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All right, y'all,
I'm finna head out.
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Wait, you're, uh,
you're leavin'?
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Yeah, I'm about
to leave right now.
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Is-is everything good?
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Yeah, before you go, bro,
I, I really gotta talk to you about somethin'.
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Like what, man?
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Everything.
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The fuck is you
talkin' 'bout, bruh?
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Bro...
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The fuckin' cops
found Mouse's body.
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Sorry.
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Did you hear what I said?
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Ch-ch-ch...
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I thought you
told me that Laurie killed Mouse, right?
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-Laurie?
-Wha--
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I never said that.
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What are you
talkin' about?
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Yeah, you know, Laurie,
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the drug dealer that
lives in the apartment complex off Kemper.
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Yeah, you were
the one that told me she killed Mouse.
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I never said that.
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-Yes, you did.
-What are you talking about?
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-Are you high?
-You know that Laurie and those
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fucking people,
they scare me.
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Why are you trying
to protect them?
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I'm not fuckin'
protecting anyone.
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What the fuck is this?
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-So, you're working for Laurie?
-Custer: Hey, no!
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So how about you
just shut the fuck up!
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Okay, then why are you
trying to cover up a murder that she committed?
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All right, now.
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Think it's time
for you to get outta here, big fella.
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Bro... we gotta figure out
what the fuck we're gonna say.
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-Okay, this is becoming a fucking issue.
-Wait, Ash. Ash, Ash!
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No!
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Do you ever think
about the future?
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-Yeah, all the time.
-Really?
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Yeah.
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Like you have a plan?
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I mean, I don't, I don't got,
like, a plan-plan,
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but I be thinking about
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living on a farm, you know?
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I don't really
see you as a farmer.
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Yeah, fuck it.
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Get some horses, cows,
pigs, chickens, goats.
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Have a little family.
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Like some "Little House
on the Prairie"-type shit. You know?
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I don't know
if I know that show.
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You never heard of "Little
House on the Prairie"?
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Okay, this might
sound kind of crazy but,
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my plan is to have,
like, three kids at 30.
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Like, each one
a year and a half apart.
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So from 30 to 58,
I can focus on,
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you know, being a good mom
and raising my kids, et cetera, et cetera.
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And then, drop the last one
off at college at 58.
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Which will give me,
like, 32 years
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to focus on me
and live my life
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and take my time
with writing.
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I mean, you really got
this shit all figured out, huh?
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Yeah.
It's kind of crazy, right?
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I mean...
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they got, they got
three kids in that show.
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There's no need
to forget your manners.
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Just because we're
hundreds of miles from civilized folk.
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If you lived in a place
like this, do you think you'd have a gun?
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Hell yeah, I'd own a gun.
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I hate guns.
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Nobody's ever got shot at
and thought to they-self,
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"Whoa! Thank goodness
we didn't have a gun to shoot back." You know?
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Yeah, but then what
are the police for?
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Fucked if I know. Shit.
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Wait, are you
on Instagram or Twitter?
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Hell no.
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-Really? Why?
-Oh yeah.
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Well, why would
I want anybody
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knowin' what I'm
thinkin' or feelin'?
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I don't know.
You can connect
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with people who have
similar interests.
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Mmm.
I just feel like people
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be sharin' way
too much on there.
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-Online?
-Yeah.
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They be ruinin'
the mystery, you know?
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Like, say if I like a girl,
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I wanna find out what she's
about on my own, you know?
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I don't wanna google the scraps.
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I wanna, I wanna
peel back the layers.
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Yeah, but, like, why
would you wanna waste time getting to know someone...
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if you don't have anything
in common with them?
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I don't know.
That's what I like
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about you the most,
though, like...
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we don't really
have nothin' in common.
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That's not true.
We both...
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have the same sense of humor,
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and... are empathic and curious.
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And wanna have, like, kids.
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Those aren't interests,
you know, those are
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real character traits.
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It's--
That's the important shit that, that
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people don't post online.
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Yeah, I never thought
about it that way.
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Well, aren't you glad
that we became friends?
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Yeah... very much so.
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Yeah, me too.
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Hey, Lexi!
It's going so well!
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We're gettin' a lot
of really good laughs.
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Yeah, let's not
get cocky, okay?
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Oh god.
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...thousand versions of myself.
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Only do I look good,
but I fucking feel good--
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Lexi, you really
outdid yourself.
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I mean...
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where did she find
these knock-offs.
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Oh shit.
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I had no idea
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that my sister
had this in her.
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Good job, right?
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Isn't she brave?
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She's up here,
unpacking all of her trauma.
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I had no idea how hard
your life was, Lexi.
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-Shush!
-Can we give a round of applause
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for how hard Lexi's life is?
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Come on, guys.
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I know they hack
the heads off of women in Afghanistan or wherever.
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-That's racist!
-God.
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It is nothing compared
to living in my shadow.
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Yo, is this like
a part of the play?
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Is this part of the play?
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I don't know.
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-Lexi.
- Her name's Luna!
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Is this part
of the play?
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-Lexi?
-Stop, please stop.
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This is your show.
Come out!
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You're the big star
of the day!
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-Oh shit.
-Please, Cassie, stop it.
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You're the star
of the night.
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She's always wanted
to be the star.
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Whoo-hoo! Go, Lexi!
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This is your big moment.
Shine!
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Please, stop. Please, stop.
Please, stop. Please, stop.
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I should stop? Me?
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I'm not the one
putting on a play
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-to humiliate and embarrass you!
-I didn't do that.
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Oh really?!
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Then what is this?!
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-What act are we in?
-Don't question it.
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That's the brilliance
of Lexi Howard.
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Suze: Hi, everyone.
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I'm Suze.
I'm the girls' mom
in real life.
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Oh my god.
