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- I mean, you deserve a better friend.

- It is been so long since when I left for you

to say you won't be bad over what?

To be honest, when we spoke,

that would hurt last if you weren't so sad.

I guess it's my bad.

- You know, - I may look anxious,

but I promise that I'm into

- It.

Oh, you know

- That's, my legs are shaking.

I promise that I'm

- Into it.

- This cold sweat doesn't mean anything.

Got a, I can't see strength.

- My - Head still hurts when you in second grade.

- Fuck

- Randy.

Yeah, that's ring. Sorry I was late.

My GPS Oh, don't sweat it. It's okay. 1299.

Gotcha.

I'm sorry. I, I I can't break it. It's all right.

It's all you. Thanks. Of course.

Enjoy the Hawaiian pizzas. It's my favorite.

Pineapples are really? Yeah.

Do you want to maybe come in, have some?

I can, sure. Yeah. I'm supposed to see my dad.

Yeah. Bye. See you,

- Alex.

It's Jack. You forgot another pizza again.

I had to have one of the other guys deliberate,

and it was 20 minutes late.

Guess who's paying for that motherfucking pizza?

You, I'm docking your pay.

I told you a dozen times

to check the tickets before you leave.

- Hey, - Hey.

- Are you there yet? - I'm outside.

- You can do this, Alex. - This isn't gonna work.

- Maybe he's changed - Greg. I know my dad.

- Well, you changed - Because I got sober.

He's just an angry, drunk old man.

Would you eat that fucking candy bar, right?

- I'm stressed. Okay. Would you stop?

- You're amazing artist, man.

Your first show's gonna be great. I hope

- You're right.

I've got two weeks and I don't feel ready.

Oh, my boss's husband is coming.

He's a music manager, and I told him all about you.

- You always looking up for me.

- I got you, boo.

- I really don't wanna do this.

- You know, you once told me

everyone deserves a second chance,

and I gave you one, right?

- Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

- Talk to your sponsor. You - Told to call me.

- Love you.

- You hate video calls. Ugh.

- I know. I'm just checking on you, honey. You okay?

- No. - Alex, I want you to think back a year ago.

- If it helps you stay sober, it's worth it.

You've been mad at your father your whole life.

- You need to talk to him. Tell him what he did wrong.

He may not change, but you will.

- Well, you have admit this angry.

- Oh, so

angry at myself.

But I had to let it go if I wanted to stay sober.

- Okay. So I stay sober. Then what?

- And then you're free. Alex,

your father made your life hell.

But if you can think of him as sick instead of bad,

the shift in your perception might be the miracle you need.

- I'll call you after. - I love you.

- Hello,

dad.

Dad?

Hello?

Dad. Are you home

- Number 16,

- Detective Braden Cole, Slosberg County.

Mind if I ask you a few questions?

- Yeah, sure. - You live here with your dad?

- No. I actually haven't seen him in a while.

- Why? - We weren't that close?

- Let's see. What were you doing here today?

- I don't have to tell you that,

- Alex, just tell her he was coming up to talk

- To his dad to work things out.

- Alex is sober detective almost one year.

The time apart from his dad, he needed it to heal.

- I see. - I didn't kill my father.

- I never said you. Did you think

of a reason why someone wouldn't do this to your dad?

Anger, anyone?

- No. He was, he was kind of a loner.

- Do you think of anything? Here's my number.

I might have a few more questions later on too.

I am sorry for your loss.

- I,

- How you doing?

- Just - Who would do this? Why?

- There are a lot of really sick people in this world.

- Nothing - Was stolen. It's

- Just - Doesn't make sense.

- Did he have any enemies? - No.

- He didn't have any friends either.

Why do I miss him?

- You's your dad. Alex. - I'm

- Okay that you loved him.

- I - Don't know what to do,

- Honey.

- I can't believe this house is mine.

- Yeah. Along with the mortgage and the unpaid bills.

Seems your dad was falling a little behind, honey.

- How much? - Almost $5,000.

And I'm not even done going through everything yet.

- Well sell his car. - You'd be lucky if you got

$500 for that old wreck.

But you could sell the house though.

- It's probably worth a lot.

You could pay off the mortgage and keep the rest.

- I don't wanna sell the house.

- Well, where are you gonna give five grand? I

- Don't know.

- And how are you gonna pay the mortgage delivering pizzas?

- I'll figure it out. - Well,

don't forget property taxes, insurance.

When something goes wrong, you gotta fix it. I'm

- Not selling the house. Ronnie, why

- Not?

- Cut? When else am I gonna be given a house?

- Wanna be fair? A house is a solid investment.

It can't go wrong with real estate. Yeah.

- And with both of us living here,

it'd be half the mortgage, half the bills. I do

- Not wanna live here.

- Why not? Because my dad was killed here.

- That, and it's in Sloatsburg.

I don't wanna drive 45 minutes back

and forth to work every day.

- Tj, it's a huge house.

