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♪ Life goes on and on and on... ♪

[Grey] The Greek myths loved
to talk about the perils of hubris.

The dangers of believing you
can outrun the will of the gods.

[Adams] How is she still out there?

It's already a hundred degrees.

[Griffith]
She's barely left that chair in six weeks.

[Kwan] Grief doesn't care
that it's the hottest spring on record.

[Griffith]
One of us needs to go out there.

She can't be late on her first day back
or pass out from heatstroke.

Not it.

- How long has she been out there?
- Too long.

Wish there was something
we could do for her.

Yeah, bring her sister back from the dead.

- I'm being serious.
- I am too.

- I knew it. She's not ready.
- [Yasuda] Ready for what?

[Grey] As surgeons we need hubris just
to get through the day.

Come on, losers.

Let's ride.

[Grey]
We have to believe we can fix people,

even with the odds stacked against us.

♪ Everything's going my way ♪

[customers groan]

[sighs]

Okay.

- Oh, sorry. Nora, what are you doing here?
- [gasps] Hey. [chuckles]

I was gonna text you.
I have a follow-up with Teddy.

Well, had. I just heard it was canceled.
And now my car won't start.

And I've been on hold with the tow company
for 20 minutes.

Well, if they're as busy as we are,
you're gonna wait a while.

- You should get out of this heat.
- No kidding.

My ten-year-old baked cookies
on the hood of my car yesterday.

- Didn't we do that once?
- [chuckles] Yeah. On your porch.

And then the dough sat there for an hour
doing nothing, then your dog ate them.

[chuckles] That's right.

- [siren wailing]
- [horn honking]

Uh, I should get back in there.

- Like your bat signal.
- [chuckles]

- Are you calling me a superhero?
- You did save my life.

Technically, that was Teddy.

Hmm.

Anyway, there... there's a cooling center
in the clinic.

So, you're more than welcome
to wait there.

- Okay.
- And, yeah. Good luck with your car.

- Thank you.
- Yeah.

[Grey] Humility makes you good,
but ego makes you great.

I got the two last iced coffees on earth,
and one is for you.

I have this amazing case.

Some might call it impossible.

Which is where I am focusing
my energy right now.

But there is a cardiothoracic component,

and I thought,
"Who better to do it with than, uh..."

Thanks again for last night. Call me?

- Thank you.
- [Ndugu] Oh.

Sorry about that.

Mmm. I'm sorry about your coffee.

[Grey] If that means flying
a little too close to the sun,

well, that's a risk we're willing to take.

- Yasuda. How you feeling? Any pain?
- A little. Not much.

- Okay, you still taking meds?
- Just the NSAIDs.

- And PT?
- Benching 180. [chuckles] Kidding.

I have the upper-body strength
of a jellyfish.

Listen, it can be hard
coming back to a place

where something traumatic happened,
so just be patient with yourself.

Thanks. But what I need is routine. I'm...

I'm ready to get back to work.

Okay then. Welcome back.

We have an expected high of 108.
That means a full ER.

Lots of heat-related illness,

especially amongst
the most vulnerable populations.

[Teddy] Fortunately, we have some
extra local doctors

who have agreed to help us out.

Please show them a warm welcome.

We have cool IV fluids, misters
and inflatable ice baths. Use them.

Cold immersion is the fastest way
to lower internal body temperatures.

All elective surgeries have been canceled
until further notice.

Looks like your surgery
just went up in flames.

...for the following symptoms: cramping,
nausea, vomiting, dizziness, headaches.

[Altman] Take care of yourselves,
hydrate, and we will get through this.

Let's get back to work.

I know that you've been on
since yesterday,

- but you need to take a break.
- I'm good for now.

Guess I should find my patient.

Come on. I'll introduce you
before she has to leave.

Hey, Chief. Uh, I'm on your service,

and I'm ready to be the best
surgical wingman you have ever seen.

I'm glad you're here,
but no scrubbing in today.

Today I need first responder Ben Warren.

- You'll be managing overflow.
- [stammers] You want me on admin?

What I need today is someone
who is good in a crisis.

