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ALARM

I HAVE AMNESIA FROM A CAR ACCIDENT READ JOURNAL ON LAPTOP

ONLY MY PARENTS AND IZUMI KNOW ABOUT MY CONDITION

DECIDE WHAT TO WEAR THE NEXT DAY

DON'T FORGET TO WRITE IN JOURNAL BEFORE GOING TO SLEEP

I HAVE AMNESIA FROM A CAR ACCIDENT

READ JOURNAL ON LAPTOP WHEN I GET UP

READ THIS JOURNAL WHEN I GET UP

"On the first day of Golden Week, I was in a car accident.

"Once I go to sleep, I lose all my memories from the previous day.

"I decided

"to keep a journal to back up my memories, which are erased day by day.

"May 5, 2019."

THIS IS A RECORD OF WHAT HAPPENED FROM MAY 5, 2019 TO YESTERDAY

MAY 5, 2019 TODAY, I WILL START MY JOURNAL.

DOCTORS CAN'T DO ANYTHING. MONITOR AT HOME.

-This, too. -Okay.

She's up.

Morning!

Hey.

Do I have… amnesia?

Well…

You were in a car accident three years ago.

You were a brave girl. You saved a child from being run over.

That's right. We're very proud of you.

I remember

everything about yesterday.

I stepped on my palette and hurt myself.

I remember

very clearly.

It's not definitive,

but Maori is showing signs of recovery.

Maori.

Really, Doctor?

Yes.

Hello?

Hello, Izumi? Can you talk now?

Not really, but go ahead. What's up?

I think my memory is coming back.

DON'T FORGET TO WRITE IN JOURNAL BEFORE GOING TO SLEEP

Let's take it step by step.

NEVER SLEEP OUTSIDE THE HOUSE

Here you go.

Thank you.

Looks good.

How does it feel to get your memory back?

I remember everything about yesterday

but before that, I was in high school.

The three years in between are wiped clean.

Like I turned into an adult overnight.

Anyhow, it feels strange.

Can lost memories be recovered?

I've written in my journal every day for three years,

but they say those are just records. They won't come back as memories.

I see.

Hey.

Do you know who this is?

Do you recognize him?

Yeah. I saw him a few times at the library over the summer.

I see.

Looks like he modeled for me more than once.

You liked portraiture and wanted to draw a guy, so he helped you out.

Did I write that in my journal?

Anyways, I'm glad.

At least you remembered.

READ THIS JOURNAL WHEN I GET UP

ON THE FIRST DAY OF GOLDEN WEEK, I WAS IN A CAR ACCIDENT.

DON'T FORGET TORU KAMIYA

Even If This Love Disappears from the World Tonight

Will you go out with me?

I didn't mean it.

I'm sure she knew I wasn't serious.

Yes, I will.

What?

What was your name again?

Toru Kamiya.

Toru.

Got it.

Which class are you in?

Class 1.

Wait for me in Class 1 tomorrow after school.

See you then.

What the heck was that?

I did what you asked.

Now keep your promise and don't mess with Shimokawa anymore.

Go to sleep. You have to get up early tomorrow.

"Don't worry about tomorrow."

"Tomorrow is tomorrow. Live for today."

Yeah, right. A quote from Osamu Dazai.

I quit work.

Are you going to write again?

Literary Circle's Best New Author.

I think I have a shot at it this time.

Maybe there's an age limit, though.

I have to keep my promise to Mom.

LITERARY CIRCLE

"REMNANTS" BY FUMINO NISHIKAWA

Morning.

Morning.

They didn't harass me this morning.

That's good.

Is this Kamiya?

No way.

He heard you.

He's looking this way.

-Go! He's looking. -Seriously?

Go!

I can't believe I'm doing this.

This is trending right now.

Will you go out with me?

Did you know?

-Who's Kamiya? -That guy over there.

Did you say something to Saegusa for me?

I asked Maori Hino from Class 7 to go out with me.

