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I liked how when they sang "Everything got really smooth."

Oh, wait, wait, wait. Hold on.

Dianne, I got an extra one.

Can you save it so I can give it to Julia?

Oh, yeah. Good idea.

She'll like that.

Yeah.

Let's get a cab.

Oh.

Evening. Hi.

Hi. You free?

Yes, ma'am.

Amy!

MAN Aphrodite, Aphrodite.

This is the marine operator

for Captain Mark McCune.

McCune aboard the Aphrodite.

I've got the emergency room

at San Francisco County Hospital.

They're asking if you know a Dianne Parker.

Taxi!

Hello? Excuse me.

Hello?

Hello. Hi.

Hi. I'm looking for Parker.

Oh, it's Dianne. Dianne Parker.

Can I help you?

Uh, yeah. You have a playhouse for my brother, Dr. McCune.

Oh, yeah.

So just tell David to call me.

I'll come by his office and put it together for him.

What's wrong with now?

I'll help you.

Then you can say thanks; I'll say, "Forget about it.

Have dinner with me on my yacht."

You'll say, "Sure. Why not?"

See? I give you the easy part.

I say, "Sure. Why not?"

You don't even know me.

I know you're strong and you work hard

and you're not afraid to get your clothes dirty.

You're not dating my brother, are you?

No. we're friends.

He can chaperone if you're scared.

Sailor boy's unloading the playhouse.

Okay.

That girl's come, too.

Dianne's here?

It's very simple.

Watch me. Watch me.

Like this, all right?

Wait, wait, wait.

Then fold it back.

Come on. Come on. Keep up with the master.

Here, use a clean one.

No. No do-overs.

Just fold it back like this.

Where did you learn how to do this?

Some old guy in a Chinese opium den.

You've been to China?

I've been everywhere.

Ooh, Tales from the sea.

Take him with a grain of salt, please.

All right.

Miss Piggot, my seventh-grade art teacher had me

stay after school and make 50 of these.

It was my punishment.

For what?

You don't want to know.

You won't like me anymore.

Who says I like you now?

Come on. You tell me.

He was too busy

running for student council president.

He doesn't remember.

Treasurer. I was running for treasurer.

Well, I was running for my life.

You got sauce on your chin.

Thanks.

There you go.

Thank you.

Sure.

That's Orion.

Canis Major.

Taurus.

My mother, she painted them on her bedroom ceiling.

You never talk about her.

Nothing to talk about.

It took two years.

I hated the hospital.

I... stopped going.

David, he was, he was the hero.

He held her hand.

You were 12.

No, he kept asking me to come with him.

Said she wanted to see me.

Say good-bye.

I don't beat myself up about it.

Mothers aren't supposed to die.

You had every right to be angry.

She understood.

She knew you loved her.

How do you do that?

Make me feel like you've known me all my life?

Maybe we're soul mates.

You make everything perfect.

I mean it.

I need you.

I love you.

David! David!

She said yes!

She said yes!

We're getting married!

Come on. Say something, David.

Come on. Say something.

Congratulations.

He's jealous.

No. No, that's great. I didn't...

Congratulations.

Thank you.

That's wonderful.

Mmm... mmm!

Oh, everyone in the world is jealous of me right now.

Good morning, Mr. Fisherman.

Good morning, Mrs. Fisherman.

Oh, don't get lost out there, okay?

I can't get lost.

What do you think the stars are for?

God never figured we'd invent a compass.

If you need directions, just follow the stars.

Besides, I'll always come home to you.

Me and the kids?

Kids?

Well, one, for starters.

Woo!

Come here!

Oh!

Wow!

This... mmm!

Hi.

Hi. You seen my mom?

She's over in the stacks.

What are you doing here?

What?

No!

Oh, my!

You're lucky you're over morning sickness.

So did you have morning sickness with me?

Morning, afternoon and evening.

You must be having a boy.

Old wives tale.

You going to eat this?

No. I think you are.

Well...

how much weight did you gain?

Oh, when you start running after Mark Jr

it'll melt right off you.

No. If we have a boy

we're naming him after Dad.

You are? Mm-hmm.

Well, thank you, sweetheart.

He'd like that.

I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to make you sad.

Oh, no.

I was just remembering when you were born.

I held you in my arms

and suddenly this wave of terror came over me.

Here I was holding this complete stranger.

How much should I feed you?

What if you wouldn't stop crying?

Uh, suppose you hated me?

Your dad came over to me and he said-- bless his heart--

"Hannah, give her to me."

And suddenly I knew I didn't want to let you go.

You were mine.

We have a lot of books about motherhood at the library

but none of them can prepare you for that moment...

when you give your heart to your child.

Oh!

What is it?

He kicked. He kicked.

What?

Oh, my!

I think he's going to be a football player.

Just now. That was the first kick.

Well, maybe

soccer, at least.

Please, don't cry, okay?

It's going to be okay.

We'll figure it out.

It'll be okay.

It's not going to be okay.

Okay.

Listen...

Dianne, we'll... we'll have a baby.

We'll have lots of babies.

Just not now.

I want this baby.

Did you not understand what Dr. Ellis was saying?

I don't care.

A baby who can't walk or talk.

A baby who's going to die.

