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Beg me.

Speak more clearly. l can't understand you.

Fuck me.

Please fuck me.

l'm gonna give you a minute to think about...

...how badly you want me to fuck you.

-l don't know what to tell you. -Try to convince him.

l've spoken to your father's physician in Philadelphia.

He tells me your father is adamant.

l think that he's very aware...

...that it would be an uphill battle with little hope of recovery.

l'm sorry.

Hey, how is he?

He has advanced prostate cancer, and he's refusing any treatment.

Oh, my God. l'm so sorry. l'm so, so sorry.

Look, it's gonna be all right, okay?

lt's okay. We're gonna get through this.

Where's Kit?

She's in the room...

...but she has to leave to go to the Planet to get ready for tomorrow.

l forgot, tomorrow's the parade.

She thinks he's right to refuse treatment.

Maybe she's just trying to support his decision.

That's it. He cannot make a decision right now.

l mean, you should see him. He's not himself.

-He's so sick. -Come on.

Come on. There you go.

Hey.

Easy, easy. Easy, easy.

Okay, okay. Let me help with the feet.

Hello, Melvin.

Take those home.

You can put flowers on my grave.

Aren't you gonna say hello to Tina, Daddy?

Hello, Ms. Kennard.

-How are you feeling? -How do you think l'm feeling?

Daddy, did you see how pregnant Tina is?

Would you like to feel the baby?

That would be highly inappropriate.

Hi. Me right here.

I would mak e out with--

--can sometimes be a little sexy.

I'm not scary, they're stupid.

That's right, and stupid, Shane.

Let me ask you this question..

What are you looking for in a woman?

What are you looking for?

Jen?

Hi.

What are you doing?

l just keep on having these nightmares...

...and l'm just trying to work it all out.

Well, can we talk for a second?

Yeah.

This is my home, Jenny.

And l don't know, it's....

For the first time, l actually have a room of my own.

That's a huge thing for me.

And l'm sorry.

l am. l'm sorry about what you saw on that tape.

But l like living with you.

l love it. l think we have a great time.

Right?

l just-- l don't--

l just don't wanna lose it.

Yeah.

What are you gonna do about Carmen?

Nothing.

l think the two of you should be together.

What about you?

l think....

l think that it was a very important step for me...

...and now l'm on to other things.

-That why you're pushing us together? -No.

Because you're great together.

l wanna show you something.

Come on.

I'm looking for a good time.

Come on.

-Really? -Yeah.

Why do you ask as if I'm not?

Because I just want you to be truthful.

I am.

Okay.

What are you looking for?

Mark here, answering the question, ''What are you looking for?''

A little love. Happiness.

-And a little Al Green. -Most definitely a little Al Green.

No, really.

-What? -What are you looking for?

You're not scary.

And Carmen is not gonna get herself involved...

...with something that she can't handle, okay?

l love you.

Camille, l told you not to fall in love with me.

No, no. This is me talking.

l love you, Dana.

-Who is that? -l don't know.

-lt's Howie. -What?

What's he doing here?

Hey. Hey, is that you guys?

l can hear you.

-Take that. -Okay, yeah.

-Hey. -Howie.

Big sis. Good to see you.

-Yeah. -Oh, Alice.

-Nice outfit. -l'm cleaning.

-How'd you find me, How? -Are you kidding?

Mom and Dad love to talk about how you gave up your future with Tonya...

...for a dead-end relationship with her.

Sorry.

You seem far away.

l'm not.

l'm just thinking about Melvin.

l thought that might be the case.

l don't know what Bette's gonna do without him.

Tina, l don't mean to sound harsh...

...but that's not really any of your concern anymore, is it?

Bette's still my family.

Yes.

l'm reminded of that often enough.

-Can l take your plates? -Sure.

And can we see the dessert menu, please?

l'll bring it right over.

l wanna see other people.

You mean you want to see Bette.

Tina, it's fine.

lt's not as if we're exclusive.

You haven't dropped a bombshell. l mean, l just feel bad...

...that you were under the impression things were otherwise.

-Here you go. -Thank you.

Did you run away?

No, no, Mom and Dad were just way up in my grill.

-So l needed some space. -So you came here?

l thought it would be fun to surprise you guys.

-Calling's fun too. -Or an e-mail's fun.

-Are you guys not happy to see me? -No, it's not that at all.

lt's just, you know....

-How long are you staying, Howie? -Well--

lt's gay-pride weekend. We're kind of all up in that ''out and proud'' thing.

Oh, okay. Well, maybe l'll go with you then.

Howie.

How do l put this?