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Um, played by Ethan.
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Where is he? Ethan?
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Who by the way--
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he-- you have me down to a,
to a, to a science, honey.
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-Thank you. Thank you, guys. I appreciate it.
-He's gonna win an award.
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Honey, let's go home.
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-I deserve this, right?
-Oh my god, please, Mom, Mom.
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-I deserve this?
-Lexi: Stop!
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- Mom, stop!
-Shh, you stop it.
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Lexi, I'm going
to fucking kill you.
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I deserve this, right?
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Because I've actually
lived a life?
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Mom?
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I'm the one who takes risks.
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Student:
Show us your boobs!
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I'm the one who falls in love?
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I'm the one who gets hurt,
not you, Lexi!
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You never even fucking lived!
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That's why you're able
to stand up here
and judge all of us!
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You're just a fuckin'
bystander.
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-Alright, alright--
-Mom, stop!
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Alright!
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Oh, okay...
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Well if that
makes me a villain,
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-Whoo!
-Then so fuckin' be it.
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I can play
the fucking villain.
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Yeah, do it!
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Lexi, is this
the part of the play
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where I steal Jake from Marta?
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No, Cassie,
that's not in the play.
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It is now!
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Who said that?
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Look, I wanna say,
I get it.
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-Oh god...
-I understand what you're going through.
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-I do not want to hear from you.
-I lived it.
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Wait, Hallie steals
Marta's boyfriend?
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I don't know how many times
I have to say this.
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They were not
fucking together.
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Yeah, not only that,
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but she was fucking him
the entire time
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Marta was talking about
getting back together with him.
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No... Why?
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Because Hallie
is a two-faced cunt.
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I'm not a cunt!
You're the cunt!
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You're the fucking cunt,
bitch!
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I am not a fucking cunt.
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Language, missy!
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Okay, okay, you know what?
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You're just fucking
embarrassing yourself.
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-Let's go home.
-I'm not going home.
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-The play's not over.
-Oh, my god.
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I feel like
I'm gonna throw up.
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-Mom, this isn't fair!
-Suze: It's not her fault.
She's a writer.
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-She's a writer!
-This isn't fair, Mom!
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How can she do this--?
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$3.25 for a grapefruit?
What is this, Venezuela?
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- Lexi, Lexi, I'm gonna fucking kill you!
-Okay, enough!
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-Mom!
-I don't know. I'm panicking.
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Go away. Just go away.
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Stop. Stop it!
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Oh, my god, yes!
Oh, that's it!
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Oh, my god, I just
love fucking everything!
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No!
I'm going to fucking kill you!
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-Get the fuck off of the horse.
-Ow!
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Get off!
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Get off!
You fucking bitch!
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Oh, this bitch
needs to be put down.
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No, no, no.
Maddy! No!
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Maddy, no, no, no,
no, no, no, no, no!
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No, no, no, Maddy!
No, no, no, no, no!
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-Maddy, no!
-Maddy, beat her ass!
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Fucking bitch!
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Fuck you!
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Oh fuck.
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Ooh!
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No, no! Stop! Stop!
Stop this! Stop, stop...
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Maddy! No, no, no, no, no, no!
No, no, no!
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Maddy! No!
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Beat her fuckin' ass, Maddy!
She fuckin' deserves that shit!
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She fucked your boyfriend!
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It's all make-believe.
This is all scripted.
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Can you believe this?
My baby's a genius.
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Close the curtain!
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Close the fucking curtain!
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Now!
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A few days earlier,
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I stopped by Elliot's.
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Yo... Hey.
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-What's goin' on?
-Ah, nothin' much. I was just, uh...
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walkin' around
the neighborhood.
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Thought I'd stop by
and come tell ya
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to go fuck yourself
for bein' a snitch.
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Uh...
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uh...
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I know, but for real,
man, I, um...
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I think you might've
accidentally saved my life.
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So, uh, you know,
whatever happened...
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however it happened,
you know, however...
248
00:15:37,562 --> 00:15:42,567
it got to be...
whatever it is, uh...
249
00:15:42,651 --> 00:15:44,069
thank God it did.
250
00:15:47,781 --> 00:15:51,368
'Cause I wouldn't be here
to tell you that I forgive you.
251
00:15:51,451 --> 00:15:53,120
And that feels...
252
00:15:53,203 --> 00:15:56,164
that feels really,
really nice because, uh,
253
00:15:56,248 --> 00:15:58,917
I have a lot of
"I'm sorry's" to do.
254
00:16:01,128 --> 00:16:03,338
But not a lot
of "I forgive you's."
255
00:16:04,339 --> 00:16:05,674
So...
256
00:16:07,926 --> 00:16:09,386
thank you for that.
257
00:16:13,807 --> 00:16:15,684
So, you're not doin' anything?
258
00:16:18,437 --> 00:16:19,730
Nah, you?
259
00:16:21,606 --> 00:16:22,691
Yeah.
260
00:16:24,359 --> 00:16:27,654
-Don't worry.
I'm not gonna tell anyone.
-Thank you. Yeah.
261
00:16:31,032 --> 00:16:32,826
You talk to Jules?
262
00:16:36,788 --> 00:16:39,916
-No, you?
-Not really.
263
00:16:43,754 --> 00:16:46,631
Yeah, that one's gonna
take me a little bit longer.
264
00:16:47,507 --> 00:16:48,759
I get that.
265
00:16:55,015 --> 00:16:57,851
Can I play you something?
266
00:16:59,770 --> 00:17:01,730
Uh, yeah, sure.
Go ahead.
267
00:17:09,613 --> 00:17:10,697
Okay.