And we live in a, a dinky little shit hole.

- I love our dinky little shit hole. And it's a niac.

- So now what? - Don't worry about me.

The house is a big deal. I get it. Do what you need to do,

- Babe.

Come here. You're gonna have to get a roommate, baby.

- No pressure. - Oh, an artist.

- Well, I'm just starting. Don't

- Be modest.

- I am. But if you can come, it would be a great chance

for us to get to know each other.

You are hands down. Our favorite applicant.

- Stop it. Hey, - Can we help you

- Hear about the room for rent?

I knocked, but nobody heard me.

- I don't have anyone else listed.

- I was driving by and I saw the sign out front.

Shane Collins.

- I'm Alex. - Well, I will let you all do your thing.

Come on. Peachy. Come

- On, baby.

- We could always share the room.

- Just - Mul it over. Bye. Y'all.

- Not shy. Is he? - He was used to it. You know what?

Are you like a, like a model or something?

- No, I'm a trainer. - Nice.

- Yeah. Do you work out?

- Oops. Struggling a little bit.

If I'm, if I'm being honest.

But I just need like a little motivation.

- I could help with that. Yeah. Yeah.

Maybe I could train you sometime. Wow.

- It's like scary, generous

offer. Thanks.

- Yeah. Can I see the room?

Yeah. Yeah.

- Sure. Sure. It's just this way.

- You don't want this room. - I like my room.

Besides, this was my parents' room and they, they,

- They what?

- They passed away - And

you don't wanna sleep in their room.

Yeah. That makes sense. Did they pass away together?

- No. My mom died when I was a kid. Cancer.

And my dad, he had a heart attack.

And he died in his sleep though.

- At home? - No. No. Bear Mountain.

He loved it out there.

- It must've been quite a shock.

- Yeah. - This is beautiful.

It must be a nice time in the woods is your backyard.

- Yeah. Yeah. Totally.

Yeah. I like it. It is nice.

- Is this the bathroom? Yeah. Feel free

- To check it out.

- Do you believe in cosmic energy?

- I don't. I don't know. What is that?

- I don't know. - Well, when you walk into a room

and someone's sad or angry, you can tell, right?

- Can you tell? - I can tell.

- Well, that's cosmic energy.

This room has a, a dark history.

Maybe if I move in, we can

figure it out together.

- Or you could just tell him. Alex,

- I was just about to Gracie - Tell me what

- My, my dad, he

was a raging alcoholic.

Like a mean a mean drunk.

And I, I used to drink too, mostly to get back at him,

but I don't anymore.

- You guys must have had some fights.

- Yeah. - Well, that doesn't bother me,

but I appreciate your honesty.

- Sweet. - So I would

pay rent in cash, if that's okay.

My clients pay in cash. And I don't really trust banks, so

- Cash works for me.

- Well, it was really nice meeting you, Shane.

We will let you know by the end of the week. Yeah.

- Listen, Alex, I like you

and I, I like the place when it's right.

I don't really hesitate.

So I kind of want to know now if that's okay.

- Alex, can I please talk with you

for one moment in the kitchen? Yeah.

- Just, just one second.

- I understand. Well, have a nice day, both of you.

No thanks.

- What, what is your - Shane?

- Alex? - Yeah.

- It's yours. - Yeah.

- Yeah. - Cool.

Oh, last thing I, I'll need a place

to set up my workout area.

Not for clients or anything. Just for you and me.

- Lacrosse work. - That's perfect.

- Mind if I ask if you do any drugs or drink?

- I don't drink or do drugs. So we good?

- Yeah. - We are also asking

for first month's last and security.

- Of course.

This will be first month, last month.

And security.

Ah, I'll see you this weekend. Yeah.

- Oh, one second.

These will work on all the doors.

- Thanks.

I will see you around Gracie.

- Bye.

- Freddy was nice. It's always

- Shane. I don't know why you

- Don't like him.

- Doesn't trust banks.

And who carries around that much? Cash

- Overreacting.

- Really? Hmm.

Because I searched the internet for Mr Pays and cash.

And guess what? I found? What? Nothing. No social media.

Not even a stupid shirtless pick.

And every trainer has that.

- I'm a singer songwriter and I don't have social media.

Every singer's got that.

- Yeah. And a career. But you don't, Hey. Oh, keep.

- Absolutely not. - Just take my word for it. Okay.

He's hiding something.

- How do you want? - Okay, fine.

Whatever. Just do not hook up with him.

- Okay. Like, I have a chance. - You beat yourself up too

- Much.

Maybe if I start training with Shane,

I'll feel more confident.

- Just remember, Alex, you don't need this guy.

You creep me out.

- I feel safe with a guy like Shane around.

- You know, you could probably get more than

500 for this thing.

Is that

I haven't seen this in years.

I remember you making this hammock camp. Yeah.

- He used to say, chip off the old block.

Stupid that he kept it right.

- No, - It is really sweet.

Yeah. Fuck. Fuck.

