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- You shot me.

You ready?

Ready.

Oh!

You wanna knock it down?

Wow!

Wow!

- Ah.

Hey, it's me.

Call me back when you get this.

Molly! Jason.

Um, you didn't respond to my Emails.

Um, now I'm calling you.

Yeah, so we're getting together

at Shelton's still.

And, ah, I think you should come.

Um, Sam's gonna be here.

I think you know John and one other guy.

Anyway, I know it's a bunch of dudes

and you're not a tomboy anymore,

but um, yeah...

All right, I hope you're doing well.

And, uh, just call me.

Bye.

- Hello, hi.

- Hi.

- How are you?

Hello.

Hi, hi little buddy.

Look who it is, Finn.

It's your Aunt Amy.

You love Aunt Amy.

- Is he done eating?

Come here.

Ooh! Hello.

Hey there, hey there, Finn.

Hi, baby.

What you got there, a spoon?

Got a spoon and a block?

- You're so good with him.

- Shhh.

- Oh!

Oh, that's better.

Oh, that's Finn.

There's my Finn.

Mmm. Is that delicious?

So delicious.

Your face is all dirty.

Your face is all dirty.

- It's not that dirty.

Oh, you're so sleepy.

What's wrong, you seem a little moody.

- No, no, no.

- I don't know.

I just need a break.

- So take a little break.

I'll take care of him.

That's why I'm here.

Baby.

He's very tired.

I'm gonna put him down.

- OK.

- Is Patrick coming back tonight?

- Yeah.

- Molly, I'm making a living for us, OK?

- You know, I'm just like,

it's too much for me.

I can't...

- Where are you going?

- I've told you.

- And who are these guys?

- You know them, you've met them before.

They're my friends from high school.

- I'm not exactly comfortable with you staying

in a house with a bunch of men.

That's...

- I'm not looking to get fucked, Patrick.

It's not what's going on here, OK?

- Oh, my god, Molly.

Molly, I rearranged my shit to come back

and spend time with you and Finn.

That's what I'm doing here, OK?

- Yes, I know.

I don't know, it's not going to make sense.

It doesn't make sense, OK?

But I just feel like I'm going insane, OK?

And you're always gone.

You're gone and I'm just here

all by myself, you know, with him.

I'm just, you know, I'm just kind of stuck

here with him, OK?

- Listen to yourself.

You're stuck with him?

You're his mother, you're not stuck with him.

You're his mother, you're parenting him.

- I know, I'm parenting him.

- You don't get to leave your job as a parent, OK?

- OK, well, Molly just explain to me.

- I can't, I just don't know what's going on.

I don't understand what's going on.

I just have to--

I don't feel as though I'm the same.

- What do you want me to say to that?

- I don't know.

- So you're just going to leave?

- Yes.

- You're just going to go?

- Yes.

Bye, baby.

Hey, Finn, give Mommy a kiss.

Bye.

Thanks again.

- It's fine.

- What?

- Nothing.

- C'mon.

- Whoa!

That was almost kind of good.

- Big swing, not a big hit.

He steps up to the plate.

They call him the country club cowboy.

That was actually pretty good.

- That was nice, Tiger!

- Hello?

- Far out!

Oh, shit.

- Hey!

Hey!

- You're here!

- Yeah, I don't believe this.

- I know.

- Hey, Molly.

- How the fuck are you guys.

- What the fuck is up?

- Come here.

- It's so good to see you.

- Oh, fuck!

- I know.

Hi.

- Hey, I needed that.

- I know, so did I.

John!

- Hey, Molly.

- My god, how are you?

- Good, good to see you.

- Always such a pleasure.

- Likewise.

- Hey, Molly.

Long time, huh?

- Ben, jeez- Louise.

I haven't seen you in forever.

- I know.

- Wow! You look so not changed.

- Good, I guess.

- You've not.

- What's going on with family?

- The family is fine.

- Good. Patrick's good?

- Yeah, they're really good.

- Awesome. I haven't seen 'em

in a little bit, but...

- That's my brother, David.

- Oh, hi, I'm Molly.

- Hi, David, welcome.

- Thank you.

- He's very zen, very zen.

- He's very at peace with the Earth.

- I'm just sitting on the ground, it's OK.

- I cannot believe this is Shelton's summer home.

