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Taka's died.

When?

I don't know.

How? Did he kill himself?

Couldn't tell. His body was a rotten mess.

Anyhow. come home right now.

I can't. Even if I leave now. It'll be past noon.

About work?

No.

A Film by Shun Nakahara

Based on a novel by Randy Taguchi

Screenplay by Satoko Okudera

Music by Yoshihide Otomo

Theme song by Adiemus

Miwako Ichikawa

Stupid!

Don't play me dumb!

You think crying'll make everything OK?

You fool!

It's because of you, Taka got like that.

Clinging to your breast all that time...

turned him into a good-for-nothing.

Even the way he died was a disgrace.

We recommend boxed lunches at the crematorium.

We have...

"extra-special," "special," and "good."

What's the difference between "special" and "good"?

The "special" has fried shrimp.

How long will the cremation take?

Well...

Since your brother was young... about two hours.

He was already 40.

That's still young.

Keep that incense burning.

Let me see his face.

I'd advise against that.

But you saw it.

Because I'm not related.

At Obon each year, his spirit will return.

Then you'll think of him.

Remembering him with a good face is better, isn't it?

"CULTURE DAY WRITING AWARD YUKI ASAURA, November 3, 1984"

I heard he died of weakness due to malnutrition.

He signed the lease immediately. Liked it because it was sunny.

Last month's rent was late. I thought something was wrong.

So I came and there was this smell.

When did he move in?

March, I think. Weren't you in touch?

Not these past 2 months.

Starved to death, huh?

What was he thinking?

"Unicorn Specialty Cleaning"

There's blood only here, right?

Will this smell go away?

In about a week, once the tiles are removed.

The wind carries the smell as far as the station.

Really?

Everyone's complaining to me.

They want money to move out. Or to buy an air conditioner.

I've become the victim.

But you're lucky.

What do you mean?

Her brother was being considerate to his family.

The blood hasn't penetrated.

Were it tatami, it would've seeped through, becoming a maggots' nest.

Or worse, the floor would warp.

In which case, this place would be unusable.

As it is, in 3 months, it'll be rentable.

Will the smell really go away?

Yes.

Go and apologize to the neighbors.

OK. I'm sorry.

You can wait outside.

I'm OK.

Use this.

Thank you.

He had no wounds, so why all this blood?

When a corpse is left alone, blood flows out of its openings.

He died of starvation.

It seemed he ate nothing, locked himself inside and slept.

Look.

The plug is still in the outlet.

Isn't that strange?

As if he were about to vacuum.

But he never did.

He went so far as to buy one, but didn't use it.

They say when someone dies, he leaves behind a message.

Not a letter... something less concrete.

Does that happen?

Yes.

It happens.

For example?

As you said, something not concrete.

I sense it on the job, when first entering a room.

The smell will disappear in time.

But something of your brother's is still here.

Before dying, he talked about "electrical outlets."

“Electrical outlets"?

Stop!

Shiro!

That's Shiro. Taka's dog.

Taka!

You have a message...

Yuki, it's Mother...

Thank you for everything...

Hello... it's Mother...

I'll call again.

Yuki, it's Mother...

I don't know what to do anymore. I'll call again.

Father says it's all my fault.

It's Mother. I'll call again.

Poor Taka.

I just don't know what to do.

Father says it's all my fault.

Poor Taka.

Thank you for everything.

I'm so tired.

"Heard the bad news. Don't get depressed..."

"Call me when you return. Kimura"

I was surprised. It was that day, wasn't it?

I didn't want to wake you.

Why? I could have driven you to your parents' home.

You were sleeping so well. No one's ever told you that?

No.

You knew he was in serious condition?

No. It was unexpected. Why?

You were acting strange that day.

Strange?

You got really drunk, then suddenly wanted to have sex.

I did?

That's right.

Told the cab driver to take us to the nearest "love hotel."

You don't remember?

No. Not at all.

Not at all?

Good thing it was with me.

What's in that? Herbs?

What's wrong?

What?

Breathe out.

What's going on? This is creepy.

Quick, breathe out.

Smells that had?

