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[eerie tone]

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[cars rushing]

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[rushing]

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[rushing street noise]

[dramatic music]

[rushing talking]

[phone ringing]

- [Thomas] Shut the fuck up.

[phone ringing]

[sighing]

What.

[text ba-duping]

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[phone clicking]

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[phone clicking]

[door squeaking]

[dramatic music]

[clicking]

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[sighing]

[scratching]

[door squeaking]

[mellow music]

- It's all about the fantasy isn't it.

You look at someone,

and you can just imagine,

all the possible futures you could have.

An awkward moment,

a first kiss.

I was just looking.

- [Matt] Why fantasy though?

- Real life is routine.

It's pain and disappointment.

Mhmm.

There are people working dead end job after dead end job.

They work, they marry, they go home to their families.

And within a few short years,

no one will care.

No one will remember.

Everyone thinks they're special.

Something ruins that along the way.

At least I'm aware of it.

- [Matt] Didn't you just say,

you you knew you weren't special?

- Yes.

I mean I'm not.

But do you ever really care,

what other people think about your fantasies?

[sirens ringing]

Don't, no stop, please!

[crying]

Stop.

- Am I hurting you?

I'm so so sorry.

You almost fooled me.

You almost fooled me with your bullshit.

[crying]

I loved you.

Get the fuck up.

- No please!

- You're so selfish.

I would put up with an ass kicking,

any day over this mental shit that you do with me.

This is not you, fucking bitch.

You fucking bitch.

Bitch!

I can't believe that you would do that to me.

I'll fucking kill you. - Stop.

Please stop!

Stop!

- I thought it was gonna work.

I did.

But I think it was meant to work with Diane.

- No.

- Yeah. - No.

- Yeah I'm supposed to be with Diane.

- No I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Ah!

[grunting]

[somber music]

[sobbing]

[somber music]

I don't wanna do this anymore.

[somber music]

I'm sorry.

I don't want this anymore.

[somber music]

[gasping] [water pouring]

- You're fucking sleeping after all this shit.

[crying]

[door slams]

[crying]

- I'm sorry.

[crying]

[fork clanking]

[text ba-duping] [somber music]

[kissing]

- Whose that?

- Matt.

- Oh.

Invite him over.

Say Hi for me.

What's he up to?

- He's following some girl he saw in a store.

- Really?

- Yeah. - Ew.

[text ba-duping]

[class clanking]

Creeper.

Oh why is he acting so emo?

- He's just going through some stuff.

[somber music]

[text ba-duping]

[laughing]

[somber music]

I owe him a debt, don't ya think?

- Do you?

At what point do you let someone work themselves out?

[somber music]

[text ba-duping]

[somber music]

[giggling]

[bell ringing]

[clearing throat]

[laughing]

[text ba-duping]

[sighing]

[high pitched squealing]

[relaxing music]

- [Man At The Bar } So you're into that kind of thing, huh?

- Seriously?

Do you realize what I have to go through,

to not walk home alone at night?

- Alright, alright.

I'm sorry.

What are you into?

You know other than contradictions?

- Drinking's pretty great.

[laughing]

- Well clearly,

especially since you're telling a stranger,

that some guy is following you.

- That's not what I said.

I said I've been seeing him around lately.

Like our routines collide.

- It's probably some sick stalker waitin around to,

attack you.

- Alright you all,

he's harmless.

When you're well adjusted like me,

you can just tell these things.

- He probably just can't get it up to talk to you.

- Maybe.

Something sweet about him though.

[chuckling]

It's probably just some douche photographer,

who wants to see me naked.

[laughing]

- Aren't we all?

[sighing]

- What's wrong with you lately?

- I don't know I just,

stressed with work I guess.

- Tell him to give you space.

You have a life of your own.

- He really needs a friend right now.

- I knew it was him.

[sighing]

- He was there for me,

in a really difficult time.

How can I,

put distance between us now,

just turn my back on him.

- You don't owe him anything.

Life happens.

People grow up.

You are building something,

and people want to know they can look to you,

to be an example.

If he's really your friend,

he wouldn't hold that against you.

- Yeah.

- Certainly wouldn't be calling you all,

random hours of the night.

- That's just,

something we used to do.

