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In their most clear warning yet,

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the CDC all but promises that the Corona virus will

spread here and that Americans need to prepare.

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It's not so much a question of if this will happen anymore,

but rather more a question of exactly when

this will happen and how many people in this country

will have severe illness...

more than 722 confirmed cases in the U.S...

clusters of outbreaks that are happening outside

the Mainland...

as the National Fire to continue to spread...

Worldwide starting point in Wuhan,

China, there's now increased scrutiny on the public.

Whether the information coming out of China can be trusted.

Stay at home.

That is the order from four state governors as the

Corona virus pandemic spreads New York, California.

Seriously, if I get Corona, I get Corona. At the end of

the day I'm not going to stop me from partying...

46 states have closed all schools.

The other four shut down at least some. So far

President Trump says a national lockdown is not.

It's not every day we live through a period of history

that will be studied by future generations.

Or maybe it is.

I am a strong man.

I am a good man.

I decide who I am.

It's okay to go up and down.

Everything's beautiful if you can view it with the right eyes.

Short gray hair.

Let me see your old face.

Long, low breast, you old ass bitch,

take your fucking mask off.

You think you're so fucking cool doing drugs in public,

you fucking weirdo.

Pathetic.

Hi.

Yes.

Beautiful.

You are so beautiful.

Hey.

You scared me.

Can I help you with those?

I, that's all right.

You sure? I got it.

Okay.

Have a good day.

Thanks.

I approach women with no positive results.

Why do they act repulsed?

All I want is what everyone else wants.

If you can get it, I deserve it too.

I've never been able to accept myself enough to put

myself out there, opening myself up to criticism that

comes with people knowing your name.

I need to use cash.

Cash is untraceable.

Having had zero positive interactions with the female

species my entire life, I have to assume all women hate me.

They think I'm weird and creepy just looking at them,

I get nervous.

Certain people are here to help,

to change the world, change the way people think.

Some people are just here.

I'm going to change you forever.

If you're watching this, you will never be the same.

You will see how badly mistaken you were for

treating me the way you all do.

Look down on me, call me names behind my back.

I wouldn't be who I am without you.

You made me this,

for that, I thank you.

Fuck you.

Fuck this shit.

I can no longer allow the world to continue living

with its eyes closed.

This is it.

This is the end.

It is natural to desire your community to be conscious

and aware of who you are.

With celebrity, we gain more mating options.

I've never been comfortable with the concept.

Anytime I've tried to integrate myself to my peers,

I've been wildly disliked and considered the

weirdest kid in school.

I've asked repeatedly for the Defense Production Act

to be used in its fullest to get us things like

ventilators so people can live who would die

otherwise, if the president doesn't act,

people will die.

Could have led.

Hey, Daniel, It's me, Mom.

I haven't heard from you for a while.

Have you been taking your medications?

Please call me back and let me know you're alive.

If I don't hear back from you,

I'm coming over.

Love you.

Bye-bye baby.

I am a human being.

Anything I desire is what a human being desires.

Nothing I do can be wrong, nothing I feel can be unnatural.

I am a man like every other man.

Hello, Danny.

Open up, Danny.

I have a key, Daniel, I know you're in there.

What do you want?

Hey, Danny, open up.

No, what do you want?

I just want to check up on you.

You haven't answered my calls.

I brought you some groceries.

Leave the groceries.

Open up.

I'm coming in.

Oh, come on, Daniel.

Look, I just want to see you,

please open up.

I can't be the only one waiting for someone to

connect to become one with.

I watch you move the meet you, Carrie.

I want to know what it's like,

how you respond to my touch.

We no longer fear being eaten or attacked by

outsiders climbing the social ranks.

Modern women still only concerned about social standing.

They want to meet who's handsome and rich and

performs well sexually while having no desire for sexual

variety, none of it's realistic.

The world we live in is not what it was when these

traits of desires were evolving.

What the fuck you say?

Fuck you.

You piece of shit, fuck you.

What did you say?

What did you fucking say?

It's interesting that you can see someone for the

first time and not like them immediately.

The opposite is also true.

You can see someone for the first time and you know you

are meant to cross paths with them.

You're so beautiful.

I want to see what's under your trash.

I want to see, but I want to take my time,

touch you with my hands, and you'll love it.

You gently moan with anticipation,

expecting me to rush in and start touching the good stuff

but I make you wait.

Brushing the tips of my fingers along your sides,

feeling your warm skin, pulling you closer,

pulling you in to feel me.

The excitement builds and you start to realize

you love me.

You've loved me since the first time you looked into

my eyes and I love you.

I have always and I always will.

Who the fuck is this asshole?

Oh motherfucker.

Oh you stupid motherfucker. Stupid fucking bitch.

I would have given you everything,

I could've made you so much happier,

you son of a bitch.

