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When I was just a child myself I had a child.

What are you doing?! DERMOTT GROWLS

DOUG: They were in your deleted folder.

BERNIE: Dermott said he tried to call you

when the contractions started.

ANDREW: What? No he didn't.

You're definitely staying on then? Yeah. Talk about divineintervention...

That woman... That woman is my mother.

Kathleen had another child when you were born.

Is there anything else I don't know?

No.

I think the sooner you leave the better.

I had a scan earlier.

I can't tell Kat obviously but um... It's not good news.

Get off me! You're not my da!

ANDREW: You swan in here and cause havoc.

KIERAN: What havoc have I caused?

BERNIE: Where's Peter? What if something HAS happened?

SHE GASPS FOR BREATH

HE PANTS

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And now here's Out And Cover by Dogs featuring Suzanne Parson.

BABY WAILS

I know you think I'm mad.

Have you even slept?

His body was found here Adeen came from here.

So who's this?

Someone was on that beach when Lance died.

Or maybe it was the balsamic vinegar here.

In the library. With the candlestick.

I mean what do you want me to say? Just that I'm not going crazy.

You're not going crazy.

But you're like a dog after a bone.

SIGHS: Oh! I just...

I just need to be busy. Are you not busy enough no?

Then why didn't he call you?

When I was in labour why didn't Dermott call you?

And why was he shutting down my computer?

You sound just like Kieran. What's Kieran got to do with it?

Bernie... I can't keep having this conversation.

If any of this nonsense gets out... I mean is that what you want?

No. Then will you please... leave it?

COWS MOO

What?

Nothing.

Is your mam still in bed?

Oh it's been a whirlwind.

With Lance the funeral the christening -

everything a million miles an hour.

Some rest'll do her good. Some of us don't have that luxury.

What can I do to help? SHE SCOFFS

Ro I'm asking you... What can I do?

Will you quit being the martyr and tell me huh?

You wouldn't know where to start.

So tell me! That's all you have to do.

I need some money put in the bank. Consider it done.

Our Father who art in heaven hallowed be thy name;

thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses

as we forgive those who trespass against us;

and lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil.

For thine is the kingdom the power and the glory for ever and ever.

Amen. CONGREGATION: Amen.

Hiya Bernie.Ah Dermott.

Hello there little lad.

Isn't he gorgeous?

Oh sleepyhead! SHE LAUGHS

HE CHUCKLES

You're not thinking about a change in career then?

Midwifery.

LAUGHING: Oh! No!

It's not every day a priest gets to deliver a baby.

Well it's one for the parish newsletter that's for sure!

HE CHUCKLES

I was looking at the photos last night... Oh...from the christening.

Mm.Don't think I thanked you properly.

Don't uh... Don't usually see you here on a weekday.No.

And thanks by the way...

..for shutting down the computer that night too.

No problem.

I mean anyone could have walked in to the front desk there.

It's actually all a bit of a blur to me.

My memory seems to be OK.

The morning Lance died do you remember where you were?

Uh...

I would have been here I imagine. You'd imagine?

Well uh it was a weekday wasn't it?

So uh... Yeah would have been here preparing for Mass.

And did Lance say anything to you before he died?

Well Lance said a lot of things didn't he?About?

Something that might have been troubling him?

We know he rode all night. Nothing to me I'm afraid.

So you WERE here...that morning?

Why are you asking me all these questions Bernie?

I just told you I was here.

And when was the last time you saw Lance alive?

That night. At the pub. The same as everyone else.

Are you stopping for a cup of tea?

HE SIGHS I'm not going to pack any pants

I'm just going to turn these ones inside out tomorrow.

HE CHUCKLES

Come on darling. It's only one night and Axel reckonshe's a really good contact.

Haven't we got enough on our plate with the bar?

That's the point. If he can sell us some cheap Irish whisky...

CHEAP meaning knock-off.

What you talk...? That's not knock-off.

Even with the import charges by the time we've marked it up...

Yeah you're right.Yeah.

It's only business what would I know?

As long as that's all it is.