I don't even know why it bothers me so much now.

- Cause it's time to grow the fuck up.

[muffled talking]

But sometimes you need to let people go.

[sighing]

[door squeaking]

[arguing]

[glass clanking]

- Pack of lites.

[upbeat music]

[change clanking]

[bell dinging]

[wrapper crinkling]

[upbeat music]

[change clanking]

[bell ringing]

[upbeat music]

[change clanging]

[motor running]

[mellow music]

- [Matt] This is what people used to do.

Sit.

Listen to records.

Sometimes get stoned.

- [Avery] What happened to those times?

- [Matt] More leisure time.

People learned they had better things to do.

[exhaling]

- People don't just talk anymore.

They're always has to be something going on.

- [Matt] Nothing ever happens then.

Nothing better than this anyway.

[mellow music]

Why didn't you say anything to me?

- There something,

familiar.

I can imagine him stammering out to me,

with the coins I dropped at the counter in his hand.

I see him looking this way and that way,

really trying not to look into my eyes,

and stammering away,

embarrassed.

- [Matt] Feel like he'd be a shy guy eh?

- No.

Not necessarily.

Just non,

threatening.

- [Matt] You want him to be following you.

- The idea of it comforts me.

Which is frightening as hell.

[mellow music]

it's just,

the simplicity of it.

It's just simple, truthful, real.

Like this, like this.

[mellow music]

- [Matt] You call this real?

- Listening to records.

Wondering in space.

It's my routine now.

Something I can count on.

[phone ringing]

[sighing]

[upbeat music]

♪ Your words sink through my skin ♪

♪ Electric whisper deep in the night ♪

♪ You move so nice I forget why I'm angry ♪

♪ A perfect comfort to just realize ♪

♪ Na ni na na

♪ I just don't think

♪ I just don't think I believe in love ♪

♪ I just don't think

♪ I just don't think I believe in love ♪

♪ Whoo

♪ Yeah

♪ To trained to fight you anyway ♪

♪ I sizzle out if you buy your time ♪

♪ I am the proper captain with fire chains ♪

♪ I could see them but don't think too much ♪

♪ I never know

♪ I just don't think

♪ I just don't think I believe in love ♪

♪ I just don't think

♪ I just don't think I believe in love ♪

♪ Whoa

♪ I just don't think I believe in ♪

♪ Love

♪ Thanks for the cigs and all the booze ♪

♪ But it'd be nice to have my medicine too ♪

♪ You spend our money for groceries ♪

♪ Also cheap ass jewelry

♪ And all the things that you practice with one day ♪

♪ Well I forgot that that day was last Friday ♪

♪ I'm all for making a change

♪ But you drive me in my head

♪ I just don't think

♪ I just don't think I believe in love ♪

♪ I just don't think

♪ I just don't think I believe in ♪

♪ Love

- [Cathy] Look you might not understand this,

but I'm an adult okay.

I want order and a life.

I'm sick of living,

like I just left my fucking parents house.

- This isn't that serious.

Can you just calm down?

- Fuck you, it's not a big deal.

You're acting just like a kid you know.

A real fucking man would take care of it.

- What the fuck?

- No I take that back.

A real fucking man would have just done it right,

the first time,

not this fucking child shit you're doing right now.

God, grow some fucking balls.

[dramatic music]

[texts ba-duping]

[eerie music]

[text ba-duping]

[glass clanking]

- Doing alright man?

- Yeah, yeah.

- You haven't been to work in a week.

- I'm having a hard time.

- With what?

- Kim,

come on man, you know she left.

- Who?

- Matt come on.

- Look man, everything's gonna be fine.

Hey, people move on,

especially at this point in their lives.

And you're still in school for fucks sake.

Hit the gym, rub one out.

Another Kim will be along.

- That's just it,

things are not going the way,

that I thought they would, you know.

I thought you know,

that I had the plan, put the plan in motion.

Things were going so well,

and one thing just throws everything out of wack.

Look,

you have a great plan.

You just,

you need someone,

just as great, to see it through with you.

You know obviously she wasn't up for it.

Just forget all that shit.

If you knew better things were out there,

just try and see that.

- You know I look at what you and Cathy got,

and I wonder how I get that, you know,

when I thought I had it.

