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PEOPLE HUMMING

ALL HUM

PASTOR CAPE: 'When we lose our way...

'..and our problems seem to overwhelm our lives,

'we are forgetting the greatness of God.

'We're losing a beautiful balance in our lives.'

We're in this little boat, and the seas are enormous,

and they're tossing us to and fro,

but our ballast, it's heavy and it's deep.

'The great and deepest value in our lives

'is that we lead them so that our hearts

'lift up the name of God above all things.'

But there is more deliverance, more healing

and more joy to be found

in the hallowing of God's name than you ever dreamed possible.

WOMAN: Thank you so much.

LAUGHTER, CHATTER

JO: That was wonderful. - Oh, I'm so glad.

I look like her, don't I?

You do.

Were you two friends?

- I'm sorry, I really have to run to my next session.

- Can I just ask you a few questions?

- I'm so sorry.

Why did Beth leave Genesis?

What?

But, er, she was friends with Christina, right?

They were close?

Ask her.

Please?

Yes.

Until they weren't.

What happened?

I'm sorry. I really shouldn't be talking about this.

OK.

Thank you. I'm glad to know that she's safe.

Did Christina tell you that?

Beth's dead.

She was deeply depressed.

She came here for real help, and we let her down.

- She was a patient here?

Many of us were.

It makes for a great story, when it ends well.

CAPE: Hey.

Can you hand me a trowel?

Took us a few years to get the garden up to snuff,

but now we grow produce May to October.

Ah! Little buggers.

Poison pie.

Do not eat.

They infest my garden like pests.

Sends you straight to the ER.

You know, this would go a lot faster if you got down here

and pitched in a little.

Yeah, I'd rather talk.

Off.

Why did you kill the Chaffeys?

CAPE SIGHS

Tanya worked at my father's resort.

I spent a lot of time there,

as I was jobless and not welcome at my parents' house.

She was kind to me. She had a beautiful smile.

It started with following her home...

..just to see what she was like in her own habitat,

with her kids, her husband.

And then, one night, that was no longer enough.

If you were in love with her, why would you murder her?

- I wasn't in love with her. - What was it, then?

Desire, maybe. Jealousy.

I could never quite put my finger on what it was

that led me to that place.

Did you plan it?

Yes... and no.

I told myself it would be safe just to watch.

But I think, deep down...

..I always knew it would end that way.

And then...

..one night, it... just kind of felt out of my control.

- And then?

CAPE EXHALES

You're ruining a perfect afternoon.

Look, you've already shown me the beautiful garden,

the cosy church community, the happy drug addicts.

I get both sides of the story. That's the deal.

- Please, don't ask me this. - Don't you want a fair trial?

- Please. - Say it.

What do you want to know?

Huh?

How I tied Matthew Chaffey's hands...

..behind his back

before sticking his rifle in his mouth?

Tanya was...

..hiding with the children in their bedroom.

She was... screaming.

So, I gagged her with her own hair...

before I...

Before you slit her throat.

Then I...

I smothered the boys...

with... pillows.

They went... quickly, so I...

..I moved to the girl.

- Emily.

And I wanted it to be over, so I, uh...

..I broke her neck, then I put her in the armoire.

- Why the Satanic symbols?

My... so-called family have always...

been God-fearing.

Every Sunday, for...

for four years,

they put me under the care of Father Andrews.

He molested me, Farid.

I discovered Satanism in a book,

and I found a place to absorb all that...

all that anger.

After the Chaffeys, after I...

realised the extent of what I'd done, I... I fled.

I took my parents' hush money, and I disappeared

into remote corners of the world,

turning to whatever substance would help me forget.

I met a priest.

And he...

SHAKILY: He showed me that religion...

..could heal.

That it could have grace.

That I could start anew.

WOMAN: Hello?

Who's this? CAPE: Claudia!

This is, uh... Farid, a new friend.

You staying for dinner, then?

FARID, UNDER BREATH: Well, uh...

Fair trial.

Hello?

It's Jo.

Hello?

WOMAN SCREAMS: Argh!

SCREAMING RESUMES

WOMAN SOBBING

NEIL: What are you doing? JO GASPS

JO BREATHES HEAVILY

I heard screaming.

Christina's in a session.

CLAUDIA: What brings you to the island?

I'm here with my partner, Jo, on a much-needed vacation.

Dinner! Now!

CAPE LAUGHS

How long you and Jo been together?

Thirteen years. - Wow.

CHUCKLES

It takes a strong love to make it to 13 years.

Yeah, it does.

Year 13...

The year I almost drown him in the lake.

SHE CHUCKLES - Oh.

Now at 18, and...

I'm still thinking about it.

THEY CHUCKLE

I mean it, now!

We're hiding from Mom. Hide from Mom! Hide from Mom!

- Shit - the lasagne.

He seems like an incredible father.

That's why I keep him around.

Then why drown him? - Sorry?

