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[♪ upbeat music playing]

[Kim Kardashian] Previously on The Kardashians...

A little birdie told me you were doing a roast.

I've been asked to do Tom Brady's roast.

- You're gonna thrive at this. - Yeah.

Why not? I'm really [bleep] funny.

Ooh, I have the Met Ball coming up. I don't think I can eat it.

It-- Oh, it is?

- Hi. - Hi, baby.

I am going to see Lamar today.

- [Lamar sighing] - Wanna sit this close?

I have a bunch of his stuff.

- Why are you nervous? - I haven't seen you in so long.

He is visibly uncomfortable. He's nervous.

Took you through a lot, huh?

It's just makin' me more uncomfortable too.

Yeah, I [bleep] up.

- [Khloé Kardashian] With what? - With you.

[♪ dramatic sting]

[♪ dramatic theme plays]

- [seagulls cawing] - [waves crashing gently]

- [♪ downbeat music playing] - ♪ The fuel to my fire ♪

♪ Lies under my feet ♪

I love, I love you for trying your hardest with me, yeah.

Thank you.

And I don't-- That love, I don't think it'll ever go away.

I know it won't.

Like, I'm a, a very spiritual person.

You know? So, like, when you marry somebody,

you get married in, in front of God, right?

So, it-- like, the way I lived it just seemed like, like you lied to his face.

But I just wish that somebody would've told me

and sat me down when I married you...

like, how much power... that I was gonna attain.

I wasn't really ready for that.

[Khloé] I don't think...

make that commitment if you can't honor it.

- That's on you. - I know.

I'm not-- Like, I said, I'm not making no excuses.

A man is a man.

I would say I'll be blessed if I can ever find someone

that's even close to you.

The way you held me down and your spirit and how being around you made me,

like, wanna be my best self.

Thank you.

'Cause you're worth it.

- Hm? - I said, "'Cause you're worth it."

- [♪ melancholy music playing] - But worth what?

Like, also worth all the pain? Worth all of this?

And he wished someone told him what he was gonna be losing.

But I did tell you, plenty of times.

I have so m-- so much to be sorry for even though I'm not a sorry person.

Like, I'm a fighter and a winner.

I think some things just break you down, right?

[Khloé] I didn't just let go.

Trust me, he knew very well

if he was ready or willing to receive or understand or hear,

that's a different story.

But that's what life is.

You don't always get second chances and you can't keep doin' [bleep]-up shit

and expect people just to stay around.

Like, I'm-- talk about, like, seeing Kris,

like, I don't even know if I can even look Kris in the face.

Why not?

[Khloé] But why can't you?

I don't know. I haven't seen her in a long--

I mean, the person that I am now, I can't even really...

um...

I mean, what I find so hard to compute is how...

that just stops.

So, what made you stop?

I--

Completely what made me stop is wantin' to have my--

wantin' to be... next to my children.

Wantin' their respect.

I do believe that addiction is a disease. I really, really do.

The truth is no one can save someone from that

except for that own individual.

I've tried countless times to save Lamar from that.

It was my first experience with anybody like that,

and I had to learn the hard way that

I can't save anyone in that position.

And I tried, and I tried, and I tried and I almost lost myself.

And I probably did, at some points, trying to save him.

[♪ tense music playing]

[Lamar Odom] I just wish I wasn't so tense when I first got here.

So, do you wanna go outside and say hi again?

I don't understand what's happening.

- [Lamar] No, I'm off now. - [Khloé] Oh, okay. [chuckles]

I guess in due time, if you give me the opportunity, you will see that I'm...

And I'm probably cool enough, like, to be your friend.

[chuckles] Okay.

As I grow older and start to realize...

what I might've affected because of that is hurtful.

Well, good.

- [chuckles in surprise] - I mean, I don't know what to say

- besides... - You don't have to say anything,

- but-- - Maybe it's, I don't know,

good for you that at least you realize that.

- Acknowledge it, right? - Yeah.

Wanna call my mom?

- Yeah. - 'Kay.

I'ma tell her I need a manager.

- Don't. Just-Just say hi. - Why not? No, [bleep] that!

- Shh, just be quiet. - That's like-- She gets it.

- She gets me. She's a Scorpio. - Shh!

- You wait-- You waiting... - Just be quiet.

[FaceTime ringing]

- Hi, Mommy. - [Kris Jenner] [over phone] Hi.

- How are you? - [Kris] Good. How are you?

- I'm so good. - [Kris] Oh, okay.

I'm just sitting here with Corey. We're about to eat.

[♪ plucky music playing]

Oh, my God!

- Oh, my God! Lamar! - Hey, Mom.

- [Kris] What are you doing? - I'm just sittin' here with Koko...

talking, reflecting.

Wow. That's a surprise.

I had no idea she was gonna see you today.

I bet.

Wait, is that your own face on your shirt?

- It is. It's so fly, right? - [Khloé] That's what I said.

[Lamar and Kris laughing]

- Oh, my God. How are you? - I think we can sell these, Ma.

- I'm fine, Ma. I'm so much better now. - [Kris] How are you?

- I'm with the beauty here of my life. - [Kris] Yeah?

Yeah. With the love of my life over here.

- [♪ melancholy music playing] - Wow.

[Lamar] Praying her to forgive me and all this other shit.

And one of the reasons that he said why he wanted to marry me so badly

was when he met my family.

He said, "How could you not fall in love with this crazy dynamic of sisters

and my brother and my mom?"

He just loved everyone and he loved how close we were

and somehow, that was appealing to him. [laughs]

I just wanted to give him his Sixth Man of the Year,

and his world championship ring, and a couple other things.

[Kris] Wow, Khloé, you are a good steward of...

- The-- The best wife ever. - ...all of those precious things.

She's the best wife ever, Mom.

I don't know. It makes me really emotional.

[emotional] Just the ability for her to have the strength to go do that,

I'm very proud of her, and I'm proud of Lamar for coming

because that had to be hard for him to walk in.

