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[male narrator] Previously on "Nip/Tuck.."

He's making such a good recovery

I'm thinking about calling Dr. Mugavi.

Move up the target date for the operation on his other hand.

Julie and I have an intimacy that goes

beyond just employer and employee.

Are you having an affair with my wife?

You banged the nanny, now your guilty conscience

is making you think she's banging the nanny.

[Julia] Marlowe and I had an affair.

Why would you, with him?

He accepted Conor before he was even born

and all you wanted to do was change him!

I had an affair with Monica.

[male #1] 'Why now?'

'The age of consent for your surgery is 18'

'that was two years ago.'

I don't know, I'm..

I wasn't in college yet then

and didn't really know what I wanted to do.

Now, I'm pretty sure I wanna be a doctor.

Surgeon. Like my dad.

And, well, you know..

[male #1] 'Anything else?'

I went to an all boys prep school

and there are a lot of girls at my college.

My mom always told me that people would love me

for my big green eyes and my good heart.

But I've come to realize girls also like it

when you can unhook their bras by yourself.

[male #1] 'So why come to see me?'

'You seemed to have it all figured out.'

As soon as I scheduled my surgery

I started having nightmares.

About my parents.

They split up when I was just a baby.

I guess I never really thought about it.

I mean, I just always knew them as two separate entities

like Africa and South America.

They were these two huge land masses separated by an ocean

but one day, someone tells you that

they used to be one big continent

and you start to see the places where they..

...you know, where they broke apart.

[male #1] 'I'm not following.'

I was six months old.

What makes a couple that's been married

for almost 20 years break up

when they have a six-month-old baby?

'So you wanna know for sure why they divorced?'

I wanna feel whole and normal in every way possible, and..

...surgery or not..

...I don't think I can until I know the truth.

'You were just a baby then.'

'Even if you were the focus for your parents' issues'

'you weren't responsible.'

But it's still a part of who I am.

It's like another handicap.

Look, all I want is to be able to walk

into a room one day, hold my hand out proudly

and say, Hi, I'm Conor McNamara.

[theme song]

♪ Make me beautiful ♪

♪ Make me.. ♪

♪ A perfect soul ♪

♪ A perfect mind ♪

♪ A perfect face ♪

♪ A perfect ♪

♪ Lie ♪♪

[male #1] 'Do you have any memories at all of your parents splitting up?'

'Sometimes images or words can be recalled'

'from traumatic experiences that occurred during infancy.'

Maybe I blocked it all out.

[male #1] 'What about your siblings?'

'Did your sister or brother ever tell you what they remember?'

Matt wasn't around much.

Ann always says it was one hell of a week.

There was a hurricane or something

back when they were rare.

She always talks about that hurricane.

[man on TV] 'With winds already topping 105 miles an hour'

'it looks like Lenore is on her way'

'to becoming a Category 3 hurricane'

'before her western edge makes landfall over the Bahamas'

'sometime early tomorrow.'

And with the warm Gulf Stream waters in her path

it's very possible Lenore could well strengthen

to become a Category 4 or maybe even five

before it hits Miami head-on Thursday morning.

'Frankly, this could be one of the worst storms we've seen'

'since Hurricane Andrew, folks.'

[sighs]

Hurricane Lenore.

Sounds like an old-maid aunt

that's coming to town to kick your ass.

What about Conor's surgery?

It's not until the end of the week.

There could be a power outage in the middle of the operation.

We have extra generators. We'll be fine.

I've got it under control.

Why haven't you asked me about Monica?

'What I did? Why I did it?'

I know why you did it.

The same reason that I had an affair with Marlowe.

I want to talk about it.

I already know all the answers.

So do you.

We have to shore up the house tomorrow.

Put on the hurricane shutters.

If it's a Category 5 like they said

and it's a direct hit..

...then it's all gone with the wind anyway.

Storms blow over.

Sometimes you get lucky and you ride out the winds

and the terrible damage, and you survive.

'The sun comes out the next day'

and you forget how afraid you were of losing everything.

It's all just a bad dream.

[thunder rumbling]

Florence is all about color and light.

It's what inspired me to become an artist.

How old were you when you first went there?

Uh, I was about Annie's age.

My parents took us on a tour of Italy.

Once we got to Florence, something happened to me.