You don't fucking see this motherfucker as wrong,

not right for you, piece of fucking shit.

You stupid fucking slut ass bitch.

They're all fucking slutty ass fucking bitches,

every single one of them.

Slutty fucking whores,

they don't give a fuck everything for themselves.

They're fucking nasty fucking loose pussies.

You fucking disgust me.

Disease infested, fat loose, fucking pussies.

Beautiful wife.

I could be your husband.

I can take care of you better than that piece of shit.

You fucking loser, scum bag,

fat man doesn't know the value of discipline.

Look at you, you're so beautiful.

Lovely floral pattern on your dress.

I really like it.

It would be my honor to experience you and to touch you.

I've tried the apps.

I tried to make a social media account just to get on

a dating site.

It required I upload pictures of myself,

I refuse.

Why would I want people following me?

I can't even make a dating profile because I refuse to

give away my location at all hours of the day.

It makes no fucking sense.

The world has been tricked.

You are giving your information willingly for

someone to sell, to track, steal your time,

it's all a con, you're living incorrectly.

I'm here waiting.

I'll always be here and I can't wait to meet you.

I can't wait to meet you.

I'll be here.

I'll be here.

What the fuck?

What the fuck? Where'd you go?

Where'd you go?

Everything isn't okay, but you need to be okay with that.

What is the alternative?

Crying and freaking out.

No, your outcome won't alter with that behavior.

Now, I can understand you're uncomfortable trust me, I know.

I see you.

I see you.

I've been uncomfortable my entire life,

feeling helpless and scared less than human.

When you're not looking, I see you.

Years of feeling alone, no one understanding,

I get it

but that's what makes me who I am.

He'll be stronger because of this.

Accepting your surroundings is all anyone can do,

and I have accepted what fate has dealt me,

you too will have to accept it.

You are in control of how you deal

with the situation.

Oh no. -Shh shh.

No.

There's nothing to be sad about.

There's no purpose for your emotions.

Humans evolved to have these emotions to survive in a

different era, crying isn't going to benefit you.

Focusing on the negatives of any situation doesn't

benefit or change your present.

Times like these are the most challenging,

the uncertainty of what's happening.

You could decide to see this experience as a way to

learn, a way to become better,

a way to understand what most people never have to face.

I can't hurt you unless you allow me to only you can

decide if you're hurt.

You have the option to choose the uncertainty of

what's happening. What's going to happen.

No one knows what we're doing here,

we're just here for a while, and then we're gone.

Oh.

Hi.

My name's Daniel.

What's yours?

I really don't want to hurt you.

I don't mean to hurt you.

Tomorrow's a new day.

I'm really excited to spend some time together.

I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to get upset.

Sometimes I can't control my emotions.

I wish I could control them.

No, I shouldn't say I wish actually,

that's like saying I wish I was a different person.

Unconsciously speaking about it out loud won't help me

and it certainly won't change who I am.

All I can do is try, try, and recognize and accept who I am.

If I can do that, maybe things won't be so bad,

maybe things would be easier.

I've tried to be other people.

What a silly thing to do.

I can never be anyone but who I am.

It was never a choice.

People may ask, how does someone do this to another person?

How does one end up this way?

Quite simply, the same as you end up any other way,

remove some things and leave them to their thoughts.

I'm not looking.

Sometimes I forget to be nice,

I want to be nice, I just forget.

I want to care about people.

I'm not sure if it's the way I was raised or biology or

an unknown force.

I'm not generally who I want to be,

but I'm trying, I'm trying and I'll keep trying.

It's who I am, I am someone who tries but

does not always succeed.

Sometimes I forget people are people.

Sometimes I forget I'm a person.

If I could, I wouldn't forget but then I wouldn't be me.

You feel so good.

You are the most beautiful girl in the world.

Her reason to be here, I think she might care for me,

I know she can.

I believe with time she will.

Some people just decide they prefer being around some

people and they no longer want to be alone.

If they both feel it

and they both desire a long-term partner,

they find their soul mate within each other,

at least for a little while.

And I think I found my soul mate in you,

I've decided I have.

My value is so low I can't find even someone

I'm interested in to participate in the primal act of mating.

I can't control how I look,

I can't control who I am.

I try to be what I'm meant to be,

but I only know what I know and I can only act in

accordance of my nature.

Is it nature?

Am I the way I am because of my upbringing?

Are my parents to blame for the personality I possess?

To that logic how can it be their fault they were raised

by their parents who taught them how to be the way they

were taught how to be is how they taught me to be

in their own way.

I don't think I'm anything at all like my parents,

but without their influence, I cannot be the man I am today.

Am I a man?

Genetically, I'm a man, but the current state of things

allows me to adjust that perspective according to the

culture of my generation, biology can no longer

determine my gender.

