Original subtitles

[On Fire by Andy Blunda]

- YOUR LOVE IS LIKE A RIVER

YOUR LOVE IS THE FEVER

I'M ON FIRE

WE'RE ON FIRE

[rock music]

- I DON'T WANT TO GET UP.

- WELL, YOU PROBABLY DON'T HAVE TO.

I DO.

I HAVE TO TEACH THE EARLY CLASS TODAY,

AND THEN I HAVE A STAFF MEETING,

AND CLASSES THAT DON'T HAVE TEACHERS TONIGHT,

SO I'M GONNA BE BUSY ALL DAY.

- YOU'RE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING.

- WELL, I'M, LIKE, DOING EVERYTHING MYSELF.

I MEAN, I DON'T REALLY HAVE ANOTHER CHOICE RIGHT NOW.

I'M AN ENTREPRENEUR, AND I HAVE BEEN INVESTING

TIME AND ENERGY IN GROWING MY BUSINESS.

- I KNOW, THAT'S WHAT WE WERE TRYING TO SAY.

- I KNOW. - JUST EVEN A FEW MINUTES.

WE WENT THROUGH SOME BUSINESS CHANGES

THAT HAD ME TAKE ON A LOT MORE RESPONSIBILITY AT MY GYM

AND HAVE LESS EMPLOYEES,

SO I'VE BEEN KEEPING MY BUSINESS AFLOAT.

IT ALL FALLS ON MY SHOULDERS,

SO I HAVE TO GET UP AND GO TO WORK.

WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING?

I'M BUSY TOO, YOU KNOW, AND THE GYM'S GOT STUDENTS,

AND I GOT ALL THE SAME STUFF YOU GOT GOING ON.

IT'S LIKE, I WANT SOME COMPASSION AND SOME, YOU KNOW,

AND IT'S FOR ALL OF US, IT'S NOT JUST FOR ME.

- WE DO UNDERSTAND, WE'RE NOT TRYING TO GIVE YOU A HARD TIME.

IT'S JUST HARD IF WE FEEL LIKE YOU'RE GIVING US A HARD TIME

ABOUT THE AMOUNT OF TIME WE SPEND TOGETHER

OR ABOUT NOT GIVING ENOUGH OF OUR TIME.

WE'RE NOT THE ONES WHO AREN'T AVAILABLE.

LEIGH ANN FEELS LIKE SHE'S NOT GETTING ENOUGH OF MY ATTENTION,

AND I UNDERSTAND, BUT IT'S ALSO HARD,

BECAUSE IT'S HARD TO GIVE HER MY ATTENTION

WHEN SHE'S NOT HERE TO RECEIVE IT.

- YOU KNOW, YOU GUYS HAVE MORE FREE TIME,

SO YOU GUYS HAVE MORE TIME TO SPEND TIME

I HAVE LESS TIME TO DO IT.

IT'S JUST-- IT JUST IS WHAT IT IS.

- WELL, AT A CERTAIN POINT, YOU LEARN THAT, YOU KNOW,

YOUR TIME IS YOUR TIME, AND YOU HAVE TO PRIORITIZE.

IS PROJECTING THE IRRITATION

OF OUR CONFLICTING WORK SCHEDULES.

IT FEELS TO HER AS IF MEGAN IS GETTING

MORE OF MY TIME AND ATTENTION,

AND THAT'S MAGNIFYING THIS SITUATION.

[kissing]

- SO LET'S WORK ON THE HANDSTAND SPIN-DOWN,

'CAUSE WE'RE GONNA ADD THAT.

I'VE BEEN POLE DANCING FOR ABOUT 12 YEARS,

AND I'VE OWNED MY BUSINESS FOR SEVEN YEARS.

I OPENED WHEN I WAS 25,

BUT I'VE BEEN LIVING UP TO MY RESPONSIBILITIES

AND DOING MY JOB TO SUPPORT THE FAMILY.

UPRIGHT, STATIC POSE, HIT IT.

ALL THE WAY OUT, IF YOU CAN TAKE BOTH LEGS OFF,

TAKE 'EM OFF.

WRAP THE INSIDE HIP, INSIDE LEG.

DROP IT ALL THE WAY DOWN,

FOR YOUR HANDSTAND,

AND THEN-- OOH!

UGH.

SORRY, GUYS, I'M A LITTLE OFF TODAY.

FINISH IT HOWEVER YOU WANT, OKAY?