Yeah well...there's that...

# And my fancy woman... #

Shut up. BOTH LAUGH

Mwah. Why don't you take Tommy down to the beach?

Apparently they've spotted some whale off the coast or something.

Yeah maybe. Hm.

So when I get back tomorrow we'll sit down we'll have a chat

about what we're going to do - whether we head home...

Dermott said he needs his space

so I can't force his hand and drive him away can I?

You haven't spoken to him have you?

No. No no no.Right.

Hey Tommy give Daddy a kiss.

Come on. Give your daddy a kiss goodbye!

You know you want to! Get off! Get off!

ALFIE LAUGHS Look after Mummy for me yeah?

Better get your stuff together if you want to go to thatfootball thing.

All right. Football - go go go go go! Good boy.

Call me when you get there yeah? Yeah I promise.

All right.I love ya. I love you.Mm.

And Alfie...?What?

Don't sign anything.

CHUCKLING: I won't. I'll see you later.Yeah.

Mam if you're sick we should call the doctor.

SIGHING: I'm not sick Roisin I'm grieving.

EILEEN SIGHS

You'll have to go look for Peter. I can't go anywhere.

Anything could have happened.

Andrew can manage for a few hours. Go. Both of you.

Find him and bring him back.

Come on.

SHE SOBS

Adeen?

What are you doing darling?

What's happened?

Darling what's the matter?

Darling... Oh sweetheart what's happened to you?

You all right?Yeah.

Kieran! Kieran!

Taking after your grandfather?

SIGHING: Yeah well... Missing the gym back home.

Don't get views like this though.

No you don't.

Kieran...

I need to ask you something.

HE SIGHS

Ooh.

That looks painful.You've no idea.

I know you've been speaking to Andrew.

About Dermott...

What about him?

That's what I was hoping you could tell me.

Andrew thinks I'm going mad.

Ithink I'm going mad.

Except I don't.

I saw a therapist for a while.

Back in New York because...

Well...

That's the American way.

We tried to talk about it.

I dunno...

about Mouse and what happened.Mm.

But I just couldn't.

It's like nothing would come out.

But since being back...

Don't be so hard on yourself.

It'll be painful so...you forget. Yeah.

And then you remember.

VOICEOVER: My sister...

Help!

..and Dermott.

Iris held out her hand to him.

That night.

VOICEOVER: I heard him.

He wouldn't help his mother.

He let her go under.

He could have saved her but he didn't he let her die.

Do you believe me?

Yeah.

And then everything with Cois Dara just...

The fire? What do you mean?

Look Dermott asked me if he could come in with us on Cois Dara

and I said no obviously because I mean why would we?

And that night... it's burned to the ground.

Really?You think...?

I don't know what I think.

All I know is that everybody I've spoken to has said

my grandfather was fit and healthy and then one day he's just...gone.

Just like that just...gone.

So what changed?

What changed?

What changed?

There's Nan.

Please anywhere but here.

No car.

SHE KNOCKS

Hello?

Peter? Oh...

We should call the police. No.

Why not?

ROISIN SIGHS

Because if he HAS taken the car they'll do him for drunk driving.

Then what are we going to do?

SIGHING: Oh Peter!

EILEEN SIGHS

Where are you going? I think I know where he is.

TANNOY: Nurse Julie Bally please report to the...

Coffee for you. Oh that's lovely thank you.

I bet you're in and out of these places all the time eh?

Oh not if I can help it.

No I mean the last rites and all that you know?

Yeah as I said not if I can help it.

20 years ago maybe.

When people like me were still at the centre of all this.

Yeah well times change eh?

Yeah.

The world keeps marching on and we got left behind.

Yeah the good old days.

I don't know about that. No you're probably right.

Kat's still a bit upset I think. I'm here to support you AlfieI don't want to talk about that OK?

Yeah no that... No that's fine. I know.

You know Dermott

I really appreciate you being here with me today.

And it means a lot.

If anyone wants to be talking to Kathleen it's you.

TUTS: Oh do me a favour!

