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But in our darkness, we must honor Sarah's spirit

and remember to light the way for each other

one candle, one room, one day at a time. Amen.

Amen.

-Hi. -Hi.

Thank you so much for coming.

All you need is evidence beyond a reasonable doubt.

I'm gonna explain...

Stop watching me while I eat, watch the video.

Oh. I've got it.

You're a saint, Gloria.

Oh, excuse me, Ben.

She was always so talented.

She really was.

- Are you filming me, stop. - You're so cutie.

Please don't put this on Facebook.

I won't, just Instagram.

Stop, get me a coffee

Okay, okay, okay.

Yeah, erase that, start over.

Stupid.

Hi, everyone, it's been a while since the last update,

but Ben and I are so excited to announce

that we are working on a new children's book.

Think of it as a songbook with pictures!

♪ How many songs about flight do we need ♪

Stop!

Today, we got our first shipment of "The Storm."

"The Storm," we got our first shipment of

♪ "The Storm!" ♪

See, I told you guys not to worry.

Who was worried?

No one.

Have you been making videos without me?

So that's about it for all of our updates.

Thank you so much for all the continued support,

and keep your eyes peeled for some exciting stuff.

Listen, Ben, I know it's been a long day.

I know it's been a long week for you,

okay, and I'm really sorry.

We're here for you.

I want you to be able to stand up

on your own two feet.

Leave that to us.

♪ How many songs about flight do we need ♪

Ben!

Go outside.

Jesus, this is such bad timing.

...but, plane tickets are nonrefundable.

Work already hired a temp,

and you know that Tom and I need this.

I need this to work between me and Tom.

Am I being a terrible sister?

I'm being terrible, aren't I?

I love you, "Beej".

I'll be in touch with the neighbors.

I don't want to hear you didn't get any sunlight, okay?

Great.

Be safe, please?

Oh, you've gotta be--

First, let me assure you that this is a safe place

for you to share what you're thinking and feeling

without judgment.

But I do need to hear from you.

Tell me what you're feeling.

Bad.

You feel bad?

I feel...

bad.

That's good, it's good that you feel bad.

I'm hungry.

Of course you're hungry,

you haven't eaten for three days.

Gloria, find your patience.

Sorry.

Let's start with some mindfulness.

I want to do some deep breathing with you, breathe in.

Okay.

Hi, Sarah, it's me, Ben, your husband.

Stupid.

So, yeah, again, the point of this project is

that we record private video for each other every day

so that when the inevitable day comes

that one of us is alive without the other,

we have lots of these to remember each other by.

So, you know, when you're a little old lady

and you're sad and alone, you just put on one of these,

not that you're gonna be sad and alone.

I'm sure you'd move on with somebody taller.

And I know you're thinking right now,

you're probably going, "This is so dark,"

and yeah, it is dark, but it's also,

I mean, it's kind of romantic, right?

It is, trust me.

Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night

and I turn to look at you, and...

just check your blanket to make sure that it's...

...rising and falling, just...

just need to know you're still breathing.

And, and then I go back to sleep.

I don't understand what's happening

in the world anymore.

And there are nights...

a lot of nights...

after you go to sleep,

and I'll just stay awake all night...

just reading and scrolling,

just horrible headline after horrible headline,

and I just get so worried about you out there.

I'm always so afraid.

Are you afraid?

And other times I feel so alone,

but then you come up to me and you put your arms around me,

and I think...

this is all that matters.

Until the next video, I love you.

Forever.

First of all,

I want to say thank you for speaking with me.

I know this isn't easy, and some of the questions

I ask may be difficult to answer,

but I assure you they're necessary.

Why don't we start with your last conversation

before you left the house on the night of the sixth?

We were talking about a story we wrote.

She misinterpreted the message.

Did you often argue about your work?

We didn't use to.

And that's why you left the house that night?

I left to buy dinner.

She was sick and asked me to go.

Where did you go?

Shop Smart on Main Street.

Thank you, I'll make a note to check the security footage.

What time was that?

Eightish.

I bought some mac and cheese and came right home.

Couldn't have been gone more than 30 minutes.

When I came back, I found her.

She wasn't breathing.

Asphyxiation is what the coroner's report said,

I think, asphyxiation.

How would you describe your marriage, Mr. Grady?

Fine, we were happy, I think.

Your neighbors said you'd been arguing

for a few months.

Did they?

Mmhmm.

You and your wife took out term life policies

on each other, yes?

When we got married, yeah.

Any tensions around finances?

No more than usual.

'Cause I have here that your books

had seen declining sales in the last three years

and that you'd fallen behind on your mortgage payments.

It was your idea to selfpublish, was it not?

Even though Sarah was offered more stable opportunities

with several reputable publishing houses.

I wanted her to have creative freedom.

So you weren't jealous of her success?

Are you aware that if homicide is listed

on a death certificate, payment is withheld

until any suspicion of the beneficiary's involvement

with the insured's death is cleared?

