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"Blue Canvas of Youthful Days"

(Episode 7: Love is a Hot Gun)

Are you upset because of that photo?

Is that why you haven't come

to see me for so long?

I actually have always been

able to tell clearly.

Lao Liu.

Lao Liu.

Lao Liu.

Hey, coming.

Lao Liu. It's already 11 o'clock.

The assistant doesn't know what we're drawing today.

Everyone's been waiting for you to set up the still life for a while.

They asked me to come find you.

You drank too much again, didn't you?

This kid...

You stayed here all night?

Oh.

Did you bring me back last night?

Sorry about that. It's been a long time

since I drank so much.

Thank you.

You forgot?

It's nothing.

Hurry up. The studio is waiting for you.

Oh.

By the way, Xiao Tan,

don't casually take off your

hearing aid anymore.

Close the door on your way out.

Huh...

Sorry, everyone.

Got delayed by something.

The weather's nice

and warm this weekend.

Let's go to the suburb

for a sketching trip.

Lao Liu. Drank too much again?

You're back?

Lao Liu talked with me.

He…

he knows everything.

Knows what?

He just told me, no matter what happens,

don't joke around with my future.

When he told you, you listen.

I still say the same thing.

I want to do what I love,

and love whoever I want to love.

That's why I came back this time.

Hurry up, everyone, hurry!

Got everything?

This isn't a vacation.

Check if you have your ID cards,

phones, and dorm keys.

Xiaorui, did the bus arrive?

Yes.

Alright, let's go.

Let's go.

(Boyi Studio. Outdoor sketch bus)

Is there anyone left who hasn't boarded?

Check if any of your classmates

are missing.

Why aren't you with Qin Xiao today?

Are you the Pacific Police or something?

You're really nosy.

Not sitting with your crush,

so now you're meddling with me?

Why are you so temperamental today?

Hey.

Do me a favor.

Now you think of me?

Beg me.

Fine, fine, what is it, Your Highness?

I found a part-time job for Qin Xiao.

He'll be drawing some illustrations

for a fan group.

Tell him about it

and say it was you who recommended him.

Why don't you tell him yourself?

Did you two have a falling-out?

I'm giving you a chance to take credit,

isn't that nice?

Alright, I'll just pass the favor along.

Thanks.

Thanks.

Wow, hearing that from you is rare.

Can I not talk to you nicely?

- Sun Xiaorui? - Here.

Li Yu.

You two are sharing a room.

Li Li. Turtle.

Alright.

Qin Xiao and Qi Lu.

Hey, hold on. Turtle.

Swap rooms. You'll room with Qin Xiao.

- Huh? - You'll room with Qin Xiao.

Learn how to do sketches

properly from him.

Alright. Everyone got their room cards?

Dismissed. Go get some rest early.

Mr. Liu.

Don't overthink it.

Exams are coming up.

Don't let these things

affect your tests.

You're not kids anymore.

I can only say what a teacher can say.

Thank you, Teacher Liu.

Get some rest.

Right now, the image still

lacks color relationships.

It's all black and white.

Pay attention to warm, cool, pure,

and gray tones.

In terms of these color relationships…

Pay attention to these details.

Hey, look. There's a black swan

over there.

Oh, wait. It's actually a black duck.

Hey, I have a tissue.

Here, let me wipe it for you.

It's fine.

Did you mix this shade of gray yourself?

I've never seen it before.

It's not quite blue, not quite green.

Looks just like the color

of this water today.

That's not what I meant.

Can you go back to your seat?

- Getting the cold shoulder? - Put your hand away.

Hey, that's not right.

- Look at the color of your tree. - Focus on your own work.

- No, I meant the color. - Just concentrate on your own stuff.

Let me tell you, this color...

If you keep talking,

I'll tear up your drawing.

Alright, alright.

You come here.

You mean me?

Hey.

I'm not coming.

Come here.

Why do you have to cling to some guy?

What?

Do you want everyone

to know your bad things?

Can't you be more discreet?

What are you talking about?

Mind your own business, alright?

Come, come.

Let's take a look at the issues

with this painting.

Overall…

It's quite touching,

such self-sacrifice.

But do you really think putting

a lousy painting next to hers…

will keep her from being criticized?

Nonsense. What do you know?

The teaching assistant already

mentioned it yesterday.

Exams are sometimes about luck too.

If you put a 20-point painting

next to yours…

I could boost your 85 points up to 90.

Xiaorui, take a look at the issues.

She's been struggling to keep up

in color class recently?

It's pretty obvious.

Tsk, no idea.

She's been staying up late

every night for extra classes.

Maybe suggest her to ask

Lao Liu for help.

What do you mean?

Well…

Putting a lousy painting next to hers

isn't going to solve the problem.

- What are you complaining? - There're still details to work on.

Everything is just blending together.

If there's time, all those details

need to be drawn out clearly. Look, what's this supposed to be?

What did you say to Qi Lu today?

He looked upset when he came back.

- It was nothing. - Just some basic issues.

You two have been acting strange lately.

Don't meddle.

I noticed you seemed to have annoyed

the Class A monitor today.

Don't bring it up.

No matter what I do, she ignores me.

I said something wrong today.

What did you say?

It wasn't much.

I just commented that I'd never seen

that color in her paint box before.

I even complimented her,

saying the color is perfect

for sketching.

Haa...

It seems like she's entirely

focused on exams right now.

Getting into the same school

would give you more chances.

Even if you say that...

My art is just terrible.

Even if I push myself now,

it's too late.

I really like her.