I want you to communicate with the command
center and update me as needed.

Can't imagine having to give birth
in this heat.

- Yeah.
- Or, you know, ever.

[sighs] Turns out, extreme heat can cause
preterm labor. So that's fun.

- You know what's more fun?
- What?

The guy can't fix our AC today.

Then call a different guy.

I've tried, like, ten guys.
They're all slammed.

The kids can't sleep in 90-degree heat.
I can't sleep in 90-degree heat.

Fortunately, we don't have to.

We could get a hotel for the night,
or I could find us a house to rent.

Ugh! Damn it! [sighs]

Can you just figure it out?

Jackie, Sky, this is Dr. Winston Ndugu,
our chief of cardiothoracic surgery.

He has agreed to work
on Jackie's case with me.

- Oh, my God. You're the guy.
- Jackie.

- You ghosted my mom.
- Oh, no.

I recognize you
from the profile on the app.

My mom showed it to me
in case she went missing.

Hello. Again.

If you want another doctor, I can...

No, no, I have bigger things to worry
about than a guy I went out with once.

As long as you're excellent at your job,
I'm good.

Okay.

Jackie Williams, 18,
recently diagnosed with Marfan syndrome,

a connective tissue disorder
that weakens blood vessels.

She has three brain aneurysms
as well as an aortic root aneurysm.

I got a full ride to Georgia Tech
for basketball.

A week later, I get this diagnosis.

And they're telling us
that they have to push Jackie's surgery?

The hospital needs to dedicate
all resources to the heat dome.

Well, her father died
of a ruptured brain aneurysm at 27,

and now we know
it was probably Marfan too.

We'd really like to get this
taken care of.

We should sneak her into CT
just to take a look.

Thank you, Dr. Ndugu.

- Least I can do.
- No crap.

- I thought you were seeing Beltran.
- I'm seeing a few people.

Clearly.

I'm really glad that you're back.
If you need anything...

- Don't. I'm good. Really.
- [Hunt] Let's go.

You're with me.

[paramedic 1] Carl Holcomb, 52,

was operating a crane when it collapsed
on an apartment building.

Temp in the field was 109.

Fluid and cooling measures
initiated en route.

Temp currently at 106,
and he's still altered.

[Bailey] All right. We need to
get his temperature down fast.

[Carl panting] My nephew, shaggy hair.
I-Is he...

- He was on the phone. I tried to yell.
- [Bailey] We've got him.

[paramedic 2]
David Holcomb, 20-year-old male,

crush injuries to the abdomen
and right upper...

- [Lincoln] Whoa, whoa, whoa.
- [Hunt] Go, go, go, go.

He's burning up!
Let's get a gurney out here.

Get everybody inside
and page for more hands!

[sirens wailing]

Oh, Lord help us.

Guessing shooting guard?
That's a position in basketball.

- She thinks she's funny.
- No, she's right. Um...

Huge Storm fan. Sue Bird's my idol.

[Molly] Excuse me, Blue, Dr. Kwan.

- We'll meet you in CT.
- [sighs] Yeah.

Hi. What are you doing here?

I heard about the heat dome,
and I hopped on a plane to come help.

That was a lie. I'm sorry.
I don't know why I said that.

Is everything okay?

- Dave proposed.
- Oh.

Yeah. He, um, proposed,
and I immediately came here.

Like ever since that day
that you kissed me,

I just haven't been able
to get you out of my head.

And I don't know what to do.

So I just thought... [sighs]

I don't know what I thought.

But I had to see you.

- I...
- [phone vibrating]

- [elevator dings]
- [sighs]

[sighs, stammers]

- This is not a good time. Can we...
- No. You're busy. I don't wanna keep you.

Sky. Jackie's on her way to CT now.

Thanks.

My divorce was more amicable than most.

But still, it's been rough.

So I've been trying to get back out there.

And, yeah, I'm just not ready
for anything serious right now.

That's what I should have told you
after our date.

For the record, I never used the term
"ghosting" with my daughter. [chuckles]

Either way, I... I messed up. I'm sorry.

