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[Kody]
Previously on Sister Wives...

So, we put an offer in
on 165 acres

and it was just accepted
a few days ago.

- In North Carolina?
- [Janelle] Uh-huh.

Oh, my gosh.

You guys are-- you're gonna--
you have land.

You're... you now have land.

Yeah. Gonna be farmers.

You definitely got
some special land out here.

Sorry. You are not, like,
the head of my family.

[Meri]
I feel like Kody and Robyn
probably have some plan

of what they want to do
and how they
want to handle it.

I think that Janelle
has some sort of plan,

and none of us are
talking to each other

because none of us
trust each other.

I think it's time for somebody
to be pushing my interest.

I probably will get a lawyer.

This is the end of this family
right here, right now.

And every time I start
making plans for this place,

I remember
we're gonna try and sell it.

It's a special place that was
meant to be more special.

And now has a lot of pain,

and I don't even know
what to do with it.

[theme music playing]

Today is the day I'm gonna
move my stuff
to, uh, North Carolina.

Hey, guys. Sorry.

I had to throw a last couple
of things in my truck, so...

- [woman] You ready to move?
- Yeah.

It required
a big moving truck.

You know what? Do we--

I was thinking about this
last night
because I couldn't sleep.

I'm so stressed out
about this move.

Should we put a ratchet strap
holding that desk in place?

Or you think it's okay?

- Oh, that desk ain't
going nowhere.
- [Janelle] Okay.

And I'm scared to drive it.

So, Christine said
she and David would
come down and help me.

I will still have Garrison,
Gabriel and Savanah in Flag.

Can I live without
these big mountains
that I'm used to?

Because it's gonna
be a totally
different experience.

You ready to leave Flagstaff?

- Yeah, I love it.
- Yeah?

I love it, but I'm...
I'm ready.

Also I guess maybe
because this is now an option.

- I'm like, "Oh, it's time."
- Yeah.

I love Flagstaff.

I love everything about it.
It feels like a small town.

The mountains are right there.

There's tons of
hiking and camping
and fishing and all of it.

But it's time. It's time
to do something different.

I'm sad to be leaving,
and I'm really excited
to be going.

And I'm a little bit
intimidated by this project
that we're biting off.

Like, really
a lot intimidated.

Maddie and Caleb and I
have bought over
150 acres in North Carolina,

and I'm just excited

because we're going to
build some homes,

we're going to have
a flower farm

and just start a whole new
chapter of my life there.

- All right, guys, people.
- [David] Ready to roll out?

Ready to roll out.
Hit the road.

- All right, guys.
- Okay. Bye. Love you.

Bye.

So I'm not sleeping so great
because it's like, I wake up
at 3:00 in the morning

and my head is just spinning
because this is
a huge step. I have...

I have I spent all my
summers with
my grandparents in Florida.

Like, I understand
the Southeast. I love it.

But I've never lived there.

It's big. It's really big.

I will tell you that when
I came in one of the times,
the first time, um, here...

It closes super fast.

Yeah?

[Janelle] As we're leaving
the storage facility,

the gate there is, um,
really timed.

David is pulling the big truck
through the gate.

And he stops
kind of straddling
where the gate is.

Okay. No, he can't stop.
He can't stop. He can't stop.

- He can't stop.
- Okay.

Go, go, go!

Go ahead, go.

- [beeping]
- [bleep]

Like, he really can't stop.

- No.
- Like, they close so fast.

We've made the reference
several times

about Thelma and Louise.

Janelle... we have.

We haven't killed anybody
or anything like that.

We're not robbing,
anything like that.

Maybe, yet. Who knows?

I don't know.
But it does feel like

we're going on an adventure
and going on with our lives.

And, you know,
girl power, woman power.

[Kody] I don't know
how to explain this.

It was never intended
for me to know that
Janelle was moving.

One of my children
at their admission,
slipped up and told me,

and then said,
"Please don't repeat that or
pretend you never heard it."

I didn't tell Kody.
I didn't see
any reason to tell him.

Our lives are not overlapping
in any way.

I just didn't really feel like
it was any of his business
what I was doing.

I kind of look
at Meri still as a friend,

and I'm sure both of us
will mutually
get back to that place.

I hope that Meri and I
will just be friends.

[clears throat]
I hear about Christine

falling in love
and getting married
and stuff like this.

And I'm like, well,
"Good on...
good on Christine."

Janelle was a different story.

I always thought,
I just felt like Janelle and I
could have worked it out.

[Robyn] Hey.

- Hey.
- What you doing?

I'm trying to turn you on.

[laughs]

What, by washing the dishes?

- Yeah, I know
what it does to you.
- [laughs]

- Is that right?
- Sure.

I think one of the quickest
ways to a woman's heart
is to clean the house.