KNOCK AT DOOR

KNOCKING CONTINUES

Yeah I'm coming!

Hm!

Kathleen... Yeah.

How you going? All right.

Um listen I was just passing

and this little one's after puking all over himself!

Would you mind if I cleaned him up real quick?

Yeah of course you can! Come in. Great thanks a million.

Bathroom's upstairs. First door on the left.

I wouldn't say no to a cuppa if there's one going?

BERNIE EXHALES

They've an offer down there on beef jerky.

Three packs for the price of two.

I don't even know if I like beef jerky but it seemed like too goodan opportunity to pass up.

So who was it?Does it matter?

No it doesn't.

Jimmy.

Who's Jimmy?

Not the pizza boy?

That pimply streak of piss?!

He didn't force himself did he?No.

You promise you won't say anything? You're too young for secrets Adeen.

You said you wouldn't.And I won't.

But you're too clever to get mixed up in the likes of this Adeen.

Adeen Kelly?

ADEEN SNIFFLES

You could have told me to change my shoes!

Where are we going?

PETER: IRIS!

What the hell is he doing?

You'll catch your death.

Stop fussing over him will you?

How much have you had?

TEAPOT WHISTLES Where's the car?

You can't remember cos that's what happens when you drink.

Ah Ro could you cut him some slack?

You need to sober up and get to a meeting.

Could you just go both of you? A meeting?

Jesus Eileen open your eyes.

Your man hasn't had a drink for... 18 years. He's an alcoholic.

But he owns a pub.

And I'm here so you can stop talking about me like I'm not.

WHISPERS: You poor thing.

Come here.

Mm!

I saw you today didn't I?

At the football camp thing with um...

Jonjo. Yeah he loves it. Football mad he is.

Yeah Tommy's the same. West Ham it is.

That's Alfie's influence.

Well they're likely to be firm friends by now.

Either that or sworn enemies! KAT CHUCKLES

You know what kids are like on the football pitch.

So listen I...did want to ask you something off the record.

I didn't know we were ON the record. We're not it's just...

At the pub... You know after the run? ..you spoke to Lance.

My husband saw you.

You were upset.

Must have been all them whisky chasers he was lining up!KAT LAUGHS

You didn't notice anything out of the ordinary did you?

I'd just met him that afternoon I wouldn't know what ordinary was.

Hm.

Why?

No reason.

Do you know what?

I knew SOMETHING was weird.

How do you mean "weird"?

Well not weird exactly.

It's just that in the pub it was the singing and poetry and shots

and then two days later he dropped down dead.

Yeah.

Do you think something happened to him?

No. Course not.

Any sugar going?

Yeah it's in the kitchen. Won't be a sec.Thanks.

EILEEN: Is there anyone we can call?

What about a...sponsor?

It was just a slip not a relapse.

If you don't want to get drunk don't take the first drink.

Peter what happened?

You know...we all have regrets.

Whatever it is it's...

It's OK.

And all we can do in the end

is hope that we end up with the right regrets.

All those years sober...

I'd no idea.

Because you weren't here.

You can have too many years sober and not enough days.

One drink is too many 20 is not enough.

If you don't want to slip... don't go to slippery places.

What is he doing?

Poor me poor me POUR me another drink.Stop.

Peter you're scaring me now.

I have platitudes as long as my arm sweetheart

I can keep going all day.

KEEP your side of the street clean. Halt! Hungry angry lonely...

JUST stop.

I don't know where my car is. Oh don't worry about that now.

Don't worry about it?! You could have killed somebody.

Might HAVE for all you know.

We're not going to fix anything sitting around here.

Come on. I'll take you home.

What's left of it!

Honestly it works a treat.

The Dummy Fairy? Yeah.

Really? They fall for it hook line and sinker.

It's worked with all my kids just try it.

I might just do that.

Oh never ends does it this parenting malarkey?

Well if you keep squeezing 'em out no it don't.

BOTH LAUGH

You know Jonjo was coming into our bed up until last year.

He'd crawl up in the middle we'd wake up in the morning...

There he'd be.

So when you heading back home do you know? Um...

