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the only thing worse than a fool is a

the only thing worse than a fool is a

the only thing worse than a fool is a drunk fool I don't want you to see me

drunk fool I don't want you to see me

drunk fool I don't want you to see me like

like

like this well that's too bad cuz I'm not

this well that's too bad cuz I'm not

this well that's too bad cuz I'm not leaving

you but i' invite you for a drink but it

you but i' invite you for a drink but it

you but i' invite you for a drink but it appears that I've broken all the glasses

appears that I've broken all the glasses

appears that I've broken all the glasses you need to stop this it's getting a

you need to stop this it's getting a

you need to stop this it's getting a little

little

little pathetic

pathetic

pathetic this is not self-pity lless

this is not self-pity lless

this is not self-pity lless no no this is just a good healthy dose

no no this is just a good healthy dose

no no this is just a good healthy dose of cynicism that's all you can call it

of cynicism that's all you can call it

of cynicism that's all you can call it whatever you want but it's not going to

whatever you want but it's not going to

whatever you want but it's not going to fix

fix

fix anything on the

anything on the

anything on the contrary this

contrary this

contrary this stuff works quite

stuff works quite

stuff works quite nicely granted it doesn't uh doesn't

nicely granted it doesn't uh doesn't

nicely granted it doesn't uh doesn't kill the pain completely but it does

kill the pain completely but it does

kill the pain completely but it does dull it and make it more

dull it and make it more

dull it and make it more manageable I know how badly this must

manageable I know how badly this must

manageable I know how badly this must hurt and I am so

hurt and I am so

hurt and I am so sorry yeah

sorry yeah

sorry yeah well you know what they

well you know what they

well you know what they say those who say

say those who say

say those who say things the truth will set you free but

things the truth will set you free but

things the truth will set you free but see that's not true that's a

see that's not true that's a

see that's not true that's a lie it only makes you realize what an

lie it only makes you realize what an

lie it only makes you realize what an idiot you've been and still

are God I miss

are God I miss

are God I miss Emily I really

Emily I really

Emily I really do I

do I

do I I try to pretend that everything's fine

I try to pretend that everything's fine

I try to pretend that everything's fine but it it really

isn't when I get drunk it just boils all

isn't when I get drunk it just boils all

isn't when I get drunk it just boils all up inside and chokes me to

up inside and chokes me to

up inside and chokes me to death it's even it's even worse when I'm

death it's even it's even worse when I'm

death it's even it's even worse when I'm sober it's like you said I I constantly

sober it's like you said I I constantly

sober it's like you said I I constantly look for Emily

look for Emily

look for Emily substitutes sweet silly

substitutes sweet silly

substitutes sweet silly naen Emily light great

naen Emily light great

naen Emily light great girl just didn't way over her head

girl just didn't way over her head

girl just didn't way over her head and then

and then

and then Rebecca Emily

dark duped again ales nichas this isn't

dark duped again ales nichas this isn't

dark duped again ales nichas this isn't your

your

your fault come on of course it is you had

fault come on of course it is you had

fault come on of course it is you had Rebecca pegged from day

Rebecca pegged from day

Rebecca pegged from day one greedy sister out to get what Emily

one greedy sister out to get what Emily

one greedy sister out to get what Emily had how right you were believe me I Get

had how right you were believe me I Get

had how right you were believe me I Get No Satisfaction I just wouldn't listen

No Satisfaction I just wouldn't listen

No Satisfaction I just wouldn't listen what

what

what I ignored all the warnings from you and

I ignored all the warnings from you and

I ignored all the warnings from you and Lex's and whoever

Lex's and whoever

Lex's and whoever else left myself wide

else left myself wide

else left myself wide open guess you did yeah because you're

open guess you did yeah because you're

open guess you did yeah because you're so deeply in

so deeply in

so deeply in love with Emily who's dead

love with Emily who's dead

love with Emily who's dead now

now

now no with your own

no with your own

no with your own [Music]