268
00:17:13,116 --> 00:17:16,119
♪ I've got no place ♪
269
00:17:16,203 --> 00:17:21,416
♪ Buildin' you a rocket
up to outer space ♪
270
00:17:23,376 --> 00:17:26,421
♪ I watch you fade ♪
271
00:17:26,505 --> 00:17:31,718
♪ Keepin' the lights on
in this forsaken place ♪
272
00:17:31,802 --> 00:17:34,554
♪ Little star ♪
273
00:17:37,057 --> 00:17:41,895
♪ Feels like you fell
right on my head ♪
274
00:17:41,978 --> 00:17:46,983
♪ Gave you away to the wind ♪
275
00:17:47,067 --> 00:17:51,279
♪ I hope it was
worth it in the end ♪
276
00:17:52,239 --> 00:17:57,077
♪ You and my guitar ♪
277
00:17:57,160 --> 00:18:02,290
♪ I think you may be
my only friend ♪
278
00:18:02,374 --> 00:18:07,420
♪ I gave it all
to see you shine again ♪
279
00:18:07,504 --> 00:18:12,759
♪ I hope it was
worth it in the end ♪
280
00:18:14,511 --> 00:18:17,597
♪ Us against the world ♪
281
00:18:17,681 --> 00:18:22,936
♪ Just a couple sinners
makin' fun of hell ♪
282
00:18:24,688 --> 00:18:27,899
♪ If I keep you here ♪
283
00:18:27,983 --> 00:18:33,071
♪ I'll only be doing it
for myself ♪
284
00:18:33,154 --> 00:18:35,907
♪ Little star ♪
285
00:18:38,034 --> 00:18:43,248
♪ Feels like you fell
right on my head ♪
286
00:18:43,331 --> 00:18:48,295
♪ Gave you away to the wind ♪
287
00:18:48,378 --> 00:18:52,591
♪ I hope it was
worth it in the end ♪
288
00:18:53,508 --> 00:18:56,845
♪ Yeah, I hope so ♪
289
00:18:58,555 --> 00:19:03,727
♪ Think you may be
my only friend ♪
290
00:19:03,810 --> 00:19:08,732
♪ I gave it all
to see you shine again ♪
291
00:19:08,815 --> 00:19:14,404
♪ I hope it was
worth it in the end ♪
292
00:19:14,487 --> 00:19:19,242
♪ I know this thing is broken ♪
293
00:19:19,326 --> 00:19:24,497
♪ So I leave
my door wide open ♪
294
00:19:24,581 --> 00:19:29,711
♪ Been some time
since we've spoken ♪
295
00:19:29,794 --> 00:19:34,716
♪ One day we'll meet again ♪
296
00:19:34,799 --> 00:19:39,804
♪ Some distance
when you're older ♪
297
00:19:39,888 --> 00:19:45,018
♪ You'll come laying
on my shoulder ♪
298
00:19:45,101 --> 00:19:50,148
♪ Tell me that storm is over ♪
299
00:19:50,231 --> 00:19:54,319
♪ That day we meet again ♪
300
00:19:58,365 --> 00:20:03,495
♪ Feels like you fell
right on my head ♪
301
00:20:03,578 --> 00:20:08,625
♪ Gave you away to the wind ♪
302
00:20:08,708 --> 00:20:13,838
♪ I hope it was
worth it in the end ♪
303
00:20:13,922 --> 00:20:17,092
♪ You and my guitar ♪
304
00:20:18,843 --> 00:20:24,015
♪ I think you may be
my only friend ♪
305
00:20:24,099 --> 00:20:29,145
♪ I gave you away, mm-mm-mm ♪
306
00:20:29,229 --> 00:20:33,817
♪ I hope it was
worth it in the end ♪
307
00:20:33,900 --> 00:20:35,860
I'm still workin' on it.
308
00:20:40,323 --> 00:20:41,408
I like it.
309
00:20:44,744 --> 00:20:48,415
Um... truth or dare?
310
00:20:52,252 --> 00:20:53,712
Truth.
311
00:20:56,923 --> 00:20:59,175
Do you think we can
still be friends?
312
00:21:02,595 --> 00:21:05,557
You know you're the one
who said we weren't
any good for each other.
313
00:21:07,142 --> 00:21:09,310
I still think that.
314
00:21:44,512 --> 00:21:47,682
Yeah...
I, I found her.
315
00:21:51,352 --> 00:21:55,190
I'm telling everyone
that that was a part
of the play.
316
00:21:58,943 --> 00:22:03,198
It's the only thing
I've ever done
and it's a disaster.
317
00:22:03,281 --> 00:22:04,574
It could be worse.
318
00:22:06,242 --> 00:22:07,327
How?
319
00:22:08,161 --> 00:22:11,289
It could be boring.
320
00:22:11,372 --> 00:22:12,707
That's true.
321
00:22:13,750 --> 00:22:16,002
I mean, how many shows
322
00:22:16,086 --> 00:22:18,254
in the history
of East Highland High
323
00:22:18,338 --> 00:22:19,839
has started a riot?
324
00:22:22,217 --> 00:22:26,054
It's not even over yet.
325
00:22:26,137 --> 00:22:28,765
Art should be dangerous.
326
00:22:31,392 --> 00:22:33,269
The show goes on.
327
00:23:24,737 --> 00:23:27,323
Lexi, Lexi, Lexi!
328
00:23:27,407 --> 00:23:30,285
Lexi, Lexi, Lexi!
329
00:23:35,206 --> 00:23:37,417
Lexi, Lexi, Lexi!
330
00:24:05,570 --> 00:24:09,282
Hallie... dust yourself off...
331
00:24:09,365 --> 00:24:11,618
and get back on that pony.
332
00:24:11,701 --> 00:24:12,911
Giddy up.
333
00:24:14,287 --> 00:24:16,414
Let's fuckin' do this.
