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[girl narrating] Maybe for you there's a tomorrow.

Maybe for you, there's 1,000 or 3,000...

or ten.

So much time, you can bathe in it.

So much time, you can waste it.

But for some of us, there's only today.

And what you do today matters...

in the moment...

and maybe into infinity.

But I didn't know any of that until right before I fell.

The thing is, they don't get to know.

You don't wake up with a bad feeling in your stomach

or see shadows move.

If you're like me,

you wake up 24 minutes and 47 seconds

before your best friend is supposed to be picking you up.

If you're like me, your last day starts like this.

[chimes]

[pop music playing]

[music stops]

[chattering]

[woman] ...outside at 2:00.

Well, I'll let you know by noon.

Well, I can't organize a playdate--You want something to eat?

Nope. Good.

Sammy, you like the bird I made you?

Morning.

Sammy!What?

You forgot your gloves.

Izzy, how many times do I have to tell you? Don't touch my stuff.

Go back inside. It's cold.

[pop music playing]

Hey, sexy.Hi.

Get in.Okay.

I love the sky on mornings like this.Hey.

Greasy forehead. Window. Off.

I'm gonna try not to be depressed because I'm single on Cupid Day.

That's Valentine's Day to you!

Have insomnia or something, Linds?

-Excuse me? -It's just cute

that you get up before us to get breakfast.[Lindsay] Ooh.

-Did she just call me cute, Kingston? -I believe she did, Edgecombe.

Al, Linds doesn't do "cute."No.

-It's not in her lexicon. -Lexicon? Nice word choice.

[music continues]

Whoo!

Come on.

[door handle rattles]

Seriously?

This was maybe funny the first bazillion times you did it.

Still funny.Still is.

Still funny.

[girls shrieking]

Go, baby! Yeah!

No texting and driving.

Don't worry. I'd never let my best friend die a virgin.

[girls meow]

You didn't think we'd forget, did you?

It's the big day. Opening night.

Rob texted me. He said, "I made my bed for you."Ugh!

That is so sweet.

No glove, no love.

You hear me?Take it!

Take it! Take it!

[others join] Take it! Take it! Take it! Take it!

Okay, okay, okay. Watch the road. Oh, my God.

All right. It's fine. We're fine. We're fine.

Crazy.We're freakin' fine.

[woman on stereo] ♪ Go ahead And say we're through♪

♪ I don't care I'll just get another you♪

♪ I'll get another dude That look like you♪

[man] ♪ I don't need you You don't need me♪

♪ Give me back My house key♪

[woman] ♪ You can leave it With my new boyfriend♪

♪ You can leave it on The back, back, back porch♪

♪ I don't care When you leave it Leave a message♪

♪ You used to never Get the message♪

[man] ♪ Yeah, I talk shit♪

♪ Yes, he's talkin' shit♪

[woman] ♪ Go ahead And say we're through♪

♪ I don't care I'll just get another you♪

♪ I'll get another dude That look like you♪

♪ I don't need you And you don't need me♪

♪ Give me back my house key♪

♪ This could be easy♪

♪ Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha♪

♪ This could be easy♪

♪ This could be easy♪

♪ Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha♪

♪ This could be easy♪

[chattering]

How many roses did you get last year, Linds?

Twenty-two.

I'm going for 25 this year, though,

and more than one of them better be from Patrick.

Did I tell you I sat next to Rob

and I had to make him fill out the request form?

It was depressing.

I'd be happy with 15.

I'm not ashamed to admit it.

Last year, Matt literally sent me a dozen red roses.

Matt? Oh, come on.

You just spent a whole week crying in the same pair of sweatpants,

and it got dark.

We're not going back there.No, I've told you a thousand times.

I'll say it again.

You do not need that loser. Honestly.

Mm-mmm.

You got your real baes here.Mm-hmm.

We love you. Come here.

Till death do us part.Even then.

Oh, get in here.

Mmm. Mmm.[kisses]

[school bell rings]All right, bitches, let's move.

Sisyphus.

Not an STD.[scattered laughter]

What's he like?

What does it mean when something is described as being Sisyphean?

Does it mean pointless?

Brave?

Late?

Ah-- Sorry. It was an emergency in the Tribulation.

It was a minor LaserJet explosion.

I hope the printer survived.

All right, back to Sisyphus.

What's his character like?

Does he learn from pushing that boulder,

and it--

Hey.Val-a-gram delivery.

[students murmuring]

Happy Cupid Day. Go ahead.

[chattering]

[teacher] Relax. It's just roses.

[female student] Aw, no roses for Anna.

-That from your boy? -It's from Rob, yeah.

All right, all right. Keep it down. Keep it down, people.

[female student] Oh, my God![chattering]

It's so beautiful.

I'm in heteronormative hell.

[teacher] Okay, okay, let's hope third time's the charm. Okay?

Sisyphus.

Back to Sisyphus, class.

Yo, Sam.Hey.

[clattering]Oh, man.

Sam. Hey.Hi.

Did you, uh-- Did you like it?What?

Hey, so, um, big party tonight.

Mom is going out of town.Whoa.

Huge rager, you know. Why don't you come? Yeah?

I don't know what my plans are.

What everyone else ends up doing.

See you tonight.No.

You know the address.Kent.

[pop music playing]

-[girl] You hear about Anna? -You mean bull dyke.

Please say she tripped over her nose.

Not yet. But her girlfriend saw the Snap that we posted with her and that girl.

She straight up dumped her.

See?What?

This is why I deserve some public recognition

for making shit like that happen.

Maybe someone should give me a ribbon.

Like the ones that you used to have hanging on your wall, Sammy.

Remember? From horseback riding?

I was, like, ten years old, Lindsay.

God, Sammy, you were such a nerd back then.

Okay, but isn't it weird how that stuff happens?

How things connect in strange ways.

If Lindsay didn't post that Snap--She deserved it.

I'm just saying, it's crazy now.

I saw this video about chaos in the universe. Listen.