Gay pride, Howie, is for gay people.

Yes. Yeah. Okay, see....

Come here.

-Gay. -Yeah.

-Not gay. -Right, right.

You wanna come to Pride with me tomorrow?

Yeah.

There's a party at the Planet afterwards.

May l come in?

Sorry, l was just wondering if it would be all right...

...if l just stayed here tonight and left in the morning.

l've almost got all the stuff in my car, but l just don't wanna leave...

...you know, my car full of shit while l unpack at night.

Yeah, someone might steal your cameras.

l know that you hate me.

And while l would love to ask for your forgiveness...

...l probably wouldn't forgive myself.

So....

l don't know if you can relate to this...

...but it's like this terrible thing that l was doing...

...suddenly became the best, truest thing that l had ever done.

What?

l'll get-- l'll get the rest of my boxes. Sorry.

Hey.

You can stay tonight.

Thank you.

'' l was getting to feel that way myself...

...though l've always reckoned looking at the new moon...

...is the carelessest and foolishest thing a body can do.

-Old Hank Bunker done it once--'' -Hi.

-Hello, Melvin. -Hello.

-Hey. -Hey.

l brought you some food and a change of clothes.

Thank you so much.

l don't know how much longer l could have worn this dress.

Well, you look beautiful in it.

You looked beautiful.

Radiant. l was so mad at you for leaving the ceremony.

l thought you did it to spite me.

No, no. l was so proud of you.

You looked so confident.

-Would you please close that curtain? -Of course.

Well, l should go home.

Thank you for the food and the clothes.

Will l see you tomorrow?

l'm gonna go to the parade with Helena.

Look, l'm not gonna stop seeing her.

lf you don't wanna see me under those circumstances, l understand.

One step at a time, okay?

Okay.

She's gone now. You don't have to hide anymore.

What have l done?

-What are talking about? -l loved you.

l've supported every endeavour you've ever undertaken.

l've given you every opportunity to follow your every dream.

l don't understand why you want to punish me.

l'm not punishing you.

l do not understand.

-And you're such a beautiful woman. -Daddy.

Don't you ever think about the day...

...you're gonna stand in the judgment before God?

What are you gonna say to him when he opens the book of life...

...and reads your sins?

l will say, '' l am your creation, and l am proud.''

I know how hard you work...

... to distance yourself from everyone else on this planet.

I'm sure that deep down you've got some reasons why...

...but it's not working for you anymore.

-It's working fine. -No, it's not.

It's not, because of this.

Okay? Because of this right here. Do you feel this?

Most people don't have this, Shane. This is rare.

This kind of thing just doesn't happen.

And I feel this because I see it.

And I know it.

-Here's some sheets-- -Oh, thank you.

-Yeah. -And pillows and things.

-You need PJ's? -No, l'm good.

-l'm good. -Okay.

-l'm happy you're here. -lt's good to see you too, Dane.

All right.

-Good night. -Good night.

He's gonna ruin our Pride.

-Maybe he can hang out with you. -What?

What--? Where are you gonna be?

l sort of got asked to be on the Gay and Lesbian Center float.

-Oh, were you gonna tell me that? -Yes.

-Yes. -Great.

Well, Al....

Be with me.

No, seriously.

Be with me on the float. You're a celebrity.

And you're Alice Pieszecki of The Chart Pieszecki.

Really?

-Be on the float? -Yeah.

-Well, would they want that, or...? -Yeah.

Come be with me on the float.

Come on, let's be known and gay together.

-That sounds kind of fun. -Yeah?

All right. Well, what about Howie?

We'll leave before he gets up.

Oh, my God, l love the way you think.

l love you.

l'm gonna set the alarm, okay?

-Yeah. -Okay.

Morning.

-You want one? -Sure.

He's not there.

-Did he leave? -l don't know.

Thank you.

-We should get to the parade early. -Yeah?

-ls it gonna be really big? -Probably.

-Hey. -Hey.

l brought coffee...

...and those little organic scone things you guys like.

l'm fucking lost, man. Can you just take this, please?

Can l talk to Jenny?

You gotta ask her, not me.

Now?

-Could l talk to you? -Yeah.

l wish so much that there was something l could do.

No, l don't think there's anything that you can do. l think you did it.

When l moved in here, l was a guy who was capable of doing shit like this.

But l am not that guy anymore.

l know that l've said it before, but you have made me a better man.

Oh, fuck off, Mark.

lt's not my job to make you a better man.

And l don't give a shit if l've made you a better man.

lt's not a fucking woman's job...

...to be consumed and invaded and spat out...

...so that some fucking man can evolve.