This is--

- Well, his parents'.

- It's absolutely beautiful.

I had no idea it was like this.

- They're doing, they're doing OK.

- I would have come more often.

- Middle class just isn't what it used to be,

if you now what I mean.

- Where is he, where is this boy that--

- Shelton? - Yeah.

- He's still passed out

on the couch in there, I think.

- Go wake his ass up.

We're gonna go down to the river, sooner than later.

- Put your shit down.

- OK.

Sam's in there, too making sandwiches or something.

- Good morning.

Hi.

Morning.

Morning, sunshine.

Wake up, you.

Get out of your dreams, face the day.

What are you doing here?

- Came to say hey.

- Hey. Oh, god!

What is in that bag?

- Ah! I don't know, a couple of bricks.

Hey, buddy!

- Hi. Hi, Molly.

- How are you?

- Fine.

- I missed you.

- You're really here?

What are you--

- I am.

- You just drove out here?

- I drove out here, yes, just for you.

- I Emailed you last time we came out.

You never responded.

- Yeah, yeah, shit's been tough.

Whatever.

- Well, I'm glad you're here.

- I know, I'm glad I'm here too.

Little buddy.

- Oh, that really fucking hurt.

- Yeah? You'll survive, it's OK.

I'm sure it's payback for something, anyway.

Hey, Sam?

- Molly.

- Hey.

- Hi.

- I missed you, too.

- I missed you, Molly.

- It's nice to be back.

- It's so freaking beautiful out here.

- Want this beer? I just opened it.

- Thank you.

- You know what time it is?

- I don't know, It's like afternoon, maybe.

- Hey, Shelton, c'mon, let's go!

Is he out of the shower yet?

- Dude, calm down.

He's getting out right now.

- I don't understand why he's taking a shower.

We're about to get in a river.

- Mister Cranky-pants, today, huh?

- There he is!

- Hey, guys, I feel like shit, still.

- You look really handsome, though.

- Oh, thank you.

- You guys went out last night?

- No, we got everything here.

- All right, let's go. C'mon guys.

- Wait, we're gonna go on a river?

- Yeah.

- I just got here.

Don't you wanna, like, catch up?

- Sure. How are you?

Are you good? Good.

OK, let's go to the river.

All right, we can talk on the way.

- OK, I don't have a bathing suit.

Somebody's gotta lend me some clothing.

Preferably something that's not white,

so you aren't staring at my tits.

- What tits?

- You can borrow something from me.

- Yeah?

- Just go straight up the stairs.

My room's right there.

You can grab anything from the dresser.

- Molly, chop-chop.

- Suck it.

- Thank you.

- Jason, why didn't you tell me that she texted you?

- I don't know, it's not a big deal.

She wanted it to be a surprise.

- It's just kind of weird.

I haven't spoken to her in like a year and a half.

She shows up out of nowhere?

- Why, what happened to her?

Where's she been?

- She's got a kid.

She's a mom.

You didn't know that?

- No. Wow.

- So, how you guys want to do this?

- What do you mean?

- Well, I mean, how far are we from the place?

I don't want to pop these on the street.

- It should be coming up soon.

I saw it on the website.

I don't think we should do it out on the road.

- Hey, Molly, remember back in middle school

you were always, "I'll never get married.

"I'll never have kids."

- What?

- Yeah, you were.

- Really? No, I wasn't.

- I mean, did you know we were all fucking

in love with you back then?

- Oh, god.

- Come on, you know we were.

- Whatever, you guys would have been

in love with any chick who paid attention to you.

I just happened to find you guys funny.

- That's probably true.

- Molly was the first girl who was like one of the guys,

you know what I mean?

She was hot, but actually cool.

She was older.

She smoked, she drank.

She went to bars that we couldn't get into.

And, she was smart.

It was fuckin' unfair.

- Was smart?

- So, did any of you hook up with her?

- Yeah, I figured that.

- Are you fuckin' serious?

- Wait!

- It's a big deal when I do it?

With Shelton it's cool?

- Oh, I forgot about that, man.

- You forgot about that?

- Wait, wait, hold on.

You guys hooked up?

The two of you hooked up?

Dude, we only kissed.

- When did this happen?

- Um, that was sophomore year, I think.

Right after my dad died.

You know, I got a little slutty.

I needed attention and these guys were horny.