Listen to me.

Dianne...

I can't deal with this.

Hey.

Genetic abnormalities.

Neurological damage.

Here, you went to med school.

Did you take a second test?

You're looking at it.

Sorry.

How's Dianne?

She wants to have this baby.

You have to help me.

Explain it to her.

Tell her that it's not fair to the baby.

This is between you and her.

You're a doctor. She'll listen to you.

Mark, I cannot tell someone to terminate a pregnancy.

Forget your hypocritical oaths and ethics.

What if this was your baby?

Come on, David, be honest.

I don't know.

You know what you would do.

Anybody home?

Mark?

Dianne?

Mark's not here.

He left last night.

He'll be back.

He's scared.

I'm scared, too.

He showed me the test results.

I made some calls.

The spine and the nervous system are damaged.

There's fluid in the brain.

Your baby won't walk or have normal speech.

If the heart and lungs don't develop

they won't support the body's growth.

This research expert I spoke to said

he's seen cases like this survive up to six years.

Don't tell me not to have her.

I won't.

I mean, that's not why I'm here.

She'll probably need to undergo some surgery.

She'll need good care.

I'll be her doctor if you want.

Will she be in pain?

I'll help you.

I'll help you take care of her if you want to do this.

Mark!

Dianne!

Dianne!

Grab my hand!

Mark!

Dianne!

Help!

Julia, I'm coming.

I'm coming.

What is it, sweetie?

Oh, what is it?

Does it hurt?

Do you have a cramp?

Do you want me to rub it?

You want me to rub your tummy?

Oh, shh, shh.

I know, I know.

Did you have a bad dream?

Oh, I know, I know.

Is Julia all right?

Oh, yeah, she's fine.

Sweetheart, you look terrible.

Go back to bed.

You're sick?

No. I just had a bad dream.

Maybe Julia had one, too.

I hate when she's scared.

I don't know how to tell her it's just a dream.

Oh, she knows.

I dreamt about Mark.

He was drowning; I couldn't save him.

Good.

Forgive us our trespasses, Mom.

I forgave that louse years ago.

I'm not the one having nightmares.

You can't help what you dream.

Forgive and you'll forget.

Five years is a long time

to hold out hope for an ex-husband.

Or carry a grudge.

Or both.

Six. Six years in August.

Yeah, but who's counting?

Not Mark.

He still sends you

a check every month.

Yeah, but that's because he knows

I'm going to send it right back.

It's his conscience cleaner.

It's his opening gambit

and you keep the conversation going.

Why don't you just rip it up

instead of mailing it back to him?

You're right.

Next time I will.

Ma...

I think Grandma has one of these somewhere.

We haven't seen it in a while, have we?

That's red...

and maybe that one's...

that's more brown than red.

And orange.

Ma...

What's she got?

Nothing.

We're just here for a checkup.

What have you got?

Nothing.

I feed the fish

and take out the bloaters for Martha.

She freaks out if there's any bloaters.

There always are.

There we go. Good.

Heart sounds good.

Lungs, too.

Good. Get out.

I have sick people waiting.

Hear that? He's kicking us out.

We're too healthy.

I didn't say you looked healthy.

Don't even start with me, Uncle David.

We're having a good day.

Looks like you need a break.

You look tired.

It's your fluorescent lighting.

Say "hasta la bye-bye, Uncle David."

Seriously, Dianne.

Seriously, stop.

Look, I moved in with my mom.

She's retiring just to be with Julia.

We're fine.

Didn't mean to bite your head off.

I have that effect on women.

Good-bye, sweetie.

Da...

Okay.

Thank you.

All right?

Mm-hmm.

Okay, let's see what we have here.

Oh, Julia, you won't believe there's starfish in here.

Can I get you one?

Okay, I've got one.

Ooh, look at that.

Gosh, look at that.

Look at the feet.

Kind of drippy.

Cool.

All the little tentacles.

That's where it sucks in...

Dianne!

Hey!

Starfish.

Okay.

Hey, you want a ride?

I can walk home.

Anybody who cleans out that tank deserves a ride.

Come on.

Got any plans for the summer?

Mrs. Sobel says I need a summer job.

I told her I'd feed your fish

but she said that wasn't enough.

Who's Mrs. Sobel?

The case worker.

I hate her.

Ever think about being a mother's helper?

You like kids?

Well, that depends.

You can't just "like kids."

They're all different.

No one ever says, "So, do you like adults?"

Touche.

What does that mean?

It means you win.

You got me. It's a fencing term.

It's French.

Well.

Is someone home?

My mom is.

And boyfriend Bud.

Thanks for the ride.

Okay. See ya.

"Farewell, cow, and farewell, cat

"rabbit, tiger, sullen rat.

"To our children we shall say

"how we walked the Milky Way.

"You whose journeys now begin

"if you reach a lovely inn

"if a rabbit makes your bed

"if two dragons bake your bread

"rest a little for my sake

and give my love to William Blake."

That's a good story, huh?

Did you ask David to dinner?

Oh, I forgot.

Dianne.

What? I forgot.

I'll call him.

No, Mom, please.

Do you want me to stop having nightmares?

David reminds me of Mark.

Every time.

Apples and oranges.

Something about his voice-- it's...