I feel a lot of forgiveness for him

and, obviously, love him

and felt bad that he had this addiction

[crying] that he couldn't control.

And I was devastated for my child who,

that was the love of her life,

and she thought that was her happily ever after

and it didn't work out that way for them.

So...

it's a lot. It's just a lot to wrap my head around.

- We all pray for you, Lamar. - [Lamar] Thank you, Mom.

And wishing you nothing but the best...

- [Lamar] Thank you. - ...and sending you lots of love.

- I love you. - Love you too.

- Alright. Bye-bye. - Okay. Bye.

Alright, just kinda, like-- It just remind me, like, if you got a,

like, a mother, like-like-like, supports you and rocks with you,

like, how s-strong that shit is.

♪

- You could cry if you need to cry. - What?

Do you need to cry?

Ohh.

Lamar didn't have a mom.

His mom passed away when he was 12, if I remember correctly,

and my mom filled that void for him.

She was always there for him and took him as he was.

My mom's terrific in that way.

I'm not sure, but I feel like he feels guilt in letting her down.

♪

- Crying's okay. - [Lamar] It is.

Crying's good.

And it's, it's really, um, helpful and, and, um...

- Well, you look good. - [Khloé] Thank you.

- You look the same. [chuckles] - You make me feel good.

Good. That's always a very nice compliment.

But this has been very awkward.

[Lamar] But, you know, I-I'ma be honest with you.

Even though I would've loved for you to, like...

put me in a dip and put your tongue down my throat

and just, like, to break the ice...

- Ugh. - ...I was kind of expecting

awkward a little bit.

Why would you expect anything less?

If a man hasn't seen his wife

- in how long? - Ex.

Y-- We haven't been married in almost 10 years.

Alright, but I'm saying even if we left on the best of terms,

if a man haven't seen his wife that he loved so dearly in 10 years,

- it would be a little awkward. - Right. So, on the worst of terms,

which we left on the worst, worst, worst, worst, worst.

I'm surprised when you came in here,

you ain't smack me in my face and throw a,

- you know, fist at me. - That's just not my character.

Right? Exactly. So, you know what I'm saying?

Mm-hm.

[Malika Haqq] Okay. She's going to have a whole conniption.

Should we have your cake?

- [Lamar] Yeah, put it right here. - It's cake time.

Do you wanna read it first...

- Oh. - [Malika] ...before I cut it?

"Happy Anniversary." [laughing] "9/27/09." Yes. Thank you.

I'm cutting this part. I don't wanna cut that part there.

I think it's really sweet that he remembers the day we got married.

I think that's very sweet. It's just hard.

It's neither here nor there for me.

I think I've built up such a wall.

So, like, uh, what?

You remembered our wedding date? What, did you google it?

I don't know, 'cause did you remember our wedding date

all the time when we were married?

Let me get you guys some forks. Sorry.

I'll take this knife 'cause you guys are dangerous.

You gotta stop calling me "babe," first of all.

It doesn't play with me.

"Babe"? I don't even know you.

[laughing] Yo! Whoa.

You think I'm supposed to know you? I haven't seen you in 10 years.

Last time I saw you, you couldn't speak.

- [Khloé laughing] - Don't hit me with that fake-ass laugh.

[Khloé chuckling]

[Khloé] No, just-- My name is Khloé. Koko, Khloé--

- Koko! I'll call you, Koko. - Okay.

- [Lamar] That's how I'm goin'-- - Don't need to call me anything else.

[Malika] Oh, you guys, like, figuring out your, like, friend names?

No, he's calling me "babe."

I'm like, "You can't call me 'babe.' I don't know you."

I said, "Last time I saw you, you couldn't speak."

- And he didn't like that comment. - He's readjusting.

- Yeah, it was harsh. - It's not harsh. It's the truth.

- [Lamar] But it's like, uh-- I'm like a-- - The truth [bleep] hurts,

but let me tell you, it hurts one time. A lie hurts 7,000 times.

- [Lamar] Yeah-- - But if I tell you the truth one time,

you can't call me that because you couldn't speak.

Whose fault is that? His fault he couldn't speak

'cause he decided to do naughty things somewhere

he shouldn't have done it. His fault.

- Okay. - [Khloé] Not my fault.

- Alright. - And I didn't even take cocaine

to the club when we went to that brothel that day.

[♪ tense music playing]

You-- Are you okay?

I'm beautiful.

You have no idea what happened that day.

Thank God, but I do.

♪

[♪ tense music playing]

Don't talk about it if you're not gonna be honest about it.

I'm being completely honest about it.

I know I ain't take drugs.

For them to say that I had a overdose.

I think what Lamar is saying, or trying to say,

is when he went to the brothel,

he did not take drugs and he doesn't recall... taking them.

I think it's... a fact that he did overdose,

but he's implying that somebody might've drugged him.

You were in a coma for three days.

- That's what they said. - I was there.

- I was there the second you were... - Okay. So, that's what they told you.

[Khloé] ...you were there.

I was there when your father said, "Pull the plug,"

so he can be on your life insurance.

- Okay. - I was there. So was Kim. So was my mom.

And then I was there when you had six heart attacks,

12 strokes.

- Twelve strokes, six heart attacks. - I also had-- Kobe walked in

when we had to do a lung surgery on you,

who helped me with that. We were there.

You woke up, pulled the tubes outta your mouth.

You did yourself. I was there, through it all.

- I still got that. - [Khloé] We transferred you from...

- [Malika] Yep. - [Khloé] ...Vegas to Cedars.

I was there through it all. I remember everything.

I didn't leave you for four months.

I lived-- I got staph infection 'cause I lived in a hospital.

- Do you know who this is? - [Lamar sniffles]

This is your son.

Do you know his name?

Your son's name is Lamar Junior.

And we call him LJ.

Do you remember why--

Have you never thought,

"Why did we ever stop talking completely?"

[Lamar] No. I always think about that and I, and I know why.

- Why? - [Lamar] Because how I did drugs

after that.

