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A couple of years ago, I had my third, and hopefully last, psychotic episode.

A state of mind where I can’t separate fantasy from reality.

Where I see intentions that don't exist...

Put things together that don’t make sense.

Conspiracy thoughts.

Are you awake?

- Now I want to dance. - You want to dance?

Dance, dance, dance...

Stress and lack of sleep put me in a frame of mind

where I found meaning in almost anything.

In every little detail...

How people looked at me, the color of their clothes,

or the way they spoke to me.

Anything could feel like a covert signal,

or coded message meant only for me.

I felt like society was divided into two fractions:

the ones who understood, and the ones who didn't.

I was sure I was being followed, and bugged.

I hid in my apartment.

I heard seagulls outside my window

and thought they were flying surveillance robots.

The flashing light from the smoke alarm signaled to me what I should do,

when to lie still or get up.

It became my reality.

An experience of the world just as real as my current one.

I have just started writing my fourth solo album.

It feels like the natural continuation of what I usually write about.

Texts about our place in the cosmos. About who we are, where we are going...

A mix of the naive and the pretentious.

During periods of heavy stress, I have noticed that my brain malfunctions.

I often get "thinkos".

Which are like thinking errors.

I am only thinking about problems, unable to solve them.

As if the "problem-solving module" in my brain is constantly on.

Don’t have time for other things, don’t have time for myself.

A vicious spiral of stress, leading to more stress,

leading to action paralysis.

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING NOW?

When I fell into a psychotic state, it happened gradually.

After a few sleepless nights, my brain felt like it was stuck in a dream.

With its own distorted logic.

As if I had woken up to a whole new reality.

Absolutely convinced that everything I thought was true, and real.

But sometimes I think...

How can I tell if it's happening again?

How can I be sure that my experiences are real?

A TIGER IN PARADISE

WITH JOSÉ GONZÁLEZ

♪ Say

♪ who are we to pretend

♪ To know things we don't

♪ And say

♪ who are we to neglect

♪ Our vast horizons

♪ To be at peace

♪ with and without

♪ Knowledge and doubt

♪ To be at peace

♪ with and without

♪ Knowledge and doubt

♪ To be at peace

♪ with and without

♪ To be at peace

♪ with and without

♪ To be at peace

♪ To be at peace

♪ To be at peace ♪

FORGET YOUR MIRACLES

FORGET YOUR GOD

Being in a psychotic state means that you have a personal delusion,

an experience of the world that is uniquely yours,

and that no one else understands.

But if you share a delusion with a large group of people...

it's no longer called psychosis.

It can be called conviction, faith, or belief.

♪ "Dude"

♪ "Dude"

♪ "Dude"

♪ "Dude"

♪ What the fuck are you doing right now

♪ Are you completely deranged, have you lost it

♪ Can't dare to think for yourself

♪ base everything on ancient sayings

♪ "Dude" ♪

Currently, about 6.5 billion people on Earth

believe in some form of God, creator or supernatural power.

85-90% of the world's population are convinced of that.

That is an overwhelming majority...

that shares a similar worldview.

So if I don't belong to that majority,

does that mean I'm wrong?

And that I still live with a skewed perception of reality?

I have decided to never become mentally ill again.

I track my vitals

and follow scientifically based routines to prevent a recurrence.

To keep my brain and body in shape.

I start every day with a large glass of water.

I fast 12 to 14 hours almost every day.

I drink smoothies with lots of fiber.

I only drink coffee in the morning and never after lunch.

I run in a forest environment several times a week.

I breathe through my nose as much as possible.

I do high-intensity interval training,

morning stretches, and walk a lot.

I take cold showers and hot baths,

which produce cold-shock and heat-shock proteins.

I follow guided meditations

and take naps if I don't get a full night's sleep.

I do breathing exercises and special thought exercises,

inspired by stoicism.