Not sure yet. Soon.

You and Dermott seem to have hit it off.

You get on well?

Suppose we do yeah.

They were very close.

Him and Lance.

Must be hard for him... losing him like that.

It must be.

Is it something that he's talked to you about or...?

Not really.

Not really?

He's never said anything no.

Well that seems odd. That he wouldn't.

You don't think?

Maybe it's a private matter.

Oh yeah.

Maybe you're right.

Listen I've got to get the tea on

because I've got to pick Tommy up soon

and then I might even go down to the harbour

see if I can spot that whale.

Nice talking to you though.

Yeah.

We should do it again sometime. Yeah that'd be lovely.

Nobody takes their first drink after 18 years for no reason.

I just needed to take the edge off. I missed it. That's all it was.

I don't believe you.

Why don't you put the radio on?

I don't want the radio on.

HE SOFTLY GROANS

Don't you touch me! Don't you DARE touch me.

I'm going to walk back.No!

I'm fine. I just need some air. I'm not letting you walk!

Let him go.

I just need the air.

DOOR SLAMS

You'll be grand.

You will Adeen.

So why do I always feel so sad?

Oh lots of reasons I suppose.

With all this business... and you'll be missing your Double G.

And because you're a teenager. That's part of the deal I'm afraid.

Was that why you did it?

See you're a clever girl Adeen.

An intelligent girl.

And that'll be part of your problem.

That's what they say don't they... about clever people?

They can never be happy because they're always...I saw my da.

You saw your da what?

With Kieran.

Is he gay?No he's not gay.

Why are you being so calm? I'm just being...

This isn't something that you can go about telling peopleyou know that don't you Adeen?

I'm too young for secrets. That's what you said.

You're not that young.

WHALE MOANS

Ask me what you came to ask me.

The boy I raised for 33 years turns around and tells me

"Actually Da I'm not yours. I never was."

And you knew.

You knew!

Don't drink that in here. Why not?

"My name's Peter I'm an alcoholic."

SHE SCOFFS

You went to London you watched my wife miscarry

and you scooped up another baby like it was a bag of flour.

My baby's dead.

And nobody ever told me.

YOU never told me!

It wasn't like that. You went to London.

I went to London to support my niece because she needed me.

I went to London to support your wife because you were

having it off with another woman.

I didn't know Iris had lost the baby until I got there.

So don't you dare stand there and tell me that what I did was wrong.

If you'd had the good grace to keep your carnal urges in check

your baby might still be alive today.

It was the hurt the grief the betrayal -

that's why Iris lost the baby.

It was your fault Peter.

Not mine not Iris's not anyone else - YOU.

You and your dirty little secret. Stop.

What I did I did for Iris. I did it for good for this family.

What YOU'VE done your wicked deeds... I said stop!

People need to know the truth. That's exactly what they DON'T need.

The truth here can only cause ill and harm. People need to know.

Know what?

That you helped to kill that little girl?

That you and Roisin are responsible for Mouse's death?

Because that's the reason that Iris took the boat out that night.

You - the reason Iris drank.

You - the cause of Mouse's death.

BOAT CREAKS

It's all you Peter.

You poisoned this family.

All I've ever done was try to make it right.

HE BREATHES HEAVILY

So here's what I suggest YOU do.

Pull yourself together walk away keep your mouth shut

and hope and pray that the truth NEVER comes out

because if it does Eileen will know the real reason

why her daughter died.

No.

It has not escaped my attention

that you and Eileen have become... close lately.

We're just friends.

Does she know that?

HE SIGHS

Everything you've touched... to rack and ruin.

So now sweep this under the rug where it belongs.

He's not my son.

Peter.

Peter.

That's exactly what he IS.

You raised him.

It's not just Dermott I lost two children yesterday.

My baby...

Was it...?

A boy.

How long did he live for? He didn't it was...stillborn.

Where...? Where is he?

He would have been buried.

Taken care of.

A little sleight of hand and here's a new one.

Just like that.

And you sleep at night?

I sleep soundly.

That was my boy.

