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okay see when I find you here

okay see when I find you here

okay see when I find you here great day for a ride yeah sure thanks I

great day for a ride yeah sure thanks I

great day for a ride yeah sure thanks I got people to see you don't sound any

got people to see you don't sound any

got people to see you don't sound any happier about that and then when I sell

happier about that and then when I sell

happier about that and then when I sell you a J's it's just something that look

you a J's it's just something that look

you a J's it's just something that look on your face isn't work related there's

on your face isn't work related there's

on your face isn't work related there's a lot going on work but not something to

a lot going on work but not something to

a lot going on work but not something to handle so the other thing I have to do

handle so the other thing I have to do

handle so the other thing I have to do today or any still gonna do it

today or any still gonna do it

today or any still gonna do it breaking my engagement to Elizabeth

breaking my engagement to Elizabeth

breaking my engagement to Elizabeth she's gonna be hurt and confused but

she's gonna be hurt and confused but

she's gonna be hurt and confused but it's the right thing to do when she

it's the right thing to do when she

it's the right thing to do when she starts looking for the fur yes sir she's

starts looking for the fur yes sir she's

starts looking for the fur yes sir she's probably gonna come to you so I just

probably gonna come to you so I just

probably gonna come to you so I just want to make sure that you don't think

want to make sure that you don't think

want to make sure that you don't think it hair for now you've got my back

under medication and dr. a he's found

under medication and dr. a he's found

under medication and dr. a he's found the air and just fixing it himself

the air and just fixing it himself

the air and just fixing it himself ouch it's time that you figure out what

ouch it's time that you figure out what

ouch it's time that you figure out what to do about what you Nicholas

look I I know you're hurting right now

look I I know you're hurting right now

look I I know you're hurting right now but I trust your instincts and if you

but I trust your instincts and if you

but I trust your instincts and if you think that marrying Elizabeth doesn't

think that marrying Elizabeth doesn't

think that marrying Elizabeth doesn't doesn't feel right then yes maybe it is

doesn't feel right then yes maybe it is

doesn't feel right then yes maybe it is wise to call off the engagement but only

wise to call off the engagement but only

wise to call off the engagement but only if only if you're sure and only if

if only if you're sure and only if

if only if you're sure and only if that's what she wants and I tell you

that's what she wants and I tell you

that's what she wants and I tell you lucky she may not want it

lucky she may not want it

lucky she may not want it I don't think Elizabeth even knows what

I don't think Elizabeth even knows what

I don't think Elizabeth even knows what she wants that's the problem I I love

she wants that's the problem I I love

she wants that's the problem I I love her necklace but something's not right

her necklace but something's not right

her necklace but something's not right here I'm really sorry

like I said she's gonna have questions

like I said she's gonna have questions

like I said she's gonna have questions she most likely is going to turn to you

she most likely is going to turn to you

she most likely is going to turn to you figuring that we've talked it over

figuring that we've talked it over

figuring that we've talked it over since you're not only my brother but

since you're not only my brother but

since you're not only my brother but your best friend giving you permission

your best friend giving you permission

your best friend giving you permission to tell Elizabeth anything I've said I

to tell Elizabeth anything I've said I

to tell Elizabeth anything I've said I just try to make her understand that I

just try to make her understand that I

just try to make her understand that I didn't and the engagement because I

didn't and the engagement because I

didn't and the engagement because I don't love her I did it because I do

that I've been struggling and thank you

that I've been struggling and thank you

that I've been struggling and thank you for the talk yesterday you really helped

for the talk yesterday you really helped

for the talk yesterday you really helped a lot obviously not enough what do you

a lot obviously not enough what do you

a lot obviously not enough what do you mean I'm just gonna be honest with you

mean I'm just gonna be honest with you

mean I'm just gonna be honest with you okay because you gave me great advice

okay because you gave me great advice

okay because you gave me great advice even when I didn't want to hear it I was

even when I didn't want to hear it I was

even when I didn't want to hear it I was in denial for a very long time and not

in denial for a very long time and not

in denial for a very long time and not facing my problems didn't help a

facing my problems didn't help a

facing my problems didn't help a situation in fact it made it worse

situation in fact it made it worse

situation in fact it made it worse so I'm just saying please don't make the

so I'm just saying please don't make the

so I'm just saying please don't make the same mistake that I did it's too late is

