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Are you OK?

How deep is it?

Well, it is a lake.

You'll have to swim back with the mattress in tow.

I can't...

I don't know how to swim.

Wait, I'll come get you.

DAYS OF HAPPINESS

Thank you.

No, here, I want more...

It's a bit weak, like...

I'm exaggerating, but...

Bolder, bigger.

Let's take it from bar 25, with pickup.

Thank you.

Cellos and double basses, you're a bit too syrupy.

It's a bit too long.

I'd like it shorter and more articulate.

The notes should be clearer.

Let's start again at bar...

49.

- Hello. - The usual table.

Thank you.

- Emma, you remember Gustave Sinclair? - Of course. In Lanaudière.

Exactly.

Your career's really taken off. Very impressive.

Thank you. That's very nice of you.

We were just discussing doing a profile in the paper.

Gustave has kindly accepted my invitation for Saturday.

- You can talk after the concert. - OK, cool.

Sivigny was there.

He didn't say anything.

- He didn't stay? - No.

He does that. Stays ten minutes, then leaves.

I don't know what to make of it.

If he wasn't interested in you, he wouldn't be there.

Just focus on what you have to do.

My residency is ending soon.

There are no offers.

They'll come.

They better.

The work will always be the key.

Is that why you wanted to have lunch?

Well, to talk.

Seeing you clean your plate, I thought maybe you just needed a good meal.

I was just hungry.

Tell me if you need more money.

Come on, Dad. I'm fine.

Excuse me. Could you turn down the music?

- It's bothering my daughter. - No, it's fine.

Just a touch.

- I'll see what I can do. - Shouldn't be too hard.

Thank you.

MAY, MOZART

Listen, do what you've always done.

It'll be fine.

She's appeared all over the province these past few months.

We're thrilled to welcome her in her native Montreal

for what is sure to be a memorable evening.

Thank you, Yves! Thanks for everything.

You're not done with us yet.

Don't say that. I'll get ideas.

Emma. Excuse me. Congrats!

I'll let you rest, and we'll talk after?

- Five minutes. - Perfect.

Just a little rapid-fire question. Does the weight of the feminine,

of the scarcity of women on major stages,

weigh heavily on you on a night like tonight?

I mean, did you feel the weight of the feminine?

Let me think on that.

Val, you would have loved the journalist's question.

- The same one as usual? - But the choice of words...

I should do your press.

- I'd be more fun than your minister. - Definitely.

It was amazing, Em.

So moving.

We're going to my place. You in?

Yes. I'll just check with Naëlle.

Naëlle? She won't want to.

- She never comes. - Give me a minute.

Philippe!

Thank you for coming. It means a lot.

I wanted to see how you'd handle your big moment.

Come see me Thursday. We should talk.

Happy?

- Are you? - I'm always a happy agent.

Yeah.

- Well done. - Thanks, Mom.

People were talking backstage earlier.

Sivigny spoke with management.

He wants to sign a second permanent for next season.

- Seriously? - Yves confirmed it.

The board is worried about his engagements abroad.

Without emerging talents, it's untenable.

I think I have a shot. Sivigny wants to talk this week.

But we have to discuss the program for your carte blanche.

- It's make or break. - Give her a break for tonight.

I was going to decide, but wanted to see the feeling after tonight.

The feeling is it has to be even better.

We should go.

It's good news.

- Bye. - Congratulations again.

Hello.

You were sexy tonight.

Please come.

Ask the sitter to stay.

Mehdi is the one sitting.

My friends are gonna think you hate them.

I have a kid, Emma. I'm on a different beat.

Why don't I come over, then?

I don't know. It's late. The kid wakes up at 5:00 these days.

Come on.

To celebrate, a little.

You trying to seduce me?

Is it working?

OK, come in an hour.

What did you think of the first movement?

It was more engaged than rehearsal, right?

Yes, it was great. I was so proud.

At rehearsal, I was like: "Fuck, no one is playing together."

- I was freaking out. - That's normal. It happens all the time.

Want to see something weird?

If you put your hand here,

and leave it there...

I might cry.

It happened at osteo.

- Weird, right? - Yeah.

I'll let you sleep.

The three hours you have left.

But if I slept here, would it be so bad?

No, but it's been, like, eight months.

- You're counting? - Forget it.