Is something wrong?

With my body? Not if I'm a photographer.

If the slightest thing is wrong, go to the hospital.

I smell sick?

Lots of things bother me recently.

I've become hypersensitive.

Of course. You've lost a brother.

You're tired.

Get some sleep.

All right.

Good night.

- Sorry I'm late. - That's OK.

Excuse me.

I wasn't expecting to hear from you.

I recall your brother had psychological problems.

Yes.

From when?

About middle school. He'd lose his temper and get violent.

I don't know why. Every day, my mother and I...

had to beware of his moods.

Looking back...

do you think it began then?

No. But he couldn't suppress his feelings or communicate with others.

He graduated high school without problem?

Yes.

Didn't refuse to go to school?

That's right.

What about work?

He had jobs, but quit right away.

Around 30, he stopped looking.

Said he couldn't hold down a job, even when he wanted to.

As for this final stage...

when did it begin?

Four years ago. Father retired as a seaman and came home.

He saw my brother doing nothing and got mad.

Considered him trash.

And then?

My brother retreated to his room.

To avoid confrontation with him.

If they collided, they'd kill each other.

All Mother could do was cry. Let loose, they'd kill each other.

And?

So, I persuaded him to let me take care of him.

Wait. You take care of him?

Yes.

Why?

To put him into counseling. And if not, I'd do it myself.

That's impossible. Relatives cannot counsel.

Where's your son?

No problem here. I just fell down the stairs.

It's nothing.

Mother...

Where's Taka?

Taka?

I found him. He's up here!

Hurry!

Taka!

Hey! Pretty boy! Bloodsucker!

There's one in back and one bleeding badly. Take care of him.

Is the wife OK?

Yes. this is Kunisada.

I'll be done in 10 minutes. OK then...

So, what should I do? Listen as a counselor...

Or as an old friend?

How were you listening now?

As a counselor. Was that all right?

If so, we must do it formally, write up a contract.

We'll meet every Friday at 3, for 45 minutes, with a fee.

Is that all right?

It should make things easier.

Yuki...

Yuki...

Or is "Asakura" better?

I thought you hated me...

these past 8 years.

Do it, Sensei. Do it, do it.

No, I can't.

I want you to. Please. With you. Sensei.

I won't put it in.

Please, do it.

I can't. You're my student.

My precious student.

We'll start with dream analysis.

Learn more about your relationship with your brother.

Keen notes and show me.

OK.

See you next week.

What's with you guys?

If you think I'm wrong, what about you?

You started it.

This is just between ourselves.

Let's hear your argument from the beginning.

Come on. Can't you?

What's with you? Can't you do it?

Now look...

Please stop it.

Explain it to me.

This is our business.

Taka!

The last train's leaving soon. Let's go.

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me.

Sorry.

What a scare!

Stop it please.

Stop it!

Why?

If you want affection, find a girlfriend...

Yuki.

I'm your sister. Don't you set it?

Taka!

Wait!

First. tell us about your company's specialty, stop orders.

OK.

Why does that happen?

When we buy high and sell cheap, we feel a loss.

We use words like "loss cut."

So to avoid loss or to increase profits...

stop orders are effective.

This company was founded on this idea.

Right. We want more people to invest...

Thank you!

That smell you noticed bothered me.

Sorry for suddenly saying that.

I haven't gone to the hospital yet.

No need to.

Odors still bothering you?

Not always. But sometimes I can make out distinct odors...

just by chance.

See you then.

- Hey... - What?

How about getting married?

Married?

That's right.

Between who and who?

I'm talking about me and you.

To you, having sex once doesn't mean having a relationship.

That's right.

I was confused when you asked me to do it.

I knew that wasn't why you did it.

Very observant.

Knowing all that and you still want to marry me? Makes me wonder.

You mean because of your past relationships with men?

Look, when I sleep with someone I don't worry about it before or after.

You saw me drunk. That's the real me. I'm loose.

No one thinks that.

Really? If you do, so do others.

I haven't heard it from anyone. That's an insult to the others.

I'm sorry.

I don't understand you at all.

