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[Byron]
Previously on Black Cake...

[Eleanor on recording] Forgive me for
keeping so many secrets.

[Benny]
The truth is,

learning that your perfect mother
went through some shit

is kind of comforting
when you spent your entire life

feeling like you could
never live up to her standards.

Eight years ago,
on Thanksgiving,

was the last time
I saw my family.

[Dale] Marc, next week,

the board will formally
announce you

as the new director.

Byron, you will be
reporting to Marc.

[Eleanor on recording]
B and B, this is how

I really became your ma.

[Delroy] Which school did
you go to in Maryville?

My aunt's a teacher
over at Stanton.

That's where I went.

[chuckles]
I didn't realize it was co-ed.

Why you lying?

What aren't you telling us,
Coventina?

Oh, stop trying to pawn
that boy off on her, Edwina!

[Elly] To Scotland!

[cups clink]

[thudding]

[people screaming]

Elly!

Elly!

[Eleanor] Coventina Brown
was now officially dead.

[Beatrice] Eleanor?

Don't you know your own name?

[Boss] You're afraid
to tell your story

because you are lying.

-You're running from something.
-I'm so sorry,

I never meant to
cause any trouble.

-I'll see myself out.
-It's gonna be okay.

[Covey]
No. Please stop.

-[thuds]
-[gasping]

[Eleanor]
You grow up thinking that when

someone does
something terrible to you,

you will react,
you will fight back.

-London wasn't exactly safe,
-[crowd shouting]

but there he was,

my past, right in front of me.

I had to ask myself,

did I want to be seen?

[crowd chanting indistinctly]

[Crowd chanting]
We will! We will! We will...

[♪ intense music playing]

♪♪

Down with the slumlords!
We are British just like you!

[♪ intense music
continues playing]

Fair housing now!

[indistinct chanting continues]

-[brakes squealing]
-[horn blares]

My God, Covey!

Don't call me that.

♪♪

I wanted to make Scotland work.

I thought I could make
a new life

for myself there, but...

But then my...
my coworkers

started to suspect I was
lying about who I was,

so I left before they could ask
any more questions.

All this time, I thought
I'd lost you.

I still can't believe
you're really here.

You have no idea
how good it feels

to be able to talk to someone
who knows the real me.

I was afraid you'd forgotten
about me.

Never.

When I read about the accident,
I tried to move on,

but,

no one else compared.

Turns out,
you're my one and only.

But,

maybe it was silly
to hold onto that.

Why would you say that?

I thought maybe
you had found someone else.

Well, have you?

Have you thought of me?

Gibbs,

thinking of you has
been my escape.

A reminder of who I was.

Who I am.

You're my one and only.

You always will be.

♪♪

I do have a favor
to ask, though.

Can we take it slow?

Of course.

As slow as you like.

[Eleanor] How could I tell Gibbs

what had happened to
me in Scotland?

I didn't want him
to think of me any differently.

And I had a feeling

that he was keeping
secrets from me too.

[projector whirring]

[Eleanor]
But we buried all of that,

and we started living again.

[♪ "Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid"
playing on screen]

-[Butch] Then you jump first.
-[Sundance] No, I said.

-[Butch] What's the matter with you?
-[Sundance] I can't swim!

[Butch] Why you crazy? The fall will
probably kill you.

[thunder rumbling]

[Covey] Remember when
we used to beg for rain

to save us from the heat?

Now it's just a nuisance.

Speaking of those days,

have you heard from Bunny?

No.

I only went back there once,

after the accident,

when I had to settle
my parents' estate.

I wish I could've met them.

Me too.

But I didn't want
to see anyone from before.

Why not?

Too many memories.

Our memories.

But I did hear that the police
arrested someone named

Short Stack or Short Shirt,

something like that.

There wasn't much evidence,
though, so,

case is still open.

[Edwina] Coventina?

I can't believe it!

Edwina!

We all thought you were dead!

We... We read about
the train crash.

You were listed as one
of the victims.

I-I know, I...

-It was a mistake.
-Where is Elly?

I thought for sure,
she would've written by now.

I'm sorry.

[♪ dramatic music playing]

[Covey panting]

-Covey?
-[gasping sobs]

Hey, just breathe.

[heavy breaths]

We can't do this.

What? Do what?