I don't care about the money.

You don't care about $750,000?

I don't care about the sales or the house.

You don't think I did this, do you?

Let me shut this down.

Ben would never.

Ever since we were small,

he's been so afraid of breaking the law,

he won't even jaywalk.

You'll have to stay local for a while.

I suggest you make yourself as accessible as possible.

Can I still use you as a main contact?

Yes, of course.

Anybody would be a...

I know no one's ever going to believe this.

I don't care, I have to capture this

for the sake of humankind.

Look, look, at first I thought

he was trying to kill himself,

but this is his third or fourth jump at least,

and he just, oh my God.

Tell me you saw that.

Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God, he flew!

Oh my God, tell me you saw that, did you see that?

I swear to God, I don't even know what I just saw.

Remember to like and subscribe, okay?

Are you ready to leave this world behind?

Are you tired of life as you know it?

Welcome. Bienvenidos, bienvenue,

benvenuto and youkoso.

I...

am Mealworm.

Congratulations, you've taken the first step,

you brave, beautiful being.

What you're about to do, what I've already done,

defies everything we've been conditioned

to believe is possible, but once upon a time,

the Earth was flat, the sun orbited around us,

and CPR was done with a tobacco enema.

Conventions exist to be defied.

What's your name?

Ben.

This is a recording, I can't hear you,

so I'm just gonna call you Taylor, as it's unisex.

Taylor, I won't lie to you, this process will not be easy.

It comes at great professional,

personal, and existential sacrifice.

But the reward...

is too immense to put into English.

The Inuit might call it "guuti."

Guuti.

This journey is a physical one,

so our first task is to establish a baseline.

Do you exercise?

A little.

I didn't think so.

I've included some, let's just call them tests,

in the description of this video.

While the flight handbook is on its way,

I'd like you to take some of those tests.

Can you do that for me, Taylor?

Of course you can.

Life begins again today.

"In just five chapters,

the secret can be yours for $5,400? Huh?

Yeah, right.

Stupid.

Wait, you gotta turn the camera around.

Oh, right, yep, yep, yep, yep, yep.

Action.

"Action", okay.

Hi, everyone, it's been a while since the last update,

Ben and I are excited to announce that we are working

on a new children's book called "Phoebe the Phobia."

We're working with the Erickson Institute

on this children's book

about the most common fears that plague us--

Cut.

What?

You said "children's book" twice.

- Okay. - It's just, it sounded repetitive.

Action.

Hi, everyone, it's been a minute

since the last update--

Oh, no, no, you can just pick up right where you left off.

See, I was almost--

- And... - So don't think of it

- as a novel, per say... - Action.

Think of it as a songbook with pictures, which

What?

We didn't talk about this being a songbook with pictures.

Ben, no.

♪ How many songs about flight do we need ♪

♪ I'll bet there aren't enough ♪

Um...

We talked about it.

That was for this? I sang it, yes.

- Yes, that's... - Oh.

This is obviously, what did you think I was talking about?

No, I just, I thought you were joking, or.

You thought I was joking?

Uh.

Ah, I see Ben's...uh...

what's he doing?

Whatever it is, he's been doing it all morning.

Well, that's good.

Movement is the best cure for depression.

He's getting himself out of a funk.

I got here at 7:00 am.

He was already drenched in sweat.

I haven't seen him take a drink or a break once.

Oh, Ben, this whole thing's only made you weirder, hasn't it?

What are you up to, Ben?

Thanks.

You got a package.

Just leave it anywhere, thanks.

You all set for lunch?

Yeah.

Okay, 'cause you have to eat.

I know.

Okay.

See you at dinner?

Sounds good.

He spelled "foreign" wrong.

It may be easy to scoff at the notions I espouse

in this manuscript, but I assure you that

letting go is crucial in your journey toward flight.

You can start by wholeheartedly embracing a persona.

Think of the woman who makes contact

with the earth with her bare feet,

or the man breaking free from socialized toxicity

with the flour in his hair.

If you must wash your clothing,

you will do it by the strength of your hand

and the light of the sun.

Okay!

Forget the obscene luxuries of the West.

You will no longer sleep in a six-sided box.

Remember your persona, the barefoot goddess...

or the man with the flour in his hair.

You misspelled "flower," too, okay?

Your ceiling will be the stars.

Your floor will be the mountains.

If you don't have access to a mountain,

a roof will suffice.

The chair was invented by the Egyptians

during the Dynastic Period

and has proven to be detrimental

to the life expectancy of a human being.

We all make mistakes, even the Egyptians.

Clear your space, clear your mind.

Abandon this foreign home.

Forget the unnatural control

we have come to possess over light.

Rise and fall with the sun.

Cover your floor with earth or clean it thoroughly.

Half and half is not an option.

Live in the clouds and feel the weightlessness of elevation.

If you don't have access to clouds

Tom, a little early for dinner, no?

-What? -What?

I'm not here for dinner.

Why's your shit all over the lawn?

