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so

uh

i won't wake her

you better go near the fire where it's

warm no

i'm burning up now

that's the fever

the doctor said not to get up and move

around that whole fossil

he doesn't know

anything go to bed stay there

that's his only prescription

and how are you feeling now

better

much better than i felt in ages

really i'm fine now

only very weak

it's the turning point i guess

from now on i'll pick up so quick i'll

surprise you and no thanks to that old

fool of a country quack ivan

he's always tended to us

always helped us to die you mean

well he tended to paw and ma

and

and to mary

he did the best he knew

i suppose

well andy's bringing a specialist with

him when he comes that'll suit you

is that why you're waiting up on me yes

friend

somebody had got

to it's only right that someone meet him

after he's been gone five years five

years

it's a long time yes to wait

it's passed now yes it's past

have you got his letters with you

let me see them will you

well my head was so full of fever when

they came i couldn't make head or tail

let me read them again

here first one's on top

san francisco

[Applause]

just landed from steam

have important business to wind up here

we will be home as soon as deal is

complete

business first

it was always andy's motto

hope you are all well

and

hope you are all well he couldn't have

known you've been took sick till i wrote

that and answered him of course he

couldn't i'm a fool

touchy about nothing lately

just what did you say in your reply

i had to send a collect

what did you say

was the matter with me

i wrote you had lung trouble oh

you

you are a fool

how often have i explained to you that

it's pleurisy

you can't seem to get it in your head

that the plural is outside the lungs not

in that i only wrote what dr smith told

me he's

damned into ramus makes no difference

i had to tell andy something didn't it

you sent this last evening

leaving for home on the midnight train

just received your wire

am bringing specialists see rob

motor to farm from port

what time is it now

around six must be

yeah

he ought to be here soon

well i'm glad

he's bringing a doctor who knows

something

a specialist

we'll tell you in a second

that there's nothing to matter with my

lungs

you've been coughing an awful lot lately

for god's sake

haven't you ever had a bad cold

yourself mother's lucky

be able to sleep so soundly

mom is tired

she's been sitting up with me most of

the night we should be waiting for andy

too

i couldn't sleep to save my soul

counted 10 million sheep if i counted

one no use

finally gave up trying

just laid there in the dark thinking

i was thinking about you

ruth

how hard these last years must have been

for you

i'm sorry

i don't know

they're past now

they were hard on all of us all of us

except andy

andy's made a big success of himself and

now he's coming home to let us admire

his greatness

oh

what am i saying

my brain must be sick too

when you tell that mother of yours that

she's got to stop

saying that mary's death was due to a

weak constitution inherited from me it's

got to stop i tell you

oh my goodness you'll nag at me not you

oh because she's down on me

not

begging andy for help

you might have

he's got plenty

how could you

of all people

think of taking money from him i don't

see the harm he's your own brother

what's he used to talking to you

i'll be frank ruth

i've been another failure

i dragged you down with me

i couldn't blame you and all justice for

for hating me

i don't hate you

it's my own fault too i suppose

you couldn't help

loving andy

i don't love anyone you need them

tonight

doesn't matter

do you know

what i've been dreaming

back there in the dark

and planting our future

for what i get well

well after all why shouldn't we have a

future

we're young yet

oh hopefully we can shake off the curse

of this farm

it's the farm that's ruined our lives

dammit

andy's coming back

i'll seek my foolish pride roof

now i'll borrow the money from andy

give us a good start in the city

then we'll go where people live instead

of stagnating and start all over again

and i won't be the failure there that

i've been here ruth i you needn't be

ashamed of me there and i'll prove to

you

the reading i've done can be put to some

use

all right

or something of the sword i've

i've always wanted to write

you want to do that

won't you roof

there's ma

she can come too

she wouldn't

so that's your answer

you're lying ruth

your mother's just an excuse

you think

because andy's coming back

stop coughing for good

mistakes oh

don't be afraid

i feel completely well

really i do

now that i can hope again oh if you knew

how glorious it feels to

have something to look forward to

but can't you feel the thrill of it too

the vision of a new life opening up

after all the horrible years yes

yes but do be careful

i won't be careful

i'm getting all my strength

i feel as light as a feather

one kiss

for some years isn't it

to greet the dawn of a new life together

sit down

rob

for goodness sake

no

i won't sit down you're silly to worry

listen

all our suffering

has been a test

through which we had to pass in order to

prove ourselves worthy of a final

realization

and we did pass through it hasn't

brokenness

and now the dream is to come true

don't you see

yes

i see

wrong

but

won't you go back to bed now and rest

no

i want to see the sun rise

it's an algae of good fortune

no sun yet

it isn't time

all i can see is

black rim of the damned hills

outlined against the creeping grayness

it's not a very happy augury is it

the sun will come

soon

yes

i feel as if i could sleep now

good

sound

will sleep

that's what you need most

what's the matter with you it was rob

you just been out here talking to me i

put him back to bed he acted

funny

and his eyes looked so

so wild like

is that all you woke me up out of a

sound sleep for he scared me near out of

my wits i was afraid

he was talking so crazy i couldn't quiet

him

didn't want to be alone with him that

way lord knows what he might do

why didn't you run and get jake

well jake isn't here ma

he quit last night

he hasn't been paid in three months

can't blame him

what decent person would want to work in

a place like this

i wish you'd never married that man you

wanted to speak about him now that he's

sick in his bed

you know very well ruth mayo

if it wasn't for me helping you on the

sly out of my savings you know both been

in the poor house by now and he'll pay

you back ma i can tell him so as rob

will never know

what did rob think you and him were

living on i'd like to know don't talk so

loud let him sleep if he can

listen

is that an auto i hear

yes it's andy i oh i don't want him to

see me looking aside i'll lay down in

the room the other side

you don't need me now and i'm dead for

sleep

hello andy i've been waiting i got here

as soon as i could um

uh my sister-in-law mrs mayo dr fawcett

where's rob

in there

is he very bad ruth

he's been getting weaker

damn this way doctor

[Applause]