Good night.

I don't have much time. We moved the rehearsal.

You're welcome to stay.

Yes, I'd like to see how you approach the second movement.

We studied it so much in school, I had nightmares.

In my day too. Funny.

Yeah, no need to update the programs in classical.

Robert, come see me after about a technical adjustment.

It's been clear from the start you're a model student.

It's rare for someone to master the technique so quickly.

You read music with great accuracy.

But model students tend to be...

They're so fixated on perfection that it can be,

I don't know, a bit... boring.

Look, no one improves without honest criticism.

I understand. Yes, I wanted to do well.

But it was my first time conducting at the Symphony House.

I'll try to be clearer.

If you want to stir emotions, make me feel the music,

you have to feel those things too.

Otherwise, it's like an average actor

who's just pretending.

He's acting out emotions, not feeling them.

So we don't really believe in it.

It's fine, but it's no Oscar.

Yeah, an Oscar.

Get out of your head. Break the rules a little.

Okay?

Hello, everyone.

Fuck! How do I do that in one concert?

By choosing the right program.

You want me to do your Schoenberg?

- It would be audacious. - Schoenberg is challenging.

- It could alienate part of the audience. - Better than indifference.

- What are you saying? - Goddammit, Emma!

- Do I have to defend everything I say? - My god. Sorry.

You need to learn to listen.

Take advice from more experienced people.

Why don't you take the elevator?

My fucking doctor wants me to take the stairs once a day.

Fuck...

It should come from a place of emotion, not...

Schoenberg's anger isn't emotion?

What did we say when you signed with me?

You wanted to be treated like anyone else.

- Yeah. - That's what I'm doing.

If my clients don't trust me, I can't help them. You understand?

I understand. I'll think about it.

You're running out of time.

Hello?

OK, we're coming.

Yes, Emma is here.

Your grandmother is dead.

Well, my mother.

Coming?

Can I hold him?

Careful.

Emma won't know what to do with that.

Mom, where's Maurice?

Is something wrong?

Maurice is dead.

- What? - Your grandfather died a few months ago.

Complications from pneumonia.

You didn't tell me?

Your father wanted it that way.

I didn't mean to hurt you.

I just wanted to respect your father's decision.

But it's crazy! And you didn't say anything.

- It was his family, not mine. - It was my family too.

He was your father's father. You know what I mean.

I don't get you, Mom.

Anyway, work it out with your father.

But think before you judge. Because maybe...

Maybe he had his reasons.

You could have been a great pianist.

Keep going, please.

I'm too tired to drive.

I'll take you to Montreal tomorrow.

- I can take the train. - No, stay.

Easier that way.

Are you OK?

- I can't sleep. - Me neither.

Thinking about your mom?

No.

Sit.

I have no interest in thinking about the past.

Want to know why?

It only slows you down.

It makes you soft.

It keeps you from looking ahead.

What happened yesterday,

ten minutes ago or earlier...

doesn't interest me.

You shouldn't dwell on it either.

Sometimes you worry me.

I worry you?

You get caught up by emotions.

You can be mad at me, at your mother.

OK, fine.

But what good will it do?

Tell me.

You have an opportunity.

The one we've been waiting for.

We can't start slitting our wrists 'cause our parents weren't good enough.

- That's not what I'm saying. - You're too talented.

And I've seen a lot of conductors over the years.

Schoenberg.

I know, Yves. But I can do it.

What's the point of a carte blanche otherwise?

Well, I think we shouldn't take the audience for dummies.

Thank you for your trust. Bye.

Oh, madam!

It has an interesting tempo.

It's got insane drama.

We keep her memory alive.

It's important to remember that death doesn't destroy a family.

Well, it's brave.

It's weird that everyone says that.

Usually, people tackling Schoenberg have more experience.

Coming from you with your four gray hairs?

I've worked with a lot of conductors.

Yes, true. You're right.

I'm not talking you out of it.

- No? - No, it's for you.

I think it pays to be audacious.

You sound like your agent.

No, it's what I think.

- It's my decision. - Yeah, yeah.

OK, I gotta go. I'm picking Jad up earlier today.

- Love you. - Love you too!

We need to find the pain in Schoenberg's Pelleas und Melisande.

It's the rage we keep bottled up.

I think the people in the audience will feel their own rage calmed.