- ALL RIGHT. - ALL RIGHT.

I GOT DISTRACTED. IT WAS A LITTLE EMBARRASSING.

BUT, YOU KNOW, THAT HAPPENS

BYE, HONEY.

THANK YOU, BYE. BYE, YOU GUYS, LOVE YOU.

- YEAH, EXCEPT FOR WHEN I FELL ON MY ASS

IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY.

- WHAT IS UP WITH THAT?

YOU NEVER FALL ON YOUR ASS IN CLASS.

- ANDREA'S ONE OF MY GIRLFRIENDS FROM THE GYM,

AND SHE ACTUALLY KNOWS ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP,

SO SHE'S ALWAYS KIND OF BEEN THERE TO TALK TO ABOUT IT.

WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING,

CHRIS IS, LIKE, TELLING ME TO STAY--

LIKE, "STAY IN BED, HANG OUT WITH US,"

BECAUSE I'M HERE. - MM.

- LIKE, SHE HAS FREE TIME. SHE'S 24 YEARS OLD.

WHEN I WAS 24 YEARS OLD, ALL I DID WAS FOLLOW HIM AROUND TOO.

MY SCHEDULE IS DIFFERENT EVERY DAY.

I TRAVEL FOR WORK SOMETIMES,

AND THOSE ARE, LIKE, THE OPPORTUNITIES

TO MAKE APPEARANCES,

INSIDE THE POLE DANCE COMMUNITY.

THE WAY IT'S BEEN GOING,

I'M STARTING TO FEEL LIKE AN OUTSIDER IN MY OWN MARRIAGE.

- YEAH. ARE THINGS OKAY WITH THE SEX AND EVERYTHING?

LIKE, ARE YOU GUYS, LIKE, STILL HAVING SEX TOGETHER, OR--

GET TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM ALONE.

SHE GETS TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM ALONE ALL THE TIME,

THAT DOESN'T INCLUDE ME.

I THINK MEGAN HAS BECOME A PRIMARY IN OUR RELATIONSHIP

BECAUSE SHE HAS EQUAL PRIVILEGES AND RIGHTS THAT I DO.

- DO YOU AND MEGAN HAVE SEX ALONE,

OR IS IT ALWAYS WITH CHRIS?

- IT'S MOSTLY WITH CHRIS, BUT WE TOTALLY HAVE SEX ALONE.

LIKE, IF HE'S GONE, YOU KNOW, WE HAVE A GREAT TIME.

BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME AS, LIKE, WHEN THEY HAVE SEX ALONE

OR WHEN WE HAVE SEX ALONE, BECAUSE SOMEONE'S LEFT OUT.

OR WE'RE ALL THREE TOGETHER,

SO CHRIS AND I NEVER GET ALONE TIME.

IT SUCKS.

- WELL, I MEAN, I GUESS THE BEST THING YOU CAN DO

IS JUST TALK TO THEM.

LIKE, TALK TO THEM INDIVIDUALLY MAYBE.

I MEAN, YOU GUYS ARE MARRIED. - I--MARRIED, I KNOW.

AND THAT'S THE THING IS THAT I,

LIKE, HAVE A REALLY HARD TIME, LIKE, HURTING HER FEELINGS.

I'M REALLY BAD AT CONFRONTING, LIKE, THE HARD STUFF.

I GET OVERWHELMED WITH THE EMOTIONAL CONVERSATIONS,

AND I WANT TO RUN AWAY.

YOU KNOW, IT'S BEEN AWESOME WITH MEGAN.

I MEAN, LIKE, I LOVE HER, BUT, LIKE,

IF I LOSE MY CONNECTION WITH CHRIS,

THEN, LIKE, WHAT ARE WE DOING HERE?

IN WEIRD WAYS, I FELT MORE MARRIED TO HIM

BEFORE WE GOT MARRIED THAN AFTER.

THIS IS MY HUSBAND, AND I WANT THE CONNECTION THAT WE HAVE

THAT HAS BUILT THIS WHOLE LIFE THAT WE HAVE TOGETHER.

I DON'T ALWAYS REALLY FEEL LIKE HIS WIFE, YOU KNOW?

- I'M SORRY THIS IS ALL HAPPENING, THIS IS REALLY HARD.

I WISH I HAD BETTER ADVICE FOR YOU, I'M JUST--

- NO ONE EVER HAS ANY ADVICE,

'CAUSE THEY HAVE NEVER BEEN THROUGH IT.