How can I be born something and be taught that I have

the choice to decide that for myself?

If that's the case, nothing I see is as I see it,

everything in the natural world can be questioned,

nothing is what it's defined and I suppose this concept

does have validity.

I suppose nothing known is fact unless it's decided by

the individual contemplating.

Then I think, how can anything I do be wrong?

Nothing is wrong.

Anything I do is just what humans do.

How can it be wrong?

How can I do anything that isn't a thing humans do?

No, please don't. No.

Come with me.

My father was never there you know,

the little time he was, our interactions were cut short

because of things that were more important,

at least to him, at least as he thought.

His way of loving me was working as much as he could

to give me what he didn't have.

But what he never realized was his presence was the

only thing that mattered.

He understood that as much as I understood that,

not at all and with contempt.

But my mother and I were lonely,

not together, not separate, individually.

She has always been on top of me without ever being

there, not without liquor to ease her pain

or ease the concept of her life.

Not the life she wanted, not the life she imagined as a girl.

A son she doesn't understand,

and a husband who wants nothing more than to run

from being what he is, from truly being there.

So I've spent a lot of time alone.

Most people don't know how to talk to me because I'm

off putting and I don't want to be.

All I've ever wanted was to fit in and to experience the

same things normal people do.

So regardless, I don't know how to interact with people.

I've only recently started to accept myself

and I'm really grateful for that,

even if this is who I am, who I meant to be.

I'm not ready to die.

Before my father left, he told me your mother robbed

me of my dreams.

She stole the life out of me.

It had been so long that he didn't even know

what his dreams were.

He left when I was 13 and I never heard

from him after that day.

My mom was so affected, so so hurt,

I thought that she needed me to be the husband for her,

that he never was.

She needed someone to take care of her and I was that

person for her.

I haven't lived my life yet.

I believe that well-adjusted people evolve with

well-adjusted people.

My unhappiness can be attributed to my ancestors

or who they chose to interact with.

I've never known considerate,

emotionally mature people because my family isn't

and the people they instinctually gravitate

towards they aren't.

But I don't think it's impossible to break the cycle,

to step out of your lineage,

not more often than not

When you do, I think it's easier.

I think it's easier, and more likely you step deeper

into the mess and not out of it.

I know you wouldn't even look at me in the real world

in any other circumstance.

I don't want you to view me as a bad man,

how I may be in the modern world.

I don't want you to view me that way.

I only know what I know.

Sometimes good people do wrong,

make the wrong choices.

Certain things happen and nothing matters.

Emotions are not valuable,

they do nothing good.

If we stray into fear or panic or hysteria,

that's ultimately self-defeating and leads to

bad decision making

and there's no reason for fear.

The seriousness of this virus hammered home tonight

in a way few could have imagined.

The national basketball associate.

Okay.

Are you ready?

For this to work I need you to be quiet, okay?

I need you to promise.

Promise you're not going to scream or shout or make a

bunch of noise, okay?

I'll be obligated to correct your behavior.

I don't want to have to do that.

I want you to learn to want to do things needed

to make this work, okay. Okay.

Here we are.

Are you ready?

She's starting to understand.

She can see how special it is to have someone

like a partner, a soul mate,

she's starting to understand me.

Finally, someone's taking the time.

I knew she was special since the first time I saw her.

She loves me.

She's going to love me.

What had no length and intention may be the change

that warms the world.

Welcome home.

This was not meant to go on.

I wasn't expecting to develop feelings this deep

and you now, done.

I should have known fulfilling a desire would be near

impossible to re-release.

Everything is so new and it's all so exciting.

The thought of going back to life without her

makes me sick.

Finally, something good in my life,

a reason to breathe.

Where are you going?

I have to use the bathroom.

You don't have those privileges yet.

When there's so much happening around the world,

so much fear, my choices seem insignificant.

The way the current state is discussed,

you would expect people dropping dead in the street.

Experiencing a global pandemic

isn't as exciting as you might expect it to be.

Nobody knows where the end of this is or when the spikes are

going to happen but progress is going to be if we can

somehow bend this thing downward.

We can start to stop that spike that's going so we don't

overload the healthcare system

and you know, and look, it's very discerning

and I understand people out there are concerned about

when is it going to. Look a full pandemic.

Supplies that governors are asking for are the same

supplies that leaders of many countries around the world

are asking for.

So again, please play your role,

don't go outside and don't let me...

Let's start over.

What's your name?

Madison.

Madison what?

Richards.

Madison Richards.

Daniel.

Just Daniel.

So what do you do for fun?

I don't I don't know.

Nothing.

I take care of my mom and I take care of my brother.

What are you doing?

What do you mean?

What are you always filming for?

I'm an artist.

Why me?

Be cautious of what you ask.

Not everything is worth learning.

Once you know something, you can't ever unknow it.

