Original subtitles

HENRY LAUGHS WHEN I SNEEZE.

HE THINKS IT'S HILARIOUS.

HE'S STARTING TO DEVELOP A PERSONALITY.

AND I STARTED THINKING, YOU KNOW,

HOW I'M RESPONSIBLE FOR THE PERSON HE GROWS UP TO BE,

WHETHER HE'S GONNA BE EMPATHETIC OR BRAVE OR...

THOUGHTFUL.

AND THEN I REMEMBER HOW SO MANY OF THESE THINGS

MIGHT ALREADY BE DECIDED, INSCRIBED ON HIS D.N.A.

YOU THINK NATURE TRUMPS NURTURE?

I'M COMING.

HEY, BUDDY.

I MISSED YOU. HOW WAS HE?

HE WAS GREAT.

HOW ARE YOU?

I'M GREAT.

WOW. TWO GREATS.

HEY, DO YOU THINK THE NANNY WOULD STAY LATE TONIGHT?

UH, PROBABLY. WHAT FOR?

SO YOU CAN GO TO DINNER WITH ME.

IS THAT YOUR ALTERNATIVE THERAPY?

YES. NO.

COME ON. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?

I--YOU ARE NOT TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY.

I TAKE DINNER VERY SERIOUSLY.

OUR PROBLEM IS NOT A LACK OF DATE NIGHTS.

OUR PROBLEM IS THAT WE NEED TO LEARN HOW TO COMMUNICATE AGAIN.

"AGAIN" BEING THE OPERATIVE WORD HERE.

WE DON'T NEED A REFEREE TO HELP US GET OUR MOJO BACK.

WHAT IF WE JUST TRY TO...

ENJOY EACH OTHER'S COMPANY AND LAUGH

AND REMEMBER THAT WE LOVE EACH OTHER?

CAN'T THAT BE A WAY THAT WE BECOME US AGAIN?

COME ON.

I AM EVEN WILLING...

TO GO TO THAT THAI RESTAURANT THAT YOU LOVE.

YOU HATE THAT.

AND YET, I'M OFFERING TO GO.

THAT SHOULD TELL YOU SOMETHING.

I'LL THINK ABOUT IT.

I'LL PICK YOU UP 00.

NO, I--IT'S JUST THAT KEISHA CAN'T GET HERE EARLY,

AND I COULDN'T GET IN TOUCH WITH THE BACKUP NANNY.

AND I THOUGHT SINCE YOUR COMPANY BROUGHT ME BOTH OF THEM,

THAT YOU MIGHT...

OKAY. WELL, DO YOU HAVE ANY OTHER NANNIES THAT ARE...

REALLY AMAZING AND SUPER TRUSTWORTHY

THAT CAN GET HERE RIGHT NOW, LIKE, IN THE NEXT TEN MINUTES?

I MEAN, CLEARLY, YOU DON'T HAVE THEM

STACKED UP IN THE CLOSET LIKE ROBOTS.

I GET THAT. BUT I JUST THOUGHT...

NO, THANK YOU. OKAY. I'LL FIGURE IT OUT.

THANK YOU. BYE.

EVERYTHING OKAY? NO, NOT REALLY.

IT'S MY FIRST DAY BACK AT WORK.

I GOT PAGED TO THE E.R., MY NANNY'S NOT HERE,

AND I TRIED VIOLET, BUT SHE'S GOT AN EARLY PATIENT.

YOU KNOW WHAT? FORGET THE WALK.

I'M GONNA TAKE A SHOWER. YEAH.

MM. I GOTTA TRY COOPER.

ALL RIGHT. JUST... GIVE HIM TO ME.

REALLY?

YEAH, I'LL TAKE HIM.

ARE YOU SURE, SAM? IT'S FINE. IT'S FINE.

OH, SAM. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.

STOP. HI, BUDDY BOY. OH, GO WITH SAM, HENRY.

HIS BOTTLE'S IN THE FRIDGE, HIS BLANKET'S IN THE DRYER...

I GOT IT. I GOT IT. AND THE NANNY WILL BE HERE IN AN HOUR, TOPS.

I GOT IT. I GOT IT. ALL RIGHT? OKAY. BYE, HENRY. BYE.

SAY BYE-BYE TO MAMA.

BYE-BYE, HENRY.

SAY SEE YOU LATER.

YEAH, SHE HAS A WAY OF DOING THAT, DOESN'T SHE,

GETTING YOU TO AGREE TO DO THINGS

YOU DON'T REALLY WANT TO DO?

YOU GOTTA WATCH OUT FOR THAT.

COME ON, LET'S GO WATCH SOME MOVIES.

HEY, MASE, IT'S GETTING LATE.

YOU SHOULD PROBABLY GET READY FOR SCHOOL.

MASON.

MASON.

I HEARD YOU.

AND YET, YOU'RE NOT MOVING.

THERE'S, LIKE, TEN MINUTES LEFT OF THE SHOW.

I'M NOT GONNA ASK YOU AGAIN.

MASON,

IT'S TIME TO GET DRESSED.

I JUST TOLD HIM THAT.

RIGHT NOW.

YOU SUCK.

WHAT DID YOU SAY TO ME?

DID YOU HEAR THAT?

SURE DID.

I'D PROBABLY SAY SOMETHING ABOUT IT

IF ONLY I WERE ACTUALLY HIS PARENT.

REINA REYES, 26-YEAR-OLD FEMALE.

PRIMIP AT 35 WEEKS.

COMPLAINING OF NAUSEA AND VOMITING.

OKAY, GET HER ON A FETAL MONITOR.

MY BABY--IS HE COMING? ONE, TWO, THREE.

AAH.

ARE YOU HAVING CONTRACTIONS, MRS. REYES?

I-I DON'T KNOW. ANY BLEEDING?

IT HURTS. DID YOUR WATER BREAK?

MNH-MNH.

ANY PAIN WHEN YOU URINATE, FEVERS, CHILLS, BACK PAIN?

NO. LET'S GET A METABOLIC PANEL,

C.B.C., U.A.

THIS BABY NEEDS TO COME.

OKAY, YOU'RE NOT HAVING CONTRACTIONS.

YOU'RE NOT IN LABOR, MRS. REYES.

ARE YOU SURE?

YES, I AM. HAVE YOU EATEN ANYTHING RECENTLY?

UM...

I-I-I DON'T REMEMBER.

MRS. REYES, IF YOU WANT US TO HELP YOU AND YOUR BABY,

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO TELL US THE TRUTH.

DID YOU EAT ANYTHING? DID YOU TAKE ANYTHING?

THEY TOLD ME IF I DRINK IT, THE BABY COMES.

I KEEP DRINKING AND TRYING MORE.

WHAT DID YOU DRINK?

TIA CARINA COCOA.

IT'S A FOLK MEDICINE.

IT'S A CHOCOLATE TABLET YOU DISSOLVE IN HOT MILK.

IT'S PROBABLY LOADED WITH ERGOTAMINES.

CAUSES SMOOTH MUSCLE CONTRACTIONS THAT MIMIC LABOR.