I see.

Well, congrats!

Are you free this Sunday?

Why?

To celebrate.

No, it's OK.

What do you want to eat?

It's about Maori Hino.

See you later.

All right.

Are you really going out with her?

Something like that.

Why? You don't even know her.

Love at first sight?

Something like that.

Like what?

Well…

If you're not serious about her, back off.

Sorry, class is starting.

Kamiya.

Toru, right?

Hello.

Any after school activities?

No.

Good. Me, neither.

I wouldn't want you to miss anything.

If we're going to be dating, we need to establish some rules.

About that…

Did you change your mind?

A friend of mine was being bullied.

They promised to stop if I asked you out.

I see.

You're a popular girl.

They probably set me up to be rejected, just for laughs.

I'm sorry for getting you involved.

Why are you sorry?

You did it to protect your friend.

That's cool.

So?

So what?

You don't want to go out with me?

It's not that…

Why did you agree?

Me?

I've been wondering that myself.

I have an idea.

Let's "pretend" we're together.

"Pretend"?

Everyone thinks we're a couple already.

I know, but you have nothing to gain.

Your friend will be hurt if he finds out the real reason you asked me out.

Yes, I will.

You're right.

It's gone too far to tell everyone it was a lie.

I suppose.

Okay, then.

I'll pretend to be your girlfriend on three conditions.

-Conditions? -Yes.

1. Don't talk to each other until school's over.

2. Keep communication short.

And…

3. Don't actually fall in love.

Okay.

That's it, boyfriend.

There they are!

Let's get to know each other to make it seem real.

-When's your birthday? -Kamiya!

February 25.

Blood type?

AB.

Who do you look up to?

Fumino Nishikawa.

I have no idea who that is.

An esoteric classic novelist.

I see.

Are you writing that down?

Of course.

Thanks.

Special talents?

I can cook, I guess.

Really? Amazing!

I do all the housework.

Okay.

It's just me and my dad.

I'd like to taste your cooking someday.

I'll be supportive, but you don't have to, you know.

I kind of like what you said the other day.

Fake relationship: Condition 1.

Don't talk to each other until school's over.

TOMORROW. CLASS DUTY. I'LL BE LATE.

Condition 2.

Keep communication short.

K

And…

Fake relationship: Condition 3.

Wanna go somewhere sometime?

You mean… on a date?

Yup. We're dating, after all.

I suppose.

How about Sunday?

I'd like that.

But in the afternoon, okay?

Are you busy in the morning?

You're so dense. Girls need time to get ready.

A fake relationship.

We were girlfriend and boyfriend. But not really.

But first…

This is my best friend, Izumi Wataya.

I know.

She's very concerned about us and wants to have a three-way conference.

More like an interrogation, I bet.

-What? -Nothing.

I don't mind.

Come with me to the station. Do you like cats?

Come on.

Here?

Yup.

-I miss Mya and Bruno. -It's huge…

Yeah.

Long time no see, Bruno. How are you?

You're so tame today.

Your house is… amazing.

What does your dad do?

My parents are going through a divorce. I live with my mom now.

I see.

Izumi's mom is a famous designer.

No wonder your house is so nice.

Thank you.

Go ahead.

Good?

"ALLIUM IN THE EVENING" BY FUMINO NISHIKAWA

Fumino Nishikawa.

Fumino Nishikawa?

She's an up-and-coming classic novelist.

She's my fave. Very esoteric, so I'm sure you don't know her.

Fumino Nishikawa? That's the person you look up to.

You're a fan too?

Not so much a fan…

So we share literary tastes.

A fellow bookworm.

I'm not.

You're a classicist. I can tell.

-It's not that. -Don't be embarrassed.

-I'm not embarrassed. -Admit it.

Wait…

Hey.

Don't call me a "bookworm" in your journal.

Okay. I'll refer to you as the bookworm

who doesn't want to be called a "bookworm."

Look!

-How beautiful! -So pretty.