Be together.

You saw what just happened.

I stole someone's identity.

I buried Coventina
to be Eleanor,

which means that for
the rest of my life,

I'm gonna keep looking
over my shoulder,

running from people like Edwina.

[thunder rumbling]

You don't want to
live a life of secrets.

We all have secrets.

Not like mine.

I don't want to put
you in any danger.

And as long as I stay in London,
I'll never have peace.

We'll never have peace.

Then let's leave.

I have some money put away
from my parents.

We'll jump on the next
plane out of here.

Start someplace fresh.
Someplace far away.

And we'll never look back again.

And have you give up
your entire life?

I can't go back to Jamaica.

Little Man's brothers
think I'm dead.

We may not be able to go back,

but we can go forward.

Together.

♪♪

Marry me, Covey.

And I promise you'll never carry
your secrets alone.

[laughs, sniffles]
Are you crazy?

Marry me.

And I promise to buy you a ring

as soon as we get where
we're going.

[Covey sniffles]

[laughs, sniffles]

But where will we go?
[inhales sharply]

Marry me, and I'll tell you.

[♪ "My Baby Just Cares For Me"
by Nina Simone playing]

♪ My baby don't
care for shows ♪

♪ My baby don't care
for clothes ♪

♪ My baby just cares
for me... ♪

[Eleanor] Back then,
it was easier to disappear.

Back then,

you could open a new
bank account,

or get a driver's license

with just part of
your birth name.

♪ Liz Taylor is
not his style ♪

♪ And even Lana Turner's
smile... ♪

Promise me that when we have a family
of our own,

we'll start fresh.

I want this to be the only wedding night
we remember.

We'll never speak of it again.

[Eleanor] Back then,
"Gibbs" Gilbert Bennett Grant

cut all ties with his past
to be with the woman he loved.

Happy anniversary, Bert.

[Eleanor] Yes, B and B,

Gibbs, my one and only...

[both laughing]

[Eleanor]
...is your father, Bert.

Take this, son.

Let the old folks show
you how it's done.

Wait, wait, Bert,
before you start,

I want to make a toast.

Congratulations, Byron,
on getting your dream job.

You've known you wanted
to be an ocean scientist

ever since you were
six years old,

and you've overcome so
much to get here.

We're so proud of you.

And... to my Benedetta,

you have so many talents:

your music, your painting,
your cooking.

I love how passionate you are,

and I hope that
culinary school brings you

all the success and
joy that you seek.

[Eleanor] Mm-hmm.

Thanks, Dad.

[Byron] Amen.

-[glasses clink]
-[Eleanor chuckles]

Now, I hope one day in the
not-too-distant future,

we'll be toasting
to our in-laws.

Speaking of,

Byron has made some progress
in that department.

Who is she, Byron?

Who is she?

If you must know,
her name is Lynette.

And we met when I was
being interviewed

for that Trailblazers
documentary.

Her documentary.
She's a director, Ma.

And she is really making a name
for herself in that world.

Well, I can't wait
to meet her.

[Eleanor chuckles]

And... what about you, hm?

Is there a young man I should be giving a
stern talking to?

I thought you were gonna school us on
charades, old man. Hm?

All right, you want
some schooling?

[all laughing]

Ahh!
[chuckles, clears throat]

Woosh!

Pelican.

-Woooosh!
-[Benny and Byron laughing]

Parasail!

-[timer buzzing]
-That's time.

It was tidal wave!

I thought that would be easy
for you, Covey.

-[Benny] Woosh!
-[Benny and Byron laughing]

[♪ tense music playing]

[Benny and Byron continue
laughing]

Um... I'm sorry, I...

I need to lie down.

[door closes]

[Bert sighs]

I'm sorry.

It just... slipped out.

No.

I'm sorry.

[deep breath]

It's just hearing that name

brought everything
back up again.

[deep breath]

And it reminded me how much

we've kept from the kids.

Well,

maybe it's time we finally
tell them the truth.

All these secrets,

they're a burden, Eleanor.

Look what they've
done to you, hm?

It's been so long.

Hm.

Who we running from now, huh?

We've waited too long.

Now what good would it do
to tell them now?

I'm thinking about what it will
do for you, my love.

I know.

And I adore you for it.

[heavy breath]

But I can't think about myself.