David's voice is much deeper.

It's exactly the same.

All right, I will...

I could use a little help here.

Stop whining, you worthless mutt!

Come here!

All right, that's it! That's it!

Get in there!

You let him out.

What did I tell you, Amy?

I'm sorry. I thought he needed exercise.

If you want a dog to obey

first you got to break him.

Do you hear me?!

The whole neighborhood can hear you.

Hey, Amy Beth.

Where'd you put my cigarettes?

You told me not to buy you any, remember?

You wanted to quit.

I'll go.

We're out of hot sauce, anyway.

Oh, cookie face

don't be gloomy.

Buddy's fun.

He doesn't like me.

Don't be silly.

He loves you.

And don't be mad.

Go to bed-- you got school tomorrow.

School's out for the summer.

It's over.

You had moving up ceremony?

Oh, I wanted to come.

Why didn't you tell me?

I did.

No, you didn't.

You did? Did you?

It wasn't anything.

It was just a stupid assembly.

It doesn't matter.

I'm not mad.

Oh... hug me.

Oh, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.

David.

Hey.

Hi.

Uh... Dianne, this is Amy Williams.

I know Amy.

You fish out the bloaters for Martha, right?

Right. Amy's looking for a summer job.

Oh, that's great-- did you check the bulletin board

at the rec center?

Actually, I told her you were looking for a mother's helper.

Oh.

Where's Julia?

She's sleeping.

Would you like some lemonade?

Let me give you a hand.

You can have your lemonade

and then you can get on your horse, cowboy.

I told you, I don't need help with Julia.

Especially not from a 12-year-old.

She's a good kid.

She's having some trouble at home.

She remembered Julia. She wanted to come.

Why? So she can tell her friends at school?

I remember her, you know, from the waiting room.

Well, Julia seems to like her.

She's awake. They're having a little chat.

You like my watch?

It was my dad's.

It was being fixed at the jewelers

the day his ship went down.

It glows in the dark, see?

Ma...

It's okay-- she's making lemonade.

She'll be right back.

It's a guy's watch, but I don't care.

I've had it six years now.

It's waterproof-- I even wear it in the shower.

Hear it?

Mee...

You want to wear it while I'm here?

Oh, be careful.

It's too big-- it might fall off and break.

Oh... look at your little wrists.

Your mom's right.

You can buy her a kid's watch

at the drugstore with different color straps.

Yeah, I've seen those.

Ba...

They don't have blue.

Yellow, red or green.

Get yellow.

Can I push her chair out?

Okay.

Here comes the bump.

Did you like that?

Did your stomach flip up?

Want to do it again? Okay.

Whoo! Was that fun?

She really likes that.

Yeah.

Mee...

That's my name--

don't wear it out.

Do you want to trade hats? Here.

Oh, you look pretty.

Here.

You like that?

Do I look good?

"Mee" is "Amy"?

Uh-huh.

Girls at school trade clothes all the time.

I don't trade with anybody, though.

Do you like school?

It's okay. I like math.

Mmm.

Do you go to dances?

Ugh. Boys in my grade can't dance.

Now, my dad was a good dancer.

He drowned when I was six.

My dad died when I was 17.

It hurts in my chest when I think about him.

Does it hurt in your chest?

Big-time.

Him and my mom won a dance contest together once.

We had a picture of it, but my mom took it down.

Yeah. Sometimes it's hard to look

at old photographs, you know?

Is that why you don't have any of Julia's dad?

Did he drown?

No. He just doesn't live with us anymore.

Thanks.

You should get some pictures for Julia.

So she knows what he looks like.

Hmm.

Sometimes I can't remember my dad's face

and it scares me.

'Cause I'm going to grow up and look different

and he won't know me in heaven.

And what if I don't recognize him?

Mmm. So, got a boyfriend?

No.

Lucky. My mom's got one.

He thinks he can sing.

Julia and Amy traded hats.

Amy says all the girls at school

trade clothes with their friends.

Julia has a friend.

Talked to Martha.

David's got the flu.

My reading group's coming over.

Otherwise I'd deliver this myself.

Well, Ma, he doesn't need your soup. Dianne...

Trust me, I'm sure the Single Mother Brigade is on duty.

I'm sure he's drowning in soup.

And brownies and hand-knitted socks.

Do you remember his address

or should I write it down for you?

David?

David?

Dianne?

Oh, I'm sorry.

You scared me.

Uh, the door was unlocked

so I let myself in.

She'd kill me if I came back with it.

What? With what?

Oh, the chicken soup.

Martha said you came home with the flu.

Go back to sleep.

Oh, and, um... these are your glasses.

I took them off.

So, it's on the stove.

The soup.

Thank you.

What is it?

Don't ever send me to his house again.

Sorry.

This is your temporary card.

Just sign the back.

Now you can check out a book.

I think Julia wants one, too.

Absolutely.

Julia, you should have a library card, too.

Will you sign your name?

Amy's going to help you sign your name.

J...

U-L-I-A.

Julia. Look.

Now you have a library card just like Amy.

Let me take that for you.

There you go. See?

Mom...

Mom, got you a book with my own card.

Oh... baby...

I've got one of my headaches-- a really bad one.

Sorry.