how long has this been going on

you mean how long has he been sick of

course what else

it was last summer he had a bad spell

first

but i think he's been ailing ever since

mary died eight months ago why didn't

you let me know

i wanted to send you word once but

he only got mad when i told him

i was too proud to ask anything he said

now to ask me

i can't understand the way you liked it

i mean didn't you see how sick he was

getting

god am i only known

a letter takes too long to get where you

were

we couldn't afford to telegraph we owed

everyone already

and i couldn't ask them all

she'd been giving us money out of her

savings so she hadn't much left

don't say anything about that to rob i

never told him

and he'd only get mad if he knew but

i had two

because lord knows i would have got on

if i hadn't

does he mean to say

what's the matter with him in god's name

ruth

tell me the truth

his mind hasn't gone back on him has it

i don't know

i don't know mary's dying broke him up

terrible but

he's used to her being gone by this i

suppose

do you mean to say

you're used to it

there comes a time

when you don't mind

anymore

anything

i'm sorry ruth if

i seem to blame you i didn't realize

the sight of rob

lying in bed there so

helpless it

made me furious at everyone

forgive me

roof

there's nothing to forgive

doesn't matter

thank god i came back before it was too

late this doctor will know exactly what

to do that's the first thing to think of

when rob's on his feet again we can get

the farm working on a sound basis once

more

and i'll see to that

before i go

you're going away again i've got to you

wrote rob you was coming home to stay

this time i expected to

until i got to san francisco

then i learned certain facts that make

it necessary

uh

candid ruth

i'm not the rich man you've probably

been led to believe by my letters

not now

i was when i wrote them i made money

hand over fist as long as i stuck to

legitimate trading but

i wasn't content with that i wanted it

to come easier

so like all the rest of the idiots

i tried speculation

you

you lost everything practically

no i don't mean i'm dead broke i

saved 10 000 from the wreckage maybe 20

but

that's a poor showing for five years

hard work

that's why i'll have to go back

i won't leave till rob's on his feet

again

in the meantime i'll make things fly

around here

i need a rest

and the kind of rest i need is hard work

in the open

just like i used to do in the old days

not a word to rob about my losing money

remember that ruth you could see why

he's grown so touch he'll never accept a

scent if he thought it was hard up

see

yes

oh doctor um

won't you have a chair

i have to catch the nine o'clock back to

the city it's imperative i have only a

moment

the case of your brother mr mayo is

bob's gonna die ruth

i'm afraid

my diagnosis of your brother's condition

forces me to the same conclusion as mrs

mayo's

but doctor shirley

your brother hasn't longed to live

perhaps a few days

perhaps only a few hours

it's a marvel he's alive at this moment

my examination revealed that both of his

lungs are

terribly affected

good god

i'm sorry to have to tell you this

if there was anything that could be done

there isn't anything

it's too late

there might have been something six

months ago but if we were to take him to

the mountains or to arizona

that might have prolonged his life six

months ago

but now

good heavens you haven't told him this

have you doctor

no

i lied to him

i said

a change of climate

i must leave you

but there must still be some chance

there is always that last chance

the miracle

goodbye mrs mayo

goodbye

and we better go ahead and see him

oh god i'm afraid too

i know he'll read it in my face

it can't be ruth

they can't be as hopeless as he said

there's always a fighting chance

we'll take rob the arizona he's got to

get well there must be a chance why must

there andy help

what are you doing out of bed get right

back now and obey the doc or you're

gonna get a licking from me help me over

this chair please andy hell i will

you're going right back to bed that's

where you're going and staying but stay

there until i die

andy

don't behave like a child

i'm sick of lying down i'll be more

rested sitting up i swear to you i'll

get out of bed every time you put me

there

you have to sit on my chest

and that wouldn't help my health