- I was fuckin' horny.

I would have given you lots and lots of attention.

- You obviously missed your chance, man.

- That's fucked up.

- I totally would have fucked you.

All you had to do was ask.

- Would you fuck me back then, please?

Now.

- I fucked so many dudes then, too.

- All right, guys, I think

this is probably a good spot.

- Why are you whispering?

- I just don't want to be too obvious about it.

- Who cares?

- We right by the river?

- Yeah.

Shit, we didn't bring any peanut butter, did we?

- Just eat it.

It's better, I promise.

- Wow, are you guys doing mushrooms right now?

Is that what's happening?

- We are all doing mushrooms right now.

- No, I cannot do that.

- You gotta go to work.

That sucks.

- What are you worried about?

- Yeah, I guess I just don't want to go

into a really dark head space, that's all.

I understand how you feel.

I understand how you feel.

But we're gonna do it.

- We're all gonna do it.

He's gonna do it.

He didn't want to do it, but he's gonna do it.

Team effort.

- We're about to go tubing down a river.

Do you really think this is a good idea?

- She's actually right about that.

I don't know that we should do the tubing part.

- It's a lazy river, it's fine.

- That's the whole plan.

- I mean, I think you definitely should...

It's the perfect environment.

You're surrounded by friends.

You're in nature.

- You couldn't pick a better place, honestly.

- I just don't want to get into a dark spot,

you know what I mean?

- I've had bad trips before.

It happens.

But, honestly, those tend to be the ones

that are the most cathartic.

- And these are trusted.

- It's from my normal dude.

He's not sketchy at all.

- He's not sketchy, he's a drug dealer.

He's not sketchy, don't worry about it.

- Really, he's a nice guy, a good guy.

- So, is it good?

- We all ready to do this?

- Yeah, all right.

- It's kinda gonna taste shitty,

like you're eating sticks, but...

Don't eat too many caps.

- There's actually just as much

in the caps and the stems.

It's a myth.

You can always take half,

see how it goes then take the rest.

- No, no, no. We want to be trippin' at the same speed.

- No goin' back now.

- Fuckin' gross.

- That's why you need fuckin' peanut butter.

- Just keep your eye on me, OK?

- This is the place?

- This is it, man.

- You talked to him.

- This looks like a fuckin' lemonade shop.

Like a fifth grade lemonade stand.

- Five cents for a small.

- Hey, you guys going down the river today?

- Yeah. You guys found us.

- Awesome.

- I thought it'd be, like, a bigger operation.

- No, this is it.

I'm gonna run down a few things.

First, our big rule is,

you keep your life jacket on all the time.

Never take your life jacket off.

And the other rule, obviously, is

you gotta sign our waiver here.

Just in case you guys do something really stupid.

Also, each valley here is a microclimate.

There are little clouds coming in.

You never know what the weather's gonna do,

so keep an eye on that.

- This is the last time you're ever gonna sign your name.

Now, when you're going down the river,

at the third bridge, you're gonna paddle your little tube

over to the bank.

You'll see our trailer there.

We'll collect you guys and shuttle you right back here.

Are there any questions?

- Yeah, can we drink?

- Yeah, that's fine guys.

Just please be smart about it, all right.

Don't pass out in the middle of the river

or anything.

- Hey, I was in the back, thanks.

All right, are we all clear, now?

Cool. We're gonna pass everything out

and get you guys on your way.

- Do you want some bladder wine?

- I'm good, thanks.

- Thanks a lot, dude.

Have fun, guys.

The river's right down that way.

- What the hell's a micro ciimate?

- Hey, Shelton, is it rough down there?

- It's a little rough.

Did you guys fall?

- No, but these rapids are way too shallow.

I can't even get by.

- What should we do?

Should we just walk down?

- Come on, Sam.

- Sam looks miserable.

- I don't know how we're gonna get any farther down.

It's so shallow.

- Get down and walk it?

Get out, I mean?

- I don't know.

- Sam!

Are you OK?

- No.

- Hey, anybody listen to that dude

about where we're supposed to go

after whatever bridge?

- What?

- Where the hell are we supposed to go

after whatever bridge?

- Are you kidding me?

- I don't know, I wasn't listening

to anything he was saying.

- We're supposed to go

through three bridges and then go left.

- Three?