Look-- Agatha Christie.

Hannah says she's really famous.

She's written a million mysteries.

And Hannah's read every one, I bet.

Oh... oh, don't do that.

You can't sleep-- it's afternoon.

Get up. Get dressed.

Oh! Ooh...

Mom?

Mom?

It was all my fault.

Amy, I'm here.

Okay...

Come on, David, pick up.

Please pick up.

She seems stable.

You can call me in the morning if you want.

This was a bad one.

It was like she couldn't catch her breath

you know, like she'd been running.

Her lungs are small, you know that.

She's growing, and they're not.

I used to pray for her to grow.

When she was born, she was so tiny.

I was afraid to touch her after the surgery, you know?

I just knew I was hurting her every time I picked her up.

I remember talking out loud to myself--

shouting, really-- usually at Mark.

Now I just... want her to stay the same size

and not grow an inch.

What about Mark?

I don't think about Mark anymore.

I'm sorry I made you come out in the rain.

Don't be afraid to call me again tonight.

Okay, thanks.

And try to get some sleep yourself.

All right. Good night.

Okay.

Julia wants her Christmas rabbit

but I can't find it.

Her Christmas rabbit?

You gave it to her.

With the red top hat

and the bell.

Wha... That was three years ago.

Well, she wants it.

Oh, my, I think it got lost in between hospital visits.

Okay, I'll tell her.

Did you tell her about the rabbit?

No. I didn't even remember that rabbit until she

mentioned the top hat.

Someone must have mentioned it.

Keep the tiger there.

You like the doggy?

Want to keep him here with you?

Let's do a rhythm strip.

We did one two weeks ago.

Yeah, I know.

That little click every ten heartbeats or so

seems a little more frequent now.

It might mean nothing

but I'm going to do a strip and send it to Kaplan

see if he wants to do an echo.

It may be nothing, believe me.

I... am an old woman kind of guy.

I check the locks on every door.

David, tell me the truth.

The truth is the same as it's always been.

She's surprised us too often for me and Kaplan

to have a timetable.

I know that's hard.

Good.

Maaaa.

Here you go.

Mmm, thanks.

Hmm.

Amy left this on my desk at the library.

"I learned a word, it's "serendipity.

"When you say it, it sounds skippity.

"Light and airy, just by chance

a breeze that makes the flowers dance."

"Skippity."

It's nice, huh?

I like that.

Hmm...

Amy is what I imagine Julia would be like.

Smart... messy and awkward, you know?

Full of questions.

I had so many plans when I got married.

You sound like your life has been folded up and put away.

But it's not over.

The carnival opened in Blair County.

You know, Amy's never been.

We should take the girls.

Oh, it's two hours away.

Thursday's my last day at the library.

We could go Friday afternoon and avoid the traffic.

All right.

I know you made us promise no fuss

but this doesn't feel right.

Well, you'll get your chance

at the Book Lovers Ball.

You can make as many speeches as you want.

I'll play the fool for a big donation.

You'll play the guest of honor and like it.

Aw. Well, we'll see.

Goodbye, Mrs. Parker.

We'll miss you.

Yeah.

Go, Hannah! Go, Hannah!

Go! Go!

Go, Hannah! Go, Hannah! Go, Hannah!

Go! Go!

Go, Hannah! Go, Hannah! Go, Hannah!

Go! Go!

Go, Hannah! Go, Hannah! Go! Go!

Go, Hannah!

Whoo!

Congratulations.

Oh, thank you.

Happy new life.

Good job.

Thank you, sweetie.

Oh, thank you.

Mmm...

Oh, ah!

I was feeling a little sorry for myself before, but not now.

Oh. Well, remember what you told me at graduation?

"Marvels of the universe lie ahead."

Here you go.

Mmm... yum.

Here, Julia.

She like it?

Yeah.

That was her favorite.

A rabbit.

Oh, no.

Oh. A pig.

A pig.

Hi.

Hello.

Julia wants to go on the Ferris wheel.

Can I take her?

Why don't you and Hannah go.

Julia and I will stay down here and wave

But Julia's the one who wants to go.

I won't go without her; It wouldn't be fair.

They strap them in; it's safe.

Why don't you just take Amy.

Honest, Dianne, I'm not making it up.

She said she wanted to go.

Well, it's just that it's... it's awfully high, Amy.

She might get scared.

No, not if Amy's with her.

All right, we'll all go.

No, let her go with Amy.

Let her go with her friend.

How pretty.

Hey, guys!

Ahh!

Ah!

Oh!

Look, I did it!

Thank you.

Whoa!

Dianne!

What? What? What?

What's wrong?

Okay, I got you. I got you.

What's happening?

Dianne, hold down her tongue.

Get away. I know what I'm doing.

She's bleeding!

It's her lip.

Mom, call an ambulance.

I got you, sweetie.

Julia...

I got you.

It's okay.

It's all right.

Hi. This is David McCune.

I'm not here right now, but you can leave a message.

David, it's Hannah.

We have a problem with Julia.

Woman Dr. Gelber. Dr. Gelber.

As soon as she's stable, I want to transfer her to Mercy.

They don't know her here.

Hillcrest is a good hospital.

I know. It's just...