Not now.

Telling them won't change
anything for them

except how they see us.

So why go through
all that pain and heartache?

What happens if they resent us?

What if they can't forgive us?

Do you really think
that would happen?

I walked away from my father,

and my mother walked
away from me.

Betrayal... is a powerful thing.

Hm.

And I'd rather
suffer in silence

than risk losing our children.

[door opens]

You okay, Ma?

Oh.

Yes, honey.

-She just needs to rest.
-[Eleanor] Mm.

[Bert chuckles]

[Bert] Hm.

[Eleanor] Hm.

[Bert humming]

I love you.

You too.

Come on.

[Eleanor] I wish now

that I had listened
to your father.

Maybe if I had
shared my secrets, Benny,

it could have brought
us closer.

Maybe

it could have kept you from running
away that Thanksgiving.

I can't believe she didn't tell
Dad about Scotland.

The saddest part is,

I think Dad would've
wanted to know.

Did he tell you any of this?

No. No.

Truest thing about...
Bert Bennett

was his character, not his name.

You wanna keep listening?

Mm, I can stay as
long as you like.

No. Thank you.

I need a break.

[Mr. Mitch]
[chuckles] I thought you might.

Call me when you're ready
to dive back in.

You know the drill.

And, uh... take as long
as you need, hm?

Do you really think Dad would've wanted
to know everything

that Mom went through?

I do.

Might've helped her in some way.

Him too.

She must have felt so alone.

How could Ma have had
Bunny in her life,

how could she have
gone through so much with her,

and let Dad be so judgmental
with me?

Hey. Look...

That, uh...

Thanksgiving was horrible.
For all of us.

But why didn't you come back?

All these years?

I reached out.

You never answered me.

What was I gonna come back to?

More judgment?

You felt judged by me?

Yes!

By all of you.

[♪ somber music playing]

What about when Dad died?

You said you'd come
to the funeral.

-[voice breaks] We waited for you, Benny...
-I wanted to be there.

-But...
-But what?

Come on, you can tell me, Ben.

You wouldn't understand.

Wait, where are you going?
I just want to talk...

Please.

Just give me some space, okay?

I gotta go.

[front door opens, shuts]

-[indistinct chatter]
-[traffic noise, cars honking]

Surprise.

What are you doing here?

Well, it's... been a while,

so I thought I'd drop by
and see if everything was okay.

It's not, actually.

My mom died.

Oh, God. Benny, that's awful.

I did come bearing some news
that might cheer you up.

I think you could use a little

good news right about now.

Couldn't you?

[♪ "Sandman" by Tameca
Jones playing]

[doorbell rings]

Hey. Welcome home.

[dog barks]

I'm sorry.
My flight was delayed.

So how bad was the latest
message from beyond?

Let's open the beers first.

So... you know that
sculpture we made,

the one we said we
would never sell?

Well, Helena called.

She has a buyer.

It's a substantial offer,

and I think we ought
to consider it.

I don't think I want that piece

displayed in someone's house,
Steve.

I mean, it's personal.

Look.

It's good money.

You could open that café
you're always going on about.

[Lynette]
Must be really hard on Benny.

Maybe harder, in some ways.

What makes you say that?

It's been eight years
since she's been back home,

and...

this is what's waiting for her?

I mean, death is disruptive

and painful,

but it's also a natural
part of life.

What Eleanor's done here isn't.

Let me be here for you.

You just tell me what you need.

[Lynette] If it were me,

I'd feel manipulated.

♪ ...can make me hope ♪

♪ I'm drowning inside... ♪

I don't think I could do that
to my children.

She did the best she could.

I know.

Of course, she did.

And she's also managed to bring you
and Benny back together,

which, let me tell you,
I never thought would happen.

♪ It's since you've
been gone ♪

I can always count
on you, can't I?

♪♪

♪ If my pillow could talk ♪

♪ It'd cry out his name ♪

♪ Oh-oh-oh, cry out ♪

♪ Cry out his name ♪

-I've missed you.
-Mm.

How'd it go at work?

You asking because
you want to know,

or because you already know?

I follow Marc on Twitter.

Why? [sighs]

I'm a masochist.

Why didn't you tell me
they promoted him over you?

'Cause it isn't that deep.