I'm always looking
for her attention.

I'm notorious for
coming out of a shower,

putting a towel
around my waist
and flexing and going.

"Hey, hey, what do you think?"
You know?

It's way over the top,
and I'm just I'm trying
to flirt with her.

Hey. Oh, this is perfect.
You're both here.

Do you guys have
a minute to chat?

- What's going on with you?
- What's going on with you?

- Okay.
- [Robyn] Bring it.

Oh, you actually
want to talk to us?

- Yeah.
- [Robyn] Yes, she does.

So we gotta focus.

Maybe that's the reason
she's so excited.

All right,
leaning over the counter.

[Aurora] Leaning in.
Wow, that's so--

What do you gotta...
what do you gotta tell us?

So, um, I wanted to
talk to you guys,

sort of like about everything
that's been going on with me.

I've been going
to the church,

this local church that
I've been going to
and getting really involved,

and I really I feel like
I've found a place that, like,

fosters a really good
environment for me
to, like, grow closer to God.

And I wanted to
talk to you guys
about getting baptized.

In... uh...
into that church?

Not into the church.

Well, I mean, like,
isn't that what it is? Like...

- Hmm.
- Or how do you feel
about that?

Okay.

I came from a church where

you're getting baptized,
you're joining the religion.

I'm wondering, "Aurora,
are you committing
your life to God

or are you committing
your life to a church?"

I want to know.

[Robyn] Oh, wow.
Baptism is a big step.

That's a big commitment.

Just has me a little concerned
because it's so fast.

- Well, I'm like your question
is sort of valid.
- Yeah.

It's sort of where I'm...
I'm thinking It's like...

- about joining a church.
- You wanna-- you're--

You're ready...
you're ready
to join that church?

Aurora has been baptized
in our church.

But she doesn't
consider herself
a member anymore.

Now this is just
a very different

like baptism experience
for her all the way around.

I'm not being baptized
in that church
to be a part of that church.

It's not...
it's not about the church.

It's about me finding
my, like, steps and finding
my relationship with God.

And me kind of going,

"This is what I want to do.
This is what I found."

So you see it as just
you're making a commitment
to God and Christ,

- that your life belongs
to God and Christ.
- Yeah.

I see it that way,
and that's how
they present it, as like,

"This is a decision
that you make
for yourself and your life."

That's the right answer to me.

That's beautiful.
I like that a lot.

Yeah, okay. So, you guys...

Well, hold on. I'm still...
I'm still suspicious.

What does the baptism
mean to you then?

This is my declaration
to say that I love God
and I put faith in him.

- What do you think?
- I prayed for that for you.

Every one of you kids.

Thank you.

I've been saying
my whole life to my children,
"Find your path to God."

I'm proud of you.

[voice shaking] Thank you.

I'm very proud.

Through my life,
I found myself sometimes
feeling just...

lifted, wind beneath my wings
type of experience with God.

And then other times
I'm asking him...

where he is.

But I always feel a sense
of something.

When you're going,
"Hey, God.

You know,
why am I here alone?

Where are you In this mess?"

This was anger over
the breakup of the family.

I feel much more, like,
humbled to that point

where I am having
those moments again.

Those divine moments where
I'm aware of that God's...

God's, you know, giving me
that wind beneath my wings,
so to speak.

[Robyn] So, when are you
thinking about...

- Are we...
- Less...

I mean, like, is there
a time or are you--

- I'm saying a couple weeks?
- I can schedule it
if I want to.

Um, I want to
get baptized soon.

With that,
I would like to ask you,

would you... [chuckles]

would you baptize me
with my pastor?

So today we're doing
a retirement party
for Madeline.

I think just put it over there
on the edge.

Madeline has been
my cook here
at the B&B since I opened.

Um, we're gonna put these
in one of those bowls.

We have a lot of
very good reviews

because of her cooking.

Hello.

Hello.

Come in.

I'm so glad to see you.

I'm so glad to see you!

- Come in.
- Hi.

[Meri] Okay, look.

- You what?
- I said I might cry
just a little bit today.

- Come here.
- I know.

[laughs]
You don't even care.

This is what Jenn got for you.

And then you have
to introduce us
to all your family.

Okay.

[Meri]
So, my mom passes away.
We still have Madeline.

Well, then Madeline retires.
Exit Madeline.

And I'm like, now what?

I feel like...

I'm really embarrassed
of the food that
we have here today.

Well, there's nothing
we could do is gonna be
as good as Madeline.

- So...
- Whatever.

- We already know better.
- You shut up.

[laughing]

Come get some food,
and get drinks.

[Meri] There's plenty of food.

She is a legendary cook.

She is amazing.
She will definitely be missed.

I really, truly just want you
to know how much
I appreciate you and love you.