334
00:24:27,926 --> 00:24:30,053
Um, as you may have noticed,
335
00:24:30,136 --> 00:24:33,348
we're experiencing some
technical difficulties.
336
00:24:34,307 --> 00:24:35,725
Um, but seriously,
337
00:24:35,808 --> 00:24:38,228
I think we're gonna
need a few minutes.
338
00:24:38,311 --> 00:24:39,938
Um...
339
00:24:40,021 --> 00:24:43,358
I just wanted
to thank you all
for being here.
340
00:24:43,441 --> 00:24:47,111
I didn't know
any of that was
gonna happen, uh...
341
00:24:47,195 --> 00:24:48,571
A little bit ago,
342
00:24:48,655 --> 00:24:53,409
I was talking to a friend
about this play,
343
00:24:53,493 --> 00:24:55,620
and I asked him...
344
00:24:56,621 --> 00:24:59,290
"What if I upset people?"
345
00:24:59,374 --> 00:25:01,125
And he said to me,
346
00:25:01,209 --> 00:25:04,754
"Sometimes, people need
to get their feelings hurt."
347
00:25:07,632 --> 00:25:08,800
Um...
348
00:25:08,883 --> 00:25:12,679
so even though he couldn't
be here with us tonight...
349
00:25:12,762 --> 00:25:14,514
this one's for you.
350
00:25:33,032 --> 00:25:35,285
I'm sorry, bruh,
351
00:25:35,368 --> 00:25:38,454
but we have to make it
look like you ain't do this.
352
00:25:38,538 --> 00:25:43,418
Just get out, man.
The cops are gon' kick down
that door any second, bro.
353
00:25:43,501 --> 00:25:46,546
Even if they know that
you did this, bruh...
354
00:25:46,629 --> 00:25:49,424
I'm still gonna
go down longer.
355
00:25:49,507 --> 00:25:51,134
- No.
-Come here, bruh.
356
00:25:53,094 --> 00:25:54,429
Listen to me.
357
00:25:55,388 --> 00:25:56,931
Just go out there and surrender.
358
00:25:57,015 --> 00:25:59,434
It's all on me, bruh.
You hear me?
359
00:25:59,517 --> 00:26:01,185
-No.
-They gon' come in here.
360
00:26:01,269 --> 00:26:04,397
They gon' find me
with the knife in my hand.
361
00:26:04,480 --> 00:26:06,816
Tell 'em you had nothin'
to do with this shit.
362
00:26:06,899 --> 00:26:10,028
Listen to me.
I did this shit!
363
00:26:10,111 --> 00:26:11,988
I killed this muthafucker.
364
00:26:12,071 --> 00:26:14,490
You hearin' me?
Not you.
365
00:26:14,574 --> 00:26:15,867
Mm-mm. No.
366
00:26:15,950 --> 00:26:19,662
C'mon, now go wash
your fucking hands.
367
00:26:19,746 --> 00:26:21,289
I love you, brother.
368
00:27:30,983 --> 00:27:35,655
Ash, stop playin'!
I need you to walk out this
fuckin' door right now, bruh!
369
00:27:35,738 --> 00:27:38,199
Ash, we not doin'
this shit, man!
370
00:27:38,282 --> 00:27:40,743
How you think this
gonna end, bruh?!
371
00:27:40,827 --> 00:27:42,537
You trying to die?
372
00:27:54,841 --> 00:27:56,801
Give me the gun, bruh.
373
00:28:00,263 --> 00:28:02,640
Ash...
374
00:28:02,723 --> 00:28:05,351
I'm not finna let
nothin' happen to you.
Now, give me the gun.
375
00:28:05,435 --> 00:28:07,353
Come on, bro.
376
00:28:10,064 --> 00:28:12,233
I'm not fuckin' askin', bro.
377
00:28:13,985 --> 00:28:16,112
Come on, bro, please.
378
00:28:45,391 --> 00:28:46,601
Fuck!
379
00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:57,695
Ash!
Ash, open the fucking
door right now!
380
00:29:00,364 --> 00:29:01,741
I'm not playin' with you!
381
00:29:01,824 --> 00:29:03,159
Ash!
382
00:29:03,242 --> 00:29:05,077
Open the fucking door!
383
00:29:48,871 --> 00:29:50,540
Wrong. I know.
384
00:29:50,623 --> 00:29:53,209
Cal's Friend:
Enough with the dirty dad joke.
385
00:29:53,292 --> 00:29:54,669
Who is that?
386
00:29:56,504 --> 00:29:58,214
You know him?
387
00:29:58,297 --> 00:30:01,467
("I Can't Get You Out of My Head" playing on radio)
388
00:30:04,595 --> 00:30:06,973
You're not even gonna
give me a hug, Dad?
389
00:30:07,056 --> 00:30:10,643
♪ La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la ♪
390
00:30:15,648 --> 00:30:17,149
That's your son?
391
00:30:18,651 --> 00:30:23,531
♪ Just to be there
in your arms ♪
392
00:30:23,614 --> 00:30:24,657
Yep.
393
00:30:25,825 --> 00:30:27,618
Got all the best
parts of him.
394
00:30:28,578 --> 00:30:30,454
Think I know
what part that is.
395
00:30:40,089 --> 00:30:42,717
You know what I think
we have in common?
396
00:30:47,221 --> 00:30:49,849
When we both get off
on hurting other people.
397
00:30:50,641 --> 00:30:52,101
What do ya think?
398
00:30:55,646 --> 00:30:58,524
-You wanna talk
about this upstairs?
-Nate: No.
399
00:31:14,206 --> 00:31:17,001
So, you, uh,
livin' here now?
400
00:31:18,961 --> 00:31:20,796
Uh, or the moment, yeah.
401
00:31:24,675 --> 00:31:25,926
Ya happy?
402
00:31:28,512 --> 00:31:29,889
I'm figuring it out.
