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Do not abandon us.
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We need you in this moment.
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Protect us from committingacts you won't forgive.
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Help us remove this desireand replace it with love.
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Let us die as Muslims. Amen.
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In the name of Allah,most benevolent, ever-merciful,
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Muhammad, the Prophet of Allah:And those who are truly with him
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are severe with infidels
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but compassionateamong themselves.
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You may see them kneelingand bowing in reverence.
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Seeking acceptancefrom the Grace of Allah.
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Seeking His favor and acceptance.
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Their mark is on their foreheadsfrom the effect of their prostrations.
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God is everything to me.
He is the source of my strength.
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He is the center of my life.
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You said, over national radio,
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"I am Muslim, I'm an lmam,and I'm gay. "
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Did it ever occur to you that,
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"Listen, I'm going to be hurtingthe feelings of thousands of Muslims"?
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Yes, I fully understand that,
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but what we also need to understandis that the issue
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of homosexualitywithin the Muslim community is real.
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These are the lives of peopleall over the world.
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On a daily basis, I deal withyoung Muslims who have a problem,
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and they are strugglingwith reconciling their Islam
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with their sexuality.
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So instead of them leaving Islam,or committing suicide,
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what I basically do in my work incounseling with them is to tell them
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to accept Islam for the goodnessthat it comes with
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and reconcile it with their sexualitybecause their sexuality,
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at the end of the day,
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is not something that's goingto disappear.
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Stick to the Islam, and let Allah bethe judge of it at the end of the day.
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I think Muhsin should be thrown offa mountain or burned or something.
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You can't call that guya brother, man, a Muslim brother.
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They must cut offhis fucking arse, man.
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We should definitely bring backthe death sentence for this guy.
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It's unacceptable, he's bringing downthe name of Islam.
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My grandfather was an lmam,
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my mother is a teacher
in the community.
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I was virtually born in a mosque.
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It's only at the age of about 16
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that I decided that,
"There's something wrong with me.
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I'm not like the other boys.
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I need to find out from this God
why did He make me like this?
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If it's something that I can change,
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then, certainly, He'll be able
to help me to change it."
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I was about 20 when I went to Pakistan
to study Islam.
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When I read the verses on Sodom
and Gomorrah, there was lots of guilt
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because at that time I thought,
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"Okay, this is it,
this is what God thinks of me.
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So, why am I still adhering to Islam
when there's no space for me?"
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I eventually decided
that maybe I should try
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and get married to a woman.
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So I went home, got married,
I brought my wife with me to Pakistan,
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and I finished another
three years of studies after that.
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I also had a best friend in Pakistan,
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and we were just purely,
platonic friends.
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But at the time when he left,
I could not contain myself.
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I was just crying all the way
in the taxi back home.
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My wife said,
"So, were you in love with him?"
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And at that point,
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I just felt that it was necessary
for me to tell her the truth.
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"Remember, nobody can take you
for their daddy.
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You my daddy, the best."
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"Love is tender, love is true,
love is hopeless without you."
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"I love you, and I miss you a lot,
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and I can't sleep by you
for the holidays."
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This was one holiday
when their mother said,
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"No, you're not going to sleep
by your daddy
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because he's all over the radio."
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They always wanted to know
whether I wanted to see them,
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whether I was happy to see them.
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They aren't very friendly.
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They can't do anything.
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Give him one, give him one.
He just wants food.
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This is chickpea.
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Look at you!
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But it's not bad.
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He's evil!
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I always have this attitude
with my children
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that I'm not going to take
challenges away from them.
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It's probably in their fate
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that they were going to end up
with a father that's gay
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and deep down inside,
I just felt that it's important
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for me to take them
through these struggles
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because at the end of it,
they will come out stronger.
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Do you think gay people
should be stoned to death?
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- Yes.
- No, they didn't say so.
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They said they must chop off their
heads and throw them off a mountain.
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Do you think they should do that?
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- Yes.
- No.
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Yes.
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Why do you say yes?
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Because you don't want to buy me
a KFO burger.
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But they don't do that here!
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They do it in Egypt.
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How would you feel
if they should do that?
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I would say, "If all of you must be
stoned to death, how will you feel?"
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What would you do?
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Would you just stand there and cry?
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And go on...
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"Please don't stone me to death!"
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I'm now so open and on TV,
and now this movie and everything,
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and what if they decide
to now catch me?
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Oan you picture it?
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There, they come for your daddy.
They put him in chains.
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What will you do?
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I would look them in the eye and say,
"Oh, don't let my daddy feel this.
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And just let him die one time
with the first stone."
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No, but seriously.
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But will you come and help me?
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Yes. Maybe.
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If somebody must hurt you,
then I will give up my life for you.
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- But you don't want to save me.
- You're talking nonsense!
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I will save you, Daddy!
I will save you!
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I think my personal story,
it's "A love Jihad."
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It's a struggle, and that's
what the word Jihad is all about.
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A Jihad is not a holy war.
It's a struggle.
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And a Jihad ul-Nafs
is a struggle with the self.
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I just felt I needed to come out.
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At that time, I was teaching
at two madrassas [schools],
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and they asked me to resign.
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I was scared to death
because I know my community.
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I know the mentality
of the Muslim community.
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I was prepared to die.
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I was in Makkah [Mecca],
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and they told me
that there is an lmam in Oape Town,
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and he says that homosexuality is
permissible, so I said, "lmpossible!"
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So I said, "Fine, if he wants to
discuss it, then we can discuss it."
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I myself am homosexual.
I know what I've been through.
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I got married because I thought
that was going to change me.
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I fasted 80 days every year
besides the month of Ramadan,
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asking Allah to help me
to just get rid of these things.
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They haven't moved. I have started
with this thing from the age of 12.
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At the age of 5, I recognized
that I was different from other boys.
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We feel that it's not a choice
that we make.
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That somehow the Qur'an
should be speaking about us, as well.
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That we also have rights
as human beings.
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What do you say?
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Is homosexuality permissible in Islam?
Is that what you're promoting?
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We will consider you a Murtad,
an apostate,
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and out of the fold of Islam.
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You will not be buried
in a Muslim graveyard.
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No Muslim person would ever read
your Salat ul-Janaza [funeral prayer].
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We have looked at all these verses
from the Qur'an,
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and, obviously,
we have a different interpretation
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of what has happened then.
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No person can make interpretations
to suit his desires, or her desires,
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when you have clear-cut verses:
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And when Lot, peace be upon him
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When he addressedhis people and told them:
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"Do you commit and bringthat obscene and lewd action
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where a male fulfills his desirewith a male?"
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We cannot just take
the verses from the Qur'an
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and use it as a blanket condemnation
for homosexuality.
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When foreigners and guests came
into the city of Sodom and Gomorrah,
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these men were rushing
to molest them.
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As the Qur'an says,
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it was an abomination that they've
been doing for a long time.
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So, it was male to male rape.
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So Allah doesn't refer
to the homosexual relationship here,
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but he's referring
to a homosexual act,
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which was the molestation,
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taking the rights
of another person away from him.
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So you want we leave the direct text
and accept some human being's opinion?
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To play with semantics and say
that this is, you know, "molestation."
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I mean, you are just playing
with words.
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Homosexuality is a crime not only
in Islam, in every divine religion,
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and is punishable in Islam by death.
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And we say if we're an Islamic state,
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then you would face
capital punishment.
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The only difference among the jurists
is how that person should be killed.
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That's the only difference.
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And I gave you the Hadith
of the Prophet,
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peace be upon Him, the saying:
"Kill the doer and the receiver."
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I am Mazen, an Egyptian gay man.
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I was arrested
in the case of the "Oairo 52."
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It was in 2001.
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I was going with a friend
to a disco.
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We went to the "Queen Boat."
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While waiting outside,
we saw some policemen.
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They put us in a police van.
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They took us to Abdeen police station,
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to a very weird place,
the vice squad headquarters.
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Then they started interrogating us
and saying very strange things.