Hey, take it easy.

It's better to capture the picture in your mind, not on your phone.

No.

I have to do this. Or I'll forget everything.

In my world, I didn't exist yesterday.

I HAVE AMNESIA FROM A CAR ACCIDENT READ JOURNAL ON DESK

READ THIS JOURNAL WHEN I GET UP

ON THE FIRST DAY OF GOLDEN WEEK, I WAS IN A CAR ACCIDENT.

SUNDAY, MAY 5 TODAY, I WILL START MY JOURNAL.

Is it June already?

What about school?

You've been going to school since you got out of the hospital.

But the only people who know about your amnesia

are the teachers and Izumi.

What?

So don't tell anyone else.

Why not?

Anyone could do anything to you and you wouldn't remember.

Someone may take advantage of that.

So you should only tell people you can trust.

Morning.

Morning.

Am…

Am I a burden?

No way. Right, dear?

You were a brave girl. You saved a child from being run over.

That's right. We're very proud of you.

Do we have this conversation every day?

I feel so hopeless, but…

I have to face it.

TORU KAMIYA, YEAR 3, CLASS 1. NO AFTER SCHOOL ACTIVITIES.

A little hope…

I saw something that looked like hope in the words written there.

Toru Kamiya… Toru.

Blood-type AB. Kind of different. Lives with his father.

A bookworm who doesn't like to be called a "bookworm."

What's that mean?

IZUMI (A FRIEND I CAN TRUST)

Hello?

You're going on your first date with Kamiya today. Are you ready?

Sorry, Izumi. It seems I'm getting you into trouble.

Don't worry about it.

I only do as much as I can, and as much as I want to.

Thanks. And…

I need your advice on something.

Shoot.

What should I wear on my date?

Whatever.

You're bragging.

No, I'm not!

Should I wear a dress or a denim skirt?

Seriously? Either one.

"I asked Izumi, but she was no help at all.

After much deliberation, I decided on the blue dress."

"It'll be the first time today's me will see Toru.

"It's my first date, and with a complete stranger.

"I'm a little nervous.

"We're meeting at the fountain at the Seaside Park.

"I have to make sure I approach the right person."

Toru?

I've never seen a proper picnic basket like that before.

My sister bought it a long time ago at a fair or something.

It's all I had.

Your sister?

Sorry, did you tell me about your sister before?

No, I don't think so.

Right. You said you lived alone with your dad.

My sister lived with us, too, until recently.

Our mom died when we were young, so my sister was like a mother to me.

I see.

-Here. -That's amazing!

Looks delicious.

You said you wanted to taste my cooking.

I'll try this one.

-Thanks. -Go ahead.

I'll take this one.

-It's good! -Really?

I'm glad.

You said you do all the housework. Is that because your sister taught you?

Some of it.

My mom left us a journal

with our favorite recipes and whatnot.

And housework tips, where the bank book was kept… stuff like that.

Really? That's awesome.

She had a heart condition.

Maybe she was preparing herself.

I see…

Your mom was very organized.

She cared about us so much.

She was the center of our universe.

She was like the sun.

Thanks for sharing that with me.

I think it's the first time I told anyone.

What about you? Any brothers or sisters?

I'm an only child.

A very precious only daughter.

I think my dad would go crazy if he found out I had a boyfriend.

So don't tell him.

Why don't you come over and introduce yourself as my boyfriend?

I'll pass. Anyways, we're just "pretending."

It's strange.

What is?

I rarely talk about myself like this.

When I'm with you, I feel calm.

It's so easy.

You're up?

Who… are you?

What?

Sorry, I…

-What am I doing here? -What's wrong?

Excuse me.

Hino!

IZUMI (A FRIEND I CAN TRUST) HAVE FUN!

Hello?

Sorry, Izumi. I'm so confused.

Tell me.

I woke up at a park with a strange guy next to me.

Okay. Calm down.

First, read the notes in your bag.

I'll be right there, so stay put. Describe where you are.

