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Episode 9

Who is it?

Is it Unni?

It's me.

I wrapped up the shop business and came here.

Mom!

Me too! I miss you too.

I'll be back soon.

Dong Gun, no matter how tired you are, you must remember to eat on time, alright?

You must eat well.

Yes, Han Dong Gun, aja!

Yes, I'll call you again.

Yes, it's Bong Dal Hee.

It's Lee Gun Wook.

Yes, hello.

I'm at Kang Reung.

What are you doing at Kang Reung at this hour?

Where are you right now?

Dong In hospital.

What are you doing here?

Because I missed you.

Shall we.... date?

Didn't you say you wouldn't date interns?

Wasn't that a matter of your principles?

Let me think about it.

Yes, fine. Think about it then.

You can take your time thinking about it but now, come talk with me somewhere.

Whatever the case, I drove for three and a half hours from Seoul to here.

I can't go far, I'm on duty.

Are you very angry?

Who says I am?

There's nothing wrong to be angry.

You must have mustered a lot of courage to tell me but I had to reject you just like that.

Dr. Jo and I had a very good relationship in the past.

Towards the end of the first year of my internship, it was the first time I set eyes on Moon Kyung.

It was love at first sight and I told her right then.

I had no idea how to start so I just followed her everywhere.

And finally we were dating.

But after 2 months, Moon Kyung fainted at work suddenly.

They said she was pregnant.

Since I was trying to make her mine and furthermore, at that time she was pregnant with my child,

Would I have thought otherwise? Of course I proposed to her that very day.

2 months later, we were married.

And all the while till last year, we lived together for 7 years and we were very happy.

Occasionally I would think, is there any other fella luckier than me in this world?

To me, Dr. Jo is my best friend, the finest woman and the best wife too.

With each passing day,

I feel like she's even better. I thought we'd live the rest of our lives hand in hand.

This woman, Jo Moon Kyung, I really loved her very much.

That's why till now, I still feel like I'm dreaming.

It feels like I suddenly lost an arm or a leg overnight.

Even till now, I have yet to adjust to life without her.

Till now, I occasionally still hate her like crazy.

Because of my sense of responsibility over Seung Min, there's this lifelong knot that refuses to be untied.

That's why I'm like this. I'm still in a state of confusion now.

Under such conditions for me to start over with anyone else, I don't have the confidence in me.

But, I'm still a jerk for I keep missing you. I keep thinking about you.

I'm still in such a state now..

If it's alright with you, if you're able to put up with this..

I'd still like to start over again, Dr. Bong Dal Hee.

You get on in.

Yes.

Why does this man have to be so frank?

He didn't even ask me.

So then, we are counting on you.

Yes, President Lee.

It's me.

Tell Ahn Joong Geun to get back here immediately. President Lee's grandson has contracted TOF.

Have you been contacted so soon?

Let's go together, Doctor!

Doctor, I want to sit in front too.

Sit in the back.

- Why? If you just move in a seat, - Shove off.

Dong Gun!

Ahjumma, when did you get back?

Just. As soon as I arrived, you're the first one I came to see.

It's been 4 days since he ate anything.

He's always throwing up.

Even so, I persevered till the whole treatment is over.

Well done. You're great, Han Dong Gun.

It's the first time I see you in such clothes.

You've got good eyes!

I'm just here to see you for a while then I'll have to get back to work.

I'll come again when I have time.

If Dr. Ahn makes a nervous mistake in this operation, it will be a serious situation.

So pay full attention.

Yes.

Let's start. Knife.

Doctor, why must you remove the LIMA?

If the veins are calcified, we must do an in situ Y-graft..

Why do you ask so many questions in the midst of surgery?

Yes, I'm sorry.

I heard you were back.

Yes.

You must be busy. How does it feel to be back in TS again?

Yes, I'm really busy but it's interesting. Now everything to me is fresh and new.

That's what I expected to hear. Didn't I tell you that you'll do well?

I have to run.

Age 24. Yesterday she was having PEA at the ER but after urgent CPR, she's improving now.

What is PEA? Bong Dal Hee.

