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What are you doing?

Stop going through my things.

Stop snooping!

- I'm not! - Yes, you are.

You don't want to snoop there.

It's my dirty laundry... Stop that!

Stop being such a pain!

I'm tired, stop!

Don't post that.

Are you ashamed?

Of me?

Of course not. I look ugly, that's all.

No, you look hot.

Oh, stop that.

I'm actually serious.

You're beautiful.

ABOUT SASHA

I can't do this.

So. I won't tell anyone it's you on the picture if you blow me.

What was that?

- You want me to blow you? - You're crazy!

Calm down.

- Calm down! - You're crazy!

- Settle down. - You deserve the same thing.

- Why did you and Elias do that? - I didn't...

- I trusted you! - Come!

Come with me!

Not out here.

I didn't post that picture, I'm telling you.

- I didn't. - Did you like it?

I hope you enjoyed.

I would never!

I didn't even know you were...

I was what?

You won't say?

I'm a freak!

- Say it! - It's not true.

Why reach out to Elias?

- Listen to me. - He's been harassing me.

Texting me awful things.

And you go behind my back?

No, I didn't!

How long have you known? Tell me.

- Tell me. - I didn't know.

What don't you understand?

It wasn't me, it wasn't.

You think it's hot. You like it.

- Elias liked it too. - Shut up.

You disgust me. You're the freaks.

You're a freak.

A freak, do you understand?

Imagine if it was you.

If you had that between your legs.

Why am I talking to you?

I'm so fucking stupid!

Fuck...

I can't do it anymore.

Everybody fucks but me.

Everybody touches themselves

but me.

With their fat dicks, their fat pussies,

their perfect genitals...

They're girls or boys.

I have everything, too much,

I have nothing.

When I look at my reflection, I see nothing.

I'm less than human.

I'm nothing.

Sasha?

Sasha!

I've been looking for you.

Get up, we need to go home.

Come on. Help me out here.

- Thank you. - Don't.

I've taken up all the space again.

And you're here.

As always.

I haven't taken care of you in so long.

And you're here.

What would I do without you...

I leaked the picture.

No...

You're kidding.

Please, say it isn't true.

Do you hate me that much?

Why?

I'm sorry...

I know you have a secret.

No one's allowed to know, OK?

- Hi. - It's funny.

We were sure you'd be a guy.

It's weird for me too.

I swear... You're something special.

You're not human, you've come from the skies.

We couldn't make him normal.

Infection is a risk.

This is for his future.

You have to go home.

Don't destroy him just because you can't have him!

So much drama!

I love it when you're eating...

You fuck everything up!

No one can stand you! You've even made Dad leave!

Sasha hasn't been in since Tuesday.

Last Tuesday?

What's happened?

It's not like you.

Sorry, I was delayed at work.

- Hello. - Hello, Dad.

- Sasha hasn't been in since Tuesday. - What?

And no, the bad mother did not notice.

Sasha is a brilliant pupil and...

Sasha? Are you listening?

I can imagine that between your situation,

the move, probably daily problems at home,

things are complicated for you.

I'm above average in nearly every subject.

But your oral test is next week.

We don't want to punish you.

We know this year has been and remains difficult.

But you're skipping school for a reason.

You should talk to your parents.

She must come back.

If she doesn't take her oral, she can't sit for her bac.

That would be a shame.

Yes, we'll talk.

Dad and I have talked.

You're nearly 18.

We support your decision.

We apologise, Sasha.

For your surgeries as a kid.

It was a complicated decision.

We should've looked into it, reached out to people,

talked to associations...

We're figuring this out together.

Yes, I've resented you.

Because you lied to me

and you decided to have me go through surgery

and take away a part of me.

Yes, you've messed up a lot.

And I resent you.

But I don't know what I would've done.

The thing is...

that picture of my groin's been leaked to the whole school.

It will never fucking stop.

What happened to me...

it's happening again.

And I think it will happen again later.

We'll press charges.

We won't mess up again.

Let me do this.

You can come in.

What?

Do you want to see?

That why you're here?

No, I don't care. You're not a circus freak.

Stop that.

I'm so tired of hiding.

Look.

That's Sacha with a C.

It used to be me.

You're the same person.

You're separating the two.

But I don't care.

I don't know what you've gone through.

Or what you're going through.

But no one gets to intimidate you.

Or to hurt you.

No one's allowed.

If people fuck with you...

then get justice.

I'm so angry, Anna.

You've no idea how angry I am.

And I can't aim my anger at anyone.

It's so difficult, being angry, but unable to resent anyone.

If I love you, I'll hate you.

I'll hate you because I care.

I'll hate you for bearing the weight of my secret.

I'll hate you for being able to hurt me.

And you will hurt me.

You're happy with your perfect body.

Your normalcy will break me.

What do you think you can do?

Do you think you can change me, or save me?

You can't do anything.

So, what, you'll give me your love for a while?

You'll indulge in a whim.

You'll believe you...

you fancy me,

but what will happen next?

You'll move on, because...

Because...

you're normal and you'll want normal things.

But I'll stay, I'll always be this way.

You'll go and I'll stay.

I won't change.

I won't be able to.

You'll break me.

Your trust and your understanding will shatter me.

I'll hate you for feeling guilty

that you can't help me.

I'll want to hurt you.

All the time.

Stop looking at me like that.

Please just go.

Leave.

I can't love you!

Or I'll hurt you.

I'll take the risk.