- Well, you said you wanted to drown him in the lake.

How come? - Oh!

CHUCKLES

Do you trust him?

DOOR OPENS CAPE: In we go.

Hungry monkeys!

CAPE SIGHS

Let's do this, huh?

Ah, it smells great.

All right.

Dear Lord, bless this food,

bless this drink,

since you have redeemed us so dearly

and delivered us from evil.

And as you have given us a share in this food,

so may you give us a share in eternal life.

Amen. FAMILY: Amen.

CHRISTINA: Hey.

Can I join you? - Yeah.

Neil said I gave you a bit of a scare.

I'm sorry. I...

I thought you were being murdered.

- By who? Neil? LAUGHS

I'm sure he's thought about it, but no, he doesn't have the balls.

THEY CHUCKLE

What were you doing?

Uh, reliving the moment my ex got eaten alive by a grizzly.

JO: Oh, my God, why?

It's part of my trauma therapy.

How are you feeling, Jo?

The memories are coming back.

- What memories?

- All the stuff from my mom's house.

Everything, it's...

it's bubbling back up.

I'm scared. - Don't be.

No.

You know, Carl Jung believed

that hallucinating was just dreaming while awake.

A way for the unconscious to be heard.

Maybe there's something big yours is trying to tell you.

And how can you hear it if you're silencing the voices?

You want to try a session?

- A trauma session? - Yes.

With a bit of ketamine.

JO SNORTS Don't worry.

It's a very low dose, perfectly safe.

- Uh... I don't know.

- Trust me.

Please?

CHRISTINA: Let go, Jo.

You're stuck in a looping effect,

tied to an experience that isn't your own -

your mother's illness.

You're going to witness your trauma from the outside.

You'll disconnect from it.

You'll split apart from the identity of a schizophrenic,

and you'll see it for what it is -

a label someone has put on your suffering.

A story you've been given that you've self-fulfilled.

Inside, you can communicate with your hallucinations freely...

..knowing you're not in real danger.

Do not run.

Go to them.

Listen.

What do they want you to know?

What are they trying to tell you?

JO: Rose?

SCRATCHING

No, don't!

SCREAMING

GASPS

GASPS: Get me out!

Get me out! Get me out!

Jo, wait!

- That was really fucked up. - Hey, talk to me.

- That wasn't what you said would happen.

- What happened?

Jo, what happened?

CAPE: Dinner with the devil wasn't so bad, eh?

- You have a beautiful family. - I know.

I am truly blessed.

But that's... that's all down to Claudia.

PHONE VIBRATING

CAPE: You wanna take that? - It's all good.

Was it Jo? - Uh, it wasn't.

You wanna know the secret to, uh, a long marriage?

- Uh, compromise?

Don't get divorced.

Do you love her?

What? - Do you love her?

Yeah, of course I do. - Yeah.

Would you do anything not to harm her?

To lose her?

Why are you asking me this? PHONE VIBRATES

How long has it been going on?

Your affair?

PHONE VIBRATING CONTINUES

Is that what the firm told you, when they spied on us?

I see it in the way you talk about her.

You have shame.

Jo ended things.

I thought we were done.

And then, you weren't.

SIGHS

Things with Brie just got so intense.

And then Jo came back into my life, and I didn't know what to do.

It's really hard for me to just break it off.

- But you did.

A month ago. And Jo still has no idea.

Don't tell her.

I have to. - Why?

So you can clear your conscience?

That just puts the onus on Jo to forgive.

It'll simply cause her pain,

when it's you who needs to do the work.

What, do you think you can just...

ask for forgiveness,

and all your sins vanish into the wind?

You need to live every day with what you've done,

and you need to make amends through your continued love for Jo.

Spare her the pain.

Seek your salvation in the Lord.

PHONE VIBRATING Excuse me?

You said yourself it was over.

It's time to put an end to it for good.

No.

Take the call, Farid.

PHONE VIBRATING CONTINUES

Take the fucking call!

PHONE VIBRATING STOPS

CHUCKLES

I'm so sorry. That was... That was completely uncalled for.

Farid...

SCRATCHING

SHE BREATHES DEEPLY

SQUELCHING

SHE EXHALES SHARPLY

FARID: What are you doing?

- Where are the keys?

Where are you going? It's 4am. - You have them.

FARID: Jesus.

- Give me the keys. - What for?

Do you sleep with them?

- Jesus, Jo, no. They're in my pants.

Where are you going?

Jo.

- Get out of my way, please. - No.

Are you fucking serious? What's wrong with you?

- Where the hell do you have to be in the middle of the night?

- Jesus, you're so fucking control...

- OK. - Let me go.

- Jo... - You fucking psycho, let me go!

SCREAMS: Let me go! Let me go!

PRINTER WHIRRING

WHISPERING: Jo.

Holy shit. CREAKING

BUMP

GASPS, BREATHES HEAVILY

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