-That's not what l meant. -What are you talking about then?

You give me one reason why you think that l should forgive you.

Because, Jenny, l made a big, big mistake.

But from that l have learned how difficult it is to be a woman.

-Please. -Wait, Jenny. Hey.

Look at this.

What are you doing?

-ls this what you want? -No.

What l want is for you to write ''fuck me'' on your chest.

Write it. Do it.

Then l want you to walk out that door, and l want you to walk down the street.

And anybody that wants to fuck you, say, ''Sure, sure, no problem.''

And when they do, you have to say, ''Thank you very, very much.''

And make sure you have a smile on your face.

And then, you stupid fucking coward...

...you're gonna know what it feels like to be a woman.

Shane, l'm just....

He must've heard our alarm. There's no reason he'd be up so early.

Dana Fairbanks?

Hey, guys, it's Dana Fairbanks. She's here.

Hi.

Oh, l'm sorry, can l get your names?

Yeah, Alice Pieszecki.

Could you spell that, please?

-P-l-- l'm not on that list. -This is my girlfriend.

-We're together. -Yeah.

Alice Pieszecki of The Chart, KCRW?

Anyway, this is my brother.

And l thought they could be on the float with me.

Oh, l'm really sorry, Dana.

Only the people on this list get to go on the float.

They can watch you from the crowd. That'll be fun for them.

lt's not like it's the HRC or the GLAAD float or anything, anyway.

-What? -You heard me.

-Alice. -Dana.

lf you'd like to ride on our float, we'd be happy to have you, alone.

l'm sorry, you guys. l'll see you after.

-Yeah. -l'm sorry.

Oh, sweet of her.

-People really love her, huh? -Yeah.

Keep it moving. He's straight. Come on. l'm sorry. lt's a meat market.

-Are you okay? -l'm good, yeah.

-Al, come with me. -What?

She won't come with me.

Shane wants me to ride with her with motorcycle lesbians.

The Dykes on Bikes? You're not going?

No, l wanna be an observer.

Oh, l so wanna go, yeah.

-What about Howie? -l'll be fine.

-l'll look after him. -You okay?

-You good? -l'm good.

-Oh, cool. Great. Hi. -l'm Howie.

l'm Jenny. Nice to meet you.

-Wanna walk around? -Yeah, sure.

l'm gonna go with the Dykes on Bikes.

So you can write that on your clipboard.

See you.

-Shane? -What?

-l told Dana l loved her, twice. -That's good.

Yeah, but she didn't say anything back. And that's bad, right?

Okay, why am l even talking to you about love? Serious.

-Look, at least l can see she loves you. -You can?

Yeah, you can't? Come on.

Hey!

Oh, my God. Shane.

Jenny, come on. Come on up here.

Come up here now.

Next time.

-Hi, Dana. -Hi, Dana.

-You know, l have a secret. -What?

l've never actually attended a Pride parade before.

l mean, l've had parties around it.

l've rented rooftops with amazing views of it.

But l've never actually been in it.

Well, welcome. We're happy to have you.

Thank you. And how about you?

Oh, this is my seventh.

Such a political being you are, fighting for gay rights.

No, not really.

Bette and l used to come every year.

lt's just an excuse to have a margarita before 3:00.

Do you miss that?

l like being here with you, seeing it through your eyes.

-Come on, girlfriend. Don't you want it? -She needs to get spanked.

Come on, everybody, let's jump onboard.

-Jenny. -Hey.

-Hi. -Have you seen Howie?

He said that he'd meet up with you later.

-Was he freaking? -No.

Did he say where he was going, or...?

-Maybe he went to a sports bar. -Yeah, probably, right?

-God. -Can you imagine?

Howie-- Thank you.

Maybe there was a good game on. You know, a football game.

-Will l see you there? -Maybe.

Well, l love to punish a tease.

l wish you were here, Mom.

Hey.

l brought you something fresh to eat.

-How is he? -The same.

Why don't you go home.

lf l go home, all l'm gonna do is think about being here.

-Well, you can't just stay here-- -l can.

-lt's my decision. -ls that my Katie?

Yeah, Daddy.

Come here.

l brought your pyjamas.

Oh, Katie, l'm so sorry.

All these years.

Such foolishness.

-Oh, Katie. -lt's okay. lt's okay.

ls my baby here?

Yeah, she's here.

l love you both.

We love you too, Daddy.

-l don't think l can do this. -Oh, God, sure you can. Come on.

Okay, maybe it's not a great idea.

Let's just look at the pros and cons.

-Okay. -Okay, okay.