NO ONE HAS ANY ADVICE. THAT'S THE PROBLEM, YOU KNOW?

- MAYBE YOU SHOULD GO BACK TO VANILLA, BORING...

I'VE NEVER REALLY DONE THAT.

- ULTIMATELY, WE WANT TO DERIVE THE OPT-IN,

- I'M MEETING JASON TODAY.

WE WORK TOGETHER,

AND HE'S RECENTLY STARTED DATING KAMALA.

IT HASN'T BEEN A SECRET THAT YOU

AND KAMALA HAVE BEEN, YOU KNOW, GETTING A LOT MORE FRIENDLY,

TO REALLY SPEAK WITH HIM

AND BUILD OUR COMMUNICATION A BIT.

YOU SAY THAT YOU'RE NEW TO POLY.

I ACTUALLY DON'T KNOW THAT MUCH ABOUT YOUR HISTORY.

DID YOU KNOW WHAT POLYAMORY WAS?

- AND IT REALLY SHOWED ME WHAT'S POSSIBLE.

- I HAD A GIRLFRIEND WHO, YOU KNOW,

WAS INTERESTED IN POLYAMORY

WHAT DO YOU THINK FOR YOU? IS THAT--IS THAT A POSSIBILITY?

- I CAN'T RULE IT OUT COMPLETELY, TO BE HONEST.

- MY CONCERN IS THAT PEOPLE THAT ARE MOVING FROM MONOGAMY

SOMETIMES CAN'T MAKE THAT TRANSITION.

SOMETIMES, THEY FALL BACK TO MONOGAMY,

KAMALA'S--YOU KNOW, SHE'S JUST BEEN SO EXCITED

WHEN SHE COMES BACK FROM BEING WITH YOU,

AND YOU KNOW, THAT MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY.

I REALLY WANT-- I WANT THE MOST FOR HER.

KAMALA HAS A TENDENCY TO GO DEEP VERY QUICKLY.

IT'S A CONCERN THAT HER HEART WILL BE BROKEN,

YOU KNOW, IF JASON DECIDES THAT HE WANTS

TO GO BACK TO THE MONOGAMOUS WAY.

I DON'T WANT HER TO, YOU KNOW, GET HURT.

- YEAH, WATCH OUT FOR THE WOMAN WITH THE HOSE.

- YEAH. - DON'T PISS OFF THE WOMAN--

- OR THE PERSON WITH THE RAKE, YEAH.

- OR THE WOMAN WITH THE SCISSORS.

- IT'S REALLY FUN TO HANG OUT WITH KAMALA

WHEN WE'RE NOT PROCESSING.

GENERALLY, IT'S USUALLY SOME SERIOUS MATTER, OR--

[laughs]

YOU KNOW, I FORGOT TO TELL HIM BEFORE WE MADE LOVE

THAT YOU GUYS HAD OKAYED THAT WE DIDN'T USE A CONDOM.

SO I SORT OF TOLD HIM IN THE MIDDLE, AND HE WAS--

HE WAS REALLY HAPPY ABOUT IT, OBVIOUSLY, YOU KNOW, HE'S...

- OH, LIKE A SURPRISE. - WANTED THAT FOR THE LAST YEAR,

SO-- - YEAH.

- SO IT WENT REALLY WELL.

ACTUALLY, TAHL AND I ARE MEETING HIM FOR COFFEE.

ARE SPENDING TOO MUCH TIME TOGETHER,

- DO YOU LIKE TEACHING HIM ABOUT POLY?

BOTHERS EVERYBODY ELSE MORE THAN IT BOTHERS ME.

I'M NOT REALLY TRYING TO TEACH HIM POLY.

I AM NOT TRYING TO CHANGE JESSE. JESSE IS HOW HE IS.

OUR RELATIONSHIP IS TOTALLY WORKING.

I DON'T NEED HIM TO BE ANY DIFFERENT THAN HE IS.

SO WHERE'S MICHAEL?

- MICHAEL'S AT WORK. HE'S WITH JASON.

- WITH JASON? - YEAH.

- LOOK AT YOUR SMILE. - [laughs]

IF I COULD WAVE A MAGIC WAND, AND WE WERE AT A S--

- PROBABLY, JASON WOULD BE THE ONE THAT I WOULD KISS.

- OH, REALLY? - YEAH.

- YOU THINK JESSE WOULD EVER LET YOU PLAY?