I'm sure they're thinking, "What's the point?"

They're taking good care of her, Dianne.

The nurse asked me if I want to speak

to social services about a hospice.

I told her Julia lives at home.

Thank God, you've never played me

like a martyred mom with a "special" kid.

We'll see how she is in the morning, okay?

Amy thinks this was her fault.

Can you please tell her it wasn't?

She took Julia on the Ferris wheel.

The two of them?

Oh, if you'd seen her;

heard her when she got to the top, she...

So excited.

My wild thing.

You're not afraid, are you?

You'll try anything.

Bet you could see everything from up there.

I'll talk to Goodman.

He'll probably adjust her meds.

And you just keep on going, okay?

Keep on loving her.

Put it on there.

You got it?

Good job.

Like that, Julia?

Good job.

That's cool, Julia.

Good job.

What do you think?

Uh.

No?

You need something for the Book Lovers Ball.

Let's find you a dress.

I don't need to go to that.

Yes, you do.

Hannah's the guest of honor.

How about this? Come on.

Let's see.

No, don't look at the tag.

It's a birthday present.

It's too much money for a birthday present.

Besides, it's not even my birthday.

I got my first dress-up dress here.

I did, when my mother took me

to San Francisco to see The Sound of Music.

Every summer, we'd go, we'd leave my dad at home

and we'd go see a musical, just the two of us.

We'd stay in a hotel, and we'd get room service

and we'd go to the evening performance for grownups.

I remember those trips to the city.

Your little overnight bag.

Now, there is a picture of you somewhere

in a red raincoat, standing in front of the theater.

You should take Amy to San Francisco

just for the night to the theater.

Amy is not my daughter.

Oh, here, sweetie, let me...

No, Mom.

One on each side.

You don't want to look like a little schoolgirl.

Just give it to me.

I like the way Dianne does it.

This way looks good, too.

Oh, wear it however you want.

I've got a headache.

Buddy's going to take you.

I asked Dianne to pick me up.

Hi. How are you?

Hi. Good. Thank you.

I think it could be lots of fun.

There's plenty for them to do there.

They could go to the theater, museums.

Why, it's just for the weekend.

Amy's never been to San Francisco.

What about Julia?

Oh, Julia stays with me.

You know, Dianne's never spent a night

away from that child in six years.

It's not just Amy I'm thinking about.

She won't do it.

Well...

I'll talk to her.

Good.

Mmm.

You lost?

Um...

What are you doing back here?

Uh, just... inhaling.

I see.

I love the way libraries smell.

When I was little, my mom used to bring me here

and I thought all the books belonged to her.

My dad built these shelves.

I wish he could be here tonight.

You look nice.

Thank you. You, too.

Thanks.

These are pretty.

Oh, they were your grandmother's.

Mark gave them to me.

Ah, yes. That's why they would seem familiar.

Let's dance.

I cannot believe this!

I-I had to pay the rent...

No, no, no, it's not okay.

You told me you were going to give me the money

and now there's no money.

I-I'm not saying it's okay.

I'm just saying I don't know where to get the money from

because it's already gone out, that's all.

It's already gone out.

You told me I was going to be able to get this amp.

I have a gig tomorrow night!

We'll try and figure it out as soon as I get the next...

"Try and figure..."?

What do you want me to do?

What do you want me to say?

I want you to give me the money

that you told me you were going to give me!

Okay, okay, okay!

Just shut up and stop this!

I'm outta here!

Knock it off!

Where's your mother?

She's sleeping.

She said she's tired and she just wants to sleep.

Did you have breakfast?

Get out of my way.

No.

Shut up!

I said shut up!

Buddy...

Go get me one of your pillowcases.

Buddy, you can't. You can't.

He's just a puppy. He can still learn.

I swear I'll never touch him again.

Go get me a pillowcase!

No.

Amy!

No... no... no...

Ow! Ow!

Get in there!

Now, you leave him in there.

Okay, get out.

You can walk from here.

Say "Thank you, Buddy."

Thank you, Buddy.

Oh, no, no, no, no, no.

I said you can walk.

He's going for a little swim.

No! Hey!

Ow...

No... no... no...!

Buddy, Buddy, no!

Buddy, please...

Get off of me.

Please don't!

Get out of here.

Buddy...

I told you, a dog who won't train isn't worth jack.

No!

No!

Amy Williams. I'm her mother.

Where is she? I'm her mother.

Was she admitted in the last hour?

Yes. They said she was here.

Amy... Williams.

She's fine.

Are you sure?

I just saw her.

She made it to shore with the dog.

Where is she? I want to see her.

You got a cigarette?

Tess, listen-- they arrested Buddy.

What?

Come here. Come here.

You have got to get into a treatment center-- now.

This is it, Tess. Child Services

has issued an order of protection against you.

Mommy?

Wha...? Baby...

Oh, honey.

Oh... oh...

Say good night to Julia.

And don't wake her up.

You got to keep it nice and quiet.

Amy...

Do you want some hot chocolate?

Come on.

When I was a kid, I used to sleep out here in the summer.

I'd lie on my back and try to count the stars.

You can't; there's too many.

Do you believe in Heaven, Dianne?

Absolutely.

I think my dad can see me from Heaven.