- Relax. It'll come. - I didn't hear you come in. Sorry.

- I didn't want to interrupt.

- No problem. Can I help you

with your, the rest of your things? This

- Is pretty much it.

We got some workout stuff in the

- Truck.

Oh, you must have got rid of a

lot of stuff that didn't spark joy.

- Spark joy. - The lady on the tv.

Marie something.

- I'd like to get the gym set up in

the garage so I can work out later

- For sure.

Sure. Can I help? Do

- You have a mirror?

- How's this? - Yeah, that's good. Yeah.

Put it up against the wall over there.

- Sure.

- Is that one of your songs? You ready?

- Trying to, I I got stuck.

- You sell any of your songs? No.

- No. Not yet.

At least out my, I really gotta get myself out there

more. A little bit. And

- What's stopping you?

- I want them to be good enough.

- I see. - Is

this all the stuff you use? I run

- Once in a while.

Sometimes I go to the gym, but I don't like the gym.

I too many people sitting on their phones

wasting time at machines.

- I have a gym membership, but I don't, I don't really go.

- It's a waste of money, - I suppose.

- No. You don't Suppose if you know something,

say it, say yes or no.

- Yes. I

guess yes.

Having a gym membership is a waste of money.

If you, if you don't go

- There you go.

Okay. Is that so hard?

Not owning up to it is worse than not going.

- Wow. Intense.

- You wanna try? - No. No. I don't.

I don't, I don't think so. Come

- On.

I

put these on this one.

Okay.

- I, I don't think they fit, actually.

- I think they do other

hand on.

All right. First we're gonna get you in your fighter stance.

All right? What are you Right-handed. Left-handed.

- Right? - Okay. So put your right leg back.

Put your hands up. Guard your chin. Tuck your elbows.

There you go. That's your fighter stance.

- I feel that. - All right.

- Okay. - Get her shot. Okay. Give it a shot.

- Okay. Oh, - Try again.

Common mistake. You don't push the bag, you hit the bag.

Alright. Use your weight and extend your arm all the way.

Okay? Go again.

Better

go again.

- Oh, my bad.

- Did your fantasy man arrive?

- Hello, Gracie? Sorry. - Hi, Shane.

- Gracie, we're in the middle

of something. Alex will call you back.

- Alex, I need one more painting for my show

and I can't decide if

- It's done.

tj, I'm gonna call you back.

- Fine. Whatever. - Okay.

- When we're here, don't answer your phone. Be present,

- Okay?

Alright. I didn't know the rules.

- Now you do. - What happened again?

- Good.

- Oh, - There you go, Alex.

Okay. Okay.

- Okay. - Don't worry. It takes practice.

We'll make a fighter outta you yet.

All right. Rotate more.

- Not bad. - Not bad.

But remember the other guy's not

stopping. What are you gonna do?

- That's the timeout. - Alright. Smart ass.

- 45 - More seconds. Then we'll take a break till tonight.

- There - You go.

Hope that was your last 10.

- Sadly, no. - Get up.

- What are you doing - In your hand?

- What were you, - Don't worry about it.

One thing I noticed about you, Alex, you have pent up anger.

You learn to control that, or it controls you.

- What makes you think I'm angry?

- Why do you think you hide it?

- It's supposed to be

meditating. Veronica says that it's not gonna

- Help.

- Well, what about Paul McCartney? Madonna. Oprah. I mean, a

- Lot of, but if you want to sit there

and listen to yourself, breathe, go for it.

But that comes after you fight for what you want.

Punch hard. Don't stop.

- Let's - Go. Why do you let your little

girlfriend, Gracie, run your life? Don't stop.

- She's just looking out for me.

- You know, she's trying to control you.

'cause you're her little fixer upper.

- She's a good friend. Okay?

- She's just sorry for you, Alex. But you don't mind.

You like the companionship and you don't wanna be alone.

- I don't wanna do this with you. Okay?

- Alex, I'm trying to help you - Help. What? No, I'm fine.

- You're fine. Yeah. You dream about guys,

you dream about songwriting, but all you do is dream.

You never do anything. You know what?

It's your life. Spend it how you want.

- Hey, you're not wrong.

- Do you wanna know why I train

here in the mirror?

You're forced to face yourself.

No lies, no excuses.

Look hard at yourself. Alex.

You wanna know what I see? Fear.

Something happened to you.

- What if it did? - The past is the past, Alex,

do something about it and you move on.

- It's not that easy. And you don't know everything. Okay?

- I know you're afraid of sex. - What?

- Intimacy. - I, I've never been comfortable with it.

- Do you want me to show you - What

- I've seen?

The way you look at me?

- If you're going off what Gracie said, don't

- Lie to me.

Alex.

- I'm, I'm embarrassed. Okay?

- Don't ever be embarrassed of wanting somebody

being honest about it,

- Right?

I freeze up or I don't, I don't know what to do

around guys. I, I,

- Do you want my help?