- I DON'T THINK SO. - NO?

- NO, AND I'M NOT EVEN GONNA ASK.

- NO, JUST LIKE-- LIKE, NEVER?

JESSE HAS A WHOLE BUNCH OF RULES ON JENNIFER.

ANYTIME I SEE REALLY STRICT REGULATIONS

ON PEOPLE EXPRESSING LOVE AND CONNECTION WITH OTHER PEOPLE,

IT'S A PRETTY BIG TRIGGER FOR ME.

IT'S REPRESSIVE AND A LITTLE BIT ARCHAIC.

- HEY, GUYS. - HEY, SWEETIE.

- HEY.

- JEN. - HI, JASON.

- MMM.

SOMEONE TAKE A PICTURE. - IT'S JUST A HUG.

[laughter]

- I JUST WANTED TO SAY HI. - I'M GLAD.

- BYE, JASON. - BYE, JASON, THANKS.

- SEE YOU, JASON. - YEAH.

- [sighs] - ALL RIGHT.

- I WANT TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR MEETING.

- YEAH, WHAT HAP--HOW'D IT GO? WHAT'D YOU GUYS TALK ABOUT?

- MEETING WAS REALLY GOOD.

WE TALKED ABOUT BASICALLY WHAT YOU GUYS ARE UP TO.

- I WAS WORRIED YOU WERE GONNA TALK ABOUT THAT.

- WHY, WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT? - HOW DID THAT GO?

- NO, IT'S GOOD, IT'S GOOD.

- IT WAS TOTALLY GOOD. - I'M JUST NERVOUS.

I'M LIKE, "MY MEN ARE TALKING ABOUT ME."

- I TOLD HIM THAT HE'S VERY MUCH ENHANCING,

YOU KNOW, OUR RELATIONSHIP,

BECAUSE YOU'REOMING BACK SO JUICED UP AND EXCITED...

- I KNOW. - WHICH IS TRUE.

- WAIT, HAVE YOU GUYS MADE OUT YET?

- UM, YEAH, A LOT. - HAVE YOU HAD SEX?

- NO. - OH, YOU HAVEN'T HAD SEX.

- NO, WE'RE DEFINITELY NOT.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH JASON,

AND WE'VE BEEN SPENDING TIME TOGETHER AND CONNECTING,

AND IT'S ABOUT TIME THAT WE OPEN OUR RELATIONSHIP

INTO A SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP.

I WANTED TO SEE IF YOU TOLD HIM IT WAS OKAY FOR US TO BE SEXUAL,

AND YOU KNOW, IF THAT FEELS COMFORTABLE FOR YOU.

HE IS NEW TO POLYAMORY. YOU KNOW, HE WAS A MONOGAMIST.

- RIGHT. - YOU KNOW, SERIAL MONOGAMIST.

UM-- - HEY, YOU GUYS, THIS--

- YOU GUYS GOTTA GO? - YEAH.

I SORT OF STARTED TO FEEL THAT THIS MIGHT

TURN INTO A PROCESSING CONVERSATION.

AND SO I'M OUTTA HERE. [laughs]

- GOOD, BREATHE. NICE AND EASY.

THIS PART OF THE DAY IS MY FAVORITE PART OF THE JOB.

ONE-ON-ONE WITH A TALENTED FIGHTER,

HELPING HIM HONE HIS SKILLS.

- [grunts] - JUMP.

- BABE, I BROUGHT OUR SHAKES.

- [grunts] - THANK YOU.

- I WORK FROM HOME, BUT I HAVE A VERY FLEXIBLE SCHEDULE.

- AND SOMETIMES, I HELP CHRIS AT THE GYM.

I KINDA DO ALL THE THINGS THAT HE PREFERS NOT TO DO.

[laughs]

- [sighs] - [laughs]

- THANK YOU. - YOU'RE WELCOME.

- I APPRECIATE IT. - MUCH DESERVED.

I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM LEIGH ANN.

I TEXTED HER, AND SHE HASN'T GOTTEN BACK TO ME, SO...

- YEAH, I MEAN, IT SOUNDED WHEN SHE LEFT THIS MORNING

LIKE SHE WAS GONNA BE LATE.

I DON'T KNOW IF WE SHOULD JUST EAT,

- WHAT WAS UP WITH THAT THIS MORNING?

- IT'S SO DIFFICULT, BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY, I UNDERSTAND.