No pulse, only the heart is beating.

What's OLIT then?

A little bleeding, gasping for air.

After a CABG operation, the negative pulse that shows up is...

Heart murmur.

How do we avoid heart murmur?

Using digoxin.

Digoxin? After a CABG op?

Lee Min Woo.

Under normal circumstances, use digoxin. But after a CABG op, we have to use a b-blocker.

How much is your IQ anyway? Did you graduate from med school?

Doctor, it's an OLCT!

The bleeding is too much.

Do an open chest now. Prepare quickly. StaLASE.

Remove your hands.

Fine. Move him to the operating theatre immediately.

Yes.

After the chemotherapy, the CT scan is out.

The malignant cells have not shown any changes in size.

Not even a little?

Yes, none at all.

Then, what's to be done now?

So, now we have to decide whether to go ahead for the 2nd round of chemotherapy or not.

At the moment, Dong Gun's liver function is too weak and he's not even eating,

It may be hard for him to bear it.

If the chances were high, we could maybe try it one more time,

But the chances for a second round of chemotherapy is even lesser than the first.

But even the first round had little effect..

Then....

What will happen to my Dong Gun?

At this point, there are no other alternatives.

I'm very sorry.

Dong Gun!

Dong Gun.

Dong Gun.

Dong Gun, what?

Dong Gun, Dong Gun! What's wrong? What? What has happened?

Dong Gun, Dong Gun! What?

Dong Gun, Dong Gun, Dong Gun!

What's wrong, Dong Gun? Did something happen?

Dong Gun! Dong Gun! Dong Gun!

Nurse! Dong Gun!

Dong Gun! Wake up, Dong Gun!

Doctor!

I heard that even after Dong Gun's chemo, there's still no change in the size of the cancer cells,

is that true?

Yes.

Then, why can't we start the second round of chemo?

What kind of cancer does Dong Gun have?

Sarcoma that can be treated with chemotherapy.

No, Dong Gun's sarcoma is different from what's normal.

But even with sarcoma, you can see the particular hardening of the liver.

Once liver cirrhosis sets in, not only does it not have clear effects of the chemo,

Also because of liver poisoning, it will create serious burdens on the body.

That's why the first chemo didn't show any effectiveness.

Under such conditions for a child so weak, going ahead with treatment is meaningless.

Will that do?

Then, what are we going to do now?

That child.. Let him go in peace.

Dong Gun, do you still have that fighting spirit?

Dong Gun.

Liar. Big liar. Didn't you say I will live?

Didn't you say that if I took the operation and chemo, I will get to live on?

Answer me. You really said I could live on.

Go. I don't want to see you.

It would've been better if you didn't give me any hope.

Give it a shot, Dong Gun. Why give up without even trying? Don't give up.

You can't give up. You can do it. You will surely make it.

It would've been better if you didn't give me any hope.

Yes.

I have something to say.

What is it?

Please let Dong Gun receive the second round of chemo, Doctor!

I've explained it to you clearly just now.

The reason why we can't do another round of chemo.

Another child having the same sarcoma as Dong Gun categorized as Child Classification B.

It may be because of the liver hardening, but if that's not the case,

it is said that there is a possibility of getting a full recovery.

There's a 20% chance of recovery.

Who said so? That there's a 20% chance of recovery?

I saw it in the medical journal.

Then, in the medical journal, undergoing chemotherapy..

can cause hemoptysis (coughing up blood from the lungs), aside from high fever and vomiting,

what did it say were his chances of dying from liver poisoning?

Over 40%!

Almost 50%.

You... Are you clear about Dong Gun's current situation?

That child, suffers extreme pain at night till he can hardly bear it.

And he can't even eat anything, almost being fed from a CRL tube.

But you want to stubbornly hang onto to your ideas and do another chemo on such a child?

All that suffering is fully borne by that child alone!

Moreover, a child with hardly some days left, you want to reduce his chances of living by 50%?

The child is almost dying from the pain yet you want to do such useless experiment on him?

Get out!

Earlier, I went overboard, right? I didn't want to blow my top.