Fuckin' A, man.

Those guys robbed us, man.

For real.

Fuck.

Are you guys starting to feel it?

- Tube, tube, tube, tube, tube.

- We're done for real, right?

- Do you guys just want to be done?

Yes.

- We can just leave this shit here.

- Lazy river, my ass.

- Yeah, we're done.

This was a rip-off, anyway.

Twenty bucks?

Somebody help Sam?

- Anybody know how to get back?

- There's no way that was safe.

- Not the great idea.

- I lost my shoe.

- Yeah, I lost mine, too, if it makes you feel better.

- Wait, how long does it usually take to set in?

- Thirty to 60 minutes, usually.

- Yeah, in like an hour

you'll start seeing demons and dragons.

- And spiders.

- Evil clowns.

- The clowns are the worst.

- Stop.

- You don't feel it in your stomach?

- Um, I'm starting to feel a little relaxed,

but that's about it.

- Relaxed is good.

- Oh, wow! What is this place?

- It's like an old, abandoned marble factory.

- Marble factory?

- Oh, it's so cold.

Hm.

- Is that wall made out of marble?

- Yeah.

- They look like snow.

- Cubes of snow.

- Molly?

Are you OK?

- Yeah.

- Are you sure?

- Yeah.

- OK.

I just know you were nervous,

so I want to make sure you're OK.

- No, feels all right.

- OK.

Honestly, in my experience,

personally, it comes on faster if you just let go.

- Yeah, I'm not so sure what I'm letting,

exactly what that means.

- Most people have a hard time describing it.

Like, a lot of people say

that it's really spiritually significant for them.

There's a lot of research going on right now, you know.

Some people report having a full,

what they call a mystical experience,

which can include, you know, pure awareness merging

with some kind of ultimate reality, um...

feeling a unity with all things.

Some people rate it

as the most spiritually significant moment in their lives.

- Yeah, but it's a drug taking an effect

on somebody, right?

It's not like a real religious experience,

spiritual experience.

It's a drug's effect, right?

- I know, I know I sound like a hippie.

It's ridiculous.

I'm sorry, it's the kind of shit that I think about

when I'm alone, by myself.

- Hey, guys.

I think we need to get out of here,

or we'll be here forever.

Forever.

- That sounds like a good idea.

- Guys, we're gonna head back.

Shoes, clothes, warm.

We'll be here forever, we'll be here forever.

- Oh, no.

This is real, right?

There's no way I can do this right now.

- We're back but we can't get in.

- Shelton's thing, Shelton can do that.

- Thank you!

- Oh, thank god we're here.

- Welcome back, everybody.

- Thank you, Jason.

Great tour guides.

- All right, I think everybody should get changed.

Then we'll meet back...

uh, wherever.

Just do whatever.

I don't want this responsibility.

I don't want this on my plate right now.

Be happy.

Enjoy the sun.

- God, what the fuck am I doing?

- Oh, the light is different over here.

- Oh, yeah.

Yeah, all these colors just totally changed.

- Whoa! The light got different on this side

than even it was on that side.

- Hey, Jason.

You look happy.

- Thank you.

You look happy.

- I'm happy to see you.

- Thank you.

- How come you're not down at the creek

with everybody?

- Um, I decided I would lie down right here.

- Huh. Can I lay down, too?

I would recommend it.

See what I mean?

- Yeah.

Have you even moved since we've--

since you got here?

- Um...

no, but I have gone lots of places,

and I've seen lots of really cool things.

- Jason? Jason.

- Yeah.

- I have a question for you.

- OK.

- Do you think that Shelton has started to look old?

- I could see it, I guess.

- You know, he's started balding?

- Yeah.

That's not something to bring up around him.

That's something that makes him very upset.

- Oh.

He does not enjoy that at all.

- Oh.

- I don't blame him.

- Well, secretly, though, I think it's really funny.

- Everything on the ground is so wild.

- There's a beaver all up

and down this creek, though.

- There's a beaver here?

- Yeah, see he's got a dam right here.

He's got paths all in here.

- Billy the beaver.

- Yeah, sure, dude, that's his name.

Billy.

- I got some more nature's candy.

- What do you got?

- Strawberries.

- No shit?

- Did you say strawberries?

- Yeah.

- Oh, man, really?

You read my mind.