They may not seem that way when they arrive all dressed up,

but I think that's Schoenberg.

It speaks to the part of ourselves that scares us,

the part that's...

violent.

Today, I want to try something.

Don't take too many notes.

We'll stay in the moment and sort out details later.

Let's dive right in at 62.

You spoke beautifully, intelligently.

Thank you.

But, Emma, where is the violence in you?

Where's your rage?

Think about it.

Try taking two bows at the start.

Same thing, but less accented and more sustained.

- Yeah, it works. - No, we need to focus.

You OK?

Yeah.

You sure?

No, it's...

I think I just want you to introduce me to your son.

We're not ready yet.

"We," as in you and your son or you and your ex?

Both.

So your ex has to approve.

I don't have to explain myself.

You don't take me seriously. It's ridiculous.

That's not true.

You obviously don't think I'd be good for your son.

Honestly, when you and I started out,

I didn't think you'd really care about my son.

That's just it. You assume I don't want a family.

- No, but you are very career-driven. - So by definition, I can't be a mother.

- I didn't say... - It takes one to know one.

- I hate that outdated mindset. - You're so intense.

- I'm intense? - Change your tone.

I'm sorry.

I shouldn't have said that.

It's just that...

I want to feel like you believe in us.

Otherwise, where is this going?

- Hi - Hey!

- Sorry! I'm slammed. - No worries.

- Happy birthday. - Thank you.

My girlfriend ordered every dessert on the menu,

so there's enough for everyone.

- It's my birthday! - I can't stay long.

Mozart won't hit you with a stroke of genius overnight.

It's perfect timing.

We're just about to play Val's super awesome game!

- Ah, lucky me! - OK, is everyone ready?

What is a salad?

You're gonna have to explain, or we'll lose a player.

So, if I ask, "What is a salad?",

you have to name three characteristics of a salad,

and be specific.

And what, the winner gets a Goodfood subscription?

- You win Val's eternal respect. - You play this in government?

- Because if so, I'm worried. - OK, come on.

- Well, there's lettuce. It's cold. - No, because there's pasta salad.

- And fruit salad. - What the fuck is this game?

My 20s are going up in smoke.

With fucking lettuce games. I'm so fed up.

Don't. My date will think it's weird.

Tell her three years was enough for us. There's zero threat.

Hi! I'm Emma.

Nice to meet you. Jess. I'm a friend of Deb's.

The ex.

Thank you.

I'm doing you a favor just this once.

I know. It's nice of you.

- I'm sorry. - Sleep.

No.

It was good-ish. But it lacked balance.

I want perfect balance between horns and bassoons, please.

We'll pick up where we left off.

Better.

You're not on my beat.

I want you to listen to each other,

the strings, woodwinds and brass. I'm trying to be as clear as possible.

So we'll have to start again at 55.

With me!

How do I put this? It's weak.

This piece needs to be clear and tortured.

It can't be weak.

- What is it? - The passage around 62...

- Yeah. - You're not carrying it.

These are the first rehearsals. We're exploring.

You have to set the tone.

Play the passage.

- What? - Play the passage.

You shouldn't even have to look.

Stop!

Stop letting everything distract you. Go! Go!

No.

No. See?

It lacks weight, force. You're playing like a wimp.

You play it.

You think that's funny?

I wasn't lucky enough to have someone pay my way.

I never got piano lessons.

That enough force for you?

Hi!

- It's Emma, my friend from work! - Hi!

Thank you! You shouldn't have. You OK?

Yeah. Big day, but I'm happy to be here.

We're happy too. I think it was a good idea.

- Can I help with anything? - No, stop. You two have fun.

What do you do?

- In the orchestra? - Yeah.

I'm the conductor.

But do you play violin too?

Mommy plays the cello, sweetie. The violin is the little one.

I know...

- I play piano, but not in the orchestra. - And she's really good!

I have a xylophone. I'm a xylophone player.

Oh yeah?

Wanna play me something?

Want me to show you something?

Do you know this song?

- Au clair de la lune. - Yeah! Wanna try?

No, it's too small.

I'm telling you, guys. It's a trap!

What, never seen a door before?

Lucy! That's no way to greet our enemies...

It's because I know you can take it.

Maybe it's too much. I want too much.

No...

A father always wants the best for his daughter.