Dermott IS yours. Blood or not he's yours.

Don't lose him now.

Hey Dermott do you reckon we could say a prayer?

Well yeah not if you don't fancy it y'know?

Let's pray together.Right.

Loving Father I entrust myself to your care this day.

Loving Father I entrust myself to your care this day.

Guide with wisdom and skill the hands and minds

of the medical people who will minister in your name.

Guide with wisdom and skill the minds of the...

KNOCK AT DOOR Sorry to interrupt.

No it's... That's all right. So we uh... We good to go?

Well we reviewed your scans this morning

at a multi-disciplinary meeting following your MRI.

Originally we decided to proceed with a needle biopsy...Right.

After careful consideration

we now believe a partial tumour resection is the best way forward.

Yeah I know but we agreed though didn't we?

These increasing visions and hallucinations are

to be blunt highly unusual.

These escalating symptoms from mass effects are of great concern Alfie.You understand?

Partial removal of the tumour will relieve some of the pressure.

Partial removal?I'm afraid so.

What? Well hold on a minute

does that mean I'm not going home tomorrow?

Well in terms of recovery

we'll be looking at weeks rather than days yeah.

Kathleen.

Are you sure you've got this right Doc?

We're all in agreement this is the best way forward yes.

C-Can you just give us a minute yeah is that OK?Of course yeah.

Right thank you.

Should I call her?

No no no. Um...

No if you don't mind if you'd go to the house

and bring her here cos... she needs to hear it from me.

Course yeah. What shall I say?

Don't worry. Leave it to me.

All right. Oh the car keys. They're in my jacket pocket.

KEYS JINGLE

Um... Tell Kat I'm sorry yeah?

You've no reason to be sorry.

I'll be back soon OK?

All right.OK.

Dermott?

I-I don't want to die.

I know.

But God is with you.

DOOR CLOSES

Peter! Bernie!

Where were you yesterday? Uh I wasn't feeling too good.

Are you OK? You should see the other fella!

Well you look awful.

I have a little something for the baby I'll drop it round.

Oh thanks.

Are you sure you're OK? I'm fine. You?

Just going to see Agnes.

See if she'll take him for a few hours on the weekend.

Ah no I wouldn't she's not so well either.

Think she might've picked up whatever I had.

Oh right. How's he doing?

Ah he's grand.

HE CHUCKLES

Listen Lance... Did he seem OK to you? At the pub.

Why you should talk to Dermott. Dermott?

Aye he was the last one to see Lance alive.

He saw him that morning.

Dermott? Yeah they were due to...

talk that morning about something or other.

Go and ask him yourself.

POLE CLATTERS

I saw Bernadette earlier.

I was out running...that's all.

You know what? I don't want to break up a family.

Especially not yours.

And whatever this is it's not...

It's not worth the damage it could do.

Do you agree?

Yeah.

What now?

I'll head back to New York. This is...

..a nice place to visit.

But it's not my home.

Not any more.

If that's what you want to do.

PHONE RINGS

Kieran speaking.

Uh... Hang on.

I have to take this so...

Yeah go ahead...

I know I'm exhausted.

I've got baby brain my boobs are leaking

I can barely think straight.

But I know I'm right. BABY WAILS

It was a non-suspicious death.

Which means they weren't looking for anything suspicious.

I need to know you're hearing me.

You better see this.

I was about to call you.

Is that?!

What's he doing? He's deleting your e-mails.

Come on! HORN TOOTS

HORN CONTINUES TO TOOT Come on!

DIALLING TONES

HORN TOOTS PHONE DIALS

PARTY ON BOAT CHATTER

PHONE RINGS

Hello?

Why didn't you say anything before...

..about Peter?

I don't have time... I want to know.

He was always a drinker you know that.

Yeah but what happened?

Well... After Iris he just... went downhill.

Yeah but he got out of it himself.

Yeah... He did that all by himself!

How did you know? What?!

Know where to find Peter.

Hey. Hey.

Coffee?No thanks.

Don't blame you. Tastes like crap.

Same as everything else here.