Dating as a single mom... [sighs]
...it isn't exactly a pleasure cruise.

But none of that matters now.

Since Jackie's symptoms started,

all my energy is going to making sure
she gets the best care.

Well, you've come to the right place.

Jackie's my whole world.

You can ghost me, that's... that's fine,

but you do not mess around with my girl.

I wouldn't dream of it.

[Bailey] Okay, nephew's in Trauma 1.
How's he doing?

Temp's 105. Heart rate's rising,
and Adams got the last ice bath.

- [Adams] Sorry.
- My nephew. Please say he's okay?

- [crying] Did I kill him?
- We'll try to find out.

He's delirious.

We have to cool him down quickly
or he risks permanent organ damage.

I need a body bag and ice right now.

The ER's out of body bags.
Do you want me to go to the morgue?

- No, I want you to run to the morgue.
- Okay.

- I can go by myself.
- I wanna help.

- [heart monitor blaring]
- Sir?

Sir! Uh, Adams, get me an intubation tray.

- [Lincoln] He's got an unstable humerus.
- Free fluid in the abdomen.

I heard you might need some help in here.
I brought some visitors.

Dr. Walters, Nurse Constantine
and Dr. Beckman.

- I thought Dr. Beckman was...
- A man?

That'd be my husband,
I'm just helping out for the day.

Dr. Hunt. Wondered if I'd see you.
What happened here?

[Lincoln] Poor kid wasn't
paying attention. Crane fell on him.

[Cass] That's a hell of a wake-up call.
We should get him to CT before...

- [heart monitor blaring]
- BP's tanking.

Guess we'll go straight into surgery.
Who's gonna help me find an OR?

What? No bossy women in your lives?
Come on.

- Splint the arm later.
- Yeah. Let's go.

- My patient's got a temperature of 105.
- Oh, yeah? Well, mine's 104 and pregnant.

You know, pregnancy doesn't
automatically trump everything else.

I trump you,
so I should get the rest of the ice.

No! No, no, no, no, no. That's my ice!

Jo, there's a machine
in the attendings' lounge. Try there.

- Empty.
- Okay, well, the cafeteria then.

ICU? Dermatology?

- Okay, I will be the adult and order some.
- [Warren] Thank you.

There's a convenience store
over on Pine. You should...

- Just faster to go.
- Why are you bossing me around?

Because I'm dealing with overflow
for Chief.

We barely have enough orderlies,
and, well, we need ice.

Load as much as you can in your car
and just hurry back.

I didn't drive today.

Okay, we'll take my car. [sighs]

[sighs] It's nice in here.

Quiet. Peaceful.

Which one do you think was Chloe's?

I don't know.

I bet she was happy here.

She always liked cold weather.

Mika?

Come on.

We keep this guy waiting any longer,
we'll kill him too.

Go ahead.

[beeping]

How's Molly? Adams swore me to secrecy.

Molly is...

deciding if she wants to
marry her boyfriend.

Do you still have feelings for her?

Too much has happened.

It would be impossible
to make it work now.

Maybe it wouldn't be as hard as you think.

[Jackie] How much longer
do I have to be in here?

I'm supposed to be in Georgia
right now starting team workouts,

but instead, I'm sitting in this
giant tube with blood bombs in my brain.

Well, maybe when this is all done,
you can look into a low-contact sport.

Basketball's the only thing
I've ever loved.

So I'm not letting it go that easy.

After all this is over,
I'm gonna find a way to play.

Good luck convincing a pro team
to take that kind of risk on you.

[Griffith] Scans are up.

[Shepherd] Let's see what we've got.

Okay. The aortic route aneurysm
definitely needs surgery ASAP.

[Shepherd] Okay, this is the brain CTA.
All right, there's two on the MCA.

There's one aneurysm on the ACA.

Damn it. See this one
in the posterior circulation?

That is on the basilar artery. That's new.

- [Kwan] And big.
- [Shepherd] Mm-hmm.

Yep, that's Godzilla on steroids.
We need to embolize that immediately.

[Kwan] Do you do it endovascularly?