And I know Mom did, too.

I'm trying not to cry.

- I'm not gonna make you.
- Okay.

- Okay.
- Thank you.

[Meri] With Madeline leaving,

I'm like, oh, the universe
giving me a sign or something?

Shut down the B&B?
Like, I don't know.

The butterflies are going,
but I'm really...
they're excited butterflies.

It's this scary thing,
but it's good. It's unknown.

But I'm finally gonna
start living a life
I've wanted for a long time.

We have a very long drive
ahead of us.

I'm sure that
we'll be switching around.

But for now, Christine and I
are in my truck.

Truely and David
are in the other truck,
the moving truck.

Checks at 303.
That's coming up soon now.

Probably like half an hour.

[Janelle] Every time
I go across country,

I like to hit something
a little bit different,

something new
that I've never seen.

I mean, who wants to go
across country and stop

at the same gas stations
or whatever?

Because we wanted to
break up the trip,

we've been sort of
looking around
and doing some research

on where we could stop.

And I saw this place
Plotz Plot on social media.

The whole idea
behind Plotz Plot

is that you're gonna leave
a symbol of your old life

and truly, physically
walk away from it.

Leave it behind.

You punch in the code,
you open it,

and you could look inside
at these things

that other people left
to show their transition.

And then whatever
you have, you tag it.

And you leave it there
as well, and that's it.

And you lock it up
and you leave.

[Janelle] This is definitely
off the beaten path.

I do not know what's out here,

but we're gonna
try to find it.
I hope we can find it.

I just have a dream catcher.

But I guess
it's changing of dreams.

- From one dream to another.
- Okay.

- That's awesome.
- Like I used to have
dreams for something,

but my dreams just shifted
and became different.

- That's good.
- I do have a lot of dreams
and nightmares, mind you.

All kinds of ones
where we're living together

in the same house again,
and I'm like, "Where's David?"

- [laughs]
- "Where's David
in all of this?

And why am I married
to Kody again?

I don't know
how this is happening."

So of course I've had, like,

upsetting dreams
since I left Kody.

But sometimes I still dream
that I'm with him.

It's hard. It's not anything--

I don't want
to relive the past.

People are like, "Would you
do it all over again?"

I'm like, "I'm not going to
answer that question,

because I just move on."

I'm just moving on.

He doesn't even--
Like, I don't... yeah.

Like, I don't think about him
or dream about him,

or anything.
It's so weird.

- Nothing?
- No.

Like, not even nightmares
or anything like that?

Oh, my gosh, I wake up
in a panic sometimes.

Really?

You ended it really well,
though, I think.

Well, I think, really,
we were...

It was over a long time ago.

Like, it slowly died.
It was a slow-die.

[Christine] There was a time
where he was, like,

all-- I saw
that he was all excited

to go on a birthday date
with you.

Look, I-- [chuckles]
I kind of just--

I just didn't want--
I mean, like I was--

Like, I had no prospects for
my dinner, my birthday.

Like, he called and he's like,
"Do you want to go out?"

I'm like, "Yeah, I guess."

Because it's like
I don't-- yeah.

I was gonna be home alone.

My kids were busy.

It's like, you know,
"Okay, I'll go out."

- He had a different thing
in mind completely.
- I know.

[laughs]

Oh, my gosh.

Sorry. I mean, I've been
married to him a long time.

- He owed me that.
You know how this is.
- There you go.

This is one of
those conversations

you have with your girlfriend

that are not meant to be
overheard by a lot of people.

Bravo for her.

[Kody] So if you wanted to
go out for your birthday

and I wanted to go
to the nicest restaurant

in all of Arizona...

It would be like Mariposa
or something.

It would be Mariposa,
wouldn't it?

- Did you really?
- Yeah.

Get a reservation at Mariposa?

- Yeah, I did.
- Honey, thank you!

Wow.

And, like, we just had fun.

We just kind of kicked around.
We went to dinner.

We didn't talk
about anything serious.

And Christine
likes to tease me

that he was expecting more.

And I don't know. It was--

I didn't think so, but...

Nothing was on my mind,

but we're in the friend zone.

This was just me
trying to have a nice time

without any expectations.

People always ask,
"What was the final straw?"

[Janelle] When we found
the location for Plotz Plot,

it was down a dirt road,

and we didn't want to take
a big moving truck.

So we parked it
by the side of the road

and Truely and David
hopped into the truck.

[David] Janelle, you got this.
Remember...

- Remember the-- Moab.
- The Moab.

- Like, that sound trip.
Stopping--
- That's right.

"Don't stop on the side."
I'm like--

And I was so scared the
first time I was going over.

I'm like, "Oh, my God,
I'm gonna sink into the sand!"

[David]
What is this place called?

[Christine]
This is the Plotz Plot.