Julia, it's, it's where the Renaissance began.

It's, it's the birthplace of humanism in art.

You can't avoid it, the whole city

is infused with beauty and clarity.

I have a feeling even Conor's gonna feel it.

Oh, by the way, we need to buy him some warmer clothes.

The fall can be chilly.

Oh, I can shop for him next week.

We're gonna have to meet you there

in a month or so as soon as Conor's able to fly.

I've decided to let Sean go ahead

and operate on his other hand.

Please, just don't look at me like that.

I mean, he's his father. I can't just..

It's his dream for his son.

His dream is misguided and invasive, you know that!

I know that you're angry with me, but please just try

and see it through my eyes.

Julia, yeah, I'm angry, but mostly I'm disappointed in you.

Conor can't defend himself from his father's obsession

with creating a perfect son.

It's an illusion. It's an ego trip. It's harmful.

The whole world you people live in, it's just--

It's what?

Go on, Marlowe, say it. It's what?

[Conor cooing]

If you're not his advocate, he's got no one.

Oh, my God, I am literally torn in pieces.

'Everywhere I turn, I'm betraying someone.'

I can't bear to torture Conor

and I cannot bear to hurt Sean.

And I can't bear to lose your respect.

So what am I supposed to do?

[thunder rumbling]

Don't you think you're over-packing a little?

Conor is only going to be in recovery overnight.

He's not having the surgery, Sean.

He and Annie are coming with me.

You think I'm gonna let you take my kids away from me?

I'll fight you with everything I have.

And ruin their lives in the process?

Once again I'm the one who has to suffer?

The burden always has to be on me.

- Sean, stop it. - You screwed Marlowe!

You screwed Monica!

And it shouldn't take us having to hurting each other like that

to realize that we just don't belong together anymore.

Why him? I understand you cheating on me.

Did you have to humiliate me too?

You can forgive me for sleeping with your best friend

but you can't handle the fact that I made love to a man

who looks different, who's somehow imperfect.

I can handle imperfection, Julia.

Is that why you're so desperate to operate on your son?

80% of your day is spent making people look better

as if it was gonna somehow make them feel better as well.

Yeah, that 80% paid for this house.

God, it did more than pay for this house, Sean.

It seeped into its foundation, the furniture, us.

It's a poison.

I know that being with Marlowe was wrong

but it opened my eyes to how consumed I am with appearances.

It has eaten away at me like a cancer.

Julia..

...you just need to express your feelings

about Monica..

...about how I've neglected you.

Remember when you were so mad at me

you threw one of these at my head?

Yeah, I was angry at you then, Sean, but I'm not angry anymore.

I'm just done.

Well, I'm not!

Don't leave me, please. Please, don't leave me.

We only got back together because I was pregnant.

Conor is a gift

and this is the price we have to pay for having him.

[man on TV] 'Hurricane Lenore has mostly traveled north of Puerto Rico'

'and the Southern Caribbean, just the outer bands'

crossing those areas, and they seem to have survived unscathed

but she has just been devastating to the smaller..

Honey, did you move all the stuff away

from the windows in your room like I asked?

What's it matter, I'm not gonna be

sleeping in there anymore anyway.

Well, that's not true. I'm not leaving.

This will still be your home.

Your room can stay just the way you want it.

And the storm is growing as it heads westward for Miami

at a speed of 15 knots, and the best track

has it making a direct hit.

'The National Hurricane Forecasting Center'

forecasting that Lenore will become a Category 5

within the next hour. Winds of..

At least you get the day off from school, huh?

Is this going to be like last time?

When mom moved out, but you asked her to come back again?

I don't think so, Annie.

- Is it my fault, dad? - No.

Absolutely not.

Your mom and I..

We just grew apart.

Then it's because of Conor.

Maybe he can live with mom and I can stay here with you.

[man on TV] '...storm surge of 15 to 20 feet.'

'It's time to pack up your essentials'

'your prescriptions and get out.'

The mandatory evacuation begins at 3:00 this afternoon for..

[thunder rumbling]

[man on TV] '...highway as much as possible before 3:00.'

'It's gonna be crowded and it's simply'

'not the place you'll want to get stranded.'

[knock on door]

- Oh. - 'Hi.'

It is not getting any better out there, that's for sure.

We should probably get going. The roads are murder.