IN LARGE DOSES, CAUSES THIS.

MRS. REYES, WE'RE GONNA HAVE YOU DRINK SOME CHARCOAL

TO HELP ABSORB THE TOXINS.

WE'RE GONNA KEEP YOU ON I.V. FLUIDS,

AND IN A FEW HOURS, YOU SHOULD FEEL BETTER.

CAN I ASK, THOUGH, WHY DID YOU DRINK IT?

THEY'RE DEPORTING ME.

BUT I WANT MY BABY TO STAY HERE.

I WANT MY BABY TO HAVE A LIFE.

SHE TRIED TO SELF-INDUCE?

YEAH. IF HER BABY'S BORN HERE, HE'S A CITIZEN.

THAT WAY, IF SHE'S DEPORTED, HE CAN STAY.

STAY, BUT BE PUT IN THE SYSTEM.

SHE FIGURES, SHE'LL LEAVE HIM SOMEWHERE

HE'LL HAVE A SHOT AT A BETTER LIFE,

AND THAT'S WORTH IT.

I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH IMMIGRATION.

THEY ISSUED A REMOVAL ORDER FOR REINA REYES,

BUT SHE NEVER SHOWED UP ON HER DEPORTATION DATE.

SO THEY WANT TO PUT HER ON A PLANE

BACK TO EL SALVADOR TOMORROW.

WELL, SHE'S NOT GONNA DELIVER BY THEN.

WE COULD INDUCE.

PETE, SHE'S ONLY 35 WEEKS.

AND IT'S NOT MEDICALLY INDICATED.

MOTHERS SCHEDULE DELIVERIES FOR ALL KINDS OF REASONS.

I WORKED WITH AN O.B. WHO WOULD INDUCE

IF IT THREATENED HIS SATURDAY TEE TIME.

WE ARE TALKING ABOUT A BABY

THAT COULD HAVE ANOTHER MONTH INSIDE THE WOMB.

THERE'S A 90% SURVIVAL RATE AT 35 WEEKS.

AND THERE'S A 10% MORTALITY RATE.

AND EVEN IF THE BABY DOES MAKE IT,

WE'RE TALKING ABOUT TIME IN THE INCUBATOR,

SURFACTANTS TO HELP LUNG GROWTH.

IT'S A VERY TOUGH ROAD.

YEAH, BUT, ADDISON, WE'RE TALKING ABOUT A BABY

BORN IN THIS HOSPITAL WITH US TAKING CARE OF HIM.

AND YOU WEIGH THAT AGAINST REINA TAKING HIM TO A PLACE

WHERE IT'S GONNA BE TOUGH TO FIND CLEAN WATER--

BELIEVE ME, I'M NOT ARGUING AGAINST BIRTH MOTHERS

PUTTING THEIR BABIES IN A POSITION

TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE.

THAT'S WHY I HAVE HENRY.

IT'S JUST--IT'S NOT RIGHT THAT WE'RE DISCUSSING

DELIVERING A BABY PREMATURELY

SO THAT HE DOESN'T LIVE IN POVERTY.

IT'S AN AWFUL CHOICE.

IT IS, BUT, ADDISON, I WORKED IN EL SALVADOR,

AND I'M TELLING YOU, IN RURAL AREAS,

THERE IS MINIMAL ACCESS TO HEALTH CARE.

THE INFANT MORTALITY RATE IS TRIPLE OURS.

WHICH IS A TRAGEDY,

BUT THERE'S NOT A LOT WE CAN DO ABOUT THAT HERE.

WE'RE IN THE BUSINESS OF MAKING SICK PEOPLE BETTER

AND DELIVERING BABIES FOR WOMEN WHO ARE READY TO GIVE BIRTH.

NOW RIGHT NOW, REINA DOESN'T FIT IN EITHER BOX.

SO EITHER WE DISCHARGE HER--

OR DELIVER THE BABY RIGHT NOW. DESPITE THE FACT THAT

IT'S CLEARLY NOT WHAT'S BEST FOR THE BABY?

ISN'T THAT REINA'S CALL?

HI.

GOOD TO SEE YOU.

GOOD TO SEE YOU.

HEY, DR. COOPER. HEY.

MEL.

SO MELODY HAS BEEN MISERABLE ALL WEEK.

FIRST IT WAS HER THROAT,

THEN SHE STOPPED EATING, NOW HER EARS HURT.

OKAY, THAT'S A LOT OF SYMPTOMS.

AND WE TRIED THE OVER-THE-COUNTER STUFF,

BUT NOTHING WORKED.

SHE JUST SEEMS TO BE GETTING WORSE. ALL RIGHT.

WELL, MEL, LET'S CHECK YOU OUT.

ALL RIGHT, I'LL, UH, I'LL WAIT HERE.

I DON'T NEED YOU TO COME IN WITH ME, MOM.

I'M NOT A BABY.

YOU KNOW WHAT, PAM?

WHY DON'T I CHECK OUT MEL,

AND IF WE DO NEED YOU, WE'LL COME GET YOU?

HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

TIRED.

HUGE.

WELL, YOUR WEIGHT GAIN IS RIGHT WHERE IT SHOULD BE

FOR THE THIRD TRIMESTER.

ANY PROBLEMS, ANY G.I. OR G.U. COMPLAINTS?

NO, EVERYTHING FEELS NORMAL...

WHICH JUST SEEMS CRUEL.

SHOULD I...

IS THERE ANYTHING I SHOULD BE DOING

TO HELP MY BABY REACH THE OPTIMAL BIRTH WEIGHT...

FOR THE TRANSPLANTS?

WELL, YOU'RE DOING IT.

YOU'RE RESTING. YOU'RE EATING RIGHT.

IF YOU KEEP TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF,

THIS, UH, THIS BABY WILL BE ABLE TO HELP A LOT OF OTHERS.

AND WHEN IT'S TIME FOR ME TO DELIVER?

WELL, MY HOPE IS THAT YOU'LL DELIVER NATURALLY AT TERM,

BUT SOMETIMES WOMEN CARRYING ANENCEPHALIC BABIES

DON'T ALWAYS GET THE SIGNAL FROM THEIR BODIES

TO GO INTO LABOR.

IF THAT HAPPENS, I'LL INDUCE,

ONCE THE BABY IS BORN, I'LL--

I'LL HAVE YOU SIGN THE CONSENT FORMS,

AND THEN THE TRANSPLANT TEAM WILL TAKE OVER.

EVERYBODY AT THE PRACTICE IS LOOKING AT ME NOW, YOU KNOW?

LIKE THEY'RE AFRAID TO SAY ANYTHING TO THE CRAZY LADY

WHO'S CARRYING A BABY WITH NO BRAIN TO TERM.

I'M SURE THEY ALL WANT TO SUPPORT YOU.

MAYBE IF YOU LET THEM KNOW WHAT THE PLAN IS, THAT...

NO.

I JUST...

I CAN'T HANDLE TALKING ABOUT THIS WITH ANYONE BUT YOU.

OKAY?

OKAY.