It looks like
just this utility shed
in the middle of nowhere.

[Christine] I have stuff
to leave behind.

I'm gonna tell you guys
what it is.

So one is a dreamcatcher.
I bought this in Flagstaff.

So it's two-part. One is
to leave Flagstaff behind

because I still have trauma
over Flagstaff.

I admit it.

And then it's about like
these dreams,

because we really had
great dreams about polygamy.

But it's time for new dreams.

And so, I like
my new dreams now better.

- Okay.
- So mine is the jewelry,

the necklace
that he designed for me,

the tree.

I brought the necklace
that Kody designed for me

when Robyn had her business.

Kody designed necklaces
for all his wives,

and mine was this tree.

Oh, my-- that black

- is so extremely awesome.
- It's centered off of a heart.

I am so in love with it.

I love the tree design,
but this one symbolizes Kody

because it's something
that Kody made for me.

It's nice to make the gesture

of just
leaving that life behind.

And hit-- Oh.

- [Janelle] Oh, wow!
- Oh!

[Janelle]
Do you think they come
and they empty it out

once in a while?

[David]
There's two heads in there.

Whoa, look at that old camera.

Wait. The Cheetos bag
is the best.

[Janelle] Plotz Plot was
built to honor David Plotz.

He was a CEO of a company,
and he was moving on.

It was a big time
of transition.

So it's kind of become now
this pilgrimage site.

If you have
a big life transition,

you're going to leave
something behind

and step into the new life.

So it was interesting
to kind of read

what everybody had
left behind.

Their note
and everything like that.

It was very cool.
It was very worth the stop.

This is amazing.

[Christine] All right,
I'm leaving mine behind.

There we go.

So, I'm leaving behind

the necklace
that Kody designed for me.

I'm gonna make my own tree.
I'm gonna build my own--

I'm gonna make my own tree.

Oh, right here.

[Janelle] This trip is
somewhat symbolic, right?

Because I'm leaving
the place I've always lived.

I'm going to somewhere
so completely foreign.

I'm stepping into a new life.

I'm leaving behind my friends.

I'm leaving it all behind.

I really did sort of mourn
the loss of the necklace

when I walked away

because I loved it.

But it was time
to kind of leave it.

It's interesting as I've been
going through my stuff,

it's like, "Oh, I don't
need that anymore.

I don't need that anymore."

It's weird how...

when you physically
get rid of something,

how it makes you feel lighter.

Like, I have felt that, like,

so much in the past year.

Ever since Aurora and Breanna

started attending
this one church,

they've really enjoyed it.

[Kody] When she said that,
I was stunned.

I was stunned.

I was like, "Really?

Okay,
so I can help baptize you?"

I mean, they're not looking.

They're not checking
for my authority,

or they're asking me,
you know,

"Who ordained you?"
or anything like that.

I mean, these are the things
going through my head

because that was really
the religion I grew up in.

Is he okay with that?

Yes.

Thank you.

Including Kody,
and her asking him,

I feel like is a way for us
to kind of be included

and a part of it

and, uh, not feel so much
like an outsider.

Well, you better
give your mom a hug, too.

Thank you, guys.

So... [chuckles]

[Aurora] I was so nervous.

You were nervous?

[all laughing]

It feels to me
like the right thing for her.

She's following her
life path...

and her beliefs.

And I support that.

I need to find a man.

I've dated.

I have gone on multiple dates
with some people.

Don't keep texting me
when I've said,

"I don't see this happening."

[Janelle]
We're driving along.

We're all here
on the road together.

David and Truely are coming
along in the moving van.

Christina and I
are here in the truck.

And we're just driving.

[Christine] I thought a lot
about our trips.

[laughing] Do you remember?

We would get to a hotel--

And I think you were always

in a different phase
than I was in.

I was so much more needy
than you.

I didn't realize
I was super-needy.

But I remember now,
looking back,

and it was like
I was needy.

I had some needs
that weren't being met.

And I was needy.

And so I remember
we'd get to hotels always,

and he never would say
where he was going to stay.

- We never knew.
- Oh, yeah, no. Yeah.

So it would be like, "Well,
what are you gonna do?"

I used to dread
he would stay with me

because he was such
a disruption.

- I just want
to have my own space.
- There you go.

You know, Kody was always
pretty good about

being very--
really fair with his time.

He would just sort of,
you know,

stay with one family,
and then he'd move on.

When we would travel,
it was like all bets were out.

Why is that?
Is that just a state of...

I have no idea.

He's very flighty.

I really...

wasn't really paying attention
to Kody's schedule.

I don't know. I just...

[exhales] I was okay
if he wasn't there,

and I was okay
if he was there.

It was great either way.
I don't know.