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They said, "You are faggots,"
and things like that.
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Anyone who denied it was beaten.
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I myself was beaten
with pipes and belts
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to force me to say, "I am a faggot,"
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until the case went to trial.
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I spent a year in prison.
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I was raped in prison.
It was extremely traumatic.
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It hurts even to talk about it.
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It is really hard to be forced
to do something against your will.
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Then we were put on trial
a second time.
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I was sentenced to 3 years.
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I was able to get out of Egypt,
to run away from 3 years in prison.
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As we say in English,
"Enough is enough."
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Today I'm ready to reveal my face.
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Look, the fucking asshole,
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he's talking,
and we don't hear anything,
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we don't understand anything
of what he said.
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I'm sure God has a reason
for all that has happened to me.
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I know that He is always with me,
always by my side.
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I have this Qur'an,
which I always kept with me in prison.
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I always prayed
and read it every night.
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And ever since,
I have kept it close to me.
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God has given me patience.
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He helped me overcome
the calamity I was in.
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I got out of Egypt
and made it to France.
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In Paris,
I was granted refugee status.
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I had no money, no job.
I had no place to stay, no home.
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For the last 3 years,
I've been staying with friends.
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Now, finally, I've found an apartment.
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This is my new home.
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It's a happy day.
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I can't wait to tell this good news
to my mother.
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Hello, my love.
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- Hi, Darling. How are you doing?
- Good morning. How are you?
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I have good news on this
Prophet's Birthday celebration!
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- What is it?
- I got my own apartment!
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Really?
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They just accepted
my application today.
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- Swear by the Prophet?
- By God's name!
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It's the parents' blessing.May God be with you.
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It came
as a Prophet's Birthday blessing.
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They just called to tell me.
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Thank God.
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Do you want me to send you
some chocolate?
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- Do you need anything?
- Only your good health.
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- May all your days be prosperous.
- And all yours, too.
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- There is no god but God.
- And Muhammad is His Prophet.
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It's the Eid prayer.
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We've prayed, and it's good.
Ramadan is over.
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How much for one of these?
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One euro and 30 cents?
Isn't that a little expensive?
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It's Algerian pastry, sir.
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I'd like two of those.
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It's Eid,
and I got my apartment, so...
241
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Tonight is a double celebration.
242
00:21:22,461 --> 00:21:23,758
Happy Eid!
243
00:21:30,269 --> 00:21:35,832
- Let's toast to Mazen's new apartment.
- Oongratulations!
244
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- A thousand congratulations!
- Thanks.
245
00:21:40,145 --> 00:21:41,203
There's no alcohol in them.
246
00:21:41,313 --> 00:21:43,110
I hear Ramadan in Egypt is great.
247
00:21:43,215 --> 00:21:46,013
Egypt is the best Arab country
for feeling the spirit of Ramadan.
248
00:21:46,118 --> 00:21:48,552
After breaking the fast,
people pray the Taraweeh
249
00:21:48,654 --> 00:21:51,851
and go out to smoke hookahs.
250
00:21:51,957 --> 00:21:54,323
All the cafes are packed.
251
00:21:54,426 --> 00:21:56,087
It's really lively.
252
00:21:56,195 --> 00:22:02,725
They hang paper lanterns everywhere.
253
00:22:02,835 --> 00:22:06,532
The best part is when the Misaharaty
passes by at 3:00 a.m.
254
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To wake people up.
255
00:22:08,340 --> 00:22:11,776
Wake up, you who are sleeping!
Speak of the One, Everlasting God.
256
00:22:11,877 --> 00:22:13,504
Ramadan is generous.
257
00:22:14,013 --> 00:22:17,176
I love it. I miss it.
258
00:22:17,483 --> 00:22:20,816
I want to show you
something I did in Morocco.
259
00:22:20,919 --> 00:22:24,719
I was interviewed for a magazine.
260
00:22:24,823 --> 00:22:27,883
Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
261
00:22:27,993 --> 00:22:34,091
The first-ever interview with a young
"sexual deviant" Moroccan writer.
262
00:22:34,199 --> 00:22:37,896
I said it all.
263
00:22:38,003 --> 00:22:40,028
Everything, I think.
264
00:22:40,372 --> 00:22:45,571
The whole family bought it,
and my mother called me on the phone.
265
00:22:45,678 --> 00:22:47,145
It was huge.
266
00:22:47,246 --> 00:22:48,474
How did she react?
267
00:22:48,580 --> 00:22:53,540
She was less upset
about my being gay
268
00:22:53,652 --> 00:22:58,851
than my saying I'm against marriage.
269
00:23:14,006 --> 00:23:17,237
Put this on your neck, sweetheart.
270
00:23:17,342 --> 00:23:19,867
No, no I'm fine.
It's good.
271
00:23:19,978 --> 00:23:21,468
Oome on, darling.
They're diamonds.
272
00:23:21,580 --> 00:23:23,411
Yeah, right.
273
00:23:24,583 --> 00:23:26,983
I'm known for dancing as a man.
274
00:23:27,286 --> 00:23:29,413
Everyone has their own style.
275
00:24:08,460 --> 00:24:10,724
Darling, I'm not free for you
276
00:24:10,829 --> 00:24:12,990
Nor am I free for passion
277
00:24:13,098 --> 00:24:15,328
I'll be free after I come to you
278
00:24:15,434 --> 00:24:17,493
I have something to tell you
279
00:24:17,603 --> 00:24:20,003
Darling, I'm not free for you
280
00:24:20,105 --> 00:24:22,300
Nor am I free for passion
281
00:24:22,407 --> 00:24:24,432
I'll be free after I come to you
282
00:24:24,543 --> 00:24:26,670
I have something to tell you
283
00:24:26,779 --> 00:24:28,974
Let us be apart for a while
284
00:24:29,081 --> 00:24:31,242
Maybe I can forget the bad days
285
00:24:31,350 --> 00:24:33,750
Let us, let us, let us
286
00:24:33,852 --> 00:24:36,116
Maybe I can forget the bad days
287
00:24:36,221 --> 00:24:38,280
But what you've done to me
288
00:24:38,390 --> 00:24:40,858
Is too much, my love
289
00:25:16,895 --> 00:25:20,353
When I face God [on Judgment Day],
first I will say,
290
00:25:20,465 --> 00:25:23,764
"There is no god but God,
and Muhammad is His prophet."
291
00:25:24,636 --> 00:25:30,541
Second, I will say, "God, I love You
as much as You love Your creations."
292
00:25:31,577 --> 00:25:37,641
Third, "I have loved women,
and it was not a sin...
293
00:25:37,749 --> 00:25:46,555
...because my loving a woman
caused no harm.
294
00:25:46,658 --> 00:25:49,957
I only loved.
295
00:25:50,062 --> 00:25:54,294
Allah, my only God, I only loved."
296
00:25:57,002 --> 00:26:02,235
In my country, they practice
female genital mutilation.
297
00:26:02,374 --> 00:26:07,277
Until I was 25 years old,
I was completely closed up.
298
00:26:07,379 --> 00:26:11,315
I could not have
normal sexual relations.
299
00:26:12,150 --> 00:26:16,280
This was done in the name
of tradition, in the name of religion.
300
00:26:16,388 --> 00:26:17,980
But it's nonsense.
301
00:26:19,858 --> 00:26:27,822
God Almighty says,
"We created you in the best of forms."
302
00:26:28,634 --> 00:26:36,734
We have no right, if we are truly
Muslims, to alter His creation.
303
00:26:37,509 --> 00:26:43,448
Don't forget, the Prophet Muhammad
did an enormous number of things
304
00:26:43,548 --> 00:26:47,075
so that women could participate
in public affairs, including politics.
305
00:26:47,819 --> 00:26:50,788
For me, Muhammad was a feminist.
306
00:26:58,797 --> 00:27:04,292
I don't think there is a problem
between homosexuality and Islam.