And I know he helped me get to shore today.

I know he did.

I wish he could come back.

So do I.

Julia misses her dad.

She's never met him.

His boat could sink.

He could drown, just like my dad

then it would be too late.

Oh...

Hey, it's clearing. Look.

Did you see that?

Yeah. Did you make a wish?

Yeah. Did you?

Yeah.

You want to take her to San Francisco?

Yeah. To see a play.

I said she couldn't go without your permission.

Taking her places, buying her clothes...

I'm grateful to you.

You don't need to be.

I like Amy very much.

She thinks you hung the moon.

You're going to be okay, Tess.

After Ryan died, I... couldn't sleep.

Pills didn't work.

I drink so I can sleep, that's all.

I'm not very good at being alone.

Mom!

Hi.

When you're better, I can come home, right?

I'm your mother. We belong together.

Love you.

Amy!

Dianne?

Dianne.

Dianne.

Would you like to see your daughter?

Not now.

Dianne.

NURSE Code Blue, E.R. Two.

Code Blue, E.R. Two.

Code Blue, E.R. Two.

Losing her! Losing her!

Done with that?

Thanks for the call.

Seems like old times.

Not really.

I meant when Mom was in the hospital.

I know what you meant.

What are you doing here, Mark?

The hospital got in touch with me.

Well... you don't need to stick around.

Dianne's not your responsibility.

Order something else. I'm buying.

Just coffee.

I thought you'd be married by now, have a couple of kids.

Seeing anyone?

20 patients a day, on the average.

Here's one of them.

She's my niece.

It's recent.

Taken about a month ago.

Keep it.

She's your daughter...

doesn't that mean anything to you?

I send a check every month.

It's not like I'm a deadbeat dad.

Now what?

You going to pay for her funeral?

Yeah. A few months, at the most.

Makes me sick, all of it.

Six years wasted.

You know, Dianne takes her to the beach sometimes.

They sing together.

Julia laughs when you tickle her.

She's got a great laugh.

You missed out, brother.

You can call it a waste, if that makes you feel better about it.

Put that back in your wallet, huh?

You tell everyone that Dianne's your wife, or is it a private game?

Whoa! Hey! Knock it off!

Sorry.

Dr. McCune?

What is it?

Dianne Parker's awake.

She's asking for you.

Great.

Where's David?

What?

Where is David?

He's not here yet.

Amy?

She's okay.

I'm not lying to you.

You want me to get the nurse?

You're here.

Yeah. You had my business card in your bag.

I'm sorry.

You can go.

What? You kidding?

You hate hospitals.

I'm not going to lose you again.

Am I dying?

No.

Not on my watch.

My little girl was hit by a car.

She's okay.

A drunk driver.

You say trust in your higher power.

Why should I trust something

that sends a storm to drown Ryan

or a car to hit my little girl?

If God wants to teach me a lesson

why doesn't he send a drunk driver to hit me?

I mean, that's fair

but Amy's just a little girl.

She's never, ever done anything bad.

If there is some master plan, I don't see it.

I'd like to, 'cause whatever it is

it's got to be better than what I've been doing.

I'm not going back.

Not until you do.

You can tell Julia I'm all right.

I don't want her to be scared.

Hannah's there.

You understand her better than anybody.

She trusts you.

I can't leave until you're okay.

Amy.

It's my fault.

We came here because of me.

Everybody gets hurt because of me.

I don't take good care of Julia.

Look what happened at the carnival.

I didn't take good care of my mom, either.

I hurt people.

I hurt everybody.

Oh, Amy, no.

It's okay.

Listen...

sometimes I feel just the way you said.

'Cause I can't fix something, it's my fault.

I'm a doctor-- I'm supposed to make everything okay.

But I can't.

We can't, Amy.

We can't stop...

taxis from jumping the curb or boats from sinking.

We just do what we can

and try not to blame ourselves

or anybody else, that's it.

I made Julia have a seizure at the carnival.

Julia's had seizures before

It isn't anything you did.

This has been the best summer

of her life, Amy.

Come here.

Do you know what it's meant to me

for Julia to have a friend?

I don't think I can tell you.

Not in words.

Your mother wants to get better because of you.

Don't you see, it's just the opposite of what you think.

You're so good...

for everyone.

Can you do something for me?

It's important.

Go back.

Tell Julia I love her

and I'm coming home.

Okay?

Thank you.

I went to three different places.

No one had lilacs.

I guess this isn't a good time to talk.

There's nothing to talk about.

You still had my card in your handbag.

I gave that to you when we went dancing

on the pier six years ago.

It's an evening bag.

I never use it.

Don't turn this into something.

You know, I was docking when the hospital called.

Docking here in San Francisco, a cab ride away.

What are the odds on that?

I'm tired.

We're meant to be together.

We're getting a second chance.

Dianne...

I'm not going to leave this time.

All right?

I appreciate it.

Thanks.

Okay. I've arranged for an ambulance

to take Dianne to the hospital in Hawthorne

as soon as she's ready to be moved.

She can have the knee surgery there

maybe by Friday.

I'll stay here with her.

You can go back.

Uh...

Look, I never stopped thinking about her

not one day.

Things could have been different.

Now they are.

Dianne wants you to stay?

