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TO: KYOSUKE KATAGIRI

FROM: SACHI OSANAI

Shino.

This.

SETTLEMENT AGREEMENT

I can't let you pay for this.

Since this is all my fault. I'll pay for it.

No, it's my fault for touching someone with a husband.

I must pay the consequences.

Please let me pay for it all.

Then at least let me apologize to Sa-chan properly.

There's no need for that anymore.

What?

I broke up with her.

FROM: SACHI OSANAI

Morning.

You're up early.

I need to talk to you.

You were always watching me, huh?

I know that you charged Katagiri for pain and suffering damages too.

Why didn't you tell me anything?

If this is in preparation for divorce, then…

Kaname!

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Thanks.

I've always…

called all the people I've dated in the past…

at least three times a day.

I always made two or three anniversaries each month and celebrated them.

And always kissed them about 10 times a day.

But…

I always ended up getting dumped.

I was told that I was smothering them.

It made me unable to show my true feelings.

Even if I wanted to know your real feelings, I'm too scared to ask.

When your smiles gradually faded,

I couldn't help wondering why.

But I was too scared to ask you directly, because I thought you'd hate me for it.

When you told me you rented an apartment…

I got super worried.

So I installed a wiretap.

I'm sorry.

I'm the one who did something suspicious.

I…

was always lonely.

I think I can return by the end of this month.

Shino, you can stay and do whatever you want.

Why don't you pick up a hobby?

Maybe.

Then I'll see you.

Have a nice trip.

I never had the confidence that you loved me,

that's why I started to doubt your feelings.

That's why I decided to test you.

You rented an apartment?

This house is too big, so I don't feel comfortable.

Sure, if that's what you want, Shino.

When I rented the apartment on my own too…

you never even got mad about it.

That's why…

I was convinced that you had no interest in me.

That's when…

I met Katagiri who was living next door.

TO: KYOSUKE KATAGIRI

Is that from your girlfriend?

Writing letters in this day and age…

He looked so happy, so I was envious.

I just vented everything I couldn't say to you to a younger boy,

and I stirred things up with a clouded mind.

I…

just wanted to feel loved by you, that's all.

Whatever I do, you never say anything about it.

You even forgave me easily for Katagiri--

That's wrong! I thought that if I tried to control you, you'd run away from me.

I thought that you didn't want me to have a say in what you do.

That's not true.

I rented that apartment…

because I was frustrated.

Frustrated?

Because…

I didn't want to say that I was the only one lonely.

I didn't think you were this socially awkward.

Are there levels of social awkwardness?

And that's why you had an affair?

I'm sorry.

This is so stupid.

If we just talked, we could've understood each other.

We had lots that we needed to talk about.

From here on…

what do you want to do, Kaname?

Do you want to divorce this wife who did something very stupid?

I…

wanna give it another try.

Me too.

That's enough, you guys. Seriously.

You're over-eating!

Oh yeah, I bought this too!

Is this from the new store in front of the station?

Yup, I waited in line for 30 minutes to buy it!

It looks so good!

Oh, then I'll go buy a latte.

What about you two?

I want one too.

Okay!

Isezaki?

I'm good.

-Thank you. -No problem.

Did something happen in Tokyo?

What?

Uh, well, because it looks like you're forcing yourself to smile lately.

You can see right through me.

I told Kyo…

I said goodbye to Katagiri.

You were always worrying about me when I was struggling through it. Thank you.

Oh, it's nothing.

You okay?

Yeah.

But I think I'll wait a little until I tell Ayaka.

Why?

She may know already,

but I think she'll be really worried about me if I tell her.

And if she soothes me with some kind words, I might burst out crying.

Once I get my thoughts organized a little,

I think I'll have her listen to my story.

I walked this street with Kyo a lot when we were in high school.

When we used to walk beside each other,

our shoulders would almost touch.

Just that would make my heart pound.

I wonder if these memories will someday fade too.

They will.

They'll fade and you'll forget them someday.

Yeah.

Before these memories fade…

there's something I gotta do.

"Kyo, how are you?

The new term has started and things are finally settling down.

I wonder if I went to the same college as you,

would it be less lonely?

Maybe we could've walked home like in high school

and spent more time together."

"Kyo, how are you? It's still really cold over here."

"Kyo, how are you?"

"Kyo, I trust you." "Are you busy?"

"I can trust you, right?

Sincerely, Sa-chan."

Bye-bye.

Goodbye, Kyo.

Are you getting enough rest?

If I just stayed busy,

I thought I wouldn't have to think about anything.

But it was no use.

I always end up thinking about Sa-chan.

I think it'll be difficult if you force yourself to forget about her.

This is the last letter I received from Sa-chan.

FROM: SACHI OSANAI

There were dozens of letters sent to me from her.

I did read them in the beginning…

but I gradually stopped.

I promised her I'd write a reply once in a while…

when I was leaving to Tokyo.

But in the end…

I never wrote her a single reply.

How come?

As I continued my relationship with Shino,

I think I was running from Sa-chan's feelings.

After Sa-chan told me goodbye,

I read through all the letters she sent me up to now.

All her insecure feelings were written down.

When I saw her, she never showed any signs of it…

so I never even thought that I was making her feel insecure.

Then you need to read them down to the very last one for her.

I'm scared.

More than anything, if I read this letter,

I'll have to accept that it's really over with Sa-chan.

Why don't you go run?

Run?

Or else swim.

You can wash away your worries.

Sa-chan…

I…

"Kyo, how are you?

I'm sure this will be my last letter to you."

After I lost my girlfriend due to my own fault…

I regret hurting you and Shino, I spent four years reflecting back on it.

Subtitle translation by: Kanami Kitabayashi