How a bird flapping its wing in South America can create a major rainstorm in New York.

Like how one person can watch a pretentious video about chaos

while three other people actually die of boredom.

It wasn't a YouTube tutorial, so you guys wouldn't get it anyway.

-Owie. -Samantha Kingston.

Hi.Hey, Rob.

Hey, Rob.

[kisses] Did you get my rose?I did--

Who are these ones from?Your competition.

I wanna see.Sam has no competition, Rob. You know it.

Okay, well, neither do I. So I guess we're perfect for each other.

So you're going to that thing at Kent's tonight?

-I heard he's getting a couple kegs. I don't know. -Yes!

I'll text you later.One more.

No, I'm eating. Get out. Go.

God, they're too cute. It's gross.

Oh, you guys, tonight our "wittle" Sammy passes into womanhood.

I'm so proud.Shh.

[laughs]

I hope you shaved.Oh, my God.

Don't forget to pee before and after.

Ah.

Guys. Guys, sociopath, 12 o'clock.

Oh, God. Does she know what a brush is?

No.[screeching]

[screams]

Norma Bates.

[humming]Hey, did she get her Val-a-gram?

In chem, I was sitting right behind her.

What'd she say?Does she say anything ever?

What'd she do?She tossed it right after class.

She really should appreciate it more. It's probably the only rose she'll ever get.

Maybe it had something to do with the card.

[all] "Maybe next year, but probably not."

[women] ♪ J'aime le soleil

♪ Et la vancances What we do?

♪ We wash our hair When we want to♪

♪ We run these streets In the right shoes♪

[chattering]♪ We make mistakes If we want to♪

♪ Don't tell me how to live, boy 'Cause I'm mine♪

It kinda look like you put it on your cheeks. It's the same color.

Yeah. That's the point.

Mmm. Love it. It's so effin' good.

Can I post this one?No.

Don't laugh at me.Okay.

Linds?

[girls chattering]

Were you nervous your first time?

I was too drunk to be anything.

[laughs]

Don't freak out if it hurts.

Especially at first. And don't tense up,

'cause that only makes it worse.

Great. That sounds really romantic.

Don't worry. It's not like Rob is some random guy.

You actually like him.Right. Yes.

So, everyone wants to hook up with him.

Yeah.

Tonight everything changes.

Mwah. That face.

Baes!

What are you doing?

[chattering]

[thunder rumbling]

[man] ♪ Hi, hi, howdy Howdy, hi, hi♪

♪ While everyone is minus You could call me multiply♪

♪ Just so you know Yes, yes, I'm that guy♪

[Lindsay] Fart's house is actually kind of nice.

[girl] If I'd known, I would've stopped calling him Danny DeVito all year.

[Ally] Sam and you.

♪ ...back with a foul-ball Free throw♪

♪ Yep, yep, you know that I go♪

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

♪ Yep, yep, you know that I go♪

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

♪ I come with the tip With the blow, with the boom♪

♪ And if you're in my way There's nothing but doom♪

♪ Ain't got no time For you ratchet-ass goons♪

♪ So just settle down Listen to my tunes♪

I'm gonna go find Patrick. Will you be okay?

What?I'm gonna go find Patrick. Will you be okay?

Yeah.Mwah.

♪ Really, really? Really, really?♪

♪ You wanna talk shit But you know that I am illy?♪

♪ Ain't got no wallet Only use rubber bands♪

♪ You know my chick is ratchet 'Cause that's what makes Her dance♪

Hey. Sam.

You made it.

♪ Haters get the bird More like an eagle♪

♪ This is my movie Stay tuned for the sequel♪

[Rob] Sam. Sam.Hi!

Whoo!

Oh, I am sorry. Let me get that for you.

How drunk are you?I'm not drunk. Don't worry about it.

You know what?

You're the hottest girl here. The hottest.

Okay, look, I'm only giving you, like, an hour, an hour tops.

You know? You text me and we'll go.

We're just gonna go, just me and you.

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

Oh, my goodness.Oh.

What happened?Nothing.

I'll see you later, okay?

[dance pop playing]

[Samantha] Elody's really embarrassing herself.

Elody's a slut.

Lindsay's a bitch and a drama queen.

I'm rich and have ADD.

Bae!

Bae!

Come on!

Oh, get in here, baby.

Patrick, can you go get me something a little bit stronger?

What's the magic word?

[mouths words][laughs]

BRB.Thank you.

I've been looking everywhere for you.

Have you?Yes.

Like in Patrick's mouth?

Oops.

What?

Oh, she's so shitfaced.

No, you're shitfaced, shitface.

I can't believe high school's almost over.

Well, actually, we did it right, you know.

Kissed the hottest boys, went to the sickest parties.

Do you think we'll remember any of this?

I mean, like two years, three years from now?

I won't even remember this tomorrow.

Oh, my God.What's she doing here?

[music continues]

Up.Okay.

Hey there, sweetie.

Is that your first drink?

You really should take it easy.

You're a bitch!

[laughs] Excuse me?

Whoa.

You heard me.

You're a goddamn fetched bitch just like your mother.

It's no wonder Daddy left. Huh?

You're a bitch too.What?

You're a drunk.

And you--

you're just pathetic.

You know what? We'd rather be bitches than a psycho.

[girls] Yeah, psycho.

Have you noticed that nobody likes you?

Psycho.Psycho.

Did anyone at this party-- Has anyone talked to you?

I don't think so.You weren't even invited.

That's 'cause you're a freak.Go back to the ward.

Go home.

Go home.

[screaming]

Get off me! Get her off me!

Who are you?

Get out of here!

Psycho!

Psycho!

Get this bitch on a leash!

Psycho!

-You wanna go? -Freak!

Get out of here!

What the fuck?

Go!

[music continues]

Go back to the ward, you psycho bitch!

Are you okay?

What the hell was that about? Huh?

I don't know. She just called us bitches.

What did she do? So you attack her?