- You look tired. - Of course I'm tired. I work nonstop.

I can't remember the last time I took a vacation.

Yeah, I know. Never.

It's easy to put everyone else first.

And with your mother...

- It's not easy. - What do you mean?

She spends all her time in cooking classes.

And I don't even know if that's where she really goes.

Otherwise, it's something else. Her yoga or some other nonsense.

Well, isn't it good that she takes time for herself?

No, I think she's trying to provoke me.

- Did she say anything? - Like what?

Nothing. I was just wondering if you talked to her.

Well, sometimes. She is my mother.

Forget it.

I just have a lot on my mind these days.

Me too. What's coming is big.

- Yes, speaking of... - What?

The OM is interested in Didier.

- Your Didier? - I represent everyone at the agency.

You and Didier.

But I want you to get the contract.

We knew they'd shop around.

Just keep doing what you're doing. Anyway, you have a leg up on Didier.

You're conducting a carte blanche this weekend, not him.

That was great.

But at N, I see it more as a light rain.

It's a fall day. The rain is pattering on the leaves.

Let's try it that way. That was more like elephants stomping in the desert.

So let's start again at N.

Yes, better! Excellent.

Wake up, please.

You have to go, sorry. I didn't think we'd sleep so late.

What is it? You're acting weird.

Mehdi is coming at 10:00.

- That's in 20 minutes. - That's why I want you to hurry.

- Worst case, we cross paths. - No, I don't want that.

But you told him about us?

That's not normal.

I don't have time to reassure you right now.

Look, Mehdi and I are in therapy.

What? Since when?

Since we separated.

We thought it would make things easier.

But it's mostly for Jad.

I shouldn't be telling you now. It's not the time.

- Why didn't you tell me? - I don't have to tell you everything.

You don't see a therapist months after a separation.

There must be something else.

I told you, it's for Jad.

I'm sure you talk about other things,

like what went to shit and how to fix it.

We talk about a lot of things.

It's my business, OK? We'll talk later.

Do you still love him?

Yes. But not romantically.

More like a good friend.

I don't know what to tell you.

But I'm sure sometimes you think about being with him,

two good friends sharing a house.

I have wondered if loving each other as friends would be enough.

This explains everything. You're lying to me.

- I'm not lying to you! - Have you discussed it with him?

Yes, but I had the right.

What are you saying?

Do you even realize?

None of what you're saying makes sense.

Here I am, waiting for you like an idiot.

I look like an idiot!

I can't go into rehearsal trembling.

I can't go in like this.

I don't get it, Emma. It's like we can't talk anymore.

I can't be honest with you.

My work means everything to me.

You can't take it away from me.

I can't focus anymore. I don't like it.

There's no way I'll get the job if our relationship goes to shit.

Wait. You're free to go.

You're not bound to me.

I'm not gonna make you lose the job.

I think it's best if we end things.

No!

Give me a minute.

Why are you hanging on if it's hurting you?

Don't leave me. Not now.

- I'm not leaving you. - Please.

Seriously, I'm asking you not to leave me.

I need you.

I'm not leaving you.

JULY, SCHOENBERG

Remember?

I did this when you were little.

Do.

La.

Sol.

You had talent.

Look how far we've come.

- I know. - We have to talk.

- It was the wrong choice. - Schoenberg wasn't the problem.

You just didn't carry it.

- Sivigny will agree. - We have to expect that.

Two minutes!

Emma! There's someone I'd like you to meet.

Hélène, meet Emma.

Emma, Hélène Fauchois,

our most esteemed donor and a great friend of the orchestra.

- Since the beginning! - That's right! For nearly 40 years.

Emma, it's a pleasure to meet you.

Your carte blanche was interesting.

Difficult and demanding, yes, but interesting.

It kept us on our toes, to say the least.

Thank you. That's nice of you.

Composers like Schoenberg do have a way

of piquing our curiosity.

To be sure.

I'll explain that to my friends, who I will admit are more skeptical.

In any case, you are a charming young woman.

You should use that charm onstage.

A smile can make all the difference.

Good evening, Hélène. You look ravishing.

Oh, you!

You picked a tough one.

Damn good thing too!

- Not really, no. - I'm no expert, but I liked it.

Wanna get out of here?

I wish, but I have a lot of hands to shake.