- You don't want what we have,

believe me.

You want what's good for you.

Look if you want,

come over, hang out.

[text beeping]

Share a couple laughs.

Forget this shit.

Everything's fine.

[text ba-duping]

Everything will be fine.

You don't think it will, but it will.

[rumbling]

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[gun firing]

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[phone clicking]

[stomping]

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[phone buzzing]

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[text ba-duping] [dramatic music]

- [Cathy] You really just can't fucking help yourself huh?

- What the hell is this bullshit?

- None of your business.

- None of my business?

- [Cathy] That's right yeah.

- Well do you think that's a reasonable fucking response,

to your text to Peter, Paul, and fucking,

Mary.

- It's just for fun.

It's not like we do anything.

- Do you expect me to believe that?

- Look sweetheart.

- Are you cheating on me?

- No.

Define cheating.

- Jesus Christ that's a fucking confident response,

I'm supposed to believe.

- [Cathy] I don't want to lie to you.

- Holy shit you really have.

- Once.

- Once.

- It was a couple of months ago.

- With one of these fucking guys.

- No it was someone totally random.

I don't even know.

- Totally random.

That's fucking awesome.

- [Cathy] I was drunk.

- Oh shit.

- I'm sorry.

I'm,

really sorry.

[dramatic music]

- Look,

look,

maybe we just need to take some time.

Alright, we can figure it out.

- Are you fucking serious?

God you're such a,

little faggot. - What?

- If I thought you were cheating on me,

I'd beat you with a fucking baseball bat.

- What do you want from me?

- I want you to be a fucking man!

God what have we been talking about the last couple months.

Do you know what I do,

when I go out by myself?

I put on red lipstick,

like,

the girls where in that porn you have on your computer,

that you swear you don't watch,

and I go to the bar.

And,

I get drinks from men,

and I think about them,

taking me into the bathroom,

where I carefully kneel down in front of them,

and unzip ones pants and,

and then put his cock in my mouth.

Doing what you watch,

what you think about,

but I will never do for you,

because you never take what you want.

And I have absolutely zero respect for you.

[splashing]

[dramatic music]

[eerie music]

[water running]

[eerie music]

- It's okay.

[eerie music]

[heavy breathing]

- Fuck.

- What are you gonna tell her?

- [Avery] Who?

- Your mom,

what are you gonna say?

- [Avery] Pft, I'm not gonna tell her anything.

- Well she's gonna ask, you know it.

And you really want to make me feel like an asshole?

- Listen, just stop, it's over,

we're moving past it. - I'm trying to,

but you're acting like a child.

Well, your father, he already hates me,

cause I took away his little girl.

- What are you talking about,

he's never said anything like that.

- You know it's what he thinks.

And if it wants to continue to have these little visits,

simply stop by whenever the hell he wants.

- It's not like that, I promise.

[dramatic music]

- All they do is judge me.

And you just sit there and,

smile and your nodding,

never standing up for me.

You know what that feels like?

- Babe.

- It just feels,

feels like you don't want to be with me.

- You question me every single time,

what do you want from me?

- I just want to feel,

like you actually love me,

instead of always thinking about yourself.

- Look I'm sorry,

I'm sorry.

I'll just tell them I'm sick.

And cancel.

- But then they'll think something's up.

- Then we'll just go,

have a quick bite,

and leave.

[kissing]

- You give up so easily.

[kissing]

[eerie music]

[mellow music]

[sighing]

[mellow music]

[stepping]

[sighing]

[eerie music]

[key board clicking]

[upbeat music]

- Hello,

Hi.

- Hello.

- I keep seeing you over, but I,

never get up the guts to come by.

- Why change it up now?

- Wow.

- I'm sorry that came out meaner than I meant it to.

- No that's okay.

I'm Eric.

- Avery.

- [Eric] With pleasure.

- Absolutely.

[chair dragging]

- So,

What are you working on?

Seem kind of intense over here.

- I'm getting my affairs in order.

- Oh.

[laughing]

- I'm working on my resume.

- Oh.

[laughing]

You know I know a little something about that,

if you want some help.

- Oh what do you do?

- Now see, you can't evade me that easily?