It's a purge.

What are you doing in there?

Purging.

Careful, I have wet paint everywhere.

Oh, so, what, you don't like chairs anymore?

It's a Jewish tradition to sit on the ground

when you're in mourning.

Hmm, I was unaware that you guys were that religious.

Oh, you know, Jewish.

Did you access the dark web yesterday?

What?

Stop saying "What."

That's all anybody at the station can talk about.

You're on Reyes's radar.

Hold up a second, is she monitoring my internet activity?

Do you know how dangerous it is to access the dark web?

It's really dangerous.

Come on.

-And illegal. -Illegal?

Yeah.

And I hear things, some really gruesome shit

that'll keep you up at night.

Tom, I have no idea what you're talking about, okay?

Am I in danger?

I don't know.

But I need you to keep yourself out of harm's way,

not to cause more suspicion.

More suspicion?

Yeah, Reyes has it out for you.

I'm driving it from the police, but pretty please,

don't do anything...

crazy.

You feel me?

I feel you.

Well, we're good then.

Unless you were to do something dumb,

like buy something online with a traceable credit card

from a private seller and have it delivered here.

That, that would be dumb.

I mean, most of these products are really just a front

for something else, you know, like a...

$10,000 mop called Wetwork is probably a hitman.

Or a $5,000 self help book

for people who want to leave the world behind

Is probably someone trying to help you kill yourself, exactly.

-I'll see you at dinner. -Okay.

Hey, hey!

So how's your exercising?

Fine, I can jump seven feet.

Tom used to pole vault.

Yep, my record was 17 feet.

Thought about adding a pole to the equation?

I haven't.

Well, you should.

I'm gonna heat this up, do you want me to heat yours up?

- Nope. - Are you sure?

- Yep. - Okay.

I'm just trying to finish all of this.

Copy that.

The only way out is through.

I'll just...

Never mind.

Are you sure you don't want to come stay at ours?

Thanks, guys, I'm good here, really.

I was thinking about doing some writing

in the morning anyway.

That's great.

Let us know if you need anything.

I will.

All right, well, see you, Ben.

Good night.

Good night, Geej.

Good night, Beej.

Thanks for the pizza.

Yeah.

Babe, why is all our stuff on the lawn?

Jesus!

Ben Grady?

I, I don't need help committing suicide, I...

I have a gun.

Okay, my hands are up, don't shoot.

What do you want, why are you here?

To guide you.

You don't have a gun.

No.

You shouldn't say you have a gun

if you don't have a gun

because if your opponent has a gun but you don't,

you've now introduced guns into a scenario

you're entirely unprepared for, a scenario that

in all likelihood could have been resolved without guns.

May I come in?

Yeah.

"Daily routine, spend one hour in deep meditation,

one hour immersed in water, exercise,

sleep no more than three hours at a time,

spend one hour naked"?

What is this, the book wasn't enough?

Think of the book as a recipe, complete with ingredients.

These tasks are your pots and pans, your oven

Yeah, I get it.

Couldn't you just exercise naked to save time?

Oh, I don't see why not.

Very good.

Oh.

Look, Mealworm, I'm really sorry.

I actually don't want to do this anymore.

I'm being watched by the police pretty closely, and--

And yet, you finished painting,

and you hung...

Clouds.

They're clouds.

I should probably take these down.

Listen, I'm going through a lot personally,

and I just don't think this is the time

for whatever this is.

Okay.

Great, great.

That's, that's all of it?

Well, minus a few hundred for gas and expenses.

I can send you an itemized receipt if you like.

If you can't take this leap, you won't take the big one.

Oh.

Oh, keep it, I'll write another.

What?

It's the best-- It's the best tune.

-Yes, look what we've got... -What are you doing?

Oh, dance.

-Hello. -I don't...

Dance!

You want me to, yeah.

No, no, no, Ben, Ben doesn't dance.

Wait, so explain to me, back in the day,

"remove" sounded the same as "love"?

Yeah, well, "remove" and "love", they rhymed.

Wait, so in Shakespeare times,

"love" sounded like "looove"?

No.... No.

Yeah, remove sounded like "reMUV", yeah.

Remove sounded like "reMUV".

Which is also weird.

Yeah, what, what changed?

Yeah, culture, you know,

times, people, you know, everything.

You guys are smart.

Oh, you know.

No, I mean, we once had these sonnets

that were regarded for being perfect iambic pentameter,

with precise rhymes, they were perfect couplets, you know?

And over time they just no longer rhymed.

Once upon a time,

there was a...

there once...

was a.

Hey, kids, who wants to read the...

the misty potato?

Misty potato.

Nobody, nobody wants to read "The Misty Potato."

Okay, hey, kids,

who wants to read the

discreet jogger?

Hi, Ben.

Hi.

Wendy, I was in Sarah's writing group.

I know who you are.

You're actually the only one of Sarah's friends

to come visit me.

Is that a pie?

Bramble berry, it's my specialty.