If we can get the right angle.
If not, we'll have to convert to open.

And I'm gonna need you
to put her on bypass.

Uh... No. It would be too much stress
on the heart.

It could cause
the aortic route aneurysm to rupture.

I mean, this could rupture at any second.
If that explodes, she's brain dead.

So what do we tell the mom?

We tell her I will go in endovascularly,

and we pray that I don't have to
open her up.

I don't understand. I thought that
all surgeries were postponed.

Well, her case is now considered emergent.

You said that the brain aneurysm
could wait.

This new one is larger than the others
and in a more concerning location.

- Does that mean that it's harder to fix?
- Mom. Don't freak out.

I was going to need this anyway,

and she's the only doctor
who actually said yes.

Are you sure you can still do this?

This aneurysm is difficult,
but it's the same game,

and I've been playing for a long time.

I know how to do this.

- Do we have to decide right now?
- I'd like to proceed sooner than...

You should take a minute
to think about it.

Kwan.

I know my word might not hold
a lot of weight right now,

but Jackie does need this surgery.

And you want Dr. Shepherd to do it.

I promise.

It's my only shot.

Then I guess you better take it.

[Jess] We should clear the air.

- I'm sorry?
- I am sorry for what happened with Teddy.

We should get in there.

Look, what happened
was not my finest moment.

I don't typically go around
kissing other people's wives.

We were just having a good time,
and it was a misunderstanding.

And it was my misunderstanding.

[Hunt] I know. [sighs]

No apology necessary. I trust my wife.

She told me it was nothing,
and I believe her. We're good.

Okay.

Wait, what would you have done just now
if Teddy hadn't told me about the kiss?

Crawled under a rock and died.

[both chuckling]

- [Warren] Chief. Chief.
- [Altman] Seattle Pres's generator failed,

and a semi truck blew a tire
and caused a 15-car pileup on the 5.

That means more incoming traumas
and staff caught in traffic.

So this is not a great time to tell you
that the ICU is full, huh?

I have 700 problems.
I need you to bring me the solutions.

We can send overflow to the PACU,

and I can put out another request
to nurses to come in on their day off.

- Great, make that happen.
- All right. Oh, uh...

Also, the ice delivery is delayed.
Already sent someone to get more.

Thank you. [sighs]

Yeah, this is Altman.

[bells jingle]

Hey, you got any ice?

Yeah, it's in the back,
if there's any left.

Ooh. Yum.

What? I haven't had any breakfast yet.

What?

- We drove across the Sahara for this?
- [bells jingle]

We gotta go somewhere else. This is not...

- [gun cocks]
- [robber] Open the register. Now!

- [clerk] Oh!
- [Adams] Get down. Get down.

- [Wilson] Oh, my God.
- [robber] I said open it.

- [clerk stammers] Okay, um...
- Hurry up.

[clerk] Okay, okay.
Just please don't hurt me.

[Yasuda] You know what's worse
than burning or freezing to death?

Burning and freezing to death.

Please stop.

Uh... Core temp is coming down slowly.

Millin, we have incoming traumas.
Go give Altman a hand.

[Millin] Okay.

BP is falling. Are those ST elevations?

- [beeping continues]
- He just went into V-fib.

Ah... He's having a heart attack.

Okay, Yasuda, get a crash cart.

[Bailey stammers]

Anyone, crash cart, now!

- [Yasuda] He's dying.
- That is what the crash cart is for.

Okay, Carl. Stay with us.

Give me the pads.

Okay. Okay.
All right, we're gonna charge to 150.

- Clear.
- [electrical humming]

It's not working. You're losing him.
You're letting him die.

[Bailey] Okay, charge again to 200.

- [electrical humming]
- Okay. Clear.

- Dr. Bailey, he's dying.
- Hey, don't you think I know that?

- [electrical humming]
- Go again. Clear.

[heart monitor blaring]

- He's dying.
- Damn it.

Aren't you supposed to be a doctor?

He's dying! You are letting him die!
You just can't let him die like that.

You can't just let him die.
You have to save her!

Save her. Just please save her.
Just save her, please.