Well, we're gonna go.

The vibe is weird. I feel like everyone votes Conservative.

Bye!

Good luck.

I'll find a way to fix it. We'll talk.

What do you mean, "fix it"?

We'll find a way. There's always a solution.

It was the wrong choice.

- How's that? - I should have gone with my gut.

So it's my fault.

No, but you can be fucking convincing.

Take some responsibility.

Where was this anger earlier?

Why didn't you tell me about Maurice?

Are you serious?

Why?

You really wanna talk about this now?

Yes, I do.

I wasn't going to the funeral. Didn't see why you would.

- So you decided for me. - That's it.

If you hated him so much, why didn't you say anything?

- You let me see him. - Fucking hell...

Your Maurice was a fucking wifebeater.

He was a fucking lunatic who hit everyone!

Should I have stopped you from having a grandfather?

No, you wouldn't have wanted that.

- I knew how to handle him. Satisfied? - Slow down, please.

You just have to keep dredging it up.

Oh, and I have to defend myself too!

It wasn't enough he beat me to a pulp.

Now you're making talk about it like a leech!

- That's right, a fucking leech! - Sorry. I'm sorry.

- Slow down, please. - At the end, he beat Rose.

Bet you didn't know that.

He'd push her to the floor and beat her too!

They banned him, banned him from the home!

You hear me?

You gonna leave me the fuck alone now?

- Yes, I'm sorry. I'm an idiot. - Yes, a fucking idiot!

What's going on?

I want to talk to Patrick.

It's 2:00 in the morning.

I know.

What's wrong? I was sleeping.

- I want to talk to you. - Now? Can't it wait until morning?

Give me a minute.

What is it about me...

that makes you not love me?

- Are you on drugs, Emma? - I don't use drugs!

I want to know. I...

I don't feel...

that you love me.

Is it because you're incapable?

I want you to say it's because you're incapable.

Calm down. There's no sense in crying. Try to be mature.

Why shouldn't I cry?

Maybe you need help.

- Help with what? - Goddammit, Emma...

For everyone's sake, get help.

Go fuck yourself!

- Do you hear me? Go fuck yourself! - I'm gonna hang up.

- Stay out of my business! - Bye!

It's something we like to do at the end of a residency.

Yes, to see what you got out of it,

and where you think we could improve.

Yes. Well, it was...

a very formative experience.

No, we'll go first.

We have so many great things to say.

And a few points that came up over the months,

mainly to help you in the future.

First off, we thought you were very rigorous and poised.

I think the musicians really appreciated your dedication and work ethic.

A lot of them mentioned the intellect you brought to rehearsals.

Personally, I thought you had excellent composure, and that's not easy.

But, and believe me, this is normal given your age,

we would encourage you to take up more space.

And maybe learn to have fun.

Get out of your head with the musicians and really communicate with them.

But like I said, we were all impressed by your determination,

your passion, your rigor...

We haven't made a decision.

I don't want to say it's over, because we don't know yet.

But you should start exploring your options.

On my end, I promise I'll talk to my contacts.

I appreciate it. Yes, I'll figure it out on my end.

But OK, thanks.

It was an amazing opportunity.

I think you should be more confident.

It's not a lack of confidence.

I mean believe that people are touched by you.

I'm touched by you.

That's not the same.

Yes, it is.

When I look in your eyes, I feel what you feel.

Too bad my back is to the audience.

But you're facing us, the musicians.

Hi! Is something wrong?

We're a little sad.

Can you watch him? His counselor wants to talk.

Sure, no problem.

- Wanna talk about it? - No.

Do you want ice cream?

- Before dinner? - Yeah, that's crazy, huh?

But...

it's no big deal.

I don't think it's a big deal either.

But we can't tell my mom.

Well, maybe we should get her one too.

She never buys her own.

She says, "Just one bite."

Then she takes a lot of bites and it's all gone.

See, all the more reason to get her one.

I feel better now too.

Are you sad too?

Sometimes.

Wanna know a secret?

Yeah.

Sometimes, grownups get sad too.

So they eat ice cream?

I have three kinds at home.

- You got ice cream! - Just for you!

Thank you!

- What kind did you get? - I got vanilla and chocolate.

- Yum! You? - Cashew.

It's so good!

OK, I scare you.