Bramble berry.

I know you want to be alone, so.

Wendy?

Yep?

Will you eat this with me?

You can't sleep,

'cause if you do, you dream of them,

and then you're even more exhausted?

Check.

You feel like you're starting back at square one,

even though it took you 20 years to get where you are?

Double check.

You hate that everyone treats

you like a wounded hummingbird,

and you found something insane to keep you occupied?

But you can't tell anybody 'cause it's insane.

How'd you get out of bed after your husband died?

One foot at a time.

It's rough.

You need to find a thing, something, anything.

It can be mundane

or

it can be insane, but...

you just need to find a thing...

and see it through, okay?

Find a thing and see it through?

Find a thing and see it through.

- Chapter two, - "Preparing the body."

No body hair from the neck down.

Hair from the neck up is not to be touched.

Eat only vegetables for one week.

Then only meat for one week.

Eat nothing two days prior to your first flight.

Lose 18 pounds,

no more, no less.

Strictly no orgasms whatsoever.

You may feel low and tired during this phase,

but this is merely your body preparing you

for the highs to come.

Ben!

Ben!

Ben!

Morning, Lisa.

You all right?

I'm fine, you don't have to treat me

like a wounded hummingbird just because my wife died.

Do you really mean that?

I really mean it.

Then get off your roof and put on some goddamn clothes.

My kids are asking me if they can sleep naked

on our roof because of you!

Sorry.

- My wife just died. - Just put on some pants.

Okay, I'll give this a shot.

Okay.

Me too.

How'd you know to come back?

I didn't.

I had hope.

Hello, Ben.

So did I do okay?

The house?

Hmm.

Lovely house.

I mean, will it work for our purposes?

Aren't you supposed to be testing

to make sure I've prepared the home?

Actually.

This won't do, it has to go.

I can't, this is my wife's desk.

Chapter one, "Preparing The Home."

She died.

We, we worked together in this room.

That's a vintage mechanical eraser.

It was her grandfather's from Kyoto.

Back in high school, she pulled out this eraser

and she started buzzing away at her drawing.

I thought she was erasing her work,

but it was her technique.

She wasn't erasing her mistakes.

She was, she was turning her errors into art.

That was her superpower.

Sorry, I don't know how--

You don't have to do anything.

"The Secret Art of Human Flight"?

What the hell is this?

You hate heights.

You get vertigo at the top floor of the mall.

And who is this guy and why is he smiling?

I told you, this is Mealworm.

I don't know why he's, why are you smiling?

Wait a second, you're the guy that delivered the package.

Gloria, I can explain.

Okay, explain.

Now?

Okay, I don't have an explanation,

but you know what?

I don't need one, if you love me,

know that this is important to me, end of story.

No, not end of story!

Oh my God, why are you always so scary and weird?

I'm not scary and weird.

Really, where'd you find this?

-Amazon. -No.

-eBay? -No.

You deleted your search history,

and Tom came home the other day talking about the dark web.

Jesus Christ, are you out of your mind?

How'd you know I deleted my search history?

I didn't until right now.

No, you snooped.

When I was in the shower, you forgot to close the laptop.

Ha, we're all lying.

I'm not lying.

Okay, you impersonated a delivery worker.

I never claimed to be a delivery worker.

-You assumed that I was-- -You stay out of this.

Hey, hey, don't blame him.

Well, who am I supposed to blame then, you?

I can't blame you, I'm not allowed to blame you

or get mad at you because you're going through a tragedy.

So what, this is you holding back?

This guy is clearly exploiting you.

I beg your pardon, I'll have you know

that I gave him his money back.

-Oh, Jesus. -You gave this guy money?

Ben, listen to me, you could be in danger.

I don't care!

I have one thing in my life that matters to me right now,

and it might be a sham and it might be psychotic,

but I don't care.

I need this.

We're gonna get through this.

Don't tell Tom.

"Geej", promise me you won't tell Tom.

There is something you need to see.

Tomorrow your real training begins.

So that's about it for all of our updates.

Thank you so much for all the continued support,

and keep your eyes peeled for some exciting stuff.

Wait, that's not it.

Yeah, it is, that's it.

- No! - I said everything.

No, you didn't mention my new book.

Our new book is just an outline,

so I'm not gonna--

"Outline"? you said you liked it, so I thought and we--

Yeah, yeah, I said I--

--talked about talking about it.

yes I told you that I love it, but it doesn't matter.

I mean it's just a story. I mean, it's not even a story.

- It's not a full idea yet. - Well, well, no.

Of course not, I don't, I just,

it will be, I just don't know how it ends yet.

No, you don't know how it ends.

You are always so focused on figuring out how something ends

but you don't even start it, yet.

Like, when did you stop starting?

- Chapter three, - "Preparing The Mind."

The bird did not create flight,

but was the first to harness it.

Draw the bird.

Catch the bird.

Make only the sounds of a bird for seven days.

No speaking.

Having a good time?