HEY. HEY.

THANK YOU FOR WATCHING HENRY.

I-I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.

YEAH, NO PROBLEM. WAS HE FUSSY?

NO, IT WAS FINE.

DID HE DO THAT THING WHERE HE STRETCHES

AND HE LOOKS LIKE A RELAXED OLD MAN?

YOU KNOW, HONESTLY, I DIDN'T NOTICE.

YOU DID... OFFER TO WATCH HIM, SAM.

YEAH.

WELL, YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE IF IT WAS JUST GONNA PISS YOU OFF.

SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE.

YOU KNOW YOUR PARENTS ARE JUST LOOKING OUT FOR YOU, RIGHT?

BY FOLLOWING ME EVERYWHERE I GO?

THAT'S WHAT PARENTS ARE SUPPOSED TO DO.

ALL RIGHT. YOUR EARS LOOK GOOD.

YOUR GLANDS ARE OKAY.

OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND SAY "AHH."

AHH.

YOU'RE 10 YEARS OLD.

THAT MEANS THEY GOT, LIKE, EIGHT MORE YEARS TO HASSLE YOU.

ALL RIGHT, NO FEVER, NO SWELLING, NO REDNESS.

IF I DIDN'T KNOW BETTER, I WOULD THINK MAYBE

SOMEBODY WANTS TO DITCH SCHOOL TODAY.

YOU GOT A BIG TEST OR SOMETHING?

HEY.

YOU'VE BEEN COMING TO ME SINCE YOU WERE 2 YEARS OLD.

YOU KNOW YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING.

THEY WON'T LISTEN TO ME, DR. FREEDMAN.

I KEEP TELLING THEM, BUT THEY DON'T BELIEVE ME.

WHAT DON'T THEY BELIEVE?

HEY.

I CAN'T HELP YOU UNLESS YOU TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON.

I'M A BOY.

OF COURSE MELODY'S PARENTS WON'T LISTEN.

WHO WANTS TO HEAR THAT?

LOOK, PARENTING AIN'T EASY, ALL RIGHT? THAT'S THE JOB.

IT'S--IT'S HOW YOU HANDLE IT THAT'S THE ISSUE.

WELL, DENYING MELODY'S FEELINGS ISN'T THE ANSWER.

I MEAN, SHE SAYS SHE'S ALWAYS KNOWN SHE WAS A BOY.

EVEN AS A TODDLER, SHE FELT LIKE

SHE WAS TRAPPED IN A GIRL'S BODY.

SHE USED TO LINE UP TO-- TO GO TO THE BOYS' BATHROOM.

SHE WANTED TO PLAY ON THE BOYS' SPORTS TEAMS.

WELL, ISN'T THAT JUST BEING A TOMBOY?

COULD BE G.I.D. SHE'S 10.

YOU CAN'T DIAGNOSE GENDER IDENTITY DISORDER IN A KID.

HER PREFRONTAL CORTEX ISN'T FULLY DEVELOPED.

WELL, THAT DOESN'T MEAN SHE DOESN'T KNOW HOW SHE FEELS.

NO, BUT IT MIGHT MEAN SHE DOESN'T REALLY UNDERSTAND IT.

LOOK, WHEN MAYA WAS 8, SHE SAID SHE WANTED TO BE A FIREMAN.

SHE GREW OUT OF IT.

AND MELODY PROBABLY WILL, TOO.

AS SOON AS SHE HITS PUBERTY, THE HORMONES WILL KICK IN,

SHE'LL START TO DEVELOP,

AND SHE'LL WANT TO BE AROUND BOYS.

SHE WON'T WANT TO BE ONE.

WELL, IT'S A LITTLE BIT MORE COMPLICATED THAN THAT.

KIDS WITH G.I.D. EXPERIENCE A DISCONNECT BETWEEN

THEIR SEX, WHICH IS ANATOMY, AND THEIR GENDER,

WHICH IS EMOTIONS, BEHAVIORS, AND EVERYTHING ELSE.

AND THE LONGER THEY'RE FORCED TO LIVE WITH THE WRONG GENDER,

THE MORE DAMAGE IS DONE.

AND THE SOONER THEY CAN INTEGRATE THEIR EXTERNAL BODY

WITH THEIR INTERNAL IMAGE OF THEMSELVES,

THE BETTER THEY DO.

YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT MELODY DRESSING UP LIKE A BOY?

FOR A START.

WELL, IT'S ONE THING IF THEY ALLOW HER TO DO THAT AT HOME,

BUT ONCE SHE STEPS FOOT IN SCHOOL,

I MEAN, SHE'S GONNA OPEN HERSELF UP TO RIDICULE,

POSSIBLY BULLYING--

OKAY, SO WE'RE SAYING SHE'S SCREWED EITHER WAY?

I MEAN, SHE LIVES LIKE A BOY

AND SHE RISKS GETTING

THE CRAP KICKED OUT OF HER AT SCHOOL EVERY DAY,

OR SHE LIVES LIKE A GIRL AND HAS TO FACE

THE ANGST AND DEPRESSION OF BEING CAUGHT IN THE WRONG BODY?

WELL, IT'S-- IT'S NOT JUST DEPRESSION.

I MEAN, KIDS WITH TRUE G.I.D. OFTEN HURT THEMSELVES.

THEY CUT THEMSELVES, THEY DO DRUGS,

SUICIDE RATE IS FIVE TIMES THE NATIONAL AVERAGE.

OKAY, WELL, THAT MEANS... YOU HAVE TO TALK TO HER

AND MAKE A DIAGNOSIS.

AND IF IT IS G.I.D.,

WE NEED TO EXPLAIN IT TO THE PARENTS.

WELL, THAT'S ASSUMING THEY'LL LISTEN.

WELL,

I JUST CAN'T HELP THINKING

THAT WHILE I AM OBSESSING OVER WHETHER OR NOT MY NANNY

CAN WORK LONGER HOURS,

THIS MOTHER IS TRYING TO KEEP HER KID ALIVE.

YOU HAVE RICH WHITE LADY GUILT.

YES. NO.

I--COME ON, VIOLET. I HAVE A MIXED-RACE BABY.

I ADOPTED HIM FROM A WOMAN WITH LIMITED OPTIONS.

IT'S NOT LIKE I DON'T GET IT. I KNOW.

BUT IT'S HARD.

YOU HAVE $10,000 WORTH OF BABY CLOTHES IN HENRY'S CLOSET,

AND YOU HAVE NO WAY TO HELP THIS WOMAN WHO'S ACTUALLY DESPERATE.

YES.

AND YOU'RE NOT COMFORTABLE INDUCING?

I DON'T KNOW.

IT'S NOT IDEAL, BUT I MEAN,

THEN NEITHER IS BRINGING THE BABY BACK TO EL SALVADOR.

AND WHEN DID CHARLOTTE SAY IMMIGRATION IS COMING?

UH, THE NEXT 24 HOURS.

OH, I'M SO SORRY.

YEAH.