I think that girl is going out with Lee Gun Wook.

So you do know about it. How did you find out?

Is the news all over?

No, it's not. I'm the only one who knows.

How did you find out?

Coincidentally. Lee Gun Wook drove down to Kang Reung.

Is that so? Oh I see. That's good. He has to start over sometime.

Yes, that's a good thing for Lee Gun Wook.

Living together for 7 years is already a long time,

The man and wife system came about when a man's average lifespan was 30,

The average life span nowadays is 80 years. So for 40 years, we're only living with one man or one woman.

It's rather uninteresting on many fronts.

You two, is it really over?

We divorced last year.

And we're planning to settle the family registry too.

Did Lee Gun Wook suggest that?

No, I did. I feel I've wronged him and I feel sorry for him.

That man did nothing wrong.

Is that man hospitalized again?

Yes, he's taking a CT scan now. I'm worried for him.

There better not be any trouble.

Have you settled the matter about your family registry?

We've decided to make it clear.

You seem to be a really thick-skinned person.

You did all that yet you can pretend like nothing happened when you see us.

Doesn't your heart get anxious?

I'm sorry.

So, you intend to continue working at this hospital?

Uncle!

Humans are supposed to be good. You destroyed a man's life, you should at least be reasonable.

If you intend to continue working at this hospital,

Whenever people see you, how will they be laughing at Gun Wook?

- Uncle, what's wrong with you? - Don't interrupt.

I'm sorry.

If you get it then you must settle it cleanly. Do you understand what I mean?

Don't take that to heart.

I can't even if I wanted to.

Prince Lee Gun Wook, as long as you wanted it, there's no place you can't go.

But other than this hospital, there's nowhere else for me to go.

But, aren't you sick of it? Starting to date again in the hospital?

There's not much problem now,

But once the cancer starts to spread, it will be terrible.

I already said we don't want an operation.

After some time, the lung function will decrease and she'll have breathing difficulties.

When she goes outdoors, she'll have to bring along an inhaler and breaths will become shorter.

I said we're not doing the op, discharge her now.

If the brain cancer moves, maybe she'll only live for a month.

What? My mother can only live for a month?

She's only scaring you. That's what the doctors always say.

No, this is not our scheme nor threat.

I'm really telling you. Even at the end stage of lung cancer, once the op is done, a healthy life can be expected.

Please believe in me.

Ahjumma.

Are you awake? How about the pain?

Ahjumma.

Yeah?

I want to live.

Can't you save me?

Is there really no way?

Is there really no way even if I get the chemotherapy?

I can't?

The thing is, the probability is just too low.

How much is it?

20%

How is that low?

It's really good if you get one goal in five shots in soccer.

Really?

Yeah.

And they say it hurts very very very much.

So much that it can't be compared to what you've gotten through up to now.

And they say something could go wrong while you're going through with the treatment.

It doesn't matter. I'm going to die anyway.

It's better than just die doing nothing.

If the last ball goes in, I can live.

I want to live. I want to live.

Talk to me.

Dong Gun wants to accept the chemotherapy, Doctor.

I told him everything the way it was.

I told him about the side effects of the treatment, the pain, and the low probability,

but he wants to accept it. He wants to live.

Who said that he can live if he accepts the treatment?

The possibility isn't zero, Doctor.

The kid can live if we do it and succeed.

And if we fail?

Why can't you answer?

Are you saying that we should gamble with a child's life?

He's going to die anyway, so let's just do it?

Dr. Bong Dal Hee, I can accept your passion as a doctor, but medicine cannot just be done with passion.

And do you also know that you're making me feel extremely uncomfortable?

I apologize.

If you know, it's alright. Now get out.

Dong Gun wants to live so much, Doctor.

Of course the kid may be in extreme pain, and of course it may be painful to watch Dong Gun, but..

It's not only that, the kid will die!

Yes, he can die.

Dong Gun knows that truth as well.

But he still wants to accept it.

Dong Gun wants to accept it while he's prepared for the worst.

That's how much he wants to live.

Dong Gun only has three options.