I also track my activity, breathing, body temperature and sleep,

with a ring, with a lot of sensors.

A lack of sleep makes all mental illness worse,

so I track my deep sleep and REM sleep,

and how food, nutrients, light conditions and activity

improves or impairs my sleep quality.

I also measure my heart rate variability;

variations in time between each individual heartbeat.

All to keep track of my stress level.

And to feel good. And live a long life.

That is the setting I use on my health app,

the "Long Life" setting.

I am 43 years old now,

and have lived about half of my natural lifespan.

According to a measurement called Micromorts,

which measures the risk of dying during various activities,

I have 6 Micromorts risk of dying,

just by getting out of bed.

1 Micromort means that you have a one-in-a-million chance of dying

while performing a certain activity.

Riding a bike has 1 Micromort.

Skydiving has 10 Micromorts,

per jump.

Just a little more dangerous than running a marathon, which has 7.

Swimming in the sea has 12.

And just getting out of bed as a 90-year old, has 463.

Almost as dangerous as your first day of life, as a newborn baby,

which has 460 Micromorts.

It’s kind of funny how we relate to risk.

Most of us don't really worry about the dangers we face every day...

Instead we worry about really unlikely dangers.

Like shark attacks,

which only has 0.5 Micromorts.

Or ghosts, which have zero.

No.

No.

No.

Go away!

Away!

Away, away, away!

No, no!

DOGMATIC TRIBES STUCK IN A LOCAL MINIMUM

In almost all religions there is belief in an afterlife.

It is the largest common denominator.

This idea obviously provides comfort and hope...

no matter how unrealistic it is.

But, I might be engaging in a similar type of wishful thinking

with my faith in longevity research,

which has been able to double the lifespan of mice, and other animals,

if I believe that it would have the same result in humans.

WORSE - BETTER

I think a lot about ideas that stick...

and our tendency not to change our minds even when presented with new facts.

And about getting stuck in patterns.

I try to avoid that, even though Hannele says I do it all the time

and points out that I get caught up in my special interests...

And that I am bad at small talk...

And bad at following the group...

so to speak.

I read up on...

existential threats to humanity.

Have you heard of "nuclear winter"?

Mm-hmm.

"Mhm" as in yes or "Mhm" as in no?

I mean, you have talked about it before.

- Have I? - Yes. You have.

I guess I am a bit hung up on that topic right now.

I mean, there is...

"nuclear winter"...

"synthetic pandemic"...

Meaning, someone creating a virus

that causes a pandemic.

"Natural pandemic"...

Then... "artificial intelligence..."

Depending on who you ask, some rank it high, others, low.

Mhm.

What's left?

Then there are volcanoes...

"Super volcanoes"...

Comets...

Asteroids...

But the probability of those is not that high.

The main threats are all man-made...

so we are behind the most urgent threats.

But you never know when...

all hell breaks loose.

Do you have something else to talk about?

Something else, fun like that?

Yeah...

Do you think it's swimming sweater today?

I mean swimming weather.

“Swimming sweater”...

That's when you swim in a sweater.

- It doesn't look like it. - No, not really.

♪ You say yes

♪ I say no

♪ I say yes

♪ You say no

♪ There's nothing in between

♪ A desert

♪ A wall

♪ We got stuck

♪ In a local valley

♪ Pointing at the group

♪ We avoid changing

♪ You say yes

♪ I say no

♪ I say yes

♪ You say no

♪ There's nothing in between

♪ A desert

♪ A wall

♪ You say yes

♪ I say no

♪ I say yes

♪ You say no

♪ There's nothing in between

♪ A desert

♪ A wall ♪

WHAT IS YOUR DANGEROUS IDEA?

What kind of ideas do I get stuck on?

And can't relate clearly to?

I know how easy we humans can be influenced

and that ideas that satisfy our thirst for love,

power, pleasure and consolation,

tend to spread real easy, and stick around.