Why on Earth would someone that went through all--

You can't talk, I had to teach you hot from cold,

diapers, to walk, all that.

[Lamar] The person that went through the coma,

to the-- some person that, I can't even really tell you what the--

if he was even thinking.

But you had enough awareness to get a burner phone

to call a drug dealer to get what you needed to get

- to send security away... - [Lamar] But what did I--

...to do what you needed to do for me to find out.

- All I can-- - And then for me to punch you in the face.

- All I-- - 'Cause I punched you in the face,

- and I shattered everything in that house. - I don't remember that.

Ah!

But I think, actually, Lamar, for her...

- I'm not dismissing none of that. - ...it's hard for her to actually see

where you appreciated what she did for you in that time

- and you don't remember her. - [Lamar] But that's the most--

It's so funny because people always ask me about me and Khloé, me and Khloé.

- I'll be like, "Yo... she wiped my ass." - [Khloé scoffs]

I don't really remember her literally wipin' my ass,

but I know...

- [Malika] You just know that-- - ...that I couldn't wipe myself.

So, I know that. Who else was doin' it?

She didn't even let the nurses do

- things to-- I-- - [Lamar] I could just i-- I could imagine.

That shit should've never happened. She's a beautiful woman.

[Khloé] I'm so pessimistic these days.

I wish I wasn't.

I, I do wish I could have that innocence of when I first met him

and the love we had and how pure it was

'cause it was pure and it was incredible.

'Cause I know I'm colder.

Like, when I see old episodes of Lamar and I

and I'm like, "Who is that girl?

Like, what a beautiful thing to be so naive and trusting."

I will never get that back, but maybe that's also okay.

- I gotta go get my kids. - [Malika] I know.

- Put them to bed. School night. - Look at us, now we got babies and stuff.

- It's-- Yeah. - It's a school night, right?

Do I think I needed to go through all this bullshit?

No.

I-- Hopefully, I'm capped out.

[♪ "Fuse" by HRDLY playing]

I feel like a hundred pounds just fell off my-my shoulders.

Nice seeing you.

Hopefully, I can continue to, you know, move on.

And, hopefully get to know her a little bit more.

Love you guys.

Oh, hugs. 'Kay.

- [Malika] Thank you. - Maliks, I love you.

[Malika] Love you, babe.

Today was a lot, to say the least.

I'm not really sure what just happened.

I do know that I feel relieved,

I feel proud of myself that I met with Lamar.

I feel like this is a part of my shedding process

while I am preparing to get into my fourth decade of life.

- Thank you. - [Lamar] No problem.

♪

♪ Light peeks through the cracks ♪

♪ To see the place I made ♪

[♪ upbeat music playing]

- Sure. - [John giggling]

[Kim] We are two days out from the Met

and my look this year is John Galliano Margiela.

Mm-hm.

This is a great placement.

- See, I can talk. Before I was like... - Yeah.

John Galliano is the most iconic designer.

He used to be the head designer of Dior.

I've always wanted a relationship with him and always wanted a Met with him.

There's literally no one better.

Chris, I need you to pick me up and drop me in.

[John Galliano] Be careful around the waist.

- [groans] Oh, sorry. - [quiet laughter]

Thank you.

[Kim] This year's theme is

"Sleeping Beauties: Reawakening Fashion."

And we were, like, dreaming up scenarios

and what if we had the most wild night in, like, the garden party

and then, Cinderella had to get up and rush off

and I just grab my boyfriend's sweater, the cardigan,

and, like, wrap it around me 'cause I'm cold.

I'm not as uncomfortable as it might look.

- [Kim groans] - You alright?

It's definitely, like, a performance piece.

I mean, God bless the Bridgerton cast

that has to dress like this every single day.

That would be so difficult, honestly.

Good vibes only.

I have refrained from talking shit about

so many people this whole week.

Okay, this is gonna be a crazy travel week,

but I think this is what I live for.

I'm in New York, then I'm gonna fly to LA,

shoot the Tom Brady Roast,

and then fly back that same night

to go to the Met the next day.

So, it's gonna be crazy travel but I love it.

So, look at these shoes. These shoes are insane.

So, I can't lean back 'cause there's no heel on the shoe.

Should we practice over there?

Wow.

I'm gonna have to figure it out on my own.

And there's no rail.

[bleep].

I'll do a picture this way. This way, this way.

Shit.

[♪ playful tense music playing]

I got it. I promise I'll be okay.

- Sure? - I promise.

We're just getting started.

Now we're gonna shower and get in glam.

Hey, Vogue, it's Kim.

This is actually the first time I've ever done this

where I've tested hair and makeup looks

before the actual event.

- [♪ curious music playing] - [whirring]

Hey, Mom!

I love the hair.

- [Chris Appleton] Fun, right? - [Kris] Alright.

Okay, listen.

Khloé has asked me not to say anything about Lamar.

We've been through so much with this man,

it's hard not to get into a huddle about all of this,

but for right now, I'm just gonna be at the Met

and deal with this when we get home.

Hello! Don't get up. How are you? Nice to see you.

- [John] Yes. - Is it metal?

[John] Yes, yes.

[Kris] Such a creative man you are.

[Chris] She's having a history lesson.

Kim! J-- You don't have to give all my playbook away.

- Get a John Galliano! - [John chuckling]

But, yeah, I'm schmoozing.

And don't you wanna see me in the shoes, Mom?

This is fascinating.

Oh, the shoes. Come on, you guys.

You step and step.

These shoes do not have a heel!

[laughter]

The fitting went amazing.

I'm so excited to debut this look,

and I just hope the roast goes well.

Absolutely not.

Makes me look the coolest and the best.

- Maybe. - [group chuckling]

♪ One, two, three, go ♪

[♪ upbeat music playing]

We're going in the Ohio Grand Wagoneer?

[Travis Barker] Come here. Reigny, you gotta sit back here.

[Kourtney Kardashian Barker] Babe, let's show Reigny the back.

[Travis] Okay.

Travis is a huge car lover.