same mistake that I did it's too late is

same mistake that I did it's too late is there a choice that sheet on the man I

there a choice that sheet on the man I

there a choice that sheet on the man I love the man I'm supposed to marry and

love the man I'm supposed to marry and

love the man I'm supposed to marry and it'd make things worse

it'd make things worse

it'd make things worse I picked his brother to betray him I

I picked his brother to betray him I

I picked his brother to betray him I wouldn't ask you to get involved in my

wouldn't ask you to get involved in my

wouldn't ask you to get involved in my personal life but if you could see your

personal life but if you could see your

personal life but if you could see your way clear to helping Elizabeth out yeah

way clear to helping Elizabeth out yeah

way clear to helping Elizabeth out yeah you know of course you know of course

you know of course you know of course

you know of course you know of course I'll do whatever I can

I'll do whatever I can

I'll do whatever I can no doubt that should be disappointed

no doubt that should be disappointed

no doubt that should be disappointed though herself putting yourself in

though herself putting yourself in

though herself putting yourself in position for you to to have to make a

position for you to to have to make a

position for you to to have to make a difficult choice like that I think I'm

difficult choice like that I think I'm

difficult choice like that I think I'm doing the wrong thing no no I don't I

doing the wrong thing no no I don't I

doing the wrong thing no no I don't I didn't say anything to you earlier at

didn't say anything to you earlier at

didn't say anything to you earlier at Jakes for whatever reason but but yeah I

Jakes for whatever reason but but yeah I

Jakes for whatever reason but but yeah I see it too i I see her struggling since

see it too i I see her struggling since

see it too i I see her struggling since she agreed to remarry you but look I

she agreed to remarry you but look I

she agreed to remarry you but look I have not I have no doubt that she would

have not I have no doubt that she would

have not I have no doubt that she would go through it with you out of loyalty

go through it with you out of loyalty

go through it with you out of loyalty loyalty yeah and if it's come to that

loyalty yeah and if it's come to that

loyalty yeah and if it's come to that we're better off apart lucky she loves

we're better off apart lucky she loves

we're better off apart lucky she loves you always has always will I think

you always has always will I think

you always has always will I think Elizabeth and I derailed as soon as I

Elizabeth and I derailed as soon as I

Elizabeth and I derailed as soon as I got addicted to drugs that had an affair

got addicted to drugs that had an affair

got addicted to drugs that had an affair with Maxie Elizabeth wants to blame

with Maxie Elizabeth wants to blame

with Maxie Elizabeth wants to blame herself for the affair she had of a

herself for the affair she had of a

herself for the affair she had of a Jason and lying about Jake's paternity

Jason and lying about Jake's paternity

Jason and lying about Jake's paternity but I thought I wasn't want to mess the

but I thought I wasn't want to mess the

but I thought I wasn't want to mess the whole thing first I thought we'd got

whole thing first I thought we'd got

whole thing first I thought we'd got past it but Elizabeth this is a moment

past it but Elizabeth this is a moment

past it but Elizabeth this is a moment and I guess bottom line she's just she's

and I guess bottom line she's just she's

and I guess bottom line she's just she's not ready to marry me again

not ready to marry me again

not ready to marry me again and I have to face the fact that she may

and I have to face the fact that she may

and I have to face the fact that she may never be and I love her enough to let

never be and I love her enough to let

never be and I love her enough to let her go you know that I am capable person

her go you know that I am capable person

her go you know that I am capable person and that I have survived a lot not only

and that I have survived a lot not only

and that I have survived a lot not only have I carried on but I have made a life

have I carried on but I have made a life

have I carried on but I have made a life for myself and a family and I ended up

for myself and a family and I ended up

for myself and a family and I ended up with the man who killed my heart as it

with the man who killed my heart as it