You have to save her.
Please, just take me.

Dr. Bailey, just take me.

Just take me.

- Just...
- [Bailey] Going again.

- [electrical humming]
- Clear.

Got him back.

[breathing heavily]

Chief, ICU is full. PACU is full.

I think it's time we considered
moving intubated patients into the ER.

We don't have the staff
to manage that with the outage.

A few towers have been knocked out,
and I can't get through to anyone.

- Uh, I need to talk to you about Yasuda.
- Okay.

We're in the middle of something.

She wants to work,
but she's not even close to ready.

I have to bench her.

Okay. Offer her extra time off.
She has been through so much.

She shouldn't come back
until she feels ready.

- Agreed. Thank you.
- Yep.

Chief, I've got critical patients
and no place to put them.

[sighs] All right, we are going to
have to divert traumas.

- You want to send patients away?
- No, but we don't have the resources.

I know you only want to talk about
solutions, but this is a big problem.

[stammers] The hospitals
you want to divert to,

Seattle Pres has been experiencing
power outages all day.

Tukwila Hospital's entire IT system
is down.

[phone buzzing]

I have been a first responder
with nowhere to take patients.

- We can't close down.
- Altman. Wait, you're breaking up.

Wait. Don't do anything until I get there.

I don't see any other options right now.
Do you?

- Uh-huh.
- [Warren sighs]

So, are we diverting or not?

We're staying open. I'll figure it out.

Okay, well, do it fast before I have to
start putting patients in stairwells.

- [robber] Open the drawer.
- Okay.

- What's your name?
- Gladys.

Gladys, listen to me.
I need everything that's in that drawer.

- Right now, Gladys, okay?
- [Gladys] Okay, okay.

Nothing's going through.

Okay, uh, there's gotta be another door.

- Stay here.
- Wait. No, no, no.

[Gladys crying] Oh, God.

That-That's everything. I-I promise!

I-I swear!

Hey, look. What about these, huh?

I need you to do exactly what I say,
exactly when I say it. Got it?

Okay.

[Gladys crying]

Hey! Get over here where I can see you.
Both of you. Now!

Behind there with her.
And put your phones on the counter.

Put them on the table.

All right, nobody moves
unless you wanna die, got it?

[Shepherd] Okay, last anterior aneurysm
has been coiled.

Moving on to the beast.

[Kwan] What are the chances of Jackie
developing more aneurysms later on?

The Marfan syndrome does predispose her,
but that does not necessarily mean any...

[Kwan] Doesn't it, though?

I mean, we can fix these, but the
underlying problem will always be there.

Can we hold on the negativity
while I am inside Jackie's brain?

Of course. Sorry.

[Shepherd] Uh-oh. This is not good.

You see how there's no neck to it?

[Kwan] It looks worse than on the scan.

If we go any further,
I'm gonna rupture it,

and she's gonna lose
a lot more than basketball.

We are going to have to put her
on bypass and open her up.

[Webber] Specimen coming your way.

[Hunt] Liver and stomach look good.

- How's the small bowel?
- [Cass] I think we're ready to close.

O-looped PDS.

[Lincoln] Is there any ETA
on when I can set this arm?

[Webber] Oh, we're closing now.

Dr. Beckman,
what do you think of Grey-Sloan so far?

[Cass] State-of-the-art ORs
and dark roast in the attendings' lounge?

If you tried to poach me,

- I wouldn't be mad about it.
- [Lincoln] You looking for a new job?

Aren't we always
looking to upgrade some part of our lives?

[Webber] You didn't consider applying
for a position in the past?

Oh, I did.
Head of the department never called.

We haven't had many openings lately.

But by all means, email me your résumé.

- That'd be fantastic.
- [heart monitor blaring]

- [Hunt] Blood's coming from somewhere.
- Damn it!

We need to open again. Scissors.

[Lincoln] Page me when you need me.

[Griffith] Hey.

That's where she died.

Chloe?

My parents let me name her.

Did they run out of ideas
for the eighth girl?

I already had two younger sisters,
and I was not excited about a third.