It seemed like it was a thing
a lot for...

a couple of my sister wives.

I'm a planner. Like, I want
to know what to expect.

And I just very often wouldn't
get that kind of respect,

you know, to even just know,

and he would just
like show up.

I was flying by
the seat of my pants,

most of the time,
just creative.

I've seen other people
who are much more

well-organized
with flexibility,

and then I've seen people
who are just completely rigid,

you know,
where there is no flexibility.

I've known polygamists

who wouldn't even stay with
his wife on her birthday

because it was out of
the sync of the schedule

to celebrate your birthday

on the night
that I stay with you.

For me, I believe,
in retrospect,

that my style
of living plural marriage

was a little bit too flexible.

[Jenn] It's the end of an era.

- That quickly.
- [Meri] I know.

It's a really sad
end of an era.

I know.

[Meri] So... [sighs]

[laughs] Now what?

[sighs deeply]

I know that sigh.

- You're like--
- [sighs dramatically]

"I don't want to
keep doing the B and B."

- I already know it.
- I don't.

I don't. The B and B...

- was never my dream.
- Mmm.

It just made sense.

- It just made sense.
- Yeah.

Having the house was my dream.

So you got that dream.

- What's your next dream?
- [sighs] I don't know.

I need to find a man.

A dreamy man.

"A dreamy man."

[chuckles] Oh-ho.

You know, I'm definitely open
to finding a man.

Like, I have no intention
of living my life single.

Um, I...

I've dated a little bit.

I've gone out on dates.

And I am enjoying
meeting people

and talking to people.

But I have not
found my person yet.

I just need to figure out
what to do with the house.

You've got plenty of rooms, though.

You could have a man
for every room.

What's a-- what's
a polygamy family called

if it's lots of husbands
and just one wife?

- Is it still polygamy?
- I think it's still polygamy.

- Backwards polygamy?
- I don't want that, though.

I'm not very interested.

I've dated. I have met people.

I have gone on multiple dates
with some people.

There's been
some friend zones.

There have been some

"I'm gonna block
your phone numbers" for sure.

Uh... [laughs]

Like, don't keep texting me
when I said,

"I don't see this happening."

I think it needs to...

morph
more into an event space.

I'm not set on
I have to stay here.

I don't know
who I'm going to find.

I don't know if
I'm going to find somebody

who has a business in...

Minnesota.

[laughs] You know what I mean?

Like, I don't-- I don't know.

I want people
to experience the home.

Yeah.

Make memories
at Lizzie's Heritage Inn.

I think that's part of
why I'm like

I don't know that I want to
move into the house

and have it be my house

because I don't know that
it's going to be my house.

It just depends on the man
that I find, I guess,

and what we decide
to do together.

I am really just embracing

this "whatever happens
is going to happen."

I'm open to options.

It's exciting to see
what might come my way.

So, we'll see.

[Kody] Well,
our church would say

we've got
a spiritual marriage,

Janelle and I.

Robyn's believing in that

still says they need to have
these marriages dissolved.

Skip it all,
go have sex with somebody,

then that marriage is over.

You can move on.

That's the dumbest thing
I've ever heard.

[Janelle] You know,
I remember when
we first went public

and we introduced this term
"sister wives,"

somehow it felt like something
that we shouldn't...

be sharing far and wide.

And now, I love it

'cause so many people
reach out to me

and say, "Oh, my sister wife."

And I love it
'cause that's really

what the term
was intended to be,

woman who are working together

for the good of a family,
right?

You know,
that's the whole idea.

[Christine] People refer to
each other as sister wives

when they're just
really good friends,

and Janelle and I really were,

and so we just decided to be.

We realized that,
you know what,

we're just going to stay
sister wives forever.

But I wouldn't really
consider Robyn or Meri
my sister wives.

No, it's just
not the same bond there.

- It's not the same bond.
- It's not there.

It's not the same
relationship with them.

Like, I wish--
I wish them well.

But Christine and I definitely
had our share of struggles.

We were not always friends.

We were not always friendly.

But now, you take out
the whole Kody factor

and all we have is this--
this, um...

left is the kids
and this shared experience.

And I have that history
with Robyn and Meri.

They were there, too.

There just was never
the same connection...

with them.

I-- Just personalities.

Robyn and Meri
found each other.

They had more in common,
maybe,

the way they saw the world.
I don't know.

I wish Meri well.

- I really do hope...
- Yeah.

Like, I really-- I want
all the good things for her

because I feel like she's been
through the wringer.

I hope she can get
in a loving relationship.

I know that she, like--

- You know, it might be
a game changer for her...
- ...I heard she wants that.

...if she really saw someone
who actually could treat her,

- like, I don't know...
- Nice.

I don't know.
Like, it's so weird.

I don't-- Bless her heart.
She's very loyal.