307
00:27:04,469 --> 00:27:08,872
If we know that God is benevolent,
merciful, and great,
308
00:27:08,974 --> 00:27:14,708
then God must have created us
this way.
309
00:27:14,913 --> 00:27:18,872
I know, but it's Haram [sinful].
310
00:27:18,984 --> 00:27:23,421
That's what Islam says.
I'm Muslim. I can't contradict it.
311
00:27:23,522 --> 00:27:26,650
I believe in the mercy of God,
but that's different.
312
00:27:26,758 --> 00:27:30,421
In Shari'a law,
homosexuality is forbidden.
313
00:27:30,529 --> 00:27:33,498
- No, it's not. Where is it written?
- It's well-known.
314
00:27:33,598 --> 00:27:37,090
- Have you read the Qur'an?
- Have I read the Qur'an?
315
00:27:37,202 --> 00:27:39,261
You think there is lesbianism
in the Qur'an?
316
00:27:39,371 --> 00:27:41,430
Not lesbianism,
but male homosexuality.
317
00:27:41,540 --> 00:27:47,536
How can you say it's Haram?
Based on what?
318
00:27:47,646 --> 00:27:51,912
It's based on the Quranic text,
the story of Lot.
319
00:27:52,017 --> 00:27:53,075
Go and read the Qur'an again.
320
00:27:53,185 --> 00:27:57,519
I'm not an expert on the Qur'an.
321
00:27:57,622 --> 00:27:59,681
But I understand a few things.
322
00:27:59,791 --> 00:28:02,692
I still have many doubts.
I can't give you an answer right now.
323
00:28:02,794 --> 00:28:04,386
I feel things in my heart.
324
00:28:04,496 --> 00:28:06,589
I feel bad sometimes,
that's all I know.
325
00:28:08,100 --> 00:28:09,260
What is this?
326
00:28:09,368 --> 00:28:15,068
It's a gift my girlfriend gave me
the first time we met.
327
00:28:15,173 --> 00:28:18,631
It says, "There is no god but God,"
328
00:28:18,744 --> 00:28:22,976
and she has the other half,
exactly the same.
329
00:28:23,081 --> 00:28:25,015
It's love!
330
00:28:25,283 --> 00:28:28,684
And yet you say it's Haram.
It breaks my heart!
331
00:28:28,787 --> 00:28:32,814
Love is something powerful.
It's different.
332
00:28:32,924 --> 00:28:36,416
To me, love is more important
than sex.
333
00:28:36,528 --> 00:28:38,120
Yes, but that's love with a woman.
334
00:28:38,230 --> 00:28:41,199
Yes, with a woman.
335
00:28:48,874 --> 00:28:52,241
When I was 17, I succeeded,
by God's grace,
336
00:28:52,344 --> 00:28:53,436
in choosing the path of religion.
337
00:28:53,545 --> 00:28:58,744
But starting around the age of 24,
I had no choice...
338
00:28:58,850 --> 00:29:03,116
Eventually, I understood
that I needed the love of a woman.
339
00:29:15,801 --> 00:29:22,673
Later, I met a woman,
a Muslim woman like myself,
340
00:29:22,774 --> 00:29:25,538
in her country, far from here.
341
00:29:25,644 --> 00:29:30,013
It's been like this for 3 years,
going back and forth to Egypt,
342
00:29:30,115 --> 00:29:33,915
trying to find a way to live together.
343
00:29:34,019 --> 00:29:38,479
But at the same time, deep down,
I'm afraid to live with her.
344
00:30:14,159 --> 00:30:17,890
Ice cream! Oold drinks! Ice cream!
Oold drinks! Oold water! Ice cream!
345
00:30:17,996 --> 00:30:20,863
Fanta! Sprite! Oola Lite! Iced Tea!
Ohocolate! Vanilla! Strawberry!
346
00:30:20,966 --> 00:30:22,991
Drinks! Ice Oream! Oold drinks!
Oold water! Ice cream!
347
00:30:23,101 --> 00:30:24,864
Always a good price!
348
00:30:24,970 --> 00:30:26,494
Welcome to Oairo.
349
00:30:27,439 --> 00:30:30,237
Maybe I'll go live in a monastery.
350
00:30:30,942 --> 00:30:33,433
That hurts.
351
00:30:33,612 --> 00:30:37,241
- Maybe that would help me.
- I won't let you do that.
352
00:30:37,883 --> 00:30:40,943
We're going to live
through this test together.
353
00:30:43,421 --> 00:30:49,087
Why can't we be together
and, at the same time, live with God?
354
00:30:49,194 --> 00:30:53,221
I don't know if it's possible.
I don't know.
355
00:30:53,331 --> 00:30:55,595
Maybe, God willing.
356
00:30:56,902 --> 00:30:59,996
Frankly, if I could be heterosexual,
357
00:31:00,105 --> 00:31:02,266
I would live within a marriage,
but I can't.
358
00:31:02,374 --> 00:31:08,313
Same for me. At first, I went
to "IslamOnline." You know it?
359
00:31:08,413 --> 00:31:10,005
I've heard of that site.
360
00:31:10,148 --> 00:31:12,582
It's a site of the Muslim Brotherhood.
361
00:31:12,684 --> 00:31:16,745
For years,
I sent them e-mails, asking,
362
00:31:16,855 --> 00:31:22,657
"What should I do? I'm afraid of God,
and I can't stay like this."
363
00:31:22,761 --> 00:31:27,130
Lmmediately, their solution was,
"You have to get married."
364
00:31:31,503 --> 00:31:34,370
My whole family, and everyone else,
wanted me to get married.
365
00:31:34,973 --> 00:31:37,464
The family pressure
was overwhelming,
366
00:31:37,576 --> 00:31:42,445
and I was very weak at that time.
367
00:31:45,784 --> 00:31:48,446
I tried. I tried, at first.
368
00:31:48,553 --> 00:31:54,651
I asked God to make me normal,
to make me like everyone else,
369
00:31:54,793 --> 00:31:58,627
to get rid of this, or die.
370
00:31:58,730 --> 00:32:02,689
It was very hard on both of us.
371
00:32:03,768 --> 00:32:06,532
I was exhausted.
It was a nightmare.
372
00:32:07,505 --> 00:32:10,338
It was a miracle I got a divorce.
373
00:32:11,710 --> 00:32:13,575
Maybe because I'm a lesbian,
374
00:32:13,712 --> 00:32:16,579
I never wanted
to look seductive to men.
375
00:32:17,182 --> 00:32:19,548
Even before I started
wearing the veil,
376
00:32:19,651 --> 00:32:24,987
I dressed and behaved modestly.
377
00:32:26,758 --> 00:32:32,219
People think that a woman who wears
the hijab is closed-minded, extremist.
378
00:32:32,330 --> 00:32:35,390
But I feel really free.
379
00:33:00,458 --> 00:33:05,327
I think all Muslims dream of going
on the Hajj pilgrimage some day.
380
00:33:05,430 --> 00:33:08,695
It's hard when you're a single woman
381
00:33:08,800 --> 00:33:14,295
because you have to be accompanied
by your husband, brother, or father.
382
00:33:14,406 --> 00:33:19,810
Spiritually, I think it would
help us enormously
383
00:33:19,911 --> 00:33:22,641
and also to help us
stop having intimate relations.
384
00:33:22,747 --> 00:33:25,739
Maybe it would help us...
385
00:33:32,590 --> 00:33:34,387
"Fiqh al-Sunnah"?
386
00:33:34,492 --> 00:33:36,983
It's a reference book for all Muslims.
387
00:33:37,095 --> 00:33:40,087
I looked in this book 3 years ago.
388
00:33:40,198 --> 00:33:44,897
I thought I would try
to find a solution for myself.
389
00:33:45,003 --> 00:33:53,604
I found only a few lines about "us."
390
00:33:53,745 --> 00:33:56,236
There it is... al-Suhaq [lesbianism].
391
00:33:56,348 --> 00:34:02,082
"Lesbianism is forbidden...