Especially Chevys. Especially Impalas.

And so, he bought this 1962, super cool, beautiful car.

How do you open the back?

- Oh. - Oh.

It was in the shop getting a few things fixed on it

and it was supposed to come back next week.

But I asked the car guy, secretly, if he could have it back on Sunday,

so that we could take it to family dinner.

- [Travis] You like it back here? - Yeah, and you can come too.

I can pretend to be asleep like an X21 bubble.

Every Sunday, family dinner we have at home.

And so, in the morning, Travis said,

"Wait, I texted the chef to ask what the menu was

and he said he's not coming tonight."

And I said, "Yeah, we're doing something different

and you just have to be ready at four."

[engine rumbling]

So, my dream was that me and Travis and all seven kids

were in the Chevy Impala wagon going to family dinner.

We'll see you guys there.

But two of the kids didn't end up coming to dinner

and two of the kids didn't wanna ride in the wagon.

[Travis] Like, in a perfect world,

I don't even know if I would drive it on the freeway, babe.

[Kourtney] This part is just for fun.

But if you don't think it's a great idea, we can quickly switch into the--

into another car.

[Travis] You know when you buy a car that's not yours,

you just don't know anything about it.

So, it's, like, the unknown, that's, like, so scary.

You know, old cars, it's unpredictable, you know?

[Kourtney] Yeah.

I'm thinking like, "What could go wrong?

We're gonna drive the wagon. It's gonna be all good."

[car horn honks]

[Travis] Oh, babe, it almost sounds like a boat horn.

- [Kourtney] Oh, my gosh. - [car horn honks]

[Travis] How long does it say, baby?

[Kourtney] Forty minutes.

- [Travis] Really? - [Reign Disick] Yeah.

[Travis] Were you flipping him off?

- [Reign] No! - [Kourtney] Are you sure?

[Reign] I swear!

[♪ majestic music playing]

[Kourtney] Babe, do you love it?

[Travis] Oh, my God. I love it. She's driving good.

[Kourtney] It is driving really good.

- Do we have a name for her? - [Travis] Blue.

[Kourtney] I swear I said "Blue" this morning to myself.

- [tire pops] - [♪ music warbles, stops]

[Kourtney] Ooh!

[metal squeaking, grinding]

[Travis] Shit, babe. Shit.

[traffic rushing]

- [ambient traffic noise] - [Kourtney] Shit.

[Travis] Yeah.

[Kourtney] We got a flat tire

and Travis quickly pulls over to the emergency lane.

'Kay, Reigny, come. Go get in the car.

So, we just get everyone into the other car.

So, so far, my surprise is not going as I planned.

[♪ mysterious music playing]

[Kourtney] You're gonna see, babe. Just patience.

So, Travis has been asking me to go to the Petersen Automotive Museum

because they have a low-rider car exhibit.

Are we moving?

[Atiana De La Hoya and Reign] Yeah.

And so, I asked if they could have dinner for us

with all the low-riders.

It can only get better from here,

and I'm still actually really excited for the car museum.

- [door creaks open] - [Reign] Oh, my God!

[Kourtney] You guys ready?

[♪ upbeat music playing]

This is so cool.

[Travis] Wow, Rock, look at this.

We're in heaven.

Wow.

[kids chattering]

- Is this a fun family dinner? - Yeah, it's awesome.

It's just a really cool experience.

Look at that race car. Could you imagine getting in there?

You know, we get to see all the old cars and walk around.

Come here, my boy. Oh yeah.

- [Travis groans, kisses] - [Kourtney] What?

Oh, I love you, my boy.

♪

♪ Woo! ♪

♪ Get the memo ♪

I almost brought mine here, but we didn't, we didn't make it.

- What are you driving? - A '62 Impala Wagon.

Yeah.

[Kourtney] We're gonna eat in the low-rider exhibit, babe.

- [Reign] No way! - [Travis] Beautiful.

[Kourtney] How cute is this with the baseball bat?

[Travis] Yeah.

- On the side. - [Travis] It's hard.

[Kourtney] So, we need this, but, like, for Rocky.

- [Rocky cooing] - Hi.

What?

Thank you.

[Travis] Now it all makes sense. You were like, "Oh, don't worry.

Your car's gonna be okay," 'cause I would've been here.

- Yeah, that would have been beautiful. - Well, so you were, like, panicking

and I'm like, "It's all gonna be okay."

- [Rocky cooing] - No, this is the best place

to... to drive the car.

Well, I felt like such an asshole

because I was, like, too embarrassed to sit in the wagon

and then I was like, "Oh, it's a family thing.

Like, maybe I should've gone in the wagon."

[Travis] You should have.

Ati was like, "I have somewhere to go after,

so I'm gonna need to take my own car."

And I was like, "There's nine seats."

- Like, we need all nine of us. - And that made it worse

'cause I was like-- I pictured, like, Brady Bunch.

Do you remember?

We're so much cooler than that family.

I mean, I'm not-- I just am cool by nature,

but I'm not, like, trying to be "cool mom."

[chuckling] But I just am, naturally.

- [Rocky cooing] - [playful] No.

- Delicious, you are. - [Rocky giggling]

But that's just, like, [laughing] that's, like, facts.

[Landon Barker] Know what we forgot to do, guys?

Peak and pit.

- [Landon] Exactly. - [Kourtney] You wanna start?

My peak was coming here and eating with you guys.

My peak was coming here

and being able to pull off a surprise for Travis.

My pit was the flat tire.

I think our Sunday family dinners have become something

that all of the kids look forward to

and it's become a really nice tradition of ours.

My peak is coming here with all of you guys,

seeing all these beautiful cars.

My peak was that our car tire popped.

- The peak? - It was fun.

The flat tire was, like, the fun part.

Babe, do you want a bite of it? It's so good.

No, thank you, babe. I'm good.

I didn't really know what was goin' on.

I thought you might be cooking, so I ate a big meal.

- [laughter] - No, I'm just kidding.