She's my first love.

Does she even acknowledge you?

That's your “first love”?

- You're the only one pleasing her. - You don't get it.

Love is about diving in headfirst.

This is what I call going all in.

That's about it.

Got it?

Oh, right.

Qi...

My uncle…

My elder uncle

started a fan club.

He someone to draw illustrations.

I recommended you,

reach out to him later.

I think we've covered everything.

If you have any issues,

you know what they are.

Don't forget to practice

once you get back.

Understood?

Understood.

It's been tough for everyone lately.

After tomorrow's sketching session,

we've planned a bonfire party

for everyone.

Take this chance to unwind.

Alright, go get some rest.

Hey.

Where's Qi Lu?

No idea.

But Li Li said he went out to paint,

not in the dorm.

Alright, everyone, listen up.

Students.

Gather around. Let me say a few words.

Today, one of our classmates

has a birthday.

Let's all guess who it is.

Come on.

- Qin Xiao! - Qin Xiao!

Happy birthday!

Let's sing, come on!

Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday!

Thanks.

I didn't know what to get you,

so I got you some art supplies.

No worries.

You...

Hey. Did you get him art supplies too?

I didn't know what to give either,

so I also got art supplies.

Let's drink!

White?

Just snagged it from Lao Liu's stash.

Take a sip, don't chicken out!

Wow, impressive!

Where's Qi Lu?

I knew you'd ask about him.

Let me tell you…

Everything you see here today

was prepared by Qi Lu alone.

For the past two days,

he's been asking us constantly,

“Is the birthday gift ready?”

“Is the birthday gift ready?”

So, where is he?

He went to pick up the cake.

He told us not to wait for him

and to go ahead and start.

But he's been gone a while.

I'll give him a call.

Hello?

Hey, Xiao.

I got thrown out halfway,

and I accidentally tripped and fell.

Where are you?

Send me your location.

I'll come find you.

You look perfectly fine to me.

Were you worried about me?

Stop messing around.

Have you been drinking?

Otherwise, would I be stupid enough to

come here without calling for a ride?

Look!

Damn.

You scared me.

The last time someone

celebrated my birthday...

was when my parents were still around.

What?

Nothing.

20 years old now. Let's make a memory.

- Go on. - No, I'm not going.

Oh, come on, just do it!

Where's my gift?

Who even asks for their own present?

Did you prepare one or not?

Close your eyes, then.

No peeking.

Open your eyes.

This is from the day at the zoo?

Took me three weeks to finish.

Don't like it?

No, I was just thinking...

When you were painting this...

Were you feeling sad?

Not at all.

Since I grew up,

this is the happiest I've been

while drawing...

Qi Lu.

This winter is so cold.

Let's date.

Hello, Mom?

Today we went to clean the

cemetery for him.

It's been four years.

Why can you stay out every day,

so happy, and never come home?

How could you just forget about him?

Mom...

I haven't forgotten him.

I'm just trying to make

life normal for us.

What is life?

You can go on living...

but your brother will always

stay frozen in that day.

Mom.

I'm taking students...

- Mom, I've already told you... - Big brother.

Oh, it's you.

Sorry, there was something going on

at home just now.

Brother...

About that night...

You can remember, right?

Why are you asking that?

Am I right?

Yeah.

Look to your left.

Isn't it pretty?

Why are you saying this?

Hmm?

Why did you say I wasn't

drunk that night?

Because you said not to take

the hearing aid off casually.

I see.

Actually, I purposely didn't

want to hear it.

Because I didn't want to know.

Mhm.

So, that night, you saw me as him,

didn't you?

Mhm.

The kisses,

the hugs...

And all the kindness you showed me.

They were all meant for him.

It's true, no one can replace him.

Xiao Tan...

Have you thought about what

you want to do in the future?

Do you want to continue studying?

You're still so young.

You're about the same age as

Qin Xiao and Qi Lu.

Anything you want to do or like doing?

You can tell me.

I can help you manage it.

If I go to school,

I'll be even more like him, won't I?

- Tan Yin. - Did you two meet in university?

Stop bringing him up.

Just because you want to be good to him,

does that mean I have to

accept everything?

Let me take you home first.

About what happened after

getting drunk that night...

It was my fault.

Pretending not to remember

was also my fault.

At the time, I just didn't

want to hurt you.

So I made a really stupid decision.

If you're angry because of this,

I completely understand.

I know my decision was awful for you.

So, if you want to scold me,

I'll take it.

I didn't reject that kiss.

- I like... - I can't accept it.

I...

I don't want to hear it.

Xiao Tan...

It's not that you're not good.

Or that I don't like you.

When I haven't sorted myself out,

I can't love

someone else.

I'm not 17 or 18 like you guys.

Today I like this person so I confess.

Tomorrow I like another

and make grand promises.

I'm much older than you.

I must be responsible for your feelings

and for you as a person.

I can take care of you.

Like a brother takes care

of a younger sibling.

But I can't

be with someone so much younger than me,

when I'm still a mess myself.

I can't use you as a distraction.

I can't accept this.

If what I said today hurt you,

consider it my fault.

If you resent me,

hate me, or find me annoying,

that's okay.

Alright?

Let's go back.

Sleep in my room tonight.

The guest room's too messy.

Drink some water and get to bed.

I still have to go back.

I have to take care of them

and return them to the studio.

Don't go. You're tired.

I can't.

A teacher took the students to sketch,

but then leave them,

how is that acceptable?

I'm telling you,

just thinking about 20 students

out of my sight,

makes me anxious.

Go on.