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Joey, come on!

Yes!

Yeah! Joey!

How you feeling?

I'm good.

Come on, let's go inside.

Hello, Mum and Dad!

Look, the wanderer returns!

No, I know you've already mourned his absence,

particularly you, Mum.

He has risen, like Lazarus,

to become a human rights lawyer.

This is killing you, Mum, isn't it?

I can hear you now,

"I knew you should have stayed

"with that boy, you crazy child!"

Go on, give her a smile.

I feel like a puppet, Pam.

Are you still ticklish?

- No. - Not even here.

Look at that!

Look at that!

Look at that!

Daddy's here!

- Hey. - Ben.

How have they been?

Good.

How was the journey?

Long.

Hi, Daddy!

Hi, Daddy!

Wow, Pops, your hair looks nice.

Nanna did it.

Yeah. It was just a bit, um...

Are you still using that wide toothcomb I got you?

Uh, I-I think we lost it.

Okay, I'll get you another one.

And, um, you need to use that detangling conditioner,

as well, after every wash.

Right.

I can help, Ben.

It's not just you and your Mum.

There are things that we can-

Actually, there is something.

Oh, okay.

I had a look through the box

of Jess's things that you gave us.

Not all of it, just the photos.

And there's a few people that I didn't recognise.

Oh, describe them.

There was a couple of girls,

and there was a guy in quite a few of them.

Said on the back his name's Josh.

Oh, yeah. He was a...

He was an old friend.

Friend or boyfriend?

Yeah, boyfriend.

She hadn't seen him for a really, really long time.

Look in that cupboard.

No, I don't want three.

I should get them two something to eat

before they yank the snack cupboard door off.

Oh! Emma!

This is perfect for your wedding!

I was just telling your father,

you get your good taste from me.

Okay.

And the wine selection is gorgeous!

Have you already had some?

Little bit.

Your mother's very excited.

I can tell.

And Harry told me you've finally

put your little flat on the market.

Yeah.

Good!

This is a new chapter.

Thank you.

After Joey died, I know what we all went through.

And I could never imagine

a time when I would feel so energised and excited.

Are we still talking about the wine?

I'm talking about the wedding.

I'm talking about being happy.

And I want to thank you for that.

You are, aren't you?

Happy?

Yes, Mum, of course!

Look, I am telling ya, she never mentioned him.

Hang on.

Explain this to me again.

There were only two messages on Jess's phone from Josh.

They said, "You were amazing last night"

and "Don't tell Ben."

I mean, there must be other messages between them,

but I just don't know how to-

How to what?

What are you gonna do?

Read all her emails?

Go through her social media? What?

Well, let's say I do.

Let's say you don't!

I hate saying this, Ben, but Jess is dead.

Do you think I don't know that?

I think you're not acting like it.

Whatever you find on that phone

you can't talk to her about it.

You read those messages, and you'll always regret it.

Either you find out she did cheat on you,

and you'll hate her,

or you'll find out she didn't,

you didn't trust her, and you'll hate yourself.

Either way, Ben, what does it matter?

It matters to me!

Is this about Emma?

Jess and Emma have nothing to do with each other.

The only reason you are not with Emma, is Jess.

- That's not true! - It is.

Dee, you need to listen to me!

No, you need to listen to me!

I tell you to move on, and you don't listen to me.

I tell you to write about it, and you don't listen to me.

I tell you to go after Emma, and you don't listen to me.

I am tired of not being listened to, Ben.

So, please, listen to me now.

Don't do this.

You really don't have to, Dad.

I don't mind.

Wanna get the best price for the place.

I mean, your mother's spending the money already, so.

Dad?

How did you know that Mum was the one?

She told me.

She made me happy.

She still makes me happy.

Look, your mother is-

Mad?

Well, without question.

But I love her.

And despite her eccentricities,

I know that she loves me too.

Before you got married, were you scared?

I think the only thing I was scared of

was that I might lose her.

I suppose that's how I knew that she was the one.

Anyway! I think all of this is fine.

Just make sure this nut here is nice and tight.

I'm going out.

What?

Hey.

Hey.

Um.

Dee invited me. She texted me earlier.

Yeah, sounds about right.

So, how are you?

Aside from clearly being shocked by how overdressed I am.

Um.

Ben, I need to talk to you.

Okay, I need to tell you something

'cause I need to know how you feel right now.

Look, Emma, I don't really know what you wanna talk about,

but now isn't a good time.

When Joey died, I was a mess.

I started seeing someone. Harry.

Okay.

And I didn't think that I would ever feel happy again,

so I didn't really try.

Right.

We got engaged.

Anyway, he had to go away for a while for work.

Is he all right?

Yeah, he's fine.

Ben, this summer with you was amazing.

Just being with you felt like

nothing that I've ever felt before.

You made me realise that everybody

has a moment in their lives that changes them.

Hang on. When did you break up with him?

I didn't.

I wanted to tell you.

I tried to tell you.

Are you still engaged to him?

I'm getting married in a couple of weeks.

I tried to tell you the night Jack had his accident.

But then, the next morning,

you told me that you didn't wanna see me anymore.

I'm sorry, Ben. I'm so, so sorry.

I tried to tell you.

You were the first person since Jess...

- I trusted you. - It's not that simple.

Why you telling me this now?

Because I...

Because I want you to tell me not to do it.

Ben, please, say something.

Congratulations.