Just dying a little comfortably, dying quickly while trying something, and living while trying something.

If it was your life, Doctor, which one would you choose?

Dong Gun says it's always going to be number three.

Alright. You can get out.

Doctor.

I said get out.

Dong Gun.

Dong Gun.

I guess it can't be helped.

I guess we'll have to do the TPN again.

No, you can't.

Even if you put in a TPN, there's a limit to how much nutrition you can give, and eventually,

he won't be able to accept the chemotherapy.

Han Dong Gun, you said you wanted to live, right?

Then eat. You have to eat.

You have to eat to endure it.

You have to eat to get the treatment and live. Eat if it doesn't go in.

Eat even if you throw up after eating.

You can't fool around anymore. If you fool around, you can't fight it.

If you want to win, eat.

If you want to live, eat. Eat at all costs.

You know what this Ahjumma's talking about, right?

Mom.

Alright.

Again.

Does it hurt a lot?

I don't know.. Is this the appendix..

Let me see so I can do palpation.

What about here?

Hold on, hold on.

Dr. Park.

- Dr. Park. - Stop.

Don't say anything. Take a lab for that patient.

What is it?

She attempted suicide.

Light reflex symptoms.

- Go into Room #3. Please prepare a stomach pump. - Yes.

Think it�s all out? It doesn�t look like it's going to be too serious.

I think she drank about 40 to 50 gal.

What's wrong with you? You know this woman?

Huh?

Know this woman? If you know her.. Lee Na Young? [Note: Play on words]

The people I hate the most are those who tell jokes that aren't funny at all.

It's about time you just took in my sense of humor, Dr. Jo.

Na Young, Na Young.

You son of a bitch..

How could you do that? How could you?

I don't know what's wrong, but..

When was it when you chased around her saying that you liked her, and now you say you can't marry her?

How can you say that when you've come all this way?

Save her, you bastard!

- Save her! - Let go of her.

Don't worry, your daughter won't die.

We used the stomach pump quickly, so the damage won�t be big either.

Don't worry too much.

Bastard.

Na Young, Na Young.

Na Young, Na Young.

Bastard.

Dr. Bong.

What's up with you, Dr. Bong?

It's nothing. What's up with your eye?

This isn't the problem right now.

Why? Why is your face like that?

Why? Why don't you just publicly announce it?

She's curious.

It's because my ex girlfriend came in after she swallowed some pills and her older brother beat me up. Happy?

They say that a person who looks kind hearted does the more hurtful actions.

Anyway, you ditched a girl that you said that you'd marry.

How can a person be like that? A person shouldn't do that.

You even promised to marry her?

This is a world where people break up after they marry and have a kid together, anyway.

Why don't you say something at the least? What's happened?

What's happened?

Want to get hit on the opposite side too?

Sticking that everywhere, geez..

Han Dong Gun.

You do know why your mother and I are against the chemotherapy, right?

Yes.

It will be very very exhausting and painful.

Much more than you're imagining.

But you're still up for it?

Yes.

Alright. Let's try it once.

In return, you have to eat well and win it out, okay?

Yeah.

I just heard. Thank you, Doctor.

You shouldn't be thankful to me or yourself.

But still, thank you.

Go on.

Yes.

Coincidentally, Lee Gun Wook came all the way to Kang Reung.

Due to respiratory failure, we had to do CPR.

It's ventricular tachycardia. Prepare the defibrillator.

Charged 200 Joules.

Clear.

Shock.

Doctor. He's in DNR.

What?

Dr. Park. You didn't check the patient's chart?

I apologize. He's already in a CPR situation when I arrived.

Patient's name?

Yes. Patient Ja Min Gyu.

I will now call time of death. Patient Ja Min Gyu passed on at 1:45 PM.

His granddaughter came so he went out for a while.

How can you not say that the professor was hospitalized?

It's not just anyone, it's the professor, the one who officiated our wedding ceremony.

And are you that embarrassed that you're getting divorced? Why hide that?

It's not something to brag about.

Should I have to tell the professor who presided over our wedding ceremony like you said?

Because of you, I lied. I acted like I was living happily with no problems at all.