oh come on andy

don't play the fool

i want to talk to you

and i'm going to

dying man has some rights

as me don't talk that way for god's sake

only let you sit down if you'll promise

that

remember

all right

easy now

there you are

all right

listen

you've asked me not to speak

and i won't

once i've made my

position clear

in the first place

i know i'm dying

that isn't so it is so

don't lie to me

after ruth put me to bed before you came

i saw it clearly for the first time

i've been making plans for the future

roots in mind

so it came hard at first

the realization

and then once the doctor examined me i

knew although he tried to lie about it

i want to make sure

i listened at the door to what he told

you so don't mock me

with

any fairy tales about arizona

or any such rot is that

because i'm dying is no reason to treat

me as an imbecile or a coward

now that i know what's happening i can

say kismet to it with all my heart

it was only the silly uncertainty that

hurt hey

it isn't foolish

you have got a chance

if you heard all the doctors said i want

to prove it to you you mean when he

spoke of the

miracle i don't believe in miracles

not in my case

and besides

i know more than any doctor could know

because i feel what's coming

but we've agreed not to speak of it

tell me about yourself

that's what i'm interested in

your letters were too brief

and far apart to be illuminating

i meant to write often or

i judge from them that

you accomplished

all you set out to do five years ago

that isn't much to boast of

have you really

honestly reached that conclusion

well it doesn't seem to amount to much

now

but you're

rich

aren't you

yes i suppose so

i'm glad

you can do to the farm all i've undone

what did you do down there

tell me

you went into the grain business with

that friend of yours

yes

after two years i had a share in it i

sold out last year

and then

i went in on my own

still in grain yes

what's the matter

well you look as though i were

accusing you of something

i'm proud enough of the first four years

it's after that i'm not boasting of

i took the speculating

in

wheat

yes

like you made money

gambling

yes

oh

today i was wondering what the

great change was in you

you a farmer

gambling in a wheat pit with

scraps of paper

oh there's a

spiritual significance in that picture

andy

i'm a failure

and ruth's another but we can both

justly lay some of the blame for our

stumbling on god but

you're the deepest type failure of the

three

you spend eight years running away from

yourself

you you used to be a creator

when you love the farm you and life and

harmonious partnership but now

oh

my brain is muddled

part of what i mean

is

you're

gambling with the thing that you used to

love to create proves

how far straight

you'll be punished

you'll have to suffer

to win back

no use

i can't say it

okay

i think i know what you're driving at

rob

and it's true

i guess

and you have to promise me

do

one thing andy

afterwards

say hey

i'll promise anything

as god as my judge

just remember

ruth

has suffered

double her share

only through contact with suffering will

you

awaken

listen

you

must marry ruth afterwards

hey hey hey hey hey hey

rob

you're tired out

you better lie down and rest a while

don't you think

we can talk later on

later

on

you you always were the optimist andy

yes

yes i think i'll rest a while

so much sunrise

isn't it

come on

he's out of his mind now isn't he

he may be a little delirious

the fever would do that

god what a shame

there's nothing we can do

but sit and wait

he was talking wild

like he used to only this time it

sounded

unnatural don't you think

i don't know

the things he said to me had truth in

them

even if he did talk them way up in the

air like he always sees things

still

why do you suppose he want us to promise

we

you know what he said

his mind was wandering

i suppose

well

there was something in the back of it

i wanted to make sure i'd be all right

after he'd gone i expect

no

it wasn't that

he knows very well i naturally look out

for you without

anything like that

you might be thinking of

something happened

five years back that time you came home

from the trip

what happened what do you mean

we had a fight

a fight

what is that to do with me

it was about you

in a way

about me

yes

mostly you see