Oh, wow.

Thank you.

- Oh, my god.

- Here, smell.

- Mmm. Thank you.

- Not that one.

- That's the only one I want.

- Could I have another one before I go back across?

- Yeah.

- What time is it?

- Oh, that is not a concept that I'm prepared

to talk about right now.

I apologize.

- Oh, well.

- Oh, well.

- You know what's funny?

Is that I know that I'm tripping, or whatever,

but how often do you actually get to sit down

outside like this?

- Yeah.

- I think I'm gonna go walk down to the creek.

I think I'm gonna make my way down to the creek.

You wanna come?

- Sure.

I don't know if I could get up right now, though.

- Sure you can.

- That's very nice.

Whoa, this is different.

- It's nice.

- Good, it's nice, yes.

Standing is good.

Wow!

- You know how the bug sounds are so amplified

down here?

- This is awesome.

Are those strawberries?

- Oh, yeah.

Here, have one.

- Really?

- Yes! Please, they're so good.

- Hey, Molly, you want a strawberry?

- Whoa!

- Probably going to be the best strawberry

you've ever had in your entire life.

Not to build it up or anything.

- They're really good.

Really, really good.

- Hey, you guys know flowers?

- Yes.

- I know flowers.

- I knew one, once.

- But you know how there are flowers

and there are bees.

There are bees and there are flowers.

And the flowers need the bees.

The bees have to pollinate the flowers

and the bees need the flowers

because the flowers have the nectar

and the bees need to make honey.

So without bees, no flowers.

No flowers.

Without flowers, no bees.

Without bees and without flowers,

total collapse.

Nothing,

There is nothing.

So, bees aren't flowers.

They're not...

The stem is a flower.

The petals are the flower.

The bud is the flower.

Bees are not flowers?

Wings are bees?

- Symbiosis.

- Legs are bees.

Flowers are bees.

Yeah, right.

You know what I'm talking about?

- Yeah, we have to label them.

We have to say, "You're a flower.

"You're a bee.

"You guys are not connected.

"You're a flower, hang out with dandelions

"and roses."

- Stop feeling oneness, you're not the same thing.

I'm sorry.

There is a void.

There's a total void.

I'm tripping my face off right now.

- Oh, fuck.

- Where is your face?

Where is my face?

- I saw it in the river, John.

It was smiling.

- As long as it was smiling.

- It was part of the river now.

- It is river.

My face is river.

- You're in river, right now.

- Face is river, stick is beaver.

Rock is Ben.

Jason is Sam.

Molly is me.

Shelton is grass, same color.

- Oh, man. Tell us more.

What else about the--

- What else is the same thing as the same thing?

- I love us, John.

- I love us, too.

- We love us.

- I am you, you are me, we are us.

- I wish this was a blanket tree.

- You mean, made of blankets.

- Yeah.

Why do we have the same thoughts?

- Because we're so in-tune with each other.

- Hey, were you guys over there?

- No, we were here.

- The trees.

- Were you at the trees?

Dude, be here.

- May I sit here?

- Yeah.

- Wow, this is cool.

- Yeah.

- How old do you think this thing is?

- This?

- Yeah. - 32.

- Well, that's an appropriate age.

I once got myself off, I once masturbated

while I was sitting on a dead tree like that.

- What?

- Whoa!

You fucked it.

- I fucked, I had, yeah, I fucked it.

Well, I didn't fuck it, but I like...

I got off on it.

- You jerked off on a tree trunk?

- Yeah, I was sitting on a trunk

and I got myself off on it.

This was a long, long time ago.

- Is this real?

- What do you mean, is it real?

- I'm asking you if that really happened?

- Yes, of course it happened.

Why would I just...

Is it weird?

- It's not weird but it's funny to hear that from you.

It's not weird.

- I masturbated all over everything.

There's just a time in your life

when you just need to do that all the time.

- That's very true.

- Does that stop for you?

I love it, still.

- No, it's gone.

- Really?

- My pussy fell asleep.

I mean, it like fell asleep a while ago.

It's so exhausted.

I mean, I haven't exhausted it, though.

I haven't exhausted it, but it's...

It's all been so exhausting.

- So it's just functional.

You just use it to pee?

- You know, I don't even get wet anymore.

- Ew!

- I'm gonna stop masturbating now.