I came over here,

you have to answer my questions first.

- The resume isn't an answer.

- Nobody works at just one thing anymore.

There's always distractions,

emails, blogs, Facebook, Tumblr.

- Fair enough.

In between thoughts I'm writing a story.

- [Eric] Oh like a script?

Or a Novel?

- More like a journal.

- Huh.

Like your journal?

- Mhmm.

- Oh.

Can I read your private journal?

- No!

[laughing]

What is wrong with you?

- Thought I'd ask.

- Okay.

- What's your private journal about today?

[sighing]

- You know I like to keep it--

[eerie music]

[happy music]

I met someone today.

[happy music]

I met someone today.

He's sweet,

harmless.

- Is that what you want?

- I don't know.

- [Matt] It's what you want.

- [Avery] Is that right?

- Of course it is.

There's no harm in trying.

How do you know it's the wrong way,

until you take the bath?

- I don't want to waste my time.

- There's no such thing as someone else wasting your time.

It's your time.

You're the only one that can do that.

Either way, time endured, doesn't mean it's been wasted.

- Everything leads to the person I am now.

- Sounds about right,

smarty.

- Thank you love.

[rock music]

- So what have you been up to?

- Nothing much.

- Sounds interesting.

- Yeah.

Well,

at this point in my life,

I feel like there's nothing much to look forward to.

- Oh no,

not another one.

- I just mean,

everyone by our age,

has plans, one way or another.

And not meet those expectations only means disappointment,

even if what happens,

is not all that bad.

We become so focused on what we want,

there isn't room for anything else.

- I used to be like that.

- Oh yeah.

- Yeah I mean it.

- Oh it's like I walk through from place to place and,

I feel like I'm repeating myself.

It's telling the same people the same story,

over and over again.

I hear all these people talk about their important shit,

and,

I guess I'm becoming just totally bummed by it.

- Hm.

[rock music]

- And you know,

I really feel like it's true,

the saying that females are,

more courageous than men,

stronger really.

The bravery it takes to show true emotion.

You know that's something I notice men lack a lot of.

- What?

Emotion?

- No.

Bravery.

- Yeah I know I was just kidding.

Yeah.

Alright.

So,

what do we have then,

instead of courage?

- Unrealistic expectations.

- I don't think you can replace a substance with a void.

- You can,

but it never really works out.

- Why not?

- Cause in the end, nature fills the void with something.

- And that's where the bravery comes in?

- Sometimes.

A lot of the time,

it's assholism.

[laughing]

[rock music]

- Where are you from?

Originally?

- Oh now you're interested.

[sighing]

I thought I was loosing you back there.

- No, no, no, no I'm here.

I'm just,

a bit out of practice.

- Of what?

- Witty banter.

It was interesting trying to be someone I'm not.

- [Juile] How do you know unless you try?

- Fair enough.

- It's just talking.

Just breaking the ice.

Shooting the breeze.

Chewing the fat.

[laughing]

You learn a lot from the facades that people show.

If you know where to look.

[keys jangling]

[stairs squeaking]

[door clicking]

[keys clanging]

[door closing]

[feet stepping]

[heavy breathing]

[mellow music]

[lips smacking]

- I fucking hate Tori Amos.

- What?

- I see that you like Tori Amos.

- I love Tori Amos.

I've had these since I was little.

My sister always listened to her.

Gave me the CD's when I was a kid.

- Just give me a sec.

[mellow music]

I'll call you later okay.

[door creaking]

[somber music]

Being out at four in the morning is a unique experience.

- [Avery] Worse places to be up, worse times,

well at least for a man.

- It feels good though,

not taking advantage of her the way she wanted.

- What?

- Nothing.

I didn't say anything.

- [Avery] Wow what a lucky gal.

- You don't think I'm right?

- People are people,

you don't think she has her own agenda?

You think you're the only person in the world,

capable of self analysis.

- No I just,

feel like I'm the one being cheated.

- [Avery] Feeling sorry for yourself now?

- I just don't ever want to see her again.

- You just think she's boring.

- Not boring.

- Ordinary.

And you're so clearly not.

Not giving her what she wanted.

Maybe you just hate women.

- Women is too specific.

It's everyone.

It's humanity.

