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okay yeah I'm fine just you know I'm

okay yeah I'm fine just you know I'm

okay yeah I'm fine just you know I'm just emotional marine yeah well I wanted

just emotional marine yeah well I wanted

just emotional marine yeah well I wanted to go over some stuff for the peer

to go over some stuff for the peer

to go over some stuff for the peer Oversight Committee but if it's a bad

Oversight Committee but if it's a bad

Oversight Committee but if it's a bad time I know well please come in please

well I'm putting the house up for sale

well I'm putting the house up for sale

well I'm putting the house up for sale so lucky and I can make a down payment

so lucky and I can make a down payment

so lucky and I can make a down payment on its property we found you want to

on its property we found you want to

on its property we found you want to build a house of our own

Elizabeth you don't have tying anything

Elizabeth you don't have tying anything

Elizabeth you don't have tying anything Nikolas told me about your affair here

Nikolas told me about your affair here

Nikolas told me about your affair here is no place to make life-altering

is no place to make life-altering

is no place to make life-altering decisions it's great I'm sure you think

decisions it's great I'm sure you think

decisions it's great I'm sure you think highly of me

highly of me

highly of me I'm aged too lucky and this lady's

I'm aged too lucky and this lady's

I'm aged too lucky and this lady's brother you're a good and kind person I

brother you're a good and kind person I

brother you're a good and kind person I know that you wouldn't get involved with

know that you wouldn't get involved with

know that you wouldn't get involved with Nikolas on the whim I know what we're

Nikolas on the whim I know what we're

Nikolas on the whim I know what we're doing is wrong and I want to stop but I

doing is wrong and I want to stop but I

doing is wrong and I want to stop but I just can't

just can't

just can't I'm trying to control my thoughts and my

I'm trying to control my thoughts and my

I'm trying to control my thoughts and my feelings but it's like I've become

feelings but it's like I've become

feelings but it's like I've become obsessed with him and I know that's not

obsessed with him and I know that's not

obsessed with him and I know that's not an excuse in fact it makes it worse I

an excuse in fact it makes it worse I

an excuse in fact it makes it worse I know it's just horrible and it's

know it's just horrible and it's

know it's just horrible and it's deceitful and I'm wrong and hey being

deceitful and I'm wrong and hey being

deceitful and I'm wrong and hey being yourself up for a sec I hate myself for

yourself up for a sec I hate myself for

yourself up for a sec I hate myself for allowing this to happen listen to me

allowing this to happen listen to me

allowing this to happen listen to me okay if there's anything that I learn

okay if there's anything that I learn

okay if there's anything that I learn from the whole postpartum depression

from the whole postpartum depression

from the whole postpartum depression thing instead being ashamed just makes

thing instead being ashamed just makes

thing instead being ashamed just makes everything worse you had a medical

everything worse you had a medical

everything worse you had a medical condition I'm just a cheater and a liar

condition I'm just a cheater and a liar

condition I'm just a cheater and a liar Elizabeth it's not like you woke up one

Elizabeth it's not like you woke up one

Elizabeth it's not like you woke up one morning and decided to ruin your life

morning and decided to ruin your life

morning and decided to ruin your life it's the last thing I wanted to happen

it's the last thing I wanted to happen

it's the last thing I wanted to happen can I ask how it happened how are those

can I ask how it happened how are those

can I ask how it happened how are those dry one scene so shallow

dry one scene so shallow

dry one scene so shallow why nothing between you and Nikolas is

why nothing between you and Nikolas is

why nothing between you and Nikolas is shallow

shallow

shallow in front for a really long time which is

in front for a really long time which is

in front for a really long time which is exactly why I took me by surprise I'm

exactly why I took me by surprise I'm

exactly why I took me by surprise I'm winded Nicholas and I kissed it was a

winded Nicholas and I kissed it was a

winded Nicholas and I kissed it was a silly impulse we had been drinking at

silly impulse we had been drinking at

silly impulse we had been drinking at Jakes and then out of the blue I started

Jakes and then out of the blue I started

Jakes and then out of the blue I started to want him find a pattern I think

to want him find a pattern I think

to want him find a pattern I think Elizabeth only agreed to get me and Mary

Elizabeth only agreed to get me and Mary

Elizabeth only agreed to get me and Mary because I pushed it I asked her to marry

because I pushed it I asked her to marry

because I pushed it I asked her to marry me she asked me for more time she told

me she asked me for more time she told

me she asked me for more time she told me she was afraid of repeating all the

me she was afraid of repeating all the

me she was afraid of repeating all the mistakes we've made in the past you know

mistakes we've made in the past you know

mistakes we've made in the past you know I can understand that

I can understand that

I can understand that even while you've been through

my drug addiction affair with Maxine her

my drug addiction affair with Maxine her

my drug addiction affair with Maxine her affair with Jason why should all about

affair with Jason why should all about

affair with Jason why should all about change but once we agreed to give you

change but once we agreed to give you

change but once we agreed to give you marriage and guilt just came crashing in

marriage and guilt just came crashing in

marriage and guilt just came crashing in on her again Elizabeth has forgiven me

on her again Elizabeth has forgiven me

on her again Elizabeth has forgiven me but she hasn't forgiven herself she's

but she hasn't forgiven herself she's

but she hasn't forgiven herself she's scared to death she's gonna do something

scared to death she's gonna do something

scared to death she's gonna do something wrong to destroy everything we're in the