LIKE, CAREER AND TRAVEL

THERE PROBABLY IS SOME TRUTH TO THE FACT

THAT I'VE BEEN PAYING YOU A LOT OF ATTENTION.

LIKE WE'RE DOING OUR OWN THING.

BEFORE, SHE WOULD MAKE AN EFFORT

TO MAKE SURE SHE WAS HOME AT DINNER.

- BECAUSE I'M THERE.

- MAYBE I REALLY NEED TO, LIKE,

I'M EXPERIENCING A POLYAMOROUS RELATIONSHIP

WHERE WE'RE MARRIED AND DATING.

IT'S DIFFICULT.

IT TAKES WORK.

I DON'T THINK I'VE FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO EITHER PERFECTLY YET.

[rock music]

- YOU KNOW, I'M ONLY INTERESTED IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM

IT'S SO IMPORTANT FOR ME

THAT MICHAEL GIVES ME THE BIG GREEN LIGHT.

AND, YOU KNOW, THAT CAN BE A LITTLE THREATENING.

BUT, YOU KNOW, WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 11 YEARS,

AND I GET HE'S NEW, AND THAT'S EXCITING.

YOU KNOW? - YEAH, I MEAN, IT'S VERY NEW,

AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE IT'S GOING, BUT I JUST--

I WANT IT TO MAKE US STRONGER.

- YEAH. - YOU KNOW?

YOU KNOW, DO WHAT WORKS FOR MY HUSBAND.

RIGHT NOW, WHAT I WANT IS, I ONLY WANT TO,

YOU KNOW, MAKE LOVE WITH HIM IF IT'S REALLY A GREEN LIGHT

FOR YOU... - MM-HMM.

- JUST IN THE BEGINNING, I'D LIKE YOU

TO JUST LET ME KNOW BEFORE YOU HAVE SEX

AND INVITE ME, AND I UNDERSTAND

IF HE'S NOT READY TO BE IN A THREESOME.

LET'S CROSS THAT BRIDGE WHEN WE GET THERE.

- I AM NOT BISEXUAL OR GAY, BUT I LIKE GROUP SEX.

THERE'S GONNA BE A LOT MORE INCLUSION,

WHERE I CAN BE INVOLVED,

AND I WON'T FEEL AS JEALOUS.

NOW THAT MICHAEL'S GIVEN ME PERMISSION

TO HAVE SEX WITH JASON, IT'S VERY AROUSING.

MMM.

[both moaning]

- OH, GOD. - AH! [laughs]

- I'VE STOPPED WORRYING ABOUT MY NEIGHBORS.

WE LIVE IN A NEIGHBORHOOD THAT'S QUITE NOISY,

AND THERE'S A LOT OF PARTYING.

AND WE'RE PROBABLY THE QUIETEST OF THE NEIGHBORS.

- I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

[laughs] - MMM.

- OH, MY. - MMM.

- WE NEED TO TAKE IT EASY ON HIM, THOUGH, TAHL.

- I WILL. - HE'S SUPER SENSITIVE,

- YOU KNOW, ABOUT THIS MEETING, 'CAUSE I THINK HE THINKS

SO BE GENTLE.

- SO WE'RE GOING TO THIS MEETING WITH JESSE,

AND WE HAVE TO FIGURE OUT TIME MANAGEMENT.

I WANT TO SIT DOWN WITH HIM.

I WANT TO GET A LITTLE MORE CLEAR WITH WHAT HIS RULES

EXACTLY ARE WITH JEN BECAUSE THAT AFFECTS ME.

- HI, BABY. MMM.

- I WANT EVERYBODY TO GET ALONG AND BE HAPPY,

AND I REALLY LIKE THE WAY THINGS ARE.

I DON'T PARTICULARLY WANT THEM TO CHANGE.

- SO...

THE WHOLE DYNAMICS HAVE KIND OF SHIFTED

AND PRETTY MUCH ALL THE RULES AND STUFF

I'M HEARING SECONDHAND THROUGH JEN.

AND SO I JUST KIND OF WANTED TO SIT DOWN AND REALLY HEAR--

- YEAH. YEAH.

JUST KIND OF UNDERSTAND WHERE I'M COMING FROM.

- RIGHT. - YEAH.

AND I'M NOT USED TO THAT--

- MM-HMM. - SO I'VE ASKED HER NOT TO,

- OKAY. - IT'S A COMPETITIVE THING

WITH ME WITH MEN, AND, LIKE,

SO, LIKE, I DON'T MIND IF SHE KISSES WOMEN.

