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As if I could sleep!

KYOTO SCHOOL TRIP

After that, Yamato spent the rest of the trip sleeping.

And his replies to my worried texts were all…

So cold.

Kakeru, you like marshmallows, right?

Huh?

That was my first kiss.

And the first time someone confessed to me.

How many of my firsts is he planning on snatching from me?

Ashiya.

-What? -Whoa, you scared me.

Oh, it's you, Murasen.

That reaction really startled me.

-Yes. -Nothing's happened, right?

-Yes. -Okay.

Could you give the handout from today to Ohara?

Why do I have to do it?

-You're friends, right? -Okay, Ashiya and I will do it.

Who said I'd do it?

I'm worried though, aren't you? About Ohara.

He's probably delirious with a fever.

Maybe he can't even eat anything.

Thanks for bringing it. I'm coming back to school tomorrow.

I can't believe he passed out during the school trip.

He created such a scene.

No, it was actually kind of funny.

Yamato.

-I'm going to go shopping. -Okay.

I'll go home too, then.

Why are you even here?

I wanted to see your house.

-I'll go too. -No, you stay here.

You still have the handout, don't you?

Oh, the handout.

Enjoy.

-Kakeru. -Yes.

I wanted to apologize.

I'm sorry about what happened on the trip.

No, you just startled me, that's all.

I did, didn't I?

Passing out like that…

-Huh? -I wasn't feeling well.

Everything just before I passed out is kind of fuzzy.

I don't remember much.

What?

He doesn't remember?

I love you.

Not that?

Or that?

Kakeru?

I'm leaving.

Wait, what's wrong?

We're done.

Huh?

I'm cutting ties with you!

Hey, Mikoto.

How well do you know your brother?

What?

Aren't you curious?

About what happened between Ashiya and Yamato during the trip.

What are you to Yamato?

Hmm… A friend?

You know, I was wondering about something.

Why do you always talk so politely about him?

Usually, people would use nicknames or something.

I was teased for having a brother complex.

So I wanted to somehow keep a distance, so I address him politely.

I see.

As long as Yamato is happy, I'm fine with anything.

But…

I should force my feelings onto them?

Force?

It's better to not say it.

Even if their feelings are mutual, will it lead anywhere?

No one knows what will happen.

But if the two of them choose to be together,

isn't that enough?

Living by other people's standards sucks, right?

Kakeru?

Did I do something?

-Kakeru? -Don't talk to me.

Why are you ignoring me?

You won't reply to my messages either.

I told you, we're done.

Tell me why.

Don't touch me.

Oh.

Unfriending punch!

Are you guys fighting again?

I'm not sure it's a fight, but he's mad about something.

So he rejected you, then.

What?

Well, when you were on Togetsukyo,

you and Ashiya kissed.

-Wait, we promised not to tell anyone. -It's fine, he's the one who did it.

We kissed?

You don't remember?

I'm cutting ties with you!

Kakeru?

Oh, Mikoto.

Is something wrong? You seemed lost in thought.

Did my brother confess his feelings to you?

Sorry. I was just joking.

What?

What did you answer him?

I still haven't…

I'm not even sure he's genuine about it.

Don't worry. He is.

You know that already, don't you?

The thought crossed my mind before, but…

I was scared of things becoming awkward between us,

so I never asked.

I'm sorry. I'm so lame.

Letting things remain the same is easier?

That's what he said too.

It's not true, though.

So I'm glad Yamato told you.

Especially since I've seen him

suppress his feelings all this time to avoid upsetting you.

You should tell him honestly how you feel.

No matter what that is, I'm sure it'll help you move forward.

The rain stopped.

Yamato doesn't remember any of it, though.

Kakeru, can I talk to you?

I need to talk to you about the school trip.

Huh? Now?

I wanted to apologize to you.

You know…

About the confession.

You remembered?

I'm sorry. I startled you, didn't I?

That's putting it mildly.

You suddenly confessed and even kissed me.

I was really worried about how to face you after that,

and then you didn't even remember any of it.

Sorry…

I mean, doing something like that out in the open?

Don't you have any self-control?

I couldn't help it.