WELL, YOU CAN ALWAYS TAKE PETE'S STRATEGY

AND DO NOTHING UNTIL IT BLOWS UP IN YOUR FACE.

WHAT BLEW UP IN YOUR FACE?

NOTHING. NOTHING YET.

NO, HE JUST WANTS TO, UH, DO THE WHOLE,

YOU KNOW, "PUT DOWN THE BAGGAGE THING,"

AND, UH, I AM WARY.

OKAY, WHAT EXACTLY DOES THAT MEAN, PUT DOWN THE BAGGAGE?

IT MEANS HE WANTS TO GO TO DINNER INSTEAD OF THERAPY.

ARE THE TWO MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE?

TO HIM THEY ARE.

I--LOOK, I...

I DON'T FEEL LIKE I CAN SAY NO.

I DON'T EVEN WANT TO SAY NO,

I JUST--I WANT US TO WORK,

AND I DON'T THINK THAT WE CAN GET THERE ON OUR OWN ANYMORE

BUT...

BUT MAYBE I CAN USE THE DINNER TO CONVINCE HIM TO...

GO BACK TO THERAPY.

HEY, ANY CHANCE YOU COULD PICK UP MASON AFTER SCHOOL TODAY?

SURE.

I HAVE THIS, UH, PATIENT-- MELODY, 10-YEAR-OLD GIRL

WHO THINKS SHE'S A LITTLE BOY.

VIOLET AND I ARE GONNA GO OVER AND TALK TO THE PARENTS.

I CANNOT IMAGINE DEALING WITH THAT AS A PARENT.

YEAH, WELL, I WOULDN'T KNOW ABOUT THAT.

OH, COME ON, CHARLOTTE. I APOLOGIZED FOR SAYING THAT.

NO, YOU'VE BEEN TALKING TO ME LIKE YOU'VE APOLOGIZED.

YOU'VE BEEN SAYING THE THINGS PEOPLE SAY

AFTER THEY'VE APOLOGIZED.

BUT THE ACTUAL APOLOGY, I NEVER HEARD THAT.

GOD, PLEASE DON'T DO THIS.

MY SON IS BARELY TALKING TO ME.

HE DOESN'T LISTEN TO A WORD I SAY.

HE ONLY RESPONDS TO YOU. I'M A LITTLE PISSED OFF.

THERE'S ONLY CHILD IN OUR FAMILY, COOPER.

SO GROW UP AND GET OVER IT.

I'M WORRIED ABOUT AMELIA.

SHE'S NOT SEEING ME FOR PRENATAL CARE.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF SHE'S GETTING ANY MEDICAL ATTENTION--

I'VE GOT IT COVERED.

OH, SO YOU'RE HER O.B.?

I'VE GOT IT COVERED, ADDISON.

THAT'S IT?

YOU'RE NOT GONNA TELL ME HOW SHE'S DOING PHYSICALLY,

EMOTIONALLY--

I AM NOT DISCUSSING THIS WITH YOU.

OKAY, LOOK, I RESPECT THAT. I DO. I DO.

I MEAN, AMELIA'S MADE IT VERY CLEAR

THAT SHE DOESN'T WANT MY HELP, BUT I JUST--I LOVE HER,

AND I-I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT IF SHE NEEDS ME--

IF YOU WANT TO TELL AMELIA SOMETHING, TELL HER YOURSELF.

I'M NOT GETTING IN THE MIDDLE OF IT.

¿USTED HA VISITADO A SANTA ANA?

HACE MUCHOS ANOS.

HEY.

HEY. HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

FINE. BUT I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME.

REINA WAS JUST TELLING ME ABOUT THE VILLAGE WHERE SHE'S FROM.

I HELPED SET UP A CLINIC IN THAT AREA YEARS AGO.

I KNOW THIS CLINIC, BUT IT'S JUST A BUILDING NOW.

WHEN I WAS LITTLE, THE DOCTORS LEFT,

AND IT WAS HARD FOR US TO GET ANY MEDICINES.

WAIT. WHAT?

I SPENT A YEAR DOWN THERE. WE MADE SO MUCH PROGRESS.

BUT THE CRIME AND THE POVERTY

AND THE HURRICANES--

YOU COULD NOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT THAT.

NO ONE CAN.

IF I COULD MAKE A LIFE FOR MY BABY AT HOME,

I WOULD NOT HAVE COME HERE.

BUT I CAN'T.

NO, I KNOW, REINA,

AND I CAN'T IMAGINE HOW HARD THIS IS FOR YOU, TRULY.

BUT I DO NEED YOU TO UNDERSTAND THE RISKS YOUR BABY WOULD FACE

IF YOU HAD HIM NOW.

I DO. I PROMISE YOU.

BUT I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND THE RISK

IF I DON'T HAVE HIM NOW.

HEY.

YOU ALL RIGHT?

OOH. I AM TRYING SO HARD NOT TO BE ANGRY RIGHT NOW.

UH-OH. ADDISON?

HUH. WHO ELSE?

WHAT NOW?

SHE DROPS BY THIS MORNING,

ASKS ME IF I CAN LOOK AFTER HENRY.

REALLY?

YEAH, MAN.

I MEAN, SHE DIDN'T "ASK ME" ASK ME,

BUT, YOU KNOW, THE NANNY WAS LATE,

SHE COULDN'T FIND ANYBODY ELSE TO COVER.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY, NO?

IT'S JUST LIKE WHEN YOU WERE TOGETHER.

Y--

THAT'S NOT FUNNY, MAN.

I MEAN, I SHOULDN'T EVEN BE AN OPTION, RIGHT?

I'M THE EX.

THAT HENRY IS A CUTE LITTLE BABY, THOUGH.

AND WE CIRCLE BACK.

YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU'RE RIGHT.

SHE WANTED THAT BABY.

SHE SHOULD HANDLE HIM ON HER OWN.

HEY... STOP TRYING TO BE THE BAD GUY.

IT'S NOT REALLY YOU.

HEY.

HEY.

REINA REALLY PUT US ON THE SPOT EARLIER, HUH?

YEAH, WELL, I GET IT.

YOU KNOW, SHE'S A MOTHER ADVOCATING FOR HER CHILD.

OH, IT'S SO FRUSTRATING.

YOU KNOW, WE OPENED A CLINIC NEAR WHERE REINA LIVED

IN SANTA ANA.

WE STAFFED IT, WE TRAINED PEOPLE,

AND IN A REGION THAT'S THAT DEPRIVED,

EVEN THE SLIGHTEST CHANGES MAKE A HUGE DIFFERENCE.

YOU KNOW, A LITTLE ACCESS TO PREVENTATIVE CARE

AND MEDICINE, IT'S... I KNOW.

I LEFT THERE THINKING THAT THE PROBLEM WAS SOLVED.

IS THERE ANY CHANCE THAT REINA WOULD WANT TO STAY HERE,

FIGHT THE DEPORTATION, TRY TO MAKE A LIFE?

I ASKED HER THAT. SHE SAID SHE TRIED.