403
00:31:34,560 --> 00:31:35,728
Sorry.
404
00:31:47,740 --> 00:31:50,826
-Are you happier?
- Why don't we go talk about this upstairs?
405
00:31:50,910 --> 00:31:53,287
-It's a simple question.
-Yes...
406
00:31:54,997 --> 00:31:56,290
In some ways.
407
00:31:58,668 --> 00:32:02,088
-That's not fair.
-I know.
408
00:32:02,171 --> 00:32:04,799
You don't get
to ruin our lives.
409
00:32:04,882 --> 00:32:08,135
And then, just... move on
and get to be happier.
410
00:32:09,637 --> 00:32:11,806
I've made a lot of mistakes.
411
00:32:14,809 --> 00:32:16,310
When I was...
412
00:32:19,313 --> 00:32:21,023
eleven years old...
413
00:32:22,650 --> 00:32:27,196
I found these videos of my dad
fucking hookers in a motel room.
414
00:32:30,783 --> 00:32:32,118
You know, for the longest time,
415
00:32:32,201 --> 00:32:35,454
I had this recurring nightmare,
just over and over...
416
00:32:36,956 --> 00:32:40,459
and in it, he was fuckin' me
the way that he fucked them.
417
00:32:46,507 --> 00:32:49,427
Did I ever tell you
about that, Dad?
418
00:32:49,510 --> 00:32:53,931
I think it's time that...
uh, that everybody go.
419
00:32:54,014 --> 00:32:58,310
-Um, um, I need
to talk to my son.
-Oh god.
420
00:33:02,231 --> 00:33:04,108
Good luck.
421
00:33:04,191 --> 00:33:06,277
-Bye.
-See ya, buddy.
422
00:33:11,490 --> 00:33:14,660
I spent my whole life
tryin' to protect you.
423
00:33:14,744 --> 00:33:18,038
And instead of loving me,
you fuckin' hated me for it.
424
00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:24,086
I'm not proud
of the person I've been.
425
00:33:24,170 --> 00:33:26,422
I know that
I've hurt you.
426
00:33:28,340 --> 00:33:29,717
I don't wanna hear it.
427
00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:31,969
I tried to keep it separate.
428
00:33:32,052 --> 00:33:33,512
I failed.
429
00:33:39,226 --> 00:33:40,978
I fucked up, Nate...
430
00:33:43,898 --> 00:33:45,399
but I love you.
431
00:33:47,026 --> 00:33:48,527
I love you.
432
00:33:49,528 --> 00:33:50,905
And I should've
protected you,
433
00:33:50,988 --> 00:33:53,616
I should've
kept you safe,
and I didn't.
434
00:33:54,283 --> 00:33:55,826
I didn't.
435
00:33:58,287 --> 00:34:00,706
And there's nothing
I regret more.
436
00:34:07,379 --> 00:34:09,507
I don't want your apology.
437
00:34:15,429 --> 00:34:17,556
I just want revenge.
438
00:34:18,641 --> 00:34:20,309
What does that mean?
439
00:34:31,779 --> 00:34:33,531
What is that?
440
00:34:39,829 --> 00:34:41,413
It's everything.
441
00:34:45,042 --> 00:34:46,460
Everything.
442
00:34:53,300 --> 00:34:54,552
Nate...
443
00:34:57,972 --> 00:34:59,306
don't do this.
444
00:35:00,474 --> 00:35:01,809
Nate, look at me.
445
00:35:02,977 --> 00:35:04,937
Do not do this.
446
00:35:06,897 --> 00:35:07,940
Nate, don't do this.
447
00:35:08,023 --> 00:35:09,525
I'm, I'm,
I'm begging you.
448
00:35:09,608 --> 00:35:12,027
-Don't do this.
-You are...
449
00:35:12,111 --> 00:35:13,571
who you are.
450
00:35:16,282 --> 00:35:18,492
I don't think you're
ever gonna change.
451
00:35:37,011 --> 00:35:39,805
Chief Greenwood?
He's in here.
452
00:35:43,350 --> 00:35:45,352
Thanks, Nate.
Appreciate it.
453
00:36:01,243 --> 00:36:03,162
Cal, you're under arrest.
454
00:36:03,245 --> 00:36:05,706
Put your hands
behind your head.
455
00:36:05,789 --> 00:36:07,041
Both of 'em.
456
00:36:31,857 --> 00:36:33,776
Hands up!
457
00:36:38,030 --> 00:36:41,325
Ash!
458
00:36:43,994 --> 00:36:45,913
Hands in the air!
459
00:36:45,996 --> 00:36:48,165
Hands in the air!
460
00:36:49,375 --> 00:36:51,835
Don't do this shit!
461
00:36:51,919 --> 00:36:53,462
Hands up!
462
00:36:54,546 --> 00:36:56,423
Hands up!
463
00:36:56,507 --> 00:36:57,967
On the ground!
464
00:36:58,050 --> 00:36:59,259
Open door right!
465
00:37:01,762 --> 00:37:03,597
Get 'em up!
466
00:37:07,935 --> 00:37:09,979
Come on! Come out!
467
00:37:10,062 --> 00:37:11,563
Ash!
468
00:37:11,647 --> 00:37:13,524
Ash, open the door!
469
00:37:13,607 --> 00:37:16,527
-Don't move!
-Drop the knife now!
470
00:37:16,610 --> 00:37:19,488
Don't shoot, don't shoot!
There's a kid in there!
471
00:37:19,571 --> 00:37:21,282
Don't shoot! Don't shoot!
Don't shoot!
472
00:37:21,365 --> 00:37:24,076
-There's a kid in here! There's a kid in here!
-Drop the knife now!
473
00:37:24,159 --> 00:37:25,411
Please, don't shoot!