People don't always get
the jobs they want,

it's the nature of competition.

If this was a competition,
you'd have won.

This is purely about them not wanting
to put you in a position of power.

Instead, they'd rather
praise Marc fucking Bishop

and flog you as their mascot!

I'm not a mascot, Lynette.

You know how hard I've worked.

This is the only institute that
prioritizes my kind of research.

And you want me to
throw that away

by playing the race card?

I want you to get angry.

Because this is about race.

Because your mother
overcame so much

and your father was a
civil rights lawyer.

And you can't even
summon the courage

to fight what is clearly
workplace discrimination?

Don't use my parents
to shame me.

I'm sorry.
That's not what I meant.

Except, that is
what you meant.

I-It's not only what I meant.

You're an extraordinary
scientist,

and you deserve to be recognized
and respected for what you do.

But you know
they will never give you that.

And rather than do something
about it,

it seems like you're happy
to just lie down and take it.

I don't care how it seems
to you, Lynette.

No. You know what?

[♪ solemn music playing]

[deep breath]

Can you just go?

Please.

♪♪

[Benny chuckles]

[Joanie chuckles]

Ooh, we should probably
put this out.

We can't turn up to Sunday dinner
baked again. [chuckles]

Uh... or we could stay here

and interrogate orgasmic
discourse.

-Mm-mm.
-Mmm.

[Joanie chuckles]

-[Joanie] Hm.
-[Benny chuckles]

[both coughing, laughing]

Or, if you'd rather, we could skip dinner
at my mom's,

we could go down to the OC,

go see your parents?

It'd be nice to finally
meet them.

I haven't...
told them about us.

About me.

[Joanie gasps]

I mean, they're great.

Like, on the right side
of history and everything.

It's just...

They can be very critical.

I get it.

My family needed a minute
when I came out.

Yeah.

It's more complicated.

[sighs] See, my parents,

they have an expectation
of what their

first-generation American
daughter should be,

and... I will never be that.

Benny,

I have worked really hard
to live my truth,

and I don't wanna push you to do
something you're not ready to do, but,

I'm not interested
in hiding again.

No, Jo... Joanie, I wo...

I would never want
you to think that.

That is not what I'm doing.

I know my parents would
love to meet you.

[♪ "Thanks to You" by Ronnie
Walker playing]

[door bell ringing]

Hey! Look at you!

I clean up nice, right?

[Benny] Very nice.

♪ Sunrise ♪

Thank you.

♪ Sunset ♪

[Joanie chuckles]

♪ For now... ♪

[Benny]
Way to ease her in, fam.

Um...

Hi. I'm Joanie.

Hi. Byron.

Lynette. Happy Thanksgiving.

Happy Thanksgiving.

I'm Eleanor.

It's so nice to meet you.

Uh, this is my husband, Bert.

[chuckles] Welcome to our home.

I hope you're hungry.

We've been exiled
from the kitchen for hours,

so it must be nearly
time to eat.

-Oh, okay.
-[laughter]

So.

Come.

♪ ...so much happiness ♪

My son listens to the
sea for a living.

-Can you imagine?
-[laughter]

It's actually a job!

It's pretty amazing.

Almost as amazing as
these yams, Benny.

Only one more year
of culinary school, Benedetta.

Have you started applying
for apprenticeships yet?

No.

I haven't.

'Cause... [sighs]

Well, culinary school
wasn't really working out.

What does that mean?

I dropped out.

But don't worry. I,
I have a new job.

I work at a café.

And... And I love it.

And I actually get to paint
on my off hours,

and I'm learning way more than I learned
in culinary school.

Like what?

Like w-waiting tables
and working the register,

and-and-and learning
the menu, and...

And it's not just any café,
it's... it's run by Haruto Kai.

He's a very important
pastry chef.

Hm. Good for Mr. Kai.

But what does that mean
for you, Benny?

W-Well, it means I get hands-on experience
and research

for... when I open
my own concept café one day.

It's gonna have music and art,

kinda like a, um,
cultural space with dessert.

[both chuckle]

I wanna serve your
black cake, Ma.

[Bert]
You... You left school,

two schools,

on which I have wasted
thousands of dollars

so that you can be a waitress
as research?

[Benny]
School is not for me.

And there are a lot of people
in the restaurant business

without a formal education.