He's working through his grief.

Who are you supposed to be?

I am Mealworm, his life coach.

Are you aware that Ben is going through a tragedy?

I'm up to speed.

I spoke to your neighbors.

They said you were meditating naked

in your backyard this morning,

sleeping mostly naked on the roof,

and there are enough complaints

about your friend's RV disturbing the ambiance

of the neighborhood.

Technically it's a Winnebago.

As for the nudity, what Ben chooses

to do within the confines of his property is his business,

along with where and how he chooses to sleep,

to wit, you pointed out that he was mostly naked,

which doesn't constitute public indecency.

Are you a lawyer?

Not in this state.

How about you move your Winnebago, Mealworm?

Sure thing.

"The ambiance".

Your sister called me, she's worried sick about you.

She thinks you've gone off the deep end, or you're about to.

and she begged me to turn my investigation elsewhere.

Look, Ben, if this is a ruse to scare up an insanity plea,

I've seen this before,

and I promise you it will ruin you.

But if this is genuine, you need to accept help.

Whoever this guy is, you need to get him out.

Juries don't necessarily convict based on proof.

They convict based on evidence beyond reasonable doubt,

and looking around here...

I don't see enough reasonable doubt.

Shape up, or they're gonna put you away

whether I have something to do with it or not.

What? I moved it.

I can move it again.

Do they think you had something to do with your wife's death?

You've gotta be shitting me.

You can speak now.

I realize what you meant by catch the bird.

You meant "catch" in the archaic sense.

400 years ago, to catch meant to understand,

and now I understand.

Jump.

I've never made it more than nine feet.

The process is beginning to take effect.

You can do this.

Can I take a practice jump?

It'll make it harder.

I'll take my chances.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

You're jumping with your legs.

You won't fly with your legs.

Does it have to be over glass?

The first time I flew, I fell off a mountain.

After that, it was easier,

but for the first flight, the fear helps.

How do you fall off a--

Never mind.

"Fear helps."

Oh.

I felt it, right before I tripped, I felt it.

We should complete the final week of training in nature,

somewhere with mountains.

Tomorrow you'll run through the mountains

and find the place to be reborn.

I know a good spot.

Thank God vegetable week is over.

Oh.

Before I forget, I want you to make a list

of all your deepest fears.

What?

Don't worry, it's for later.

How'd you figure this out?

Family recipe, I added the barbecue sauce.

I mean how'd you figure out how to fly?

I wasn't trying to fly.

You lost someone too, didn't you?

I stepped off the ledge four times,

but something kept putting me back at the top.

By the fourth attempt,

I chose life.

Are you, are you leaving?

Mealworm.

If you'd like to sleep inside tonight, I have a spare bed.

That's very kind of you, but my place is with Sally.

Huh.

Well, that would probably kill you.

Oh, for sure.

And if not, there's always blood loss, hemorrhaging,

my sister mercy killing me with a pillow upon request.

Oh, I see we've reached the dark humor phase.

Good, grasshopper.

I used to take Sarah up here all the time.

This was her place.

She'd always try and get me to come with her,

but... I hate hiking.

I hate it.

You know, my, my kids,

they, they loved seeing her read.

That was her favorite.

She may not have wanted kid, but when she was around them.

Did you want kids?

Sorry, that is not my business

No, no, no, no, no, it's fine.

Sorry.

It's fine, really.

Gloria and I, we lost our parents

when we were really young, and so did Sarah.

It's kind of what brought us together at the beginning,

actually.

You think a lot about what happens to them

if anything happens to you, you know?

That I do.

You should come over, come to dinner.

Roger and I would love to have you, really.

I don't think I'm ready for that.

Okay, well, when you are, just come by.

People need people, Ben.

Race you down the mountain?

I don't know, the way up killed me.

- Chapter four, - "Conquering irrational fear."

Step one, embark on a spirit quest.

Are those mushrooms?

Psilocybin mushrooms.

Aren't those illegal?

You mustn't concern yourself with the laws of man

when it comes to embarking on a spiritual journey.

I've smoked weed a couple times.

Will that help me handle this?

Would riding a bike help you learn how to fly a spaceship?

I mean, if the spaceship had pedals.

I'm brewing a tea.

Hmm.

I'm starting to feel it.

This isn't so bad.

This is...

this is.

What?

This is so high.

Mm.

I'm so

high.

Ben.

I can see...

everything.

Ben?

I should let go.

That's probably a good idea.

♪ Om shanti, om shanti ♪

♪ Om shanti ♪

♪ Shanti om ♪

♪ Om shanti ♪

♪ Om shanti ♪

♪ Om shanti ♪

♪ Shanti om ♪

♪ Om shanti, om shanti ♪

♪ Om shanti, shanti om ♪

♪ Om shanti, om shanti ♪

♪ Om shanti, shanti om ♪

Can I watch the sunset from the roof?

And who are you?

That's an expansive question.

He's a friend of Ben's, where's Ben?