It's probably true.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[cheering and applause]

[Kim] So, I'm here for Tom Brady's Roast

and let me say this, I had no idea--

I knew it was at The Forum, but I had no idea it was sold out.

I thought it was, like, a private taping.

So, when I walk in, I was like,

[laughing] "Huh! There's a lot of people here."

My thoughts on the roast is I would never do a roast again.

It's not good for the soul.

I could've never imagined that I would be booed...

but you can't [bleep] win.

So, it's like, "Oh, football fans. Oh, sports fans.

Oh, they [bleep] hate the Kardashians."

I thought I was gonna get up and give a toast and leave.

That was the whole plan.

And then I was like, "Well, I can't leave

"because then I'm gonna look like a poor sport;

that I couldn't handle anything."

And I'm like, "When's it over? I have a flight."

No, I could care less. Let me, let me live my life.

It happened. I don't erase what happened.

Listen, I'm the best sport.

Like, I can handle it, but it just wasn't new.

All they do is call the girls "whores."

It was just the same thing.

But I thought Nikki Glaser killed it. I really did.

There was also so many funny moments.

I'm not gonna sit here and, and literally be the victim of like--

It wasn't about me.

It was fun to be a part of it and I did it and I never have to do it again.

[♪ "Vivid Dream" by Vanacore Music playing]

♪ Oh, it feels right ♪

♪ Got that dream life ♪

♪ Got that dream life ♪

♪ Could it be so ♪

♪ It seems so... ♪

[Khloé] 'Kay, where is the helicopters?

- [cat meows] - I know, Baby Kitty took it.

Baby Kitty. Mommy, up, up. Mommy?

- Yes? - Up here, Mommy.

- You're gonna line them up there? - [Tatum Thompson] Uh-huh.

[Khloé] What about the monster trucks?

- That's for you, Mommy. - It's for me?

- Mm-hm. - Thank you.

Right now, I am in my happy place.

I'm in mom mode, I'm with my kids and, you know,

I haven't really processed everything

that went down with me and Lamar meeting one another,

but when my mom and Kim get back from the Met,

I cannot wait to talk to them about it.

He's gonna be two.

Obviously, it was a very different situation.

It was so scary. And then, also,

just such a guilty time 'cause you've--

- I didn't have that connection... - Car.

...or anything like that,

but I also felt really terrible that, like,

I didn't get to walk True through it all.

Like, she didn't get to see somebody pregnant

or, like, I just sprung it on her like, "Here's a baby." [chuckles]

- 'Cause I didn't really know what to do. - Play, Mommy.

My experience connecting with Tatum

is so different than my experience I had with True.

And I do think it was a storm of

either traumas or emotions.

I mean, I knew he was my son and I loved him and I took care of him,

but I just did not have that instinctual feeling

that I had with True, instantly.

- Hi, Tutu. Tutu... - [Khloé chuckling]

- [Khloé] Give her a hug. - Hi, Tutu.

Tutu... [babbling]

[Khloé] But I knew I was gonna get there.

I didn't think Tatum was gonna be five years old

and I would have no attachment to him.

I never thought that at all.

I, simply, was really mad at myself.

Like, those feelings are not about Tatum.

He is the best, sweetest, most loving boy.

It was the situation and everything that I went through

and I was more mad at myself that I couldn't get over it faster.

I never let him know the difference either way.

And I also felt like it was important for me to be honest on the show.

I never heard the other side of surrogacy, like,

"Oh, you don't really feel connected,"

and then you feel ashamed in admitting that,

where I just was like, "Listen,"

I know my situation had, like, [softly] cheating

[normal] and other things involved, so I'm sure mine's layered,

but I wanted people to know that there's definitely

different ways this can go.

And now we're in such an incredible place.

'Kay. Dance party time.

He is magical and has the most beautiful personality.

I swear, he's my dad. It's so interesting.

He calls my mom "Honey."

And my dad used to call my mom "Honey."

No one has asked him to call my mom "Honey,"

at least, not that I know of.

Uh-oh, hold on. Sorry, my thing froze.

- Everybody, chill. - Mommy.

- Hi, Mommy. - Hi, Tatum.

[True chattering]

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[FaceTime ringing]

[FaceTime ringing]

Thank God I'm here at the Met 'cause now people can complain

about my [bleep] corset instead of me getting booed.

Oh, thank you.

I can't ruin my lipstick. I'll have to take the shot with a straw.

♪

[camera clicking]

[laughs] Oh, my God.

Doing an event like the Met Ball with my family,

with three of my kids this year, with Corey, is very, very special.

[indistinct chatter]

Good. I just feel like I need moisture in my lips.

Today is...

[both] Met Monday!

[both giggling]

- Alright, you ready for me? - [indistinct chatter]

Okay, let me get dressed and then we can do the rest.

- Okay. Dani, I'm ready. - [Danielle Levi] 'Kay.

I feel like Cinderella at the ball.

- [shouts] Corey! - [all chuckling]

- My bridesmaids are getting tired. - [laughter]

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ Gimme like an encore ♪

[Danielle] Kendaaall!

There he is! Alright, here we go.

[speaker] Have fun!

[siren wailing]

[crowd cheering]

[cheering]

- Kim! - Kim!

[crowd screaming, cheering]

♪

[cameras clicking]

[crowd shouting]

[FaceTime ringing]

Oh, my God, you haven't even left yet?

[Kendall Jenner] Okay.

I'm very much like--

I stress if, like, timing isn't working out.

"Oh, my God, you're late too? What if I'm already too late?

"And then she's even later, like, I don't know.

What if we're both not gonna make it?"

- No, I worry. - [producer giggles]

Mm-hm. Right?

- [producer] Okay, okay, okay, um-- - Like, right, everyone?

But I think I'm just so used to you always being the one like,

"'Kay, Kylie, I'm leaving!"

- And I'm like-- - Well, because you do

- take a long time sometimes. - I stress because I'm like,

"Oh, God. When she says she's leaving, she's leaving."

[crowd cheering]

[fan] I love you, Kylie!