Those people are rich,

and you are not.

That's your problem, you're not the
one funding your failures.

Oh.

Is-Is-Is that all I am now?

A s-series of failures?

That's not how we feel.

Yeah, well,
that is how you make me feel.

When I was a little girl,

you and Dad, you told me that I could be
anything I wanted to be.

And when I told you
that I wanted to be an artist,

you constantly invalidated
my need

to explore and think
and create,

and then you force me
to go to college

because that's what you think
makes somebody successful!

How dare you?

After all we done for you!

Oh, y-y-you...
You flip-flop your schools,

your jobs, your apartment,
your hair, your men!

And now apparently women.

[softly] There it is.

Ben, this isn't about...

No, don't try to clean
up Dad's mess.

Byron, that's what he feels.

He was lying when he said,
"Bring your girlfriend.

The more the merrier! Some of our
best friends are that way."

It's such bullshit!
And what about you, Ma?

Were you lying too?

Do not talk to your
mother like that!

You know,
we tried to support you

when you dropped this
bomb on us,

just like we've been supportive of you
your entire life.

But clearly, we gave you
too much freedom,

too many choices,

because you can't even pick something
and stick with it!

[♪ dramatic music playing]

♪♪

I'm so sorry you had
to go through that.

But... things will calm down,
just... just give it a few days.

You shouldn't have pushed
me to do this.

-Pushed you?
-If you weren't so hell-bent

on meeting my family, I wouldn't have had
to go through this.

And with a fucking
audience, no less.

I didn't insist on anything,
you know that.

This isn't about me.

You've been keeping
so many secrets from them.

This is about you.

You know what, Joanie?

I get enough shit from them.

I don't need any more judgment.

So let's just end this.

♪♪

Benny?

[tires squealing]

[ambient street noise]

[phone ringing]

[distant siren wails]

[indistinct chatter, laughter]

[phone chimes]

[Eleanor on voice mail]
Benedetta, please come home.

I know you're still upset
about last Thanksgiving,

-but we can talk...
-[clicks message off]

-[♪ house music playing]
-[indistinct chatter]

[Benny sighs]

It's pretty magical, right?

Watching people discover
your art.

Wow, Mr. Dwyer. Hi.

Steve. Please.

-Are all the judges attending tonight?
-Mm-hmm.

I have to tell you,

I thought your
light installation

at the Tate Modern was...
incredible.

Were you in London
when it opened?

Uh, no. But I read about it.

Tell me about your piece.

Well... we're in the middle
of a cultural reckoning,

one that transcends
gender and race.

So I tried to capture
some of that collective rage

through utilizing
large, buttery brush strokes

and broken colors.

You're gifted, Benny.

I hope you know that.

Thank you.

Mm. Maybe one day, I'll be able
to support myself through my art

instead of waitressing.

Not maybe.

Definitely.

With a little guidance,

maybe as my apprentice,

I think you could be
quite successful.

You offer apprenticeships?

I think it's my responsibility
to make space

for up-and-coming
artists.

Would you be interested?

-Absolutely!
-[Steve chuckles]

Well, I... It...
It'd be an honor.

I'll be honored to help.

Maybe we could get a bit
of press for you.

I think your work
is exactly the sort of stuff

that...that Frieze would
love to feature.

Uh, if my mom read about me

in some fancy art review
magazine like Frieze,

she would lose her shit.

Oh, rightfully so.

[chuckles] Thank you.

[both chuckling]

[Steve] No one is doing
what Benny is doing with light,

and even some assemblage,
which is new to her.

Oh, I inspired her to
try it, and now...

-[Benny chuckles]
-...she's hooked.

[Benny and Steve laugh]

Your piece at our art
gallery showcase

was so powerful.

Are you planning to
exhibit again?

Well, Helena, we haven't approached
any other galleries as yet,

but...

you will see her in Frieze.

-She will?
-Mm-hmm.

I was speaking to the editor
just this morning.

Thank you.

You should see her
latest piece.

Who'd like a little peek?

Uh... Wait, wait.
I don't think it's ready.

[Steve]
Don't do that, Benny.

Take pride in your talent.

[Helena] He's taken a real
interest in you.

Don't squander it.

[Benny]
Tonight was perfect.