Where's your suitcase?

Um...we're not going.

Julia, there's a mandatory evacuation. Everyone has to go.

I know, and we are just not with you.

- What are you talking about? - I'm sorry.

I-I thought it was the right thing to do, and, and it's not

and I was wrong.

Oh, no, no, no. You're not wrong.

You're just under a tremendous amount of stress right now.

I mean, I can only imagine how unsettled you feel.

You just need me to take care of you.

Actually, I need to take care of myself.

And the only way that I know how to do that is to be on my own.

Julia..

I have spent my whole life

depending on others for security.

Christian, Sean.

I am never going to be strong enough

to survive this moment in my life

if I don't do it on my own.

Is it, is it Florence?

I mean, we don't have to go Florence.

No, no, no. It's not about Florence.

What is it? Is it my, my size?

Oh, God, you don't have to explain. It's always like this.

It's, it's fine for a while and then the novelty wears off.

I thought we loved each other.

I do love you.

And I love you for allowing me to be this imperfect woman.

But you're not in love with me.

What we have now is a shared love for Conor.

And that's all we have.

I'm gonna go..

I'm gonna say goodbye to Conor, then go.

Hey, buddy.

It'll pass. It's, it's just weather.

[crying]

You've already been through a lot worse

and you were a brave soldier, weren't you?

One day this will all be a distant memory.

You'll have your own life

and you won't be at the mercy of storms you don't understand.

[crying]

It's been an honor to know you.

I've had to say goodbye a lot in this job

but this one, this one's a, a bear.

I guess we're all taking this one kind of hard.

- Thunder scaring him? - Yeah.

What are you doing here?

I, uh, I came to say goodbye to Conor.

Well, you better say it and go.

The rain's starting to come down in sheets.

Yeah, well, I, uh, I also wanted to apologize to you, Sean.

I'm sorry I lied about Julia and me.

I guess I wanted her to be the one to tell you

but, uh, I shouldn't have lied.

And for what it's worth, I think you're a good man.

I envy you.

And I'm really gonna miss your son.

Goodbye, Julia.

Goodbye, Conor.

Marlowe..

...you've been a great friend to my son. I'm sure he'll miss you.

I hope you'll feel free down the line to stay in his life.

'What happened to Marlowe?'

We're still close, actually.

He took me to my first museum

gives me advice on girls, that kind of thing.

I'm close with his son, Zack too.

He's just a year younger than me.

When I was ten, I realized that I didn't have any godparents.

In the midst of the divorce

they kind of forgot to name them

so I asked if Marlowe could be my godfather.

Demanded it, actually.

They said yes.

'I'm afraid our time is up.'

No! I mean, I don't feel any better.

My operation is just two days away

and I don't feel anything is resolved.

'Conor, maybe the thing you need to do is to talk'

'to your family about how you feel, not just me.'

You mean, uh, ask them to sit down

and actually communicate together?

Yeah, that's hilarious.

I told you. My parents hate each other.

They'll never go for that.

'How do you know unless you present them'

'with the opportunity?'

My spirit guides told me that I'm not in the right place

to start a relationship right now.

Last night, I took a meditation pill.

They told me I have too much emotional baggage.

What's my baggage? Where do I begin?

Let's start with the fact that my mother flushed

my pet Gerbil, Frisky running down the toilet.

Oh, and did I also tell you that she shamed me

into having a party to celebrate my first period?

'I still get panic attacks whenever I use a tampon.'

Annie, get off the phone.

Pat, I have to go.

Julia beckons. I'll call you later.

Sweetheart, please call me mom.

I know I don't care how convenient those phone chips are

I refuse to get one installed in my ear.

There's no red meat here. You know I need my iron.

There is iron in fish, sweetheart

'and Conor needs his Omega-3'

'so that he can heal faster after his surgery.'

Oh, and, of course, his surgery is more

important than my anemia.

Just like his hands were more important than my bulimia

or my agoraphobia or--

Ann, can we please have just one dinner

without talking about your damn agoraphobia?

You refused to get off the couch for a week

because that guy dumped you, that's not agoraphobia.

It's not all about you.

Why are we sitting alone at this huge table?

Is it a metaphor for the chasm that separates our family?

No, I was just saving seats for your spirit guides.

Oh, my God.

- What is she doing here? - I'm sorry, dad.