SHE TRAVELED ALL THE WAY UP THROUGH MEXICO,

SHE SNUCK ACROSS THE BORDER,

IMMEDIATELY APPLIED FOR ASYLUM,

BUT SHE LOST HER HEARING AND HER APPEAL.

SO SHE'S OUT OF OPTIONS.

WHAT IF WE SPONSOR HER,

AND DO WHATEVER IT TAKES, GET HER A JOB?

THAT'S NOT REALLY THE WAY THE PROCESS WORKS.

I JUST... I DON'T KNOW.

IF I INDUCE HER, THEN I'M GONNA FEEL RESPONSIBLE FOR

A WOMAN LEAVING HER BABY.

THIS IS NOT ON YOU, ADDISON.

PHYSICALLY, MELODY IS FINE.

SHE HAS NO INFECTIONS.

HER BLOOD WORK CAME BACK TOTALLY NORMAL.

BUT EMOTIONALLY, I AM A LITTLE CONCERNED,

WHICH IS WHY I ASKED DR. TURNER TO JOIN US.

WE MAY HAVE NOTICED SOME THINGS ABOUT YOUR DAUGHTER

THAT MIGHT BE A LITTLE CONCERNING

OR HARD TO UNDERSTAND--

WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

WE UNDERSTAND HER JUST FINE.

WELL, MELODY FEELS LIKE SHE'S A BOY

TRAPPED IN A GIRL'S BODY.

NOT THAT AGAIN.

NO, MELODY'S ALWAYS LOVED MAKE-BELIEVE.

FROM THE TIME SHE WAS LITTLE, SHE WOULD ALWAYS DO THESE PLAYS

WHERE SHE WAS THE COWBOY, THE COWGIRL, THE HORSE.

SHE'D DRESS UP, DO DIFFERENT VOICES.

I'M NOT SURE IF THIS IS MAKE-BELIEVE.

SH-SHE MAY HAVE SOMETHING CALLED G.I.D.--

GENDER IDENTITY DISORDER.

OR SHE'S JUST CONFUSED, GOING THROUGH A STAGE.

MAYBE. MAYBE.

I-I WON'T REALLY KNOW UNTIL I HAVE A CHANCE TO SPEAK WITH HER

AND TO DO THAT, I NEED YOUR PERMISSION.

WELL, IF SHE DOES HAVE THIS G.I.D...

IS THERE ANYTHING YOU CAN DO TO CURE IT?

WELL, THAT WOULDN'T REALLY BE OUR APPROACH TO THIS.

THERAPY WOULD BE MORE ABOUT HELPING MELODY ADJUST

TO HER NEW REALITY.

AND IN ADDITION TO THERAPY,

THERE ARE HORMONE-BLOCKING DRUGS THAT COULD

STAVE OFF PUBERTY FOR HER

SO THAT SHE WOULD HAVE SOME TIME TO DEAL WITH THESE ISSUES.

WELL, DR. FREEDMAN, THAT--

THIS IS A JOKE, RIGHT?

YOU WANT US TO STOP OUR DAUGHTER FROM GROWING UP

BECAUSE SHE TOLD YOU SOME RIDICULOUS STORY

ABOUT BEING A BOY? I KNOW THIS IS A LOT TO TAKE IN.

I WON'T LISTEN TO ANY MORE OF THIS.

YOU HAVE TO LEAVE RIGHT NOW.

AND STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM OUR DAUGHTER.

A MAN WHO HAS LIVED AND WORKED ALL OVER THE WORLD

HAS EATEN PRACTICALLY EVERYTHING,

AND YET, CANNOT STAND THE ONE THING I ALWAYS CRAVE.

YEAH, WELL, YOU WORK IN A THAI VILLAGE

AND EAT NOTHING BUT MASSAMAN CURRY FOR A MONTH

AND SEE IF YOU STILL LIKE IT.

REMEMBER, WE CAME HERE EVERY OTHER DAY

THE FIRST FEW WEEKS WE WERE TOGETHER?

HOW COULD I FORGET?

WHY DID YOU DO THAT?

BECAUSE I... GOT TO BE WITH YOU.

IT WAS WORTH IT.

WHY ARE YOU DOING IT NOW?

ARE YOU WOOING ME?

WELL, I REALLY DIDN'T GET TO FINISH DOING THAT

THAT FIRST TIME AROUND, DID I?

UH, YEAH, RIGHT.

WELL, LET'S SEE, UM, SEX...

MM-HMM.

BABY, HORRIFIC ATTACK...

PROLONGED ABSENCE DUE TO EMOTIONAL DEVASTATION,

AND THEN, YOU KNOW, MARRIAGE.

MAYBE THAT'S OUR PROBLEM.

OR IT'S JUST OUR WAY.

YOU KNOW, I'M GLAD WE'RE DOING THIS. I AM.

I-I HEARD WHAT YOU SAID IN THERAPY, AND I--AND I GET IT.

WE SHOULD HAVE FUN.

BUT YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND,

WE STILL HAVE WORK TO DO.

RIGHT?

I MISSED THIS.

ME, TOO.

I MISS YOU.

I MISS US.

HEY, YOUR SHOELACE IS UNTIED THERE, BUDDY.

IT'S FINE.

IT'S NOT FINE. YOU'RE GONNA-- YOU'RE GONNA TRIP.

YOU'RE GONNA HURT YOURSELF. MASON, HEY.

COOPER.

I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU'RE UPSET YOUR MOM IS GONE,

I KNOW YOU'RE STRUGGLING WITH A LOT OF FEELINGS,

BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU DON'T HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME.

I'M YOUR FATHER, AND WHEN I TELL YOU TO DO SOMETHING,

I EXPECT YOU TO LISTEN.

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

MASON. LET HIM GO.

HE'S SUCH A LITTLE JERK.

NO, HE IS IN PAIN, AND HE'S TAKING IT OUT ON YOU.

OKAY, CHARLOTTE, PLEASE DON'T LECTURE ME ABOUT CHILDREN, OKAY?

I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH THEM MY ENTIRE CAREER.

OTHER PEOPLE'S CHILDREN, TEN MINUTES AT A TIME,

WHEN THEY NEED YOUR HELP.

THIS IS YOUR KID. IT'S DIFFERENT.

AND NOW YOU'RE THE EXPERT?

I KNOW THAT SOMETIMES KIDS CAN BE A ROYAL PAIN IN THE ASS

AND IT'S THE JOB OF THE PARENT TO LOVE THEM ANYWAY.

YOU'RE NOT GONNA FIX MASON.

ALL YOU CAN DO IS GIVE HIM SOME STRUCTURE AND BE PATIENT,

NO MATTER HOW HARD THAT IS FOR YOU.

HOW'S IT GOING?

FINE.

ARE YOU OKAY?

WHAT'S WRONG?

NOTHING.

I'M FINE.

HEY, PETE. WHERE WERE YOU LAST NIGHT?

YOU CUT OUT EARLY.

DINNER.

BUSINESS OR PLEASURE?

UH, VIOLET.

OH, SO, UH, YOU TWO ARE DOING ALL RIGHT?

