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Oh, God, I hope you know how I hate

sticking my nose in somebody else's

business. Are you holding it to him? No.

No, no. I. I saw you and Nicholas

together on that pier after that night

that you were here with Lucky, and then.

Well, since then, it's not been very

difficult to figure out what's going on

between the two of you. I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry. And, hey, I'm not judging

you. Well, why not? The way I've lived my

life, when the stones start getting

thrown, I don't want to be anywhere in the

neighborhood. You know how much

I love Bucky. Yeah.

So what are you gonna do?

I thought long and hard about not doing

anything, and that's still my preference,

but I can't.

I talked to. Wait. Nicholas knows you

know? Yes. I told him

I thought that he owed his brother the

truth, and, you know,

we started to talk about it, and then

ancient history got in the way, and,

well, it didn't turn out well. I'm sorry.

Well, the point is that Nicholas is too

busy justifying what he wants to do to

be able to do what's right by his brother.

That's why I'm talking to you.

Please don't ask me to tell Hucky you

love him. You owe him the truth.

I have come so close to telling him the

truth many times. I just.

I just can't hurt him again. He doesn't

deserve what I've done to him.

He does deserve the truth.

I know I cheated on him with Jason.

I lied about Jake being his kid in office.

I'm sure there's a word for what you must

think of me. Yeah, human.

Look, I don't get any gold stars for

fidelity. Ethan is living proof of

that. Luke, I promise I am never gonna

be with Nicholas. But don't

tell me, Elizabeth. Tell Lucky

I love him. And I know

that we can be happy together,

but I can't. I can't alleviate my own

guilt at his expense. I cannot

tell him I was with Nicholas.

And I'm begging you not to either.

I saw the launch coming over, hoped it was

you. Nicholas, please don't. You may be

well aware of how guilty you feel about us

sleeping together. I feel guilty, too.

But what's happening between us is neither

light or thoughtless. We're not betraying

Lucky on impulse. We're doing this because

we can't stop it. How could you not warn

me that Luke knows? How could you allow me

be so kind of? Because I didn't want to

use it as an excuse to call you or see

you.

You're right. You're right. I should have

told you about it. I'm sorry. I want Mucky

to find out. Don't you?

Part of me does want Lucky to know because

I feel like he's entitled to it. But don't

tell me that you haven't had moments where

you wanted to go tell him yourself. Of

course I have. All that ang every

disappointment he'll feel towards me. I

deserve it, don't I? And looking me

in the eye wishing I'd never been born. I

deserve it. He'll hate me too.

Is that what you want? You want my life to

fall apart so you can be there to pick up

the pieces so we can live up here and

have sex for days while Lucky and the kids

lives are in ruins? Cause that's not what

I want.

Yeah?

What do you want?

I want to feel for Lucky but I can't stop

feeling for.