All of it.

I'm sorry we have to go back.

[banging]

[heavy breathing]

[banging]

[dramatic music]

[door creaking]

- Things change so Goddamn quickly.

And when I finally get a taste,

the fear comes,

and I'm afraid I'm eating poison.

Why am I drawn to that?

Line face,

some spark felt inside.

[eerie music]

I don't have that anymore.

- [Matt] I think you do.

You don't deserve to be happy.

- I don't know the difference.

[eerie music]

- So,

what do you want to be when you grow up?

- A decent human being?

[laughing]

- You already are one.

- Nah.

I'm damaged goods.

- What?

- How bout you?

- I'm already grown up.

- Oh yeah.

- Mhmm.

I'm a dreamer baby.

- Oh God.

[laughing]

- Sorry I don't mean to be a corny ass I just,

I guess I'm too tired to keep up the mask.

Plus I,

I feel really comfortable with you.

Is that weird?

- No it's not weird.

It's sweet.

- Is sweet a good thing?

- It's as good as weird.

As long as it's real.

- It is.

I mean at least I always try to be real.

And if it's not,

it's still kind of real right?

- Meaning it's in the eye of the,

- [Both] Beholder.

- Exactly.

- I just don't want to play games.

- Games are what the worlds all about right?

Not knowing the reason why I might be terse or coy.

It's that unknown element that,

let's us continue discovering things about each other.

- Does promise,

I just don't like the manipulation,

getting what you want all for a specific reason.

It's bullshit.

I don't think people have very good reasons.

- Well I think sometimes you just,

have to give it a go,

take a chance that the end won't be all that bad.

That the other person's reasons aren't nefarious,

and they've got your best interests in mind.

- But I feel like I know how it ends,

the way it always ends.

And the unknown is the best part.

- Well,

the unknown is fine,

but,

don't you think the enjoyment,

is in the known that surrounds it.

- I don't know.

For me,

it's like watching an impending train wreck.

- [Eric] Yeah but you take away the anticipation and,

all that's left is reality.

How's that feel?

All the things that aren't real are just crap.

They don't matter.

- I know.

Maybe reality can never be enough.

[bell ringing]

[upbeat music]

[change clanking]

[bell ringing]

[upbeat music]

- The next time, buy something.

- Maybe you weren't really following me.

Wait where are you going?

- Need to end this fucking insanity,

it's bullshit, all of it.

- Go back,

talk to me.

- Jesus what kind of psycho am I?

So one off a woman and you just fall apart.

Is that the kind of man you are?

- Right, right yeah and here we go.

It's the way it is okay.

I fucking hate my life.

It's not what you think.

- Just stop it.

- I actually remember having someone.

I remember how great it feels in the beginning,

and how soon it goes to shit right after that.

- Fuck you.

- And so that was it huh.

Jesus.

It takes a special kind of scumbag,

to treat someone like that.

- I'm thankful.

Thankful to him for ending it before.

- I'm sorry that happened to you.

- It's fine now.

I started thinking that the whole thing made me stronger.

- You are strong.

- That's crap.

Whatever I know who I am.

I know the prick I can be.

I know how cold and perverted and,

I can also be really loving,

patient,

[laughing]

caring.

I don't want to focus on.

Hey.

That's me.

- Someone's acting a little self centered.

- Ow God.

Look conversations have two sides.

Stop it.

- What your pussy hurts.

- No I just think you should take,

what you told me seriously.

- Why I'm a self centered bitch right.

What I want is all that matters.

- Look I was just trying to stupid and funny with that.

- It was one of those things.

- What happened to you was awful.

And I'm not trying to lessen it, okay.

I want to be there for you.

I want you to be able to talk to me.

Ow God dammit.

- Oh fuck off.

[kissing]

- Oh what are you trying to do?

- I don't know.

I want you to hurt me.

- Okay.

I want you to hit me.

- Whoa what?

Christ Avery.

- Where are you going?

- Look I'm not gonna hit you.

Simple as that.

- It's not that simple.

- I don't know if you're testing me or,

playing games.

Maybe I should go.

- Don't go.

I'm sorry.

I did not mean to upset you.

- [Eric] Hey.

Hey.

What are you doin on the floor?