474
00:37:25,494 --> 00:37:27,454
Ash, come outta there!
475
00:37:27,538 --> 00:37:28,789
Drop your knife!
476
00:37:28,872 --> 00:37:31,125
Move slowly!
There's a kid in here!
477
00:37:31,208 --> 00:37:32,501
Please, don't shoot!
478
00:37:32,584 --> 00:37:34,962
-Please, Ash, come out!
-Move back to my voice!
479
00:37:35,045 --> 00:37:36,422
-Keep backing out!
-Ash!
480
00:37:36,505 --> 00:37:38,173
Come out, man!
481
00:37:40,300 --> 00:37:42,177
There's a fuckin' kid
up in there!
482
00:37:47,683 --> 00:37:48,809
Aaaah!
483
00:37:53,689 --> 00:37:56,191
Ash!
484
00:38:04,575 --> 00:38:06,535
Ash!
485
00:38:16,503 --> 00:38:17,588
Don't shoot!
486
00:38:17,671 --> 00:38:21,508
Ash, come on!
Get outta there!
487
00:38:28,682 --> 00:38:33,270
Please! Ash, come on, please!
488
00:38:33,353 --> 00:38:36,482
Don't shoot him!
It's a fucking kid!
489
00:38:37,483 --> 00:38:41,403
Don't shoot! Don't shoot! Ash!
490
00:38:58,504 --> 00:39:01,173
Ash!
491
00:39:16,897 --> 00:39:18,065
Ash!
492
00:39:21,735 --> 00:39:23,237
Ash!
493
00:39:24,947 --> 00:39:27,491
Ash! Ash!
494
00:39:28,951 --> 00:39:30,202
Answer me!
495
00:39:33,705 --> 00:39:36,583
Ash!
496
00:39:46,176 --> 00:39:47,427
Shh.
497
00:40:07,239 --> 00:40:08,490
He's down!
498
00:40:54,786 --> 00:40:57,039
I was in the hall
when you died.
499
00:40:58,916 --> 00:41:03,420
You let out a loud cry
like you didn't know what was gonna happen...
500
00:41:04,338 --> 00:41:06,381
and then,
it was silent.
501
00:41:08,675 --> 00:41:12,888
My... my first
thought was...
502
00:41:12,971 --> 00:41:15,098
"This feels
like a movie."
503
00:41:17,434 --> 00:41:19,061
I know a lot of people
feel that way when
504
00:41:19,144 --> 00:41:21,313
traumatic things
happen to them.
505
00:41:24,274 --> 00:41:27,069
Uh, at least,
I, I hear that a lot.
506
00:41:28,362 --> 00:41:30,405
It didn't feel real.
507
00:41:34,743 --> 00:41:36,703
It felt like a movie.
508
00:41:38,664 --> 00:41:40,457
Uh, and this is it.
This is...
509
00:41:40,541 --> 00:41:43,835
This is the part where
the character never recovers.
510
00:41:47,881 --> 00:41:51,093
The part where...
life takes them down.
511
00:41:52,427 --> 00:41:53,887
This is the s--
512
00:41:56,098 --> 00:41:58,600
This is the scene
that scars her forever.
513
00:42:06,650 --> 00:42:08,068
Lexi.
514
00:42:08,151 --> 00:42:10,862
-Get dressed. It's your dad.
-Lexi: What?
515
00:43:42,913 --> 00:43:46,041
Feel like your whole life
you've been forced
to take care of everyone.
516
00:44:13,276 --> 00:44:15,612
I, uh--
517
00:44:16,363 --> 00:44:18,615
I watched you die...
518
00:44:18,698 --> 00:44:22,494
and all I could think about
was how none of it felt real.
519
00:44:26,498 --> 00:44:29,042
The lights,
the heavy boots
of the EMTs
520
00:44:29,126 --> 00:44:32,212
and their respectful,
quiet voices...
521
00:44:34,131 --> 00:44:36,091
"Let's lift him on three."
522
00:44:39,052 --> 00:44:40,762
It was so quiet.
523
00:44:46,059 --> 00:44:47,269
I was numb.
524
00:44:47,894 --> 00:44:49,813
I didn't care.
525
00:44:49,896 --> 00:44:53,859
I wasn't feeling life
in the way it was meant
to be felt because...
526
00:44:55,485 --> 00:44:58,613
I wasn't present.
I wasn't actually there.
527
00:44:58,697 --> 00:45:00,532
I was just watching it.
528
00:45:06,121 --> 00:45:08,039
But that's not true.
529
00:45:10,375 --> 00:45:12,836
I do care.
530
00:45:16,465 --> 00:45:17,883
And what if...
531
00:45:20,927 --> 00:45:23,847
what if... the reason
it felt like a movie
532
00:45:23,930 --> 00:45:27,309
was because I wanted
to believe that losing you...
533
00:45:28,393 --> 00:45:30,729
is a part of a larger story.
534
00:45:32,939 --> 00:45:34,733
One that maybe I could...
535
00:45:35,901 --> 00:45:37,819
maybe I could still shape.
536
00:45:45,327 --> 00:45:50,832
I... I remember
a couple of days before
you passed away.
537
00:45:52,417 --> 00:45:53,752
You told me...
538
00:45:55,045 --> 00:45:57,380
that if I ever wanted
to be with you...
539
00:45:59,382 --> 00:46:01,885
all I would have to do
is close my eyes...
540
00:46:03,303 --> 00:46:05,347
and we'd be together.
541
00:46:12,395 --> 00:46:13,688
You said that...
542
00:46:14,898 --> 00:46:17,692
memories exist
outside of time...
543
00:46:18,902 --> 00:46:21,363
and have no
beginning or end.
544
00:46:23,782 --> 00:46:26,868
You said as long as I live...