Hello?

Where are you, Kamiya?

Sorry, I'll call you back.

You're looking for Maori, right?

How do you know?

I'll explain later.

ANTEROGRADE AMNESIA

ONCE I GO TO SLEEP, I FORGET EVERYTHING.

REFER TO FOLDER NAMED "TORU"

I'm sorry!

Anterograde amnesia.

When I explained what those foreign words meant,

he said nothing. Just listened.

I remember everything up until the moment of the accident.

But everything after that gets erased once I go to sleep.

Like just now.

I keep my journal to help me through the next day.

Day after day.

All those memos…

Sorry. I know this is weird for you.

Weird?

Pretending you're my boyfriend.

You weren't serious when you asked me out, but I took advantage of it.

It was my fault for asking you out when I didn't even mean it.

I guess I'm not cut out for it.

I'll probably be a huge burden on you.

So let's end this…

If you don't write about this in your journal today,

you won't remember it tomorrow?

That's right.

In that case,

don't write about it.

That you fell asleep or told me about your amnesia.

You don't mind?

I like being with you.

No one wants to be reminded of their failures over and over again.

So let's pretend that this never happened today.

We'll play a trick on you tomorrow.

But…

Maori!

She just wandered off on me, so I panicked.

I know! She has a tendency to sleepwalk.

She walks around in her sleep, sometimes for 30 minutes.

If it ever happens again, call me right away.

Okay.

I TOLD TORU ABOUT MY AMNESIA.

Found you, Toru Kamiya.

I had fun yesterday. Thanks.

Yeah. Me, too.

If I were really your girlfriend, it'd be my turn to make you lunch.

But I'm a lousy cook.

Yeah, I figured.

Don't be rude.

You said so yourself.

I can criticize myself, but other people can't.

That's huge!

-I want to get that Ferris wheel. -Ferris wheel?

-Let me. -Thanks.

Looks good!

No!

What a waste!

Any recommendations?

Maybe this. "Trajectory" by Hirohiko Moriyama.

I had an English test today.

How did you do?

Ready? Go!

GREAT LUCK

-Nice! -I got it!

TORU PICKED "GREAT LUCK."

"Favorite animal: Penguin. Least favorite: Snake."

All right.

TODAY IS JULY 1ST (MON)

13:00 @ THE SQUARE IN FRONT OF THE STATION

It's been a while since I rode a bike.

-A little further. -Just a little.

Here I go.

You can do it!

You made it.

It feels good.

Right?

Okay. Your turn.

What about tomorrow?

Tomorrow?

Let's do whatever you want to do.

I'm going to make sure you have fun tomorrow, too.

HE SAID, "I'M GOING TO MAKE SURE YOU HAVE FUN TOMORROW, TOO."

"'I'm going to make sure you have fun tomorrow, too.'

"It made my heart skip a beat.

"This feeling is a 'first' for me, isn't it?

"My feeling of hopelessness is gone.

"Thank you, Toru."

Fumino Nishikawa was beautiful.

I'll treasure this forever.

She's so pretty.

FUMINO NISHIKAWA BOOK SIGNING AKUTAGAWA PRIZE NOMINEE "REMNANTS"

-Thank you. -Thank you.

Thank you so much.

-Thank you. -Thank you.

Hi.

Kamiya!

You're here, too? Too bad they ran out of tickets--

Toru?

What?

Excuse me.

Why didn't you tell me?

Sorry. I didn't know how to bring it up.

Fumino Nishikawa is your sister?

I said all those things, as if I knew her!

Like she's esoteric. This is terrible.

But she is esoteric, so don't worry.

I was shocked. She's so beautiful.

You don't have to say that.

Go talk to your sister.

But… Hino's waiting for me.

It's okay. I'll go ahead with Maori.

But I haven't seen today's her yet.

Wait a minute. Do you know?

About her amnesia? Yeah.

I thought so.

It was that day at the park. Did she tell you?