We need to speak to him, Ben?

Ben is on a spirit quest.

A spirit quest?

Now, that would require psychedelics

to go on that spirit quest, and--

What did you give him?

Ben needs this.

You don't know what Ben needs.

He's in a very complicated emotional state

-right now -Gloria, tone it down.

-Watch it, Tom. -Shutting it down.

He does not need to be on drugs.

He needs help, real help from people who love him.

Whatever message you have for Ben,

I can deliver it when he returns.

I don't trust you.

Oh, how much longer?

It's irrational, it's irrational.

Until you're no longer afraid.

Ooh, okay.

Tell me about the fear, when did it begin?

- Oh, I don't know. - I don't remember,

I don't remember.

Clear your mind.

I was a boy, I saw a movie.

Which movie?

"Arachnophobia."

Noiseless guitar.

There once was a noiseless guitar.

I want to show you something.

Mealworm, I think I'm back.

Tell me if you think this is good.

"There once was a noiseless guitar

who daydreamed of being a star,

but his strings weren't right

and the stage gave him fright.

He was sure he would never go far.

The guitar met a tasteless spaghetti

who thought she was finally ready

to be served in a dish with some meatballs and fish,

but she smelled like and tastes like a yeti."

Do you think kids will know what a yeti is?

Come on, I want to show you something.

And then the feeble old man collects all the broken things

and they're happy together.

Huh.

It smells like sawdust in here.

Have you been woodworking?

Climb the ladder.

You don't put a claustrophobe in a coffin ever.

There weren't even air holes in that thing.

Air holes allow light to enter in.

Yeah, light, and I don't know... AIR?

Jesus, this is not the same thing as facing commitment.

I also entered into a bear's den in the dead of night.

Bullshit.

You're insane, you are insane.

Jesus.

"Air holes allow light to enter," yeah, no oxygen

to breathe, lunatic.

Ben.

Um,

I know it's short notice, but--

You're exactly where you're supposed to be, come on.

Go, do all of it.

Do all of the things.

Yeah.

I think it was around our third date?

Yep.

Yeah, that I decided to show I was serious,

and we were walking back to her car, and I asked her,

"Do you believe in life after love?"

She turned around

and she walked back to me and she said...

-"Are you quoting Cher?" -"Are you quoting Cher?"

Ugh, nerd.

Are you kidding me with that?

The point being that we were only three dates in

and I was willing to say the L word.

That's a bold move, saying "I love you" that quick.

I don't think I've ever been that brave.

Not "love"... "Life".

We're fine, don't come up here.

Yours.

It's okay, it's okay, we're completely okay.

I'm gonna go check on the kids.

It was nice to finally meet you, Ben.

You too, Roger.

- Thank you for dinner. - Of course. Of course.

All right, I'm coming, I'm coming.

They just let anybody be parents, can you believe it?

You told me before to find something,

anything, and see it through.

What was yours?

- Watch your head. - Oh.

After I tucked the kids into bed at my sister's,

I mixed together every liquid I had in my kitchen,

vodka, tequila, scotch,

lemon juice, hot sauce, chocolate syrup, and Red Bull.

Jesus.

Then went on a run, woke up eight hours

and seven miles later in a Rite Aid bathroom.

And I realized that every time I made this magic potion,

I would wake up somewhere crazy

with no recollection of how I got there.

So I made it again.

I made it every night for a month.

-Wendy, what the hell? -Yeah?

I woke up in a lot of bathrooms.

And also a couple of forests and a boat...

and a couple of very polite strangers' beds,

and I have never told anyone.

I...

I'm teaching myself how to fly.

That's it?

I gave up my magic potion for that?

Let me clarify.

There's no plane involved.

I'm learning how to... fly.

That's why I'm sleeping on my roof.

Wait.

- Like... - Like?

Yeah, like, and I,

I hired a trainer.

Ah.

All right, you win... you win.

I've been in a rut.

Of course you're in a rut, your wife died.

-No. -You're allowed.

No, no, no, I've, I've been in a rut for a long time.

You asked me before about kids.

The truth is that Sarah and I tried...

and we just couldn't.

We could have moved on, but we didn't.

We couldn't write, we couldn't do anything,

and I just stopped trying.

I thought I could get her back.

I thought I had more time.

And I can't imagine myself ever being as happy as I was.

I promise you...

someday you will stop trying to fly.

Hey.

I apologize for earlier,

I realize I crossed a line there.

Okay, thank you.

Jesus, that's strong stuff.

It's Japanese, I spent some time there in the early '70s.

Sorry, I ran out on you tonight.

I just needed some time.

Perfectly understandable.

You'd like Wendy, she lost someone, too.

Oh?

Yeah, her husband.

Hmm.

Yeah, I guess she--

Wait a minute.

Is that yours?

Ben, don't.

Ben.

What is this?

When did my sister come by?

The other day when you were on your spirit quest.

This is about my wife's investigation.

How could you not tell me about this?