They figured I'd be more into her
if I had a bigger stake.

- Did it work?
- Oh, too well.

I love all my sisters.

But Chloe...

She was my heart.

And now I've lost it.

I've grieved my mom every day of my life,
and I never met her.

I can't imagine how you're feeling.

Will I ever feel normal again?

I think this is your normal now.

And every day you'll get
a little more comfortable with it.

♪ Holding tighter ♪

♪ Losing control ♪

♪ Could I let it go? ♪

Cream, no sugar, right?

- You remembered.
- [chuckles] Yeah.

♪ Slow fading ♪

[sighs, chuckles]

Jackie's first basketball.

When she outgrew it,
I started using it as a stress ball.

She was just a baby when her father died.

In the blink of an eye,
the love of my life was just gone.

And I had this little girl
to take care of.

And I didn't think that I could do it.

But she gave me the strength.

Every smile, every giggle, every...

[crying] ...every milestone.

She kept me going.

I don't know what I would do if...

She's gonna be okay, right?

We can't make guarantees, but...

[Shepherd] Hey.

So the good news is,
I got all but one of the aneurysms.

Okay, um, what's the bad news?

There's been a change of plans.

We are going to have to open Jackie up
to get the last aneurysm.

What does that mean?

Well, I will open Jackie's skull.

After Dr. Ndugu puts her on bypass,
we will cool her down to stop her heart

and cut off blood flow to her brain,

which will make it
safe to clip the aneurysm.

You're stopping her heart?

I know it sounds scary.

But Dr. Ndugu will be there
to make sure that her heart is okay.

I couldn't go any further without
risking a rupture. This is our best shot.

Okay, just...

Just save my baby.

- [Shepherd] Okay.
- Just save my baby.

What the hell happened?

[sighs] We knew this was a possibility.

Hey, I got your text. What's going on?

Are you okay?

I just wanna feel normal.

Please. Help me feel normal.

♪ Addiction to the ambition ♪

♪ Addiction to addiction ♪

♪ Addiction to soul ♪

♪ Addiction to selfishness ♪

♪ Addiction to condition ♪

♪ Addiction to addiction ♪

♪ Release ♪

♪ There's a quiet in surrendering ♪

♪ Release ♪

♪ There's a quiet in surrendering ♪

♪ Release ♪

♪ Release ♪

♪ Release ♪

Gladys, do I look stupid to you?

- Forty-seven dollars on a busy day?
- Oh! [cries]

I just work here.

Where's the rest of the money?

Hey, look, you want money? Yeah? Yeah?

How about we give you
what's in our wallets?

I got, uh...

Tw-Twelve bucks, uh...

Twelve bucks?

- Where's the safe, Gladys?
- [Gladys stammers]

Where is it?

Gladys, look at me.

Where's the safe, Gladys?

It's, um, in the back.

Okay. Let's go.

Okay.

And you two, you follow her.

And don't try anything stupid.

Well, that was...

Yeah.

My whole body's vibrating.

- You're welcome.
- [chuckles]

Dr. Bailey's probably looking for us.

I need a minute. [sighs]

[breathes heavily, cries]

Oh, it's not you.

I know.

I know.

It's just every room in this hospital,
I see her face.

- Every room.
- Okay. Come here.

- I see her face. [crying]
- Come here. Come here.

It's okay.

It's gonna be okay.
We'll figure it out together.

- Yeah. I'm sorry.
- Yeah.

- I promise. I promise.
- [crying]

[Kwan] No wonder no one wanted this case.

One wrong move
and we literally blow up her life.

Or we could save it.

As Jackie cools to 16 degrees Celsius,
the heart will stop,

and Dr. Ndugu will shut off the pump.

And then I will have 45 minutes
to clip that aneurysm

before she's at risk
for permanent brain damage.

- Is that enough time?
- It's going to have to be.

- What if we don't access the right angle...
- Okay, no more questions. I...

As I work, I need comp...

Complete...

No distractions.
I need complete concentration. [sighs]

Dr. Shepherd?

[Shepherd breathes heavily, sighs]

[Ndugu] You said it yourself.
This is an impossible case.

