanted to just be at the hotel.

So we went to dinner, and then Christine and David

wanted to take me to a bar.

I have a glass of wine once in a while at dinner,

and Dave's like, "No, we're going to do shots."

- [chuckling] - [David] Okay.

- Pub time. Pub 13. - Did you see that?

- Nice. - Yeah.

- This is-- - I like the bar's head here.

Yeah. [laughs] Yeah.

Oh, yeah, I've been to a bar.

I still don't really quite get the mechanics

of how you order a drink.

I don't mind being a bad influence at all.

I think she needs a little bit of a bad influence.

Janelle does. She's always been very good and very kind.

I would look silly if I were just to go in a bar myself

because I don't even know how to...

order a drink if there's a bar, or...

So.

All right.

I'm a little nervous because I have never done a shot.

Like, I never have.

Are you ready for your first one?

- Yeah, I'll have a whiskey. - You've done shots before.

- Come on. - No, I haven't-- I haven't.

When I grew up in the church,

we didn't drink alcohol,

we didn't drink coffee.

I guess, as the years went by,

we sort of started slowly kind of stepping away.

First, we had some wine... on Friday night

when we were all together,

or we'd have a glass of wine when we were out.

I think as we got further and further away from our congregation,

it just started to sort of come into the family.

It just started to creep in.

There were so many things in our-- in our old church

that, once I started putting pieces together,

it was control.

The whole outside world is fear.

Like, it's so much fear.

That's just control.

Christine enjoys having a drink.

I don't-- I don't know about Meri.

I haven't really been around her very much. Um...

And I know Kody likes having a drink.

But...

it was just never my thing.

We need shots.

- [bartender] Ah. - First shots.

What do you recommend for just a good shot?

Well, what are you celebrating?

A purchase of property and a purchase of a new home.

Yeah.

A new life. Like, kind of a new life.

All right, well, any...

- anything you wanna try? - I don't have a clue.

I don't even have a clue how to order.

Make it fun.

I think we ought to try...

this thing I tried in Wyoming.

It's called a slippery nipple.

It's really good.

- [chuckles] Okay. - It's really good.

- [Christine] Okay. - Butterscotch and Baileys.

Oh, I'm down.

These drinks always have these really crazy names.

I'm always like, who makes up these names?

I've never had a slippery nipple.

I have no idea what one is.

It's a great title for a first drink. Yes.

You've never done a shot before?

No. Never. Never.

- You do shots before your kids. - Like, it's a lot.

- [David] You can't sip it either. - You can't--

You just down it.

- Oh, God, yeah. - You'll be fine.

This isn't-- this isn't a tea for a tea party.

- Shots, shots, shots, shots. - No. I don't know.

[Christine] I've done it with your children.

What if I can't keep it down?

You'll be fine.

Okay, I can do this.

I can do this. This isn't a big deal.

This isn't a big deal.

Oh, my gosh, I'm seriously worried about this.

- This is intimidating. - Okay, let's cheers first.

- Whoa, I'm messing up. - Oh. Oh, messy.

You drink it all at once?

- Yeah. - Yeah, you down it.

Ugh.

If you sip it, then you don't want to drink it.

Ugh.

- Okay, cheers. - I'm a little bit like...

You do cheers. Cheers.

- New beginnings. - New beginnings.

Your house.

- Great adventures. - No, your property.

- My house. - Property.

- Moab. - Cheers, baby.

- Moab. - One, two, three.

[exclaims]

- Ooh! - That's good, huh?

Whoo!

That's not bad.

That's-- that's an easy one.

Mmm! That's smooth!

That's not bad.

"That's not bad."

- Come on, that was smooth. - Come on.

- It has good flavor. - Wait for it.

- Ow. Yeah. - The finishing of butterscotch.

Ow. Yeah. That's good.

That's a good one there.

- Okay, that's all I better have. - Yummy.

That's good, baby.

- You were right. - That is really yummy.

You know, I didn't know what to expect

because you always see people on the TV

and they shoot it and then they cough.

I think David took it easy on me,

and he made it with one that had a lot of...

sugar and stuff in it.

So, yes, it burns,

but it was pretty sweet.

Two more of those. But then what do you want, Janelle?

Um, I don't know.