- That thought deadened the whole thing?

- Dry pussy just killed my dick.

- Someone's gonna see this land and be like,

"Yeah, I'm gonna put a house over there,

"and then just figure it out."

- Yeah.

- There'll be a road.

- What was that?

- Something's over there.

Oh, was that an animal?

- Was that is again?

- Sounds like an elk.

- Like, he was huge.

- Smaller than a moose.

- Yeah, but still, pretty big.

- Yeah, yeah, no, I'm just saying--

- Smaller than a moose?

- Well, we might be able to see him

from the top, actually.

- She doesn't sound too happy.

- How can you tell if it's hungry or not.

- I know.

- The best way to tell, probably, if it's coming after you.

- Oh, it's cows.

- They're cows?

- Is it cows?

- It's just a bunch of fucking cows mooing.

- Probably a farmer over there, being like,

what the fuck is going on the next door neighbor's.

- Some idiots keep mooing at it.

- Now, there's a bear.

- Oh!

- Oh, shit!

- Are you sure?

- Yeah, right here there's a bear.

- It is bear season.

- You see that?

- That's a cow.

- That's a cow, yeah.

- It's definitely not a bear, guys.

- Yeah, it's a cow.

- It would be so sad if there was a cow over there,

and like, "Help me!

"Help me, bear, bear!"

- What are the different kinds of clouds?

It's cirrus...

cumulonimbus, cumulus

and strattus.

- Stratta?

- What's the difference?

- I don't know.

The sirrus are like the little whisps.

I think these are, I think.

And then cumulonimbus is the ones

that are thunder clouds.

- The fluffy ones, right?

- How do the animals know,

it's instinct somehow.

- A trait of evolution, maybe.

- No, but like where's it come from?

How?

- How are you innately born with something?

- Yeah.

- You know, Jason told me

that you're getting engaged.

- I am engaged.

I've been engaged for a while.

- I'm so happy.

- Thanks.

- Why didn't you tell me, that you?

- Uh, I don't know.

I guess I didn't realize.

Everyone found out from Facebook

and all that kind of bullshit,

so I guess I just assumed that you knew.

- I didn't know.

- I know you're busy and stuff.

You're out there on your own

and you're fuckin' terrible at keeping in touch.

- Yeah, exactly.

So, you have to put a little...

I mean...

I'm happy for you.

- Thank you.

I wasn't surprised that I hadn't heard from you.

I don't know, it's just fuckin',

it's weird, we'll all be out talking,

you know, having a beer with the guys

and we'll start talking about you, eventually.

It's strange, it's like we're talking about a dead person

or something, you know.

You just completely disappeared.

I don't know.

Sorry.

It's really not a big deal, I just...

It's just weird, but it's fine.

- Looks like I keep moving.

I'm not really sure what,

like what I'm after.

- I need a connection.

But I want to tell you what I'm thinking,

I just don't want to talk about it.

- I know what you're saying.

I know what you're saying.

- Why can't you just get in here, dude?

Just listen to what I'm saying?

- Thank you.

- Molly!

Molly!

We're going over here.

This way.

- Molly, you want a cigarette?

- Yeah, I do, actually.

Thank you.

It tastes really good, right now.

- It's delicious.

- I stopped.

- Why?

- Why do you think I stopped.

- Oh, yeah.

- And you're not really allowed to...

I don't know.

- My used to hide cigarettes from me.

- She did, yeah.

I mean, I have a little secret stash.

Every once in a while I'll take one.

- I didn't understand until I got older, like,

it tastes good to, like, hurt a little bit

and hurt yourself.

Like that self-destruction feeling.

You can't help but want it sometimes.

I want it sometimes.

- Yeah, this is like a really compact form

of that, isn't it?

But not really this big.

- It's a indirect.

- Yeah, it's like--

- It's the friend your mom never wanted you

to hang out with.

- A small little does of it, right?

It's a way that you can monitor it.

- It's good to be self-destructive at times.

And it's important.

- Oh, my god are you kidding me?

I'm like...

I think you have to sort of, like, know

your spectrum, do you know what I mean?

- Yeah.

- I mean, maybe that's kind of part of the reason

I don't know, it's nice to hit rock bottom.

- Yeah.

- Do you know what I mean?

- Well, yeah.

You gotta get your lows to get your highs, I think.