This is not my fault.You throw beer all over her?

You know what?

Who are you--Do not touch me.

Your boyfriend's throwing up in my sink. You wanna take care of that?

[man rapping]

Come on. Come on!

That was insane.

I'm sorry about Rob, bae.

Music!

Pacific Northwest, my ass.

I hate this weather.

Do you guys want to get some food? I really need carbs.

You sound like my grandmother.

Meow.Meow.

Oh, I like this song.

[woman] ♪ ...for the way we were♪

♪ Fiery pain♪

♪ In the dying embers♪

♪ Will you remember?♪

♪ These days are haunted by♪

♪ Each day that passes by♪

♪ These days passing by♪

♪ I wanna get out♪

♪ But I can't live without you♪

♪ I can't live without you♪

[thunder rumbling]

She called us bitches.

I guess we are.

[horn blares]

[Elody] What time is it?

[Lindsay] Did you see that look in her eyes?

-I mean, she just snapped. -[Elody] Yeah.

[Lindsay] She freaked me out.

[loud pop]

[pop music playing]

[chimes]

[mother] Sam, you're 20 minutes late!

[music continues]

[music stops]

Sammy, you like the bird I made you?

Mommy says you have to get up.

It's Saturday.[giggles]

Mommy, Sammy won't get up.

[mother] Don't make me come up there.

[water running]

[water stops]

[sighs]

[pounding]

Yeah?

[Lindsay] Sexy lady!

-What are you doing? -I'm so sorry.

I had a nightmare, so it's like a slow start.

Um, what happened last night?

Oh. Sorry.

I was FaceTiming with Patrick

till, like, 3:00.

Speaking of which,

are you nervous for tonight?

What?

You, Rob, his flannel sheets?

-I'm gonna shower. -No. No time.

Come on. It's Cupid Day.

Whoo!

[woman] ♪ You ring, you ring a bell♪

♪ To show you're bleeding♪

♪ I watched, I saw♪

♪ Your mind fall Out of your head♪

Seriously? This was maybe funny the first bazillion times you did it.

Still funny.

[girls shriek]

Nice tits!

Ohh, I have your present.

No glove, no love. You hear me?

It goes on him.

♪ Come on, come on Come on, come on♪

♪ Be just like me♪

♪ Come on, come on Come on, come on♪

Sisyphus.

Not an STD.

All right, all right, keep it down, people.

[laughs]

-It's so beautiful. -[Anna] I'm in heteronormative hell.

[teacher] Thank you, girls. Thank you.

Okay, let's hope third time's the charm.

Yo, Sam.

[sighs]

Oh, man.

Sam. You forgot this one.

No, I didn't forget it.What do you mean?

The more roses you get on Cupid Day, the more popular you are, right?

Thanks for the tip, Kent. Noted.

I didn't say the rose was from me.

But it is from you, right?

Well, I--

I-- Anyway, my mom's out of town--

Out of town and you're having a party?

Yeah. Do you wanna-- You wanna come or--

I have to go.Well, can I see you tonight? Or--

[thunder rumbling]

What we do?

♪ We wash our hair When we want to♪

You're nervous?

No. No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

You don't wanna waste the first night you go full womanhood.

Oh!Yeah!

[Elody] Do I look good? I just really don't wanna look like I'm trying too hard.

You're fine.

Such a weird day.

Like how?Just weird.

I feel like I'm still dreaming from yesterday.

Like-- Or maybe yesterday was the dream.

I don't know.You're awake now!

No, no, no, no, no!Oh, my God!

No, don't you-- Don't-- Don't do that.I'm sorry.

♪ Hi, hi, howdy, howdy, hi, hi♪

♪ While everyone is minus You could call me multiply♪

♪ Just so you know I'm the best Fuck what you heard♪

♪ Anything less is Obviously absurd♪

♪ Haters get the bird More like an eagle♪

♪ This is my movie Stay tuned for the sequel♪

♪ Seems so wrong Seems so illegal♪

♪ Fellas in the back Like a foul-ball free throw♪

♪ Hi, hi, you know that I go♪

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

♪ Yep, yep, you know that I go This is me on the regular So you know♪

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

I'm gonna go find Patrick, you guys. Mwah!

♪ Ain't got no time For you ratchet-ass goons♪

♪ So just settle down Listen to my tunes♪

Sam!

Hey, you made it.

[Rob] Sam. Sam.

Oh, I am sorry. Let me get that for you.

Rob, I need to talk to you.About what? What's up?

I'm feeling pranked.

Tonight was supposed to be our special night.No, no, no, no.

Rob.What?

I don't feel good. I'm freaking out.

Always something.Can we go talk?

Always something.

Okay, Sam. Okay.

I'm gonna fill my cup up first.

Five minutes. Can you wait that long?

[Kent] This room's off-limits.

I was just looking for the bathroom.

Sorry.

I feel like I'm having déjà vu with you being in my room.

Oh, my God. I've been having déjà vu all day long.

Are you okay?

Yeah.

Excuse me.

I've been looking everywhere for you.

Oh, yeah? In Patrick's mouth maybe.

You seem a little guilty. Were you with Rob, you hussy?

[Ally] Skank.Harlot.

[Elody] Hey, you guys talking about me?

You know what? I think I'm gonna go home.No, no, no.

No, we just got here. I'm confused.

I thought you were supposed to get it on with Rob tonight.

Yeah.

Yeah, I changed my, um-- my mind.

Well, at least I'm not gonna be the only virgin.

[Elody] Oh, my God.

What's she doing here?

Watch this.

[Juliet] You're a bitch!

Just like your mother.

No wonder Daddy left. Huh?

You're a bitch too.What?

You're a drunk. And you--

you're just pathetic.

[Samantha] Juliet.You know what?

We'd rather be bitches than a psycho.

Psycho.Have you noticed that nobody likes you?

Psycho.Psycho.

Did anyone at this party-- Has anyone talked to you?