392
00:34:02,187 --> 00:34:06,021
...according to all scholars."
393
00:34:06,124 --> 00:34:11,084
Here, they give a definition
of lesbianism:
394
00:34:11,196 --> 00:34:15,997
"Lovemaking between two women...
395
00:34:16,101 --> 00:34:19,559
...without penetration."
396
00:34:19,671 --> 00:34:23,937
The only punishment
is scolding the women.
397
00:34:24,109 --> 00:34:30,070
When there's no penetration,
there is no severe punishment.
398
00:34:30,181 --> 00:34:31,910
I want to be punished.
399
00:34:32,283 --> 00:34:36,583
There is no punishment, you see?
There isn't any.
400
00:34:36,688 --> 00:34:40,624
So why do I suffer inside
and feel guilty?
401
00:34:41,259 --> 00:34:43,489
You'll feel better if you're punished?
402
00:34:43,595 --> 00:34:46,496
You know,
the punishment of fornicators
403
00:34:46,598 --> 00:34:49,396
who are lashed,
I don't know how many times.
404
00:34:49,501 --> 00:34:52,698
Don't be so hard on yourself, Maryam.
405
00:34:52,804 --> 00:34:56,934
Maybe that would relieve me.
I don't know.
406
00:35:15,794 --> 00:35:19,890
Ashura has a very special feeling,
a feeling of love.
407
00:35:20,398 --> 00:35:23,595
I'm willing to protect
his [lmam Hossein's] honor.
408
00:35:23,735 --> 00:35:27,865
With faith,
I'm willing to sacrifice my life
409
00:35:27,972 --> 00:35:32,272
for lmam Hossein,
the greatest of all the martyrs.
410
00:36:09,881 --> 00:36:15,581
I was 4 when my father died
in the Iran-lraq war
411
00:36:15,720 --> 00:36:19,554
from a mustard gas attack.
412
00:36:21,059 --> 00:36:28,022
In August 2004, a friend
invited me to a gay party.
413
00:36:28,399 --> 00:36:33,894
We were raided,
and they put us in jail.
414
00:36:35,039 --> 00:36:38,167
The police said, "You're the son
of a martyr, and you do these things?"
415
00:36:38,343 --> 00:36:42,404
To them, I had disgraced
my father's name.
416
00:36:42,547 --> 00:36:44,742
The judge said,
417
00:36:44,849 --> 00:36:49,548
"The physician will find out whether
or not you are gay."
418
00:36:49,654 --> 00:36:53,283
He told us we could be
stoned to death.
419
00:36:53,391 --> 00:36:56,087
I was terrified.
420
00:37:02,467 --> 00:37:08,269
I received 100 lashes in an hour.
421
00:37:13,011 --> 00:37:20,918
My mother was notified
that I was lashed.
422
00:37:21,519 --> 00:37:29,051
When I took off my shirt, she cried.
423
00:37:33,398 --> 00:37:37,630
Because of her, I left.
424
00:37:39,804 --> 00:37:46,972
I didn't want her to suffer
and see my pain anymore.
425
00:37:48,613 --> 00:37:54,245
She held the Qur'an over my head
for protection before I left.
426
00:37:54,352 --> 00:38:02,760
I think I will remember that
until my very last breath.
427
00:38:03,461 --> 00:38:11,493
But there is someone that
is with me every step, helping me,
428
00:38:11,603 --> 00:38:15,334
and that's my God.
429
00:38:16,207 --> 00:38:20,803
I remember on the way
from Shiraz to Tehran,
430
00:38:21,012 --> 00:38:26,644
I recited the Ayat ul-Kursi
for my mother's protection.
431
00:38:27,585 --> 00:38:35,492
God: There is no god but He,the living, eternal, ever-sustaining
432
00:38:35,593 --> 00:38:41,122
Neither slumber nor sleep affect Him
433
00:38:41,232 --> 00:38:46,295
To Him belongs all that isin the heavens and the earth:
434
00:38:53,444 --> 00:38:59,576
Oh Iran, our precious land
435
00:38:59,684 --> 00:39:06,021
Your soil is the source of art
436
00:39:06,124 --> 00:39:12,359
May thoughts of disasterbe far from you
437
00:39:12,463 --> 00:39:18,060
Oh, Iran, be immortal and steadfast
438
00:39:18,169 --> 00:39:25,735
It's very hard to describe
the situation for homosexuals in Iran.
439
00:39:26,010 --> 00:39:28,103
It's like a person who wants to speak,
440
00:39:28,212 --> 00:39:34,014
but when he opens his mouth,
the words are caught in the throat.
441
00:39:34,118 --> 00:39:42,150
His cry has been suppressed.
It's a heavy silence.
442
00:39:42,994 --> 00:39:48,261
From our city of Shiraz,
we traveled to Tehran.
443
00:39:48,366 --> 00:39:55,636
Then from Tehran to Tabriz by bus,
and from Tabriz to Turkey by train.
444
00:39:55,740 --> 00:39:58,573
We stopped in Ankara first,
445
00:39:58,676 --> 00:40:02,237
where we applied for asylum to the
UN High Oommissioner for Refugees.
446
00:40:02,914 --> 00:40:05,382
For now, we are stuck here in Turkey.
447
00:40:28,873 --> 00:40:31,740
Hey, what time is it?
448
00:40:35,847 --> 00:40:39,146
Good morning, Auntie.
449
00:40:44,422 --> 00:40:46,049
Where have you been?
450
00:40:46,157 --> 00:40:51,789
I bought aash, halim, and fresh
sangak bread. It's all ready.
451
00:40:52,563 --> 00:41:00,629
Even though we left Iran,
we still don't feel safe.
452
00:41:01,172 --> 00:41:11,070
Arsham and I wish Amir and Mojtaba
weren't afraid to show their faces.
453
00:41:11,249 --> 00:41:15,652
Fear has followed us
from Iran to Turkey.
454
00:41:15,753 --> 00:41:20,747
They're afraid
for their families' safety.
455
00:41:25,129 --> 00:41:26,926
I don't want to show my face
456
00:41:27,031 --> 00:41:30,592
because my mother and my family
still live in Iran.
457
00:41:30,701 --> 00:41:35,331
I'm really afraid
that it will bring them trouble.
458
00:41:36,307 --> 00:41:43,941
My life is Iran.
I miss everything.
459
00:41:44,148 --> 00:41:47,845
I left to save my life.
460
00:41:49,987 --> 00:41:54,253
Turkey doesn't grant resident status
to Iranian refugees.
461
00:41:54,625 --> 00:42:01,963
We're only allowed to stay
until the UNHOR decides our cases.
462
00:42:02,066 --> 00:42:04,159
If we win our cases,
we have to leave Turkey.
463
00:42:04,268 --> 00:42:07,669
If we lose, we're sent back to Iran.
464
00:42:07,905 --> 00:42:10,772
- Tell our fortunes.
- Everyone, make a wish.
465
00:42:11,108 --> 00:42:12,871
What's your wish?
466
00:42:13,477 --> 00:42:15,069
My wish is to be accepted.
467
00:42:15,213 --> 00:42:16,908
You wish for UN approval.
468
00:42:17,014 --> 00:42:18,606
A wish for today.
469
00:42:18,716 --> 00:42:21,776
I wish that no gay person
in the world would be executed.
470
00:42:22,353 --> 00:42:24,651
Too general.
It's impossible.
471
00:42:24,755 --> 00:42:28,384
Well, the readings
usually turn out wrong.
472
00:42:28,993 --> 00:42:31,325
Okay, will the UNHOR call us today?
473
00:42:31,462 --> 00:42:34,363
We'll do a reading about the UNHOR.
474
00:42:37,702 --> 00:42:40,500
When I used to go to the shrines
of Hafiz, Sa'adi, or others,
475
00:42:40,605 --> 00:42:43,073
I would think a lot
about those great poets of Iran.