IT'S HARD A LITTLE BIT, BECAUSE IT KINDA--

SOMETIMES MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO RECIPROCATE THAT,

AND THAT'S TOTALLY UNCOMFORTABLE FOR ME.

- BY "RECIPROCATE," YOU MEAN IF I GET A GIRL TO KISS YOU,

THEN I GET TO KISS A GUY, YEAH. - THEN I SHOULD MAKE YOU--

I SHOULD MAKE A GUY KISS YOU, OR I SHOULD LET A GUY KISS YOU,

AND, LIKE, I DON'T WANT TO.

- IN OUR EXPERIENCE, IT'S ALWAYS MORE DIFFICULT

THEY KIND OF WANT THE LOVER ALL TO THEMSELF,

JEALOUSY IS NORMAL, I MEAN, EVEN POLY PEOPLE HAVE JEALOUSY,

BUT IS IT SOMETHING, LIKE, YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO GET OVER?

IS IT SOMETHING THAT YOU'RE JUST LIKE, "THIS IS HOW I AM,

AND IT'S NOT CHANGING," OR--

- YOU KNOW, UM...

A LOT OF IT IS REALLY STILL

JUST KIND OF GETTING COMFORTABLE WITH IT.

"OH, IN ONE YEAR, I'M GONNA BE FINE,"

AND, LIKE, I JUST DON'T-- I CAN'T--I DON'T SEE--

- YEAH. - I DON'T THINK THAT WAY.

I CAN'T--I DON'T-- I CAN'T SEE THAT.

THE PART THAT'S BEEN REALLY HARD FOR ME IN THE PAST

ABOUT NOT WANTING TO GO TO SLUMBER PARTIES

OR SEX PARTIES IS THAT I'M NOT USED TO THAT

SORT OF MULTI-PERSON, INTIMATE CONNECTION.

I'M KIND OF UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THOSE THINGS,

AND FOR ME, LIKE, GETTING TO KNOW EVERYBODY IN THE POD

AND ALL HER DIFFERENT FRIENDS NATURALLY IS WHERE,

YOU KNOW, THAT COMFORT, I THINK, WILL COME.

- YOU KNOW, JESSE'S NEW TO THIS WORLD.

I MEAN, HE'S TALKING TO HIS GIRLFRIEND'S HUSBAND,

FOR GOD'S SAKE.

I'M TRYING TO THROW HIM INTO THIS POLY WORLD,

AND IT'S JUST-- HE'S JUST NOT THERE YET.

BUT HE IS TAKING THOSE STEPS. I DO SEE IT.

YOU KNOW, I JUST HOPE THAT HE KEEPS ON TAKING THOSE STEPS.

I HAVE A LITTLE MORE TIME TO MYSELF,

AND I'M NOTICING JENNIFER'S NOT AROUND AS MUCH.

- AW. - YEAH, SO I JUST FEEL

LIKE I'M KINDA STARTING TO MISS HER, BUT--

- YEAH, OF COURSE, LIKE, I WANT TO BE

TOTALLY CONGRUENT WITH YOU, I WANT EVERYTHING TO BE OKAY.

I JUST--I'M SCARED THAT YOU'RE GONNA TAKE THIS AWAY.

I WOULD RATHER HAVE JEN ONDAY A WEEK

THAN NO DAYS A WEEK. - AW.

- WELL, I'M NOT-- - THAT'S REALLY SWEET.

- LET'S SCHEDULE. - HOW ABOUT IF--

- LET'S PULL OUT OUR SCHEDULES. - WHAT I'M SAYING IS, LIKE,

MAYBE I COULD DO THREE NIGHTS AND THREE NIGHTS,

AND THEN THE LAST NIGHT, WE COULD ALL

JUST HANG OUT TOGETHER WITH THE WHOLE POD.

- YEAH. - I'D LOVE THAT, I'D LOVE THAT.

- YEAH, AND THAT'S TOTALLY BALANCED.

- THAT SOUNDS GOOD TO ME.

- I'M REALLY PLEASED WITH THIS MEETING.

IT ENDED ON A GOOD NOTE.

EVERYBODY WAS LAUGHING AND SMILING.

I COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE.

- I AM, OVERALL, HAPPY WITH THE SITUATION.

- [laughs] - YEAH, SHE'S ALL YOURS.

- SOMETIMES-- - I DON'T GET YOU.