Can we talk?

Listen...

I may have led you in a direction the public wasn't ready for.

I should have said so after the concert.

You were fine. They just weren't ready.

My bad, OK?

I wanted to make you happy.

- There's something we can do. - Sign with Rimouski?

No. The guest conductor for Mahler next month...

- Kristof. - Yes, him. He has to cancel.

For the Mahler, he canceled. The OM will replace him.

OK, yeah. I don't know if...

If they were considering me,

they would have told me at the post-mortem.

I know you.

You're not doing this for me.

You're doing it for you.

You've been breathing it since you were born.

I know, I was there.

You want the job? Go see Sivigny and convince him.

I'll handle the rest.

OK, I'll leave you alone now.

Get some rest.

- Philippe! - Yes?

Do you have a minute?

Everything OK? I'm sorry. My schedule is crazy.

- I couldn't be at the... - It's fine.

If you want to talk, could we do it some other time?

I heard about Kristof, that he has to cancel.

Yes, it's too bad.

- Personal issues. - I can do it.

Mahler?

I'm the best person to conduct on such short notice.

I just spent a year with the orchestra.

Yeah, I thought about it, but we're talking about Mahler.

It's emotion, scope, breadth.

It's not... I don't think it's for you.

You don't agree? But I'll keep you in mind.

I don't agree.

OK...

I'm sure you'll have other chances to prove it.

What you say isn't true,

that I don't feel.

I feel a lot.

And I understand Mahler's movements.

They're part of me.

It hurts when I listen to them.

And I think that means something.

So I know I can do it.

You don't wanna play with your friends?

Yeah, but I wanna hang out with you. I wanna hang out with you too.

- Wanna go together? - Yeah. You'll see, they're cool.

Yoan is my best friend since daycare.

- But sometimes, we yell at each other. - Well, fights happen sometimes.

My mom tells me to breathe.

Sometimes, I breathe too fast, and I get dizzy.

Yeah, that happens to me too.

Hi!

Watch how I kick the ball.

He insisted on showing you. OK, time for bed, Jad.

Good night!

Sorry. I think it's gonna be a while.

It's fine. I can wait.

Mommy, can Emma read me this book?

OK, but you have to ask her, sweetie.

- Emma, can you read me this book? - Yeah, I'd love to!

"Watch your feet!" protests a little beetle.

He seems in a bad way.

With a little push, Nina helps him back to his feet.

"Thanks," says the beetle as he continues on his way.

Nina looks to the sky, and Milo is gone!

"Oh no! I'm going back home to ask Mémé for help."

"Mémé!" says a devastated Nina. Mémé is in the kitchen.

She takes Nina and Milo's favorite cookies out of the oven.

"Mémé! Milo has disappeared!"

Mémé takes out her encyclopedia of life catastrophes.

That's how little Arthur learns he can do great things.

He proudly brings his friends back home.

I got the Mahler.

- No. - Yes!

Are you serious?

- Are you in Montreal often? - Yes, a few times a year.

We follow our clients as much as we can.

It's part of the agency's values.

Our artists travel a lot, so we do the same.

Personally, I love it.

I have a tumultuous relationship with Paris.

Sometimes I love it. Sometimes I need space.

Yeah. It's a bit harder for me.

- My wife and I are expecting our second. - Congratulations!

Thank you. We're so happy.

Emma, you must travel a lot too?

A little. I'm getting more international offers.

It's slowly helping me get over my fear of flying.

- Really? Because... - I'm the same!

It's been 20 years,

and I still need a drink to knock myself out before takeoff.

- It's ridiculous. - So there's no hope?

Not for me. I hope you find a healthier solution.

I was there for your appearance in Gothenburg.

I loved it. It was excellent.

You had such great confidence, presence, precision.

It was a wonderful experience.

The hall had incredible acoustics.

That's what we want for our clients.

We want them to find more opportunities like that abroad:

Masterclasses, appearances as guest conductor...

Not to take anything away from your father.

I know he's done great things for young, promising musicians.

I'm sure you owe him a lot.

Yes, definitely.

For now, let's look at it as a period of reflection, for you and for us.

The first step was meeting.

Sounds good to me.

Hi!

- Did you have a good sleep? - Yeah.

There!

All done!

- What do I look like? - Like a tiger.