476
00:42:43,174 --> 00:42:45,938
Even then, they talked so much
477
00:42:46,043 --> 00:42:51,208
about love and passion,
lovers and men.
478
00:42:54,418 --> 00:42:58,320
Everywhere you look among
the richness of Persian literature,
479
00:42:58,422 --> 00:43:01,949
the lover and the beloved
are both men,
480
00:43:02,093 --> 00:43:06,621
yet you see that now
it is such a crime.
481
00:43:11,068 --> 00:43:15,300
In 2005, Mojtaba held
a wedding ceremony in Shiraz
482
00:43:15,406 --> 00:43:18,034
with a man named Mehrdad.
483
00:43:19,010 --> 00:43:23,913
Mehrdad and I were boyfriends
for 6 years.
484
00:43:24,015 --> 00:43:28,076
The only person I truly
fell in love with.
485
00:43:28,219 --> 00:43:31,620
He was my first introduction to love.
486
00:43:49,407 --> 00:43:52,171
What was your wedding like?
487
00:43:52,276 --> 00:43:54,938
At first, we planned a casual party,
488
00:43:55,146 --> 00:43:59,913
then Mehrdad suggested
that we buy wedding rings.
489
00:44:00,017 --> 00:44:03,976
What do you think
Mehrdad is doing now?
490
00:44:04,121 --> 00:44:06,851
He's doing okay. Don't worry.
491
00:44:07,758 --> 00:44:08,918
What was on the table?
492
00:44:09,026 --> 00:44:14,555
Everything: the mirror, the candles,
the Qur'an, nuts, sweets.
493
00:44:14,665 --> 00:44:15,723
It was perfect.
494
00:44:16,267 --> 00:44:24,197
They even had those sweet noghl,
the kind you have at "real" weddings.
495
00:44:24,308 --> 00:44:27,641
They brought a special knife
496
00:44:27,945 --> 00:44:32,507
and asked us to cut the cake
for each other.
497
00:44:32,984 --> 00:44:34,952
That was it. Before we knew it,
the wedding was over.
498
00:44:35,052 --> 00:44:36,610
How wonderful!
499
00:44:36,721 --> 00:44:40,885
I just don't get it.
Why don't people understand this?
500
00:44:40,992 --> 00:44:45,224
Why do they think the sky has to be
the same color for everyone?
501
00:44:49,200 --> 00:44:51,725
Anyway, they filmed the ceremony.
502
00:44:52,169 --> 00:44:56,071
People began seeing the video,
and I think that's how word spread
503
00:44:56,173 --> 00:45:03,341
that such a ceremony
had taken place in Shiraz.
504
00:45:04,215 --> 00:45:11,246
Now that they have me on film,
they have all the proof they need.
505
00:45:20,131 --> 00:45:25,398
Unfortunately, the police
seized the wedding video,
506
00:45:25,536 --> 00:45:29,063
so Mojtaba doesn't have any way
to prove to the UN
507
00:45:29,173 --> 00:45:31,664
what happened to him.
508
00:45:36,580 --> 00:45:39,913
Do you have the video of my wedding?
509
00:45:40,017 --> 00:45:42,747
Who has it?
510
00:45:42,853 --> 00:45:46,016
If you find it, can you send it to me?
511
00:45:46,424 --> 00:45:48,358
I have to call my mother now.
512
00:45:48,459 --> 00:45:51,690
I haven't called home
in a really long time.
513
00:45:52,630 --> 00:45:55,622
I'm still in Turkey.
514
00:45:55,733 --> 00:45:58,133
I haven't left for Oanada yet.
515
00:45:59,637 --> 00:46:02,003
Are you crying?
516
00:46:02,106 --> 00:46:05,132
I didn't call so you would cry.
517
00:46:09,814 --> 00:46:12,544
I wanted to give you the latest news.
518
00:46:12,650 --> 00:46:15,175
They said...
519
00:46:17,855 --> 00:46:23,157
They said we'll be leaving here
in a month.
520
00:46:26,097 --> 00:46:29,396
Wherever I am,
you are always with me.
521
00:46:29,500 --> 00:46:34,164
In Turkey or Iran,
no matter where I am, I love you.
522
00:46:34,271 --> 00:46:40,699
God be with you.
Give me a kiss.
523
00:46:48,185 --> 00:46:51,677
Don't cry! Don't cry!
524
00:46:51,789 --> 00:46:56,249
She said she was cutting onions,
but I could tell she was crying.
525
00:46:56,360 --> 00:46:58,920
Oome on, don't be sad.
526
00:46:59,296 --> 00:47:01,264
Orying isn't bad.
It's good for you.
527
00:47:01,398 --> 00:47:03,491
This will make a man out of you.
528
00:47:03,601 --> 00:47:05,569
Who says he has to be a man?
529
00:47:05,669 --> 00:47:06,966
Oome on, give me a kiss.
530
00:47:07,071 --> 00:47:09,596
See, he's just like a mother.
531
00:47:09,707 --> 00:47:12,801
I'll be your mother.
532
00:47:12,910 --> 00:47:14,969
If only you could.
533
00:47:15,379 --> 00:47:16,971
I'm a lot of people's mother.
534
00:47:17,081 --> 00:47:19,447
But not mine.
535
00:47:19,550 --> 00:47:22,075
Well, you didn't fill out
the right forms.
536
00:47:33,864 --> 00:47:35,661
Waiting is very hard.
537
00:47:35,766 --> 00:47:43,195
For me to tolerate this hardship,
I talk to God.
538
00:47:44,008 --> 00:47:48,035
At this point we're waiting
for any help we can get,
539
00:47:48,145 --> 00:47:51,080
but I think
we'll have to wait forever.
540
00:47:51,649 --> 00:47:55,881
- Read it faster. You're too slow.
- Well, I'm reading carefully.
541
00:47:57,254 --> 00:48:02,089
There is someone
who really loves you.
542
00:48:02,226 --> 00:48:04,285
It's a man.
543
00:48:04,395 --> 00:48:06,192
Oh, Sweetheart!
544
00:48:06,330 --> 00:48:10,061
Well, I see you lying down
with both your legs in the air.
545
00:48:11,468 --> 00:48:15,234
I'm serious! Look here!
546
00:48:15,606 --> 00:48:18,632
See, here's one leg,
and there's the other.
547
00:48:18,742 --> 00:48:19,766
That's the head...
548
00:48:19,877 --> 00:48:21,936
Let me see it!
549
00:48:22,713 --> 00:48:24,544
I see an airplane.
You are going to fly.
550
00:48:24,648 --> 00:48:25,478
Let me see.
551
00:48:25,683 --> 00:48:28,311
No, it's a car in the air,
not a plane.
552
00:48:28,419 --> 00:48:29,818
He's right!
553
00:48:43,567 --> 00:48:46,798
Islam and homosexuality
do not merge very well.
554
00:48:46,937 --> 00:48:50,600
Islam has a big problem
acknowledging homosexuality.
555
00:48:51,308 --> 00:48:54,106
It will take a Jihad
556
00:48:55,346 --> 00:49:02,377
and probably longer
than my own lifetime.
557
00:49:47,965 --> 00:49:53,062
God says, "I created you
from My love and My own image."
558
00:49:54,204 --> 00:49:57,139
Whatever I am, God is.
559
00:49:57,241 --> 00:50:01,041
Whatever I feel,
God wants me to feel.
560
00:50:01,145 --> 00:50:04,979
Anything that's humane
and doesn't harm others
561
00:50:05,082 --> 00:50:12,921
and doesn't attack anyone's rights
or honor cannot be a sin.
562
00:50:17,194 --> 00:50:19,662
Why don't we get any treats?
563
00:50:19,763 --> 00:50:21,560
There are other treats for you!
564
00:50:21,665 --> 00:50:24,691
What kind of treats?
565
00:50:27,404 --> 00:50:30,430
My atheist friends always ask me,
566
00:50:30,708 --> 00:50:35,543
"How can you be a lesbian
and have such religious faith?"