- I don't know. - This has got to come from you, Alex.

- You mean with sex stuff? - With anything you want.

If you want my help, Alex,

say it.

- I, I want your help.

- You're trembling. I'm, I'm sorry.

I'm, I'm a little nervous. You don't need to be.

- Wow.

- Thank you. Present. You don't think about anything else.

Okay.

Trying to get up, like wrestle you try to take control.

Try harder. I can't. You're just stop making excuses.

Come on.

Ready for more

- Summer's getting exciting.

The

bang. Come on, fight.

Come on. Fuck Alex.

Fuck, man. You try to kill me.

- I showed up drunk to my son,

Ethan's high school talent show.

Not even sure how I got there.

After the show, Ethan wouldn't speak to me.

He grabbed the car keys out of my hand

and he drove us home.

He was 16 on our way home.

We were hit by a drunk driver on his side of the car.

That shouldn't have happened.

He had his whole life in front of him.

But because of me, it was cut short.

After that, my life fell apart.

Soon after I went to a meeting,

after the meeting, a woman walked up to me

and she asked what was wrong.

And I told her, and she said,

I'm not responsible for my disease of alcoholism,

but I am responsible for my recovery.

I think about my Ethan

every single day.

My living amends to my son

is my sobriety.

And I would like to think that Ethan

would be proud of the woman that I am today.

Thank you for letting me share.

- Thank you for sharing.

So, honestly, Veronica, we like

to celebrate milestones at this meeting for every 365 days

of continuous sobriety.

Tonight, we have one birthday,

Alex, for one year.

And for that, Gracie and Veronica will give you your cake.

Come on.

- Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday to

birthday to you

coming back.

Hi,

- I'm Alex. I'm an alcoholic.

- Hi. Hi, Alex. - I'm serious.

I'm serious. Oof.

- Brent. - Yeah. I think I got a shot.

- So if someone liked Brent

or Shane likes you, that's enough for validation.

- Just want be like the bad thing.

- God loves you, honey. That's why we have God.

Because people won't always be around. Come

- On, Ronnie. Don't you ever get lonely?

- Do I get lonely? But with God, I'm not alone.

That's the difference.

- Well, you too. Listen, thanks

for sticking around for my one year.

No, I wouldn't miss it. But we do have to go.

So just wanna say congratulations and sorry about your dad.

Thanks. Hey, listen, if you wanna take in a meeting

or like, like dinner or something.

Yeah, let's text you tomorrow. That was good. Yeah.

- Good seeing you. Brent. Hi, Brent.

Did you just ask him out?

- Sort - Of, not really. Yeah, it sounds about right,

- Tj.

Yeah. You think I like, I don't know,

like hold you back from like meeting people or something?

What? I don't know.

- Where did that come from?

- I just don't wanna hold you back.

Can I talk to Alex for a sec?

- Hello? Gracie. Why don't you help me clean that? Sure.

- Sure. And we will finish this later.

- Okay?

- Is that the guy he holding about?

- Okay. - Yeah.

- You just stood here and watched. What am I

- Supposed to do?

- Tell him not to leave - Then. What? Anything?

- Tell him you wanna wrestle for

- Top.

I don't care. Come on. If I

said that, he would laugh in my

face. Why do you think that?

- 'cause I'm not - You. I don't look like you.

I don't talk like you. Come on. Why do you care?

- You take your shot.

You don't let anyone steal that shot away from you.

That's the main difference between you and me.

I'm not afraid. Imm.

- I don't want to be afraid anymore.

- You act strong. You feel strong,

you act weak. You feel weak

- Saying this looks - Heavy.

This isn't about lifting weights.

This is about whether or not you have the strength

to step outta your comfort zone.

You've been comfortable for too long. Alex,

- How do you know me so well?

- I used to be you. Now let's do this

- Here.

- Yep. Right - There. Okay.

Ah, fuck.

- I'm, I'm not helping you. I know. Get angry.

- Troy. - Push it. Come on. Alex. Alex, think of a time.

You were so angry you wanted

to put your fist through a wall.

Tap into that right now.

- Good job you did.

Oh shit. I'm sorry.

- It's my boss probably gonna tell me over some shit.

- Quit. - What?

- People like your boss.

Get away with it because people like you put up with it.

- Hey, Jack. - Hey Alex. Glad I got you.

You're working Sunday, starting next week,

and it's a busy day.

So no fuckups

- Jack.

You can't talk to me like that, man. Stop

- Fucking up.

And I won't.

- Yo, I quit. How about that?

- You are making a big mistake out here.

- Yeah. Go fuck yourself. Jag off

- Feels good, doesn't it?

- Yeah.

- Do - You have that guy's number?

- Oh, bro. - I don't know the guy

that you were talking to at your party,

- Brent. Yeah.

- I want you to invite him to one of your meetings.

Then when you see him, you tell him you're taking him out.

You don't ask him over the phone. You got it?

- Yeah. - Good.