- What do we look like? - Bunnies.

- Oh yeah. - Yeah, I see it.

A little more?

- Thanks. - Let's see.

- Looks good. Good job! - Last time...

So, Yves, any vacations coming up?

You know how it is. We try, but...

So we're on? I can consider this settled?

Yes, no time to mess around.

You'll have the contract by Thursday. Sound good?

Bye.

Emma, I'm guessing you'll want to dive right in?

- I'm already on it. - Great.

Yves...

I'll be straight with you.

What is it?

- We'll be your last-minute stopgap. - Stopgap?

We easily could have given it to a dozen qualified conductors.

You need a woman in the spotlight.

It suits you to have Emma in your pocket.

- Can we just be honest? - You don't have to say that.

No one's playing games. This isn't the '90s anymore.

OK... Then I want to hear you say you're considering her for the job.

Otherwise, our hands are tied.

She has the talent to look elsewhere. We both know she's got offers.

Go ahead, please.

Know what that means?

A huge effort next month. Has to be a cut above.

You don't have to tell me.

Relax, Emma.

Yves knows the game. It's not personal.

I don't want him to think I'm looking elsewhere.

I'm there to apply pressure.

It won't change your relationship.

I met with the PMT Agency.

Out of courtesy, I hope.

No. They want me.

- You're bluffing. - No.

- You signed with them? - Not yet.

So you're telling me with no guarantee?

You're either fucking confident or fucking naive.

If I'm just a client to you, I can always rescind my contract.

Fucking bullshit!

Should we go?

- Did he see us? - I don't think so.

We're living our lives.

Worst case, we run into him.

I'll be discreet.

It would upset him too much.

I don't want that. Doesn't feel right.

- Hi! You're going out? - I'm giving a workshop.

- But come in! - No, I don't want to bother you.

No, come in. I have time.

You know what? Go, and we'll talk later.

Want to stay here?

- Oh, well... Can I? - Yeah, of course.

Everything OK, Mom? Did he send you?

With all this drama between you, it's not easy.

It's worse.

It affects him. And I'm the one paying for it, again.

- What do you mean, "paying for it"? - He explodes.

You know how he gets.

Sorry. I didn't mean for that to happen.

No, it's not your fault.

I just need to breathe for a night. It hasn't happened in ages.

And I'm helping your father with the agency.

They're very busy. I don't even have time for my classes.

Well, stay over tonight. I'm free.

I'll come right back after work.

OK! It's a plan.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

- Could I take a bath? - Of course.

- See you later. - Yes, see you later.

Thanks.

You're OK to sleep here?

- Will it cause more problems for you? - No, it'll be fine.

- Does he know you're here? - I'm fine.

I may have exaggerated.

I didn't mean to worry you.

You're right.

And I'm stuck in it.

No, it's true.

It's been such a hard year.

Vacations...

I don't want to lie to myself either, you know.

Are you gonna be OK?

I don't want you to have insomnia.

Patrick... It scares me when you say things like that.

I'm not leaving you.

I'm taking some space.

Hi!

- You're leaving? - Yes.

- Do you want breakfast? - No, thank you. I'm not hungry.

- OK... - I'm not used to being away from home.

- I'll get back to my life. - No problem.

- I didn't sleep well. - No?

Your fight is hurting everyone.

Can't you see?

Listen...

I just don't think I can work with him anymore. That's all.

Well, talk to each other.

Your father...

He's suffering.

Listen to Mahler, Mom. Everyone suffers.

I hate it when you do that. I don't know your composers.

You two have always had your thing,

and I'm just the fool on the outside.

I won't let you tear us apart.

- And what are you gonna do? - I want to be happy.

I'm almost 60. Am I allowed to be happy?

Did I say you couldn't be?

No more bad blood.

Bury the hatchet, please.

Is he turning you against me? What did he say last night?

I have to think of myself now.

I've put others first for too long.

You're gonna let me be happy in a happy family.

Tell him that.

Give him a chance. Are you capable of that?

It's called growing up.

I don't know what to say, Mom.

There's no point in dredging up the past.

It only causes pain.

Are you listening to yourself?

Are you there? Wake up!

She's just defending what she's got. It's primal.

You don't think I'm being selfish?

No. The opposite.

I'm just trying to understand your mom.

I feel like I'm bugging you with my problems.