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[Music] suffering how's this for a

suffering how's this for a

suffering how's this for a metaphor Elizabeth straightens up my

metaphor Elizabeth straightens up my

metaphor Elizabeth straightens up my trash life

trash life

trash life I actually liked your first perspective

I actually liked your first perspective

I actually liked your first perspective better that I'm in love with my own

better that I'm in love with my own

better that I'm in love with my own misery let me tell you something about

misery let me tell you something about

misery let me tell you something about my best friend Emily she wasn't this

my best friend Emily she wasn't this

my best friend Emily she wasn't this angel that you painted her in your grief

angel that you painted her in your grief

angel that you painted her in your grief she was human flawed just like the rest

she was human flawed just like the rest

she was human flawed just like the rest of us and she'd be the first one to tell

of us and she'd be the first one to tell

of us and she'd be the first one to tell you depends on your point of view I

you depends on your point of view I

you depends on your point of view I suppose all right let's see um I can

suppose all right let's see um I can

suppose all right let's see um I can recall her all the Sunny Corinthos do

recall her all the Sunny Corinthos do

recall her all the Sunny Corinthos do you remember that yeah and she also

you remember that yeah and she also

you remember that yeah and she also broke Sander's heart when she realized

broke Sander's heart when she realized

broke Sander's heart when she realized she was in love with you see she screwed

she was in love with you see she screwed

she was in love with you see she screwed up too but the difference is she lived

up too but the difference is she lived

up too but the difference is she lived her life the best she

her life the best she

her life the best she could yep and then she

could yep and then she

could yep and then she died and if you had died instead I

died and if you had died instead I

died and if you had died instead I promise you she would have kept on

promise you she would have kept on

promise you she would have kept on living she would have followed her

living she would have followed her

living she would have followed her dreams and become a doctor and fallen in

dreams and become a doctor and fallen in

dreams and become a doctor and fallen in love again and she would have kept the

love again and she would have kept the

love again and she would have kept the love that the two of you shared in her

love that the two of you shared in her

love that the two of you shared in her heart and learned from it but you you

heart and learned from it but you you

heart and learned from it but you you Nicholas you you've turned your love and

Nicholas you you've turned your love and

Nicholas you you've turned your love and your memories into this Shrine you've

your memories into this Shrine you've

your memories into this Shrine you've created a fantasy out of Emily that no

created a fantasy out of Emily that no

created a fantasy out of Emily that no woman could ever live up to especially

woman could ever live up to especially

woman could ever live up to especially Emily herself and it's not fair to

Emily herself and it's not fair to

Emily herself and it's not fair to her to you or anyone else who loves

you I am a coward I'm secure with my

you I am a coward I'm secure with my

you I am a coward I'm secure with my misery

misery

misery yep nemily will always be close even if

yep nemily will always be close even if

yep nemily will always be close even if the only thing I feel is her loss have

the only thing I feel is her loss have

the only thing I feel is her loss have you even tried to move on yes of course

you even tried to move on yes of course

you even tried to move on yes of course I have I wanted it to work with naen

I have I wanted it to work with naen

I have I wanted it to work with naen she's a good person sweet uncomplicated

she's a good person sweet uncomplicated

she's a good person sweet uncomplicated and that was the attraction she made

and that was the attraction she made

and that was the attraction she made things simple for you you never had to

things simple for you you never had to

things simple for you you never had to invest your real emotion can we just

invest your real emotion can we just

invest your real emotion can we just call it a transitional relationship and

call it a transitional relationship and

call it a transitional relationship and move on please okay sure let's move on

move on please okay sure let's move on

move on please okay sure let's move on let's talk about Rebecca okay well no

let's talk about Rebecca okay well no

let's talk about Rebecca okay well no one can accuse me of not being invested

one can accuse me of not being invested

one can accuse me of not being invested in that

in that

in that emotionally and I can't remember the

emotionally and I can't remember the

emotionally and I can't remember the last time I was this

last time I was this

last time I was this angry what she did was horrible and the

angry what she did was horrible and the

angry what she did was horrible and the way she used you but if for being honest

way she used you but if for being honest

way she used you but if for being honest here you used her too what how can you

here you used her too what how can you

here you used her too what how can you say that you can't be suggesting moral

say that you can't be suggesting moral

say that you can't be suggesting moral equivalency here okay some doctors

equivalency here okay some doctors

equivalency here okay some doctors prescribe placebos to make their

prescribe placebos to make their

prescribe placebos to make their patients think that they're taking real

patients think that they're taking real