I knew neither of you would come

if you knew the other one was gonna be here.

- You were right. - 'That's right, Sean.'

Walk out. It's what you do best.

I never left you, Annie.

The fact is your mother walked out on me, twice.

Dad, please, listen.

I know this is hard, but stay, for me.

I want you all to meet my surgeon together.

Uh, so how's your wife?

I'd rather not discuss my personal life, thank you.

Look, we stopped trying to be friends 15 years ago.

Why start again now?

Why hasn't your surgeon called me?

I practically invented this surgery.

The New England Journal of Medicine

'did no less than three articles'

on the microsurgery techniques I used to fix your other hand.

He said he wanted to discuss it with you personally.

He's very impressed with you, dad.

Impressed? He must not know him very well.

Oh, look at you. Look at you! Huh!

- Hey. - Oh.

Hey.

- Conor. - Hey.

'Seanie.'

Who are your friends?

This is Delara and Nastran.

We met a month ago in Dubai.

Can't speak a word of English, and they only love me

for my money, but they don't quit until

the super Viagra wears off, so who gives a shit?

- Pee-pee. - Pee-pee?

- Yeah. - Yeah, yeah, yeah. Go pee-pee.

Oh, my beautiful little dolly.

Well, thank God for the polygamy amendment.

You can marry them both.

Uh, I don't think I'll ever go down that road again.

Just doesn't seem right, you know?

Besides, this way I don't feel guilty when I'm cheating, huh?

You know, I think it's shameful that you can marry two women

but two gay men still can't get married in this country.

The gays should consider themselves lucky.

This is bullshit.

Okay, your son invited you here to make nice.

Now you two make nice.

Your hair looks pretty.

It's nice that you're not coloring it.

[scoffs]

Julia, your turn.

- Are you still jogging? - Yeah.

I had a synovial replacement.

Well, it shows. You look, um, good, you know, fit.

So, Conor, we're all here, we made nice.

Now what?

Um, I don't know.

We haven't all been together in the same room

since I was five.

I'm kind of just taking it all in.

Just so you all know, I had an abortion last week.

- Hey, everybody. - 'Mattie!'

- Hey! - Get over here!

- You look good. - Thanks.

I thought you were still in Lhasa

with Doctors Without Borders.

Yeah, I was, but I came home early.

Hey.

Home early.

- How come? - What? Conor didn't tell you?

I'm performing his surgery.

You need to go.

The storm's gonna hit within the hour. You heard the TV.

- It's too late, dad. - It's not too late.

Your mother and the kids went with Kimber to the shelter.

You go be with them.

They closed the roads, dad.

Dad, look, please, just stop drinking.

Oh, go to hell. Even if I wanted to, I couldn't go.

There's a leak here, you see, goddamn it?

I worked too hard to build this house. I'm not gonna let it..

The only thing I have left just blow away with the winds!

- Hey, hey, hey. - I gotta..

Look, we will weather this out together.

But we need to get into a room with no windows.

- No, I gotta get this. - No, dad, we need to go now.

No, you get out of my house! You go be with your family!

Hold them, protect them!

Don't screw it up like I did.

- Dad. - No, go, get out, leave!

- Go! - I'm not leaving you alone.

I'm never gonna leave you. I'm never gonna leave you.

So nerves on the fourth digit look slightly more radial.

Just make sure we're prepared.

And you've done the transdermal digital nerve mapping?

Yes, dad, everything seems normal.

Alright, thanks, Janet.

Sorry, just trying to help.

I won't be around once you get into surgery.

I'm on call back at the office. They paged me with an emergency.

Wait a minute. You're leaving?

How long are you planning on staying?

Looks like you're moving in.

These make it feel more like home.

- Oh. - Oh, yeah.

That's the only photo I have where we're all together.

Why didn't you ask your father to do the surgery?

I thought it would upset you.

[Sean] Don't be so upset, Matt.

You're running out on him again. On all of us.

I'm on call.

Why don't you just admit what's really going on?

You wanna leave because Conor

didn't ask you to do the surgery.

I would've been fine if your father had done the surgery.

Why wouldn't I be?

Because, mom..

...look, even though you've always wanted me to..

...I've never accepted my own handicap.

And so by asking dad to do the surgery

it would've looked like I was choosing him

over you now, and it's--

Is that what you think?