Men like you, but you're always alone. Crazy about stocks, but not money.

You're kind, but then you're cold.

Just watching you is painful.

Why are you so unbalanced?

Shut up and just follow me.

No!

Why?

I don't even like you.

Doesn't matter. At least in the beginning.

Stupid!

I'm going home. Bye.

I'll drive you back.

In your dreams, your brother is your lover.

That's right.

In real life, did he consider you his girlfriend?

I'm the one who thought so.

I used my womanly wiles when caring for him.

I thought all would go well then. I devoted myself to him, totally.

Why was that?

Isn't counseling like that?

Many patients recover after having erotic feelings for their therapists.

But you said he was violent to you.

So why did you look after him?

Because he was not his former self.

He couldn't do anything, not even bathe himself.

He just ate junk food. Deliberately harming himself.

So you took on your frail brother as a lover.

In other words, you used false love...

powered by eroticism to reach him.

That's exactly right.

That's a dangerous strategy.

Did you love your brother?

I don't know.

That's not a difficult question.

I'm not sure.

I couldn't understand him... so I couldn't forgive him.

Forgive him for what?

For his gross irresponsibility...

which hid his inferiority complex.

But being with him, made me so tired.

Little by little, I stopped going home.

He disappeared around that time.

When he was alone, what was he thinking of?

Bitterness... Life shouldn't have been like this.

He left on his own, yet you felt you enticed him, then rejected him.

Isn't that so?

Maybe.

You're a seductress.

Seductress?

Yes.

Me?

Let's stop here for today.

For modern man. electricity is...

as food, essential for life.

At a Bronx mental hospital, there is a boy...

who uses electricity as his energy source...

What's that?

He's been hospitalized for 2 years, 7 months.

However, the actual time is much less.

A long electrical cord is attached to his body.

A schizophrenic, he comes alive only when plugged into an outlet.

This is your first time seeing this?

Yes.

Why does this happen? Why?

Why must he be plugged in?

Was he like this since birth?

Or did some mistake occur?

You know about this kind of stuff.

We don't know why people become mentally ill.

Why?

Because each person has a totally different reason.

What's the name of this movie?

"The Strange and Fantastic."

"Cult Films"

"The Strange and Fantastic."

Asakura-san.

Aren't you Yuki Asakura?

Yes, but...

An acquaintance?

You made a face. A stalker?

Don't you remember me? We weren't so close, but...

you weren't friendly with anyone in our seminar class.

You're Honda-san, right?

And my first name?

Ritsuko. "Ritso" means "law" and "ko" means "child."

So you're a freelance writer...

who reports on exclusive resorts and fancy restaurants?

No. For investment magazines. Money markets and stocks.

That's a surprise.

What about you?

Still a university assistant.

Really? Who's group?

I changed to cultural anthropology.

I did fieldwork in Okinawa for 3 years. I just returned.

Not in psychology? What happened?

You'll laugh, but I'm researching shamanism.

Shamanism? But...

Here come the strange looks! I'm used to it.

Do shamans still exist?

They do. Itako, yuta, and fuchi are all shamans.

Since the economic collapse, new valuations have increased.

Increased? Shamans?

That's right.

Aren't you going to get on?

I live behind the station. Drop by sometime.

Hello?

"22:13 Call from Kimura"

Did you call?

Don't sound so angry. Were you sleeping?

Not really.

I underwent some tests today. I'll be hospitalized tomorrow.

Why?

An irregularity in a tumor test.

There's a cancerous growth in my rectum.

Cancer?

Yeah.

Yuki, did anyone ever say...

you're clairvoyant?

Clairvoyant? I'm not.

But that night...

What night?

At the hotel.

I don't remember anything.

While you were in bed looking at the ceiling...

You said your brother was up there watching.

Yuki! What's going on?

Yuki! Yuki!

Yuki!

Can you hear me?

I'll be there right my. Don't move.

Don't hang up!

Yuki!

It's all right.

It's falling apart. Dreams are seeping in!

- Calm down... - Lick them...

Kiss them.

I want more. More!

Oh. that's good. That's so good.

Give me some.