Yes. But she didn't write about it in her journal.

Why not?

I asked her not to. Because I didn't want things to change.

So today,

Hino doesn't know that I know about her amnesia.

Please.

Keep it a secret, okay?

Okay.

Look! It's shimmering!

Look at that big, flat one, Daddy!

I wonder what it is.

Maybe it's a ray?

Could I ever have a family? In my condition?

What if I had a baby?

I'd wake up every morning and not know it was mine.

There's so much information to process on a daily basis.

It's hard to keep up.

Sorry. I'm being a bit pessimistic today.

I'll probably never get married. I wouldn't be able to.

So let's be old maids together.

Even if I never grow up?

Hey, that's a good one!

You're funny.

I didn't know you'd have a book signing so close to home.

My publisher begged me to do it. I couldn't say no.

Toru, did you lose weight?

So, the Akutagawa Prize. That's big.

I haven't won it yet.

I did it…

at your expense. Our family's expense.

It wasn't a sacrifice for me.

When Mom died,

you did everything around the house.

Those were dark times.

Books were your escape. Your safe haven.

Is it fun to read?

Even after Mom died, Dad continued to write.

But he didn't enjoy writing anymore.

At some point,

you started writing in secret so Dad wouldn't feel bad.

And you won Best New Author.

The books you wrote…

NOMINEE: FUMINO NISHIKAWA "ALLIUM IN THE EVENING"

…became a safe haven for me.

I know.

Yes.

I'm honored you think I have potential,

but I have to put my family first.

I'm sorry.

Goodbye.

I learned how to keep house.

And you poured your all into writing. I was proud of us.

It wasn't a sacrifice for me.

That's why I supported your moving out.

How's Dad?

Doing okay?

Same as always.

But how long are you going to keep it a secret from him?

I'll tell him once the winner of the prize is announced. I promise.

And?

What about you, Toru?

Got a girlfriend?

What?

I can tell.

More like a friend than a girlfriend.

She was in a car accident and lost her memory.

Once she goes to sleep, she forgets everything that happened that day.

So she writes everything down in a journal.

If she doesn't read it the next day,

she'll forget who I am.

But…

Whenever she reads her journal, you'll always be there.

That's why I want to fill her journal with fun memories.

So she'll feel optimistic when she reads it every day.

I'm glad you have someone, Toru.

See you.

Thanks. See you.

Toru!

Take care. For her sake, too.

Yup. Don't worry.

He's here.

Look how cute this is!

I'll buy it for you, since you waited.

Really?

Then, get two of them.

So we can be a pair.

A pair?

You made me wait, right?

Fine.

Yeah!

Then…

Bye.

See you tomorrow.

You've changed, Kamiya.

What? Really?

You used to be more detached. I didn't think you really liked Maori.

What are you smiling at?

I just want to fill her days with fun.

Even if she doesn't remember?

That's what I've decided.

I see.

LITERARY CIRCLE BEST NEW AUTHOR ENTRY

They're announcing the winner of the Akutagawa Prize tonight.

AKUTAGAWA PRIZE ANNOUNCEMENT TONIGHT

Yeah.

So…

Let's all wait for the announcement together.

Okay. But where?

For example…

My house?

What?

It's the closest.

Okay?

You sure?

Okay. It's decided. Let's go, Kamiya.

Wait!

Isn't your dad at home? The one that would go crazy if you had a boyfriend?

Did I say that?

What should I say to him?

You won't have to say anything. We have a plan.

What plan?

Are you listening? You're ignoring me!

Thank you for having me.

Thank you.

Let me tidy up a little. Wait here.

What? Wait… what?

I brought some custard from Chez Muroi.

That super popular place?

They're always sold out! Thanks, Izumi!

No problem. There was no line today. In exchange, I'm taking two.

-Sure. -Of course.

-I'll get some drinks. -Thank you.

-Come in. -Thanks.

Don't look in my underwear drawer.

I won't.