And that many of us are good at justifying these ideas

if they benefit us.

I think of Laura...

What kind of world will she grow up in?

What kind of ideas will she encounter?

And how will her generation look back on us?

On our thoughts...

and our behaviour.

Little little sweetie Little little sweetie

Little

Little little little sweetie

Little little little sweetie

Oops, you ran out of cord, Laura.

You have to come closer.

Little

Little

Little

Little

You want to play some...?

- Outside. - You want to play outside?

Here you can play.

- You want to play this instrument? - No.

♪ Little little sweetie... ♪

No!

It's interesting to think about the fact that your thoughts can't be 100% clear.

That every experience, decision and opinion

is colored by our own preconceived worldview.

An example of this is the so-called Dunning-Kruger effect,

which means that the less you know about something,

the more confident you are about it.

Confident that you got it right.

And the other way around:

the more you know about something, the less confident you feel.

The more you know...

the more you realize you don't know.

I think about our evolutionary preconditions...

And all the ideas and beliefs that we carry with us...

How they affect our worldview,

and our behaviour.

How we constantly influence and mimic each other.

I'm reminded of what happened in Rwanda 1994.

Where hateful rhetoric justified widespread genocide.

The ruling regime spread ideas, mainly through radio broadcasts,

about Rwanda's minority population,

comparing them to cockroaches that must be exterminated,

and playing ethno-pop full of bloodthirsty and hateful messages.

Almost one million people were murdered over the span of three months.

Neighbors killed neighbors.

Friends killed friends.

Relatives killed relatives.

The main driving force behind the conflict was the idea

that one of the ethnic groups was superior to the other.

An idea that was first introduced by Belgian colonizers

almost 80 years earlier.

♪ And at dawn

♪ When everything changes color

♪ And we see a world disappear

♪ Da da dada...

MEME MEME MEME MEME MEME MEME MEME-MACHINE

MEMETIC EVOLUTION

IMAGINE A WORLD FULL OF BRAINS, AND FAR MORE MEMES THAT CAN POSSIBLY FIND HOMES.

WHICH MEMES ARE MORE LIKELY TO FIND A SAFE HOME AND GET PASSED ON AGAIN?

SUSAN BLACKMORE

♪ And at dawn

♪ When everything changes color

♪ And we see a world appear

♪ Full of beauty and pain

♪ Tell me why is it so

♪ Tell me where are you headed

♪ Tell me where are we from

♪ Tell me why are we

♪ Tell me where are we headed

♪ And tell me why ♪

In 1976, the term "meme" was coined to describe what is culturally copied.

Information that is passed on from one brain to another;

words, gestures, customs and ideas.

Similar to genes, memes consist of information

only it’s not encoded in DNA.

They exist in patterns of electrochemical signals in our brains.

Memes also undergo evolution via natural selection.

They are sifted, changed, developed and passed on.

The well-adapted spread the most, and become dominant.

Memes can live on for generations.

Some can start wars or justify injustice,

others can reduce suffering and vulnerability.

An infinite number of ideas, in a never-ending battle.

What role does music play in such a context?

I mean, if I have an idea that I formulate and express,

could it affect the massive flow of information in any way?

On a microscopic scale.

The interaction between many parts on a microscopic level

can form complex structures on the macroscopic level.

As in living biological systems...

like ants in a colony.

I guess the question is:

how can I be sure that what I put out will have a positive effect?

And what do I really mean by a "positive effect"?