I suddenly wanted to do it.

-What? -S-Sorry.

That's not what I meant.

I was happy.

It's like, I didn't even care how much it'd hurt,

I just wanted to tell you everything.

All this time

I was scared of you knowing how I feel.

I kept telling myself to pretend it wasn't real.

But,

I realized that everything we share is important.

I love you, Kakeru.

I always have.

All this time, I've loved you.

Let's go back.

Sorry for making you listen to all of this.

Aren't you going to listen to what I have to say?

You're just getting things off of your own chest.

I need to talk to you, too.

I haven't been able to stop thinking about that day.

I can't even sleep because of it.

I keep thinking and worrying.

But

I'm sure you've worried much more than I have,

so I need to take you seriously.

Before this, I've only ever thought of you as a friend.

Honestly, I'm not sure about dating yet.

But I want to consider it.

I want to think about what I want us to be.

Can that be okay for now?

Kakeru.

We have to hurry back.

Wait, don't go.

Are you telling me I don't have to give up yet?

Can I

keep liking you?

You can keep liking me.

Someone confessed to you? Who?

You're loud! I'm not telling you.

I haven't answered them yet.

Okay.

But are you going to go out with them?

I'm still not sure.

But I keep overthinking and can't really act normal.

Why would you force yourself to act normal?

-Yuko. -What?

-Takashi. -Where do you want to go?

Maybe to the movies?

Kakeru, you're staring too much.

-Of course I am. -It's not really anything unusual.

How come you're able to be so calm?

I keep being all over the place, I can't act normal at all.

I'm not calm at all.

I'm with the one I like, after all.

How can you say embarrassing stuff like that so easily?

I figured that if I were being nervous about it, you'd just think I was a loser.

I would never think of you like that.

Hey.

Let's go on a date tomorrow.

A da--

A date?

Yeah.

Okay.

Maybe Kakeru's heart is also racing a little bit.

Oh, it looks good.

I'm handsome? With this?

He's so handsome!

-Do you think the other one is his friend? -The tiny one?

Look!

Oh! That place!

Huh?

Excuse me, do you have a moment?

This is my card. I work at a modeling agency.

I'm a little busy.

You've got a good face and are stylish, I'm sure you'd be popular.

Give it some thought?

I kind of wonder what it is Yamato sees in me.

I'm not someone he can brag about.

The more I try to think positively about myself, the less I find.

Kakeru!

Kakeru?

Are you okay?

Sorry. I don't know what's wrong with me.

Let's go home and change.

We can watch a movie together.

Sorry.

It's fine.

I'm sorry.

-Just sit over there somewhere. -Okay.

Oh.

It's the one from mixer.

You got it for me,

so I didn't want to give it away.

Kakeru.

-Did I fall asleep? -Yeah.

Why didn't you wake me up?

You looked so comfortable.

I'm sorry.

Today wasn't fun for you at all.

Even though it was supposed to be a date, I ruined everything.

That's not true at all. I had a lot of fun.

-Don't lie. -I'm not lying.

I screwed up the promise we made during the trip too,

and I wanted to make it up to you today,

but I keep messing up.

I'm not nearly as good-looking as you.

Why did you have to bring that up?

Someone like me doesn't have the right to fall in love with you.

I have nothing to offer.

Kakeru.

Do you really feel that way?

What?

Do you really think you have nothing to offer?

-I… -Then why do I feel the way I do?

Don't you understand how I feel all the time?

How much

I like you

and treasure you.

I lose sense of everything around me because of it.

Right now too.

It's excruciating just having you next to me.

Yamato.

Yamato, wait.

-Huh? -Kakeru.

Wait. Yamato, wait.

Yamato, stop!

I'm sorry.

I'm going home.

I never wanted to make him look like that.

Yamato.

Whenever he's next to me,

my chest hurts.

I'm flooded with emotions I can't contain.

I just want to get closer to his heart.

I just want to be close to him.

So many things won't come across if you don't say them out loud.

Yamato wouldn't fall for just anyone.

I think having someone you want to express your feelings to is wonderful.

All this time I was confused about the way I felt about him.