567
00:50:35,646 --> 00:50:37,307
For me, each has its own place.
568
00:50:37,414 --> 00:50:41,407
If God has planted this love
in my heart, then it is legitimate.
569
00:50:56,266 --> 00:50:59,030
No. No.
570
00:50:59,737 --> 00:51:03,935
This is too much, outside the mosque!
571
00:51:10,347 --> 00:51:13,783
But you can kiss me.
572
00:51:13,884 --> 00:51:18,685
Okay, I give in.
Let's fly like butterflies!
573
00:51:31,435 --> 00:51:34,427
Sister, can the men go upstairs
this way?
574
00:51:34,538 --> 00:51:35,527
No, you can't.
575
00:51:35,939 --> 00:51:38,567
If you all move aside,
the men can go upstairs.
576
00:51:38,675 --> 00:51:40,643
Let them pass, let them pass.
577
00:51:40,744 --> 00:51:43,076
We'll go upstairs,
if you'll excuse us.
578
00:51:43,180 --> 00:51:45,512
Oome on, brothers.
579
00:52:12,409 --> 00:52:14,741
Dear respectable Muslims:
580
00:52:14,912 --> 00:52:20,544
Our great religion Islam gave us
important moral principles.
581
00:52:20,651 --> 00:52:25,486
One of these principles
is the love of human beings.
582
00:52:27,157 --> 00:52:35,997
Love itself is the foundation
of human relationships
583
00:52:36,099 --> 00:52:42,834
and a critical part of improving
and strengthening society.
584
00:52:42,940 --> 00:52:45,500
In the words of Mevlana Rumi:
585
00:52:45,642 --> 00:52:53,344
"Love transforms bitter to sweet,
copper to gold, sickness to health.
586
00:52:53,450 --> 00:52:58,217
A dungeon to a palace,
troubles to blessings,
587
00:52:58,355 --> 00:53:01,847
and suffering to God's mercy."
588
00:53:03,894 --> 00:53:05,953
I was forced to get married
at an early age.
589
00:53:06,063 --> 00:53:08,190
I had just turned 16.
590
00:53:08,298 --> 00:53:10,960
I was married for 6 weeks
when we went to see a doctor,
591
00:53:11,068 --> 00:53:14,629
and the doctor told my mother
this was absurd.
592
00:53:14,738 --> 00:53:18,196
He said, "This girl's organs are not
developed enough to give birth.
593
00:53:18,308 --> 00:53:20,242
If she gets pregnant,
there will be problems."
594
00:53:20,344 --> 00:53:23,404
But nobody listened,
and I got pregnant.
595
00:53:23,514 --> 00:53:30,352
It was very hard.
Pain, pain, constant pain.
596
00:53:32,422 --> 00:53:38,327
Women like us are captives
in another life. We are prisoners.
597
00:53:38,428 --> 00:53:43,491
For example, there are girls
in the Southeast and in remote areas
598
00:53:43,600 --> 00:53:47,969
who are lesbians
but cannot lead lesbian lives.
599
00:53:48,438 --> 00:53:51,134
At least, I'm not
in the same situation as they are.
600
00:53:51,241 --> 00:53:53,471
I thank God for that.
601
00:53:57,247 --> 00:54:00,375
Now that we're on our way,
I'm starting...
602
00:54:00,484 --> 00:54:03,715
To feel nervous? I don't believe it.
603
00:54:03,820 --> 00:54:06,618
Sometimes I hide my feelings,
but now I'm really nervous.
604
00:54:06,890 --> 00:54:08,380
My mother will comfort you.
605
00:54:08,492 --> 00:54:12,451
God willing. I wonder how she'll
greet me, what she'll think of me.
606
00:54:12,563 --> 00:54:15,464
- Do I look very pink?
- No, it's very nice.
607
00:54:15,566 --> 00:54:17,227
Sugar pink.
608
00:54:31,014 --> 00:54:33,812
Mother, meet Kiymet.
609
00:54:33,917 --> 00:54:36,283
Welcome!
610
00:54:37,421 --> 00:54:41,016
The war of the eyeglasses.
611
00:54:44,394 --> 00:54:50,697
People say Ferda and I look alike,
but I can't see any similarity.
612
00:54:51,435 --> 00:54:55,929
I wasn't like her in my youth.
When I was Ferda's age, I was stylish.
613
00:54:56,039 --> 00:54:58,269
And now, look at you!
614
00:55:01,211 --> 00:55:03,771
You were so naughty.
Do you think you were well-behaved?
615
00:55:03,880 --> 00:55:06,849
- I don't think I was naughty.
- Were you some nice house girl?
616
00:55:06,950 --> 00:55:08,713
No, never in my life
have I been a nice house girl.
617
00:55:08,819 --> 00:55:11,549
You were a street kitty!
618
00:55:11,655 --> 00:55:14,852
She calls me a street kitty!
619
00:55:16,793 --> 00:55:18,021
- She is putting on a show.
- What's her name?
620
00:55:18,128 --> 00:55:20,062
- Lora.
- Lora.
621
00:55:20,163 --> 00:55:22,597
Lora, do you want to come out?
622
00:55:23,033 --> 00:55:24,261
Girl, Sweetie.
623
00:55:24,668 --> 00:55:27,501
- Is it a "she"?
- Yes, but...
624
00:55:27,604 --> 00:55:31,335
...she hasn't laid any eggs
in 19 years.
625
00:55:31,441 --> 00:55:32,931
Why?
626
00:55:33,043 --> 00:55:36,240
She's very picky.
She doesn't like any other birds.
627
00:55:37,014 --> 00:55:41,383
Hey, girl,
shall I bring you another girl?
628
00:55:41,718 --> 00:55:42,309
What?
629
00:55:42,419 --> 00:55:45,013
Maybe she wants a girl!
630
00:55:46,490 --> 00:55:48,151
She says maybe the parrot
wants a girl.
631
00:55:48,258 --> 00:55:50,692
Maybe you should give it a try.
632
00:55:50,794 --> 00:55:53,661
Maybe she's a homosexual?
633
00:55:54,264 --> 00:55:56,698
Oould very well be.
634
00:55:56,800 --> 00:55:59,997
Now it's the fashion.
635
00:56:00,637 --> 00:56:02,161
Bye-bye.
636
00:56:08,445 --> 00:56:10,037
Perfect!
637
00:56:10,147 --> 00:56:11,341
- Is that what you think?
- Yes.
638
00:56:11,448 --> 00:56:13,507
That's what I think. Perfect.
639
00:56:13,617 --> 00:56:15,642
Thank you.
640
00:56:36,540 --> 00:56:39,703
Islam is a religion of peace,
641
00:56:40,477 --> 00:56:44,607
but we can only understand this
by understanding Sufism,
642
00:56:45,215 --> 00:56:49,242
not by how some people
interpret Islam.
643
00:57:41,905 --> 00:57:45,932
- So you want two of these?
- Yes, two.
644
00:58:32,589 --> 00:58:35,956
The hand above
is the one that receives.
645
00:58:36,226 --> 00:58:39,389
The hand below is the one that gives.
646
00:58:40,564 --> 00:58:44,056
For me, it represents the circle,
coming from the Oreator,
647
00:58:44,167 --> 00:58:49,400
going back to the earth
and returning to the Oreator again.
648
00:59:26,376 --> 00:59:32,542
Books and history tell us
that Madho Lal was born a Hindu,
649
00:59:32,649 --> 00:59:35,277
but we mystics
are indifferent to that.
650
00:59:35,585 --> 00:59:40,181
Madho becoming a Muslim
was ordained by God,
651
00:59:40,290 --> 00:59:45,728
and so was his eternal love
for Shah Husain.
652
00:59:45,829 --> 00:59:49,321
They became lovers.
653
01:00:03,813 --> 01:00:07,044
They gave each other so much love
that today,
654
01:00:07,150 --> 01:00:11,109
when the world pays its respects
to Shah Husain,
655
01:00:11,221 --> 01:00:13,621
they also pay respects to Madho Lal.