-''Gentle with novices.'' This is good. -Great.

So we can just tell them it's our first time.

l think they might know that, Dana, but....

Okay.

-There's seven stations of the cross. -Okay.

Let's see. ''Whipping, temporary piercing.''

'' Public humiliation, anal penetration.''

-''Torching''? -''Torching''?

Okay, ''spanking and specialty arts.'' That's nice.

Oh, there's a free buffet till 6.

-Chicken wings and tofu. -Okay, what do you think?

l don't know. We'll sneak a peek, and--

-Yeah. -Great.

-Okay, let's do it. Come on. -Okay.

Hey.

-Hi. Oh, so polite. -What you want your safe word to be?

-l don't know, ''tuna fish''? -Thank you.

-Okay. -All right. Great. Planet?

-Great. Yeah. -Fantastic.

Okay.

-Bye. Thank you. -Thanks.

Hey.

Hey, hey, happy Pride.

Oh, my God, you are huge.

Oh, my God.

You are so pregnant, wow. Hi. How are you?

Good to see you. Hey.

-Hi. -Hi.

What are you doing here?

l'm celebrating gay pride, l guess. l don't know.

You mean gay shame. That's what it really is.

Why?

Because most of us have more shame than pride.

l think that you might be right.

You wanna dance?

-No. -What's the matter?

Am l too old or too suburban or something?

No.

You're perfect.

Do you wanna kiss me?

Happy Pride.

Why don't--? Why don't you take--?

Leigh?

-Hey. -How are you?

-Good. Good to see you. -So you made it.

Great party. Did you enjoy the parade?

Oh, yeah, l had a great time. Tina, this is Leigh.

-Leigh, this is my friend Tina. -Hi.

-Very pregnant friend. -Yeah.

-She and her ex are having a baby. -Oh, l'm sorry.

Not about the baby, about the ex. l'm going through a breakup myself.

You know, l heard, but l wasn't sure about that.

Well, the rumours are true. Valerie moved back to New York.

We weren't ready for a long-distance relationship.

Oh, you know, maybe it's wise.

So do you wanna dance?

Oh, dance. Please do.

-l need to sit down. -Okay.

-Great. Okay. -Okay.

-We'll see you in a bit. -Okay.

Hey, where are you going?

-We just got here. -lt's hot in here.

-l need to step out. -Okay.

-Hurry back, okay? -Okay.

-Got me. -l'm worried about Howie.

He's got the keys. He knows the address. He's fine.

But, you know, he's my little brother. l should have spent time with him.

-Holy shit. -What?

Excuse me. l'm sorry. Just one second.

-Howie. -l'll be right back.

l'll be waiting.

Okay.

-A cosmo, Howie? -Yeah.

-That's alcoholic. -That's gay.

-What's going on? -l'm celebrating Pride.

But, Howie, what do you have to be proud of?

Okay, excuse us for just one second.

-Howie, that man is gay. -l know, Dana.

Are you--? Are you imitating me?

lt's not funny if that's what you're doing.

No, l'm not.

So you just decide that you're gay?

-Do you wanna dance? -You know, you're too young.

l mean, it just-- lt takes time.

Dane, l've known since l was 4.

You made that much fun of me?

Well, it's because you're scared. l mean, be gay.

Be proud, everybody!

No!

Hold it, stop.

Dana, could you tell Mom and Dad for me?

Oh, thank you.

-Mark. -Oh, fuck.

l'm sorry. l was just returning the keys.

You've opened up....

Well, you've opened up this Pandora's box.

And now you're just running away.

So l dare you to stay here and deal with this.

We're not friends.

Daddy?

Remember when l was a little girl...

...and on Sundays, we'd go to church...

...and you'd wear your three-piece suit...

...and pointy-toe shoes?

l looked over at you...

...and l would say, ''That's my dad.''

You were the handsomest man in the world.

You were everything.

Everything l thought a man should be.

ls that right?

Oh, Dad, l'm sorry.

l didn't know you were listening to me.

l'm not dead yet.

-l'm sorry l woke you up. -Where's Benjamin?

He's with his wife and kids.

You shouldn't have let him go.

lf he's the man you wanna be with...

...then you should be with him, whatever the cost.

Like you did with Mom?

l did what l had to do to ensure my happiness.

Sometimes it comes at a price.

Yeah. Yeah, it does.

What?

l love you.

l love you too.

Don't touch me.

Fuck.

l never had a hamster.

But l had a dog, and her name was Remy.

l have a brother, but l never met him...

...because we never grew up together.

And my mom put me in foster care when l was 9.

But l still love her very much.