545
00:46:26,952 --> 00:46:29,079
you'll be with me forever.
546
00:46:34,292 --> 00:46:36,044
I miss you, Dad.
547
00:46:39,005 --> 00:46:41,174
I miss you until
I close my eyes.
548
00:46:43,510 --> 00:46:44,803
That's it.
549
00:46:46,721 --> 00:46:48,265
Thank you.
550
00:47:14,207 --> 00:47:15,458
Hey.
551
00:47:16,126 --> 00:47:17,502
Hey.
552
00:47:18,336 --> 00:47:19,504
Um...
553
00:47:21,464 --> 00:47:24,426
I, I just, I just wanted
to tell you that I...
554
00:47:25,802 --> 00:47:28,430
I thought your play
was really beautiful.
555
00:47:31,266 --> 00:47:33,310
You might be the only
one who thinks that.
556
00:47:33,393 --> 00:47:36,271
Yeah, well, could you
imagine if I, like,
557
00:47:36,354 --> 00:47:38,481
hated it and Cassie loved it?
558
00:47:42,235 --> 00:47:44,237
Um, but what are
you doing today?
559
00:47:44,321 --> 00:47:45,822
Um, I was--
560
00:47:48,074 --> 00:47:50,285
Yeah, just laying in bed.
561
00:47:52,370 --> 00:47:56,416
Cool, well, um, can I...
maybe, like, come over?
562
00:47:57,918 --> 00:47:58,960
Yeah.
563
00:47:59,753 --> 00:48:00,837
Totally.
564
00:48:00,920 --> 00:48:03,632
Okay cool.
I'll... see you later then.
565
00:48:03,715 --> 00:48:05,467
-Okay.
-Okay, bye.
566
00:48:57,268 --> 00:49:00,563
I feel like all
the kids in high school are super crazy.
567
00:49:00,647 --> 00:49:02,357
It's literally
the same as eighth grade.
568
00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:05,026
People are just
way more dramatic.
569
00:49:05,110 --> 00:49:07,529
All the senior guys
are, like, nice.
570
00:49:08,363 --> 00:49:10,115
How are you
feeling?
571
00:49:11,950 --> 00:49:14,119
I don't know.
I'm okay.
572
00:49:24,754 --> 00:49:26,089
All right, all right.
I never see the five
573
00:49:26,172 --> 00:49:27,173
of you little
babies together,
574
00:49:27,257 --> 00:49:28,758
so we're gonna take
a photo, okay?
575
00:49:28,842 --> 00:49:30,593
-No, Mom, please don't take a photo.
-All right, everyone come
576
00:49:30,677 --> 00:49:32,095
together like that.
Beautiful!
577
00:49:32,178 --> 00:49:33,972
-Mom, no one wants to remember this moment.
-Oh, you little
578
00:49:34,055 --> 00:49:36,474
-sugar sweethearts.
-Please, stop, stop.
579
00:49:46,151 --> 00:49:47,736
I think your play
was the first time
580
00:49:47,819 --> 00:49:50,655
I was able to look at my life
and not hate myself...
581
00:49:52,490 --> 00:49:54,242
for everything I've done.
582
00:49:55,994 --> 00:49:57,328
What do you mean?
583
00:50:00,540 --> 00:50:03,710
I don't know.
I think I've been through a lot.
584
00:50:05,336 --> 00:50:07,297
And I don't know
what to do with it.
585
00:50:09,549 --> 00:50:11,885
But you've been through a lot
and you know what to do with it.
586
00:50:11,968 --> 00:50:15,889
-I don't know about that.
-Lex, look what you made.
587
00:50:17,182 --> 00:50:19,768
I don't know how to do that.
588
00:50:25,857 --> 00:50:28,735
I don't know how to get
to where you are.
589
00:50:34,032 --> 00:50:37,368
But I just wanted you
to know that seeing it
meant the world to me.
590
00:50:55,094 --> 00:50:57,514
Do you think about
your dad often?
591
00:51:03,478 --> 00:51:04,479
Me too.
592
00:51:04,562 --> 00:51:06,189
I feel like I had
so much to learn
593
00:51:06,272 --> 00:51:09,317
from him still,
you know?
594
00:51:09,400 --> 00:51:11,611
I also think I'm
really angry about it.
595
00:51:12,237 --> 00:51:13,822
Yeah.
596
00:51:16,866 --> 00:51:20,078
Do you ever...
get angry about it?
597
00:51:21,871 --> 00:51:24,791
It's a bit more
complicated than that.
598
00:51:24,874 --> 00:51:26,584
What do you mean?
599
00:51:26,668 --> 00:51:28,461
I think, like...
600
00:51:28,545 --> 00:51:31,548
I was kind of relieved
when he stopped showing up.
601
00:51:31,631 --> 00:51:34,384
'Cause I was so worried
something bad was gonna happen.
602
00:51:39,764 --> 00:51:40,890
I get that.
603
00:51:42,809 --> 00:51:43,852
Now...
604
00:51:43,935 --> 00:51:47,105
every time the phone rings,
it's like...
605
00:51:49,023 --> 00:51:50,149
You know?
606
00:52:01,077 --> 00:52:03,204
But you figured it out.
607
00:52:05,081 --> 00:52:06,833
You fuckin' figured it out.
608
00:52:12,046 --> 00:52:14,465
When my dad died,
everybody would tell me that...
609
00:52:14,549 --> 00:52:16,384
he died
for a reason.
610
00:52:18,219 --> 00:52:21,764
Ah, that shit
used to piss me off.
611
00:52:21,848 --> 00:52:24,267
I would literally wanna
fucking strangle them.
612
00:52:27,729 --> 00:52:29,606
But...
613
00:52:29,689 --> 00:52:33,359
I think what they're
actually saying is that you gotta give it a reason.