She hung out.

She stuck it out because that
was her belief, or whatever.

Well, it was the whole
religion thing, too.

- I mean, same as you.
- Yeah. Yeah.

- Like, I--
- I don't know how-- I still...

- I still don't know--
- Yeah!

- I still don't know--
- Spiritual divorce.

See, like,
I think she got one.

- No, like, I--
- Apparently,

until you have
sex with the next guy,

- you're not divorced anyway.
- Oh, I just think
that's bull [bleep].

- [laughs]
- I'm sorry.

I mean,
I think that's dogmatic.

Like I don't--
I'm, like, whatever.

I've never heard that
in my life.

I mean, that's a dogma
I used to hear...

- Yeah.
- ...and I used to be like,

"Okay, whatever."

Robyn said, in the church
we used to belong to,

they teach that
you're not divorced

until you basically
have sex with the next guy.

Skip it all,
go have sex with somebody,

then that marriage is over.

You can move on.

You know?

That's the dumbest
thing I've ever heard.

It kind of bothers me that
Christine's so flippant about

"Well, you should just
go sleep with somebody,"

because my brain
doesn't work that way.

I mean, the boundaries
were set in place
because these are families.

Um, otherwise,
if it's just some guy

goes and gets a girlfriend
and starts sleeping around,

it's just a bunch of
baby mamas.

But we are a family.

We are raising children
together

as a family structure,

not just
a whole bunch of women

who are sleeping with
some guy.

Until I have
sex with somebody,

that means
I'm still attached to Kody?

I don't think it means that.

I think it really is
more for...

if you're going to go
outside of your marriage

and have sexual relations,

then now you-- or
that marriage is nullified.

- So...
- But...

...spiritual--
So as far as that goes,

- spiritually--
- Yeah, I don't know.

- ...anything like that--
- Like, I, um...

Have you, like, talked to God
and figured that out?

What does he think
about all of it?

I'm not asking,
because I just don't care.

I know Meri has just
recently gotten a release,

like what we call a "release,"
which is a divorce.

And it's made me think, huh,

I kind of like the idea of
getting a spiritual release,

but I don't even know
who to call.

I didn't
feel like I needed

a spiritual divorce
from Meri.

But I didn't
feel like I needed

a spiritual divorce
from Christine.

I don't know if there's
some kind of karmic connection

that Janelle and I
are obligated to still.

Robyn's believing in that

still says they need to have
these marriages dissolved

or whatever.

In the end, God will be
able to sort it out.

Like, what is going on
with the property now,
I guess?

Well, it's all
still sitting there.

- Um--
- Like, at Coyote Pass.

Mmm-hmm.

I've got to
make something happen.

Like, I want my money
out of it because I have

this other project
I want to work on now.

It's costing me a lot
of money,

like, more than I
had wanted to... to spend,

but I've got to
get a lawyer involved.

For two decades,

it was a combined
pot of money,

and we just took care of
whoever needed
to be taken care of.

It really took me a long time
to get out of that mindset.

And I really thought that...

by putting my resources
towards Robyn's house

that eventually the time
would come around

that it would be our turn,

my turn, Christine's turn,
Meri's turn, whatever.

But that
never really happened.

Janelle, when she sold
her home in Vegas,

the proceeds
from the sale of that

went into Robyn's home.

It went into Robyn's home.

Why?

I don't know what
they're getting out of it.

They don't know how much
they're going to get out
of the property still.

Dealing anything finances
with him is just terrible.

Yeah. Ugh.
Don't sign me up for that.

You know, I really did
catch on too late

that, all of a sudden,
there was a change in thought

that resources weren't for the
benefit of the whole family.

It seems to be
a very big hot button

for Kody and Robyn.

And they're always trying
to revise history

about how things were paid
or what was paid.

This is a-- this is
a tough conversation for me

because I'm just like,
"Wait a minute.

We worked together
for so long,

and I helped so much with...

these... these earlier years."

Like, for me, it's like,
okay, this feels balanced.

I tried to help Janelle
buy a house.

And she got mad at me.

She wanted that RV lifestyle,
I guess.

Now that everybody's
broken up,

they want to say,
"I didn't get something,"

or, "I gave something,
but you didn't."

We were just making sure
everybody was taken care of.

So Kody always likes to say,

"Well, I offered to help you
buy a house."

Well, he wanted me to buy
Christine's house,

which I didn't really like.

Look, I would love
to have that cash now.

It would go a really long way

on my new project
in North Carolina.

I love the view
of the mountains there.

Coyote Pass.

- It is beautiful.
- And I wasn't willing
to give it up

until I have this new dream.

This is-- like, this is it.

Like, this is
where I'm gonna live.

Like, I'm...

and I can make
those final decisions

about what I want to do.