- I was just sitting here.

I must have dosed off.

- [Eric] Come up here,

in the bed.

[shuffling]

- Oh!

- Shit.

- Break your shit if you want to.

I will play somebody else.

- God I hate people.

Reality is never as good as what's in your own head.

- I love talking to you brother.

I hope you understand how much.

- You know what's wrong with thinking of the ideal.

If it makes me a better person,

then why not?

- Would you say it's made you any better for it?

You have quietly followed this girl for what,

three months now?

Why is that so Goddamn special to you?

What makes you the exception to all the other assholes,

out there that simply trying to meet someone,

and move on with their lives?

- Great that's just it,

everyone's life is so Goddamn boring.

- You're seeing what you want to see Matt.

- Yeah then you die alone right.

- Yep.

And I'm the one who kills you.

- Mother fucker.

[laughing]

- You know Matt,

I'm not trying to have this conversation.

Dying alone is just some self pitying bullshit.

You know as well as I do.

Doesn't get you anywhere.

- Yeah I used to say that to people too.

- You got me through one once remember.

Wait this isn't about Cathy is it?

- Not really.

It's everything that happened after that.

You know a day turns into a decade.

Life goes on.

And suddenly here I am a man,

boy,

You know I never really gained anything.

- You know what your problem is man?

You're just like the rest of us.

- Right.

- You were so busy trying to be the man,

never shown how to be a man.

- What.

Uhn!

- Goddammit.

[door squeaking]

[laughing]

- [Eric] See I thought you'd find that funny.

You should laugh more.

- Not the smartest thing to say.

- What,

we can tell each other what we think.

- I laugh.

- You take things way too personally.

I don't think people's words have that much weight to them.

- They should.

People should mean what they say.

- Hey look,

boobs!

[laughing]

Hey,

new experiences happen everyday.

Like looks at us,

a year ago, we didn't even know each other existed.

There's always hope for more,

it doesn't just disappear.

- Hope doesn't disappear,

so much as it's forgotten.

- Well, I'll remind you then.

- [Avery] Okay.

[giggling]

Gross.

- [Eric] Mhmm.

[mellow music]

- Writing what you know huh?

[sniffling]

- Everyone always talks about the box.

Think outside the box.

Don't get caught in the box.

We all put ourselves into it anyway.

We define ourselves without even knowing it.

Maybe,

I don't know,

who gives a shit.

- Hey.

Hey!

Where the fuck you going?

[sweet music]

- [Matt] I wasn't sure what kind of flowers you like so,

I just went with my gut.

- It's perfect.

[giggling]

[kissing]

- Hi.

- Hi.

[sniffing]

- [Man At The Bar] Who doesn't want blind acceptance?

- [Avery] Yeah right.

- So you guys,

cool yeah.

- Mhmm great.

Yeah he's sweet.

- For now anyway.

- I don't know what the big deal is anyway.

People are so picky these days,

always looking for the tiniest imperfections.

- That's what everyone does.

- No I don't think if we were trying to find food,

to survive,

we'd give a shit if the provider,

bringing home fresh meat every night was,

a little too hairy,

or had breathe, or liked it a bit too rough.

- He likes it rough?

- No he's fine.

- If you don't like him,

just move on.

- He's meh.

That's I roll,

but it's true.

He's good but he's not great.

- Look,

babes,

there's plenty out there who are good in the sack.

You just need someone between,

milk toast and,

your creepy stalker.

- [Avery] Saying this out loud makes me sound crazy.

- You just don't know what you want.

- I want to be wanted.

- How about,

[whispering]

[laughing]

[sighing]

[chair scraping]

- My man.

Daisy texted me and said I could hang out baby,

and in a school day.

Hey!

Are you cheating on me man?

- What?

- I mean yo man,

what are,

you mister player now or something.

What you got game all of a sudden?

- I'm just trying to move on man.

Bigger and better things.

- Yeah.

Much better.

- Just tryin to be happy.

Just like you said.

Like everyone said.

- Well man,

I'm glad.

- I'll be right back.

- No this motherfucker did not just leave me hangin.

Pft, fuck that.

Give me my drink.

I have been following her.

- What?

- Kim.

Everyday for like a week.