wrong to destroy everything we're in the

wrong to destroy everything we're in the process of rebuilding reassuring

process of rebuilding reassuring

process of rebuilding reassuring that's what I've been trying to do man

that's what I've been trying to do man

that's what I've been trying to do man over and over

I just maybe at this point the only way

I just maybe at this point the only way

I just maybe at this point the only way to make this right

they call off the wedding

I don't know if you know this but lucky

I don't know if you know this but lucky

I don't know if you know this but lucky my Rebecca digging it for like a blink

my Rebecca digging it for like a blink

my Rebecca digging it for like a blink of an eye

of an eye

of an eye how did Nikolas feel about that he was

how did Nikolas feel about that he was

how did Nikolas feel about that he was jealous and so he kissed me to make sure

jealous and so he kissed me to make sure

jealous and so he kissed me to make sure they saw it and I figured why not cuz in

they saw it and I figured why not cuz in

they saw it and I figured why not cuz in a way I wanted lucky to be jealous too

a way I wanted lucky to be jealous too

a way I wanted lucky to be jealous too mm-hmm

mm-hmm

mm-hmm it worked yeah yeah I did

it worked yeah yeah I did

it worked yeah yeah I did lucky Rebecca stop seeing each other and

lucky Rebecca stop seeing each other and

lucky Rebecca stop seeing each other and then later Nikolas and I met up at Jake

then later Nikolas and I met up at Jake

then later Nikolas and I met up at Jake so we can discuss what had happen and we

so we can discuss what had happen and we

so we can discuss what had happen and we decided to kiss again just to see what

decided to kiss again just to see what

decided to kiss again just to see what it would be like and I've never been

it would be like and I've never been

it would be like and I've never been kissed like that ever and afterwards I

kissed like that ever and afterwards I

kissed like that ever and afterwards I couldn't stop thinking about it and I

couldn't stop thinking about it and I

couldn't stop thinking about it and I know it's crazy it doesn't make sense

know it's crazy it doesn't make sense

know it's crazy it doesn't make sense because Nikolas should be the one person

because Nikolas should be the one person

because Nikolas should be the one person that is totally off-limits to me but I

that is totally off-limits to me but I

that is totally off-limits to me but I couldn't help myself and I know he feels

couldn't help myself and I know he feels

couldn't help myself and I know he feels the same way but it didn't stop there

the same way but it didn't stop there

the same way but it didn't stop there well we fought it I mean we made a point

well we fought it I mean we made a point

well we fought it I mean we made a point of not being in the same places we were

of not being in the same places we were

of not being in the same places we were just hoping that our feelings for each

just hoping that our feelings for each

just hoping that our feelings for each other would subside and then the night

other would subside and then the night

other would subside and then the night of the carnival when Jake had almost

of the carnival when Jake had almost

of the carnival when Jake had almost been killed by the car he came by to

been killed by the car he came by to

been killed by the car he came by to check on me and he ended up kissing

check on me and he ended up kissing

check on me and he ended up kissing again and then he left and lucky showed

again and then he left and lucky showed

again and then he left and lucky showed up and next thing I know like he's

up and next thing I know like he's

up and next thing I know like he's asking me to marry him Wow dealing was a

asking me to marry him Wow dealing was a

asking me to marry him Wow dealing was a lot

lot

lot I don't lucky that I needed time to

I don't lucky that I needed time to

I don't lucky that I needed time to think about it so I went to Nikolas

think about it so I went to Nikolas

think about it so I went to Nikolas and we ended up losing control I thought

and we ended up losing control I thought

and we ended up losing control I thought that it was just gonna be a one-time

that it was just gonna be a one-time

that it was just gonna be a one-time thing that we would realize what we had

thing that we would realize what we had

thing that we would realize what we had done that we have regretted and and then

done that we have regretted and and then

done that we have regretted and and then we just move on and like he was still

we just move on and like he was still

we just move on and like he was still waiting for an answer to his proposal I

waiting for an answer to his proposal I

waiting for an answer to his proposal I just thought that if I committed to

just thought that if I committed to

just thought that if I committed to lucky and all of this with Nikolas would

lucky and all of this with Nikolas would

lucky and all of this with Nikolas would just go away but it didn't my feelings

just go away but it didn't my feelings

just go away but it didn't my feelings just keep getting stronger

just keep getting stronger

just keep getting stronger do you love Nikolas

I love lucky but I can't stop wanting

I love lucky but I can't stop wanting

I love lucky but I can't stop wanting Nikolas I kept thinking that once we

Nikolas I kept thinking that once we

Nikolas I kept thinking that once we made that we turn to each other

made that we turn to each other

made that we turn to each other Elizabeth would feel the same way but it

Elizabeth would feel the same way but it

Elizabeth would feel the same way but it just seems like her fears are getting

just seems like her fears are getting

just seems like her fears are getting worse works for us well hoping for every

worse works for us well hoping for every

worse works for us well hoping for every time I consider calling off the

time I consider calling off the

time I consider calling off the engagement I swing back the other way

engagement I swing back the other way

engagement I swing back the other way and decided I need to have faith in us

and decided I need to have faith in us

and decided I need to have faith in us until she feels it again

until she feels it again

until she feels it again maybe that's your answer

if Elizabeth only agreed to marry me

if Elizabeth only agreed to marry me

if Elizabeth only agreed to marry me it'll make me happy I can't stomach back

it'll make me happy I can't stomach back

it'll make me happy I can't stomach back that's not love don't even know what

that's not love don't even know what

that's not love don't even know what that is but it's not fair to either one

that is but it's not fair to either one

that is but it's not fair to either one of us