You can peek a little.

I won't!

I'll go get Izumi.

Why are you flustered?

I'm not!

What's that string?

String?

Gotcha!

Come on…

Here you go.

Thanks.

The penguin.

You put it on your bag.

Mine is…

on my housekey.

Yeah…

From when we went to the aquarium!

Right.

Doesn't it look like Kamiya?

The penguin?

Sorry, I forgot the spoons for the custard. Be right back.

Sorry.

I think I'll go home. I have to make dinner.

You're running away?

I thought you were ready for this.

Can you imagine how frustrated Maori must feel reading these every morning?

But she forces herself

to face despair and laugh.

She never runs away.

I thought you decided

to fill her days with fun.

READ THIS JOURNAL WHEN I GET UP

AKUTAGAWA PRIZE : FUMINO NISHIKAWA "REMNANTS"

I can't believe this is happening.

FUMINO NISHIKAWA WINS AKUTAGAWA PRIZE

Toru.

Is Fumino Nishikawa…

You knew?

Yeah.

Okay… I get it now!

Sanae left home to be a novelist.

Sanae is different from you and me.

Different how?

She didn't run away from us.

She left to pursue something. Her own life.

So…

Sanae must have been laughing at me behind my back.

I'm a failure. As a father and a novelist.

She must have pitied me.

You think you're a novelist?

You've been running away since Mom died!

You!

I'm…

I'm sick of running.

Toru!

I decided to write novels

because of you, Dad.

At first,

I did it to run away from myself.

But that changed.

By writing, by transforming myself into words, I thought maybe

I could connect with someone.

That's why I write now.

Dad…

You wrote your novels for Mom, right?

I loved watching her

read your novels.

I should have…

mourned her properly back then.

It happened so suddenly.

I couldn't do anything for you… as your father.

I didn't do right by either of you.

But I'm grateful to you.

You raised us.

And you're still here.

You're a fine dad.

Yes?

We don't mean to meddle,

but Dad thought you should consider these.

Thank you.

But…

I can't apply to art college now. It's too late for that.

Hey!

Doodling?

You're good.

I was in the Art Club in middle school. I even won some contests.

Give it back.

I see…

Once you learn something, it's hard to unlearn it.

THE MEMORY MECHANISM WHY DON'T WE FORGET HOW TO RIDE A BIKE?

Really?

It's called "procedural memory."

Procedural memory?

PROCEDURAL MEMORY

It's like riding a bike. Something your body remembers how to do.

Something you never forget?

You hadn't ridden a bike in a while, but you remembered how, right?

Maybe drawing is the same thing.

Your body will remember, so the more you draw, the better you become.

Procedural memory?

So you should keep drawing.

Okay.

Not me, though.

You said to keep drawing.

I did… but not me.

Why not?

You said I'd get better, even if I had no memory of it.

You taught me that

even in my condition, I could continue to improve myself.

I wanted to show my future self the Toru I saw through my eyes.

So I kept drawing him.

For you.

Every day, he gives me a ray of hope.

Toru is tired. He fell asleep.

My days begin full of despair.

But when I'm with him, I'm overcome with happiness.

Even if I can't store memories,

something may remain.

The "me" in my journal

is starting to fall in love with him.

THANK YOU, TORU.

3. DON'T ACTUALLY FALL IN LOVE

And here I am,

going to see him again.

HAVE FUN. MAKE UP FOR YESTERDAY'S LOST MEMORIES

SHONAN MONORAIL SHONAN KATASE STATION

AUGUST 25 FIREWORKS FESTIVAL

You're wearing the hair pin.

It took you long enough to notice.

It looks nice on you.

I'm so happy that my memories can't keep up.

Even precious moments like these will soon be forgotten.

I'm going to forget everything.

Even the warmth of your hand.

I don't want to… I don't want to forget.

You won't.

Memories never disappear completely.

Please don't go anywhere, Toru.

I'll always…

stay by your side.

Sorry.