That was before you saw
the fourth aneurysm.

No one will fault you
if you can't do this.

I have been Sky and Jackie.

Desperately searching for a shred of hope.

My dad, my brother.

I have seen loss.

I thought that there was a chance that I
could keep Sky from losing Jackie, but...

But what if there's not?
What if I can't give her that?

It's too late for that.

You've come too far now, okay?
You have to see it through.

Can you do this?

Because I think you can.

Okay? Let's do it.

Okay. Okay.

Okay.

[Cass] Scissors.
Mesenteric bleeding has stopped.

[Webber] That's a good catch, everyone.

- [Hunt] It was all Dr. Beckman.
- [Cass] That was a team effort.

And this was a lot of fun.
We should all have dinner again sometime.

- [chuckles] Too soon?
- [Hunt chuckles]

I think we're ready to close.

Dr. Beckman, you do the honors.

Go ahead. I'm right behind you.

Somebody page ortho.

[Shepherd] I've dissected down as far
as I can without risking rupture.

Are we ready for circulatory arrest?

[Ndugu] Internal body temperature
is at 16 degrees.

Perfusionist is ready to stop the pump.

Just say the word.

Start the clock.

Bipolars.

Dr. Bailey, do you have a minute?

Yasuda, I was just going to look for you.

Come and find me after, okay?

You should know that I got Carl back.

He just got a stent placed
and he's recovering.

I am so sorry that I freaked out, okay?

- It will not happen again.
- Oh, yes, it will.

My mom died three years ago,
and I still lose my cool sometimes.

I thought that work would distract me.

I leapt into work after I lost my mom.

I... I needed purpose
to help me make sense of her death.

Turns out death doesn't make any sense.

If I could do it again, I would stay home.

I would rest until I was ready
to come back

because I wanted to work,

not because I needed work to save me.

I don't wanna be here.

Take more time.

Go be with your family.

Grieve, okay?

We'll-We'll be here
when you're ready to come back.

I don't think I can come back.

Rest can do wonders, okay?

You'll-You'll feel differently
in a few weeks.

I wanna believe that, but I-I know myself.

I'm either all in or I am all...

I need to find a way forward,

and I can't do that
if everything around me...

reminds me of her.

Well, I'm sorry to hear that,
but you know yourself best.

You know, great surgeons have
great respect for how fragile life is.

And when you are ready...

this will make you better, stronger.

I know it.

I really hope you're right.

[sighs]

♪ How can I go where you don't hide? ♪

♪ Who am I
If not seen through your eyes? ♪

[robber] Stay right there.
Gladys, what the hell is taking so long?

[Gladys] I've never opened this before.
I don't know how.

[robber] Figure it out,
unless you want me to use this.

[Adams] My grandfather
owned a convenience store.

Did he ever tell you what to do
if you're robbed at gunpoint?

No, he died before I was born.

I'm sorry.

How'd he die?

Robbed at gunpoint.

Yeah, my uncle Derek and aunt Amelia...
uh, Dr. Shepherd... were there.

Maybe we don't talk.

[gasps]

[Adams] Are you okay?

[Wilson breathing shakily]

I think I'm bleeding.

What? Wh-Where?

I'm pregnant.

[gasps]

[Shepherd] Almost done.
Just have to deploy the clip.

- [Ndugu] One minute.
- [Shepherd] I can see that.

I have to finish this if we don't
want her stroking out on the table.

Kwan, retract here.

Fifty seconds.

[Shepherd] Almost there.

Forty seconds.

Got it. [panting]

All right, let's restart the pump.

[all applauding]

- That was...
- Impossible.

[Shepherd sighs]

Ticktock, Gladys.
I'm starting to lose my patience.

- Wait, where are you going?
- Jo, we have to get you out of here.

Hey, sit down. Sit down.

She's pregnant.

Congratulations.

Okay, look, if you let us go, we'll walk
out of here like nothing happened.

I'm not going anywhere
until I get my money.

What, are you digging
a tunnel back there, Gladys?

- Hurry up.
- Safe won't open.