I drive around to clear my head,

and then I find myself parked outside of her place.

- Stop it.

- I'm not gonna do anything.

Look I don't know.

Maybe she wants me to, you know.

- Tom seriously you gotta stop that man.

That's not gonna do anything for this situation.

That's not acceptable behavior.

You know that right?

Look let's just play some video games.

Hey I'll get you really drunk.

Play Mr. Wingman.

We'll find someone with,

questionable morals.

[laughing]

And we'll get you linked up with her.

- Is that happiness?

- More like herpes but,

[laughing]

you'll deal with that when you get there.

- Yuck.

[laughing]

How do you do it man?

- The world is what you want it to be.

Whatever you choose to see.

There it is.

You just got to move.

[upbeat music]

Who are you?

Really.

What makes you dream?

Makes you feel?

I want to know you.

Really know you.

I will not judge.

[sensual music]

- [Avery] Want me.

Watch me.

I feel your eyes as they pull me apart.

[sensual music]

I know you.

You're magic.

I'm safe.

[sensual music]

Always.

[sensual music]

I talk to you in the dark.

What fantasies,

that could come true.

I want you to know.

- [Matt] What is right.

And what is wrong.

To want.

The hunger.

To jones.

- [Avery] I love you.

I said it Paul.

It's nice.

- Have you ever touched yourself?

I mean like,

your stomach,

or your arm,

and thought it was someone else who cares about you,

loves you.

[eerie music]

[rock music]

- [Avery] Hey you.

- Hey.

- This is Roger,

he works around here.

- Oh yeah.

Hi I'm Eric.

- Nice to meet you.

- [Avery] He works as what again?

- I sell people crap.

- Huh.

Do you like it?

- No.

[rock music]

- Seems like work has made you a little cynical.

- Yeah I really don't like it.

But it's something to do.

- Yeah I know what you mean by that.

- Hey you want to play some pool?

[rock music]

[balls clanging]

- Yeah you do that.

And that's what I like.

[laughing]

- Hey you guys want to stop flirting?

- It's your shot.

What the fuck?

[rock music]

♪ She's like like like like before ♪

♪ We're living in an underground ♪

- You shouldn't be so uptight.

- Hey man,

what the hell.

[rock music]

[door slamming]

[lock clicking]

[sniffling]

[water running]

[eerie music]

- When it comes,

the rage is sweet and relenting eh.

Who cares about anyone else?

You're just yourself.

Everyone else is just background.

- Is that selfish?

[eerie music]

[glasses clanking]

- Good things, bad things happen.

Suddenly it's all in the past and no one gives a shit.

- Time just brings forgiveness.

- But,

for stuff like that,

can define you.

- I was in control.

- How did it feel making him squirm?

- Fuck you.

[dramatic music]

[keys jangling]

- What the fuck is your problem?

- Fuck you.

What do you mean?

- You know exactly what I mean.

What the hell was that back there?

- I was just having fun.

- Fuck that.

What was the point of that?

To ignore me like that.

To let him treat you like that in front of me.

- [Avery] Why'd you let him treat me like that,

in front of you?

- So that's how this is gonna work?

You're just gonna turn it around on me,

and then everything becomes justified?

- I don't know I guess.

I was just having fun.

- Obviously not.

Obviously you did this to turn it around on me, didn't you?

- Oh you're mad about it.

Why didn't you do something?

I mean you just let some guy put his hands all over me,

and you just stood there and didn't do a fucking thing.

- I'm sorry, I didn't realize that my girlfriend,

wanted to blow every guy,

that gave her the slightest bit of attention.

- Fuck you.

- No fuck you.

[slapping]

Fuck you.

- If you were a real man,

you would have done something about it.

If you weren't such a fucking pussy,

you would have done something about it.

You would have beat the shit out of that queer,

but no you,

have to act like a fucking faggot.

What kind of a man are you?

[door slamming]

I'm sorry.

[door clanging]

- Hey,

what's going on?

- You too busy to call me back?

- I work a lot.

It's too much going on.

- Are you ignoring me?

If you don't want to hang out,

just say so.

- No, no of course I want to hang out.

Look I'm sorry I'm late.

- You tried to back out of tonight altogether.

- And I apologized.