At this stage, distractions are the-- don't answer that.

It's my sister, I'm answering it!

- Ben! - Hello?

Go somewhere private.

What's wrong?

Can he hear me?

No.

Your friend's real name is Mark Sisko.

What are you talking about?

Detective Reyes ran the plates on his Winnebago.

He spent seven years in prison, is he still there?

Yeah, yeah, he's,

he's still here.

Did he even tell you

that we came by the other day looking for you?

No, no, he didn't.

Ben, he's a con artist.

Ben, Ben?

I have to go.

No, Ben, wait!

Okay.

Hello, Ben.

You had no right to take these things.

I was trying to help you.

You've been stealing things from my house.

This time is crucial to your process.

I couldn't let you veer off course.

These belonged to my wife!

And nothing will ever bring her back.

She's gone and you can't change that.

Why am I...

why am I so tired?

I love the way you see the world.

You're more thoughtful than I am.

A better writer than I am.

- What? - I'm serious.

No, I'm not.

We're just different, you know?

Yeah, because you tend to know how things end,

and I have trouble with endings.

But your stories do end, right?

When you get an idea, even if it doesn't have a conclusion,

necessarily, it's still a whole thing.

You may not know how it ends, but it does end.

And if you can't accept that,

then it ceases to exist, you know?

Like, if you want something to start...

if you want it to exist...

you have to be okay with it having an ending, you know?

No, no, Mealworm!

Mealworm?

Mealworm, what?

No, no, no, no, oh my, please no!

Please, oh my God, Mealworm, Mealworm!

No, no, no, no, no, no, no!

Mealworm, no, please, please, get me out of here!

Please, Mealworm, please, please!

Oh my God, please get,

please get me out, Mealworm!

It's irrational, it's irrational.

It's irrational, it's irrational.

It's irrational, it's irrational.

It's irrational, it's irrational.

It's, it's irrational.

Please let me out of here!

Get me out!

Oh, oh, oh, oh my God, please,

let me, let me out of here!

How are you?

Jesus, what are they giving him?

Ben!

Ben, how do you f--

How do you feel?

I'm not feeling much.

Was last night any better?

I warned you about the dark web.

Tom.

I wasn't trying to commit suicide.

Do you even know why your friend,

Mark Sisko, was in prison?

Life insurance fraud.

That's conspiracy, Ben.

Evidence beyond reasonable doubt.

Just tell me you still believe me.

Gloria?

You still believe me, right?

Time's up.

Gloria.

Mr. Brady, it's time to go.

Paging Doctor Wiessner.

Doctor Wiessner, your presence is requested

- at patient intake -SARAH: Time to fly.

Sarah?

Ben, you with me?

We gotta split.

What the hell are you doing here?

Well, your guard dog's on a coffee run,

so if we're gonna go, we gotta go now.

I'm not going anywhere with you.

You left me in a coffin to die.

That was supposed to be a 90 minute exercise.

I was out getting ice for your decompression bath

and by the time I got back, the place was swarmed.

But you did it, Ben!

One more test and you've got your wings!

Did you know about my wife before you met me?

Unbelievable.

No, I looked you up when you bought my book.

Yes, I admit it, and I saw about her, but--

You knew about the insurance money, you piece of shit?

Shh, I didn't know anything about that, I swear!

Ben.

I've lived a life that I am not proud of,

but I never lied to you.

It's all just talk now, Mark,

with your faux mysticism and your Orientalism,

talking about the luxuries of the West.

You're a scumbag and a fake.

How the hell did you even come up with this shit, huh?

How are you so sure this is gonna work?

I'm not.

Security, he's here, he's here!

I never lied to you, Ben, never.

That's him, he's here, that's him!

That's him, that's him! Hold him down.

He's here!

Doctor Wiessner, your presence is requested...

Paging Doctor Wiessner.

Hi, Ben.

God, it's so weird to call you "Ben".

I never call you "Ben" unless I'm, like,

mad or trying to prove a point or something.

This is so dark, but I agreed to do it, so here we go.

Number one, what did you do today?

I, I listened to you talk about how it's inevitable

that one of us will one day be without the other

'cause you're just so much fun.

Number two, what did you learn today?

I learned...

babe, I don't know.

Not every moment has to be a learning moment,

and if you don't learn something that day,

that doesn't make it useless.

Maybe you're watching this now

and it's your learning moment.

And number three, what do you want to say to your spouse?

I love how you put "spouse"

so you don't have to print this twice.

I, I can't do this.

I--

I'm just answering questions to a camera

for you to watch after I'm dead.

Just the thought of you spending the rest

of your life watching videos of me, it's...

it creeps me the hell out.

And you're doing the same thing for me?

Oh my God, I really hope not.

You know, this is the last video I'm doing for you

because if you are watching this,

then it means that I'm dead

and you spend enough time in front of screens anyway,

so-- so go out, you know, get some sun.

But,

okay, if I really am gone,

you're watching this.