God. Well, try again.

I'm trying.

Sit down!

- I'm not gonna tell you again.
- All right.

Sit down!

Come on, Gladys.

- No! God!
- [robber] God!

Ms. Williams?

- How is she?
- We got the last aneurysm.

We're warming her up to restart her heart.

Thank you so much.

I mean, everyone was so scared
to take Jackie's case.

Everyone except Dr. Shepherd.

Thank God she did.

We'll have more updates for you soon.

Thank you.

I haven't been able
to get you out of my head either.

I've wanted this for so long.

We'll get you an ice bath to lower
your temperature as soon as possible.

Hey. Have you seen Wilson anywhere?

- No. I gotta go pick up the kids.
- [Warren sighs]

- But if you see her, have her call me.
- Yeah.

Warren, I told you
to divert all incoming an hour ago.

I-I know it looks chaotic,
but I have a plan.

No one has a plan with a heat dome.

That's why I asked you to close to trauma

so that we can focus on
the patients that we already have.

- People will die waiting on rigs.
- Says the firefighter.

Think like a surgeon.

You told me to be a first responder today.

We are closed to trauma,
effective immediately.

[PA] Nurse Bilstein to the OR.

[sighs]

[Altman sighs]

So you take the heels off
and eat residents for lunch?

[chuckles] Do you ever feel
like no one listens to you?

I work in a male-dominated specialty.

Sometimes I think they hear me
the third time I say it.

Did you see the ER?
I don't know what I'm gonna do.

- Yeah, you are pretty screwed. [chuckles]
- [chuckles]

How can I help?

- Can you stay?
- Yeah, I can stay.

Hey, I'm just, uh...
I'm heading up to the ICU.

- Can you...
- Actually,

I'm gonna take that break.

Call me if you need anything.

[Grey] Every surgery is an act of hubris.

You open a body,
knowing you can make it better.

Thirty-seven degrees Celsius
and her heart hasn't restarted yet.

[heart monitor flatlines]

- Why hasn't it restarted?
- V-fib. We need to shock it.

[alarm blaring]

Charge to 100.

[electrical humming]

Clear.

All right, let's charge to 200. Clear.

It should be working.

Why isn't it working?

Again.

I said again. Clear.

[heart monitor flatlines]

♪ Reach for a hand to pull me through ♪

[Grey] On our best days,
surgeons decide our patients' fate.

Hey, how did your talk with Bailey go?

What are you doing? Mika...

Mika, please don't do this. Please...

Let's just talk about this.

I'm so sorry.

Hey.

♪ Thought it was right
But can you hear? ♪

[Grey] It can make you feel invincible.
Like you can do no wrong.

Hey. Still no tow truck?

Eight people ahead of me.
I'm gonna be here till winter.

- I'm sorry.
- Me too.

You know who's not, though? My kids.

I told my ex I can't get them today,

and he booked a fancy lake house
for the weekend.

So I either go and get them tomorrow
and ruin their vacation,

or I don't see them for a few days.

He's always the hero, and I'm just...

crying in public,
which apparently I do now.

[crying]

Come on. I'll give you a ride
back to your hotel.

Don't you have to work?

If they need me, they can,
you know, send out the bat signal.

[chuckles]

What did you say to Mika?

♪ Forgiveness ♪

I told her to make the best decision
for herself and her family.

And now she's leaving for good.

She needs our support.

Support?

You let her go
like she meant nothing to you.

[Grey] But inevitably,
our hubris catches up with us.

In those awful moments,
we're left with nothing

but the wreckage of our shattered egos.

When are you due?

It's okay. You can tell me.
When are you due?

- [Gladys] Leave them alone.
- Hey.

- Leave them alone.
- What are you gonna do with that?

- Put that down, Gladys. Put it down.
- Mm-mmm.

Put it do... Hey!

Sit down! Don't move, Gladys.

- Don't move.
- [Gladys screams]

[Wilson] Oh, my God. [screams]

[Adams, robber grunting]

[Gladys screams]

- [Gladys screams]
- [gunshot]

[Grey] And we're in total free fall.