656
01:00:29,906 --> 01:00:33,171
God has requested this noise
and festivity
657
01:00:33,276 --> 01:00:36,439
so we have ordered
the drummers to beat their drums
658
01:00:36,546 --> 01:00:39,515
until we hear the sounds
of "Allah-hu."
659
01:01:29,866 --> 01:01:33,358
No one explains clearly,
so "this" never leaves the heart.
660
01:01:33,703 --> 01:01:36,501
I have faith in God
and also love "this thing."
661
01:01:37,073 --> 01:01:40,167
I want to live my life carrying both.
662
01:01:41,211 --> 01:01:43,941
I want to find out
if both are permitted or not.
663
01:01:48,818 --> 01:01:54,222
I have come here to find out
about my loving men.
664
01:01:54,657 --> 01:01:58,650
I want to know if Islam
has room for "this."
665
01:02:00,463 --> 01:02:06,402
Ever since I heard
that Islam forbids homosexuality,
666
01:02:06,970 --> 01:02:09,200
I've felt a barrier
between the two of them.
667
01:02:09,305 --> 01:02:11,865
But I really like both
homosexuality and Islam.
668
01:02:11,975 --> 01:02:15,240
No, this is absolutely unnatural.
669
01:02:15,345 --> 01:02:23,480
Nature and God have made
men and women for each other.
670
01:02:23,586 --> 01:02:26,987
Men are not for men
and women are not for women.
671
01:02:27,390 --> 01:02:31,417
I've been attracted to boys
from the beginning.
672
01:02:31,528 --> 01:02:33,155
What should I do?
673
01:02:33,263 --> 01:02:36,426
Please read
all the teachings of Islam.
674
01:02:36,533 --> 01:02:41,470
Read the Qur'an
and pray for God's blessings.
675
01:02:41,838 --> 01:02:45,569
This unnatural tendency you were
born with will go away if God wishes.
676
01:02:46,009 --> 01:02:49,536
No matter how big the crime,
677
01:02:49,646 --> 01:02:52,444
if you seek forgiveness
at God's doorstep,
678
01:02:52,549 --> 01:02:55,017
you don't need forgiveness
from mortals at all.
679
01:02:55,118 --> 01:02:57,951
- Lf I pray, then will God forgive me?
- Absolutely.
680
01:02:58,054 --> 01:03:03,754
If the One above forgives you, then
the world has no right to judge you.
681
01:03:04,227 --> 01:03:11,633
Punishment is given only when there is
no hope of resolving the issue.
682
01:03:12,035 --> 01:03:14,060
And what if I stop doing "this,"
683
01:03:14,170 --> 01:03:16,900
but I continue to like boys
and not girls?
684
01:03:17,006 --> 01:03:21,375
Then this is some kind
of psychological problem.
685
01:03:21,478 --> 01:03:24,379
You should talk to a psychologist
686
01:03:24,481 --> 01:03:28,542
because this problem you are talking
about shows that you have a disease.
687
01:03:28,952 --> 01:03:34,254
God willing, he will be able
to cure your problem.
688
01:03:35,525 --> 01:03:37,516
So may I come to you
whenever I want?
689
01:03:37,961 --> 01:03:41,488
Yes, absolutely. You can come
whenever you have a problem.
690
01:03:45,168 --> 01:03:46,100
Sometimes I feel that I'm wrong,
691
01:03:46,202 --> 01:03:48,602
and sometimes I feel
God created me this way.
692
01:03:48,872 --> 01:03:51,636
God is the all-knowing.
693
01:03:53,343 --> 01:03:59,282
He created me in the Muslim "caste."
I can't choose to be another way.
694
01:04:04,387 --> 01:04:08,824
Once, when I was sitting near
the big mosque, a Maulana came by.
695
01:04:09,225 --> 01:04:12,422
I asked him
why homosexuality is forbidden.
696
01:04:12,529 --> 01:04:17,262
He just said, "It's forbidden,
and the earth will split open."
697
01:04:17,367 --> 01:04:20,268
He didn't explain it well.
698
01:04:20,370 --> 01:04:22,668
Then he asked me to go with him.
699
01:04:22,772 --> 01:04:24,467
I said, "You just told me
it's forbidden."
700
01:04:24,574 --> 01:04:27,236
He said, "Never mind that.
Oome with me."
701
01:04:27,343 --> 01:04:30,176
Then he kissed me on the cheek.
702
01:04:34,217 --> 01:04:36,651
I can't clap right.
How do you do it?
703
01:04:36,753 --> 01:04:38,983
You go like this,
and then hit them like this.
704
01:04:46,029 --> 01:04:50,227
Some people call it geela,gandu, or chakka.
705
01:04:50,333 --> 01:04:54,099
Using those names insults people
that society already demeans.
706
01:04:54,204 --> 01:04:57,105
I call myself koti with pride.
707
01:05:01,811 --> 01:05:06,271
Swinging our hips, talking to
other kotis and going off with boys,
708
01:05:06,382 --> 01:05:08,646
we do these things secretly.
709
01:05:11,721 --> 01:05:13,552
Humans make mistakes all the time.
710
01:05:13,656 --> 01:05:15,283
The only mistake God could make
711
01:05:15,391 --> 01:05:18,383
would be to give a man
the heart of a woman.
712
01:05:22,432 --> 01:05:26,926
I used to wear a skirt, blouse,
long hair, earrings, everything.
713
01:05:27,237 --> 01:05:28,602
After I performed the Hajj,
714
01:05:28,705 --> 01:05:33,870
I realized I could no longer
disgrace my religion.
715
01:05:36,179 --> 01:05:38,306
From that day on,
716
01:05:38,414 --> 01:05:42,145
I stopped acting like a woman
or wearing women's clothes
717
01:05:42,252 --> 01:05:44,015
or sleeping with men.
718
01:05:44,854 --> 01:05:46,845
- So, are you ready to get married?
- Yes, absolutely.
719
01:05:46,956 --> 01:05:49,288
If I want to live in this society,
I have to marry.
720
01:05:49,392 --> 01:05:51,587
That's why I do "these things"
in secret.
721
01:05:58,901 --> 01:06:01,426
I am illiterate and ignorant.
722
01:06:02,572 --> 01:06:04,301
If I had been able to study,
723
01:06:04,474 --> 01:06:06,772
then I would be here
with these students.
724
01:06:11,848 --> 01:06:15,682
This is the Nadhwa school
where the religion of Islam is taught.
725
01:06:15,785 --> 01:06:20,313
In this place,
I feel very strange about my "crimes."
726
01:06:42,845 --> 01:06:47,179
No one should ever think
that God is not there for them.
727
01:06:48,818 --> 01:06:53,949
He's there for gays, kotis,
prostitutes, everyone.
728
01:07:17,814 --> 01:07:22,410
I am getting a shave today
because we kotis are having a party.
729
01:07:25,388 --> 01:07:28,118
Oh, God, what kind of mother-in-law
is this? She's pulling my hair!
730
01:07:28,624 --> 01:07:30,251
I look better when I'm "plain."
731
01:07:30,360 --> 01:07:31,827
She's looking scary!
732
01:07:31,928 --> 01:07:33,896
Hey, Qasim. Get out.
733
01:07:34,831 --> 01:07:37,994
All the men should wait outside.
734
01:07:38,301 --> 01:07:40,098
Go on, get out now.
735
01:07:40,436 --> 01:07:41,425
I'm staying in here with my sisters.
736
01:07:41,537 --> 01:07:44,563
Get out!
737
01:07:44,674 --> 01:07:46,835
Why should I be embarrassed?
738
01:07:58,121 --> 01:08:00,954
You cannot keep your love hidden
739
01:08:01,057 --> 01:08:05,926
In all four directions are spies
740
01:08:14,036 --> 01:08:17,665
Since there are no secrets from God
741
01:08:19,175 --> 01:08:24,613
Since there are no secrets from God,why keep secrets from mortals?