614
00:52:38,072 --> 00:52:40,283
You gotta give all
this shit a reason.
615
00:52:44,078 --> 00:52:47,457
Because I don't wanna
hold on to this forever.
616
00:52:50,376 --> 00:52:53,463
I can't, I can't
hold on to it forever.
617
00:52:57,592 --> 00:52:59,260
Just doesn't feel good.
618
00:53:01,387 --> 00:53:02,764
It's just--
619
00:53:02,847 --> 00:53:06,142
-I know other people are, like, built different, but--
-Yeah.
620
00:53:08,978 --> 00:53:10,605
it's too much for me.
621
00:53:14,359 --> 00:53:17,070
-I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
-No.
622
00:53:17,153 --> 00:53:20,365
-No, sorry.
-I'm sorry. I didn't--
623
00:53:24,160 --> 00:53:25,411
Lexi...
624
00:53:26,913 --> 00:53:29,457
I promise you,
it's not all his fault.
625
00:53:35,713 --> 00:53:37,465
I don't know for certain...
626
00:53:41,094 --> 00:53:42,303
but I'm, uh...
627
00:53:44,806 --> 00:53:46,432
I'm pretty sure he
wakes up every day
628
00:53:46,516 --> 00:53:48,977
and he thinks,
"I'm gonna be better for her.
629
00:53:50,436 --> 00:53:52,397
I'm gonna be there for her."
630
00:53:59,153 --> 00:54:00,905
That's also the problem.
631
00:54:02,573 --> 00:54:04,826
Because he only wants
to be better for you.
632
00:54:13,376 --> 00:54:16,921
Because I know that
he loves you a lot more
than he loves himself.
633
00:54:21,384 --> 00:54:22,885
Mm.
634
00:54:22,969 --> 00:54:25,680
I don't know if that
made you feel better.
635
00:54:28,641 --> 00:54:29,892
Thank you.
636
00:54:44,824 --> 00:54:46,242
It's okay.
637
00:55:06,179 --> 00:55:07,847
I miss you.
638
00:56:26,175 --> 00:56:28,094
Do you know what's funny?
639
00:56:30,680 --> 00:56:33,975
Nate broke up with me before
I even went on that stage.
640
00:56:37,770 --> 00:56:39,063
Don't worry.
641
00:56:40,189 --> 00:56:42,275
This is just the beginning.
642
00:57:45,379 --> 00:57:46,923
Jules: Sorry.
643
00:57:47,006 --> 00:57:48,257
Sorry.
644
00:57:48,925 --> 00:57:50,301
Sorry.
645
00:57:50,927 --> 00:57:52,136
Hi!
646
00:58:00,895 --> 00:58:04,857
I know you're probably
still really angry at me...
647
00:58:06,317 --> 00:58:11,030
but I just wanted to tell
you that I love you.
648
00:58:13,741 --> 00:58:15,493
And I miss you.
649
00:58:16,369 --> 00:58:17,787
So much.
650
00:59:08,337 --> 00:59:11,215
Jules was my first love.
651
00:59:11,299 --> 00:59:14,051
I'd like to
remember it that way.
652
00:59:14,135 --> 00:59:17,054
I don't know if that's
actually true, though.
653
00:59:17,138 --> 00:59:19,348
I think I was high
for too much of it.
654
00:59:20,599 --> 00:59:22,310
I know it wasn't easy for her.
655
00:59:22,393 --> 00:59:24,312
And I hope she forgives me.
656
00:59:29,233 --> 00:59:32,611
I stayed clean through
the rest of the school year.
657
00:59:32,695 --> 00:59:36,032
I wish I could say that
was a decision I made.
658
00:59:36,115 --> 00:59:38,659
In some ways,
it was just easier.
659
00:59:40,703 --> 00:59:43,414
I don't know if this feeling
will last forever...
660
00:59:45,333 --> 00:59:47,043
but I am trying.
661
00:59:52,548 --> 00:59:54,508
I remember Ali said,
662
00:59:54,592 --> 00:59:57,511
"The thought of maybe
being a good person,
663
00:59:57,595 --> 01:00:00,473
is what keeps me trying
to be a good person."
664
01:00:02,892 --> 01:00:05,186
Maybe there's
something to that.
665
01:00:06,729 --> 01:00:08,522
♪ Hey, Lord ♪
666
01:00:08,606 --> 01:00:12,151
♪ You know I'm trying ♪
667
01:00:13,486 --> 01:00:15,112
♪ Hey, Lord ♪
668
01:00:15,196 --> 01:00:18,824
♪ You know I'm trying ♪
669
01:00:20,451 --> 01:00:23,746
♪ It's all I got ♪
670
01:00:23,829 --> 01:00:27,291
♪ Is this enough ♪
671
01:00:27,375 --> 01:00:32,213
♪ Hey Lord,
I wanna stay ♪
672
01:00:33,798 --> 01:00:35,424
♪ Hey, Lord ♪
673
01:00:35,508 --> 01:00:39,595
♪ You know I'm fighting ♪
674
01:00:40,638 --> 01:00:42,348
♪ Hey, Lord ♪
675
01:00:42,431 --> 01:00:47,269
♪ You know I'll fight it ♪
676
01:00:47,353 --> 01:00:54,485
♪ I don't know when
or how today ♪
677
01:00:54,568 --> 01:00:59,198
♪ Hey, Lord,
I'm on my way ♪
678
01:01:28,144 --> 01:01:29,562
♪ Hey, Lord ♪
679
01:01:29,645 --> 01:01:33,023
♪ You know I'm trying ♪
680
01:01:34,483 --> 01:01:36,068
♪ Hey, Lord ♪
681
01:01:36,152 --> 01:01:39,989
♪ You know I'm trying ♪
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