Aren't you getting tested tomorrow?

It's OK.

No, it isn't.

I get scared sometimes when I have sex with you.

Because I'm so aggressive?

I start thinking about lots of things.

I see my brother.

Not only in the hotel. By the train crossing near my parents' house.

He was sitting right here a while ago.

I need to know more about myself.

Why these things happen. I'm scared.

You know...

What?

Could you not call me anymore?

No.

Don't.

No.

Don't.

I'll call right after the operation.

I still smell?

It's because this nose smells too much.

After we finish eating, studies will begin.

Each group should finalize its report.

OK.

Have an egg.

What's wrong?

What am I doing? I have to get changed.

You're not going to eat?

What happened?

I've got to get changed. I'm the only one dressed like this.

Oh...

What's so funny?

Sh...

Where's Professor Kunisada?

Huh?

What's that noise?

Sensei, please tell them the truth about us!

Asakura-san and I have never had sex!

In your dreams, you never trust me.

Why didn't you ever have sex with me?

You mean why I never crossed the line?

Because you were my student and I was a married man.

That's all?

As a reason? Yes, that's all.

Let's return to those dreams about your brother.

What does the word "outlet" bring to mind?

For me?

Yes. The image it holds way deep inside of you.

It was a final message.

From my brother to me.

Your brother is no longer here.

The dead do not speak. "Outlet" has meaning only to you.

Frankly, I am not interested in your brother's death.

From a clinical point of view, his death is very common.

Whether by accident or suicide, It's the same nameless illness.

People like that have always existed.

They make up about 1% of the population.

Their difficulties come from their personalities.

You can search forever, but you'll never learn why.

Because, you are you and not your brother.

You believed that from the beginning?

Yes.

Then why did you continue with these sessions?

Because you were suffering.

I help those I see suffering. That's my job.

If you want to continue, we must focus on you, not him.

You must become aware of yourself.

I want to know why my brother died.

Death!

Death is man's greatest mystery.

His greatest fear. The secret of the universe's creation.

It's not about psychology, but the spiritual and religious.

What we can only do is...

learn why you're concerned about his death and about the "outlet."

To unravel those reasons.

The problem then is me.

That's right.

Time's up.

Excuse me.

What do you want to say?

What does "outlet" have to do with it?

What do you want to tell me?

You came to see Professor Kunisada?

For some advice.

He agreed to it.

Still as confident as ever.

You still like him?

That's not it.

There's that face.

What do you mean?

Haven't seen that in a while... that defiant expression. I like it.

Are you making fun of me?

If you want, I'll listen to you.

I have illusions and I smell phantom odors.

The first stage of illness.

Delusional schizophrenia?

What did Kunisada say?

Haven't told him yet.

Don't. He'll put you into therapy.

My problem isn't within the realm of psychology.

He said it was spiritual or religious.

That's my specialty.

That's something!

Now I know why I ran into you. There was a reason for it.

You need me. Don't you think so?

Where are we going?

There's someone I want you to meet.

Good evening.

Hello.

- A beer. - OK.

What about you?

Beer's fine.

- One bottle's OK then? - Yes.

Aka-san, this is Yuki Asakura. Went to college together.

Nice to meet you.

Here you are.

Lately, Yuki's seen a person who has died.

Yes. A man?

He looks sickly. About 40 years old.

Is he your brother?

- There's nothing behind you. - Not a ghost.

No. But a kind of sign.

Visible, by way of you.

You can see him through me? Because I cared for him?

I can't really make it out. Except for the sign.

For example, when reading a book, an image emerges.

Yes...

So it's understandable, but only at that level.

What do you see?

Something from within my heart?

Or is it something else?

Well...

If anything, it's a scent.

Each person emits some sign.

Lately, her sense of smell is odd. She smells rotten corpses.

That's too had.

It's a problem. Can it mean something good?

No. It's like finding the source of a migraine headache.

Just a distraction.

Maybe.

You sure sleep a lot.

Oh, you came.

Oh...

Do you remember Yamagishi-san?

Your expression clearly reads "No."

Sorry. Were you in our seminar class?