Ask her.

I've had enough therapy.

I want to go home.

Amy's coming back.

She's got her arm in a cast.

She's going to need help getting dressed.

You're not ready.

You need more time, Tess.

I want it to be me.

I want to be the one to help her, not somebody else.

The important thing now

is to help yourself and to get better.

Helping Amy would help me get better.

I want to think about somebody else.

When I think about myself

I don't want to get better.

I don't get how people can forgive themselves.

I don't understand how to say life is not so bad

when it is.

You're going to feel pain sometimes, Tess

but you can handle that.

No one's happy all the time.

It's what you do with it.

I want to go home.

I'll feel better once I know you're there.

I'll leave tonight, if you want.

Mark says he'll stay around

until they transfer you.

Unless you don't want him here.

I can have Greenwald restrict your visitors.

No.

I need to forgive him.

For my sake as much as for Julia's.

You still love him?

I'm sorry.

None of my business.

I need time.

That's all I can think about right now is time.

Julia has so little left.

He doesn't know that.

I haven't told him.

I don't know, David.

It's hard to think right now.

He never took off his wedding band.

Here, baby, just... just take it.

I'll see you at Hawthorne, okay?

Bye.

Bye.

There she is! Julia!

Hi! Hi, sweetie.

Oh...

How's my girl?

How's my girl?

You look good.

I missed you so much.

How's Amy?

She's doing fine.

David's watching her.

Here, give me that.

Do I tell you I'd be lost without you

or do you know it?

I think you'd manage.

Dianne, I have a lot of respect for you--

as a person, as a woman.

And not just because you're my daughter.

Mom...

Mark was in San Francisco.

I know. David told me.

He wants to come back.

He wants to get married again.

Well, whatever you decide

you'll be doing the right thing.

I want to know what you think.

That you deserve to be happy

and no one can define that for you.

I never really forgave him.

I can now.

He's changed now.

He's... he's older.

I'm older, too.

I'm not expecting it to be

exactly the way it was, you know.

I mean, a lot's happened in six years.

To you it has.

I wish I were certain.

I was so certain when we got married.

Mark's sure.

He says we're meant to be together.

Mmm.

Is that his wedding ring?

He never stopped wearing it.

He made me take it.

No one's ever made you do anything.

It's not too late for Julia to know her father--

that's what I keep thinking.

Who do you have to know

to get a shave around here?

Come on in.

Hey. Hi.

I'll leave the key for you on the kitchen table.

Thanks.

It's your house, too.

Yeah, I don't see bunking at her mother's.

Put a good word in for me with Hannah, I'd appreciate it.

How's Dianne?

Been to see her?

She's got enough visitors without me hanging around.

If you hurry up, I'll take you to the hospital.

Uh, I'll get a cab.

Wish me luck.

Good luck.

Hey, you know, I've been thinking

Dianne and I should move up to Portland.

Get a really fresh start.

I got enough money to put down on a place--

nothing grand.

You know Seaside?

Just north of Rockaway Beach.

I brought some pictures.

Oh, it looks like you got company.

Hey.

You want to stay in the chair for a while?

Yeah, thanks.

All right, no dancing.

You weren't here. I thought I got stood up.

I was in X ray. I'm sorry.

Someone should have told you.

Nah, I didn't ask.

Hey, look, let's get out of here.

I can't propose sitting next to a bedpan.

Mark, uh...

Yes, I can.

Marry me.

Please.

Are you sure?

Yes. I love you.

I never stopped missing you.

You know, I hate that we lost these six years

and I want to make them up somehow.

I don't think they were lost-- I lived them.

You're right, you're right.

It's not starting over, it's starting now.

Everything's a first, okay?

'Kay.

I knew right when I saw it.

Isn't that a great old farm house?

Yeah.

Just an hour north of Portland.

It's great, but we can't take Julie to a farmhouse

in the middle of nowhere.

All her doctors are here.

I meant in the spring.

It'll be good for you-- afterwards.

After she dies?

Is that what you mean?

Move after she dies?

That's the plan?

Look... David told me

that she's only got a few months left.

Dianne...

If David told you she had ten years left

would you be here right now?

Be honest with me.

No, you be honest.

Would you do it again

knowing the kind of life she's had--

with doctors and surgery?

You don't know anything about her life.

She has a friend.

They tell secrets

and share ice cream and sing songs.

She's dying.

She's not even six years old

and she's dying.

Now, what was the point?

Look, we're going to have kids-- healthy kids.

We're going to have a real family.

Do you even know what that is?

Or do you mean a "perfect" family

where no one's ever sick

or angry or sad or in pain?

Six years, Mark...

you've never even touched your daughter...

never even seen her.

Oh, what are we talking about?

I love you, and that's all that matters now.

Where were you?

What were you doing, Mark, when I was up all night crying

because I was too tired to fall asleep?

Where were you when I was changing diapers

or going to the grocery store

or taking walks on the beach?

Where were you?!

I'm... I'm here now.

Six years--

for six years I have been apologizing for you in my head

trying to understand

trying to make excuses

and... now I understand.

Understand what?

Julia is my daughter.

She is...

part of who I am

and who I have become.

I don't know you.

And you sure don't know me.

I want you to leave us alone.