I'm moving to North Carolina,

we're going to get this land,

and I will be
building a house.

I've got it all mapped out,

and there's no other plan.

This is the first time in
my life I've just stepped off

and hoped that that other--
the other step was there.

So this has to work.

I'm sitting here in this bar
in Louisiana,

having a shot, and I'm like,

"Wow, my life is about
to really change."

- [exclaims]
- Ooh.

I'm a little nervous because
I have never done a shot.

- [laughing]
- Holy Wow! Now I feel my legs.

- What?
- [laughs] Yes.

[Janelle] After a really
long day driving,

we all wanted
to go out to eat.

Truely wanted to stay behind.

She was peopled out.

She wanted to just be
at the hotel.

So we went to dinner,
and then Christine and David

wanted to take me to a bar.

I have a glass of wine
once in a while at dinner,

and Dave's like,
"No, we're going to do shots."

- [chuckling]
- [David] Okay.

- Pub time. Pub 13.
- Did you see that?

- Nice.
- Yeah.

- This is--
- I like the bar's head here.

Yeah. [laughs] Yeah.

Oh, yeah, I've been to a bar.

I still don't really
quite get the mechanics

of how you order a drink.

I don't mind being
a bad influence at all.

I think she needs a little bit
of a bad influence.

Janelle does. She's always
been very good and very kind.

I would look silly if I were
just to go in a bar myself

because I don't even
know how to...

order a drink
if there's a bar, or...

So.

All right.

I'm a little nervous because
I have never done a shot.

Like, I never have.

Are you ready
for your first one?

- Yeah, I'll have a whiskey.
- You've done shots before.

- Come on.
- No, I haven't-- I haven't.

When I grew up in the church,

we didn't drink alcohol,

we didn't drink coffee.

I guess, as the years went by,

we sort of started slowly
kind of stepping away.

First, we had some wine...
on Friday night

when we were all together,

or we'd have a glass of wine
when we were out.

I think as we got further
and further away
from our congregation,

it just started to sort of
come into the family.

It just started to creep in.

There were so many things
in our-- in our old church

that, once I started putting
pieces together,

it was control.

The whole outside world
is fear.

Like, it's so much fear.

That's just control.

Christine enjoys
having a drink.

I don't--
I don't know about Meri.

I haven't really been
around her very much. Um...

And I know Kody
likes having a drink.

But...

it was just never my thing.

We need shots.

- [bartender] Ah.
- First shots.

What do you recommend
for just a good shot?

Well,
what are you celebrating?

A purchase of property
and a purchase of a new home.

Yeah.

A new life.
Like, kind of a new life.

All right, well, any...

- anything you wanna try?
- I don't have a clue.

I don't even have a clue
how to order.

Make it fun.

I think we ought to try...

this thing I tried in Wyoming.

It's called a slippery nipple.

It's really good.

- [chuckles] Okay.
- It's really good.

- [Christine] Okay.
- Butterscotch and Baileys.

Oh, I'm down.

These drinks always have
these really crazy names.

I'm always like,
who makes up these names?

I've never had
a slippery nipple.

I have no idea what one is.

It's a great title for
a first drink. Yes.

You've never done
a shot before?

No. Never. Never.

- You do shots
before your kids.
- Like, it's a lot.

- [David]
You can't sip it either.
- You can't--

You just down it.

- Oh, God, yeah.
- You'll be fine.

This isn't-- this isn't
a tea for a tea party.

- Shots, shots, shots, shots.
- No. I don't know.

[Christine] I've done it
with your children.

What if I can't keep it down?

You'll be fine.

Okay, I can do this.

I can do this.
This isn't a big deal.

This isn't a big deal.

Oh, my gosh, I'm seriously
worried about this.

- This is intimidating.
- Okay, let's cheers first.

- Whoa, I'm messing up.
- Oh. Oh, messy.

You drink it all at once?

- Yeah.
- Yeah, you down it.

Ugh.

If you sip it, then
you don't want to drink it.

Ugh.

- Okay, cheers.
- I'm a little bit like...

You do cheers. Cheers.

- New beginnings.
- New beginnings.

Your house.

- Great adventures.
- No, your property.

- My house.
- Property.

- Moab.
- Cheers, baby.

- Moab.
- One, two, three.

[exclaims]

- Ooh!
- That's good, huh?

Whoo!

That's not bad.

That's-- that's an easy one.

Mmm! That's smooth!

That's not bad.

"That's not bad."

- Come on, that was smooth.
- Come on.

- It has good flavor.
- Wait for it.

- Ow. Yeah.
- The finishing
of butterscotch.

Ow. Yeah. That's good.

That's a good one there.

- Okay,
that's all I better have.
- Yummy.

That's good, baby.

- You were right.
- That is really yummy.