Just a beer, probably, or something.

That's nice.

That's fun.

I don't feel, um, mentally compromised.

Like, I've never actually had more than one drink.

Um, so I don't know.

But, again, I don't think that's one of those things.

I don't know if I really need to experience being drunk.

It just doesn't appeal to me.

- [David laughing] - Holy wow! Now I feel my legs.

- What? - Yes.

Like, it's in my leg.

- What? Oh, my goodness. - [laughing]

I-- I don't drink.

Like, I'd rather eat my sugar than drink it.

[chuckling] Oh, gosh.

I haven't had-- Okay, no. I've never had a shot before.

But I'm really not that religious about it.

So, okay, a little sip of that whiskey.

[smacks lips] Just a taste.

Oh, dude! That's gasoline.

You know? I mean, it just cracks me up.

It's like, "You drink this?"

[laughing] It cracks me up.

I have done one shot ever.

It was nasty.

I have no idea what it was.

There was no puking involved.

I've actually never been drunk.

[chuckles] No, I've-- I've--

Yeah, no, I've never had a shot at a bar.

I've never really even been in a bar.

- All right. - All right.

- Yes. - Oh, my gosh.

- All right. - Cheers, baby.

To our lives.

Yeah. Wow.

Mmm!

That's yummy.

So, your first experience at the bar...

- Yeah. - It's not intimidating, right?

- It's okay. - No. No, it's easy.

- [laughs] - It's fun. I'm actually glad to kind of come in.

- Yeah. Just chill. - Just chill for a little bit.

It's a cute little bar. Like, it has all the ambience I expected.

[Kody] There's something still wrong in my relationship

with me and Janelle, and I'm completely left out.

She wanted to move without me knowing.

If I overanalyze it,

it gets a little hurtful.

More than anything, it could be just getting away from me

and the experience we've had

to get to something that's better.

I don't know.

You know, it's so funny. I'm sitting here in this bar

in Louisiana, having a shot, and I'm like,

"Wow, my life is about to really change."

Like, it's just different.

Having a drink in a bar is no big deal.

But, you know, it's a new experience,

and I'm looking forward to a whole bunch of new experiences.

Like, I, in theory, I intellectually understand

what we're going to be facing

with the project that we're taking on.

But to actually do the work

is a whole nother thing.

I feel invigorated. Like, I'm 55,

I'm-- it's a new chapter,

like, I'm-- I'm-- like, I'm excited.

Change and growth are scary, right?

And we don't always want to get out of our comfort zone.

But when you do, I feel like

it's the most interesting place to live your life.

[Kody] Coming this spring on Sister Wives...

There's so many people that are like,

"She was a liar-- she's manipulating."

I had this bond with her and I'm now questioning

why tell me that you want to have a relationship with me

and then ghost me for months and months and months?

She'd act like she was your best friend...

and then completely ignore you.

That's really [bleep] up.

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You ever sit there and feel--

wish that we were in a plural relationship?

The question in my head is are we gonna try

you know, live a plural marriage again?

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He could sell the 2-acre piece he and Robyn own

and the 5 acres.

There is a few things that I will fight for

and this is one of them.

I'm not trying to rip you off, Meri!

This all imagined in Janelle's head because

Janelle feels like

"Oh, I got divorced so I deserve something."

So, are you excited about this?

No. Not at all.

Hey, Kodi!

How are ya?

Good. I'm all right. I'm doing all right.

- I am so sick and tired... - Wait. Let's get back...

...of being guilted for loving Robyn.

There could be a great man who loves to work in the dirt...

- Maybe. - ...and help you on that farm.

Maybe so. I promise you I am not asexual.

[laughs] I promise you.

I totally prefer to just meet somebody organically.

There has to be physical attraction.

There has to be intellectual attraction.

I definitely don't want someone whose such

a prima donna like Kody is.

We're all supposed to be Robyn?

I wish they all would focus on their own relationships

without my name coming up.

Polygamy doesn't work if you're going to actually fall in love.

And you fell in love?

I fell in love hard. Hard.

We've all seen their engagement photos.

I wonder how close they got before they were married?

Did you have any other sexual experiences before Meri?

- Okay, listen Suki. - Right?

I want to shut you down, now.

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