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oh god I hope you know how I hate

oh god I hope you know how I hate

oh god I hope you know how I hate sticking my nose or somebody else no no

sticking my nose or somebody else no no

sticking my nose or somebody else no no no oh yeah if I saw you and Nikolas

no oh yeah if I saw you and Nikolas

no oh yeah if I saw you and Nikolas together on that pier after that night

together on that pier after that night

together on that pier after that night that you were here lucky and then well

that you were here lucky and then well

that you were here lucky and then well since then it's not been very difficult

since then it's not been very difficult

since then it's not been very difficult to figure out what's going on between

to figure out what's going on between

to figure out what's going on between the two of you I'm sorry I'm so sorry

the two of you I'm sorry I'm so sorry

the two of you I'm sorry I'm so sorry anything I'm not judging you why not the

anything I'm not judging you why not the

anything I'm not judging you why not the way I've lived my life when the stones

way I've lived my life when the stones

way I've lived my life when the stones start getting thrown I don't want to be

start getting thrown I don't want to be

start getting thrown I don't want to be anywhere in the neighborhood you know

anywhere in the neighborhood you know

anywhere in the neighborhood you know how much I love lucky

how much I love lucky

how much I love lucky yeah so what are you gonna do

I thought long and hard about not doing

I thought long and hard about not doing

I thought long and hard about not doing anything and that's still my preference

anything and that's still my preference

anything and that's still my preference but I can't I talk to Nicholas quite

but I can't I talk to Nicholas quite

but I can't I talk to Nicholas quite right Nikolas knows you know yes I

right Nikolas knows you know yes I

right Nikolas knows you know yes I thought of my thought that he owed his

thought of my thought that he owed his

thought of my thought that he owed his brother the truth and you know we

brother the truth and you know we

brother the truth and you know we started to talk about it and then

started to talk about it and then

started to talk about it and then ancient history got the land well it

ancient history got the land well it

ancient history got the land well it didn't turn out well I'm sorry well the

didn't turn out well I'm sorry well the

didn't turn out well I'm sorry well the point is that Nikolas is too busy

point is that Nikolas is too busy

point is that Nikolas is too busy justifying what he wants to do to be

justifying what he wants to do to be

justifying what he wants to do to be able to do what's right by his brother

able to do what's right by his brother

able to do what's right by his brother that's why I'm talking to you

please don't ask me to tell lucky

he loved him

he will in the truth

I'm so close to telling him the truth

I'm so close to telling him the truth

I'm so close to telling him the truth many times I just I just can't hurt him

many times I just I just can't hurt him

many times I just I just can't hurt him again he doesn't deserve what I've done

again he doesn't deserve what I've done

again he doesn't deserve what I've done to him he does deserve the truth

to him he does deserve the truth

to him he does deserve the truth I know

I know

I know I cheated on him with Jason I lied about

I cheated on him with Jason I lied about

I cheated on him with Jason I lied about Jay clean his kid enough of this I'm

Jay clean his kid enough of this I'm

Jay clean his kid enough of this I'm sure there's a word for what you must

sure there's a word for what you must

sure there's a word for what you must think of me yeah human look I don't be

think of me yeah human look I don't be

think of me yeah human look I don't be on any gold stars for fidelity Ethan is

on any gold stars for fidelity Ethan is

on any gold stars for fidelity Ethan is living proof of that look I promise I am

living proof of that look I promise I am

living proof of that look I promise I am never gonna be with Nikolas again but

never gonna be with Nikolas again but

never gonna be with Nikolas again but don't tell me

tell lucky

I love him

I love him

I love him and I know that we can be happy together

and I know that we can be happy together

and I know that we can be happy together but i can't i can't alleviate my own

but i can't i can't alleviate my own

but i can't i can't alleviate my own guilt at his expense I cannot tell him i

guilt at his expense I cannot tell him i

guilt at his expense I cannot tell him i was with Nicholas and I'm begging you

was with Nicholas and I'm begging you

was with Nicholas and I'm begging you not to either

I saw the launch coming over I'll do to

I saw the launch coming over I'll do to

I saw the launch coming over I'll do to you it goes please may be well aware of

you it goes please may be well aware of

you it goes please may be well aware of how guilty you feel about us sleeping

how guilty you feel about us sleeping

how guilty you feel about us sleeping together I feel guilty too

but what's happening between us is

but what's happening between us is

but what's happening between us is neither light nor thoughtless we're not

neither light nor thoughtless we're not

neither light nor thoughtless we're not betraying lucky on impulse we're doing

betraying lucky on impulse we're doing

betraying lucky on impulse we're doing this because he can't stop it Elizabeth

this because he can't stop it Elizabeth

this because he can't stop it Elizabeth how could you move warn me in a loop

how could you move warn me in a loop

how could you move warn me in a loop knows how could you allow will be so

knows how could you allow will be so

knows how could you allow will be so fancy huh I didn't want to use an excuse

fancy huh I didn't want to use an excuse

fancy huh I didn't want to use an excuse to call you or see you right yeah I

to call you or see you right yeah I

to call you or see you right yeah I should I should told you that I'm sorry

should I should told you that I'm sorry

should I should told you that I'm sorry lucky to find out don't you part of me

lucky to find out don't you part of me

lucky to find out don't you part of me does woman lucky to know

does woman lucky to know

does woman lucky to know because I feel like he's entitled to it

because I feel like he's entitled to it

because I feel like he's entitled to it but don't tell me that you haven't had

but don't tell me that you haven't had

but don't tell me that you haven't had moments where he wanted to go tell him

moments where he wanted to go tell him

moments where he wanted to go tell him yourself of course I have all that anger

yourself of course I have all that anger

yourself of course I have all that anger the disappointment feel towards week

the disappointment feel towards week

the disappointment feel towards week I deserve it don't I

I deserve it don't I

I deserve it don't I I'm like me in the eye

I'm like me in the eye

I'm like me in the eye if she had never been born I deserve

if she had never been born I deserve

if she had never been born I deserve hey leave me to

hey leave me to

hey leave me to so what you want

so what you want

so what you want you want my life to fall apart so you

you want my life to fall apart so you

you want my life to fall apart so you can be there to pick up the pieces

can be there to pick up the pieces

can be there to pick up the pieces so we can live up here and have sex for

so we can live up here and have sex for

so we can live up here and have sex for days while lucky and the kids lives are

days while lucky and the kids lives are

days while lucky and the kids lives are in words cuz that's not what I want

do you

I want to feel from lucky

I want to feel from lucky

I want to feel from lucky but I can't stop feeling for you

you