Not everything's good for you to know.

Do you think the world is ending?

Well, if it's going to happen, you know,

if it does, then I want to be here for it.

I want to see it, front row.

But let's reframe your question.

So how would I like to die?

I tell you, when the world ends,

if I'm not going to make it,

I don't want anyone else to survive.

No, one.

What about your family?

Well, if they make it and I don't,

you know they will have,

they will have this and they'll know.

They'll know what they did to me and they will understand

and they will see what they had

and they just let go to waste.

They will understand,

I am deserving of all they never wanted me to be.

That's family.

Yeah, they'll know.

You'll see.

What are you doing?

What are you doing?

You don't do that.

Don't ever do that, okay?

Mmm.

Hello.

Help!

Help!

Somebody, please please help.

You don't do that.

You don't do that,

don't do that.

Don't fucking do that.

Don't you scream, You fucking scream.

Don't scream.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, I didn't want to do that.

I was out of line.

I'm sorry, I'll never do that again.

Okay?

I'm so sorry.

Was so out of character for me and I for that, I apologize.

So please it won't happen again.

Okay, you're safe.

It's okay.

Help!

Help!

Somebody help me!

Help, can't anybody hear me?

Help!

Help!

I believe love has many definitions.

Love is found, it can't be forced.

I got something for you.

What do you think?

Thank you.

Let's put it on.

Scream all you want, no one can hear you.

Okay, you can come out.

Wow.

Here, so okay, that's your mark.

Yeah, okay.

All right, you can go back.

Action.

You look so beautiful.

Turn around.

Dance a little.

Just dance a little.

Come on.

Hey, Daniel.

Yes.

Can I help?

Do you like to cook?

I didn't.

I never did until this thing started,

I started thinking about

how much cooks in restaurants were paid.

Then I thought about if I were a cook,

would I care what I was feeding strangers I never met?

Then I started just cooking myself.

I don't mind it now, I prefer it.

Do you cook?

I do, I did most of the cooking growing up.

My mother is a terrible cook.

She's the reason I ate out for so long.

My mom was always working and so I would cook for her and

for my brother.

We'd eat together and then my mom would eat when she got home.

What are you filming everything for?

Certain things shouldn't be forgotten.

Humans are constantly sharing and posting,

but never what it's really like.

They don't share the real experience,

the human experience, the pain,

the separation.

There are things that society refuses to acknowledge publicly,

like human suffering.

They refuse to see it, they refuse to see it

so I have an obligation to show them.

I see it.

This is my life,

this is my part.

I'd like to see.

I went to film school for a little while.

I worked on real sets, commercial sets as a PA.

What's that?

It doesn't matter.

No one's ever wanted to see my work.

No one believes in me.

It looks professional to me.

Have you ever heard of trauma bonding?

No.

That's what they're going to say about this.

What's this?

What's this?

This moment, this experience.

Is it?

Mmm, it might be.

The price of experiencing pleasure is at some point

you will feel pain.

Every emotion caused the opposite of that emotion,

the human body operates on balance.

I know things that people are too busy to see,

I can see what it's truly like to be a thinking,

breathing human being.

Thank you.

You're the most beautiful girl I have ever seen.

I can take care of you if you let me.

Sorry.

Discard

- Mmm. - Discard something that once you're done,

then it's my turn.

Okay, I don't want to king either.

Your turn again.

I never played cards before.

Really.

Never.

He pick a card?

Did you do board games?

Yeah.

What was your favorite?

I played chess with my dad.

Mm-hmm.

I was very young.

Do you want to pick one?

I wanted the card.

Now you have way too little cards.

What the hell's going on?

Can I ask you something?

You can do whatever you want.

Can I kiss you?

I've never kissed someone before.

Or someone who wanted to.

You don't have to if you don't want to.

I love you.

I love you too.

Could I ask you something?

You can ask me anything.

What is it?

Can you get me some make up?

What for?

Uhm I don't feel pretty,

I would feel better with it on.

You don't need anything.

You're so pretty.

You're perfect.

Okay, I can do that for you.

I'll be right back.

I'll be right here.

You should have enough room to move around.

Thanks, baby.

I felt I had met the one person I've waited for my entire life.

I felt it.

I knew she was who I needed,

the one I care for more than I have ever cared for anyone.

But I was wrong.

My mind and my body deceived me again.

I can't even trust myself.

I wanna go.

I wanna go home.

Everything good becomes bad.

I'm glad you're here.

You're the most important person in my life,

you know that.

What has happened was meant to happen.

You were meant to be here together doing this.

You know that, right?

You know that, right?

Yes.

Daniel.

Shh.

Daniel, I know you're in there.

I'll be right there mom.

I'm just being myself.

That's what I've been told my whole life.

If you want people to like you, just be yourself.

So here I am.