My friend had a small emergency,

I wasn't sure how serious it was.

But I'm here now, I promise.

- We had plans.

- I'm sorry.

So what's going on?

- Nothing much.

I wanted to surprise you with dinner.

I don't cook but,

I thought you might like it.

- Cool.

So what'd you do today?

- Uh, the usual,

work,

as always.

I was wondering if you just wanted to take off on Sunday.

- Hmm.

- You know just,

take a road trip upstate or something.

Something to break the routine.

Something different,

that we could do together.

- Gotta see what's going on.

It sounds like fun.

- Matt.

Do you love me?

- What kind of question is that?

- A simple one.

- Yeah I like you.

Of course I like you.

- Are you seeing other people?

- What kind of question is that?

Are you seeing other people?

No, no I'm not.

- I'm not either.

I just,

wanted to know.

I'm not meaning to pressure you or anything.

- Its cool.

[somber music]

- I like you, Matt,

a lot.

You're a good person.

I just want us to be able to,

be open.

I don't want you to be closed with me.

[somber music]

- I can't stay.

- What?

What is wrong?

Please stay.

It's okay, it's,

it's okay we can talk about it.

I understand.

- It's just a lot.

You don't understand.

- Make me understand.

- There's a lot of shit going on right now.

- Look Matthew,

I care about you.

And if you don't feel the same,

that's fine.

Just talk to me,

like a human being.

We're not,

saving lives, or killing people here.

[somber music]

- [Matt] I'll talk to you later.

- So that's it?

- Yes.

Yes.

- You're just like everyone else.

You're, you're not special.

You're no different.

You're so no different.

- You're right.

- I loved you.

- I know.

- What the fuck is wrong with you?

- You.

- Just leave.

God I don't give a shit!

[door clanging]

[mellow guitar music]

[phone ringing]

[sighing]

[mellow guitar music]

- It wasn't the empty consequences when I did it.

I just did it and it was done.

It's the reason why things didn't move forward.

I had wanted it.

I wanted this.

I feel like I,

I needed this,

for some sick and stupid fucking reason,

I felt like I deserved it.

I feel like shit man.

And asshole.

I'm an asshole.

[upbeat rock music]

- Wrong party.

- Why would I want to wait for that?

- What?

[upbeat rock music]

[chair screeching]

[upbeat rock music]

[phone ringing]

- [Voicemail] You're call has been forwarded,

to an automated.

[horn honking]

[door slamming]

[birds tweeting]

[eerie music]

[liquid splashing]

[bottles clanking]

[dramatic music]

- God I don't give a shit.

♪ Show me what I want

♪ Now for the time

♪ Let down

♪ And I've thrown some stuff

♪ Hey

♪ Hey

♪ Turns up

♪ Hey turns up

♪ Hey turns up

♪ Hey

♪ Nothings ever better

[sad music]

[engines revving]

[upbeat music]

- Hello. - Hi.

[laughing]

[upbeat music]

♪ You only want to hear the good moves ♪

♪ You and I never play by the same rules ♪

♪ I took a look inside the pantry ♪

♪ Close enough to know the bagel understands me ♪

♪ All that expected

♪ The plans happy endings

♪ Get the fuck out of my mansions ♪

♪ If you follow my lead

♪ Ahh

♪ Call by name

♪ Call me your savior

♪ Fell for the famous alright

♪ It's okay

♪ Girl I never

♪ Call me by name

♪ Call me your savior

♪ Fell from the famous alright

♪ It's okay

♪ I see you through to the weekend ♪

♪ Never making an excuse for a reason ♪

♪ To be different

♪ I got to attempt it

♪ But I could never expect

♪ No plans happy endings

♪ Never walk through my entrance ♪

♪ If you follow my lead

♪ Ahh

♪ Call me by name

♪ Call me your savior

♪ Fell for the famous alright

♪ Its okay

♪ Call me by name

♪ Call me your savior

♪ Fell for the fame it's alright ♪

♪ It's okay

♪ Oh

♪ Call me by name

♪ Call me by name

♪ Ohh

♪ Call me by name

♪ Call me your savior

♪ Fell for the famous it's alright ♪

♪ It's okay

♪ Call me by name

♪ Call me your savior