[crowd cheering]

♪

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ Stoppin' you in your tracks ♪

Are you gonna watch the carpet? I'm gonna head there.

- [laughter] - Drinking pee before the Met,

- that's my secret. - [laughter]

♪

♪ We're comin' ♪

♪ We're comin' for ya ♪

♪ We're comin' ♪

♪ We're comin' for ya ♪

The Met Ball never gets old. It's such an amazing night.

To be honest, it's a bit stressful. It's a big red carpet.

It's very intimidating.

- [photographers shouting] - [cameras clicking]

But then, you get to the top of the stairs,

you get to see friends and get to the bar.

[chuckles] A little cocktail. You know, my favorite part.

And then, it's magic.

[fan 1] We love you, Kendall!

[fan 2] Woo! Kendall!

[cameras clicking]

[photographers shouting]

[photographer] Hi, Kendall!

[photographers shouting]

I love the Met because there's this adrenaline that kicks in

and you just wanna get through the carpet.

[photographer] Kim, can we see the whole look? This way!

- [photographers shouting] - [cameras clicking]

I actually said to Kim the other day,

or maybe I was thinking it, I still need to say it,

so, Kim, I'm talking to you.

Are you ever gonna wear a dress to the Met where you actually can walk?

Because I see you scooting like scooch, scooch, scooch, scooch, scooch.

And the little steps up the staircase.

It's so cute, though.

I don't know what I would do

if you just walked into the Met wearing a normal dress.

- [photographers shouting] - [cameras clicking]

Today's definitely a chaotic day, but I think every year gets chiller.

Oh, I was shaking.

- Oh, shaking? - Don't know why this year hit me so hard.

William.

And 'member I called you and you were so--

Kendall was so calm.

You made me feel better. You were just, like, some words of wisdom.

You were like, "This is supposed to be fun.

Let's just have a good time."

And I was like, "Okay. She's calm, I'm calm."

[photographers shouting]

[♪ upbeat music playing]

Every moment that we get to share together is appreciated.

And it all means so very much because we all try to live in the moment

and this is one of those moments.

[♪ music concludes]

- [ambient street noise] - [car horns honking]

- [Kim] Can we please go? - [driver] Yeah.

Can we? Can-- Do you know how?

Oh well, we'll wait for them. It'll probably only be 10 minutes.

[La La Anthony] Okay, baby.

Usher came up to me. He was like, "I felt so bad for you on that roast."

At the Met, people would come up to me and be like, "Are you okay?"

And I'm like, "I'm fine. What's wrong? I'm fine."

I mean, it really bothered me too.

- No idea. - [La La] Oh, shit.

[Kim] Ah!

And then this guy, afterwards, did an interview

and was like, "Kim was so robotic."

She sat with perfect posture for three hours straight.

I've never seen anything like that in life.

Completely detached.

I was like, "I knew I was half robot. Other people realized it."

No, he said, "It was like she was out of her body."

And I go, "What would you think from someone sitting there

hearing horrible things about themselves?"

Like, am I supposed to sit there

and be like, "How innovative, you called me a whore!"?

You know, like, of course, you're gonna freeze.

You're gonna just [bleep] freeze and be like...

"Uh-huh.

"Mm-hm.

[through gritted teeth] Tracy, how much longer?"

Like, you know? [chuckling] That's what I was doing.

If I had gotten up to leave, they would've said,

"Oh, Kim's mad. She's such a bad sport."

When I'm like, "No I have a flight to catch

"because I have, like, the [bleep] Met Ball

and all this other stuff to do."

But I will never, ever, ever do a roast again.

Yeah, but how?

- There's no way-- - Just need-- Freddie, do you have a knife?

- No, no, no. They-They'll take it off. No. - To cut off the waist?

I am claustrophobic.

I've never felt this way before where I feel like I can't breathe.

It's, like, I can handle it for so long, but I have to pee,

I can't breathe, I can't get this off.

So, this one, I was just like,

[inhales sharply] "I'm gonna die if you don't get this off of me right now."

I literally was dying.

I'm just, like, literally gonna throw up.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

- [cameras clicking] - [crowd cheering]

♪

Alright, if I don't get this off right now...

- Hi, everybody. - [Chris] Really?

[Kim] I've never been in this much pain before.

- Seriously? You never complain. - [Kim] Besides my fingers.

- I know. - [Chris] Everyone is talking about

how small your waist is.

[Kim] Well, 'cause I had to sit at two different points

and I was gonna sneak out right before the dinner

and I walked by Anna's table

and Anna goes, "Perfect, you're here.

Can you sit in my seat while I go make my rounds?"

And I was like, "Okay."

[Kim sighing]

Oh, my God.

- Woo. - Okay.

La, will you take a pic of my back?

- [La La] Let me see. - [Kim] Does it look crazy?

[La La] Oh, my God, Kimberly.

Abso-[bleep]-lutely. Yes. That's just who I am.

If you look good, it is all worth it.

Well, who was your favorite look?

- Me. - [all chuckling]

[chuckles] Kim, say someone different.

- [La La] Besides you. - [Kim] No, I'm serious.

It's not, like, often I feel that way.

Alright, so, 'cause it's you, you always can critique.

What would you change?

- The line of my sweater. - [Chris] Really?

Because I had my own pics with the sweater open.

There's always one thing.

It's so funny how many people thought

that sweater was, like, a last-minute decision

that was just thrown on for some mistake or something.

And then I saw people say like, "Oh, my God, it was so beautiful under

and the corset and you should've worn that."

Like, I always wear that.

You know, like, the whole part was the sweater.

That was, like, my favorite part.

- You guys want pizza? - No, it's okay. Thank you so much.

[Kim] The night's over, another Met down.

I feel like I got my creative juices out on this one, this year.

I really, really loved it.

- Every time. - Yes!

But I'd do it a hundred times over.

[La La laughs]

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪

♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪

[Khloé] I need my jug of water.

- Do you have ice in there? - [Khloé] Mm-hm.