Please don't let the world harden you.

You have the biggest...

most beautiful heart...

and if you do one thing for me,

it would be to keep that part of you alive,

that part of you that, you know,

writes about big houses and clouds

and talking balloons.

The part of you that believes in the impossible.

Speaking of, okay--

there once was a writer named Ben

who made people smile with his pen...

until his poor wife had to give up her life...

and now he wonders how this story ends.

That's the first verse.

But, yeah, I gotta go 'cause you're whining downstairs

about how there's no food in the house, so.

I love you.

Forever.

Don't go.

Down!

Bring them up.

Very good. Up, up, up.

Bring them back down.

Down, down...

And up.

Reach the sky. Very good.

Bring them back down.

Push, push, push.

Bring it in.

Good.

Turn around.

Put 'em up to the sky.

Face me and push.

Bring it in.

Turn around, yeah.

Breath in, reach out.

Breath in, breath that out.

Breath in, breath out.

Reach up.

Paging Doctor Wiessner.

Doctor Wiessner, your presence is requested

at patient intake, paging Doctor Wiessner.

Stop. We've got you surrounded.

Stop or we will open fire.

Oh, shit, oh, shit, oh, no, you don't.

Get out of the RV!

Technically it's a Winnebago.

Shut up, hands behind your back.

Don't do it!

You shouldn't have come here.

Ben, I know you want to escape the world right now,

but you don't have to.

Ben.

Ben, you've gotta come back with us.

I'm doing this.

No, it won't work!

It will, don't come any closer, Tom!

Ben, Sarah would want you to keep living.

Sarah wanted me to believe in things,

and I believe in this.

Why?

I'll show you.

And if it doesn't work...

at least I'll get to be with her.

Wait, let me say goodbye to you, at least.

That's the oldest trick in the book, Geej.

-You'll pull me away. -I won't, I swear.

I just want to hug my brother one last time.

Benjamin Grady!

Come here or I will shove you off this cliff myself.

Okay, geez.

You almost scared me off the cliff right there.

I love you.

No!

Seven 17 to dispatch, I'm bringing this one in.

Seven 17 to dispatch, I just heard an explosion.

Ben.

Help! Help me, help!

This is...

what?

What?

This is so high.

I'm so high.

Ben.

I can see everything.

Ben.

I can see everything.

Ben.

I should let go.

That's probably a good idea.

♪ Fly away ♪

♪ Life begins again ♪

♪ Today ♪

♪ Are you ready to leave this world behind ♪

♪ All you need is to prepare your mind ♪

♪ Take this leap with me ♪

♪ You brave, beautiful being on the other side ♪

♪ Waiting for a sign from above ♪

♪ As we defy every convention that exists ♪

♪ And you're gonna realize there's more than this ♪

♪ You brave, beautiful being ♪

♪ Over there in the dark room ♪

♪ Sitting with the 1,000 yard stare ♪

♪ It won't be easy, I won't lie ♪

♪ But trust in me and you and I can fly away ♪

♪ Life begins again ♪

♪ Today ♪

♪ Are you ready to leave this world behind ♪

♪ All you need is to prepare your mind ♪

♪ Take this leap with me ♪

♪ You brave, beautiful being ♪

♪ On the other side waiting for a sign from above ♪

♪ As we defy every convention that exists ♪

♪ And you're gonna realize there's more than this ♪

♪ You brave, beautiful being ♪

♪ Over there in the dark room sitting ♪

♪ With the 1,000 yard stare ♪

♪ It won't be easy, I won't lie ♪

♪ But trust in me and you and I can ♪

♪ Let go ♪

♪ Fly away ♪

♪ life begins again ♪

♪ Today ♪

♪ Are you ready to leave this world behind ♪

♪ All you need is to prepare your mind ♪

♪ Take this leap with me ♪

♪ You brave, beautiful being on the other side ♪

♪ Waiting for a sign from above ♪

♪ As we defy every convention that exists ♪

♪ And you're gonna realize there's more than this ♪

♪ You brave, beautiful being over there ♪

♪ In a dark room sitting with a 1,000 yard stare ♪

♪ It won't be easy, I won't lie ♪

♪ But trust in me and you and I can fly away ♪

♪ Fly away ♪

♪ Life begins again ♪

♪ Today ♪

♪ Are you ready to leave this world behind ♪

♪ All you need is to prepare your mind ♪

♪ Take this leap with me ♪

♪ You brave, beautiful being on the other side ♪

♪ Waiting for a sign from above ♪

♪ As we defy every convention that exists ♪

♪ And you're gonna realize there's more than this ♪

♪ You brave, beautiful being over there ♪

♪ In the dark room sitting with a 1,000 yard stare ♪

♪ It won't be easy, I won't lie ♪

♪ But trust in me and you and I can fly ♪

♪ Fly away ♪

♪ Like begins again ♪

♪ Today ♪

♪ Are you ready to leave this world behind ♪

♪ All you need is to prepare your mind ♪