Toru?

Can I

break Rule 3?

I broke it a long time ago.

"I'll try to be kind to everyone.

"I won't be selfish. So please…

"Let me stay by his side."

NEXT YEAR AND THE YEAR AFTER THAT…

Even in the fall, then the school festival season…

Even in the winter, when it started to snow…

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR GRADUATION

…they stayed together.

I was closer to them than anyone else,

then I was left behind.

See you. Bye!

I'm done.

Shall we go?

Excuse me…

Let's go, Maori.

Thanks for everything.

What?

If it weren't for you, I would have never graduated.

You worked hard. Good job.

The same to you.

You made every day so much fun for me.

Let's go to all those places again.

The aquarium, picnics, the fireworks festival.

Your home-made lunches. So many memories.

Even though I don't remember.

What are you wearing to the graduation dinner?

That dress I just bought.

It looks good on you. See you later.

Let's get dressed up!

Okay.

Bye.

See you tomorrow.

See you.

Thanks.

For what?

For Maori.

When I first heard about you two, I was afraid it wouldn't last.

No one knows when Maori's memory will finally come back.

Watching my parents split up, I realized love isn't forever.

But seeing the two of you

made me believe that maybe love can last forever.

I like you too, Kamiya.

What?

What I mean to say is

I'm counting on you to take care of my best friend.

You're my best friend now, too.

What? Say something.

Wataya.

I have a favor to ask.

What is it?

I…

may have a heart condition.

And…

I had an attack yesterday.

Nothing serious.

But my mom had the same thing.

They're going to run some tests tomorrow.

I see. But it isn't…

It's not anything really bad, is it?

Well, my mom passed away suddenly.

So I thought I'd ask you while I could.

If… and I mean if…

I…

If something happens to me…

TORU KAMIYA

Why didn't you pick up when I called earlier?

How did the tests go?

Toru…

my brother passed away this morning.

He had an attack last night and never regained consciousness.

I was trembling so hard, I thought I was being swallowed up.

I wasn't prepared for death.

After much deliberation,

I decided to tell Maori about Kamiya's death.

I couldn't carry the grief alone.

So I unloaded it onto her.

Knowing she couldn't share my grief.

That's funny.

I don't remember him at all.

I only remember him through photos

and journal entries…

It's funny.

No, it's not.

You two were really good together.

It's not funny at all.

In the end, we didn't attend the wake.

Maori's mental state was breaking down.

It was too much to bear.

I clung to Kamiya's sister for support.

I see.

Toru said that?

Thank you for telling me.

Before Toru died,

he talked about Maori once.

He wanted to fill her journal with fun memories. He seemed so happy.

He wanted her

to feel positive about life whenever she read her journal.

So I think Toru

was already imagining what would happen after he was gone.

Every time she read her journal,

she'd have to confront the death of a boyfriend she didn't remember.

If anything happens to me,

I want you to delete everything about me from her journal.

What?

If I don't appear in her journal,

it'll be like I never existed.

And you're okay with that?

We didn't know each other before the accident.

Hino and I hadn't even met then.

So I want you to delete me.

You're an important friend to me, too, Wataya.

If it pains you to do it, I'll delete him from her journal.

Do you think that's the best thing to do?

Toru asked you to do it.

So you need to decide.

But if it's too hard for you, you can blame it on me.

I have a legitimate reason to carry out my brother's wishes.

I thought about Kamiya's resolve

and Maori's fragile mental state, which couldn't last.

Here it is.

READ THIS JOURNAL WHEN I GET UP

She's sound asleep.

I'll return it as soon as I make copies.

Can you take care of her phone?

READ THIS JOURNAL WHEN I GET UP

I WAS IN A CAR ACCIDENT.

MAY 5, 2019 TODAY, I WILL START MY JOURNAL.

MET TORU AFTER SCHOOL.

TORU

IZUMI

TORU WAS DOZING OFF.

…WALKED WITH TORU.