This is not New York Kieran.

Yeah.

I got that.

Did you get the money in the bank?

I'll do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be too late.

Then it'll be too late.

I've been busy myself you know.

Ro I'll do it tomorrow. First thing.

SHE SIGHS Ro?

You just going to ignore me now?

Yeah well what's new huh? Just go away Padraig!

Oh you have no idea how I would like to do just that.

Why don't you go? What's keeping you here? It's certainly not me. Go!

If you hate me so much if you have absolutely

no respect for me at all why didn't you leave years ago?

I did.

Oh I'm sorry I... I didn't mean... Yes you did.

Dermott... Are you there?

Kathleen!

There's a whale out there! Finn they're calling it.

Listen Kathleen you've got to come with me.All right.

Where did you get that?Get what?

What did you want to talk to me about?

Dermott? That was my mother's shawl that...

That was Iris's.Oh I didn't know. Sorry I was cold.

No it's fine.Well here you are. No it's fine I told you.

PHONE RINGS

Dermott you need to pick up.

Bernie look. Down there.

Come on. Let's go.

Dougie!

DOOR LOCKS CLICK

It's just that me and Bernie was sitting in the garden...

Bernie?Yeah. Well she started acting really weird.

Like asking me loads of questions and that.

About what?About Lance... And you.

Listen uh... Why don't we go and see that whale?

I... I-I can't I've... Put this on cos it's going to becold out there right?

All right.And we can go out on Peter's rig. Come on.

Come on let's go.Dermott I'm going to get me trousers wet!

Why don't we just get some food and watch it from up there?

Look you're either coming or you're not OK?

OK.

PHONE RINGS

Who is it? Who keeps calling?

No-one. Let's go.

Dermott!

STOP!

Dermott...

Hey!

Dermott what are you doing?

ENGINE PURRS

Stop!

Why don't we go back and talk to Bernie?

Hello?

Coastguard please.

All right. Cheers mate.Thanks.

Are we all set?

No I'm still waiting.

How much wiggle room have we got Doc?

Little I'm afraid. We don't want to lose our slot.

No I know but there's um...

There's-There's no-one about at the moment.

Is there someone else we can phone? No.

It's up to you Alfie.

Your sister's in the shower so I want to talk to you.

You need to sit down.

I'm really tired Mam can we just...?SIT DOWN.

I had Peter here this afternoon and he's been drinking. I know.

Then you know how much danger you're in.

What Peter does or doesn't do has nothing to do with me.

I'm afraid it does my girl. Why?

Mouse.

How could you put that on me?

Oh don't play the innocent with me Roisin

I'm too long in the tooth for it.

Peter won't say anything.

With the drink in him that man is capable of anything.

If Eileen finds out the reason Iris took the boat out that night...

If she finds out why her daughter died...

SHE SIGHS What do you want me to do about it?

Fix it. How?

You are going to help me...

..send Eileen back to the United States.

She's only staying here because of Cois Dara and that stupid

cookery school so we'll make it...go away.

I can't handle this.

You'll handle it that's exactly what you'll do...

with me.

I'm not exiling my sister Mam!

Why would I do that? Why would YOU want to do that?

Because he's coming for us.

Is this to do with what happened to Lance?

Did you do something?

Dermott what did you do?

SHE GASPS

Look at me Dermott!

Dermott!

Aah!

MACHINE BLEEPS

STEADY BLEEPING

SHE GASPS FOR BREATH

It's stuck!

Kathleen!Aah!

Kathleen!

KAT!

Hold on! Hold on it's me!

HE GROANS

MACHINE BLEEPS

WARNING TONE BLARES

We might have a problem here. Do you need me to stop?

No carotid pulse.

We need to start compressions.

HE PANTS

HE GROANS

HE GROANS

Mammy! Wake up! Mammy!

ELECTRIC PULSING Adrenaline please.

Patient's asystolic. Check potassium levels please.

HE PANTS

Help!

HELP!

# She's a rich and rare land

# Oh she's a warm and bold land

# Oh she's a true and old land

# This native land of mine. #