Can we so upstairs?

Go ahead.

Hungry?

Do you have something?

Fried rice is easy.

Sounds good.

I'm sure there was a copy of "The Strange and Fantastic."

Really?

Can't forget a title like that.

Here it is.

It's the new sequel.

There should be another.

Here's one.

It's a sequel too.

Another.

Here it is.

- This is it. - "The Strange and Fantastic."

Which one it is?

I don't know.

How about trying this one?

This movie has not been doctored or staged.

No matter how shocking, it is all true.

To document with truth is the filmmaker's duty.

Really?

Still watching?

The "outlet" segment is not there.

Huh?

It wasn't in any of them.

I'm sure I saw it with Taka.

You weren't dreaming?

No. I remember the other segments.

Why isn't the "outlet" one there?

Maybe it's something only you can't see.

Trying to brush this off?

Yeah.

Come on, listen to me.

I am. You are really cute.

Asakura, about your recent articles...

better change the style some.

They unfold the same way, and sound the same.

OK. I'm off.

Hang in there.

It's me.

Oh...

I went to school today.

I took a look at that bathroom...

Just recently, a student was found there bleeding badly.

Why?

She had a miscarriage.

Your sense of small is something. Could be a police dog.

You're not imagining smells.

You're really smelling something.

Maybe...

You had sex with Yamagishi-san, didn't you?

Huh?

You're sure honest.

He's a good person.

Smarter than Kunisada.

Really?

You don't sound excited. After I set you two up.

You mean he was the person you wanted me to meet?

Yes.

Psychology didn't suit him so he changed to medicine.

He's with the psychiatry department at the university hospital.

Didn't say anything about it.

You didn't ask.

Psychiatry...

His specialty is dissociative identity disorders.

He has a very interesting patient...

who says while in a trance state, "I've unplugged myself from the outlet."

Your brother had spontaneous trances, didn't he?

Spontaneous trances? Is that an illness?

Usually, trances result from consuming drugs or mushrooms.

I know.

Those with spontaneous trances unplug their own consciousness.

They enter a void. Children often do it.

Like fantasizing.

Yes, but in an extremely filtered form.

Because they're running away from reality?

No, it's not about looking back.

They feel superior being part of another world.

And when they unplug... is it like death?

When my patient unplugs himself, he floats outside his body. Like this.

He's the "outlet" patient, isn't it?

That's right.

I ask, "Can you unplug yourself?" and he says, "Yes."

When that happens, it's as if his spirit has been removed.

And after he reconnects himself he becomes normal.

When one unplugs, what's the world like?

They feel free and happy.

But once they return they become fatigued again.

Weren't there times your brother was unplugged?

Perhaps.

Could have been.

I thought he was just feeling bad and depressed.

That's what others think.

Are there people who stay unplugged?

If they feel good. they will.

The trance deepens, then they die.

Not a bad way to die.

Their numbers are growing. They all say, "Unplug."

They don't know each other, but say the same thing.

It's not a disorder. It's a talent.

Hospitalization and medication can't cure them.

Why do you carry this with you?

It's from my brother's apartment.

Always take it with you?

Taka was so unhappy.

He seemed so kind and cheerful.

I guess he really wasn't.

As parents, we were partial to him.

It's all my fault.

Why did he die like that?

Taka.

I want to die. I want to die.

Death is better.

When did Shiro die?

Don't you remember?

No.

Worms got into his heart. Then he hit Father.

Father, what are you doing?

Go away.

Come on, bite me!

Stupid dog.

Oh... That hurts.

Disappear.

Go away.

Yuki...

Are you OK?

Can you stand up?

First of all, you must eat.

Thanks.

I was born to do this.

That's a bit too much.

"Jacobson's Organ"

Am I going crazy?

Are you afraid?

Do you know what a kamidaari is?

What's that?

In Okinawa, before a yuta becomes a shaman...

one undergoes a bad psychic experience.

In Tokyo, you'd be hospitalized.

But the islanders accept it.

For women who become kamidaari, this turmoil is an awakening.

An awakening?

Overcoming great psychic turmoil, a new consciousness emerges.