It has been a long
time since I felt,

[exhales] I don't know,
supported or encouraged.

Thank you.

The pleasure has
been all mine.

But I sense there's

more to this story.

Yeah, much more.
[exhales] You have no idea.

Then, tell me.

Well...

My parents never understood that I
wanted to make a life creating.

And it's been about a year since we had
a... major fight about it.

But your support

makes me believe that I can,

that I can make a life.

And instead of just
telling them about it, I can

show them that it's possible.

You should surround yourself

with people who have
supported you from

the very beginning, Benny.

♪♪

[Benny chuckling]

[Steve]
You are so stunningly beautiful.

-Stop! [laughs]
-[Steve] No.

I'm gonna sculpt you.

I'm gonna sculpt you,

and you'll paint the
finished sculpture.

You want to collaborate
by sculpting my body?

Yeah. Think of it
as part portrait,

part self-portrait.

The lens through
which I see you,

overlapping with the

lens through which
you see yourself.

And how do you see me?

As a goddess.

-[Benny chuckles]
-Wait there.

[Steve clears throat]

Have you ever worn your hair
any other way?

Like how?

[Steve] I don't know, um,

more feminine.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[indistinct conversation]

Okay, look. Mm.

[camera shutter clicks]

Oh!

-Let's see.
-Look at you.

-Aw! [laughs]
-Look at that! Look at your hair.

It's fantastic.

I forgot how much I love
coming to the theater.

Oh, yeah.
We should make a habit of this.

Once a month.
You, me, and a movie.

Mm. I love it.

[both chuckling]

Oh, God.

Benny?

-Benny!
-[both chuckling]

Wow, look at you.

-You cut off your locs.
-Oh, it was time for a change.

I can't believe it.

You swore you were gonna
let them grow to your toes.

Well, I think she looks
beautiful without them.

Steve Dwyer.

Joanie.

I think she looks stunning regardless
of how she wears her hair.

How's things with your family?

It's been, what, two years since
that Thanksgiving.

Did they come around?

They didn't.

I'm sure they're fine.

Well, um,
I don't wanna miss the trailers.

[chuckles] Yeah.

[Joanie] But I'm rooting for you
and your family.

Life is too short to hold on
to grudges, you know?

It's good seeing you, Benny.

Take care of yourself.

You too.

Come on.

-Let's get the hell outta here.
-Wait, what's wrong?

Have you any idea how fucking
humiliating that was?

The way you just stood there
gaping like an idiot!

You didn't even introduce me!

It's like...

It's like you were
ashamed of me.

What? No!

I was just surprised
to see her, that's all.

I have introduced you
to everyone I know.

I guess when it's about your career,
you're happy to be showboated,

but when it comes to introducing me
to your friends...

Baby, I am sorry. I did not mean to make
you feel any...

You still have feelings
for her, don't you?

I don't. I'm with you.

-I love you...
-Come on, Benny!

Just admit it.
It's so fucking obvious.

-You're still in love with her!
-I am not!

Steven, you are acting
like a fucking child!

-[Benny yelps]
-[mirror shatters]

[♪ tense music playing]

[Benny panting]

[grunts]

[heavy breaths]

[panting]

[♪ soft music playing]

[igniter clicking]

♪♪

[rice clatters]

[knocking on door]

[sighs]

You're ignoring me.

And do you blame me?

[Steve] You won't answer
my calls or...

text me back,

so I came to apologize
in person.

Apologize for what?

I need you to say it.

For losing my temper.

And for getting so... angry
at something so fucking stupid.

I disrespected you,

and you do not deserve that.

I've never got so upset before.

[sighs]

And it's only because I...

I love you.

[Benny sniffles]

And I don't wanna lose you.

I love you too.

-But you scared me.
-I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry. It will
never happen again.

I promise.

[phone ringing]

[groans]

[Steve sighs]

[phone continues ringing]

Hello?

Wait, what... What's wrong?

What?

Of course.

I'll be there, I promise.

[Steve] What's going on?

What is it?

My dad died.

I ghosted him for two years.

I thought that I was teaching
him some lesson,

setting a... setting a boundary.

Why didn't I just pick up the
phone and fucking call him?

[shaky breaths]

Because he hurt you.

We hurt each other.

