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Previously on
Grey's Anatomy:

I raised you to be
an extraordinary human being.

Imagine my disappointment
when I wake up

and discover that
you're no more than ordinary.

An hour ago he was proposing.
Now he's going to the morgue.

You did good.

Do you believe in heaven?

There are medical miracles.

Being worshippers
at the altar of science

we don't like to believe miracles exist.

But they do.

Things happen.

We can't explain them,
we can't control them,

but they do happen.

I know the hypothermia
is protective to her vital organs,

- but how much longer do you think...
- I've seen people last four hours.

- Yeah, but...
- No.

This is not.
This is Ellis Grey's little girI.

- This is my...
- We're all on the same side.

Her body temp is at 86 degrees.

She is not dead
until she is warm and dead.

We need to warm her up to 98.6
and start her heart.

Yes, sir.

Let's do it.
Gastric lavage with the warm fluid.

- Addison.
- I have to go, it's my Jane Doe...

Just... they're waiting for you, so...

...whatever you choose to say will...

Miracles do happen
in medicine.

They happen every day, just not always
when we need them to happen.

Meredith?

- She's freaking out.
- She's not.

- People tend to freak out.
- She's fine.

Oh, OK, Mr. I've Been
Dead Longer-Knows Everything.

I don't like to be here with you.
You don't assess a situation,

you just dive right in.

- I'm not the one who got blown up.
- You wanna do this now or later?

- Oh, I wanna do this now.
- Now?

I'll kick your ass.
I'm the one with a fresh heart.

- You're...
- The brain thing.

This is the ketamine
neurotransmitter thing?

No.

'Cause you'd think if
this were my brain doing this

the first person
I'd want to see, no offense,

would be... Doc!

What a good boy.

Hi.

- Hi, buddy.
- Meredith.

This is not your brain on drugs.

This is death.
You are dead, really freaking dead,

- dirt-nap dead, no-more-you dead.
- Whoa, whoa, whoa!

Way too harsh. Remember, we were
gonna take it easy, that was not easy.

Meredith...

...you drowned in the Elliot Bay.

- You remember that?
- Yeah, that sucked.

Who's a good boy?
Who's the best dog?

Oh, this is gonna take a while.

We don't have a while,
she's running out of time.

Who's the best dog?

- Tell me.
- Her temp's still only 86.

Still no heartbeat.

- Once she warms up...
- I want to go in.

- No.
- There's risk of brain damage.

You can't. Not for Meredith,
not for anybody. You're in no shape.

- It's not good.
- What was her initial temp?

- What is taking so long?
- Dr. Yang.

It's not good.
They're doing everything they can.

I... You should maybe, um...

...prepare yourselves.

I have to go. My Jane Doe's awake.

I'll come in with you.
Iz, you'll let us know.

Prepare ourselves? That's...

That's what we tell families
before time of death.

- She's gonna be OK.
- Sometimes you're wrong.

Uh-uh. No.

- Cristina.
- I'm not doing this.

Cristina.

She's gonna survive this.

She's gonna survive this. She's gonna
survive this. She's gonna survive this.

Meredith?

Meredith.

I don't know if you remember me.
I was your mother's scrub nurse.

- I died...
- Liver cancer.

- Bonnie?
- She remembers me. You remember.

You were a very important
patient for her.

What are you all doing here? Is this...

- It's not heaven.
- You called us here.

- I didn't, did I?
- Tell us about the water, Meredith.

You do not have authority
to speak to me. You are a bug.

- I need you to hold still.
- Go ahead.

Burke usually writes lorazepam
when she's like this.

- Let me out of this bed.
- Do it. Give it to her.

- Who do you think you are?
- She should sleep.

You don't know what you are doing.
Get me Richard.

I am Dr. Montgomery.
You need oxygen, lay back.

No, no. I'm not supposed to be here.

This wasn't in your plan today, but
we're trying to take care of your baby.

You know, I need you to calm down.

Just tell her you are gonna take me
home. You have to talk to my husband.

This... This is Dr. Karev.
He's my intern.