Stay still.

Can you do it like Nanna?

We don't have time, Poppy.

And even if we did, can't really do it like that.

Please!

I'm trying, Pops.

What's this for?

You look sad.

Are you sure?

You have to be sure.

I mean it, Emma.

This is the single most important decision you have to make.

And you can still change your mind

because the hem-

I'm sure.

Then this is it?

This is it.

I'm so happy.

Joey would've loved it.

Would she?

Drink?

Yeah.

I'm so proud of you.

Emma! Emma!

Guys!

We're playing Peter Pan!

Wow! Where's your daddy then?

Is he in Neverland?

No, he's at work.

So who are you guys here with?

Grandma.

Hi, I'm Emma.

Linda. Ben's Mum.

Go on, you two. Bugger off.

Look, I don't really understand

what went on between the two of you,

and it's probably not my place,

but he was really upset when he came back that night, Emma.

I don't know what Ben said to you.

He said you were someone special.

And he's only ever said that about one person before.

He's got a lot to deal with.

And he keeps telling me that other people do it,

other women do it, raise two kids by themselves,

and he's right, they do, but not like him.

Not after what he's been through.

And if you can't see that.

I do see it.

Okay.

Right, well, let me tell you something that you don't see.

I know everything there is to know about that boy.

We speak every day,

and I'm sure that doesn't sound very sexy,

but it happens to be true,

and the only thing in his entire life

that he's ever kept from me,

and bear in mind this is a boy who rang me yesterday

to tell let me know that Poppy's bowel movements

have becoming more consistent,

is you.

Are you saying I'm not important?

I'm saying

that shows how incredibly important you are.

I was never gonna be Jess.

No one is.

And no one's ever gonna be you either.

If you see him-

I think I probably will, Emma, I'm looking after his kids.

When you see him,

will you tell him I think he's special too?

You do know you could tell him yourself.

I really can't.

I tried, and it didn't work.

Has she gone to get Daddy?

No.

Why?

I have no idea.

Do it.

You should do it, right?

You should go through her DMs.

I shouldn't have even told you about it.

Can't believe you haven't done this years ago.

You don't know what it's like, mate, all right!

I know.

I'm just saying,

if I thought someone might've cheated on me,

I'd wanna know the truth.

And as far as I can see, there's only one way to do that.

She says, "We haven't done that for a long time.

"I feel terrible.

"I'm so ashamed.

"Please don't tell anyone."

And what does he say?

"Are you with him now?

"Is he lying next to you?

And then she says, "Please, stop," and he says...

"Don't tell him.

"It's too big, he won't be able to take it.

"Don't tell, Ben."

You should ring him.

Right, you should ring him and ask him outright.

Hello.

Hi. This is Ben.

I'm-I'm Jess's...

I'm Jack and Poppy's dad.

Listen, Josh, can we meet up?

Here we are, take a seat.

Remind me again what wedding favours are?

They're integral.

Are they?

I don't know.

Thanks.

Ooh, are you sure you want to stay in your flat tonight?

I'm sure.

We need to talk about the, uh, seating plan.

Can we do this later?

Emma, the wedding is tomorrow.

I know.

Right, let's get going.

Right, Hannah, sorry. Just one second.

Can we talk about tomorrow?

There's no point, Mum has all the information.

I know tomorrow you're going to be thinking

about someone else.

Joey.

And that's okay, but I still want you to enjoy it.

You're allowed to be happy, Emma.

It's really not that easy.

I think it is.

Just think, this time tomorrow, we're going to be married.

Ben?

Yeah.

Thanks for coming.

Can I get you a drink?

I just wanna ask you something.

Um, okay.

Uh, yeah.

When you rang me, I started to wonder why.

Like, what you might wanna ask me.

I wanna ask you about some messages

that I found on Jess's phone.

Between you and her.

Can I say-

Look, Jess was my best friend.

We talked, and we talked,

and I thought I knew everything about her, but I didn't.

We loved each other.

What we had was special.

And the people that we made are special.

But I need to know-

- Can I say something? - No, just wait.

I'm gay.

What?

That night I met up with Jess,

that's what I wanted to tell her.

But I thought you went out with her?

I did.

I went out with a few girls

and I was gay when I went out with all of them.

You seem confused.

Well, it's just I read these messages between you both,

about that night.

Yeah, that's what I wanted to talk to you about.

They said stuff like, "You were amazing last night."

When I came out to her, she was.

"We haven't done that for a long time.

"I'm so ashamed.

"Please don't tell anyone."

We drank tequila and she was sick in a taxi.

Okay.

Well, you put, um...

Wait, but what about you saying, "Are you with him now?

"Is he lying next to you?

"Don't tell, Ben."

That's harder to explain.

So, Jess was talking about you a lot,

and she showed me a picture of you.

And I might have implied I thought you were

quite attractive.

It became a bit of a joke.

Um, so, "Are you with him now?

"Is he lying next to you?

"Don't tell Ben"

that, essentially, I wanna shag him.

Wait, so, when you said

that, "It's too big and he won't be able to take it,"

you were talking about-

- Yeah. - Right.

How do you feel?

I mean flattered, obviously, but...

Um, yeah, mainly I feel like an idiot.

If you thought for one second Jess would cheat on you,

you should.

Yeah.

And do you, Emma, take this man

to be your lawfully wedded husband,

to have and to hold, as long as you both shall live?