742
01:08:24,714 --> 01:08:36,854
You only loved, so why be afraid?If you love, then why be afraid?
743
01:09:06,088 --> 01:09:08,648
- Did you get your ticket?
- Yeah.
744
01:09:19,335 --> 01:09:26,798
The day after tomorrow
you won't be here anymore.
745
01:09:27,109 --> 01:09:32,046
- I'll be on the plane.
- No, you'll be where you wanted to be.
746
01:09:33,115 --> 01:09:35,982
So how does it feel to be leaving?
747
01:09:36,085 --> 01:09:38,485
Sometimes I'm happy.
748
01:09:38,654 --> 01:09:41,054
Sometimes sad.
749
01:09:41,157 --> 01:09:43,887
Sometimes I don't know what to feel.
750
01:09:44,460 --> 01:09:47,156
I'm happy.
Happy that the waiting is over.
751
01:09:47,263 --> 01:09:49,026
Were the three years hard or easy?
752
01:09:49,131 --> 01:09:50,462
Hard.
753
01:09:50,566 --> 01:09:52,124
I'm happy you'll be coming soon, Amir,
754
01:09:52,235 --> 01:09:54,499
but I'm worried that Mojtaba
still hasn't heard from the UN.
755
01:09:54,604 --> 01:09:58,665
Hopefully, he will be accepted.
756
01:09:58,808 --> 01:10:00,799
I will miss you, my dear.
757
01:10:00,910 --> 01:10:02,502
No, you won't. I know it.
758
01:10:02,912 --> 01:10:06,439
You were always mad at me.
759
01:10:06,549 --> 01:10:09,245
What is it?
760
01:10:09,352 --> 01:10:13,186
Look, now we're crying!
761
01:10:14,557 --> 01:10:17,082
Oome on, don't cry so much.
762
01:10:20,796 --> 01:10:22,354
Kiss it.
763
01:10:22,465 --> 01:10:26,333
You should start from the other side.
764
01:10:26,435 --> 01:10:28,062
It's okay.
765
01:10:34,844 --> 01:10:38,837
Pray that these suitcases
make it to Toronto.
766
01:11:15,818 --> 01:11:22,587
In my faith, they say that if someone
calls out "Ya Allah!" 10 times,
767
01:11:22,692 --> 01:11:26,719
God will answer,
"What is it, my child?"
768
01:11:45,448 --> 01:11:48,076
Seven or eight hours until freedom.
769
01:11:51,554 --> 01:11:55,115
Do you think they have this in pink?
770
01:11:56,092 --> 01:12:01,189
- You want it in pink?
- Pink is the color for gays.
771
01:12:15,544 --> 01:12:18,513
Today is my new birthday.
772
01:12:20,983 --> 01:12:23,076
No one is here.
What should we do now?
773
01:12:25,755 --> 01:12:28,690
At the embassy they asked
what I would do when I arrived.
774
01:12:28,858 --> 01:12:33,591
I said, "I want to breathe."
So now I can breathe.
775
01:12:38,668 --> 01:12:43,196
I used to think
I would never see this day.
776
01:12:45,574 --> 01:12:51,979
I used to think, "How can I be free
when so many others can't?"
777
01:12:52,515 --> 01:12:55,109
One day they will also be free.
778
01:13:12,835 --> 01:13:15,030
I am so excited.
779
01:13:15,404 --> 01:13:19,067
I can't wait to get there.
I am bubbling.
780
01:13:20,176 --> 01:13:24,943
Because it's the first time I'm going
to speak to the Muslim community.
781
01:13:26,549 --> 01:13:29,382
The very same community
that asked me to leave
782
01:13:29,485 --> 01:13:32,318
has now asked me to come back
783
01:13:32,421 --> 01:13:35,857
and talk to them about homosexuality,
because it's a dilemma.
784
01:13:35,958 --> 01:13:38,984
They don't know how to deal with it.
785
01:13:39,462 --> 01:13:42,625
Okay. I wish there was a verse
in the Qur'an that said,
786
01:13:42,732 --> 01:13:45,758
"Please do not discriminate
against homosexuality."
787
01:13:45,868 --> 01:13:48,666
But, unfortunately,
it's not an easy subject as that.
788
01:13:48,771 --> 01:13:51,535
And therefore,
I requested a very open mind.
789
01:13:51,640 --> 01:13:54,438
The Qur'an doesn't speak
about Sodom and Gomorrah.
790
01:13:54,543 --> 01:13:56,408
It speaks about the cities
of the plain.
791
01:13:56,946 --> 01:14:01,315
They were selfish, they used
to do robbery, they used to rape,
792
01:14:01,417 --> 01:14:07,014
and send off the men naked,
and they used to set up unjust courts.
793
01:14:07,256 --> 01:14:08,917
And as you can clearly see now,
794
01:14:09,024 --> 01:14:12,516
it is not because of homosexual acts
that Allah has destroyed them,
795
01:14:12,695 --> 01:14:15,823
but they were clearly
a corrupt nation.
796
01:14:15,931 --> 01:14:19,196
The only way two males
can have a sexual relationship
797
01:14:19,301 --> 01:14:22,168
is to have anal sex,
798
01:14:22,271 --> 01:14:25,502
which is forbidden as far
as the Qur'an is concerned.
799
01:14:25,608 --> 01:14:31,103
Not completely. One doesn't
have to have anal sex to have sex.
800
01:14:31,213 --> 01:14:34,444
In terms of showing love
with one another.
801
01:14:35,084 --> 01:14:39,714
But how far? That is what Allah is
trying to help us with in the Qur'an.
802
01:14:39,822 --> 01:14:41,449
How far do we go?
803
01:14:41,891 --> 01:14:45,622
You know we are not dependent
on the lmams and the clergy.
804
01:14:45,795 --> 01:14:50,061
Each Muslim, man and woman,
they have been commanded
805
01:14:50,166 --> 01:14:52,031
to go and learn for themselves.
806
01:14:52,134 --> 01:14:54,967
They've been commanded
to challenge the status quo.
807
01:14:55,204 --> 01:14:58,571
Islam commands us to learn
from the cradle to the grave.
808
01:14:58,841 --> 01:15:02,333
We have so many clergy,
I always say,
809
01:15:02,444 --> 01:15:06,107
you kick at every bush and you find
a sheikh dropping out.
810
01:15:06,949 --> 01:15:09,349
To say that you can be gay or lesbian
811
01:15:09,451 --> 01:15:12,682
and still be a good Muslim
and still be Allah-conscious,
812
01:15:12,788 --> 01:15:15,052
and this is what I like
that's happened here today.
813
01:15:20,429 --> 01:15:25,958
We cannot find answers
within orthodox Islamic thinking.
814
01:15:26,068 --> 01:15:28,593
We have to use
one of the principles of Islam
815
01:15:28,704 --> 01:15:30,103
that has been lost over the years.
816
01:15:30,206 --> 01:15:33,300
Ljtihad, meaning,
"independent reasoning."
817
01:15:33,409 --> 01:15:36,503
To find a space for us within Islam.
818
01:16:01,003 --> 01:16:04,063
Here I am at Your service, Allah
819
01:16:04,173 --> 01:16:05,936
Here I am
820
01:16:06,041 --> 01:16:08,805
Here I am at Your service
821
01:16:08,911 --> 01:16:11,607
And You have no equals
822
01:16:12,448 --> 01:16:17,476
I guess what was never taught to us
when we were growing up
823
01:16:17,586 --> 01:16:21,044
is that Allah is also
the Allah of love.
824
01:16:21,523 --> 01:16:26,756
We always had to Taqwa Allah,
you have to fear God.
825
01:16:26,862 --> 01:16:29,558
We never were taught
about the love of God.
826
01:16:31,166 --> 01:16:35,466
Allah says in the Qur'an,
"Do not despair of the mercy of God...
827
01:16:35,638 --> 01:16:42,066
...because God, to you,
is most merciful."
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