Tell me, Alex, how did you choose your sponsor?

- Veronica. She was a, a speaker. One of my first meetings.

No, I just, I liked her. She was kind to me. Why?

- 'cause she's not like you. You were abused

and you couldn't deal with your anger because of that.

So you drink.

- Yeah, I guess. - And sex sucks

because you're afraid of men thanks to dad.

Am I right?

- What does this have to do with Ronnie?

- She enables your fear of men,

- But she's a good sponsor.

Okay.

- Maybe. - Look,

Grace's gonna be here soon, so I gotta get dressed.

It's after for the shake.

- I will get it.

Can I help you?

- Detective Coles, Slosberg County. Looking for Alex Romero.

- Alex isn't here right

now. Anything that I can help you with,

- You live here?

- Yeah. I'm his new roommate. I just moved in recently.

- Just had some questions

to ask about the murder of his father.

- Murder here? - Yeah.

- Wow. I, I had no idea.

- Do you know when Alex will be back?

- Sorry. I, I don't, he left with a friend.

- Okay. Well just tell him that I was

here. He has my number.

- Of course. Yeah.

- I hope I didn't give you any cause for concern.

- I'm not worried, but I'll keep my eyes open for you.

- Sure. Right. Appreciate it.

- What was it? - I was reading

that recovery book you all subscribed to.

Ah,

- Big book.

Who's at the door?

- It says a lot about being honest, rigorously honest.

I think it says,

- Yeah.

So,

- So get honest with me, Alex, right now.

Or should I ask Detective Cole?

- I shit

- Shane.

I'm, I'm sorry. I should've told you

- And Veronica knew about this.

- Yeah. - And Gracie.

- Yeah. Look, they wanted me to tell you the truth.

But I, I didn't want lose you.

Come on. Don't do this, Shane. Say something.

Do something good.

- Come - On. Hit me. Come on. Hit me. I deserve it. Hit me.

God.

- I'm the only honest person in your life.

- I hate to say I told you so, but you should have told him.

- I get it now. What's the deal with tomorrow night again?

- The gallery closes at eight.

We reopen for the show at nine and it's over at 10.

So you don't have to worry about it being all night.

- Who said I was worried? - My

boss's husband is coming.

And I want you to make a good impression.

- Should I get a text? - No, I know you've got

something in here.

Yeah. Yeah. A button down

and jeans that look like you didn't run over them is enough.

You really need a music manager. Alex,

- You're too good to me, - Beto.

I know, but I want this for you. Okay?

So this, these, and this.

Only nothing else. Okay. I gotta go

- Look.

Mm. Love

- You.

Love you too.

- Hi, Shane.

Hi, Shane.

- What? - She's picking out your clothes now.

What? Is she gonna dress you too?

- Do we have to do this right now? Shane,

- Look Shane, I'm sorry that I liked you.

- Stop. - Do something about it. Alex, come on, Alex.

Fight me. I don't feel like, what if I do?

What if I was the guy who broke in here?

What if I was gonna hurt you?

Would you wanna make a little bitch?

You think that would help? Why are you doing this?

Because the world isn't nice, Alex.

You want honesty. Right? Courage to change.

- The courage to change the things we can

and the, the wisdom to know the difference.

Thank you all. Have a good night. Good night. You

- You - Drive safe.

Please. Have a good night. Hey. Oh, hey. What's up?

What's going on? Grabbing dinner right now.

Sure. Why not? Yeah, sure. Let's do it. I'll drive.

- Hi, - Peter. Yeah, Dale.

- Wow. You look great.

- Thanks. - I, I I was a little afraid.

You know, faceless pick and all

- The internet and faces these days. You get it?

- Oh, do you want a drink? - No. Thanks.

- You mind if I have one? Yeah,

- Go ahead.

First time Gitters.

- Yeah. Is it that obvious? - Don't worry about it.

- I just wasn't too sure how this all works. Do we?

- We can just talk. All you have your

drink, give you a chance to relax.

- Sounds good to me.

- Nice fire you have going here.

- So what do we talk about?

- Tell me about yourself. - Like what?

- Well, you like Shakespeare?

- Yeah. The the Tempest is a favorite.

- Tempest. What made you find me?

- Well, I

haven't been with anyone in a while.

- Must be difficult to meet people when

you're on the sex offender list.

- I,

- You know about that.

- I check every address I go to. I should, shouldn't I?

- Oh, absolutely.

- Yeah. I did some digging online.

I couldn't believe what I found.

- That was a long time ago. - Johnny Owens was a minor.

- I, I, I swear I thought he was 18.

- How'd you do it? - I,

- How'd you lure him in?

Did you build a little fire? Offer him a drink?

- Listen, that's not who I am anymore.

I've recovered from that.

- You think Johnny recovered?

- Listen, if you don't mind, I'd rather not talk about this.

- You're right. It's cool.

I don't mind.

- Yeah. - The thing is

Dale, Johnny minds.

Johnny minds a lot.