COPYING…

ON THE FIRST DAY OF GOLDEN WEEK, I WAS IN A CAR ACCIDENT.

LET'S HAVE FUN TOGETHER EVEN AFTER WE GRADUATE, IZUMI!

DON'T FORGET TO WRITE IN JOURNAL BEFORE GOING TO SLEEP

ONLY MY PARENTS AND IZUMI KNOW ABOUT MY CONDITION

I HAVE AMNESIA FROM A CAR ACCIDENT

READ JOURNAL ON DESK

DON'T FORGET TORU KAMIYA

SO PLEASE LET ME STAY BY HIS SIDE. NEXT YEAR AND THE YEAR AFTER THAT…

Yes?

Izumi.

Let me get to a good stopping point. Sit down.

I can't stop painting him. I don't know why.

The guy in my sketch book.

It's like my hand remembers, and I paint him over and over.

What's wrong?

I'm sorry.

I've stolen some very precious memories from you.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

READ THIS JOURNAL WHEN I GET UP

This is your real journal.

I'm sorry…

I hid it from you.

I see.

I've been a huge burden on you again.

Thank you.

For respecting the final wishes of someone I loved.

Monday, May 27th. Something shocking happened today.

Excuse me?

Will you go out with me?

At first, it was just a whim.

Yes, I will.

I just went along with it.

I thought, maybe even someone like me could experience something new.

Let's "pretend" we're together.

"Pretend"?

On three conditions.

-Conditions? -Yes.

1. Don't talk to each other until school's over.

Because organizing memories takes time.

2. Keep communication short.

Because I can't talk about yesterday.

K

3. Don't actually fall in love.

If I can't hold onto my memories, I should never be allowed to fall in love.

3. DON'T ACTUALLY FALL IN LOVE

I'm going to make sure you have fun tomorrow, too.

But he knew about my memory loss.

We'll play a trick on you tomorrow.

He pretended not to know

and gave me days filled with light.

Procedural memory?

So you should keep drawing.

I couldn't connect yesterday to today,

but he gave me a reason to live.

Toru dropped his ice cream.

This is his second ice cream of the day. How does it taste?

It tastes sad.

Poor thing.

It may go over your head.

What?

How did you do?

I shouldn't have asked.

And you?

He stayed by my side until the day before

his life was extinguished.

Where are we?

This is Kugenuma Inari Shrine.

Our family used to come here on New Year's Day.

He never asked for anything in return.

He just kept giving me memories.

Here it comes!

But…

I kept losing them.

The time I spent with him only exists in my journal.

Memories never…

disappear completely.

I HAVE AMNESIA FROM A CAR ACCIDENT READ JOURNAL ON DESK

DON'T FORGET TORU KAMIYA

So…

Please, God.

Etch the time we spent together into me.

DON'T FORGET TORU KAMIYA

FUMINO KAMIYA TORU KAMIYA

I'm so glad you can remember things again.

Thank you.

But… I…

I don't remember Toru.

Whenever I read my journal, I'm filled with happiness…

but I don't remember him.

Everyone forgets eventually.

Toru will become a part of my past, too.

I think that's how we survive.

So…

Don't let your future go to waste.

I won't.

But…

Even if…

Even if everyone eventually forgets him,

I want to remember.

Because the precious time we shared

must be somewhere inside me.

I'll try this one.

It's good!

So you can cook now?

How rude! I can do this much.

Izumi.

I have something to tell you.

What?

I'm…

going to apply to an art college.

I thought you would.

You're not surprised?

"Procedural memory," right?

Yeah.

I think Toru wanted to tell me

that even if I don't have memories, there's something accumulating inside.

I don't want to let it go to waste.

Sounds like Kamiya.

Really?

I see.

I'm so full!

It was surprisingly good.

'Surprisingly'?

You're up?

In a world where so much is lost,

some things remain vivid.

Toru definitely lives inside me.

Even if this love disappears from the world tonight,

my heart will capture you.