You don't win an award for drinking room temperature water.

My mom and Kim are back in town from the Met.

So, I have to tell them

just everything that happened with Lamar.

I FaceTimed my mom, so she, obviously, knows,

but I didn't tell anyone else.

I think Kim's reaction is just gonna be like,

"No [bleep] way! What happened?" Like, just being nosy.

- Oh. - Hi.

- Hi. - [Khloé] Where'd you come from?

- [paper bag crinkling] - My house.

- [Khloé] Mm. - I just landed from New York this morning.

[Khloé] You guys are never gonna guess who I met with.

- Who? Lamar? - I did.

- Stop. - [Khloé] Yeah.

- [Kim] Stop. - How did you know?

- [Khloé] Huh? - I'm psychic.

Never did I think she was going to guess the right person.

I think she was just like,

"Who's the most outrageous person I could think of?"

Yes, Sherlock. It was [bleep] Lamar.

We called Mom, so Mom knows.

- Should I call Kris Humphries? - [Khloé] That's what I said.

Get all the ex-husbands on here.

It was, it was really sad.

Seeing him was sad?

I think so.

I would've been really sad.

[Khloé] It's weird. I feel like some moments,

I sorta, like, blacked out.

- [Kim] Mm-hm. Totally. - Like, I don't know. It was almost like

I'm in autopilot.

Like, I don't really know how I said bye.

Like, I feel like I was just like, "Okay, I gotta go."

Like, it was just, like, time.

- It was six something. - You needed, like,

just time to decompress.

Mm-hm.

I don't know. Sometimes I wish I was like,

"Khloé, like, just put your guards down. It's okay.

"Like, this isn't romantic, so, like, he can't hurt you like that.

So, let's just talk."

But I-I... I was so anxious internally

or so uncomfortable that I couldn't even talk to myself

to, like, get myself out of that really guarded headspace.

So many of the specific words or conversations or--

those I sort of forgot

because I blacked out a little bit 'cause I'm just--

It was so overwhelming the amount of emotions I was feeling.

And I do remember there was a time where Lamar said...

something along the lines like, "This is a very out-of-body experience."

And then, now that I'm looking back at it, I'm like, "It-It sort of was."

Like, I almost feel like I was, like, floating above my body

and I'm not sure-- It was just-- It was overwhelming.

So, basically, when I moved here,

I kept finding all this random stuff of Lamar's.

So, I just started putting them in a trunk.

He came over and he was so nervous.

He was mumbling like a [bleep].

- He was like... - [Khloé and Kim mumbling]

- [laughing] What? You guys. - [Khloé] And he would talk like...

And I'd go, "Are you, like-- What are you nervous about?

Like, breathe, calm down."

He came in with flowers,

- flowers, champagne, and a cake. - That is so

- nice. - Very sweet.

That was so nice that he brought you flowers.

- [Khloé] No, it was so, so nice. - [Kris] And a cake.

- [Khloé] And then, the cake-- - Why do I feel bad for people?

Like, this guy cheated on you, this guy, whatever.

Why am I like, "Oh, my God, he bought you a cake."

- I mean, a cake. Please. - Like, why are we like this?

- [Khloé] L-Listen, I-- - We need to go have

- a group therapy session. - Yeah.

- Mom, you wouldn't do therapy - [laughs] Yeah.

[Khloé] We-We've been begging you to do therapy.

- I want the best for him. - [Kris] I just don't wanna go by myself.

I'm rooting for him, all those things.

But I'm not gonna be with the guy.

- Obviously. - Right, but I feel bad for him too,

- but I think those are because we're... - [Kim] But why do we feel bad?

- ...sweet people. - Why do we feel bad?

- [Khloé] But why should we not? - Because we loved them at some point...

- [Kim] Yeah. - ...and we don't un-love them.

- Like, why should we not feel bad? - Yeah.

I get where Kim is coming from. I mean, we all do this.

I-- We, in this family, definitely remember the good

way more than the bad.

And, for some reason, we have amnesia when it comes to the bad.

But I'm proud of Kim for catching what she did.

That is growth.

When I gave him the trunk of stuff, he was, like, blown away.

I think really overwhelmed with emotion.

He was like, "Man, I picked a good one," or something like that.

And I was like, "What?"

He was like, "'Cause, look, you saved all of this."

And I was like, "Well."

Oh, we got into a little back-and-forth when he was like,

"When I went to the brothel, I wasn't on any drugs."

- This story. - And, and I just can't with that story.

And-- But I'm like, "You're committed.

Do what you gotta do to feel good about it."

'Cause I was like, "I was at the hospital.

I know what was in your blood. Are you kidding me?"

Does he remember that you were the one

who was in the hospital with him all those months?

He doesn't remember how long he was there.

I was like, "You know we were there for four months?"

He's like, "Four months?!

- [Kim laughs] - I was there for four months?"

And I'm like... "Yep."

Now, try to blow them out after you made your wish, okay?

[party horn blows]

[soft laughter]

- [speaker] Okay, blow 'em out. - [Khloé] One... two... three.

[speaker] Do it!

[Khloé] Try to blow. Can I help you?

- [Lamar] Mm-hm. - [Khloé] 'Kay. One, two, three.

[blowing]

- [all cheering] - [party horns blowing]

[Kim] Let's take the hat off him, so it's, like, you know, you look...

[Khloé] Oh, my God, we're all wearing hats!

Happy birthday!

It was the craziest thing.

I remember I was so pregnant with Saint,

but then when he got transferred to Cedars,

I was on one floor delivering and he was on another floor...

Rehabilitating.

[Kim] ...relearning to walk.

And then we brought them to meet each other.

- You know? - I wheeled Lamar down to Kim's...

- [Kim] To meet Saint. - ...labor and delivery room.

- And I was like... - [Kim] Right after I had him.

- [Khloé] ..."Hi!" - We're all like, "We're here!

Let's all hang."

[♪ gentle music playing]

Wow. If you really think about all the trauma you've been through.