I THINK WE'RE BETTER THAN ALL RIGHT.

I THINK MAYBE WE'RE BACK.

WHO'S BACK?

PETE AND VIOLET.

WHAT? HOW'D THAT HAPPEN?

LAST NIGHT WE WENT OUT AND JUST...

LOOK, THERE'S A TIME TO TALK AND THERE'S A TIME TO...

NOT TALK.

ENOUGH SAID.

YEAH, BUT THIS IS VIOLET, THOUGH. SHE'S ALL ABOUT TALK.

SOMETIMES.

ALL RIGHT, LOOK, I'M--I'M NOT ROOTING AGAINST YOU,

AND I HOPE THAT YOU GET EVERYTHING OUT OF THIS

THAT YOU WANT, BUT IN MY EXPERIENCE,

YOU KNOW, YOU CAN USE SEX TO GET BACK,

BUT ONCE YOU'RE THERE, YOU END UP HAVING THE SAME PROBLEMS

YOU LEFT BEHIND THE FIRST TIME.

YOU'RE JUST BITTER 'CAUSE YOU WOUND UP

WATCHING ADDISON'S BABY.

WHAT? REALLY?

I HAD NO CHOICE.

LOOK, YOU TWO ARE BIG BOYS,

YOU CAN MAKE YOUR OWN DECISIONS, BUT ME,

I NEVER GO BACK TO THE SAME WELL TWICE.

IMMIGRATION CAME TO THE HOSPITAL FOR HER?

THEY HAVE A REMOVAL ORDER AND WANT TO TAKE HER RIGHT NOW.

SAID THEY HAVE THEIR OWN MEDICAL FACILITY

AND CAN HANDLE EVERYTHING.

CHARLOTTE--

I AM REPEATING NOT AGREEING.

ADDISON, YOU KNOW THE OFFICIAL POSITION OF THIS HOSPITAL

IS THAT YOU CAN'T INDUCE A WOMAN EARLY

WITHOUT MEDICAL INDICATION.

I KNOW. I KNOW. WHAT'S YOUR POSITION?

I THINK THAT NO MATTER WHAT OUR LAWYERS,

OR THOSE AGENTS, OR ANYONE ELSE SAYS,

YOU ARE HER DOCTOR.

REINA, I'M GOING TO BREAK YOUR WATER.

AND THEN I'M GONNA PUT YOU ON AN OXYTOCIN I.V.

THAT WILL START YOUR LABOR.

IT MAY TAKE A COUPLE OF HOURS,

BUT BY THE END OF THE DAY, YOUR SON WILL BE BORN.

YOU READY?

I'M READY.

HE KICKED.

MY BABY, HE, UM, HE KICKED LIKE ANY OTHER BABY,

LIKE A NORMAL BABY.

UH, MAYBE--MAYBE WE SHOULD DO SOME MORE TESTS

OR, UH, A SECOND ULTRASOUND?

WHY DON'T YOU, UH, WHY DON'T YOU HAVE A SEAT?

DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT. I KNOW WHAT I FELT.

MY BABY...

OH, MY GOD.

I AM A CRAZY PERSON.

I'M A NEUROSURGEON. I KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON.

IT JUST FELT SO REAL.

IT IS REAL.

YOUR BABY IS REAL.

I'VE BEEN FOCUSING SO HARD ON THE END GOAL,

I JUST--I HAVEN'T...

STOPPED TO THINK ABOUT WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE...

WHAT IT WOULD FEEL LIKE WHEN HE STARTED MOVING INSIDE ME.

DO YOU FEEL THAT?

YES.

I DO.

THAT'S MY SON.

HOW DID SHE GET HERE?

SHE TOOK THE BUS.

AND HER PARENTS?

THEY THINK SHE'S AT SCHOOL.

WE NEED TO CALL THEM.

I KNOW.

WHAT IF WE WAITED A LITTLE WHILE BEFORE WE CALLED 'EM?

COOPER.

IT WOULD GIVE YOU A CHANCE TO BE WITH MEL ALONE,

MAKE A REAL DIAGNOSIS.

I NEED HER PARENTS' PERMISSION.

WELL, YOU'RE NOT GONNA GET IT, VIOLET.

I MEAN, YOU WERE THERE.

THEY WON'T BELIEVE US OR HER.

WELL, TALKING TO MELODY BEHIND THEIR BACKS

IS ONLY GONNA ADDRESS HALF THE PROBLEM,

AND IT MIGHT MAKE THINGS MORE DIFFICULT FOR MELODY AT HOME.

WELL, IT'S BETTER THAN NOTHING.

MELODY IS NOT MASON.

WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?

I THINK YOU ARE FRUSTRATED THAT YOU CAN'T HELP MASON

WITH HIS GRIEVING,

AND SO YOU'RE PUSHING TOO HARD TO SAVE MELODY.

COME ON. HORMONE-BLOCKING DRUGS?

IT'S A REAL OPTION. IT'S WAY DOWN THE LINE, COOPER,

AND IT'S NOT THE FIRST THING YOU SAY

TO TWO TERRIFIED PARENTS WHO ARE AFRAID TO ADMIT

THAT THEIR DAUGHTER--

OKAY, I GET THAT, VIOLET, BUT THESE PEOPLE

HAVE TURNED THEIR BACKS ON THEIR DAUGHTER,

AND THE MORE THEY IGNORE HOW SHE FEELS,

THE MORE SHE'S GONNA WITHDRAW.

WE NEED TO DO SOMETHING.

MY MOM AND DAD WERE FIGHTING ABOUT ME LAST NIGHT.

HE SAID HE WANTED TO KNOW ABOUT THE PILLS THAT COULD HELP ME.

BUT SHE WOULDN'T LISTEN.

THEN SHE STARTED YELLING.

SO IF I TAKE THE PILLS,

WILL I BECOME A BOY?

WELL, IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE, MEL.

THE DRUGS WON'T TURN YOU INTO ANYTHING.

BUT THEY WILL STOP YOU FROM MATURING INTO A WOMAN

UNTIL YOU DECIDE WHO YOU ARE.

I KNOW WHO I AM.

I-I KNOW YOU THINK YOU DO,

BUT SOMETIMES, THINGS CAN BE CONFUSING.

I'M NOT CONFUSED.

DURING THE DAY, I HAVE TO BE A GIRL.

BUT AT NIGHT,

WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES AND I DREAM...

I'M A BOY...

DOING BOY THINGS.

AND THEN WHEN I WAKE UP,

FOR A SECOND, I'M STILL A BOY.

BUT THEN MY MOM COMES IN

AND LAYS OUT CLOTHES FOR THE DAY.

IT'S USUALLY A DRESS OR GLITTERY SHOES.

IT'S ALWAYS THE SAME.

I REFUSE TO WEAR IT,

SHE GETS MAD,

AND WE FIGHT, AND I LOSE TV.

SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND HOW IT MAKES ME FEEL.

HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL?

WEARING GIRL CLOTHES,

ACTING LIKE A GIRL AT SCHOOL...

I HATE IT.

IT'S LIKE...