patients think that they're taking real medicine but if you know it's a fake

medicine but if you know it's a fake

medicine but if you know it's a fake even though it looks the same you see a

even though it looks the same you see a

even though it looks the same you see a sugar pill with no real

sugar pill with no real

sugar pill with no real Merit that's what Rebecca is to you in

Merit that's what Rebecca is to you in

Merit that's what Rebecca is to you in your mind a fake Emily

your mind a fake Emily

your mind a fake Emily so when you're with her you never have

so when you're with her you never have

so when you're with her you never have to invest your heart in her at

to invest your heart in her at

to invest your heart in her at all I can only say this to someone who

all I can only say this to someone who

all I can only say this to someone who loves me like you

loves me like you

loves me like you do Rebecca made a fool out of me and I

do Rebecca made a fool out of me and I

do Rebecca made a fool out of me and I am absolutely

am absolutely

am absolutely humiliated that I fell for

humiliated that I fell for

humiliated that I fell for it well you got what you thought you

it well you got what you thought you

it well you got what you thought you wanted at the time and you're right

wanted at the time and you're right

wanted at the time and you're right you're right no matter how many

you're right no matter how many

you're right no matter how many different ways I try and rationalize it

different ways I try and rationalize it

different ways I try and rationalize it a huge part of what attracted me me to

a huge part of what attracted me me to

a huge part of what attracted me me to Rebecca in the first place was that she

Rebecca in the first place was that she

Rebecca in the first place was that she looked just like Emily well people are

looked just like Emily well people are

looked just like Emily well people are attracted to the same type no no no no

attracted to the same type no no no no

attracted to the same type no no no no see this this this one goes much deeper

see this this this one goes much deeper

see this this this one goes much deeper than that you know I figured I figured

than that you know I figured I figured

than that you know I figured I figured up here

up here

up here that if I couldn't be with Emily well I

that if I couldn't be with Emily well I

that if I couldn't be with Emily well I I could just be with her twin

I could just be with her twin

I could just be with her twin sister I don't know I guess it was a way

sister I don't know I guess it was a way

sister I don't know I guess it was a way for me to be with another woman without

for me to be with another woman without

for me to be with another woman without feeling like I'm betraying Emily

feeling like I'm betraying Emily

feeling like I'm betraying Emily Nicholas you can't betray a dead woman

Nicholas you can't betray a dead woman

Nicholas you can't betray a dead woman unless you're using her as an EXC ref

unless you're using her as an EXC ref

unless you're using her as an EXC ref used to bring your life to a grinding

used to bring your life to a grinding

used to bring your life to a grinding halt which I seem to have

halt which I seem to have

halt which I seem to have done you have suffered a terrible loss

done you have suffered a terrible loss

done you have suffered a terrible loss and yes it it was unfair and it was

and yes it it was unfair and it was

and yes it it was unfair and it was devastating but it

devastating but it

devastating but it happened stop looking back stop wasting

happened stop looking back stop wasting

happened stop looking back stop wasting your

your

your time Nicholas you are a wonderful man

time Nicholas you are a wonderful man

time Nicholas you are a wonderful man with so much to offer you've got to find

with so much to offer you've got to find

with so much to offer you've got to find something or or someone you you can

something or or someone you you can

something or or someone you you can believe in or you want or you care about

believe in or you want or you care about

believe in or you want or you care about [Music]

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[Music] God you

God you

God you [Music]

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[Music] know there's only been one

know there's only been one

know there's only been one time since Emily died that I stopped

time since Emily died that I stopped

time since Emily died that I stopped thinking about

her that I wasn't living in the

her that I wasn't living in the

her that I wasn't living in the [Music]

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[Music] past and the only thing that mattered

past and the only thing that mattered

past and the only thing that mattered was

was

was right in front of

me just one

me just one

me just one [Music]

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[Music] Nicholas is refusing to take my call

Nicholas is refusing to take my call

Nicholas is refusing to take my call Nicholas Mr cadine gave strict

Nicholas Mr cadine gave strict

Nicholas Mr cadine gave strict instructions that he did not want to be

instructions that he did not want to be

instructions that he did not want to be disturbed I must admit that his mood was

disturbed I must admit that his mood was

disturbed I must admit that his mood was troubling n is not in a very good place

troubling n is not in a very good place

troubling n is not in a very good place right now and I didn't help matters

right now and I didn't help matters

right now and I didn't help matters much where's Nicholas now

much where's Nicholas now

much where's Nicholas now Miss Elizabeth stopped by to check on

Miss Elizabeth stopped by to check on

Miss Elizabeth stopped by to check on him I think they are still up in the

him I think they are still up in the

him I think they are still up in the turret