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"Blue Canvas of Youthful Days"

(Episode 8: Wherever I am, that's your home)

(Boyi Studio. Outdoor sketch bus)

Coffee, Teacher Liu?

Didn't sleep well last night?

No, thanks.

Xiao Wang,

Can you drive my car back later?

I'm really not feeling well.

No problem, Teacher Liu.

Car keys.

Thanks.

Hello, Mom?

I'm at your place now.

Where were you last night,

not coming home?

Didn't I tell you?

I'm with my students.

So, I came at a bad time,

causing you trouble?

I'll head back now, alright?

I'm heading back now.

Sorry, Xiao Wang, just keep an

eye on the car and students.

I have an urgent matter to deal with.

Don't dawdle over there,

get in the car quickly.

Make sure everyone checks

if their classmates or

roommates are left behind.

Mom.

My son is amazing!

Like a

cute teacher.

Mom.

Why did you suddenly come over?

You didn't want me to come,

don't want to see me?

Are you trying to

forget your brother?

No, I'm not.

Mom.

Are you taking your

prescribed medication?

Attending your regular therapy sessions?

I'm not sick!

Open the door!

Brother, you're back!

Yangyang?

Is it Yangyang?

Good boy!

Mommy missed you so much.

Mommy missed you so much.

Good boy.

- Mommy missed you. - Mom, he's not...

Let's go home, okay?

- Mommy missed you. - Mom.

He's not Yangyang!

I'll make lots of good food for you!

Xiao Tan, you should go back first.

He's not Yangyang.

Why did you send him away?

Do you think his leaving absolves you?

Why did you bring a boy who looks

like Yangyang into your home?

Yangyang...

Yangyang can rest easy now.

And you?

Do you feel at ease now?

So, this way,

you feel peaceful and at ease.

Go!

Mom.

Stop torturing yourself.

You're a sinner.

You can't forget him.

I've told you.

I haven't forgotten Yangyang.

Even if everyone else forgets,

I won't forget him.

If you hadn't called and rushed him,

how could he have been so hurried?

How could he have been so careless?

Fine.

Mom,

if you think it's all my fault,

I'll admit it. Is that enough?

Let yourself go.

It is your fault.

Who's that boy?

Why was he at your place?

Do you think

finding a boy who

looks just like Yangyang

will make up for it?

Your younger brother is dead.

And it was your fault.

You don't deserve to forgive yourself.

Fine.

Then if I die,

can we bring Yangyang back?

Go ahead.

Go die then!

Xiao.

Isn't it time to come for

your weekend painting?

Brother Wu, there's an

extra class at school today.

Why, if I draw you one picture,

you have to draw me one picture?

Copycat.

What did you call me?

Boyfriend.

What?

Big idiot.

Stop, stop, stop...

Brother Xiao! I'm sorry!

You're still just like

the first time I met you.

What was your first impression of me?

Annoying.

Arrogant.

I thought at the time,

this kid is really annoying.

Better stay far away from me.

I'm telling you,

that

wasn't the first time we met.

You stalked me? Followed me?

What?

Are you going to draw or not?

Yes, yes, I'll draw.

So, when did we first meet?

That day, the award ceremony of

the art exhibition had just ended.

My dad picked me up.

The car got stuck in traffic

on the street near Boyi.

You seemed to be running

from someone at the time.

You were hiding right next

to my family's car.

Do you remember?

Oh.

It was that time when I accidentally

painted graffiti over

someone else's work.

No wonder they came to give you trouble.

At the time,

I could see you from the car window.

But you couldn't see me.

The distance between us was about...

this close.

But now, the distance between us...

can be even closer.

Geez.

No wonder you're still a heartthrob

in your 20s, brother Xiao.

Change into a white shirt.

What?

Like in that painting.

Put on a white shirt.

Not taking photos.

Just capturing the scenery.

- Really? - Really.

Don't be so serious, okay?

Qin Xiao,

look back.

- Look at this. - That's handsome.

- Handsome, right? - You get me.

Let's take a selfie.

- Five. - Five.

- Can you shrink it? - Of course.

You threw it away again!

- Give it to me! - No!

Let me see!

Hey.

So, what made you figure it out?

Fireworks are childish.

But...

It's been a long time since

anyone has seen me like a kid.

Now move a bit to the left.

A little higher.

Even higher.

Now back to the left.

A bit to the right.

Left again.

Then right again.

Left, right, left, right!

Stop smiling.

We're in the classroom!

I just love looking at you.

Lao Liu's already caught us a few times.

What's gotten into you?

Heartbroken and now

you're hitting the grindstone?

It's fine.

At least I have a boyfriend.

Why are you like this?

Uh-oh.

What's wrong?

My dad invited the teacher

to our house this evening.

He wants to see my recent work.

Now you know about skipping class

and not drawing your homework

and what happened two days ago.

It's because Lao Liu covered for you.

Any other teacher would've

already informed the parents.

Use my paintings tonight as a cover.

Your dad...

I think my dad won't notice.

But Lao Liu definitely won't be fooled.

He's a professor at

the provincial art academy.

He's been teaching me

since middle school.

Maybe find an excuse not

to go home tonight?

Forget it.

He'll just bring the teacher

here directly.

I don't want you to go back.

Once I'm in college,

I won't return to that house.

So you're painting now just to avoid

painting in the future?

I envy you, brother Xiao.

You've already found

what you want to do.

Didn't you already say?

Do what you love,

and love who you want to love.

Honestly, I didn't fully understand

what I'd love doing in the future.

My focus was on the second part.

Many people your age don't

know what they love.

At least you've ruled out

something you don't love.

Isn't that great?

I thought you'd criticize me.

For what?

For being selfish, naive,

or showing off.