- Dale. Oh, oh. Oh my God.

Oh, serious. Oh.

Ow. Look. Oh God.

- I know it was wrong. I know it

- Was wrong.

I was sick. I needed help. I was abused too.

- Then. You should have known better.

What do you see when you look in the mirror,

- Dale?

I don't know. Please, please, please.

I'll do anything you want. Please.

If it's money, I have money, please. Money,

- Please.

- He that dies, pays all debts.

- I hated my first year. The sponsors of no dating.

That sucked. Mine said the same thing.

But you know, it's all right now. Yeah. Yeah.

Well, now that you're past a year sober, got your eyes.

Anybody wanna ask out? Sure. Right here, aren't we?

You mean me? Yeah. I mean, I'm looking at you.

I'm let you need to know this was a date.

I mean, I thought you were into me,

but I didn't think it was like a date.

Date. You thought I was into you,

but you just, you decided to come for the attention.

I, I don't know about that. We're guys, we flirt.

It's what we do. Come on, Brad.

You're totally leading me on. No, I'm being nice to you.

'cause you're a newcomer. Bullshit. Bullshit. No, no.

Come on. You fucking owe me this date. Oh, no.

I don't owe you this date. I don't owe you anything.

No one does. Okay, we're gonna go there with it. An asshole.

Okay? Don't just dial it back. Oh, fuck you. No.

Yeah, yeah. Fuck you.

- Oh, - Who's she?

- Who are you? - Alex, this is Ty.

- Hi.

- You okay?

- I'm fine. - Don't look it,

- Don't worry about it.

It's about that guy. Yeah.

- Did he dump you? - Something like that.

Remember, it's not about him. It

was about you taking your shot.

And now move on. It's not that easy.

- Don't worry, baby. Somebody's gonna love

that sweet face of yours.

Now, if you'll excuse me,

don't be waiting too long.

Alright?

- Is she one of your clients? Why would you think that?

I just thought that you just thought that

you have your little girlfriend.

- Woo.

- Hey. Hey. I didn't expect to see you back here.

What's up, Randy? What's up?

- Anywhere yet? - No.

Just starting to get a little worried.

- Oh, I could still show up. Night is young.

Meanwhile, you are so unbelievably talented.

- Thanks, Freddy. - I,

- You know, we do tend to always think the worst.

I'm sure there's just some dumb reason

that he's not here yet.

- Yeah. And that's what I'm afraid of.

- Yeah. Yeah. Fucking do it. God damn.

- So, - Damn Peggy be a rough one.

Yeah, but you don't know about me. I'm like, what? Like

- This?

Oh fuck. Oh, damn.

- You ready for someone? Yeah. - Oh,

- Oh, oh.

- What - The fuck me doing? Relax. Fuck she doing. Come on.

It's fine. No,

I want you to go, Randy, I'm sorry.

I thought you liked it, man. It's cool.

We could, we could do No, no, no, no, no. Randy.

I don't know what you hate to assist Joe.

Don't be like that. I'm into that. I, I'm sorry.

I was just trying to impress you. Don't be like that.

Just get up. Come on. We could try again. Randy.

Don't be like

Alex.

Alex. Hey, you forgot your keys.

Look, Randy, I'm so sorry. I'm, I would never hurt you, man.

I just, I wanted you to like me.

Look, some people are what? Into that.

It's just not my thing. Okay. I get it. I get it.

Let me just try again. I'll be gentle. I don't know.

Please, please look up. Be gentle.

- Look at the ferry boys. Come on, man. What'd you say?

I think you heard me faggot.

- You can't talk to us like that. Alex.

Don't even stand back. Randy. At least talking.

Not some fucking closet. Fuck. Getting your

- Rocks up.

You trying to start something? Maybe

- I am, but how about you blow me

- First?

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Come on. Fucking bitch. Come on.

Yeah. Yeah. How you like that? Huh?

You want to punch me? Huh?

Fuck you.

- You - Were over here in the, in the alley.

My, my, my friend Alex,

- Come on.

- Oh, there he is.

- I hurts so much. - You're gonna be okay.

Okay, so you drank.

- I can't do this with you right now, GJ.

- I thought you were done. Yeah.

- So did

I. Did they find that guy?

- No, not yet. Anyway. - So what happened?

- This asshole called me a faggot.

- And you fought him. - What was I supposed to do?

- Walk away. Let it go.

- I'm tired of being pushed around. Gracie,

- You could have been killed.

Alex.

- You have every right to stand up for yourself, baby.

But you have to pick your battles.

- You know, this started when Shane moved in.

You should have listened to me.

- Well, I'm a little more concerned with being the victim

of a hate crime right now, if that's okay with you.

- No, actually, it's not okay. It's not okay at all.

Because there shouldn't have been a hate crime.

You weren't supposed to be drunk.

You weren't supposed to be hooking up

and you damn sure weren't supposed to be starting a fight

with some homophobic jackass.