Didn't you do that to me for the last 7 years?

Did you eat your meals? You look better than yesterday.

Just tell me truthfully. What is it?

Did it worsen?

It's cancer of the esophagus.

What level?

Level 4.

If it's Level 4, then it should've eaten up the esophagus already.

Yes. That's why we were thinking about a feeding jejunostomy..

I don't want that. Give me an Ivor Lewis.

It's dangerous to put in an Ivor Lewis when you're already in this state.

And you already had a pneumonectomy so there�s a high possibility of complications.

Even if you do a feeding jejunostomy�

Are you telling me to put a hole in my intestine and get nutrients that way? To this, Song Kang Su?

It�s not even a vegetable, yet you want to put a hole in it then give it water and nutrients.

I don't want to live like that.

I'm going to live like a human when I'm alive.

Doctor.

It's done. Put in an Ivor Lewis.

Doctor.

Are you, Lee Gun Wook, going to tell me what to do this and that to me?

Dr. Ahn will be here soon.

Yeah.

What is it?

You've heard of Professor Song Kang Su, right?

It's esophageal cancer level 4.

I want to ask you to put in an Ivor Lewis for me.

Are you in your right mind?

The Professor strongly wants it.

You just do what the patient wants just like that?

It�s already Level 4.

And if he�s a past pneumonectomy patient.. Shouldn�t you be doing what's best to keep him alive?

That's why I'm asking you to do this favor.

I'm not delighted at all. Just give him a feeding jejunostomy.

He's a doctor who's like a father to me.

Give him the surgery.

And make it successful.

I got permission for Sunbae Jo's mother.

I got Park Seung Gu grandfather's permission too.

I also got patient Lee Yoo Joo's permission as well.

Have you ever gotten a restricted permission?

No. Is there something that I did wrong, Doctor?

If I did something wrong, please tell me.

I think I did something wrong, but since you're not telling me, I'm not really sure.

Please tell me. If you tell me, I'll promise to fix it.

Have you eaten dinner?

Yes, I have.. Have you?

Did food go down your throat? You don't even know what a b-blocker is.

I'll listen. If you want to make up excuses, go ahead.

You don't have anything to say?

Then should we just know you as a bad guy?

You think you're not? You're a bad guy.

I didn't expect her to prepare wedding gifts.

I dated her for 3 years. The first year was good..

I was an intern and now I'm a first year resident.

Where do I have free time?

But to Na Young, that was always an issue.

She thought that it wasn't that I didn't have enough time. It was that I didn't have enough heart.

Then I'd always have to say it wasn't true and console Na Young,

and I had to hang the word �I'm sorry� on my mouth.

Then from one point on, I felt mad and frustrated at her.

Then little by little, Na Young got further away from my heart.

And one day, she came to me and asked me to marry her.

It's been one month since I told her I couldn't.

How much could you like someone enough to make you want to die?

How much did Na Young like me?

The important thing is that there are manners for separation.

Manners for humans.

Go and beg.

Tell her that you're sorry. Tell her that you're sincerely sorry because your heart changed.

Do you have a different girl by chance?

No, definitely not.

Then it's done.

Just go and sincerely apologize to her.

What could you do?

If your heart's changed, then there's nothing you can do about it.

Why didn't you just tell her beforehand?

I think it's going to rain soon, so be prepared.

Then she could've avoided the serious flu even in the storm.

The operation will go well, Doctor.

Dong Gun!

Dong Gun!

Is it okay if I sit down?

Yes.

Why are you looking a liver cancer texts?

You remember Dong Gun right?

He's currently undergoing chemotherapy.

I just visited Professor Song.

I think the surgery went well.

Oh. I heard.

Can I ask you something?

Yes.

I'm rejected, right?

It seems like it since there hasn't been a reply.

The thing is..

I have to be absolutely clear about something.

Uh.. I'm really busy.

Ever since I've returned, I don't think I ever had a day when I had at least 2 hours of sleep.

But if you still don't care, if you still want to..

We can try it once. Start.

We started.

I don't know where it will lead.