I don't think so.Go back to the ward.

Go home.

Go home.

[screaming]

Get off me!

Psycho!

Freak!Get out of here!

Get the fuck out!

Psycho! Psycho!

Get this bitch on a leash.Psycho!

You wanna go?

Go back to the ward, you psycho bitch!

What do you think people will say about you when you die?

[Elody] Like I care.I'm serious.

-[Ally] That we're hot. -This shit is morbid, Sam.

Hey, watch the road.

You watch the road.We need music.

Guys, I'll find a song.I want to pick a song.

Okay, Mom.

Don't elbow me.Just pick something.

[Ally] You're trouble. You always have to pee.

'‘Cause she drinks too much.

That, and she has the bladder of a baby squirrel.

♪ Will you remember?♪

♪ These days are haunted by♪

♪ Each day that passes by♪

The truck.

Truck?

-Watch out for the truck. -What truck?

♪ I wanna get out♪

[horn blares]

♪ I can't live without you♪

♪ I wanna get out♪

[narrating] It wasn't a dream.

It really happened.

Again.

[gasps]

[panting]

[pop music playing][chimes]

[panting continues]

[gasps]

[footsteps running]

Sammy, you like the bird I made you? It's origami.

Mommy says you have to get up.

Tell Mom I'm sick.

You don't feel hot.Stop it.

[laughs] Let go!

Mommy, Sammy won't get up!

[narrating] It wasn't until then

that I allowed myself to think the worst.

[mother] Sam?

What's this about you feeling sick?

I just don't feel good.

On Cupid Day?

[sighs]

Did something happen?

I don't know.

Did you and Rob have a fight?No.

Mom, go away.

Please don't use that tone. I'm just trying to help.

I just need to sleep a little bit longer.

Please?

Okay. Well, I'll let Lindsay know that you're going in late.

But I have to be at work by 10:00.

Thank you for driving me.[mother] Sure.

[sighs] Sammy.Hmm?

You'll feel better once you see some of your roses.

I don't know.

Maybe.

Well, you're lucky to be so popular.

I mean, when I was a senior, I hadn't even kissed a boy.

Everyone said my eyes were too close together and that I looked like a fish.

Yeah.

I have to get to work, honey.

I think you're beautiful.

Go.Bye.

[narrating] Maybe everythingwas connected.

Maybe a flock of birds could cause a rainstorm

and everything done could be undone.

Maybe things could change.

And maybe I could change them.

It's Rob.

We're having issues.

But it's the day.

The note in his Val-a-gram said, "Luv ya."

"L-U-V ya." Luv ya.

What is that? We've been going out since last year.

Yeah, well, you know, maybe he's just waiting to say it, like, tonight.

I'm not gonna have sex with him

just so that he says, "I love you."

I'm not gonna do that.

We go out every weekend.Hmm.

I don't know. I wanna stay in.

Like we used to.

Okay, but the only reason we stayed in

was because we weren't invited to any senior parties.

I just,

bottom line, don't wanna have to deal with that today.

Okay?

Okay.

All right.

-What are you doing? -[Elody] Shh, shh, shh.

[Sammy] What is she--[Lindsay] Don't worry.

Are you texting--

[Ally] Oh, my, God.[Elody] That devilish grin though.

[girls laugh]Why did he give me that--

What did you say?Relax.

I just told him that you got your period.Oh, my--

That's perfect.[Elody] That's a good one.

-[Lindsay] You're welcome. -[Elody] That's a good one.

[Ally] Lock up the knives and babies!

[Lindsay] Does it smell like pee in here?

[Ally] I can smell her from here.Why do we hate Juliet?

-Are you serious? -We don't hate her.

It's just she's super creepy, with all those weird drawings.

Remember Mellow Yellow in the fifth grade?Oh, my God.

When Lindsay found out that she peed in her sleeping bag

on the Girl Scout trip.

Why do you care all of a sudden?

You know she should be institutionalized.

I was just wondering.

That's all.

-[Elody] So we're going over to your house, right? -[Lindsay] Obviously.

[Elody] Can I borrow something?[Lindsay] Always. I got you.

Hey. Uh, these came for you in Daimler's class.

No, I know I'm not wearing the appropriate attire,

but I promise they're legitimate.

Cool.

Also, uh, this rose came for you.

It's kind of like a painting of a rose.

It stands out in front of all the others.

Thank you.

Hey, I-I never said that it was from me.

But whoever it was from, they put a lot of thought into it, so...

By the way, my, uh, mom is out of town this weekend,

so I'm gonna throw a big party tonight.Yeah.

Did you remember the address or you--Hi, Sam.

It was-- It was third grade, but probably don't remember.

But, uh-- But do you, uh-- you think you'll come or--

No, I can't. Sorry.

Oh, come on.

Well, I'm-- I could have, uh, crutches on call for you--

Kent.in case you want to climb up the tree

and play flying squirrel.That was one time.

Look, I'm just saying, I'm pre-- I'm prepared.

I'm prepared.Okay, glad to hear it.

So that's a maybe or--

Uh--

I don't think so.

Well, I'll take that "no" as a "maybe."

So maybe I'll see you tonight.

[women] ♪ La libert de

♪ De tout coques

What we do?

♪ We wash our hair When we want to♪

[Lindsay] Oh, God.

Juliet Sykes just arrived at the party.

[Elody] Gross.[Lindsay] Yeah.

The worst. I'm so glad we didn't go.

Mm. Snapchat alert:

Rob is totally puking in the kitchen sink.[Lindsay] Oh, I wanna see that.

Could I see that?

Of course he is.

[Ally] Ooh, I don't wanna see it. Gross.Ew.

You kiss that? Mm.

I can't believe you made this ice cream, Ally.

It's literally better than a restaurant's.

[Lindsay] No, it's true. You should go to cooking school. Screw college.

[Ally] Thanks, guys. It has no dairy.

[Lindsay] Oh, you're so full of shit.