I'M PRETENDING ALL THE TIME

AND I CAN'T STOP.

NO ONE WILL LET ME.

IT'S OKAY TO CRY, MELODY.

EVEN BOYS CRY SOMETIMES.

I'M SORRY. ARE WE INTERRUPTING?

UH, COULD YOU JUST GIVE US A SECOND?

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?

NOTHING. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?

MY MOM DIED.

I'M A BOY AND NOBODY BELIEVES ME.

YOU WANT TO COME PLAY?

HEY. DO YOU HAVE A SECOND?

I HAVE A DELIVERY. CAN IT WAIT?

OH, YEAH, YEAH. IT'S NOTHING REALLY.

I JUST... YEAH, IT'S-- IT'S NOTHING.

ALL RIGHT. OUT WITH IT.

UH, I THINK PETE AND I, WE DID A BAD THING.

A BAD THING LIKE?

WE HAD SEX.

OOH, THAT'S AN INTERESTING WAY

OF CONVINCING HIM TO GO BACK TO THERAPY.

NO, I KNOW, BUT, YOU KNOW, MAYBE IT'S A START.

A START TOWARD?

TRYING TO FIX THINGS PETE'S WAY.

ACTING FROM WHAT I FEEL INSTEAD OF WHAT I THINK.

CAN YOU DO THAT?

I CAN TRY.

SHOULD YOU DO THAT?

MAYBE NOT.

I DID SAY IT WAS A BAD THING, DIDN'T I?

OH.

IT'S SO MUCH EASIER TELLING OTHER PEOPLE

WHAT TO DO WITH THEIR LIVES.

SHE'S DILATED, PLUS-2 STATION.

I JUST NEED A BIG PUSH.

I'M TRYING.

YOU'RE DOING GREAT. JUST BEAR DOWN.

COME ON.

OKAY, I'VE GOT THE HEAD. ALMOST THERE.

IS HE HERE?

HE'S HERE.

IS HE OKAY? IS EVERYTHING OKAY?

HE'S FINE.

HE'S A HEALTHY, BEAUTIFUL BOY.

HE'S AMAZING.

YOU WANT TO HOLD HIM?

FOR AS LONG AS I CAN.

TE QUIERO, CIELITO.

EVERYTHING OKAY?

GREAT.

THE IMMIGRATION GUY IS STILL HANGING AROUND?

YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE SHE'S READY TO BE MOVED YET, DO YOU?

NOT TODAY.

I'LL LET HIM KNOW.

THANK YOU.

I'M GONNA GIVE YOU TWO SOME TIME.

THANK YOU SO MUCH, DR. MONTGOMERY.

REINA, ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO LEAVE HIM HERE?

I MEAN--

AT HOME, I HAVE NO ONE.

MY PARENTS ARE DEAD,

AND MY BROTHER, HE LEFT HOME A LONG TIME AGO.

AND THE BABY'S FATHER IS...

HE DISAPPEARED.

IF I COULD GO BACK...

I LOVE MY BABY, BUT...

I WOULD DO MY LIFE DIFFERENTLY.

BUT THAT IS NOT POSSIBLE,

SO... FOR ME, NO LOOKING BACK.

HEY.

YES!

DOES MELODY KNOW YOU CALLED HER PARENTS?

I COULDN'T BRING MYSELF TO TELL HER.

COOPER.

I DIDN'T WANT TO RISK HER RUNNING AWAY AGAIN.

NO! SO CLOSE.

OKAY, SHOWTIME.

A SECOND CHANCE. FINE.

WE'RE HERE TO SEE DR. FREEDMAN.

HI.

WHERE IS SHE?

SHE'S, UH, PLAYING.

SHE'S OKAY?

SHE'S FINE. SHE'S FINE.

GOOD, BECAUSE SHE AND I ARE GONNA HAVE A LITTLE TALK.

Y-YOU KNOW, YOU CANNOT BERATE YOUR DAUGHTER INTO

CHANGING HER MIND.

THE ONLY THING YOU CAN DO IS SUPPORT HER

AND HELP HER NAVIGATE THESE FEELINGS.

SHE'S JUST A CHILD.

WHO FEELS THAT SHE'S TRAPPED IN THE WRONG BODY.

AND I KNOW THAT SOUNDS CRAZY TO YOU,

BUT I HAVE SPOKEN TO HER,

AND SHE--WELL, SHE CAME TO US FOR HELP, AND I--

AND I COULDN'T NOT TALK TO HER.

I JUST--I JUST COULDN'T. BUT THE IMPORTANT THING IS,

NOW I BELIEVE THAT-- THAT SHE'S NOT CONFUSED

AND THAT SHE'S NOT IMAGINING THIS.

WELL, WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO?

DON'T ENCOURAGE THEM MICHAEL.

WELL, WHAT IF THEY'RE RIGHT?

WE NEED TO HELP HER.

I DON'T HAVE TO LISTEN TO THIS ANYMORE.

WHERE IS SHE?

SHE'S IN HERE.

MEL.

MELODY, WE'RE GOING HOME.

BUT I-I-I DON'T WANT TO.

I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU WANT.

DON'T YELL AT HER.

UH, MASE.

WHO IS THIS?

TH-THIS IS MY SON. AND HE'S RIGHT.

NOTHING'S GONNA BE SOLVED BY YELLING.

DAD, DO SOMETHING.

COME ON!

PAM, PAM, PAM.

OW!

I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU'RE ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED AND SCARED.

MELODY IS NOT HAPPY, AND YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP HER.

BUT WE DO. WE CAN HELP, OKAY?

WE DON'T HAVE TO LISTEN TO YOU.

NO, YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO MELODY.

YOUR JOB IS TO PROTECT HER

AND LOVE HER AND HELP HER, NO MATTER WHAT.

BUT FIRST...

YOU HAVE TO TRY TO UNDERSTAND HER.

DON'T YOU TELL ME HOW TO RAISE MY DAUGHTER.

YOU'RE HURTING ME!

PAM.

THIS IS MY LITTLE GIRL.

DO YOU HEAR ME? SHE'S MY LITTLE GIRL!

DON'T CRY, MOMMY.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS ALONE.

WE CAN HELP YOU TWO UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON WITH MELODY

AND--AND HELP HER TRANSITION TO BE THE PERSON

THAT SHE IS INSIDE.

SHE'S RIGHT.

SHE'S RIGHT.

VIOLET, OH, I HAVE AN AMAZING IDEA.

A-ACT-ACTUALLY, I--

NO, NO, NO. REMEMBER THAT PLACE IN CARMEL THAT YOU LOVE

WITH THE CABINS?

LET'S DRIVE UP THERE WITH LUCAS THIS WEEKEND.

JUST THE THREE OF US. WE WOULD LOVE IT--

PETE, NO, NO, PETE, PETE-- WE COULD SPEND SOME TIME TOGETHER--

NO, WE'RE-- WE'RE NOT GONNA DO THAT.