- What? You're not...
- You lost your ID.

- We don't know where your family is.
- I know you, you're my...

I found you on the dock
after the accident.

What dock... what accident?
What happened?

You were in the ferry.
You don't remember?

- No.
- What about your name?

My name?
I don't know anything.

- Shh.
- I should know my own name.

I'm having a baby.
I don't even know my own name.

She can't remember anything
before the accident.

It could be head trauma,
psychological from the shock...

Retrograde amnesia,
could be transient.

That's the hope. I'm worried about
her lungs, get a chest x-ray and an ABG.

OK.

Hey, you OK?
You want to be with your friends?

No, I'm... I'm on this.

- You sure?
- Yeah, just...

I don't know,
Meredith always makes me think...

I don't know,
screwed up people have a chance.

- I'm in.
- Start the warm fluids. Hold CPR.

- Anything?
- Heart is still.

- No movement, no fibrillation.
- Nothing?

- Nothing.
- Re-starting CPR.

- Stevens, get out of here.
- I just...

- Oh, my God.
- Go back outside and wait.

- With Yang and O'Malley.
- Cristina is...

She left.

In the middle of her shift?
Where did she go?

I need you to understand.
It's important, you can't screw around.

You don't have the time
and we don't have the time.

I drowned, that's all. I drowned.

Meredith, please, listen to us.

You have to listen to us. You have to.

Oh, no.

Ah!

I can't find the source
of this bleeding!

- I need gloves and surgical towels.
- It happens with Bonnie, baby.

- You just gotta ride it.
- I can save her.

- I can start an IV.
- There's no point.

Go to the OR and get me
sterilized surgical instruments. Go!

Go!

Meredith...

Are you ready to talk about this now,
or you wanna waste some more time?

It's been over an hour.

There's a... We need to prepare
for the possibility...

Look, she is young,
she is healthy, her temp's going up,

and it's gonna keep going up,
her heart will start again.

That's the only possibility
I'm prepared for.

Do you use moisturizer?
Here. Take this.

Keep it behind the bar.

What is this?
It smells like something burning.

- It's gingerbread.
- Yeah.

You're not getting this, are you?
OK, this is 99 cents.

OK? You can buy anything for 99 cents.

Oh.

It's small. It's, um, a tiny size.

It has, uh, cat-type creatures on it.
But it is a chair.

For 99 cents, you can buy furniture.
That is America, man.

That's Taiwan, man.

This ferry thing's bad.
Think you should...

I am coping.

OK?

I'm coping. So, uh, shut up
and look at all my crap!

You're in charge of my interns.
Put them to work anywhere but here.

- We can't go anywhere.
- You're concerned. I understand.

There's been a disaster,
there's work to be done. Go. Now.

All right, they need bodies
down in the clinic. Let's go down there.

Hey. Bailey's right. We can't help.
All we do is sit and go crazy.

- I can't. I need to be here.
- We're all freaked.

We just need to stay out of the way.
Got it?

Let's go.

Do you or your immediate family
have a history of cancer?

- Um, I don't know.
- Heart disease or high blood pressure?

Alcohol or drug use?
You don't know any of this.

I don't even know the sex of my baby
or if I'm married.

I mean, I... I have a ring line,
but I don't have the ring.

- So, what does that make me?
- I... I don't know.

Is it really bad?

You look... I mean, am I gonna...

No. No, no, no, no, no. It's, uh...

It's a friend.
She was in the accident, too.

- Oh, I'm sorry.
- Yeah. Well...

Things are tough all over.

I have no new information about
your loved ones. I'm sorry.

But we are facing
a serious blood shortage.

Anyone eligible to donate blood should
see me. If you're not sure, see me.

These need to go to
the blood bank for testing. Thanks.

- Who are those for?
- Meredith is AB.

She's been down a long time,
but she's strong.

- We shouldn't give up.
- I wasn't planning to, but thanks.

OK. Is this stress related,

or am I doing something specific
to piss you off?

We need to pull together.

- Not "we. "
- What?