Thirty-eight.

[Lindsay] You can shut up now.[Elody] What?

[cell phone dings]Matt's at the party.

Ally, you say "Matt" one more time, and I will kill you in your sleep.

I will kill you in your sleep. I will kill you in your sleep.

[gasps] 12:39. 12:39.

[gasps]

I wonder what filter Terri uses on her photos.

-Major FoMO. -Such a loser.

[Elody groans] Steve's flirting with a freshman.

I love you guys.

Oh, Sam.

[girls giggle]

We love you too.[Ally] Aw.

Weirdo.

Don't go emo on us.

[thunder rumbling]

[thunder rumbling]

[cell phones dinging, buzzing]

[Ally] Where's my phone?

[dings, chimes]

Juliet Sykes is dead.

[cell phones chiming, dinging]

She killed herself.

[dinging, chiming]

Then nothing happened to her at the party.

-[cell phone chiming] -How totally insane.

[chiming]

[dings]

Could our rose have something to do with it?

Don't be stupid.

Imagine how her family feels.

Look, you can't be mean to someone forever

and then just feel badly when they die, okay?

We all knew she was crazy.

God, Lindsay, she was your best friend in fifth grade.

Yeah, you used to sleep over her house. I mean, you must know her--

Yeah, well, that was before she became a sociopath, Ally.

I'm going back to sleep.

[thunder rumbling]

I'm going to sleep in my room.

I'm going with her.

You were friends with Juliet?

No one even talked to you in fifth grade,

and I don't hold that against you.

You never said anything.

We made fun of her for all these years--It's not our fault.

[thunder rumbling]

Go to sleep.

[thunder rumbling]

[pop music playing]

[music stops]

[narrating] I did everything right.

And nothing changed.

[man] ♪ I woke up this morning♪

♪ Didn't recognize The boy in the mirror♪

♪ Then laughed and said♪

♪ "Oh, silly me That's just me"♪

♪ Then I proceeded to brush Some stranger's teeth♪

♪ But they were my teeth And I was weightless♪

♪ Just quivering like some leaf Come in the window Of a restroom♪

♪ And I couldn't tell you What the hell it was Supposed to mean♪

♪ 'Cause it was a Monday♪

♪ No, a Tuesday No, a Wednesday Thursday, Friday, then♪

♪ I woke up this morning♪

[cell phone chimes]

[clattering]

Ugh!

[sighs]

[narrating] The day starts and ends the same,

regardless of anything I do or say.

If that's how it works,

I'm gonna do and say whatever I want.

-Oh, no, you're not wearing that to school. -My Cupid Day outfit.

You don't want to give people the wrong idea.

-What idea is that exactly? -No, this is not happening. Go back up and change, please.

This is my life. I'll do whatever the hell I want with it.

Dan, can you jump in here, please?Sam,

it's so disrespectful to talk to your mom--I don't care.

-[father] Sam! -I told you not to touch my stuff!

That's it! You are grounded!

Grounded? [laughs]

I'm already grounded.

[father] Samantha![door slams]

[narrating] Maybe I was dead and in hell.

Maybe I was alive and in hell.

It didn't matter.

Nothing mattered anymore.

What are you wearing?

Funny.

Excuse me.

Geez, wake up on the wrong side of the bed or something?

For a few days now, yeah.

You ready?Hey.

[door opens]

Hi. Sam.

Someone forgot to take her happy pills this morning.

-I took mine. -[chuckles]

Well, I know something that'll cheer you right up.

I swear to God, Elody, if you hand me a condom right now--

But it's your present, for your special night.

[Lindsay] Take it.

Unless you want to be a walking STD farm.

You would know.

At least I'm not still a virgin.

What the hell is wrong with you?

What did you just say to me?

What is it? Do you feel like you need to prove to us that you don't give a shit?

Is that what it is?

'Cause guess what. You don't need to prove anything.

We all know that you don't give a damn about anybody but yourself.

We're all pretty fucking clear on that.

What the hell is your problem today, Sam?

You guys, don't fight. Just drop it.

-What, you don't agree? -Leave her out of it.

Why? You're the one who talks shit about both of them all the time.

"Look at Elody climbing all over Steve. He doesn't even like her.

Look at Ally. Oh my, God! She's such a know-it-all.

She just loves the sound of her own voice.

I hope Elody doesn't puke in my car again and make it smell like alcoholic."

Stop it, Sam.

Out.

Get out!

Now!

I'd love to hear what you say about me behind my back.

[tires squealing]

[tires squealing]

Sisyphus. Not an STD.

[chattering]

Don't say it.

I'm in heteronormative hell.

[Daimler] Okay, thank you. Thank you, girls. Thank you.

Okay, okay, let's hope third time's the charm.

Okay?

Sisyphus.

Hey, what?You can take 'em.

Oh, Sam, you're breaking hearts left and right.

Am I breaking yours, Mr. Daimler?

What?

Your heart.

Am I breaking it?

[murmuring]

No, you're not.

My patience, however, is at its breaking point.

Take a seat.

Please.

If you insist.

[female student] Oh, my God.[murmuring]

Okay. Sisyphus.

Sisyphus.

Why is our friend Sisyphus still relevant today?

Why's his story still relevant today?

[mouthing words]

[Elody's voice] Get this bitch on a leash!

-Psycho! -Psycho!

[school bell rings]

What the hell?Shit!

What are you doing in here?

This is my bathroom. [laughs]

Nice shoes.

Hard to walk in, huh?

I can walk in them just fine, thank you.

Ah, you need a pair of these.

Comfiest shoes I ever owned.Really?

All right, your loss. Whatever.

You wanna trade?

Like switch shoes?

Come on, Kingston.See if I can get in those without--

Just get out if--hurting myself. Come on, let's try it.

Why not?What?

Yeah, let's do it.

[clears throat]Come on!

Why do you guys hate me so much?

I know you know what's written in this bathroom somewhere.

It's "AC..."