No, sorry. It's not that.

I had a stressful week.

With everything you're going through, I didn't want to bring it up.

If you don't have space to talk, it doesn't work.

I'm a bit stressed out because I told my cousin.

About us?

I was happy. I wanted to talk about it.

- I'm sick of keeping it a secret. - I get it.

- She was a bit discouraging. - How so?

She's great. It's not her. It's just that...

I'm from a different milieu, that's all. We think differently.

Because I'm a woman?

She doesn't care. It's not that.

Sometimes, I forget it'll be hell with my family.

They're good people.

It's just that...

it's between a man and a woman to them.

That's all.

You'll take your bag, sweetie?

- Bye, Mom! - Have a good day.

Bye, little man.

I want to show you something nearby.

- Do you have a minute? - Yeah.

I'm not that into my condo. It's like...

Doesn't feel like my place.

You're looking in the area?

Yeah.

Well, it would bring us closer.

Yeah.

And in a few months, you and Jad could move in.

It looks huge.

I think I can afford it, especially if I get the job with the OM.

It doesn't need much work.

Sorry. I can't think about this now.

That's just it. Not now.

I'd live there alone at first, and later...

- No. - What is it?

- You're not listening to me. - No, I'm looking for solutions.

No. You're thinking about what you want.

I don't want that, not now.

I don't know what to say anymore. I'm not ready.

If you're not happy, leave.

You're always telling me to leave. I'm sick of it.

Yeah, you're sick of it. There's your answer.

No, stop!

- You want to help me? - Yes.

Let me breathe.

Give me time to move on. Give me time!

I'm sorry.

- You're right, I wasn't thinking. - No, Emma.

It's too complicated.

I'm under too much pressure, from Mehdi, my family...

I even introduced you to Jad! You spend time with him.

What, it's not enough reassurance for you?

I have a son, OK? I have to think about him.

This is intense. Can we, like, please...

Please what? You don't want me to leave you?

- I can't save you, Emma. - I'm not asking you to.

I should have trusted my gut.

I'm finding balance with Mehdi.

I can't throw it all away. I'm sorry.

Naëlle, wait! Can we talk calmly, please?

I need you two.

That's the problem, Emma.

Do you see it or not?

SEPTEMBER, MAHLER

I don't need it.

The past few weeks have been hard for me.

I guess for you too.

Yeah, definitely.

I panicked. I spoke without thinking.

It was your right to say those things.

You were right.

Thanks for saying that.

Do you resent me for not being able to give more?

You give a lot.

Jad won't stop talking about you.

He adores you.

I love him too.

Amazing! We almost forgot you were a woman.

Thank you! That's so nice.

Next time, you should do something rebellious.

- Rebellious? - You could wear color.

Like Hillary! A new color of the rainbow every night.

- With pink nail polish? - Yes!

I'll be quick. Your father is in the car.

Well, congrats!

Go celebrate. You deserve it.

Mom...

I'm here if ever you need.

You came to tell me you signed with the French.

You didn't have to drive here for that.

I'm signing this week, yeah.

I'm happy for you.

Remember to thank me when you're with the OM.

I can do it now.

Thank you.

I may not have been perfect, but I never hit you.

I know.

I never laid a hand on you.

On anyone.

I was rough, but you've never known that.

I'm sorry for what you lived through.

You can't know what it asked of me.

But I waited for the hit my whole life.

And you can't forgive me.

I need distance...

I need to distance myself from you.

Do what you want. It's not my problem anymore.

I want you to hear something.

I feel love for you.

You have a funny way of showing it.

You got what you wanted.

I love you.

OK, Emma.

I'm Penelope.

I'll quickly go over our class plan,

but first, I'd like you to introduce yourselves

and tell us why you're here.

I've been doing this for two years.

I'm used to working with adults who are afraid of the water.

It's most often that.

First, we'll try to learn to float.

You make a star shape. You pretty much just let it happen.

It's important not to arch your back.

It's normal if your ears are in the water.

I'll demonstrate.

Like that. You can try.

Great!

FOR MY CHILDREN

Great job, everyone.

We'll continue, to be sure we're capturing the nuances for the rest.

But we're really inspired today, huh?

We have great energy. I think Amy Beach is inspiring us.

So let's keep going. You're doing great.