And I always thought
that we would figure out a way

to move past it, eventually.
I-I didn't... I didn't know

that I was... I was running
out of time.

You can't just forget
everything that happened

and run back to your
family like...

Like you weren't hurt
by what they did.

What?

What are you saying?
That I...

That I shouldn't go
to the funeral?

They don't deserve you.

I have to be there
for my family.

No, you don't.

Look, I want to be. Like, I've already
missed so much.

I can't get that time
back with my dad,

but maybe it's time that I... that I fix
things with them.

[Steve]
You know what's gonna happen.

You'll get hurt again,

and... I'll have to pick up
all the pieces again!

You don't know that!

Yes. Yes, I do, Benny.

Because I'm the one
who shows up.

Steve, this is not about you.

Yes, it is.

Because I'm the one who
takes care of you,

pays your bills, supports
your career.

I encourage your dreams!

But you don't fucking care!

That is not true.

This is about my family.

I'm your family!

I am going home,

-and I am going to the funeral...
-You just take and you take

-and you take, don't you?
-I do not have to listen to this

You're an opportunistic,
selfish dyke!

-[thud]
-[Benny gasps]

Stop!

[♪ somber music playing]

[phone vibrating]

[phone stops vibrating]

[phone resumes vibrating]

[♪ somber music continues
playing]

[indistinct chatter]

[birds chirping]

Fuck!

[sniffles]

[♪ somber music continues
playing]

[sighs]

[water running]

[dog barks]

[Benny sighs]

Everything okay?

[Benny] By, I think you were
right about Dad.

I think he would've wanted to know
the truth about Scotland.

He could've helped
Mom through it.

And maybe without the stress

of all these secrets
weighing on her,

maybe she'd still be here.

I don't wanna end up like that.

I came to Dad's funeral,

but I never got out of my car.

I couldn't face you or Mom
with my face all...

bruised and swollen.

My ex-boyfriend, Steve,

he had hit me.

And it was bad.

It was really bad.

And I wanted to call you,

and I wanted to call
Ma or the cops,

but I was just afraid.

Like, when I lost y'all,

Steve became my everything.

So I was afraid that
if I called you,

that you wouldn't answer,

or worse,

that you would and
you'd just reject me.

Reject you?

No.

If you had called,
we would've brought you home.

I couldn't bear the thought

of disappointing
everybody again.

Listen.

I am proud of you.

You got that piece of shit,
Steve, out of your life.

I'm sorry that I couldn't be
there for you.

I should've had your back.

And I should've had your back.

You went through Dad's death,
his funeral, and Mom,

on your own.

I needed you just as much
as you needed me.

And I'm so sorry that I just
couldn't realize... I'm so...

[Benny sobs]

I know.

I know that now.

[Benny cries]

[Eleanor] B and B,

your father's funeral
was the death of two dreams,

that Bert and I would
grow old together

and that our family would,
one day,

be made whole again
by Benny's return.

I have to believe that we would've found
our way back to each other

if time had been on our side.

That is why, my sweet girl,

I hope you absolve yourself

of whatever guilt you feel
about missing the funeral.

Some promises are hard to keep.

B and B,
I'm sharing this with you

because I now know how
important it is

to lean on those you love.

Love brings the light

that will guide you
out of your darkest moments.

[♪ soft music playing]

Reuniting with your father
was a miracle.

[Bert humming]

[Bert chuckles]

♪♪

-[indistinct chatter on TV]
-[both laughing]

[Eleanor]
The life we made for ourselves,

our home, our family,

our sweet baby boy

and girl

were miracles on
top of miracles.

♪♪

Bert?

Bert?

[gasps] Oh, God.

[gasps]

[crying] Ohhh, my sweet Gibbs.

[sobbing]

I promised myself I would take
all of this with me to my grave.

I didn't want to burden you,
my miracles,

with the weight of it.

But in doing that,

I lost a piece of myself,

I think.

Even now, it feels like...
I'm drowning.

[sharp inhale and exhale]

I wish I'd had the courage

to share the truth
with you sooner

because that's what all three of my
children deserve.

You heard me correctly.

[♪ mysterious music playing]

[sharp inhale and exhale]

A secret

I couldn't bring myself
to even share with your father,

I'm now telling you.

B and B,

you have a sister.

[dramatic crescendo]

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