"Equals--""BD," right?

Anna Cartulo equals bull dyke.

I mean or maybe it's "biggest douchebag."

But I reckon that honor definitely belongs to Lindsay Edgecombe.

So is that it?

'Cause I'm gay?

I don't know.

Isn't that how it always works out?

There's somebody laughing, there's somebody being laughed at.

Right.

Look, whatever, really.

I mean, this whole high school thing's just a blip.

I'm not gonna remember any of you.

I win.

Do you ever feel like you're living the same day over and over again

with only like a few things being different?

Aw, shit, Samantha. You just described my whole life!

[pop music playing]

Sam.Stop it.

[no audible dialogue]

[music continues]

Hi, Sam.

You have to ask permission to talk to me?

Lindsay's just really upset about what you said. You should apologize.

Well, everything that I said was true, so...

It doesn't matter if it's true.

She's Lindsay. She's ours. We're each other's, you know?

Just apologize.You're not listening to me. I'm not sorry.

Please, Sam?

What? Why do you care so much, Elody?

Because...

you guys are all I have.

[music continues]

Are you still trying to turn her against me?

You're the horrible driver.

You're the one who's always criticizing people and hurting people.

You're the one who lied about being friends with her and then tortured her for years.

I just followed along, and yet...

I'm the one paying for it.

Sam, what are you talking about?Whoa. What?

[Elody] Oh, my God.

[music stops]

Sam, I haven't seen you in, like, forever. Where have you--

[cheering]

[Juliet] No!

[Elody] Get this bitch on a leash!

I love you. Is that what you wanted to hear?

[sobbing]

[sobbing]

[knocking][Kent]Sam?

[sobs]

[door opens, closes]

[sniffling]

Hey, are-- are you okay?[sobs]

I mean, obviously you're crying. Is there something I can do?

I'll get you a tissue. Yeah, yeah. Um...

Hey, here.Thanks.

Yeah.

[blows nose]

Sorry I'm in your room. I know there's a sign.

No, don't worry about it. I--

The sign's just really for other people so they don't get my stuff.

[chuckles]

It's the first big party I've ever had, so...

Why'd you have one now?

I figured if I had a party, you'd come.

I like your room.Yeah?

It's my dad's old den.

It must get a lot of light.

Yeah. It's like, uh--

like waking up in the middle of the sun.

I get to see the old tree.

I like it. It's-- It's constant.

Is that the one we used to sit in?

Yeah. Yeah, we did. [chuckles]

Do you, uh-- Do you remember climbing up it?

And then you jumped down and sprained your ankle?

I was stupid.

It was very ambitious.

-I should go. -Hey, hey, hey. Hey.

Just stay for a second, okay?

I-I can-- I can drive you home or...

I don't want to go home.

Okay, well, you can, uh-- you could crash here if you want.

Not, not, not like-- like with me. I--

Somewhere else. I'll-I'll be somewhere else.

Like bed, completely to yourself.

[chuckles]The Kent McFuller master suite.

Yeah?

Okay.

Hey, it's okay.[sniffles]

Here.

[sighs]

I'm sorry about earlier.

Don't worry about it.No, I'm sorry...

I've always been so mean to you.

[cell phone chimes]

Don't look. Don't read it. Please?Why? It's--

It's something bad.

Okay.

[phone dings]

Your skin's so hot.

[chuckles] It's, uh-- It's always like that.

I wish we could be here forever.

[phone dings]

[phone chimes]

[phone dings]

[laughing]

Okay, let's try again.Hmm.

Aah.

[both laughing]

We're taking a day off.

I think you're just going to drool around.

What does that--And then you're just going to go through there and end up here.

[narrating] If I was going to relive the same day over and over...

I wanted it to be a worthy day.

[both laughing]

But not just for me.

[chattering, laughing]

Do the kids at school ever make fun of you for the way that you talk?

Sometimes.

[Samantha] You can do something about that.

You know, you can learn to talk differently.

But this is my voice. How can they even know it's me talking?

When I was in the fifth grade,

this girl used to sing this song...

♪ She smells like manure And she live in a sewer♪

♪ Samantha Kingston♪

Who did that?

Lindsay.

[Izzy] How come you're so mean to Mom?

I'm not mean to Mom.

You drew a line on the floor with nail polish and said you couldn't cross it.

Mom and I had a fight, and I was mad at her in the moment, but I didn't--

I didn't think that she'd actually stay away.

[Samantha] Look at that.

What?That's just the outside, how pretty it was.

Oh, my gosh. Look at you guys. Can you send those to me?

Oh! Those are beautiful.

Remember when you used to come here all the time?

-[Dan] I do. Of course. -[laughs]

Then your daughter got too cool, so...

I'm just kidding.[Izzy] Can we go watch the pizza?

Okay. Wait, tiger.

I'm glad we did this.

Yeah.

It was just really sweet what you did today.

Do you think I'm a good person?

Of course I think you're a good person. [chuckles]

But it doesn't really matter what I think.

I mean, what's important is what you think.

No, I'm serious. I want to know...

why do you think that I'm a good person?

Do you remember when you were a little girl,

you used to take turns riding all of the horses in the stable

so that none of them would feel left out?

Do you remember that?

I do.Mm-hmm.

But I was a little girl.

It's different.

You have a big heart, Sam. That doesn't go away.

One good thing.

You just focus on that one good thing,

and you see where it leads you.

[narrating] How is it possible to change so much

and not be able to change anything at all?

[thunder rumbling]

I knew I had to do something.

Something good.

Whoo! [indistinct]

[Kent] You made it.

Oh, sorry.

The room's off-limits.

Oh, forget the sign. It's no big deal.

That's really just there for other people so they don't mess with my stuff.

I'm glad you came.Yeah. I had to.

I like what you've done with the place.

Yeah. Yeah, this used to be my dad's old den.

Now it's the, uh-- the Kent McFuller master suite.

[chuckles]

Yeah, not so good in the morning, though.