And it seems like a lot of these guys...

Um...

have kind of just plateaued,

and that scares the shit out of me.

- Plateaued in what way?

- Like, there's never a fear that they're--

- Like me?

- I think you're all right.

I think you're a little different, though

in that you've kept a pretty good perspective...

on, like...

- Oh, god.

- You just aren't allowed to be as selfish.

I might be, I don't know,

I'm just really selfish right now, I feel.

- It's weird to be me,

and having accomplished absolutely nothing,

feel like kind of, I don't know, I'm here.

Like I miss her, but ah...

I don't have worries right now.

I should have worries.

I don't have any of the things people need to have.

- Yeah, you do.

- I have her.

- Yeah, you get to go home every day.

- Yeah.

What about you?

You wanna do that?

- I don't know.

- Whoa!

- Yeah.

I think so.

I thought so for a really long time, but...

- Hey, Dad.

- Hey, sweetie.

It's so beautiful here.

- Yeah, it's really nice.

You look exactly the same.

- You know...

I wanted to tell you something.

- John, you put your shoes by the tree.

- I know where to find them now.

- How is everyone?

What happened?

You guys were laughing a second ago.

- It'll happen again.

- The only thing I've been worried about

for hours and hours is, like, where's the best spot

to lie down.

- Will this be comfortable?

Should I make this immense world,

how can I make that my small, little world?

- It's real wet.

- It's so wet.

- I've had it in my mouth for, like, an hour

before I lit it.

You want a different one?

- No, no, no, it's fine, I don't mind.

- We're brother and sister, now.

That's how that works.

- You OK?

- Mm hmm.

- Are you tying shoes?

- Yeah.

- Cause that's something I need to have done.

- I can tie everybody's shoes.

Why can't you guys tie your shoes?

- I was looking at it.

I knew that was a project for later.

- Do you need your shoe tied, too?

That one's good.

That one's good.

- Can you hear me now?

I can hear you!

- It's gonna go down, too.

Is it?

- The sun.

- Yeah, it's gonna get colder.

- It's gonna go pfft.

Now you're all fucking freezing.

- Well, it doesn't actually go down, you know.

We're going up.

- No, we're just going

- Hang on, hold on guys.

It's about to happen.

Look at Johnson coming.

- Safe!

What's the term for that?

For real, what's safe?

Then it seems like, nope, he didn't get it.

Way off.

To the biggest version of the cut neck slice you can do.

Definitely not!

- You know what's really happening

when you're tripping?

- What?

- It basically disconnects you from yourself.

And it's actually calming your brain's activity.

So, you're less able to filter out all these senses

and things that you wouldn't need normally.

Otherwise it'd be overload, you know?

So you're consciously feeling and seeing all these things

that normally you can't.

But, you know.

It's just a drug.

- This is a different world.

- Oh, I need some water for this.

- Here, in the kitchen.

- All right, buddy, come on now.

It's OK, buddy.

That was fun, wasn't it?

It's OK.

- Hey, hi.

Oh, somebody's tired.

- He's tired.

- It's OK, buddy.

- Hey, guys.

- Say hi to your mom.

- No, hey, baby, I'm sorry.

Hey buddy.

I missed you.

* Hey, man I'm thinking 'bout

* Takin' it easy

* Hey, man I'm thinking 'bout

* Goin' slow

* I've been cruisin' at your speed

* For too long now

* Think it's time for me

* To enjoy the ride

* You, you seem

* A little high strung

* Now I really want

* To go with the flow

* Wish we'd just sit back

* Man, and just shut up

* You were never really

* Part of the show

* So, yeah

* I think I'm gonna take it easy

* Yeah, man, I'm gonna

* Go so slow

* Gonna see if I can change my view

* On a few things

* Think it's time to see

* Who's in control

* You, you don't seem too happy

* Now I really want

* To go with the flow

* Wish you'd just sit back

* And just shut up

* 'Cause you know you were never

* Really part of the show

* Hey, man, I'm thinkin' 'bout

* Takin' it easy

* Hey, man, I'm thinkin' 'bout

* Goin' slow

* I've been cruising at your speed

* For too long now

* Think it's time for me

* To enjoy the ride

* Think it's time for me

* To enjoy the ride

* Think it's time for me

* To enjoy the ride