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You're asking me to marry you? I know it

probably seems sudden. It seems crazy.

Well, it's not like we haven't been down

this road before. Third time's a charm.

My mom always used to say so. I mean,

mostly when schemes blew up on our faces

just to keep our spirits up. But in this

case, I believe. Oh, my God. I can't

believe you're asking me to marry you.

I'm surprised you're in so much shock.

You said it yourself. We've been down this

road twice, and both times we have plunged

face first into a dead end. They were just

lessons learned. Yeah, I'm not so sure

about that. Lucky, this is something I

don't see very often. What are you afraid

of? Us.

Is it me that you're scared of? My

sobriety? Because I swear to Elizabeth.

No, no, Lucky, I know you're on track,

but you're right. What frightens me is us.

Our history. We are much better at not

being married. That may have been true

once, but I don't think it is anymore.

What if you're wrong? What if you're wrong

and we get married again and we make the

same mistakes and we fall back in the same

destructive pattern?

You know, you don't seem to have very much

faith in us. Oh, God, I have so much faith

in what we have made together. This

incredible partnership is the most

important thing in my life. I don't want

to risk it. And the way you're acting

right now, you're acting out of fear. We

just. And that is what is keeping us

stuck. And we both do it way too much.

We just need to find a way to get past it.

Elizabeth, you know how I feel about you.

Unless you don't feel the same way about

me. Elizabeth,

if you don't let me just. I just need to

hear you say it.

Lucky, never question

my love for you. You're my

first love, my kid's father. You have been

my anchor since we were teenagers.

My life doesn't make sense without you in

it. And I feel exactly the same way.

Doesn't that tell you something?

Both times we got married, I thought it

was forever, but it wasn't. So we've

had a few bumps in the road. Bumps?

Lucky, we careened off a cliff. You turned

to Maxie in drugs, and I went to Jason and

we had a baby. I forgave you. I thought

that went both ways. Yes, of course it

did. But forgiving each other doesn't mean

we should ignore the painful lessons we've

had to Learn. Okay, you know what? So we

shouldn't let the past rob us of our

future either. Oh, God, you're so

relentlessly optimistic. I doubt my boss

or anyone else from the PCPD would agree

with you. I am so

honored that you want to marry me.

And I want to give your proposal the

thoughtful consideration it deserves.

Just not tonight. So much is happening.

I'm on overload right now. Okay,

But I can tell you this much with a foggy

head and a clear heart.

But I love you.

And I always will.

I need to talk to you. Sober enough

to listen? Sadly, yes, I am.

May I make an observation first?

For someone who just got proposed to, you

don't seem very happy. Like he told you he

was going to ask me to marry him again?

No, not exactly, but that's the impression

he left. So what'd you

say? That I had

to think about him. But I don't.

I just couldn't figure out a way to tell

him that I love him, but not the way

he wants.

There you go. Thank you. You're welcome.

You should calm your nerves a little. Not

looking forward to the prospect of peeling

me off the ceiling? I wouldn't say that.

I don't know what to do.

What's your heart tell you?

Not Lucky is the man I can depend on. He

is the one who saves me from myself, who

supports me, accepts me for who I am. I am

blessed to have him. And I should just be

grateful. VR Talks an awful lot.

Yeah. Yeah, I know. That's a problem.

But the love that the insanely

romantic, swept wipe by passion kind of

love just isn't. It's not there anymore.

But it is for him. And I just want him to

be happy. So maybe I should marry him.

Really? Without loving him. How's that a

good idea?

Hey, you already know the answer to

this one, Liz. Otherwise you wouldn't be

here, would you?

Well, maybe this was a mistake coming

here. Another question only you can

answer. You have to tell him the truth.

The whole truth, including the

reason I can't marry him, is because I

have feelings for someone else.

So tell me,

who is this other man you have feelings

for? Nicholas, please. Who's it? Jason.

That has been over for a long time. What

about. What about Ethan? You like Ethan?

Oh, my God. Stop. Come on, tell me who it

is. What? You really need to hear me say

it? I absolutely need to hear you say it.

We need to be honest with each other, if

with no one else.

All right, fine.

It's you. I don't know how this happened.

I don't know how our friendship turned

into something more. But ever since that

first night you kissed me and Jakes, I

have thought about being with you.

Thought about it or

wanted it?

This is wrong. Don't you think I know

that? Don't you think I've fought it every

bit as hard as you have?

I can't do it anymore.

I want.