SEEM LIKE A GREAT GUY. - I LOVE MY WIFE TOO.

I LOVE YOUR GIRLFRIEND, JESSE.

[laughter] - AWESOME.

ME TOO.

[laughter]

- WHEN WE LEAVE THE GYM, I ASK MEGAN

TO DRIVE ME BY THE LOCAL FLOWER SHOP.

IT'S A PLACE I VISIT REGULARLY.

I BOUGHT FLOWERS FOR LEIGH ANN

BECAUSE SHE NEEDS SOME SPECIAL ATTENTION.

- HELLO. - HI, BABY.

- HOW ARE YOU?

- HOW ARE YOU? - GOOD.

- THAT WHOLE SCENARIO IN THE MORNING JUST THREW ME.

- HOW ARE YOU? - GOOD.

TIRED, IT'S BEEN A LONG DAY. - YEAH?

- WORKING HARD... - MM-HMM.

- OR HARDLY WORKING? - YEAH, RIGHT.

WORKING HARD. - [chuckles]

WHICH IS KIND OF RARE. [laughs]

- WHY DON'T YOU TAKE YOUR DRINK AND HEAD INTO THE BEDROOM,

AND I HAVE A LITTLE SURPRISE FOR YOU.

- A SURPRISE? - I DO.

- MM.

AW.

AW, HONEY.

I WAS, YOU KNOW, REALLY TOUCHED.

I OPENED THE CARD, AND IT JUST SAID

AND BE CLOSE TO ME AND THAT HE WAS MY HUSBAND,

AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL AND TOUCHING.

OH, THANK YOU. [sniffles]

- I FELT BADLY THIS MORNING.

I'M SORRY. - [sighs]

- YOU KNOW I'M SO PROUD OF HOW HARD YOU WORK.

I DON'T WANT TO MAKE YOU FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT.

- AND I--OF COURSE, I WANT TO STAY WITH YOU GUYS.

IT'S HARD FOR ME GET UP AND LEAVE

AND LEAVE YOU GUYS IN BED. YOU KNOW?

- I DO. - IT'S REALLY HARD FOR ME.

- I UNDERSTAND THAT, YOU KNOW,

SOMETIMES, YOU'RE FEELING LEFT OUT.

- [whispering] THANK YOU.

CHRIS IS MAKING A REALLY BIG GESTURE AND A BIG EFFORT

TO INCLUDE ME AND MAKE ME FEEL SPECIAL AND LOVED,

AND YOU KNOW, IT REALLY WORKED.

LITTLE THINGS LIKE THAT MAKE THE HUGEST DIFFERENCE.

- I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, BABY. - I LOVE YOU TOO.

- HEY. - DID I INTERRUPT SOMETHING?

WE WERE HAVING THIS MOMENT TO BOND,

AND, YOU KNOW, MEGAN COMES IN.

THE FEELING THAT I GET OFF HER

IS THAT SHE FEELS LEFT OUT AND THAT SOMEHOW TAKES AWAY FROM HER

THAT WE'RE HAVING A PRIVATE MOMENT.

- WHAT ARE YOU GUYS UP TO?

- I WAS JUST BEING EMOTIONAL. [laughs]

SO OF COURSE, WE'RE INCLUDING HER.

- WHY DON'T YOU GET YOUR GLASS OF WINE,

AND-- - SURE, I'LL--

- MAYBE WE CAN HAVE SOME US TIME.

- I WILL GO GET MY DRINK. I'LL BE RIGHT BACK.

- ALL RIGHT, HONEY.

- EVEN THOUGH I WISH I WAS GETTING FLOWERS,

I THINK IT'S AMAZING THAT HE WANTS

TO BRING HER SOMETHING SPECIAL,

BUT MAYBE I FEEL A LITTLE ENVIOUS ABOUT IT.

[glasses clinking]

- [giggles]

I DEFINITELY SIT AND WATCH THE BEAUTIFUL MOMENTS WITH THEM,

PRACTICING COMPERSION.

IT'S ONE OF THE REASONS THAT I'M REALLY INTO POLY,

BECAUSE I REALLY ENJOY WATCHING TWO OTHER PEOPLE CONNECT.

[all moaning]

- MMM. - OH, WHERE ARE YOU GOING?

OH, ANOTHER DRINK? - JUST GETTING A LITTLE DRINK.

[both breathing heavily]

[both moaning]

[grunts]

- YEAH. - WHERE ARE YOU?