You were supposed to be with me at my show.

'cause it was my night. Yeah.

After I talked you to my boss's husband, him

- My talented best friend who didn't even bother

to fucking show up.

- Shit, Gracie, I'm, I'm sorry.

- I'm - So done with you, Alex.

You, I have one life

and I'm done trying to help you fix yours.

Good luck, Veronica. You were sick,

- Gracie.

- So I guess you hate me now too.

- No, honey, I love you and I'm your sponsor,

but I can't run your life.

I'm just here to try to help you stay sober.

Do you want that?

- I don't - Know. Wow. You think about it and let me know.

And I urge you to ask yourself, do you want the rest

to be alive to look like this?

There you go. Slowly.

- Okay. Ah, - Do you need anything?

- No. They said the pillow. It should be okay.

I just, I don't know.

- Do you want me to stay? - No, it's fine.

Ronnie, you've done enough. Really?

- Okay. - What happened to you?

- He was gay. Bashed.

- Did you put up a good fight? - They cracked his ribs.

You know,

- Here for next time,

I believe in protecting myself.

- What you do is none of my business.

- Just like it was none of your business.

When I moved into a house where his father was murdered.

Right? Alex told me you knew

- That was Alex's business to disclose if he wanted to.

There was no law that said he had to.

- Hmm. I see how it works.

- I don't think you

do, honey.

I'm gonna come back and check on you.

- All right.

- She is wrong. You know? - Did you get off

of her? She helps a lot of people.

- I never said she didn't. - I

shouldn't have pushed that guy.

- If you don't stand up for yourself, who will?

- You're stupid. It was stupid. Why are

- You so afraid to fight back?

- Look at me. Look at me.

- You are stronger than you think you are. Alex,

I wanna show you something.

- Peter. - Yeah. Graham.

- Yeah. That's me. Who are you a friend?

- I don't go alone these days. You understand?

- Yeah, sure. - Can we come in?

- Yeah. - Thanks.

- Ah, this is a nice place. You have, you live alone?

- Yeah. Just me. Do you guys want a drink? Something?

- No. Thanks. - Okay. What do we do now?

We can go to the bedroom. If your

friend doesn't mind staying here.

- Yeah. In a minute. I have

a few more questions if you don't mind.

- Okay? Sure. - Can you tell me about Rachel Monahan?

- Why do you wanna know about her?

- I think you know why. - Okay. You know what?

You two is

starting to freak me out, and I think

you should go. You were freaked

- Out down.

It's interesting. You molested Rachel, a teenager.

You think Rachel was freaked out? Who the

- Fuck are you?

Who the fuck are you to do that to a kid?

Did you do that to your own

fucking daughter? You punk bitch.

- Okay, get out. I'm gonna call the cops. Back the fuck up.

Holy shit.

- This is your chance. You want kill him?

I can't. You don't do this. He gets away with it

- Not killing anybody.

- You have a choice here, Alex.

You can crawl back to that safe little cave

and drink your life away

where you can give the sick fuck what he deserves.

- Fuck.

Look at yourself. Ray, you did this. You brought the song.

No, no, no. Go. No, no, no, no. Think

- Hard about what he did. Alex,

- Shane.

- No, no. Please don't. Should I do it? No. That out. Stop.

Please.

- One last monster.

- You had no right.

- He was nothing but a fucking schoolyard

stalking child molester.

- Do you really think he deserved to live Yoyo?

That's what I thought.

- I don't think I need to tell you this,

but this isn't something you run

to tell your sponsor or little girlfriend about.

Well, yeah. Why not? Are you fucking serious?

Are you fucking serious? I didn't fucking do this.

I didn't want this.

Gimme your shirt. What? There's blood on it.

- Does anything you fucking Lindsay do have lyrics?

- How's that working out for you?

What you did tonight? You've done it before.

People pay for my company.

- I look up their address. If they're not on a list,

then everyone has a good time.

But if they are, yes, I do the right thing.

- You kill people - That deserve to die.

- You're not God,

- Alex.

I'm doing God's work.

- The fuck - Happened to you?

- That doesn't matter. All that is in the past.

What matters now is we set things right.

- People deserve a second chance.

- Do you really believe that? Some

people after they're abused, they commit suicide?

Did they get a second chance?

- I want you - Out.

- I'm calling the cops. - Calling the cops. Yeah,

- It's - Okay.

Call the cops then. You were there too.

- So what? - In fact, you're the one that killed him.

I tried to stop you. I have your shirt with his blood on it.

- Fuck you. - No. Fuck you, Alex.

Fuck you.

- I say,

I'm sorry I fucked up.

But I love you and

I did anything for you.

I told you to get the fuck out.

- Tell me one thing.

What were you gonna say to your dad?

- I have to tell you shit.

- Yeah, you do. - I,

I was just, when Stevie changed,

maybe give him a second chance.

I don't

- Then what?

Pretend nothing ever happened.

You gonna drink some more?

Maybe try to kill yourself again.