You know,
I didn't know what to expect

because you always see
people on the TV

and they shoot it
and then they cough.

I think David
took it easy on me,

and he made it with one
that had a lot of...

sugar and stuff in it.

So, yes, it burns,

but it was pretty sweet.

Two more of those. But then
what do you want, Janelle?

Um, I don't know.

Just a beer, probably,
or something.

That's nice.

That's fun.

I don't feel, um,
mentally compromised.

Like, I've never actually had
more than one drink.

Um, so I don't know.

But, again, I don't think
that's one of those things.

I don't know if I really need
to experience being drunk.

It just doesn't appeal to me.

- [David laughing]
- Holy wow! Now I feel my legs.

- What?
- Yes.

Like, it's in my leg.

- What? Oh, my goodness.
- [laughing]

I-- I don't drink.

Like, I'd rather eat my sugar
than drink it.

[chuckling] Oh, gosh.

I haven't had-- Okay, no.
I've never had a shot before.

But I'm really not
that religious about it.

So, okay, a little sip of
that whiskey.

[smacks lips] Just a taste.

Oh, dude! That's gasoline.

You know? I mean,
it just cracks me up.

It's like, "You drink this?"

[laughing] It cracks me up.

I have done one shot ever.

It was nasty.

I have no idea what it was.

There was no puking involved.

I've actually
never been drunk.

[chuckles] No, I've-- I've--

Yeah, no, I've never had
a shot at a bar.

I've never really even
been in a bar.

- All right.
- All right.

- Yes.
- Oh, my gosh.

- All right.
- Cheers, baby.

To our lives.

Yeah. Wow.

Mmm!

That's yummy.

So, your first experience
at the bar...

- Yeah.
- It's not intimidating, right?

- It's okay.
- No. No, it's easy.

- [laughs]
- It's fun. I'm actually
glad to kind of come in.

- Yeah. Just chill.
- Just chill for a little bit.

It's a cute little bar.
Like, it has all
the ambience I expected.

[Kody] There's something
still wrong in my relationship

with me and Janelle,
and I'm completely left out.

She wanted to move
without me knowing.

If I overanalyze it,

it gets a little hurtful.

More than anything, it could
be just getting away from me

and the experience we've had

to get to something
that's better.

I don't know.

You know, it's so funny.
I'm sitting here in this bar

in Louisiana, having a shot,
and I'm like,

"Wow, my life is about
to really change."

Like, it's just different.

Having a drink in a bar
is no big deal.

But, you know,
it's a new experience,

and I'm looking forward
to a whole bunch
of new experiences.

Like, I, in theory,
I intellectually understand

what we're going to be facing

with the project
that we're taking on.

But to actually do the work

is a whole nother thing.

I feel invigorated.
Like, I'm 55,

I'm-- it's a new chapter,

like, I'm-- I'm--
like, I'm excited.

Change and growth
are scary, right?

And we don't always want to
get out of our comfort zone.

But when you do, I feel like

it's the most interesting
place to live your life.

[Kody] Coming this spring on
Sister Wives...

There's so many people that
are like,

"She was a liar--
she's manipulating."

I had this bond with her
and I'm now questioning

why tell me that you want to
have a relationship with me

and then ghost me for
months and months and months?

She'd act like she was your
best friend...

and then completely ignore you.

That's really [bleep] up.

♪

You ever sit there and feel--

wish that we were in
a plural relationship?

The question in my head is
are we gonna try

you know, live
a plural marriage again?

♪

He could sell the 2-acre piece
he and Robyn own

and the 5 acres.

There is a few things
that I will fight for

and this is one of them.

I'm not trying to rip you off,
Meri!

This all imagined in Janelle's
head because

Janelle feels like

"Oh, I got divorced
so I deserve something."

So, are you excited about this?

No. Not at all.

Hey, Kodi!

How are ya?

Good. I'm all right.
I'm doing all right.

- I am so sick and tired...
- Wait. Let's get back...

...of being guilted
for loving Robyn.

There could be a great man who
loves to work in the dirt...

- Maybe.
- ...and help you on that farm.

Maybe so.
I promise you I am not asexual.

[laughs]
I promise you.

I totally prefer to just meet
somebody organically.

There has to be physical
attraction.

There has to be intellectual
attraction.

I definitely don't want
someone whose such

a prima donna like Kody is.

We're all supposed to be Robyn?

I wish they all would focus on
their own relationships

without my name coming up.

Polygamy doesn't work if you're
going to actually fall in love.

And you fell in love?

I fell in love hard. Hard.

We've all seen their
engagement photos.

I wonder how close they got
before they were married?

Did you have any other sexual
experiences before Meri?

- Okay, listen Suki.
- Right?

I want to shut you down, now.

♪