You go on about how we need to do this,

and how strong Meredith is
like you know her.

- I do know her.
- George, Cristina and me, we know her.

We're her family, before
you and George fooled around.

He is my husband.

Like it means something.
It's a piece of paper.

You act like it gives you
history or weight.

OK, enough!

Enough. I will not be run off.
I am here. George wants me here.

If you can accept that I love him, too,

then maybe we could be,
I don't know, friends?

Or you can keep on the way you are

and be that person
that George used to know.

You don't get to decide that.

- George decides.
- I know what he'll decide.

I would think about it, you cannot
afford to lose another friend,

not when people around you keep...

Keep dropping like flies.
Is that what you were about to say?

So all of you just disappear at will?

- What happened?
- I drowned. That's it.

- Really? Then why are we here?
- Again.

I can't do this if you're
gonna keep saying you drowned.

Do you have any idea
how much that hurt?

You know, when you came into the ER,
you were so brave, so strong.

I was in shock!
And you guys doped me up.

And you know what? In retrospect,
what happened to me really sucked.

I was young and beautiful and in love.

I was getting married in four months,
and then I was dying.

And here you are,
all happy and perky to be dead.

You think I want to be here?
I swam. I fought...

...hard. The water was cold.

But that thing in the tub,
what was that?

It wasn't anything. It was...

- You see me in the tub?
- I do not see women in the bathtub.

I wish I saw...

- We know things.
- You had to think about it.

- No daughter of Ellis...
- Not an Ellis Grey thing.

- Ah, a Derek thing.
- I would never...

You would. I know crappy things
have happened to you,

but how can you be a surgeon
and have so little respect for life?

How... Oh, come on.

Who are you here for?

- What?
- I'm waiting on my wife.

Car hit her.

Can you believe that? On the ferry?

She was run over on the ferry.

They haven't said much. Hard as hell to
get any of these people to talk to you.

Yeah, I'm...

My girlfriend was there, too.

And I don't know...

- I don't know what's gonna happen.
- It's out of our hands.

- It's up to the doctors now.
- Yeah.

Yeah.

- What's her name?
- Meredith.

- I'll put her in my prayers.
- Thanks.

I need to get in and
find the source of bleeding.

It's just gonna happen again.

Where is something
to wipe up this blood?

- Fool me once...
- Oh, good, yeah.

Show up now, be a smart-ass.
We have a job to do. Where are you?

It's a waste of time.
She's gonna get it or she's not.

- Get what?
- It doesn't matter how you got here.

You're either in this thing or
you're not. There is no in-between.

And cowboy here can get pissed off,
because for all his tough talk,

he's no different from Bonnie.
He's stuck.

- And you're not?
- No.

- Please.
- Stop. I had a good life.

I helped when I could. And when
that shell went off in my hands,

I completed my task. I saved you.

Another epi?

We've been pushing epi
an hour and a half.

Check another lead.

- Asystole on three leads, sir.
- What about her temp?

- Down to 86 degrees.
- Eighty-six?

It's 86 now? It was 89.

Afterdrop phenomenon.

Water. Get me some water.

You broke her.
You called her ordinary.

You taught her time and time again
that nothing she does,

ever, is good enough.

Every good thing Meredith is
happened despite you.

She may not survive this,
and that's on you.

- That is on you.
- Derek.

- The woman is just...
- A black hole, no question.

She can't help herself,
she certainly can't fix Meredith.

- It's my fault.
- Don't.

I wasn't there for her.

- You were human.
- She was pulling away from me, and I...

...I... I just...

You think that she
went in the water on purpose?

She knows how to swim.

She's a good swimmer.

Derek, you don't know that she's...

No, you do not get to break down.
You do not get to fall apart.

Not when there's still a chance, and
there still is a chance, Derek. OK?

OK.

OK.

- What are you looking for?
- Something strong.

The next time Bonnie bleeds out,
I'm gonna dope her...

- Why are we talking about her?
- If I find the source...

- She can't be saved.
- This isn't fair.