Not anyone can do it.

It happens even now?

Yes. It is necessary.

Necessary?

Because a shaman is a kind of communal "outlet."

Those who visit shamans are weak, confused, or in trouble.

They need energy. They plug into the shaman, or "outlet."

The shaman processes information passing through those plugs...

then directly cures their ills.

You've done the same thing, Yuki.

Me?

At that role-playing workshop.

How can you marry someone who doesn't even have a Job?

For sure, you'll suffer.

People must give their blessings.

If a marriage is to be recognized.

Family communication is important...

and precious.

You become a member of that family.

When that happens,

everyone will bless the marriage.

You must think about it more.

But when I'm with Ken, I'm so happy.

This statement shows that the younger daughter is being isolated.

The grandfather is about to...

give his blessings.

OK. let's try this one more time.

Where the grandfather agrees to the marriage.

Let's start.

What do you think, Grandpa?

It's fine with me.

This is an agreement between a grown-up woman and man.

They seem stable.

Grandpa, you're too easy on her.

That's not so.

This is a lifetime decision. You have to he firmer.

It'll be OK.

She and Grandpa are close.

Because he's sweet to her.

They even took baths together...

Until the end of middle school!

So did you.

That's creepy.

Isn't that too much?

I sat on Grandpa's knee and he washed me.

That's right.

At that time, you were totally tuned in.

Totally.

I did just what I was taught.

I touched her and she calmed down. The most basic of the basics.

Maybe...

I know why Professor Kunisada was crazy about you.

You had something he sought but could never have.

What ever happened to Yoshioka-san?

I wonder...

You two were close.

But at that time, I couldn't reach out to her.

I just froze. I can't forget that.

I couldn't even help a friend at a time like that.

But you could, in a single moment.

If that were true, I wouldn't he like this now.

Don't think so realistically.

Everything you feel has some meaning.

Why are you crying?

Sleeping with you, I remember lots of things I'd forgotten.

Like what?

Why do you act like that?

Like what?

As if you don't care about anyone.

I'm told that often.

Asakura...

You're...

What?

What?

Those "outlet" people, do you know why they unplug themselves?

No.

Because their sensitivity level is too high.

Every day our brains catch about 20% of what we see and hear.

The "outlet" people catch 100% and don't forget any of it.

If they're not careful they overload, then breakdown and must unplug.

It's a form of self-defense.

You must stand firm.

Be confident. You're strong.

I came to visit Daisuke Kimura. What room is he in?

Daisuke Kimura? Back to the right in Room 156.

Room 156.

Kimura-san is by the pond.

The pond?

Yes. Outside and to the right.

OK. Thanks.

When will you be discharged?

Next week sometime.

Look at the scar.

No thanks.

It's really something.

Instead, breathe out.

You're OK.

I was being selfish then.

Thought that if I didn't catch you you'd run away. So, I said "Marriage."

And you got mad.

Not mad... but confused.

You?

You said I was so unbalanced. I began wondering why.

I thought I was doing fine as an adult.

You are. You're strong.

You saved me.

Are you seeing someone now?

More than seeing, relying on him.

What's he like?

A psychiatrist. An upperclassman, from college.

A psychiatrist. That might be good.

But you were the only person I considered a friend.

Thanks.

Only you I'd call in the middle of the night to have a drink with.

Your criteria for a friendship?

Right. Is that bad?

That's enough.

I have to get going.

OK. See you.

I forgot. That nurse with the mole seems interested in you...

Bye.

I thought you were single.

Even if I go out at night he doesn't mind.

I'll take the strawberry one.

You saved my neck, barely.

You mean your job?

Yeah.

Are stocks interesting?

More than interesting, they're strange.

The market is run by men, but is emotional like a woman.

Slightly stimulated, it blows up. Yet it can predict the future.

And it triggers synchronicity on a world scale.

Economics is really occult.

Tell that to Kunisada. He'll cry.

His favorite student living by totally different ideas.

Let's eat.

Welcome home.

I'm back.

You came?

My husband.

Don't worry about it. I said it was OK.

He's always been a fan of yours.