It's like waking up...[together] ...in the middle of the sun.

Yeah.

[chuckles]

I hope you don't think that it's weird that I'm here with you right now.

Sam, um...

I once wore Crocs for 365 days straight,

so I don't think anything's weird.

I forgot about your Crocs phase.Yeah. [chuckles]

Why are you always so nice to me?

[scoffs]

Uh, well...

do you remember in third grade

right after my dad died?

We were in the cafeteria and I was crying.

And Phil Howe came up to me, called me a baby,

and then smacked my tray right out of my hand,

and food went flying everywhere.

I remember what we were eating too.

It was, um, mashed potatoes and turkey burgers.

And you came over,

you scooped up the mashed potatoes right off the ground

and you went up to Phil and you smashed the mashed potatoes right in his face.

[chuckles]

And you-you then said, "You're worse than a hot lunch,"

which, at the time, was a really good insult.

I mean, I didn't laugh more that day than--

I mean, uh...

It was-- It was the first time I laughed since my--

my dad died and I--

Do you remember what I said to you?

"You're my hero."

Yeah.

And that day, I-I vowed to be your hero too.

No matter how long it took.

[chuckles] I'm sorry.

No, don't do-- Don't be sorry.

It's okay.

Good.

'Cause I'm not really sorry.

[Juliet screaming]

Shit.Wait. I--

[stereo: pop plays]

Sam! Hey!

Sam! Wait, I--

Oh, my God! Sam, did you see that?

[Kent] Hey. Hey, Sam.

Did you see where Juliet went?

Juliet, stop!

Juliet!

Juliet! Wait!

Juliet!

-♪ [woman] Love my name♪ -Juliet!

♪ Love left dry♪Juliet!

♪ Frost or flame♪

-♪ Skeleton me♪ -Juliet, wait!

♪ Fall asleep♪

♪ Spin the sky♪

♪ Skeleton me♪

♪ Love, don't cry♪

♪ Skeleton me♪Juliet!

♪ Skeleton me♪

Juliet!

Juliet!

Juliet.What are you doing here?

I know what happened back there.Get away from me.

And I feel really bad about it, and I know this may sound crazy,

but I have a feeling I may be able to understand you

better than you think that I could.You hate me.

I don't hate you.

I know we haven't always been the nicest to you,

but the thing is that Lindsay didn't mean anything by it.

We didn't know what we were doing.No.

I used to be friends with Lindsay. [sobs]

It was right before her parents got divorced.

I used to sleep over at her house. Her parents would be fighting so bad.

She was so upset.

She was so upset she started wetting the bed.

You remember the name you all gave me in fifth grade,

the name Lindsay gave me.

Mellow Yellow.

Remember that?

You remember the camping trip when I supposedly peed in my sleeping bag?

It was Lindsay.

Lindsay's the one who peed.

When everyone asked what happened, she just pointed her finger at me and screamed,

"She did it."

Juliet...

please let me help you.

It doesn't matter now.

[truck horn blaring in distance]

[sobbing]

You--

I--

Hey, it's like your Val-a-gram always said.

"Maybe next year, but...

probably not."

Juliet--

[vehicle approaching]

[screams]

[crashing]

Oh![crashing stops]

[narrating] For the first time, when I wake up...

I'm not scared...

or confused...

or angry.

Because, for the first time,

I truly understand what needs to happen.

[sighs]

[chuckles]

I truly understand how to live this day.

[Dan] Uh, Friday, right?[mother] Yes.

[chattering]

Oh, thank you.Yeah.

You want something to eat?

I'm good. Thanks. Lindsay's got it covered.

Mom?Oh.

I love you.

I love you too.

What, no love for your old man?

I love you too, old man.Thank you.

Thank you.

Sammy, you forgot your gloves!

What would I do without you?

Hey.

You are perfect the way that you are, Fizzy.

Always remember that.

Oh.

Ugh, I can't breathe!

It's cold!Yeah.

[door closes]

[sighs]

[Lindsay] What are you doing?

Auditioning for a Tampax commercial? Let's go.

[girls shrieking]Yeah, baby!

-[laughs] -Hey! Hey, get in!

[chattering]

You know how I like it.

Hey, Elody.What, do I have white stuff on my face?

No. You know why I love you?

I love you because you're down for anything. Always.

You know I'm a down-ass bitch.

You are.[Ally] Hey, I'm down too.

No. Okay. [laughs]

No, I love you, Ally, because you're curious about the world.

And you're passionate, and you are driven.

Did someone swallow Oprah this morning?

[laughs]

I love you, Linds.

I love you because you're the kind of friend

that toilet papers Jason Foster's house for a week straight all by herself

just because he said that I was a bad kisser.

[all laughing]

Asshole.

Oh, uh, I think I know why Sam's in such a good mood.

[all laughing]

Oh.It goes on him.

[laughs]

[chattering, laughing]

I've been looking for it everywhere. I can't find it.

Thank you so much for that.

Sisyphus.

-Not an STD. -Sorry. It was an emergency in the Tribulation.

A minor LaserJet explosion.

-[woman] Val-a-gram delivery. -Happy Cupid Day.

It's so beautiful.

-I'm in heteronormative hell. -I like your boots.

Sisyphus.

[indistinct]

But he still thinks that he'll be able to push that boulder uphill.

He's in a prison of his own device. The only escape is to change.

Be careful.

That.Oh, man.

Sam. Hey.

Hey.

Um, "You're my hero."

You got a secret admirer?

Secret? That's-That's, um,

not so secret.I don't know what you're talking about.

Well, um...

Hey, listen, um, I'm, uh-- I'm having a party tonight.Mm-hmm.

And I was wondering if you maybe wanted to

come, maybe.

Yeah? No?

What's in it for me?

I-- What's in it for me?[laughs]

Um... yeah.

And, um, I have something I want to tell you later. A secret.

Later?Yeah.

Okay.Okay.