♪ Action

♪ Reaction

♪ Stay with it

♪ Hang on

♪ Engage

♪ Disengage

♪ Deal with it

♪ Head on

♪ Head on

♪ Inhale

♪ Exhale

♪ Wave coming Undertow

♪ Speed up Go slow

♪ Put on your new boots and deal with it

♪ while marching on

♪ Head on

♪ Speak up

♪ Stand down

♪ Pick your battles Look around

♪ Reflect Update

♪ Pause your intuitions and deal with it

♪ Head on

♪ Head on

♪ Head on

♪ Head on

♪ Rent seekers

♪ Value extractors

♪ Corrupt oligarchs

♪ Power snatchers

♪ Pervert incentives

♪ Ludic loops

♪ Nepotism

♪ Tribal troops

♪ Deflate

♪ Escalate

♪ Hit the sweet spot

♪ Ignore the hate

♪ Forget your miracles

♪ Forget your god

♪ Join forces and deal with it

♪ Head on

♪ Head on

♪ Head on

♪ Head on

♪ Head on ♪

Thank you!

♪ Lately I've found myself in doubt

♪ Asking myself what it's all about

♪ What am I doing here?

♪ What's this leading to?

♪ What's the point of all without you?

♪ Well I've got promises to keep

♪ Like a cat, I know I'll land upon my feet

♪ Each time I fall ♪

I feel that I have a genuine drive to do something that matters.

THE GOOD SHOW

Something that makes a difference...

in the world.

Music is good for conveying emotions, and creating atmosphere...

But is it any good for expressing thoughts

about research theories in the social and natural sciences?

Anyway, it's not easy to predict what’s going to have a positive impact,

or a negative impact.

I'm reminded of an aid project called PlayPump.

A merry-go-round that was placed in poor African villages

and where the energy from children playing with it

would drive a water pump and provide freshwater to the village.

This project was supported by lots of influential people

who all wanted to do a good deed.

The problem was that the merry-go-round was heavy to push around

and that the children got dizzy, and quickly tired.

In several cases adults began paying children to push the merry-go-round

or the women had to take over the so called “play”

to get enough water out of the ground.

Or when my dentist told me that I needed to brush my teeth harder.

When I saw him again, one year later,

I had brushed so hard that parts of my gums were gone, forever.

Maybe this is why I think so much about what I convey,

because, even if it’s on a small scale,

the thoughts, feelings and ideas I put out

have an affect on other people.

That might also explain why it takes me such a long time to make an album

that the ambition to get it right, becomes a form of obsession.

PETER SINGER ONE WORLD

BELIEF IN BELIEF (D. DENNETT)

ESCHATOLOGY DOOMSDAY DOOMSDAY DUDE

WE ARE AS GODS AND HAVE TO (MIGHT...

LOCAL VALLEY

AIMING FOR AN UNREACHABLE...

SOCIAL SIGNALING GROUP MENTALITY / GROUP THINK

TRIBAL PSYCHOLOGY

BEING CONTENT WITH IGNORANCE AND UNCERTAINTY OR...

TO SEEK KNOWLEDGE BUT BE CONTENT WITH UNCERTAINTY

PRETENDING TO KNOW THE MYSTERIES OF THE UNIVERSE

Sometimes I feel like I've ended up in a professional role

that doesn’t suit me.

That I became a musician by accident.

I mean, I'm not the world's best poet,

and not particularly interested in promoting myself as an artist.

I simply recorded some songs that happened to become popular.

And then left a possible career as a scientist, studying biochemistry...

where I could have been part of a larger context

working on solving some important issue.

Could it be...

that I am on the wrong track...

and in the wrong place.

BE MORE PERSONAL?

WHAT KIND OF WORLD DO WE WANT TO BUILD?

LEAVE FOR OUR CHILDREN?

♪ Layer upon layer

♪ Calmly sinks to the ground

♪ You thought we were sane

♪ With scepter, cape and crown

♪ Harbored from the void

♪ The lore lives on

♪ Impeding the dissonance to resolve

♪ Prayer upon prayer

♪ Delusive causal chains

♪ Withdraw us from what's real

♪ Alleviate our pains

♪ Harbored from the void

♪ The lore lives on

♪ Evading

♪ Denying

♪ Impeding us all

♪ To move on ♪

I think I might be drinking too much water.

When you have created a habit, it’s not easy to change it.