i found out that i made a mistake about

rob

shortly after we were married when

it was too late

mistake

you mean

you found out you didn't love rob

yes

good god

and then when mary came i thought things

would be different

and i'd love him

but it didn't happen that way

i couldn't bear his blundering and his

book reading and

like we grew to hate him almost ruth i

couldn't help it

no woman could

it had to be because i loved someone

else i'd found out

i can't do no harm to tell you now

it's all past and

gone and dead

you were the one i really loved

i mean i

came to the knowledge of it too late

then you loved me

that time i came home

i've known you a real reason for leaving

home the first time

everyone knew it

for three years i've been thinking

that i loved you

yes

and then that day on the hill you

laughed about what a fool you've been

for loving me once and

i knew it was all over

good god but i never thought

and did rob

no

that's what i started to tell

we had a fight

just before you came

and i got crazy mad and told him all

i've told you

you told rob

you loved me

yes

you mad fool

how could you do such a thing i couldn't

help it

i got to the end of bearing things

without talking

rob must have known every moment i

stayed here

and yet he never said or showed

god how he must have suffered

didn't you know how much he loved you

yes

i know he liked me why did you

what kind of a woman are you

couldn't you have kept silent

did you have to torture him

no wonder he's dying

and you lived together for five years

with this between you we lived in the

same house does he still think i don't

know

but we never spoke a word about it since

that day maybe from the way he went on

he supposes i care for you yet

but i wouldn't know how to feel love

even if i tried anymore

and i don't love you

that's sure

it's standable such a thing to be

between rob and me

well i love rob better than anybody in

the world that always did

what can i say to him now

he asked me to promise

what am i going to do

you can promise

so as it leaves his mind and not mean

anything

what

lie to him now

when he's dying

no

it's you who will have to do the lying

since it must be done

you've got a chance now to undo some of

all the suffering you brought on rob

go into him

tell him you never loved me it was all a

mistake i'm telling you only said so

because you were mad and didn't know

what you were saying tell him something

anything that will bring him peace he

wouldn't believe me you

have got to make him believe you

do you hear

you've got to

now

hurry you'll never know when you may be

too late

ready

ready he's gone

he's not he's gone

the bed is empty

the window is wide open he must have

crawled out into the yard

he can't have gone far

come on

hmm

[Music]

oh dear god

i knew it i knew we'd fight in here

i gave you a slip you didn't drop

scoundrel i'm gonna take you right back

where you belong in bed oh don't andy

you're in pain

no

i'm dying

i couldn't stand it in the room back

there

i feel as if all my life i've been

cooped in a room

so i thought i'd try to end as i might

if i'd had the courage

alone in a ditch by the open road

watching the sun rise

don't talk you're wasting your strength

rest a while and then we'll carry you

still hoping andy

i know

doctor said to go to far-off places and

i'd be cured

he was

right

that was always the cure for me

it's too late for this life

[Laughter]

oh my god

you mustn't feel sorry for me can't you

see

i'm happy

at last free

free from the farm

free to wander on and on

eternally

look

isn't it beautiful

beyond the hills

i can hear the old voices calling me to

come

come

and this time i'm going

this isn't the end it's a free beginning

the start of my voyage

one to my trip

the right release

beyond the horizon

oh he ought to be glad glad for my sake

remember

has suffered

remember

i'll take care of her i swear to you rob

andy

sacrifice

it's the secret is

beyond there

the sun

remember

god damn you

you never told him

you

seemed so happy

without my lying to him

this is your doing

you don't

i couldn't help it

but he knew i'd suffered too he told you

to remember

forgive me ruth

for his sake

and i'll remember

i

you

we've both made a mess of things

we must try to help each other

and in time

we'll come to know what's right

um

[Music]

so

[Music]

do

[Music]

you