It's really something.

He said he'd get you someday and after 10 years he has.

I don't want to be part of this.

Had I known about the two of you...

You think we're the pits, huh?

I wanted to know about you.

Why?

I wanted to know what sex with you was like.

I'm not a lesbian, so I couldn't actually do it.

He wanted to sleep with you. No one got hurt.

What about me?

Are you hurt?

I feel strange. I probably am hurt.

Both of us like you.

We think about you all day.

Why can't you have a normal relationship?

This is normal.

I don't think so.

The same thing happened long ago.

What are you talking about?

You're doing the same thing. Stop fooling with people's lives.

What do you mean?

I...

When was that? In your senior year? When you were still in psychology.

She was a friend, like you.

Yoshioka-san?

Kyoko Yoshioka?

You know her?

Don't tell Yuki.

She killed herself.

During a workshop, Kyoko suddenly went mad.

After that, she manipulated Kyoko who went mad again.

So what does Ritsuko do?

Nothing. Just called the police.

Poor Kyoko. She was committed.

You can't cure anyone. Understand?

That's why you quit psychology.

This is getting depressing.

How about going to a Korean barbecue?

No.

Let's have some grilled meat.

Go then.

How about it?

Don't touch me.

I don't need you. I can cure myself.

Ritsuko.

Don't you get it? You're the "outlet."

Say it. Yuki. Say, "I want to kill my family."

You don't like your family. Your stupid father.

Your dense mother. Your weak and timid brother.

It'd be better if they all died.

Say it.

No.

Say "It'd be better if they all die..."

"I don't need a family. Die."

Say it.

"A brother like mine should die." That was your wish.

Say it. It's easy. Then you'll be happier.

Yuki!

Come here.

Listen to me.

Yuki, I'll take your place. I'll die instead.

No. You can't.

Taka!

Taka, you can't die!

What happened?

Come in.

Are you awake?

You can't move for a while because of all the sedatives.

What happened?

You ran out onto the street, climbed up a jungle-gym in the park.

Then took off all your clothes...

and jumped off naked in front of onlookers.

Sudden delirium.

Ouch.

What's so funny?

Why naked?

My mother...

took my brother and me to the train crossing, to die.

When?

A long time ago.

My brother tried to jump in by himself.

He knew what my mother was planning to do.

And felt he should take the responsibility himself.

I'd forgotten.

He was so kind.

Don't think about anything. Just rest.

I want to see Ritsuko.

Are you awake?

Yoshioka-san didn't go mad.

She was swept up by the speed of things around her.

She was afraid she'd crash.

It's not your fault she died.

She was grateful to you. Only you understood her.

As soon as she left the hospital, I wanted to see her.

But I couldn't.

She said she was going on a trip.

She'd meet me when she returned. Then I hung up.

That was the last time we talked together.

Ritsuko...

come here.

What shall I do? Tell me.

You know. Only you can cure yourself.

You have enough strength.

I know. But I thought...

I can't do it now.

Yes you can.

I really like you.

How do you feel today?

My mind and body are fine.

There's nothing better.

Sensei...

I was thinking that today'd be our last session.

Why?

It's not necessary anymore.

Why is that?

Sensei...

Yes.

You really loved your mother.

You suckled my breasts imagining they were your mother's.

What are you talking about?

That's why we couldn't have sex.

Your mother died when you were little, leaving you all alone.

It has nothing to do with that.

Be quiet. People can hear.

What are you doing?

Take my breasts.

Stop it, Yuki.

It's all right.

Stop it.

It's all right, all right.

Mama. Mama.

Now you can do it.

Deeper. See as much as you want to see. Then return.

Sensei.

This time it's really goodbye.

What happened?

I smelled something.

You've changed.

Really?

You seem happier.

You mean I wasn't before?

Don't you remember?

No. I forget things right away.

Probably because they're not important.

Things that needn't be remembered are forgotten.

I've finally gotten this far.

From now on, we can meet anytime.

Yuki MIWAKO ICHIKAWA

Kimura JUN MURAKAMI

Ritsuko MIHO TSUMIKI