Don't come back.

Hi.

Hey.

Hannah, can I ask you a question?

Sure.

It's about Julia's dad. Oh.

I thought he was coming to see her.

Things didn't work out.

Why not?

Well, I don't have an answer to that question--

not a simple one, that's for sure.

But we don't always choose the right people to love.

Poets deceive us...

talk about the feeling

and things we say to each other--

and those things are important--

but in the end, it all comes down

to how much we're willing to give of ourselves.

Like Romeo and Juliet dying for each other.

Well, I don't know if killing yourself

in a crypt before you check your girlfriend for a pulse

is an act of love

but it makes for a good story.

Love isn't always so dramatic...

but it is an adventure.

I just spoke to Tess Williams.

She's coming home tomorrow.

Oh, good.

Where's Amy?

Oh, she rode her bike into town.

Oh.

You think Tess knows the Dewey decimal system?

I bet she could learn.

Mmm.

Why, are you going to get her a job?

Well, I can try.

David and I were talking about it.

He thinks he may know a doctor

who needs a receptionist.

How is David?

Well, I invited him to dinner

but he took a rain check.

You know he's selling his house?

Where's he going to live?

I saw his sign on my way back from the market.

Hmm.

Well, maybe he's getting a bigger place.

Is he seeing anybody?

Don't ask me.

Ask him.

Oh, stop avoiding him, Di, it's silly.

He cares about you.

He always has.

I know, and I didn't treat him very well.

I carried a torch for Mark

and David got tired of being patient.

Why do you think he's not coming to dinner?

Well, maybe because I invited him, not you.

Or maybe it's because he's seeing somebody.

No...

it's just better that I stay away from him.

All I ever gave David was a hard time.

Tomorrow's another day, Scarlett.

She blew her chance.

Amy!

She's here.

Mom!

Oh, Amy!

I missed you so much.

Oh!

Let me look at you.

You look great.

A lot better than I used to, right?

I feel better, too.

I'm not perfect, you know.

You don't go in and come out

and that's it.

I've got to go to meetings

and... and get lots of exercise

and I've got to eat right.

Can't sit around and get sad.

I got to get a job.

Oh, Amy, I almost lost you.

I'm so sorry.

Would you forgive me?

Mom, I can exercise with you.

We'll go on walks

and I'll jog if you want.

That would be great.

I would love that.

You and me, we're going to make it

right?

Right.

And we can talk about Dad.

I'm a lot braver now.

I'm going home with my mom now

but I'll be back to play, okay?

Not in the morning, because school's starting.

But after school, sometimes

if I don't have too much homework.

And every Sunday with my mom for pancakes.

Mee...

Bye.

Well, it's just you and me now, kiddo.

But you know what?

We're still going to have fun, just like we always have.

We'll swim and we'll take our walks

and we'll sing and we'll read stories...

Maybe we'll pick out some new wallpaper for your room, hmm?

I wouldn't trade one minute we've had together.

Not for all the tea in China.

Do you know how much tea there is in China?

Oh.

You make my days, you know that?

Yeah, she knows.

She wants you to know she says thank you for her life.

She's glad you're her mom.

She's glad she's here.

She wouldn't trade you, either.

She loves you, Dianne.

Oh, Amy...

thank you.

Thank you.

Thought I'd find you here.

Hi.

How are you?

I haven't seen you lately.

Hannah's been bringing Julia by.

Oh, yeah. I didn't want to drive 'cause my knee...

Ah, yes. I talked to Dr. Lawry,

He's pretty happy with your progress.

Well, as long as he's happy...

Do you have a minute?

Or an hour, really?

I made an offer on a house.

I need someone's excellent opinion.

Sure.

Do you mind?

Yeah, no. No.

Wow.

It's great.

Nice door... oh...

Well, that's easy to fix.

There's good light.

You could do floor-to-ceiling bookshelves right here.

Yes.

I could... I could do that.

You could take these doors off.

You know, have open shelves?

Or I can make you new ones.

I like the ones in Hannah's kitchen.

My dad did those.

This is what sold me-- this room here.

It could be a bedroom.

It's two steps from the kitchen.

It's got an outside door right there.

It's connected to the bathroom.

It would save your back.

My back?

Yeah, if this were Julia's room.

You wouldn't have to carry her up and down the stairs.

I've seen you at your mother's house.

You probably go up and down, like, a dozen times a day.

Not a very romantic proposal, is it?

Marry me and eliminate lower back pain.

It's not how I was going to say it.

I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to, uh...

I thought it was too late.

I thought I missed my chance.

I love you.

I want to marry you

I want to adopt Julia

and I want to live in this house together.

As a family.

That's what I... I want.

That and bookshelves.

What about you?

That's what I've always wanted.

Why has it taken me so long to see it?

Hey, guys!

Hi.

Welcome. Thanks.

Hi, Julia. Hi, Hannah.

Hey, Martha.

Hi.

Glad you got here.

Yeah, you've been waiting for her.

Listen, can you stay with her for a second?

I want to help Dianne, if I can find here.

Oh, there you are.

I think everyone's here.

Hey, look.

There she is.

Hello.

Good to see you.

Over here. Picture.

Everybody's looking this way now.

And... smile.

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