Yeah, no, it's [bleep].

- Lamar and then Tristan. - But, like, what I went through with Lamar

was so [bleep] up in such a different way.

Like, it took away my innocence.

But maybe that's what happens when you get married in nine days.

Oh.

[♪ dramatic music plays]

[♪ melancholy music playing]

I do agree that I got married way too quickly,

but also, if someone asked if I would change anything,

I wouldn't change a thing.

- Totally, it was the time. - [Khloé] That was the love of my life.

And I had-- If it wasn't for drugs,

I know we would still be married 'til today.

Totally.

[Khloé] I don't have a question about that.

I know I picked the right person at that time.

- [Kim] Totally. - None of us knew he was on drugs

until it was at least a year in.

- Yeah. - That's what was so terrifying.

That's the hardest part, I've been there.

When you don't foresee something happening

that really changes a person's personality,

and then, they're not the same person

and you can't ever get that person back.

But you can't live with the new person, you know?

Like, I... I get it, you know? [chuckles]

No, I know you get it.

It's tougher when you don't want your marriage to end

off of, like, your personal reasons,

but circumstances change that force your marriage to end.

I've been there, Khloé's been there.

And so, when you weren't planning on that

and that's not really the outcome you want,

but there's no other option,

I think it makes it, like, harder to get over.

So, how did it end?

Like, was there anything that he talked about that made you emotional?

[Khloé] The things I went through with him,

it took me so many years to get over that

- and so many years to heal from that... - Yeah. To heal.

[Khloé] ...that I don't think I can allow myself

to ever have my guards down around him, ever.

- [Kris] Right. - [Khloé] And I just can't.

Yeah, but why would you want to?

I think he said he was sorry for the things he did,

- which... - That always feels good.

People always say these things once it's all over.

Like, that's the part that makes me wanna stab people in the jugular.

Yeah.

He did say he would love to be my friend again in life.

And I was like, "I don't really know what to do with that."

- So, he's coming to Thanksgiving? - [scoffs] No.

And he would gain so much more out of that friendship than I would gain.

I'm not missing anything.

- Yeah. That makes sense. - Like, he doesn't add anything to my life.

- That makes so much sense. - [Khloé] I feel like it would be

such a one-way friendship 'cause I would have

- to be the one to give. - And you've had enough of those.

- [Khloé] Yeah, and I'm just too tired. - You'd be back to being a caretaker.

Yeah, for another person.

I get that. You just don't need that energy.

We're just such a sentimental family.

When we think of Lamar, we think of, like, Khloé being super happy

before he [bleep] up.

That was, like, when she was purely happy.

So, I think it's just, like, a releasing one final time...

everything.

And that's also a big reason why I'm not jumping

into dating right now.

- Like, I wanna make sure... - Mm-hm.

[Khloé] ...I'm just in, like, a really happy,

solid, good place in my life.

And hopefully, when I meet someone, I'm not desperate or eager or lonely

to meet someone that I can have a fairy tale.

You have a good one coming to you.

I better have a good one.

- You have a good one coming to you. - I think she does too.

♪ I remember ♪

When Khloé puts her whole heart and energy into something,

she is the best that she can possibly be.

And it's really such a true form of love

that she exudes from her at all times.

And I know she's gonna find that same passion

for somebody one day that she falls in love with, unexpectedly,

and, truly, she will be happy.

I want you guys to find this amazing true love

- that you'll have... - Oh, we will.

- [Kris] ...for the rest of your lives. - I'm not worried.

Kim's very confident, but, I mean, a mom, ya know,

worries about what moms worry about.

For me, this is, like, as good as it gets,

being with my circle where I feel safe,

I feel protected, I feel loved,

and I am ready to start my 40s fresh and free from

as much shit as I can be.

[Kim] Do I feel like Lamar sitting in your lap?

[Khloé] I feel like Lamar. [laughs]

But I'm looking forward and I'm excited for my future

and what's to come for me.

[♪ "Let Go" by little luna playing]

That's really sweet of you, though.

Oh, my God. He kept going,

"Would it have been weird if I walked in and put my tongue down your throat?"

[Kris and Kim] What?!

Exactly! Thank you, both.

My reaction, I go, "Ew!" I think I said "Ew" out loud.

- [both chuckling] - Oh, and we go right back

to life as we know it,

which makes me so happy.

♪ If I just let go ♪

[birds chirping]

[Kim] Next on The Kardashians...

[glass shattering]

Woo!

Are you getting nervous since it's getting closer?

- [North West] No. - No.

North got offered to sing a song

for The Lion King at the Hollywood Bowl.

[Khloé] [over phone] Shut up.

That's so exciting.

I'm not ready for this.

- My assistant quit today... - Okay. [laughs]

...'cause she said there was "too much on her plate."

- Get her outta here. - No, I know.

I just hate new people and training someone.

Give 'em to me.

I am, uh, so concerned

- about your well-being. - This is a big problem.

- Well, we're goin' to Vegas. - I can't drink yet.

When you can, call me.

[Kendall] We are running around town in Vegas,

doin' our thing.

You guys want drinks?

♪

We are all going to the Hollywood Bowl

to see North West.

- Yay! - Yeah!

[crowd chattering]

[speaker] Thank you, Jesus, for bringin' us here today.

[all] Amen.

[Kim] Woo-hoo!

[announcer] Please welcome, the brilliant North West!

[crowd cheering]

[♪ upbeat electronic music playing]

♪

I have this quote in my phone

and it's about an addict and I'm gonna read it.

Um, it says, "I am not an addict,

"but try and love one

"and then see if you can look me square in the eyes

"and tell me that you didn't get addicted to trying to fix them.

"If you're lucky, they recover.

"If you're really lucky, you recover too.

"Loving a drug addict

"can and will consume your every thought.

"Watching their physical deterioration

"and emotional detachment to everything

will make you the most tired insomniac alive."

I don't know why, but I've saved that since 2016.

But-- I mean, I do know why, I guess. [laughing]

[bell tolls]