Having resources but still complaining.

Who even says that stuff?

In the studio

I used to study.

Or school friends.

They don't know a thing.

Just a bunch of kids.

Of course, you're still a kid too.

I do have something I like.

What is it?

I'll tell you once I figure it out.

Let's have a drink.

- Alright, alright. - These paintings

are much better than before.

Here.

Although the details

aren't deeply refined,

the color relationships feel harmonious.

The brushwork is bold and decisive too.

These pictures are very different

from your previous ones.

To be honest,

did you really paint these?

Teacher Zhang, I'm sorry.

As long as you don't feel like

you've wasted your time,

that's what matters.

Year after year, just idling away

you feel frustrated, and honestly,

so do I.

Look at your previous works.

They're not terrible,

but they're not truly good either.

Teacher,

could you not tell my dad?

I just wanted to show you his paintings.

I know I haven't made much

progress during this training period.

Is this friend of yours close to you?

Yeah.

His picture has a good meaning

and emotional.

He really loves painting.

If he had the same resources as you,

he'd achieve even more.

So you should think about this,

you're enjoying all these privileges,

why not put

more effort into it?

Teacher, I'm sorry.

I don't know what your plans are,

but your father has invested

so much in you.

You might feel pressured,

or rebellious,

But in this world, there is nothing

wrong with being a parent.

Sometimes their strictness,

in the end, is for your own good.

Yes,

my dad...

has sacrificed a lot for me.

So, Teacher Zhang, how's everything?

Thanks for your hard work.

It's still transitioning towards

the exam-focused approach.

Xiao Qi.

Not bad.

Alright, let's head inside and talk.

Lao Guo and the others are here too.

We're all planning to organize

a group exhibition.

We'll consult a curator to discuss

the content later.

- Sure, sure. - Let's go.

Taishan cigarettes, one pack.

20 yuan.

One pack.

Also, for the three to four guys

working under me,

calculate the cigarette money

for these past few days.

Let me tally it up.

Another 20 yuan.

That's 40 total.

40?

Alright.

Hey.

How's our old man's health?

Huh?

Hey.

I know a really skilled doctor.

Let me introduce him to you.

You should take your grandpa

for a visit.

Thanks, Brother Wu.

Why are you being so polite?

By the way, that thing we talked about,

painting for East Street...

How's the progress?

Brother Wu, didn't I

mention it over the phone last time?

I really can't spare time

before the exams.

Qin Xiao,

Brother Wu can find you work,

but he can also make sure

you don't get any work at all.

This little shop of yours,

if I wanted to shut it down,

do you think I couldn't?

I'm sorry, Brother Wu.

The school hasn't given us a break yet.

If I had time, would I say no?

Please keep looking out for our family.

You brat.

What did you see that day?

Didn't you just

tell me where to draw

the picture on the wall?

Fine.

You punk.

I'm leaving.

Brother Xiao,

I'm home.

I want to see you.

What's wrong?

I just missed you.

I missed you too.

You're in a bad mood?

You're in a bad mood too.

Let's go out on a date.

It's 3 a.m.

Isn't that okay?

The streets will be empty.

When I was a kid, I used to come

here to play in the water.

Me too.

Hey, did you ever take a picture

with that tiger statue?

Of course!

Back when my grandpa was still healthy,

he used to come here often

to fetch water.

I remember when I was in school,

during holidays like Labor Day

and National Day,

our teachers would organize us

to be volunteer tour guides.

Our school did that too.

But I guess we weren't

in the same grade.

Not too far apart.

When I was in seventh grade,

you were in your final year.

That's not much of a gap.

This area of the old town with water,

it's my favorite part of the city.

During the day,

when the sunlight hits

the water's surface,

the colors are beautiful.

Just sitting here,

makes me feel like...

whether it's people from

my neighborhood,

or people from yours,

everyone takes a walk here.

Everyone enjoys the same mist,

its smell,

its colors.

It's moments like these

that make me feel...

I am also the owner of this city.

This is my home too.

In the future,

wherever I am,

that will always be your home too.

I'll head up now.

I'm leaving.

Go ahead.

Wait.

Turn around!

Can't I at least watch my boyfriend

leave after he walks me home?

Don't do this.

Just turn around!

This is too...

What are you embarrassed about?

I'm over 20. Do you see me as

someone who lacks a girlfriend?

Okay, okay.

If you say it again...

Why did you call me here?

Enough already.

You're always drinking.

I can't help it.

If I don't drink a little,

I can't sleep at night.

That boy,

he's your younger brother?

So you were lying to me before?

That day, after the snow stopped,

I was waiting for the sun to come out.

It doesn't snow often in the south.

I thought the sunset on the snow

would be beautiful.

So I waited outside all day.

But the clouds were too thick.

They never cleared up.

In the end, I didn't see anything.

So, you waited the whole day.

I knew it was cloudy that morning.

But I still waited, hoping for the sun.

It was bound to be disappointing.

So?

So,

I shouldn't have waited

in the first place.

Do I really look that much

like your brother?

The first time I noticed you at the bar,

it was because your profile

looked just like Yangyang's.

He passed away?

Three years ago.

A car accident.

Does seeing me make you sad?

Sometimes, yes.

Could you do this with your brother?

We wouldn't hug like this.

Usually we argue and fight.

After Yangyang passed,

I couldn't accept it.

I couldn't stay in the city

where he lived.

So I bought a random plane ticket,

and ended up in this unfamiliar place.

You didn't do anything wrong.

So, Xiao Tan,

you understand, right?

I really like you.

But I can only take care of you

like an older brother would.

I can't love someone

who looks so much like my brother.

Before, it might have been okay.

But now, for our Xiao Tan,

it's just too unfair.

So,

don't come looking for me anymore.