To change yourself.

Especially when the habit has become part of your personality.

Some things are so clear when you look at them from the outside...

It's real easy to demand change from others...

but not demand change from yourself.

♪ Watch the tireless monkey mind

♪ Grasping for things in front

♪ For things from far behind

♪ Ambient sounds mixed with notions within ♪

I wonder if there's anything harder for us humans

than changing our own worldview.

To see things in a fundamentally new way.

Especially when it goes against your own tribe.

There is a pain in personal change...

in re-evaluating your deepest beliefs...

admitting your mistakes...

and your ignorance.

Personally, I think I’ve put too much faith

in that humanity learns from its mistakes.

I was hoping for that, I guess.

I may also put too much faith in technological progress

that it will solve all of our problems.

But that quickly turns into a form of utopian thinking

where there's a solution to everything.

That we can shape a perfect world

and achieve harmony.

1 EL INVENTO 2 VISIONS

3 VOID

4 HORIZONS 5 HEAD ON

6 VALLE LOCAL

10 TJOMME 11 LOF

12 EN STUND...

What kind of world is actually possible?

As a parent, you understand why so many of us lie to our children

about the reality of the world.

It's done with good intentions;

You want to protect them from what you see as frightening,

from all suffering and injustice.

But I can't help to think that these lies introduce something in us,

a way of dealing with the world,

where wishful thinking stands in the way of reality.

Because if we can't see reality, we can't see the problems,

and then can’t solve the problems.

And that will be what we leave to the next generation:

the same problems,

that they now have to solve,

but that we taught them not to see.

♪ Visions

♪ Trying to make sense of the now

♪ Trying to make sense of the past

♪ To show us how

♪ Visions

♪ Imagining the worlds that could be

♪ Shaping a mosaic of fates

♪ For all sentient beings

♪ Visions

♪ Cycles of growth and decay

♪ Cascading chains of events

♪ With no one to praise or blame

♪ Visions

♪ Avoidable suffering and pain

♪ We are patiently inching our way

♪ Toward unreachable utopias

♪ Visions

♪ Enslaved by the forces of nature

♪ Elevated by mindless replicators

♪ Challenged to steer our collective destiny

♪ Visions

♪ Look at the magic of reality

♪ While accepting with all honesty

♪ That we can't know for sure what's next

♪ No we can't know for sure what's next

♪ But that we're in this... ♪

"Stampe". You are not very good at jumping.

You know that, right?

Now I'm going to readLaban the Ghost again.

Sounds good.

MORAL MINDS

No!

Where is... There... The bag...

There...

How are you doing?

Are you okay?

How is he doing?

Good?

There.

Let's see...

Just drive.

It's fun.

♪ I saw how we were stars

♪ That landed in the sea

♪ When we took our first steps

♪ From the ocean

♪ It dawned upon me that time

♪ When we waded forward through the water

♪ I laid down on the ground

♪ And thanked the heaven

♪ That we could tread the land

♪ That we could feel the sand

♪ Now we can say

♪ That we have been on earth

♪ Yes, I was there

♪ How wonderful it was

♪ Wasn't that wonderful

♪ I was near, I was near, I was near, I was there

♪ A moment on earth

♪ A moment on earth

♪ I won against the mountains

♪ I separated the sea

♪ I was the strongest of us

♪ But still the weakest

♪ I got to hold your hand

♪ As you abandoned our dreams

♪ And then reconcile with time

♪ Now we can say...

♪ ...been in earth

♪ Say, I was there

♪ How wonderful it was

♪ Wasn't that beautiful

♪ I was near, I was near, I was near, I was there

♪ A moment on earth

♪ A moment on earth

♪ I was near, I was near, I was near, I was there

♪ A moment on earth

♪ A moment on earth ♪

It says a moment on earth there.

It says...

a moment on earth there.

It says a moment on earth there.

A moment on earth!

A moment on...