Let's not think too much in a lifetime.

If you think too much, your steps will get tangled up.

Mother says she'll do it, and you say that it's good as well, so why don't we do it.

You thought well.

Grandmother, the surgery will go well.

Dong Gun! Is it true, Doctor?

Yeah, the cancer cells have decreased a lot.

Dong Gun.

And they told me that I can be discharged.

In return, you have to eat and sleep well and build up your energy.

Only then we can continue on to the next treatment.

Surprise! A discharge present.

It's not my style preference.

How picky.. It looks good on you.

Can you see?

How can you see clearly when you look at it like this?

Anyways, thanks.

Anyways?

Thanks a lot.

Thanks a lot..

If it weren't for you Ahjumma, I would've given up.

That's not it. I couldn't give up because of you.

You're really strong, Han Dong Gun.

I'll call you often even when I go home.

Of course. Bye.

What's going on?

He got pulmonary edema with pneumonia on top of that.

It's the worst situation.

He got an arrest for a moment yesterday night, and his oxygen saturation isn't even 90.

How did you do the surgery that it became like this?

What're you talking about? There was nothing wrong with the surgery.

It's an arrest. Prepare the defibrillator. 200 Joules charge.

Stop.

He's requested DNR.

What?

He submitted it the morning of the surgery with a guardian. Stop it.

Why are you telling me that now and why would you accept that during the morning of the surgery day?

And why on the day of the surgery?

200 Joules charge. Give me 1 ampule of epinephrine.

I told you to stop it. He's a DNR patient.

I refuse to accept that. Kim Hyun Bin!

Stop!

I can't send the Professor off like this.

I have to make him regain consciousness at least once.

It's the Professor's will!

His family hasn't even arrived yet.

I have to let him say his goodbyes at the least.

Kim Hyun Bin!

Stop Bong Dal Hee!

200 Joules ready.

Clear, shock!

Again, 200 Joules charge.

Again, 200 Joules.

- Bong Dal Hee! - Ready.

Clear, step aside. Shock!

Stop it!

Get a hold of yourself!

The professor requested DNR himself.

That's why I told you not to do the surgery!

You didn't suspect this kind thing?

In the end, you made this to happen.

Lidocaine and 1 ampule of epinephrine!

I told you it's no use!

Quickly! I can't let him pass away like this. Quickly!

Give it to me. I'll do it, Nurse Ko.

Professor Song Kang Su, passed on at 6:25 PM.

Who are you? Are you a doctor?

Don't you know what DNR is?

I know.

If you knew, then who are you to butt in when I was telling you to stop?

Who are you to fool around like that?!

A doctor is still human.

What?

A fatherly doctor to him is dying away in front of him.

How can he just sit still and not do anything?

He wasn�t a patient that had been in a vegetable state.

He was just smiling brightly just a few days ago.

How can you just watch him while his breathing ceases even if he did write up a DNR?

Who said a doctor was human?

Do I have to tell you what kind of frightful results entail the medical decisions that we doctors make?

I want to save that patient, I want to save him so much.

So I performed the operation. Why? Because that�s how much I want to save the patient.

And the next day, that patient dies.

A doctor is a doctor. A doctor can only make medical decisions.

A doctor is one who can ignore people calling you a murderer,

as you stand and watch as a patient dies in front of you, got that rockhead?!

In medical decisions, there is no humanoid logic. Only medical decisions!

I want to save that patient, I want to save him so much.

So I perform the operation. Why? Because that�s how much I want to save the patient.

And the next day, that patient dies.

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Tell me. How long will I live?

I'm really sorry.

Why are you coming now? I waited for you.

It's not your fault, Ahjumma.

You endured it really well.

I think I'm really dying. I can't feel anything.

You feel that?

If you keep doing that, the more I want to live.

You don't have the right to be a doctor.

Are you planning to become a coward now?

Thanks, Noona. You have to become a good doctor.

I'm resentful towards you.

That TS major is dating my husband right now.

Why are you telling me that?

I just want you to know.

We cannot wait any longer. I think Doctor Bong has fled.

Wait. Let's wait.

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