- You're fucking - Crazy.

- You try to kill yourself.

I kill monsters.

Who's the crazy one here?

- Bye.

- All right.

- There are a lot of really sick people in this world.

- If you can think of him as sick instead of bad,

the shift in your perception might be the miracle you need.

- Forgive you dad,

- Forgive you.

- There's more than 300 murders a year in New York

and almost 10,000 unsolved murders.

- What are, what are the odds of of, of us catching him?

- This guy knows what he's doing. He doesn't leave a trail.

But I won't stop until we find him.

- I should have just called you

sooner. Stupid.

- Some people never report a crime. It takes

- Courage.

Thanks

- Gracie.

- I have nothing to say to you, Alex.

- Let me just explain. I know it's different.

It's different. I don't care.

You were right about Shane. Okay? I don't

- Care.

It's always the same with

- Me.

I know, I know, but he's dangerous. Gracie, goodbye Alex.

- God, - I'm having a bad day here.

- Ugh.

- Gracie won't speak to me. - No. How are you?

Or I'm sorry for dropping by without calling.

- I did call. You didn't answer. I'm sorry.

But Gracie won't see me.

- Alex, you relapse. You missed her show.

You do nothing but think about yourself,

including right now.

Honey, I am beat. Do you want anything else?

- I need you to know how I can get grace

to forgive me. Ronnie, please

- Stop saying I'm sorry.

It's just words show up. Be the friend.

She's been to you. You do

anything you want, no matter the cost.

It's time to grow up. Alex, I

- Thanks.

I, I'm sorry I bothered you,

- Alex.

When I lost Ethan, I woke up and I got sober.

But being sober is only the beginning.

You've got to show Gracie real change

before she can trust you again.

If you have a chance that I didn't have, and with time

and with patience, you can fix this.

I know you can.

- Night running

- Gj.

- No, but she's here. - I'm calling the

- Cops.

You don't want to do that, Donna,

do you wanna see your little girlfriend alive? Leave

- Her alone.

You fuck. This is between you and me. You might

- Wanna come to the garage.

Alex, she's running out of time.

- Gracie.

Gracie. Gracie, should I make a fighter outta you?

Alex, only way to do that

is to get rid of your little crunch.

You're gonna have to bite harder than that.

You really wanna let her die?

You said you'd do anything for grace. Prove it.

What do you really want to know? What happened to me, Alex?

I went away to little league camp. Your dad got sick. Fuck.

He was my coach. You know

what he did to me, don't you, Alex?

I can't count how many years I walked

around ashamed a loser.

Weak. But then I found a way out. I became a fighter.

And every time I kill one of those monsters,

I see your dad's face.

Ah, great guy.

How are the ribs, Alex? No.

I did the world a favor killing your father.

And I tried to help you

because I know what it feels like to be afraid.

I tried to help you become somebody that fights back.

I really think he's gonna save you, Gracie.

He's done nothing but what we've done. Watch it today.

Be in re

hope.

This is your best shot. Alex,

what are you gonna do?

Now? Gimme a second chance. I learned a lot from Shane.

Like always carrying a knife.

Gracie, Gracie. Gracie.

Come on, grace. Come on. Gracious.

Ah, so Grace, grace, please, please.

Come on, grace.

Come on, come on, come on. Come on.

Great day.

You're good. It's me. It's me. It's me. It's Alex.

Alex, it's Alex.

Breathe.

Oh my God, baby. Are you okay?

Oh, oh, it's so okay.

It's so

- Dear Alex.

I wish you only love, I hope you figure it all out.

I hope you go after your dreams,

but I need to focus on me for a while.

You know, I care about you.

I just can't be with you right now.

You have to take these first steps on your own.

Love Gracie Jean.

- Hey guys. I wrote this song.

I hope you guys like it

- Now.

We like it.

It's only been a couple days.

I

never,

I never hurt you.

You even now I won't.

If you need to hold you.

I,

I.

And

- How are you?

- Hello Henry. I'm here with Kirsty.

- Where is she? - She's in the car.

I typically come up ahead of her just

to make sure everything's safe.

You know how it is.

- Okay, so can she come up?

- It depends. Henry, you gonna drug her

- Like - You drug Julie Erickson.

- When this crazy

to live,

someone knows you.

I'm still here.

You, I love you

and I miss you.

I'm still here.

- What do you see?

- Something Inab is waking up,

forming an alliance with enough.

It's never too late to find yourself.

'cause there's a spirit. Can you hear it?

Something in inside is waking up evenly.

Now it's time to its own. Who are we?

Your own reality lost in a

crisis identity.

Deep in the pocket you caught in your heart

and took a piece of your soul.

Sold the remain.

Put the, the change comes

from

do sing the waters low drown in the pool

of our own shadow.

Stuck with ourselves, caught in middle.

You know, it's that

love the moon

to decide for that.

Enough is enough, is enough.

We learn the change comes from with

- That.

So many, we.