I could save her. If you'd just
give me a chance, I could save her.

- What happened in that water?
- I swam.

- I fought.
- No, you didn't.

- And you can't stay here, Meredith.
- I don't want to!

Yeah, you do.

It's easier, but you can't,

because George's dad died,
because Izzie lost me.

And Cristina? When she was 9, she was
in a car accident with her father,

and he bled out in front of her
while they waited for an ambulance.

- And Alex...
- Stop.

They are barely breathing.
This will break them.

And none of them deserves that.

And this...

This is the big one,
so you pay attention.

Do you know what kind of miracle it is
that Derek is who he is?

Do you know how rare it is
that someone like him even exists?

He's still an optimist.

He still believes in
true love and magic and

soul mates. He's waiting for you,

and if you don't come back from this,
you will change who he is.

Oh, God.

Here we go. Move!
Code blue! Get the cart in there!

- I got it.
- You got the cart? Bring it in.

What about a cardiopulmonary bypass?

We could do it here.

Page Burke and the surgical team.
Get him here now.

You know, this is...
This is quality Sudoku, Joe.

- This is, like, $2 worth of Sudoku.
- Good to know.

There's been no change.
I thought you should know.

- No kidding.
- Well, some do come back from this.

Know what? I am not a civilian.
I know the science here.

- It's drinking time.
- Not yet.

- You have a responsibility to Meredith.
- Uh-uh.

I don't do this stuff. I mean,
you should know. I go to great lengths.

- You were there when I needed you.
- After.

After I knew you were gonna make it.

OK, I'm not proud. OK? I just...

I can't.

I can't go back there.
I can't go back there and watch her.

Listen to me.

This is about you and
the woman you call your person.

And you do know the science here.

And if she dies, and you are
sitting here when that happens,

I can't see you coming back from that.

Come and say goodbye to your friend.

I was swimming.

I was fighting.

And then I thought, just for a second...

I thought,
"What's the point?"

And I let go.

I stopped fighting.

Don't tell anybody.

OK.

What?

- Izzie.
- You can see her?

No.

But, sometimes,

we'll be in the same place
at exactly the same time.

And...
I can almost hear her voice.

It's like I'm touching her.
I like to believe she knows I'm there.

That's all you get. That's it.

Moments with the people you love.

And they'll move on.
And you'll want them to move on.

But still, Meredith,
that is all you get, moments.

- Is this really happening?
- I don't know.

This is your afterlife, not mine.

- Any change?
- No.

- George, we can't do this today.
- What did you say to my wife?

- We both said things.
- I saw her face.

She didn't say anything.
Why would you pick now to throw down?

I didn't. I...

- I can't lie about how I feel.
- Actually, you can.

You can. People lie all the time.
They hold their tongues and they wait.

If I'm not making a mistake,
you're a jerk,

and if I am, I'm gonna need you.

I need you, and you keep
taking that away.

Put on the CO2 monitor.
You page Dr. Burke?

He's in trauma doing
a cardiopulmonary bypass.

- On Meredith Grey?
- Yes, sir.

OK, push one of atropine.

- Billy, what's her temp?
- We're up to 96.

- That's good. Good. All right.
- Now we get her heart beating.

OK, draw an ABG, push one of epi,
a gram of mag and an amp of calcium.

I don't want to be here.
I want to go back.

There wasn't a lot of time.

- I'm out of time?
- Well, we're not sure, baby.

Oh, God. I can't.

I wa... Oh! I...

- I had intimacy issues.
- Yeah.

Do you know how stupid that seems now?

- Yeah, I do.
- It's not enough.

It's not enough, just a whiff of Derek

or just... or Cristina.

I need to go back. Please.

I can't, I can't...

Not gonna happen,
not today.

You're not gonna die on me, not today.

V- fib. Give me the paddles.

Clear.

- How many epis?
- Six.

- External pacer?
- Not catching.

- What's body temp?
- Ninety-eight.

- So she's warm?
- Yes.

And dead.

V- fib.

- That looks like V-fib.
- Shock her at 300.