Wait, hey, the "You're my hero" thing, how did you--

Thank you for my beautiful rose. I love it.

[chattering]

What'd you say to me?

This is not working out.

Okay, Sam, you can't break up with me.

I think I can and I-I think I just did.

I should have picked Elody.

What just happened?

[Elody] You guys were supposed to-- I mean you said you wanted to--

It's Rob Cokran.

He doesn't deserve me.[Elody] Nonetheless, very shocking.

[sighs] Sociopath, 12 o'clock.

[Ally] Uh-oh.[Lindsay] Does it smell like pee in here?

[screeching]Stop.

Norma Bates!What?

Just don't.

-But it's Juliet. -Exactly.

It's Juliet. She has a name and she is a person.

Yesterday you said you were afraid she would bite you if she got too close.

That was a long time ago.

That was yesterday.

[thunder rumbling]

[chattering]

[chattering]

-[Samantha] Hey, Linds. -All right, let's do this.

Linds?What?

How come you never told me about your parents' divorce?

[chuckles] Are you serious?

Yeah.

Why would I talk about something that happened a thousand years ago?

Because it happened to you.

And you matter to me.

I don't know what you're talking about. Let's go inside.

Come here.[sighs]

You know you don't have to act so tough all the time.

[chuckles]

Don't worry about me, okay?

Well, I love you no matter what.Let's get inside.

Move, move, move.

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

♪ This is me on the regular So you know♪

♪ Five foot 10 About a buck 20♪

Hey, um, you made it.

Come with me.What? Uh, okay.

Okay.

I-I-I believe you owe me a secret, right?

I believe I do.

Okay, so let's hear it.

[chuckles]

The secret is...

yours was the best kiss that I've ever had in my entire life.

[chuckles] Um, but we haven't-- we haven't kissed.

I mean, not since the third grade.

Better get started then. I haven't much time.

[woman] ♪ Water, water is for washing♪

♪ Vino tinto is for drinking♪

♪ I hate when you Get too high sometimes♪

♪ And forget about existing♪

♪ All the simple silhouettes In here♪

What was that for?♪ Make me nervous In my insides♪

Because I wanted to.

♪ Take my outsides for a ride♪

♪ Any shape that you can Twist them into tonight♪I love you.

-Juliet, I need to talk to you. -[music continues]

For a second. It's okay. Please.Actually, I kind of have somewhere I have to be.

I know what you have planned for tonight.

And I want you to know that you don't have to do this, okay?You don't know anything.

I know that you have something to tell me.

You have something to tell all of us.You're a bitch.

I have been a bitch.

I have been a bitch. We all have been bitches. And I'm sorry.I have to go.

I'm trying to tell you how sorry-- I am sorry.You said that.

Sorry, but I have to come with you.Leave me alone!

I can't.Sam!

Sam, why did you run away from me?I can't right now.

You've been ignoring me for years, and then you kiss me

and then go back to acting--I meant everything that happened back there.

That's all I can say, that I meant it, and I wish it hadn't taken me so long.

Are you in trouble? Uh, you can-- you can trust me.

You can trust me back.♪ When no one's watching♪

Juliet!

Juliet!

[thunder rumbling]

Juliet!

♪ But I'm feeling Less and less♪

♪ Water, water is for washing♪

♪ But I'm feeling Less and less♪Juliet!

Juliet, don't!

Wait! Wait!

Wh-What's going on? Why are you following me?

Why can't you leave me alone?

You don't want to die.

You want the pain to stop.

Stop. You stop. You-- You don't know me.[thunder rumbling]

You could never understand.

You have a choice, Juliet.

Not everybody gets that.

[Kent]Sam!

Please let me help you.

Don't you get it?

You can't help me.

I can't be fixed.

You're not the one who needs fixing. There is nothing wrong with you.

Don't let anyone tell you that there is.

This is just a blip. Your life will change, Juliet,

if you just hold on...[thunder rumbling]

for one more minute.

It's too late for that.

No, it's not. It's never too late.

-Juliet, stop! -[horn blaring]

-[song ends] -[grunts]

[tires screeching]

[narrating] Maybe for you, there's a tomorrow.

[laughing, chattering]

Maybe for you, there's 1,000...

[laughing, chattering] or 3,000.

Or ten.

But for some of us,

there's only today.

And what you do today matters...

in the moment...

and maybe into infinity.

I see only my greatest hits.

I see the things I want to remember...

and be remembered for.

That's when I realized that certain moments go on forever.

Even after they're over, they still go on.

They are the meaning.

Sam?

Sam?

You saved me.

No.

You saved me.

♪ Long way down When there's no way out♪

♪ How I long For the way we were♪

♪ Days go by In the dying embers♪

♪ I still remember♪

♪ These days I'm haunted by♪

♪ Each day that passes by♪

♪ These days passing by♪

♪ I wanna get out♪

♪ But I can't live without you♪

♪ I can't live without you♪

♪ I wanna get out♪

♪ But I can't live without you♪

♪ I can't live without you♪

♪ Long way down And there's no way out♪

♪ But still I ache for the way we were♪

♪ If I repent In the dying embers♪

♪ Will you remember?♪

♪ These days I'm haunted by♪

♪ Each day that passes by♪

♪ These days passing by♪

♪ I wanna get out♪

♪ But I can't live without you♪

♪ I can't live without you♪

♪ I wanna get out♪

♪ But I can't live without you♪

♪ I can't live without you♪

♪ Can you save my soul?♪

♪ Can you make me whole?♪

♪ Try to remember♪

♪ And the wind will blow♪

♪ But I won't let go♪

♪ Try to remember♪

♪ Can you save my soul?♪

♪ Can you make me whole?♪

♪ Try to remember♪

♪ And the wind will blow♪

♪ But I won't let go♪

♪ Try to remember♪

♪ I wanna get out♪

♪ But I can't live without you♪

♪ But I can't live without you♪

♪ I can't live without you♪

♪ I can't live without you♪

[ends]