Conor's never forgiven me for the divorce.

And I understand.

If I had kept the marriage together

I could have fixed both his hands the first time.

Maybe if I was born with two perfect hands

you and dad would have stayed together.

Oh, honey.

Your father and I had our problems

long before you were born.

What happened 20 years ago, it had nothing to do with you.

This has nothing to do with you. Don't turn it into that.

I wish I would've heard you say that earlier, mom.

Mom, Conor. I'd like you to meet my boyfriend, Ahmet.

Just so you know, Ahmet's bisexual.

Does anyone have any credits for the vending machine?

I'm getting a headache from a lack of sugar.

Or maybe you should eat some protein first, honey.

'Um, why don't we go across the street'

and grab something to eat?

- You stay here and rest. - Yeah.

I have to say I admire Julia's decision

not to have any work done.

I agree. Looking real suits some women.

Hey, what did the cardiologist say?

No tater tots or any fried foams.

- Stop it. - Christian!

I'm not ready to lose my partner to heart disease.

I'm not going anywhere, pal.

Speaking of which, did you book your flight to Beijing

for the opening of the new McNamara/Troy?

The girls and I are leaving early

so we can spend a few days in the Forbidden City Spa.

You wanna join us?

- You go and enjoy. - Oh, come on!

No, you're better at these franchise openings than I am.

You had a ball in Caracas. I just had jet lag.

- Hey. - Conor, come on, grab a seat.

Dad, there's something I wanna ask you.

I spoke with Matt, and both of us would

like it if you joined him in the surgery.

I'm fine with Mattie doing the surgery, you know.

There's no ego here, if that's what you're thinking.

What he's trying to say is that he'd love to.

He just wants to make sure that you're doing

exactly what you wanna do.

Thank you, Christian, for putting words in my mouth.

You're welcome.

What does your mother think about it?

She wants it as much as we all do. It was her idea, in fact.

[Christian] 'Hmm.'

[instrumental music]

- You ready, little brother? - I think so.

Yeah, well, don't worry, I'll keep these two old men in line.

Count back to ten for me, okay, kiddo?

Ten, nine, eight

seven, six, five..

[both] Ten laser-blade.

- Are you sure, dad? - Absolutely.

[clears throat]

I'll never get used to the lack of blood.

[instrumental music]

Mattie, how much do you want me to elongate?

Two centimeters.

TGF Growth Factor.

I'm gonna close.

[instrumental music]

What?

You did an excellent job, doctor.

Conor's doing great.

Oh, thank God.

He should have full usage of his new hand

and it's gonna be far more articulate

than the one I operated on 20 years ago.

Very impressed with Matt's work.

He's a top-notch surgeon. You should be very proud.

We both should be.

Excuse me.

Are you the parents of Annie McNamara?

Yes.

Could you come with me, please?

What's going on?

Your daughter has been arrested for stealing pain killers

from the hospital pharmacy.

- Annie.. - Save it, okay?

I'll get my own lawyer, he'll get me probation again

and don't worry about the bail money. I'll pay you back.

No, you won't.

I can't believe you would say that to your own daughter.

- It's true. - Sean.

She's 30 years old, Julia.

We don't have to protect her anymore.

Yeah, like you've ever done it in the past.

What are you talking about?

You don't care about me. You never have.

That's ridiculous.

You know, I barely have any memories

of us being together as a family.

And when we were, you were always yelling.

Like that time I cut up my doll's hands to look like Conor

because I was trying to process, and you went all psycho?

I was ten. What kind of parenting was that?

I still feel awful about that.

Well, imagine that pain I feel, Julia.

That's why I had to steal the pills today

because my pain never goes away.

Sorry you were awful parents, so this is what you get.

Deal.

You're right. We were pretty awful sometimes.

I did my best, sweetheart.

I mean, I, I may not have always been right, but I did try.

And your father and I, we, we have a lot

of regrets about our parenting.

Absolutely, but we've never stopped loving you.

And whatever pain that I caused, and whatever hurt that I did

I am really, truly sorry.

Me, too. I, I can't apologize enough.

Baby. Sweetie.

Okay.

- Why are you being so mean? - Mean?

We're agreeing with you.

I know. I hate it.

[laughing]

Yeah, it's pretty funny, actually.