- Charged.
- Clear.

You cannot give up.
You understand me?

Do you know how much time,
effort and energy,

and resources and drugs...

You cannot give up.

I'm turning the pacer up to max.

If there was any ounce of activity,
the pacer would've picked it up.

She's been on bypass for...

...almost an hour.

Cristina.

Oh! I can't breathe.

- This will pass.
- It won't.

It feels like...

Mom?

Go.

Go, Meredith.

Try again.

Try again!

OK, one more round of ACLS drugs.

One more.

Still V-fib. OK charge to 300.

Clear.

You shouldn't be here.

- Neither should you.
- Just keep going.

Don't be a damn...

You are...

You are anything but ordinary, Meredith.

Now run. Run.

- Is the lidocaine in?
- Yes.

OK, hold the compressions.

Come on. Come on.
Just come on. Come on. Come on.

- Sinus brady. I got a heartbeat?
- OK.

We got it.

- She's breathing on her own?
- She is.

She's been down a long time.

Do we know the brain function yet?

We don't know.

- Derek, does...
- I haven't paged him yet.

I wanted to...

I'm giving her more time.

Hey...

Did you say something?
Did you just speak?

- Oh...
- Oh, Meredith.

OK, Mer, I don't understand you,
OK? Try again.

Try again. Try again for me, OK?

What? I... I can't...

Please, please don't be...

Your brain works. OK?

So all you need to do
is form a word, please.

Ouch.

Oh, God.

Oh!

Hi.

I'm getting married to Burke.

Not that that should be
on your list of thoughts,

but just in case
you slip in the hall later or...

You are the one person
I wanted to tell.

Thank you for not dying.

Hey.

Hey.

Meredith...

My mother's dead, isn't she?

Yes.

It's OK...

I think.

I think it's OK.

So she's OK?

Yeah.

We never had that.

He never... felt that way about me.

I did.

You know, sometimes I think what a waste
it is to throw away all that history.

I'm flawed.
I'm a wreck.

But you... It wasn't a game.

Sixty days.

Go 60 days with no sex, no other women.

Sixty days cold turkey,
then, maybe, I'll believe you.

- So I only have sex with you?
- No.

No sex with anyone.

Grow up, Mark.

- Find another way to scratch the itch.
- Say I do. You'll give us a real try?

- The couple thing, no sneaking around.
- If you make it, yes.

OK. We're on.

Oh, and, Addison?
If I'm not having sex, neither are you.

Who would I possibly be having sex with?

- How you doing?
- I hurt all over.

- How's your friend?
- Well, she pulled through.

Good. That's great.

- And... nobody's...
- Claimed you? No.

- No, nothing yet.
- So we still don't know anything?

Oh, no. Not so.
We learned a lot about you today.

We know your heart is healthy.
We know your blood type is B positive.

You eat healthy, your cholesterol level
is excellent and you're not diabetic.

Your lungs don't look like smokers',

and you don't drink alcohol
on ferries in the morning.

And you're about 32 years old.

And your baby is a girI.

Really?

- A girI?
- Yeah.

And I think I am married.
I feel married.

- Yeah?
- Yeah.

See, now I know more about you
than some of my closest friends.

That's pathetic.

You held it down. Thanks.

What you did today with Meredith...
Everybody's talking.

Chief resident talk.

OK, I'm talking, to myself, but...

You're gonna give me
a run for my money.

Yeah, I am.

I let you down.

And I get it if you
don't trust me right now, but...

Please, George.

It's me.

It's us.

Please.

At the end
of a day like this,

a day when so many prayers
are answered and so many aren't...

You've been gone a long time.

I know you think you died
when the Alzheimer's started.

I know it's a relief to you.

I know.

But it doesn't feel like a relief to me.

I'm not relieved.

I miss the sound of your voice.

I miss talking to you.

I miss you.

I dyed my hair...

...for the ladies.

We take our miracles
where we find them.

We reach across the gap...

...and sometimes...

...against all odds...

...against all logic...

...we touch.

Izzie.