with the man who killed my heart as it should be right but things aren't always

should be right but things aren't always

should be right but things aren't always as they should be you've got thrown a

as they should be you've got thrown a

as they should be you've got thrown a curveball with Nikolas and I need you to

curveball with Nikolas and I need you to

curveball with Nikolas and I need you to know that sex is a really weird thing

know that sex is a really weird thing

know that sex is a really weird thing for me my first experience was so brutal

for me my first experience was so brutal

for me my first experience was so brutal that it shut something down inside of me

that it shut something down inside of me

that it shut something down inside of me and obviously I've been with other guys

and obviously I've been with other guys

and obviously I've been with other guys and he's been fine and I've enjoyed it

and he's been fine and I've enjoyed it

and he's been fine and I've enjoyed it but there's a part of me that has always

but there's a part of me that has always

but there's a part of me that has always been unavailable and I really initiate

been unavailable and I really initiate

been unavailable and I really initiate sex and honestly I would be more than

sex and honestly I would be more than

sex and honestly I would be more than happy to never have it again until now

happy to never have it again until now

happy to never have it again until now we can have part of me and he brought it

we can have part of me and he brought it

we can have part of me and he brought it to life and I know this is so crazy that

to life and I know this is so crazy that

to life and I know this is so crazy that we're talking about this right here

we're talking about this right here

we're talking about this right here because it's Nikolas and he's my oldest

because it's Nikolas and he's my oldest

because it's Nikolas and he's my oldest and dearest friend and he's he's my

and dearest friend and he's he's my

and dearest friend and he's he's my fiance's brother in Emily's husband know

fiance's brother in Emily's husband know

fiance's brother in Emily's husband know that I shouldn't be doing this it's okay

I can't stop thinking about

I can't stop thinking about

I can't stop thinking about without his touch he kisses me and I

without his touch he kisses me and I

without his touch he kisses me and I pray I pray every day then he will wake

pray I pray every day then he will wake

pray I pray every day then he will wake up it's all just go away you they just

up it's all just go away you they just

up it's all just go away you they just want to be able to look at Nicholas and

want to be able to look at Nicholas and

want to be able to look at Nicholas and I want to feel him

you are a survivor and I've always

you are a survivor and I've always

you are a survivor and I've always admired how strong you are

admired how strong you are

admired how strong you are if there's something that we're not

if there's something that we're not

if there's something that we're not talking about here you know it's not

talking about here you know it's not

talking about here you know it's not like you can ignore a necklace and he's

like you can ignore a necklace and he's

like you can ignore a necklace and he's going to go away for the rest of your

going to go away for the rest of your

going to go away for the rest of your life he's a part of your life he's a

life he's a part of your life he's a

life he's a part of your life he's a part of your family unless you think you

part of your family unless you think you

part of your family unless you think you should tell lucky no you know he would

should tell lucky no you know he would

should tell lucky no you know he would able to kill him

able to kill him

able to kill him it's gonna ruin everything so you

it's gonna ruin everything so you

it's gonna ruin everything so you Nicholas you're supposed to go on like

Nicholas you're supposed to go on like

Nicholas you're supposed to go on like nothing ever happened between the two of

nothing ever happened between the two of

nothing ever happened between the two of you

it can be done because I've all have

it can be done because I've all have

it can be done because I've all have lucky you see he's the key

lucky you see he's the key

lucky you see he's the key lucky knows how to love me back to

lucky knows how to love me back to

lucky knows how to love me back to health he's done it before he'll be able

health he's done it before he'll be able

health he's done it before he'll be able to do it again