I MEAN, WHAT WE'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO HERE,

THIS WHOLE "PUT DOWN THE BAGGAGE

AND HAVE FUN AND BE US AGAIN," IT'S--

IT'S--IT'S SEDUCTIVE

AND I CAN'T SAY I HAVEN'T...

I HAVEN'T LOVED IT.

BUT GOING FORWARD, IT'S NOT GONNA BE ENOUGH.

YOU KNOW, HAVING SEX AND TALKING ABOUT STARTING OVER,

IT'S JUST NOT GONNA BE-- IT'S NOT GONNA FIX

WHATEVER'S FUNDAMENTALLY WRONG WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP.

VIOLET, WHY DO WE HAVE TO KEEP LOOKING BACK?

CAN'T WE JUST DEAL WITH THE NOW?

BECAUSE WE DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT HAPPENED... PETE.

WE--WE HAVE TO GO BACK AND FIGURE THAT OUT.

AND WE HAD JUST STARTED TO SCRATCH THE SURFACE

AND...

YOU NEED TO DO THE WORK.

WE...

WE NEED TO DO THE WORK.

I THOUGHT YOU UNDERSTOOD.

I DO. I DO UNDERSTAND.

AND IF YOU WERE TO TELL ME THAT YOU WANTED TO LEAVE YOUR BABY

BECAUSE YOU WEREN'T EMOTIONALLY PREPARED TO RAISE HIM,

I WOULD BE THE FIRST ONE

SAYING THAT YOU'RE DOING THE RIGHT THING,

BUT YOU DO WANT TO RAISE HIM.

AND EVEN THOUGH I ADMIRE

YOUR WILLINGNESS TO SACRIFICE SO THAT

HE HAS A BETTER CHANCE AT LIFE THAN YOU HAD,

I JUST--I FEEL LIKE THERE HAS TO BE

A BETTER WAY.

THERE IS NO OTHER WAY.

WHAT--WHAT IF YOU WENT BACK TEMPORARILY,

AND THEN YOU REAPPLIED FOR--

IT WOULD TAKE YEARS IF IT EVER HAPPENED.

WHAT IF I WENT WITH YOU?

WHAT? PETE.

I--I'VE SPENT TIME THERE. I KNOW MY WAY AROUND.

I COULD HELP YOU AND THE BABY GET SETTLED, MAKE A LIFE.

IT WOULD...

HOW COULD YOU DO THAT?

YOU HAVE A FAMILY

AND YOUR LIFE IS HERE.

WELL, THERE'S NO OTHER WAY, IS THERE?

HI. HEY.

WHAT'S GOING ON?

UM, I'M...

I'M GONNA LEAVE FOR A WHILE.

WHAT?

WH-WHERE ARE YOU GOING?

EL SALVADOR. THERE'S A CLINIC THERE I USED TO WORK--

WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

I WANT TO FIX IT. I-I FEEL LIKE--

YOU SHOULD FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO FIX RIGHT HERE--

US, OUR MARRIAGE.

I'M STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU, PETE.

YOUR SON IS SLEEPING RIGHT UPSTAIRS.

YOU CAN'T JUST RUN AWAY.

PLEASE.

PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS.

HEY, HEY, AMELIA.

LOOK, I KNOW YOU HATE ME,

BUT... THIS ISN'T THE END OF THE ROAD FOR US.

WE'RE FAMILY AND WE ALWAYS WILL BE. I JUST...

I JUST NEED YOU TO KNOW, I THINK...

YOU'RE AMAZING.

YOU'RE STRONGER THAN I COULD EVER BE.

I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU'RE GETTING THROUGH THIS.

AND I'M HERE FOR YOU FOR WHATEVER YOU NEED,

EVEN IF WHAT YOU NEED IS SOMEONE TO HATE.

DR. MONTGOMERY, WE NEED YOU RIGHT AWAY.

WHAT HAPPENED?

I CAME IN TO TAKE REINA AND THE BABY BACK TO THE ROOM,

BUT THEY WERE GONE.

WE SEARCHED THE WHOLE WARD, BUT...

IF SHE CUT OFF THE TAGS OR TRIED TO TAKE HIM OUT,

THE ALARMS WOULD'VE SOUNDED, AND THERE'S NOTHING.

WELL, SHE'S NOT STEALING. IT'S HER BABY.

BUT SHE SHOULDN'T BE LEAVING YET, SHOULD SHE?

SHE'S THE MOTHER.

IT'S HER CHOICE.

DOCTOR, QUINT'S MAP.

HOW DID YOU COME BY IT, LAD?

WHY HE GAVE IT TO ME, SIR, WHEN HE SENT ME FOR HELP.

HE SAID THAT WE'D SHARE.

SHARE WHAT?

YOU DON'T KNOW? PIRATE TREASURE, MAN.

IT'S GOLD.

HEY, FELLAS.

HEY. HI.

YOU WANT TO JOIN US?

IT'S OKAY. YOU TWO LOOK COMFORTABLE.

COME ON. COME WATCH.

WELL, ALL RIGHT THEN.

MASTER ROLAND, YOU'RE A TRUMP, YOUNG HAWKINS.

MARK MY WORDS, YOU WILL SHARE.

I REALLY AM SORRY.

I KNOW.

HEY, GUYS. SORRY I'M A LITTLE LATE.

HOPE I DIDN'T MISS BATH TIME.

KEISHA?

HENRY?

HELLO.

YOU GUYS UPSTAIRS?

ARE YOU UP THERE?

KEISHA?

KEISHA.

OH.

HI, SWEETIE.

HEY.

THERE WE GO. MAMA'S HERE.

HEY.

THERE'S MAMA. HI, LITTLE ONE.

YEAH.

YOUR NANNY CUT OUT EARLY, SO...

AHH.

YOU NEED TO FIND BETTER CHILD CARE.

THANK YOU.

YEAH.

THANK YOU.

DO YOU HAVE THOSE CONSENT FORMS?

YES.

CAN I SIGN THEM NOW?

YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT YET.

I WANT TO SIGN THEM NOW.

IF YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND,

IF YOU WANT TO... JUST HOLD HIM FOR WHATEVER TIME HE HAS

AND FORGET THE REST, YOU CAN DO THAT.

YOU CAN WAIT UNTIL HE'S BORN TO DECIDE.

I CAN'T WAIT.

ONCE HE'S BORN...

I'M WORRIED I WON'T BE STRONG ENOUGH.

I'M A SCIENTIST.

I KNOW THERE ARE MORE THAN 20,000 GENES

IN THE HUMAN GENOME.

EVERYTHING FROM HAIR COLOR

TO THE LIKELIHOOD OF GETTING CERTAIN KINDS OF CANCERS,

THE GENES THAT ARE RESPONSIBLE

FOR THE DEVELOPMENT OF YOUR BRAIN--

THEY'RE ALL IN THERE.

BUT I KNOW...

NURTURE BEATS NATURE.

BECAUSE HENRY LOOKS AT ME WITH LOVE.

I'M HIS MOM, AND HE KNOWS IT.

AND NO PROTEIN CODE IN HIS BRAIN TOLD HIM TO THINK THAT.