Christian is still chasing the skirts like he's 30.

Well, I guess it's good to see that his ego

hasn't been bruised by old age.

Yeah, he keeps saying 62 is the new 26.

What about you and your new hand?

I know you always taught me that being different has never

stopped me from doing everything I wanted in life, Marlowe, but--

Oh, you don't have to explain, Conor.

This decision was yours and nobody else's.

It's a completely different thing

if the operation is done on an infant.

Uh-oh.

- Don't slug him, dad. - Annie.

- Hi, Marlowe. - Sean, Julia.

Good to see you both.

- Uh, how's the family? - Good, good.

Sally's good, and, uh, Zack hit the game-winning shot

against Georgia last night.

Yeah, I read about it in the papers. Congrats.

- 'How you feeling, tiger?' - 'I'm good.'

Thanks for being here.

Where else would I be? I love hospitals.

I practically grew up in them.

How's my patient doing?

I, just a little weirded out by all this.

[laughing]

Uh, Janet, his vitals haven't been checked since 10:00.

Oh, lay off her, Mattie.

She was just giving me a quick tour of the new cancer wing.

I'm fine, okay?

Janet can redeem herself by taking

a photo of everyone for me.

- Yes. Let's! Come on! - Photo.

You better mark the occasion, this is probably

the last time this group will be together

until we're all at Christian's funeral.

My funeral? Why am I going first?

Just keep eating those ribs, Uncle Butterball.

Mom and dad. Come over here.

Look at you. Alright.

- Cancer wing, huh? - Yes, yes.

Good man, I'm very impressed with you.

Yeah, I'm impressed with you.

Yeah.

[instrumental music]

Okay, say cheese.

[all] Cheese!

[music continues]

[male #1] 'It looks like a normal hand.'

'It's extraordinary, Conor.'

'Your brother's clearly a gifted surgeon.'

My dad was there too, and Christian. It was..

God, it was amazing.

Just having them all there.

All for me.

And my mom was so supportive too. Even my dad.

You know, all my life I felt like I was..

...this curse on the family.

I'm the one who tore them apart.

Maybe that's why I didn't do the surgery any sooner.

I needed to wait until it could bring us all together.

I must've known it couldn't have happened any sooner than it did.

'It's a gift, Conor.'

'You chose the perfect moment to erase this so-called curse.'

'And in return, you get to move on with your life.'

'What's going on?'

At dinner one night

Christian said that once upon a time, they loved each other.

My mom and dad.

I've never known anything between them

but bitterness and anger.

I always imagined the night that I was conceived was some sort

of random, lonely hook-up

after they'd already given up completely.

I wish I felt like my parents really loved each other.

That's all.

♪ If I am alive this time next year ♪

Tampa's supposedly a disaster area. Gainesville too.

Are the buildings downtown still there?

Miami actually got the least of it.

The city's like our house.

A little beat up, but still standing.

How are people gonna clean up all this mess?

People rebuild. That's what we do.

♪ Will I be invited ♪♪ Ta-da ta-da-da♪

♪ To the sound? ♪♪ Ta ta-da ta-da ♪

I wrote down all my mother's numbers. It's on the fridge.

How long are we gonna be in New York?

A while, honey.

- Are you coming in? - No. I think it would kill me.

- Oh, baby. - Bye, daddy.

I love you, sweetie.

♪ And I'm destroying ♪♪ Ta-da da ta-da ♪

♪ Every bet I've made ♪♪ Ta-da da ta-da ♪

♪ Ta-da da da ta-da ♪

♪ And I am joining ♪♪ Ta-da da ta-da ♪

♪ All my thoughts to you ♪♪ Ta-da da ta-da ♪

See you, Jules.

♪ And I'm preparing ♪♪ Ta-da da ta-da ♪

♪ Every part for you ♪♪ Ta-da da da ta-da ♪

♪ For you ♪♪ Ta-da da da ta-da ♪

♪ Ta-da da-da ta-da ♪

♪ For you ♪♪ Ta-da da-da ta-da ♪

♪ Ta-da da-da ta-da ♪

♪ Ta-da da-da ta-da ♪

♪ Ta-da da-da ta-da ♪♪

- I love you, you know. - I love you too.

[theme song]

♪ Make me beautiful ♪

♪ Lie ♪♪