- I JUST CAME TO FINISH MY WINE.

- I JUST WANTED TO GET SOME WINE.

VERY PUSHED OFF THE BED BY THEIR ENERGY.

I THOUGHT WHAT THEY WERE HAVING

AND I WANTED THEM TO HAVE THAT,

AND I DIDN'T WANT TO DISRUPT THAT.

- [sighs]

YOU JUST BAILED ON THE WHOLE THING.

- WELL, I MEAN, I WASN'T-- - YEAH, LIKE,

WE WERE HAVING A MOMENT, AND THEN, YOU LEFT.

LIKE, IT AFFECTED MY ABILITY TO HAVE A GOOD TIME.

- YEAH, YOU WERE ALL-- - WELL, YOU GUYS WERE

ENJOYING YOURSELVES.

I WAS GIVING YOU GUYS A MOMENT, LIKE, IT WAS

A LOT OF ENERGY IN THE BED... - YEAH, BUT WHY'D YOU--

- AND YOU PULLED HER TO THAT SIDE,

- MEGAN CLAIMS THAT EVERYTHING WAS FINE,

BUT I THINK THAT THERE IS A LITTLE MORE TO IT THAN THAT.

THERE ARE TIMES

IS SOMEWHAT THREATENING.

PULLING YOURSELF OUT OF IT LIKE THAT REALLY KILLED

OUR ABILITY TO ENJOY OURSELVES.

- WELL, YOU GUYS PULLED YOURSELVES ON THAT END,

AND IT WASN'T TO HURT YOUR GUYS' FEELINGS,

AND I'M SORRY THAT IT DID, BUT THAT WASN'T MY INTENTION.

I LOVE WATCHING YOU GUYS BE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER.

IT'S A BEAUTIFUL THING TO ME, AND TO FEEL LIKE

IT BOTHERS YOU TO WATCH US IN LOVE, AND YOU CAN'T DO IT,

THAT'S A PROBLEM.

I FEEL LIKE HAVING A POWERFUL, CONNECTED MOMENT WITH CHRIS

IS A DIRECT ASSAULT ON HER.

IT SEEMS LIKE IT MAKES HER INSECURE,

AND IN A WAY, MAKES IT SEEM WRONG TO LOVE MY HUSBAND,

AND I JUST--I JUST DON'T THINK THAT THAT'S RIGHT.

WE'RE JUST TRYING TO SAY, LIKE, WE HAD--

WE HAD ENERGY, WE HAD CONNECTION.

- WHAT DID YOU WANT ME TO DO? DID YOU WANT ME TO, LIKE,

SHOVE MYSELF IN BETWEEN YOU GUYS?

I DIDN'T WANT TO DISRUPT THAT.

THAT'S THE THING, YOU GUYS WERE HAVING A MOMENT.

- YEAH, BUT YOU DID DISRUPT IT BY LEAVING WITH ANGER.

- IT'S THE SAME THING. - WELL, OKAY, SO LET'S

HAVE RULES THAT "I'M NOT ALLOWED TO LEAVE" THE BEDROOM.

- I DON'T THINK ANYBODY NEEDS RULES

ABOUT WHAT YOU CAN AND CAN'T DO.

WE WANT YOU TO STAY THERE AND APPRECIATE THAT

AND BE PART OF THE EXPERIENCE. - SO MAKE ME A PART OF IT.

- WELL, YOU DON'T NEED TO BE PHYSICALLY A PART OF IT

FOR EVERY SINGLE SECOND.

OKAY, BUT WAIT A SECOND,

- I DON'T KNOW, I'M JUST LIKE--

- EVERYBODY HAS THEIR OWN OPINION AND THEIR OWN VIEWPOINT.

I RESPECT-- - I'M GOING TO BED.

- I RESPECT THAT YOU GUYS HAVE THAT.

IT'S THE WAY EVERYBODY PERCEIVES THINGS, AND--

- RIGHT, SO I GUESS--

WAS TO MULTIPLY THE LOVE, NOT DIVIDE IT.

- I GET DEFENSIVE BECAUSE THEY'RE JUST POKING AT ME.

THEY JUST POKE AT ME, LIKE, "ARE YOU SURE?

AND I'M JUST LIKE, "SHUT THE FUCK UP.

- THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT I'M REALLY SEEING

THIS TYPE OF DISCORD.

IF WE DON'T FIND A WAY TO RESOLVE THIS PROBLEM QUICKLY,